WEEKLY TAG WEDNESDAY - FIRSTS!
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Name: Michelle
Age: Currently getting a kick out of telling people that Iām nearly 40 and having them go āNO WAY!!!ā - Itās funny and flattering :)
First Pet: Siberian gerbils called Tom & Jerry
First Word: No idea. Turns out my parents kept a baby book for my older brother where they painstakingly recorded all of that stuff. I found mine a few years ago and itās got a grand total of 3 entries, one of which is talking about how chubby I am, and how I am yet to find a food Iāll say no to, and letās hope thatās not a sign of things to comeā¦ after which it was abandoned. Thanks mum.
First Celebrity Crush: Leonardo DiCaprio
First IRL Crush: Dominik. We hung out basically every day after school. I would go round to his house and he would play me the latest Michael Jackson tape and show me new dance steps that heād taught himself. I thought he was so cool.
First Kiss: Age 14 with my first boyfriend. He was 20 years old. We were in a relationship for over a year. Shit was fucked up. At the risk of repeating myselfā¦ Thanks mum.
First Car: Bebop š Heās my baby and I bought him this year and I love him! Heās a turquoise 2013 Toyota Yaris Hybrid.
First apartment/house/dorm/whatever away from your parents: Heh. I moved straight from my childhood bedroom to a different country. If youāre gonna do something, do it right! lol
First Time on a Plane: I wasā¦ 18 months old? Parents went on holidays to Florida. I have about 3 memories from that trip.
First Cellphone: Nokia 3210 š
First Concert: David Hasselhoff. I was maybeā¦ 6? And I got very tired and slept through the second half, but my parents woke me up for Looking for Freedom, which was my favourite song of his.
First Foreign country you visited? Italy or France most likely. Pure proximity, and most of our family vacations were done by car from Switzerland soā¦
First sport you ever played? Hmm. I did competitive swimming when I was very young. And then gymnastics. And after thatā¦ about five minutes of football (the only sport I to this day do not understand. How do I run AND kick a ball simultaneously?!?), then 3 years of tennis, 2 years of basketball, 8 years of roller hockey, and a whole smattering of other sports on and off.
First career aspiration? I meanā¦ I basically wanted to be a Disney Princess, purely for the Animal Best Friend aspect! And then any form of Animal Whisperer would have done the trick. I watched all the TV shows and movies where characters had magical bonds with animals, and I wanted that. And then I realised that the characters in the shows and movies arenāt real, but the people training and handling those animals *are*. However that wasnāt something realistic to aspire to, being Swiss, so instead I became a bookseller (somehow that made sense at the timeā¦ š¤·š½āāļø). And then 15 years later, in a different country and a different life, I did end up training animals for TV and film. So thatās kinda nifty.
And finallyā¦ tell me about the first time you wrote/drew/created/whatever something that made you think āwowā
Hmmm. I dunno. I thought I was really fucking talented when I was about 12. I wrote a novel and sent it to publishing houses and literary agencies. One of them invited me for an interview, because they thought my writing was great and they wanted to meet the kid that had sent them a manuscript aged 12/13. They ended up giving me a job, working as a admin/secretary/slush pile reader. They also gave me lots of feedback and constructive criticism on my writing. I scrapped the novel I had sent them in favour of writing a different, better novel. I still think that novel was pretty fucking good. I tried to get my mum to proof read it and give me feedback so I could do any necessary corrections before I spent my pocket money on photocopies, C4 envelopes, and a whole bunch of stamps so I could attempt to get it published again. She was dragging her feet and I tried to explain the urgency, because I was clear that it needed to happen before I turned 14. That was the goal in my head. I had huge ambitions and dreams. I was also convinced that if it happened after I turned 14 it wouldnāt be special anymore. Like anyone could do it after 14ā¦ š In response to this my mum told me that sheād had ambition and dreams, too, when she was my age. But not to worry, thatāll go away, and once youāve put away the fanciful notions of being talented then you can just get on with your lifeā¦
Not sure if this actually answers the question, but that was kinda the first and last time I remember feeling uncomplicatedly good about and proud of something I created. After this anything creative I did was always immediately followed by the doubt of āis this actually good, or is this just a fanciful notion I have about being talented, when in actual fact it sucks?ā š¤·š½āāļø
Wow. Ended that on a downer, didnāt I?
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Ermā¦ I wrote Tell me weāll never get used to it,
Theyāre the only two people left that know what itās like to have loved and to have lost a Lightwood.
And itās a good story.
There.
I said itā¦
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Reading the reviews for #KimberlyAkimbo is an argument why we need cultural diversity In reviewers. I intentionally went into the new musical without knowing anything about it. I left the show feeling the same way. #WTF was that? (Unlike privileged critics I actually pay to see things so I am invested in wanting to enjoy it. And I am not invested in the industry for access or employment)
During the second act, I found myself thinkingā¦
š¤Who is the audience for this musical?
š¤What is the point of this intellectual exercise?
š¤ Is this even a musical? Itās more like indie play set to music.
š¤Am I being punkād?
I can do weird. I LOVE weird. I donāt like specious.
