#(having a hyperfixation that turned into a special interest)

[enhanced-operatives-division]

Improvement :3

#turns out practice does work....who would have thought .. apparently not me... #im very proud I've stayed with it #me??? actually liking ny art??? and seeing myself improve more than i have in a year within a couple months?????????? #what a good hyperfixation/special interest does to you/silly #alas i need to keep branching out to the other ieytd characters because i wanna work on my fabby design #i have a hard time with costume and um she is literally THE fashion girlie so. i gotta work on that #because she DESERVES IT DAMNIT #also still working on a mental image for zor...sigh #im really into the vitti as zor theory and that 'zor' is a role/title that's kinna passed on....idk...i have thoughts..... #but yeah zor is so painfully human to me but also is trying to not be drives me up the WALL #THAT'S ANOTHER POSTS RANT how did i get here #alas #ieytd #[agent moose's art] #THAT'S IT not individually tagging these doodles? drawings? are not good enough for that #i don't have. the urge to draw in full colour rn <- so so so so busy <- leaves secondary education in less than 2 months #alas. I'm surviving. and very excited about next steps. just gotta get through. via ieytd. it's becoming my mantra #i keep saying i should make designs for solaris and redo my fabby so i can have triple threat explaining science to me on my flashcards #im. coping in my own special way

[danothan]

if and when i steal barry as an oc, i am going to name them teddy. get it. like 🧸 yeahh you get it

#i love that ppl have kinsonas or turn their blorbos into not-at-all-veiled ocs #it’s my back up plan for hal and barry (and nika and some robins etc) if this ship ever sinks #which i don’t rly see happening any time soon if at all but i always have to install a failsafe for a hyperfixation #(this one isn’t rly feeling like a hypfix tho im gonna be so real with you guys. i feel like we’re veering into special interest territory) #dc #danbles #⚡️

[multifandomfanficss2]

It has been like 8 months and I can’t go a day, let alone an hour without thinking about Adrian Chase. He consumes most of my thoughts. Head empty except he’s rattling around in there feeding Eagly chips and doing his famous butt dance.

#hyperfixation? #maybe this is turning into more of a special interest… #I thought he was my boy of the month but I should have had a new one 7 months ago #he brings me a childlike happiness I haven’t know since I was 12 #i love him ur honor #freddie stroma #adrian chase #peacemaker #vigilante #peacemaker hbo max

[arrowlock]

most of my past hyperfixations have been pieces of media with a fandom i could interact with but it seems that plane crashes dont have the same cult following of gay people

#somebody help im so deep in this hyperfix now #its turning into a special interest #and the only other ppl ive ever met who know this much about airplanes have been old republican men </3 #also im not as interested in the smaller airplanes or fighter jets im more interested in commercial ones #so that eliminates a whole other group of aviation enthusiasts to talk to #anywasy. feeling so autism.

[4th-d-slipped]

calculating the max base stats of the mother 1 party members for smthn and

[Image ID: A screenshot of a table in Google Docs showing Ninten's max base stat totals. All of them, except for HP and PP, are 348. End ID]

why he like that

#mother 1 #you know the hyperfix/probably special interest is strong when its got the bitch with discalculia doing math for it #that being said keyword here is discalculia. if i got this wrong 4 the love of god tell me #also ig this can count as an adderall update. i realized hey hyperfixating that strongly for 10 hours is probably not how its sposed to wor #and then it turns out they put me on way too fucking much so now im on a half dose and normal again. yay #but im still having a real data inputting kick so im just doin this shit for fun just like. being normal and taking breaks this time #the audhd suspicions are rising very quickly this week bc of this and my doc referring me to get an autism test

[justpollux]

i SHOULD work on my nanowrimo novel or at least crocheting but I just wanna daydream about go nitro

#lowkey i hope this turns into a special interest #and not just a hyperfixation #havent had a SpIn to be creative with since sand3rs sid3s #and relating EVERYTHING to them is usually a sign #but i did it with animaniacs too and that only lasted a month #PLEASE give me another creative outlet and characters to obsess over #i want to be obsessed again #pollux posts #i do rly need to crochet though i think i have a show in like 2 weeks oop #and i need to set up my store

[flingza-roller]

IM LIKE. FUCKING VIBRATING WITH EXCITEMENT i havent felt this alive since octo expansion came out. what a RUSH

#text #u have no fucking idea splatoon is like my biggest special interest AND hyperfixation and it means the world to me #im just so. ajfgjsgjsgjsg #literally cannot stop happy stimming #hehehehehehehe #im turning into a squid

[boykisses]

not autistic but i believe in their beliefs.

