Taylor Swift Meets Hockey RPF: Advent Calendar Day 23
The 3rd ficciest Taylor Swift song of all time is…
Song: Teardrops on My Guitar
Album: Taylor Swift
Year: 2006
Lyrics: https://genius.com/Taylor-swift-teardrops-on-my-guitar-lyrics
Ficciness Rank: #3
Well, put some pining in a blender and drink it up, it’s basically this song. At one point I made a “pining” playlist on iTunes and this was the only song on it. This song is so piney you can trim it with tinsel and put it in your living room for Christmas.
To be fair, this song does have some specifics that make it not great for hockey, which is what bumped it down to the #3 slot: I don’t have a pairing with a Drew in it, for one thing, and also most hockey guys can’t play guitar (unless they’re Adam Burish). But aside from those details, this is 100% top-quality grade-A pining fic. Even better, it’s pining for someone who keeps talking about a girl they like–in other words, the perfect setup for a hockey boy who’s haplessly fallen in love with his teammate.
Just gonna quote the opening as an illustration of the intensity of pine we’re dealing with here:
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing
Everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
UGH it’s so angsty, I love it. Faking a smile, classic; envying the girl who gets to date this person you so desperately want, uh-huh, we’ve all been there. Okay jumping to the third verse:
Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky 'cause
The physical details she includes, oh man. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Taylor Swift is masterful at conjuring that visceral bone-deep longing for someone you (think you) can’t have. And wanting the object of your love to be happy even if it isn’t with you, argh, our piner is caught in the worst (best) kind of martyrdom.
Because I probably shouldn’t quote the entire song, let’s take it home with the transition into the last chorus:
So I drive home alone
As I turn off the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight
'Cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who’s got enough for me to break my heart
That last line kills me, goodbye, I am dead. Bury me in the pine grove.
Pairing I’d assign to this song: I’m going all the way back to Hallsy and Ebs for this one, because this song feels like it needs a high school AU and they are the epitome of bumbling teenage boys (in the best way, of course. “Idiots to lovers” is a trope for a reason).
So this is a high school AU, and they’re in the same year because it’s fic and we can do whatever we want. They’ve been best friends for years now, and the most popular girl in school has just asked Taylor out. Jordan’s jealous, obviously, because everyone wants to get with her, but also he gets it–who wouldn’t want to ask Taylor out? He’s so good at hockey and so fun to be around and so good-looking and…oh no. What if it’s not the girl Jordan’s jealous of after all?
All of a sudden he’s noticing all this stuff about Taylor he never paid attention to before. The way Taylor’s eyes crinkle when he laughs. The way he’s always laughing at Jordan’s jokes, and the fluttery feeling Jordan gets in his stomach when it happens. The way Jordan can’t pay attention to anyone else when Taylor’s there, like the whole room is dim except where he’s sitting. Jordan is doomed.
He starts avoiding Taylor and his new girlfriend. He makes excuses to avoid group activities when they’ll be there, and he stays home playing the guitar that he’s always a little embarrassed to own. Like, he’s a jock, he doesn’t do emo music stuff, but all of a sudden songs are coming to him and they’re ridiculously sappy and angsty but he writes them down anyway.
Taylor and Jordan are best friends, though, and Taylor obviously notices when Jordan starts avoiding stuff. He comes over and confronts him at home. “What’s wrong?” he asks, eyes all sad and irresistible. “Do you not like Allison?” And Jordan wants to lie–wants to make up something bad about her, bad enough that Taylor wouldn’t want to date her anymore. Taylor would believe him; they’re best friends. He could get Taylor to be single again.
But he doesn’t really want that. It would just make Taylor sad, and eventually he’d start dating someone else; it wouldn’t get Jordan what he actually wants. There’s probably no way to get Jordan what he actually wants. But if he does try for it, he wants it to be by telling the truth, not by lying to the person who trusts him most in the world.
So he starts working harder on some of the things he’s been scribbling down. He polishes one of them up until it’s a whole cohesive song, one that he thinks isn’t actually terrible, maybe. And then he signs up for the school talent show. He’s gonna play it in front of the whole school, and if Taylor figures out who it’s about…well, Jordan can always deny it. Anywyay, he can’t actually be more miserable than he is right now, right?
He goes through with it, playing the song and singing even though he’s so nervous he feels like his throat is going to close up. The audience is such a blur that Jordan can’t see how any individual person is reacting, but the crowd loves it. A bunch of his friends come up to him afterwards to congratulate him. Taylor’s there but he’s weirdly quiet, and he hangs around once everyone else starts to leave. Finally it’s just the two of them, and Taylor looks at him kind of sideways and says, “That song…was it about me?”
Jordan takes his entire courage into his hands. “Yeah,” he says.
Taylor’s face melts into a smile. “Good,” he says, and steps in to kiss him.
Lyrics to title this story: Everything That We Should Be
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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love❤
In no particular order!
I Danced & Preoccupied - AJ Styles/Becky Lynch: I combined these 2 Preoccupied is a sequel and I feel that while you can read it as it's own fic, combining them just makes it even better.
Lighthouse - Zac Hanson/OFC (Everly Jordan): First lengthy fic for Hanson. And it just holds a special place for me.
All My Roads Lead to You - Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson: For me, this is my best 1D fic. I absolutely love it. I mean, I wish I would have done a few things differently, but it's just one of the best I've done in the last few years. (And I'm still stuck in the 90s, so there's also that)
Ten Years - Jonathan Toews/Patrick Kane: Definitely not my best writing wise. But the story is good. And I'm just so attached to them and the concept.
As the Days Go By - Patrick Sharp/ Adam Burish: Showing my age here because this one is only on LiveJournal!! I really should rewrite this one and put it on AO3. Anyways. I was heartbroken when Burish wasn't resigned with the Blackhawks many moons ago. So this started out as a comfort fic for me and just continued into something more.
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