his kisses always tasted like goodbye. every thrust felt like farewell. you knew from the start this wouldn't go past a sexual relationship, but it hurt so fucking bad. every time you remember the nights spent together, you come to the same conclusion: he wants you but he is unable to have a romantic partner.
why did he make time for you then? why did he trust you as much as he did? sometimes he looks at you so intently, with a glint in his big brown eyes that screams 'i love you but i can't be near you'
what was he so afraid of? you asked him this once, and he gave you an answer that had nothing to do with your initial question. "you're too young to be occupied with someone like me. you deserve to live. go out and make friends."
"i don't want friends. i want you."
he said nothing, and the lit end of his cigarette laughs at you.
you like pain though, and you love him. maybe thats why he never hears 'no' from you, or an 'im busy', or 'not tonight'.
its addicting, the way he holds you. the way he hugs you tight to his chest as he fucks into you. simon riley would never lie to you, which is why he never verbally tells you he only wants a fuck-buddy.
he longs for you. when overseas, you plague his mind. your eyes, your reassuring smile, the innocence surrounding your persona. someone as tainted as him does not deserve to be accompanied by someone like you. it bothers him that you have now claimed a piece of his heart as yours. he can't, or he won't, take that away from you.
pillow talk was painfulโ conversations about elopement, a home...children. it was all too intimate, he cringes because he can't give you this. you stick around, he doesn't know why. he prepares himself to find an empty, cold apartment whenever he comes home. but every time your stuff is still there. fluffy slippers, candles, scrunchies, toothbrush. you're patient. you know that it will take time for him to accept your love.
you'll stay until his kisses no longer feel like they'll be the last ones.
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a/n: oh would you look at the time!!!๐โโ๏ธ๐จ๐จ๐จ
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i remember creating a network for jujutsu kaisen omg i kind of have the urge to create one for skz... ๐งโโ๏ธ
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in the summer, billy goes on shirtless jogs through loch nora & everyone thinks itโs so he can catch the eyes of rich mothers & flirt with them when in reality itโs because he hopes that steve is on the same page as all the moms & secretly ogles him through the window, or maybe heโll catch him outside one day, washing the beemer & billy will stop & tease him & get some nice long looks at him through his aviators & then relish in it for the next week because any sort of contact with steve will keep him revved up for days
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i've been picturing thiam with kids and my brain somehow decided that theo is the fun dad and liam is the strict one. . . idk why
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if reader needs to be consoled in 3tanW, cockwarming can help show support since it allows face-to-face conversation in a hushed manner so as not to disturb bro others who may be sleeping ๐๐๐
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I was trying to make friends so I said hello to a girl sitting near me and she immediately put in her air pods and looked away after greeting me
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it shouldโve been stephanie hsu or angela bassett
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no bc going from childe & ayato (read: rich water big booba man) to alhaitham HAS to have itโs own pipeline
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