#HOW R U CATCHING UP

[beautifel]

seems like my heart does nothing but break lately

#oh my god dont read the tags. it breaks for everyone :( but on a more personal level #for my gf whos sinking deeper into something n i cant even help bc im a wreck myself but i am so so scared to lose her #still havent even been able to book a psych appointment n i rlly dont know where to go with all these ..em*tions #Guys i rlly dont understand one thing. how come one random freak whos in ur life at some point can derail a whole person like eons later #jeopardise their whole future just by crossing some lines for funz i really dont understand this #not fair not fair at all this is evil #and becasue u got unlucky someone wanted to be disgusting u have to carry the consequences #i rly still cant even say it i still cant even write it #i dont even know how . irl the only perosn i told in some capacity #is dealing with her own trauma and i hate that jsut being understanding is not enoughlike #Wow Lmao Its just Funny How it Shapes You. & U Can Never bury it forever becuz it will always catch up to you😂😂😂😂😂😂 #AND THE PAST CAN NEVER BE ERASED 😃😃😁😁😂😂😂🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔪🔪 #at least my gf has been taking steps to deal with it for.3 yrs and i just never even #LOL i feel like such a coward but the sh*me and the g**lt associated with the Thing..r so overwhelming i cant even admit it #what would i even do at the psych appointment like straight up what am i gonna say Lol #hai iam here to process something i dont actually remember probably becasue i was a child but imnot sure. n id rather #kms than tell u how i know 😂. So thats also why my heart breaks. for that little girl who was a ball of shame i guess and no matter #how much i cognitively.like rationally know its not my fault the ball of shame n guilt is still there #n it swallows me every time i vaguely start 2 think about acknowledging the Th*ng #or whatever. And thats just my end of the deal but my gf has it worse genuinely bc she remembers everything n still has to see the freak #n it went on for yrs n her family doesnt know n heres the worst thing hes a beloved family member a sweet boy with struggles of his own #well i hope he walks into traffic for doing what he did to her

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload? #me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃 #listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook #i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort #to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop #being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol #i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like #let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and #make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works #ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil #ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations #bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess #its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively #health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by #medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary. #like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think #of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf #my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its #bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror #when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the #most me coded character to ever exist #unrelated

[lynxalon]

HOLY SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT THAT CRITROLE EP WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! im SO glad we had the set up of the last one so we could have the big thrills of this!!!!!!!!! this had everything!! it had ira's bad (and good!) decisions! it had sam's out of pocket wacky can shenanigans!! it had deception and sneaking! it had badass plays and some.. eye-catching talents 👀 it had gross shit that's kinda actually sad if u think about it! it had walking (running) away from explosions (NOT a sunglasses moment this was a loserfail) it had .. terrifying parents. it had imodna momence !! :D it even had some unprecedented wins for our typically fighty/flighty adventurers!!! i will ABSOLUTELY be watching that again come monday!!!!!!!!!!

#lynx speaks #cr spoilers #now to expand upon these!!! i am THRILLED that there has been a more overt notice of orym's hex 😏 #thats what i've been excited for for aaaaaaages i adore orym esp when he gets a little more fucked up #what can i say im a bit of an angst fan myself :D #fcg gave ira SUCH a bad time tho like CMON BBYYYYY 1 MINUTE ?!?!?!?!?!! yall r LUCKY yalls r cool af #also tho.... ira actually saving fearne like 👀 i see it!!! i think simply everyone likes fearne and everyone would save her 😎 #and team infiltrate i loooved imogen's use of that damn .. what was it called ? the damn static bomb that was sick as hell!!! #and hey!! both teams got in and out without anyone catching on that it was bells hells helping! #is that a first for bh? cause it sure feels like it TBH like the feywild malleus key stunt did NAWT go this smoothly #even with the bumps they had they did terrific frfr #esp with imogen setting up oryms badass fighter play and launda and chet setting each other up for success #and it does FEEL like imogen is more powerful on ruidus just from the plays she makes like the static spell and how it set Everyone up #to protect them all and keep their enemies in bad positions so that bh had good positions #they barely got hits and orym and chet took the brunt of it #they got out everoa and themselves without too much hassle and i'd say team mcfuckin 'splosion did pretty fucken well too #more damage on their side but. thatssss not their fault thats mainly on ira (and fcg 😂) #gosh. goshhh. what a good fucking episode. and sorrowlord zathuda. and liliana. fuck bro. #zathuda is SCARY #and liliana i meaaaaaaan. hun what did u THINK 🧐 imogen meant when she told u to run?? 🤔 'did she know' u know the answer to that. #i was definitely excited cause. we knew the volition were gonna fail in killing liliana. but i felt in my heart that she was gonna #feel betrayed by imogen. despite creating the scenario in which imogen must 'betray' her. #i LOVE fucked up mothers cant waaaaait to see what happens next !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[flustersluts]