#genuinely don’t know if i am autistic or some combination of adhd social anxiety and ocd makes me behave autistically #but at that point does it really matter #i mean i’m alright at reading social cues and tones and such within familiar contexts #but if i was bad at it i wouldn’t even realize it would i? #so who knows #it doesn’t matter that much to me whether or not i *actually* am autistic because even if i don’t then i am holding hands and kissing #autistic people so much because we have a lot in common and our struggles are very similar #i have a hard time taking ‘turns’ talking in conversation #i cycle through hyperfixations and it can be difficult to talk or focus on anything else #i have ‘special interests’ #and i struggle socially because i have a hard time paying attention enough to pick up on subtle social cues #and when i’m anxious i have an especially hard time picking up on social cues

[allbuthuman]

i have to accept that there is a significant part of me that will never be grasped by someone who has only ever enjoyed things casually and doesn't obsess/hyperfixate/whatever is the most fitting term. it's how i've always been ever since i have memories of myself and, while i can't explain it to someone whose brain doesn't work like that, such big part of who i am and my self-image is nothing but a collage of things i like/liked, that i do think a person who hasn't experienced something similar can't really grasp me

#i used to refrain from saying hyperfixation or special interest #and i still usually just say obsession #because i don't know what kind of nd i am and even if i am ''recognisably'' nd for sure #but i and others who know me believe that the significance of how i experience obsessiveness is worth those terms #and i know most people aren't like this but it's still kind of crushing when someone visibly doesn't understand #my sister is among the people who have experienced how i am the longest #she's even been there for my elementary school obsessions when i was less embarrassed #and a while ago she was like ''i don't understand why you keep telling me about that'' #''i don't understand why you're wearing that thing for that reason'' #or when i was semi-infodumping and she said something in the spirit of #''talk to me about something that will let me contribute to the conversation'' #which is not even on her this isn't a complaint on her behaviour #just a reminder that oh you're right most people aren't like this #sorry this turned into a ramble why are u still here <3 #σ

[thenarryparable]

I'm so fucking MMMMMM STUPID.

#I love him so much I can't express why either because not even I know #Like idk I just find comfort just you know him existing and interacting with my little rose gremlin #BUT ALSO HER #she so sweet. Honestly. #Even though she teases the hell out of poor rosiebsjsbssjbs #Okay maybe I am having a 'okay I got into something that you made but I'm so embarrassed about it & so worried that you'll freak out #and leave so I refuse to talk about it and will only do so through vague posts that keep getting less vague but that's because I like that #you are catching onto me but I still will not talk about it with words because I am embarrassed' #moment.. #I'm so ashameddddd. SO ASHAMED. I ALSO HATE THAT I CAN'T CONTROL ANY OF THIS AND IF I REPRESS THIS THEN IM GONNA GET UPSET AND STRESSED. #Also turns out...this is a special interest not a hyperfixation which is interesting. I think it interesting....oh god that's even worse :( #you know that shouldnt be a bad thing and all BUT I FEEL BAD.

[rhinco]

due to Circumstances* i don't know the exact date i properly started playing genshin but since venti's birthday message is the first one i have on my account im making today my one year of playing genshin day <3

#*circumstances being that i first made my acc in february 2021 #but didnt get into it until around june #so i got all the starters in feb but idk exactly when i actually started Playing The Game #(having a hyperfixation that turned into a special interest) #anyways. happy 1 year of genshin to me I love to hate this game

[24-guy]

Saw AU one-shot in the works. >:)