The play is about Kimberly Levaco, born with a genetic aging disorder akin to progeria, appears to be in her 60s even though sheās just turning 16. Her father is an alcoholic, her mom is ridiculous and her aunt is a vicious con woman on the run. What happens next is really hard to state.
Once upon a time āartificialityā in musical theater was meant to underscore the āhigher truthsā or illuminate the storytelling. Now writers and producers are simply exploiting the gaps in our cultural education.
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multicultural cast without an ethnic backstory
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profanity
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positive psychology
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gay stock characters as comic relief
āmeaningful hummable songs
āreinvention
ādurable, fully realized characters
ācohesiveness
Itās a hollow bunny! šš
The one rave is for actress Victoria Clark, 62, who sings & transforms in the role of a 15-year-old so beautifully you will root for her to be in a better show.
At this performance, I was surrounded by school teachers, who put on high school productions in the burbs, boasting how this show was worth the $24 they paid, due to some union perk. I rest my case.
P.S. KA debuted in 2019 Off-Broadway and was a critical darling. I donāt what was added or altered when it came to #Broadway. But if you can get a $24 ticket have at it. š¤·š½āāļø
P.S.S. I am assured there are folks who absolutely enjoyed this newly adapted work. You be your own judge. Thatās the thing about theater, we all experience the same thing differently.
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The Amazing Happened When She Found Her Manifestation Powers
Itās so fun helping clients discover they create their reality. I love participating in that unfolding. When such people discover their manifestation power, they realize they can create what they thought was impossible. Then their lives get really fun.
Of course, everything is possible. The only things keeping some things impossible are beliefs we hold. āThatās impossibleā is a self-fulfilling prophesy.
Things change though when someone discovers they stand at the center of the Universe. There they realize they create everything around them. Including all the lovers they wantā¦or the lack thereof. š¤·š½āāļø
Stories are powerful
One clientās personal experience showed how powerful, or disempowering, beliefs can be. She started practicing with me 36 sessions ago. Last week, something happened that amazed her.
During those 36 weeks, Jennifer (not her real name) uncovered many disempowering beliefs. They included beliefs about dating, about men, about menās intentions. But they also included beliefs about Jennifer herself. These included beliefs like the following:
Iām not good enough to get what I want
Iām too fat to get the guy I want
Men only want me for sex
Iām too old
Timeās running out for me to find a guy
I never can find the right guy I want
Taken together these beliefs created Jenniferās reality. What did that reality look like? One where men she met wanted her for sex only. Several often called her, but only when drunk. They demanded sexually explicit texts, wouldnāt talk on the phone, and when Jennifer pushed the issue, they would ghost her. Others made promises to meet in person, only to disappear later.
No wonder Jennifer, who happens to be transgender, formed negative beliefs about dating, about men and about menās intentions.
Itās not that her beliefs werenāt true. After all, she formed many of them from past experience. But if Jennifer wants what she wants, she canāt expect to get it while holding beliefs about what she doesnāt want,Ā no matter how true they are.
Beliefs are powerful. They can create more of the same. Or they can create what you want.
^^Abraham puts it plain. You get what you look at because what you look at forms your beliefs.
Choose: get what you want or be right
Jennifer had a choice. She could talk about whatās true and be right. Or she could create beliefs and talk about what she wants and get that.
For example, one belief she had about men was āIāll never meet a nice guy locallyā. Every guy she had met, she met through OKCupid. Desperation had her using online dating. No matter how many times I told her onlineĀ dating works terribly, she kept using it.
Thatās because she also believed it was the only way she met men. See how beliefs create reality? Herās about not meeting local guys had her believing she could only meet men online. So thatās how she met them. And, the men she met there showed up consistent with her other beliefs. Especially beliefs about herself as a transgender woman.
The online experience only amplified her frustration, which in turn reinforced her beliefs. Again, Jennifer canāt entertain beliefs about her past and get what she wants. Instead, she must focus on what she wants. Thatās what we focused on in the ensuing 36 sessions.
^^Itās amazing how many people prefer being right than get what they want, which is why they end up on medications, lonely or unhappy in life. (Photo by Molnar Balint)
Evidence starts proving it works
Over time, Jenniferās new, empowering beliefs started creating realities consistent with themselves. It was rough going at first. Often Jennifer reinforced her old ones more than energizing new, more empowering ones.
However, thereās something cool about telling positive stories. Such stories enjoy enormous creative potential. You see, the Universe wants everyone to enjoy what they want, no exceptions. So when someone lines up with what they want by telling positive stories about it, they become a match to that. Then, that person gradually starts seeing evidence of what they want showing up everywhere.
Thatās what happened with Jennifer. For example, men started waving at her as she walked down the street. Every time it happened, she said, she looked behind her to see if the guys were waving at someone else. Nope, they waved at her.
Or the male barista at the drive up kiosk would chat Jennifer up, where before he would ignore her. Another time a gas station attendant complimented her nails. And another time, a male restaurant sever paid particular attention to her as he attended the table she sat at with friends.