how is everyone 2day then:)

#i have a free evening and ive been gravitating back towards tumblr lately... wanna catch up... #how r u bitches doing are you surviving #are you rotting #whats the 411 #whats the craic #flustersluts

[orcelito]

Ykno the common critique I've seen around is that trimax fights r hard to follow & such. And I've always had the kind of thought of like "I mean sometimes it can be confusing, but if u stop to study it it's really not that bad"

Having a fight analysis post kinda blow up tho I'm seeing ppl comment over and over in the tags about how hard it is to keep up with the fights... and I'm just like. Is it really that confusing? Like genuinely. I thought it was one of those overblown fan critiques but it seems like a Lot of people agree with it.

#speculation nation #in the original manga Yea fights were pretty hard. took me a Lot of squinting to figure out what actually happened with the Nebraskas #but idk most of the fights r just vibes. u follow along and feel what the characters r feeling and the fine details dont matter. #a lot of times i do end up flipping back and forth between pages bc there r details revealed later on that make earlier things make sense #or just looking for clarification. that kind of thing. #so yeah it kinda does take some work to fully understand it but i kinda figured that's like... how manga fights go... #i much prefer this over the common shounen trope of stopping the fight to explain every single move that's done #so im just like 'come ON i already understood it!!! can we keep going already????' #is it the fact that nightow doesnt do this that makes it so confusing??? so ppl dont get the play by play as it happens??? #this all probably sounds obnoxious but im just genuinely trying to make sense of it. #i guess im also just a perceptive person when im paying attention to smth. maybe that's what it ultimately boils down to. #one person commented saying theyd kill if i did play by plays for all the trimax fights lol #i probably wont for All of them bc that sounds like quite a project #but if another catches my attention in this same sorta way... then maybe. #i guess understanding nightow's fights is a skill. probably at least partially assisted by being able to read the sound effects. #oh yeah. that's another thing lol. i can read the sound effects. and that especially helps with knowing how many shots there are #stuff like that. 🤔 yea i dunno. i wasnt expecting that post to get so many notes. #but it's well over 400 now and still counting. waking up to 99+ notifications is... an experience lmao

[kn11ves]

idk what it is with me and women but they just flock to me in my time of need. 5 seconds ive been in a room and they want to tie my shoelaces for me they wanna help me do things they want to give me advice and make sure im okay i what

#i wish i was kdiding #I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH IT! #btw im not talking about like. older women although that also happens to me #im talking about girls my age theyll just go to me like im a helpless baby bird if i need something #its not even my cane either because even when i have to do things without it (like my danza folkorica) they still wanna help me #like im so fr first day i showed up a girl tied my shoelaces TWICE and THEN drove me to my dorm afterwards with the rest of her friends i #mean that was so nice #idk what i activate in them but they always wanna help me out its so particular to me #and like. listen ok today we are learning a dance from sinaloa and to be short about it one of the moves is bending your back really far & #i was doing it wrong and bending badly and i ''nearly fell'' multiple times #except see i would never have fallen bc i have been so used to living without a cane until now that i know how to catch myself and im very #yk. good at not falling so i dont embarass myself #but it LOOKS very much like i am about to fall and at least THREE times the president was like ''oh my god ivan are you okay??'' #i spooked her so bad i felt bad😭😭 #its bc km always in front when shes teaching bc i wanna see her n others r too scared to be up front #and anyways what i was on about literally i was visibly struggling and EVERYONE IM NOT EXAGERARINF ALL THE GIRLS (well there was only one #other guy there but) STARTED GIVING ME ADVICE AND TRTING TO HELP ME one girl moved all the way accross her spot to mine and help guide me #shes so nice i hesrt her her name is charisma bro imagine your name being CHARM and she is charming :> very nice #it feels weird calling her my friend bc well we r all friends in a sense as we r clubmmates but. U Know #long rant TLDR women love me #dont tell them im afraid of them