#j is talking again #im writing it similarly to a saw movie so opening kill - trap plot and external plot taking turns around each other - reveal of the killer #because special interest meets current hyperfixation go brrr #saw is the special interest and npmd is the current hyperfixation... if you couldnt tell #it will be my most self indulgent fanfic and i doubt many will enjoy it in comparison to my other stuff since... you know... #more blood and guts than my usual fluff and angst but like #fanfic is subjective and indulgent at its core #and i write for myself #yes ill somehow work michie into it trust me trust me trust me #they're my favourites how could i not do it #:DDDDDDD #i have MANY ideas and thoughts and everything okay

[yawnderu]

honestly i would die for bimbo!reader to have some sort of Legally Blonde level of intelligence but for the stupidest, most useless shit. no, she can't remember which knob turns on which burner for the stove, but she can tell you the effects of different chemical compounds found in all her favorite skincare products and now they react to an individuals derma-layer. simon once caught her watching a screensaver on TV for 30 min because she thought it was "a reeeeally slow nature documentary /:", but she's fluent in Korean because she got super into Korean make up brands from her favorite influencers and wanted to be able to read the product ingredients/reviews/tutorials, it just never gets brought up otherwise and when someone asks in disbelief she's all "what, like it's hard?"

and simon is just sooooo so so proud of his smart pretty girl. who cares that she thought soap's parents legally named him after a dishwashing product. can mactavish tell him how to tell dupes from authentic handbags based on the inner stitching that can only be done on machines specially made by Italian companies? no? then shut the fuck up. tell us more about glitter lipgloss, beautiful.

Absolutely!! She may be dim-witted when it comes to certain things, but she's not exactly dumb at all. This girl could recite the laws of astrophysics and solve complex mathematical problems while being piss drunk.

Simon is still amazed by how complex his sweet girl is— he knows she isn't stupid, yet it never fails to surprise him how you start speaking to MacTavish in fluent Scottish Gaelic, only offering the explanation that you learnt it because a character on your favorite movie spoke it once, looking at him like he grew a second head when he sheepishly told you most scottish people don't speak Gaelic anymore.

Sure, you may have thought movies were real and used to avoid watching them because you thought the actors were actually getting killed and you didn't want to support that, yet a window of your house is full of math equations that gave him a headache just by looking at them.

I'd say Simon sees bimbo!reader as a box full of surprises, telling him about something new every single time you have a conversation. How did you get into studying astrophysics? You got the highest score in the university admission exam and saw a poster that was shiny and had cute stars and a pretty nebula!! How could you resist when everything about it called for you?

Mhm, the smell of gunpowder and blood that sticks to him no matter what is such an odd perfume, yet it surely has an interesting molecular makeup! Of course it does, pretty girl.

They complement each other so well because Simon has the street smarts she's lacking, and she has the book smarts Simon doesn't. She can be extremely ditzy, but who cares when she can tell him exactly which inks are recommended for his skin and which chemicals can rough up his face? He had to buy a brand-new eye black stick simply because you could tell the materials used on it by applying it on your hand with a frown.

I'd like to imagine her as someone with lots of odd interests, knowledge and hyperfixations in the dumbest things besides the universe. He has to keep up with you buying materials for making bracelets and keeping a room full of dinosaur plushies.

Bimbo!Reader Masterlist

#ghost mw2 #cod mwii #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #call of duty #simon riley #stray answers #cod mw2 #simon ghost x reader #simon riley x reader #ghost x bimbo!reader #simon riley x bimbo!reader #bimbo!reader #simon x reader #simon fluff #ghost simon riley #simon riley x f!reader #simon riley x you #simon riley imagine #simon riley x y/n #ghost call of duty #cod headcanons #ghost x reader #simon ghost fluff #mw2 fanfic #mw2 #call of duty modern warfare #cod #call of duty modern warfare 2 #ghost mw3

[moondragon618]

