cancer is really rough. it feels so horrible to watch a person you love struggle against there own body and also the world just... goes on. I'm sorry you're going through this. if it's any consolation a lot of people (myself included) have been where you are and we're all rooting for your dad and thinking of you <3
thank you anon I really appreciate it 🫂 going through moments in the day where I almost have it together and the rest is just bargaining w the air trying to reverse it all. im so sorry you’ve been here too it’s fucking agony and I hope things are better for you and your family now ❤️❤️
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thinking about how one of the last things john ever tells dean is an admittance that the way he treated him was fucked. & of course this destroys dean and makes it so much harder for him to come to terms w his death right after and with his childhood in general bc he’s spent his entire life chasing after johns approval. he’s spent his entire life telling himself that the way he was treated was okay and justified and that their childhood was good because he could handle it and he was strong enough and that was how it had to be. he’s worshipped john as a hero and seen nothing wrong with any of it. because he’s had to. his entire life is built around this idea there’s nothing else. he’s his dads perfect soldier and punching bag and wife-replacement and suddenly his dads gone & he said he’s sorry and that he shouldn’t have treated dean that way. what the hell is he supposed to do now.
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Good news- I (kind of) understand how increases in crochet work now.
Bad news- we learn by doing and I have crocheted a slice of salami lol
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we live on a mountain
right at the top
there’s a beautiful view
from the top of the mountain
every morning i walk
towards the edge
and throw little things off
like car parts and bottles and cutlery
whatever i find
lying around
it’s become a habit
a way to start the day
i go through all this
before you wake up
so i can feel happier
to be safe up here with you
i go through all this
before you wake up
so i can feel happier
to be safe up here with you
it’s early morning
no one is awake
i’m back at my cliff
throwing things off
i listen to the sounds they make
on their way down
i follow with my eyes
until they crash
i imagine what my body would sound like
slamming
against those rocks
and when it lands
will my eyes
be closed or open?
i go through all this
before you wake up
so i can feel happier
to be safe up here with you
i go through all this
before you wake up
so i can feel happier
to be safe up here with you
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A guide to making ur writer happy! *the simps from the obey me ocs and modern aus storming in*
BUT ITS TRUE WE DO WANT UR OCS AND THE MODREN BOYS TO HOLD US AND WE DO LOVE U AND UR WORK! THE WAY U WRITE IS SO <33333
yeah i wish everyone could just take a minute to commit this to memory!! it might not feel like much to readers but for us writers it really does make a difference to hear some nice words instead of just seeing a heart notif that tells us nothing
also, things like being shy or not wanting to ruin your blog aesthetic or whatever are just very flimsy defences imo, bc you can either make a side blog, comment or send an anon ask, so yeah, that’s how i see it
anyway, i literally can’t complain about the modern au and oc simps bc they are the most vocal and interactive when it comes to asks and engagement in general; sure there’s a lot more modern au hype but that’s to be expected considering the ocs are well… ocs
also THANK YOU, I’M REALLY TRYING!!
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