[ihatebnha]

While I also agree that bakugo adopts an orange cat, I also love entertaining the idea of bakugo having a big, fluffy white coated cat like this one

He calls her princess (even tho YOU'RE princess 😒), spoils the hell outta her, damn near treats her like she is his daughter (like scaring off the male cats that crosses your yard occasionally 😐). He always makes sure her coat remains white by brushing her everyday but also gets upset when he finds shedded hair everywhere and feeds her a nice healthy diet but sometimes slips her some food from his plate like she's a DOG. He can't walk two steps because she's swirling in-between his legs. But the kicker is that she doesn't like you, always swatting her paws at you when you pet her coat. Bakugo says it's because she's jealous and you're like "what is she jealous for??" while he's striving from the attention 😑

(orange cat reference here!)

as;dlfjkasd now we're getting into REAL cat lover bakugo hours... why is this so darn TRUE!!!

He literally swears up and down, left and right, that he doesn't spoil her AND YET, every single second not spent at work or with you is taken up with her. brushing her fur, making her little meals, sitting on the bed together... he probably even gets a little miffed when you interrupt their time together because if something isn't right "she's gonna be upset..."

BAKUGO! that is a CAT!!!

He's lowkey right though because if she's not brushed, the fur problem just gets worse. if she's not fed w/ her special treat, she'll meow ALL NIGHT. It's honestly a good thing you like cats LOOOL even if he is wound right around her little paw w/ how they're always together. ALWAYS (her always being at his feet is taking me out. she definitely thinks he's her man aldfjasdkj)

It's funny though because as irritating as it can be, you can definitely tell they're meant for each other since theyre both such fussy babies. He treats her the way he wishes he could treat himself LOOOL

(and treats you, when he makes it up to you once she's locked out of the room adfkjalsd)

#bakugo #imgine shes a gift from someone when they find out he likes cats #LMFAO HE'S SO MAD AT FIRST #not that he doesnt want her but he's like 'I WOULDVE BEEN FINE WITH ANYTHING AND U GET ME THIS???' #this being a big huge cotton puff #he falls in love instantly tho he's putting the work in #once he's* #u catch them snuggling all the time even if he's grumpy abt it #and its takes a while but princess warms up to u eventually #at least lets u sit NEXT to her #LMFAO her name being princess... probably only happens bc he takes too long thinking of something and thats the nickname he was using #and it just stuck #fdsafjlkjhdj god!!!!!!!!! #this is definitely old OLD bakugo sh*t #you try to get mad at him but u cant be he just cares so much </3 #i want them both #ask #myherhoedream #also how r u bestie #caitie things #fave

[ibyul]

Thinking abt my teenage years .

#and the tumultuous feelings #I came across some drama scene lol and got reminded of boys. like. as a genre #like teenage boys. they r. insane #abt how ppl do things that are unnecessary as if they are oblivious but i rlly wonder is everyone really oblivious #also maybe im just really easy to win over like do i stand a chance against the fitnah of this world man #i rmemeber this kid. A whole grade below me. the new board member for my friend's club. I was helping her w/ club stuff on the computer #(he was also tall and kind. that. was the problem. not to be a sterotypical Girl. but) #and this kid casually just. leaned over me and put his hand on the mouse (on which my hand alr was) #like. how do u do that. casually. unintentionally. #obv i pulled my hand away and avoided him since lmao cuz. who wants to catch feelings for a whole 10th grader when ur in 11th grade right #ig thats why it was a shock to me. i thought boy-crazy mali would just like whoever it is she talked to first. and yet here i am #having talked to at least 3 million guys on 3 million blind dates and yet found none of them attractice #attractive* #is there smth wrong with me lol. maybe i just like the idea of guys. and not guys that i actually might end up with lol #lskdfjalkfd #anyway ig was living my best life these past few months being too focused on not feeling well to think abt boys as a genre #cuz yeah what a waste of my morning today thinking abt all this garbage #💀💀💀 oversharing again oof its been a while since i felt the need to do that man #i swear shaitan waits for Friday to whisper stupid stuff into my brain #like. let me live i just wanna read surah kahf and teach my classes ugh #delete later #uhm also like. ik its a 10 year old story but i hope to god my friend isn't following me aldkjfaskdjfaf #can u blame me tho. i was. like 15 or 16 #it was much easier in middle school there was only like 15 boys in my grade and i disliked them all