I kind of regret panic-deleting 90% of my blog L

#idk anxiety got bad ig #bc of certain recent/current events which are not great and rather triggering #past few days have been rough to say the least #I tried really hard to bail completely and like. Reactivate my owl house hyperfixation or smth #it uh. didn't work #c!primeboys have been integrated into the fabric of my being ig bc I just can't let go of them #idk maybe it's a special interest rather than just a hyperfixation? I kind of suspect that I might be autistic so #I won't be posting about them for a while ofc bc that would be in poor taste I think #I hope this isn't coming across as selfish or anything bc I do have full sympathy for the victim(s?) in this situation #and regardless of how it turns out I can't support cc!dream ever again #idek if I can still enjoy c!dream like I used to anymore and I hate that so much #and I had so many ideas I wanted to write yk #I was an absolute lurker until I found this fandom #I love this fandom sm and I hate to see it crash and burn like this #I didn't delete my fic btw. Didn't have the heart to #it is hidden tho bc my ao3 account is still suspended L #maybe when it's back up I'll post a new link. but like untagged ig #idk I'm not sure what to do really #I actually do feel bad for breaking that one analysis post tho sry to everyone who reblogged it and now most of it is just gone #bc I deleted it L #anyway I think I've calmed down enough to not do anymore panic deleting now #so that's my thoughts ig

[a-sip-of-milo]

Need a reason to live?

Recently, I made four polls with eleven reasons to live in each. Most of those reasons were given to me by people who have also been suicidal in the past, and I decided to compile them into one long list (plus some) for anyone who needs it to come back to when they're out of reasons to keep going.

⚠️ Disclaimer: Please do not turn this into one of those "ALWAYS REBLOG IF YOU SEE" posts. Thank you. ⚠️

Relationships

Your furry companion(s) (this means pets and friends who are furries <3)

Your friends

Your family

Those who look up to you

To reconnect with someone you haven't seen in a while

Your headmates (specific to those who are apart of systems)

There's someone who isn't around anymore who would want you to keep going

To eventually be a mentor to someone

To make sure your animals never have to sleep alone

To fall in love

Your partner

To meet your online friends/mutuals

To tell your mentor/the people who raised you with kindness that you made it

To see someone close to you through their final days

To make it big enough to eventually provide for those you care about

Your FP (personality disorder specific)

Group photos with your (found) family and friends

To help your friends do the same

The friends you've yet to meet

A promise you made to someone special

Acts of kindness

To be there when someone needs you

To see someone smile because of you

To make a stranger's day a little brighter

To hand out compliments to those who need it

To make the world a little bit better before you go

To treat the people around you the way you wish you'd been treated

To be the one person in someone's life who is there unconditionally.

To help someone you love to quit an addiction

To do charitable deeds

Affection

Hugs from someone you trust

Kisses from a partner, close friend or pet

Cuddles when it's cold/lonely

To laugh until your stomach hurts

Forehead touches

To hold someone so tight that they're wheezing

Doting on people when they're feeling down

To make the people around you laugh

Interests

That new game/movie/show/book/album/etc. that you’ve been waiting for

Telling everyone and anyone who will listen about your special interest/hyperfixations

To share creations that aren't appreciated enough

To save up for something that would make life more bearable

To finally complete a collection

Projects would be left unfinished

To travel

To complete a project you've been working on for a long period of time

Projects you've yet to come up with

To start participating in special interests you've had to put on hold

To laugh at the creations you made when you were younger and less experienced

Those who consume your work would never get to see another creation of yours

Spite (because I think spite deserves Its own section:))

To stick it to your abusers

To prove your younger self wrong

To prove the people around you wrong

To prove your younger self right

To prove the people around you right

To spit on the grave of someone who hurt you

As a big 'fuck you' to the world and everyone in it who tried to silence you

To outlive your enemies

To do something that you've never been allowed to do (get a piercing, tattoo, cut or dye your hair, etc.)

To show off your success to the people who doubted you

To make sure whoever hurt you doesn't win

Milestones

You've got a milestone of some kind that you'd like to reach before you go

To see your (future) children reach a milestone of their own

To see a birthday you never thought you'd make it to

To graduate from school

To see your wounds from self-harm heal

To experience old age

To get married

To recover from your eating disorder

To experience independence

To start/complete your transition

To go on your first date

To get your first job

To adopt a child and give them the life that they deserve

To rescue a pet and give them a home

To purchase your first car

To rent/purchase your first house/apartment

To have your first child

To lose your virginity

To experience the joy of knowing you escaped/got through a bad situation

To eventually publish your own book/art piece/etc.