Ordinary people chalk these examples up to ācoincidenceā or some other logical explanation.Ā But thereās no such thing as coincidence and logic has nothing to do with it!Ā Everything happensĀ on purpose. The purpose is reflecting back beliefs one tells about whatās happening.
The more Jennifer got this, the more such things happened.
Evidence grows more insistent
Until one day while walking her dog at the local dog park, a man who also had his dog approached her. He said hi and Jennifer returned the greeting. They enjoyed a nice conversation while their dogs played. Afterward, the guy said āOh, dude, I gotta go. Iām late.ā
Now Jennifer interpreted that as the guy misgendering her. We donāt know what his intentions really were, but I told her telling such a story was not in her best interest.
āItās better to make up a story that you feel better about,ā I said.
āLike what?ā She asked.
āLike āthe guy was using ādudeā like some people do. Itās just a figure of speech, like an exclamationā,ā I replied.
At first, Jennifer didnāt like that new story. But after some cajoling she admitted it felt better than the knee-jerk story she wanted to tell.
I told her telling such stories would create the next evidence that would knock Jenniferās socks off.
And thatās exactly what happened next.
^^Every one can enjoy a relationship that knocks their socks off. Unless their beliefs run contrary to having that enjoyment. (Photo by Jeremy Bishop)
It bowls you overĀ
Jennifer had other beliefs not related to men and dating. These needed attention too. The combination of beliefs, what I call aĀ Belief Constellation, creates everyoneās reality. Jenniferās constellation included many negative beliefs about her work and her manager. Those beliefs kept Jennifer on edge, defensive and feeling like a victim.
Feeling on edge, defensive and victimhood makes one a match to situations that exacerbate feeling those ways. And not just work situations, dating situations too. Thatās why we needed to soothe Jenniferās work beliefs too.
That took a while, but the better Jennifer felt, the more she wanted to do the practice. In time, evidence at work convinced her more and more her new beliefs were working.
Her boss complimented her more and more. She gave Jennifer more responsibilities. When Jennifer announced she was looking for openings in other departments, her manager offered to reclassify her job so she could get more pay. Finally, her manager came out and told Jennifer how much she valued her and how much she wanted Jennifer to stay.
Evidence at work was bowling Jennifer over. It amazed her that simply telling positive stories could literallyĀ change her relationship with her boss!
Then one day Jennifer texted me from work telling me how a process I taught her ā called PRE-PAVING ā helped change her work experience. In the text, she misspells it as āpreparingā:
Then it happened
Riding on that positive momentum created what happened next. Jennifer felt good about changes happening at work. So much so, she softened on the idea that she couldnāt meet men in person. She started acknowledging evidence showing she was meeting men. Itās just that she hadnāt soothed negative beliefs enough to have such men approach her in person.
That all changed rather suddenly.
A few days after a remarkably powerful session, Jennifer sent me a text. It was awesome:
Many layers prove how powerful this experience was for Jennifer. For one, she didnāt have to do ANYTHING to meet this LOCAL, GORGEOUS guy other than follow her intuition to take Rocco out for walk. Second, thereās NO WAY ON EARTH she could have deliberately sought out this guy. It could only happen this way, a perfect orchestration of her unfolding reality.
Third, the guy did all the work. He approached her and initiated a conversation. But most of all, whatās super awesome about this rendezvous, is through it, Jennifer realized yet another belief she needs to clean up:
āHeās out of my league.ā
However, even though that happened, she still had an experience totally contrary to EVERY experience she had in the past.
Every encounter a stepping stone
Itās really important at the point of receiving this experience that Jennifer enjoy the experience. Negatively judging herself does no good. Neither does harsh self-criticism about not doing something she thought she should have done. Everything worked perfectly here because this rendezvous wasnāt meant to be the perfect match or the perfect lover.
What it was, was an experience clarifying for Jennifer where she is on the path to becoming the perfect match to her perfect lover. How else will she know what disempowering beliefs remain in her constellation, if she doesnāt get to see her constellation in action? This experience worked perfectly.
It encouraged her. It created more desire in her. The fact that it happened gladdened her, inspiring her to the possibility that more such experiences can happen. It was a local connection! Something she thought impossible. And it showed that gorgeous men show interest in her.
So many disempowering beliefs got a dose of positivity just through this one experience. And so long as she remains in all these powerfully positive interpretations, Jennifer makes herself a match to more such experiences in the future.
Every client gets it
I love it when these kinds of things happen for my clients. Every client enjoys this kind of progression on their way to the love, the life, their greatest desires.
Everything is possible. Including having a relationship matching oneās wildest dreams. Nothing stands in the way of whatever anyone wants other than beliefs a person tells that are contrary to whatās wanted.
Clean those beliefs up though and watch how remarkable life gets.
Life is a wish-granting jewel. No matter what one wishes for, one can have it. One only need become a match to it, then draw that which is wished for to them as they hold themselves as a match to it.
I show clients how to do that. Itās easy, itās fun and it works. Every time. You ready for your true love, your version of theĀ Charmed LifeĀ Jenniferās creating?Ā I can help.
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