[flovverworks]

(thinks about faust) excuse me for a moment (screams)

#stardust speaking ! #mhyk spoilers// #faust whos told hes unfortunate...faust who believes hes fortunate....faust whos told to always pray for ppl...faust who believes in that.. #'theres something wrong with me that makes ppl leave me' was one hell of a gutpunch #figaro who left cuz figaro felt like faust was leaving him (the entire mess of THAT situation..) #alec betrays him so bad fausts almost dies. faust who believes in alec til the last moment. #lennox fkng magical item......... #faust who still prayed for them both #until he realizes that why the Fuck should he do that #head in hands that entire part..........prints it out n puts it on the fridge...... #the negativity toward the world and 'but the sage trusts me' line is RIDICULOUS..............fav of all time #as much as i always miss akiwa the different povs in pt2 r so damn good #bradley who starts questioning how the world works......figaros entire part is Woah....CAIN??????@_@ #maybe todays the day i catch up w pt2......mayhaps tmrw.... #theres a rly good post too about snow n white who cherishes each other sm and how that influences figaros view of love too #the messiest family of all time #figaro who doesnt tell anyone but faust hes dying (but mithra who can tell hes losing his magic) and fausts whole #'why arent u telling ur family' 'i dont want them to look at me the same way i looked at tiretta when she said shed die soon' #'.....isnt that just compassion?!?!?!?' #incredible of a scene overall #man fausts pov is just.....its so incredibly good #also faust going sometimes i wonder if i should ask figaro why he left:/ wait i left lennox #IS SSOOOOOOO?!?!?!?!?!??!? #he made it easy to breathe #chef ramsey locks himself in the freezer #lennox..................i want so much for u......... #ADDITION. THE WAY FAUST PROTECTS SHINO...;_; the faust shino n nero heath convos r so good i cried #'are our kids alright' nero in 1.5...........

[kuiinncedes]

sndbddb

#it’s so weird seeing ppl from my high school and catching up bc like #i feel like i’m soooo different from hs 😭 and also i just like #don’t remember shit from hs i’m like i know i know these ppl but #i have no actual memories w them i just know they were There and honestly that’s probably all they can think for me too #anyway had a performance today and kinda accidentally had a mini high school reunion LOL it was rly nice :] #just have many thoughts abt interacting w ppl from high school ig 😂😭 #cus like who r u !!!! who am i !!!!! like bro i (kinda) know how to start/hold conversations w ppl now the fuck #i need to sleep rip #jeanne talks

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing #ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like #visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do #so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible #mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done #but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing #how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate #and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem #it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research #assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head #and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck #it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing? #i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads #to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood? #hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing? #idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed #bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me #so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a #slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would #b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh. #unrelated

[byzzii]

i’m posting to say when i say i’m a yhb supremacist i don’t mean this imposter -w-)