Miscellaneous

To finally get diagnosed with something important

So if nothing else, you can still say you survived

You have a bucket list you'd like to complete

To live because you want to, not because others want you to

Comfort drinks with someone you love

You wrote a letter to yourself that you can't open until a certain date/birthday

Those rare and valuable pieces of media with good representation of a minority/marginalised group.

To read through past conversations with people and cringe/laugh/cry.

All the different foods you've yet to try

To see the world become more accommodating to those who need it

To watch the seasons change

To celebrate the holidays

For those days where you do feel okay, perhaps even good

To eventually replace the stuff in your closet with things that represent who you are now

To read back on journals and diaries you made when you were younger

If you are not in a place where any of these help, that's more than okay as well. It will be here if and when you ever need it. Being suicidal can be extremely lonely and scary and we all deal with it in different ways.

If you have your own reason and you feel comfortable sharing it with me, let me know via asks or DM and it will be added as soon as I can 💞

#reasons to live #npd safe #bpd safe #did #osdd #tw eating disorders #tw self harm #tw death #tw abuse #mental health #positivity #neurodivergent #cluster b safe

[wordy-little-witch]

Thinking about Buggy, and the Cross Guild specifically.

Like. The fanfkcs are good. But I have yet to find some that touch on some generalized headcanons and the byproducts thereof.

Autistic Mihawk? YES!! But give me Mihawk who has more autistic traits than just the generalized blank stare and monotone voice. Give me Mihawk who, when actually invested in something, struggles with volume control. Give me Mihawk who can and WILL info dump when given a chance - about the history of swordsmanship, maybe even gardening, give him hyperfixations. Give him some textures he will just touch and touch and touch, and some which he'll quite literally shrivel up and die if he has to touch.

Crocodile has all his Bananwanis and maybe even breeds them? Yes! But give me Crocodile being a Reptile Dad. Give me Croc who loves on and trains the 'Wanis, who is adamant on their care and knowledgeable about them. Give me Crocodile who is trans and occasionally has moments of dysphoria even after Ivankov's miracle hormone treatment. He passes as Cis, sure, but sometimes the KNOWING is the worst. Give me Crocodile whose safe space is with his pets, who loves them and is loved by them in turn.

Buggy being smarter than he lets on is always peak. But people often boil it down to selective intelligence, and give him no other skill sets. Give me Buggy who is sensory seeking, autistic and whose special interests are in chemistry, explosives, circuses, and the like. Buggy who LOVES bright, clashing colors because it makes his eyes happy, who stims using his Devil Fruit, and who is actually a very good cook - he thinks of it as chemistry and art. He's had a LOT of practice as well.

Now let's mix them. Give me kinesthetic stimming Buggy and Mihawk. Give me them sharing their favorite stims and finding new ones. Give me them sharing in stimming, give me Buggy dragging Mihawk to the aerial equipment and teaching him to use it. Give me them just finding a niche and enjoying themselves. Give me Buggy and Mihawk finding a new common ground that neither expected but they are so so so happy for.

Give me Crocodile learning their likes and dislikes. Giving me him throwing out one waist coat without hesitation bc Buggy huggy him once, snuggled close and gagged when it touched his skin. Give me him replacing all the velvet in his room because this one kind is bad for Mihawk, but this other one is absolutely bewitching to the swordsman. Give me him just wordlessly putting up these multicolored fairy lights and not saying anything when Buggy asks him why, just pushes the clown down into the bed, clicks them on, and says "you need to calm down, you've been up since yesterday."

Give me Mihawk and Buggy in turn Recognizing when Croc had bad days and learning to help massage his stump. Give me Buggy experimenting with herbs and lotions until he makes one himself that will help with the pain and fits all the sensory needs of everyone involved.

Just. Yes. Cross Guild Poly. But give me the behind the scenes domestic stuff because THAT is where the dopamine is.

#buggy #dracule mihawk #sir crocodile #one piece #cross guild #autistic Buggy #autistic mihawk #cross guild polycule #domestic pirate polycule #*kisses your forehead for reading this far*