#he’s so evil for using eunwoo and SMILING 😭😭 #i mean ik he’s improved but he’s acting like he’s the shit. his ego blew up big time…….. ah. it’s. a development. #and those aren’t his techniques either?? so like. yeah. i would’ve preferred if htf just stuck to martial arts. whether ir was accurate or #not (a shame. accurate information is always better) #it’s something i really enjoyed seeing. and hobin found out he loved fighting.. so why not start competing? tho if it was a sports thing ppl #might find it boring or uninteresting but me personally. idgaf abt catching 244. it was ok at the beginning and seongjun was a more likeable #obstacle for me. i was more interested in their beef than hb and 244’s. #and the whole rumi and wangguk thing. i never cared for it but the fact it happened off screen and rumi never showed interest in him makes #me care abt it even less. like if ptj is uncomfortable with showing romance why even add it? telling make it boring. there’s nothing to rly #like? things i can say i like r that gyeoul has more screentime and she’s fighting :) also i hope ptj doesn’t pay attention to jiksae bc i #don’t want ptj to ruin him. just leave him alone. i was sad abt that before but i’m glad now. #and uhm more ranting. i’m soooo disappointed with the samdak thing. i like samdak. he was fun and stuff. a buff dude in a chicken mask who #knows his shit. but the actual guy is boring…. like not fun. i didn’t expect some stern guy. i thought they would meet and a dude in a chick #en mask would coach/teach hb. in a similar way to his videos but they didn’t rly show just how hb got stronger like?? idk rant over ig #i’m not gonna proofread this ;;-w-) #i’m not reading it bc i like it now… what i do like it criticizing it. ptj u messed this comic up and ur hiatus should’ve been longer bc u #thought the fans would like this? i want to talk to someone who does. help me understand.

[campirebites]

hi didn’t think I’d have to fucking say this but dni if ur url contains the word R*PE 🙄

#what kind of fuckin etiquette #like don’t have ur pfp a dickpic bc ur showing someone unconsenting #and don’t make ur url triggering shit u fuckwad #bad enough some of u use the r word bait tags #sorry this isn’t @ anyone specific except for the person I just blocked #as a csa survivor I get it I get how it can be like reclaiming #but that word gives me the squick #flight or flight #I will either fuckign punch u or run #I’m this case I am just making a passive aggressive vague post #anyway yeah fucking dni if it’s in ur url or if ur over the top #about it #I usually don’t follow people who post it but if I follow u and u post the word occaisionally u get a pass or my filtering system #is catching it from u and we are good but this is my safe space #if I don’t follow u I won’t even blink abt blocking u so just a heads up #except for a few of my beloved blorbos <3 #anyway #just UGH #having some posts/rbs w the word and having it in ur url so I have to see it if u interact w anything #are two completely different things #fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you #this made me a lil gwumpy 😤 #I’m not letting it ruin my day or anything though #camshitposts #rape mention #rape tw #csa mention

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ARI THAT ONE ACC W THE MAKIMEAT HCS IS BACK AFTER 2.5 YEARS I MM SCREAMITN????????

RIKO U CAN’T TELL ME THIS W/O DROPPING THE LINK SMH </3333 GET BACK HERE RN

#HOW R U DOING BELOVED <3 #im so sorry for not answering ur other ask btw i was gonna catch up on csm before answering it but ive been so lazy 💔💔💔 #I LOVEEEEE THOSE MAKIMA HCS SM I NEED TO SEE MORE RIKO PLS 😥😥😥 #ask tag ✩ #riko !! ✩

[sarcasrnspasrn]

reconnecting with an old friend after a long time is always soso nice :]

#ylimespam #just a real spur of the moment thing like 'yo saw you were around. r u busy do you wanna hang out and catch up r/n' #and thats the story of how we talked to each other for like an hour until they had to go home because the jetlag was catching up with them #im just. :)))) see i can do friendships i can talk with people other people like me they want to maintain friendships etc

[solemntitty]

the feeling of a wet two foot slug bodying your face

#jamie has made a statement #had a weird nightmare #usually when i have nightmares i can control them #but this one was so bizarre my nightmare filter didnt catch it until it was too late #most of my nightmares r like. corpses n shit. horrendous violence. yanno #instead on this one there was some guy de shelling large snails for. idk etsy? #and he was leaving the live snails to just die #anyways i was on a computer chair and noticed one tryibg to climb up my chair #and u kno how in dreams things change size #anyways it bevame Large and trying desperately to get onto my chair once #i let the kinda fear get through the drram which usually i have a filter for #as soon as it got on the chair it was like yhat movie where the zonbies r fast #and then i aoke up bc the sensation......... bad #also something told me it was sentient. and i think it started screaminh #honestlh i dont blame the poor guy but why did he have to take it out on me