#I feel you on my fingertips...

[dreamsofyexiao]

#my hands are searching for you... #my arms are outstretched towards you 💫 #I feel you on my fingertips... #my tongue dances behind my lips 👄 for you... #there’s fire 🔥 rising through my being #burning! I’m not used to seeing you...! #I’M ALIVE #I’M ALIIIIIIIIVE #I can feel you ALL AROUND ME #thickening the AIR I’M BREATHING #holding onto WHAT I’M FEELING #savoring this HEART THAT’S HEALING #take my hand! 👐 I give it to you! #now you own me 💫 all I am! #you said you would never leave me! I believe you! I BELEIVE #I CAN FEEL YOU ALL AROUND ME THICKENING THE AIR I’M BREATHING HOLDING ONTO WHAT I’M FEELING SAVORING THIS HEART THATS #I'M ALIVE I'M ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE

[tirednapentity]

I see you, canon scene where nya comforts Cole after he turns into a ghost and I raise you nya helping Cole get comfortable around water again when he turns human

#THINK ABOU TTHEM. YOU HAVE TO. #not quite the original point of the post but #do you ever think about how Cole literally went on a BOAT in skybound. and that he survived when it crashed. #do you think about him clinging onto the driftwood for dear life feeling the water burn his fingertips #Do you think of him searching the waves for glances of Nya #do you think he trusted her not to let him drown #I JUST. THEY MAKE MY CRAZY #Jules being annoying on main #platonic conya my beloved. they care so much about each other it's making me sick #relistened to the mudshock playlist again. I have a lot of feelings about them #ninjago #nya smith #nya Ninjago #ninjago nya #ninjago Cole #Cole brookstone #Cole Ninjago

[carlyraejepsans]

toriel... what are your toriel takes today

i have a headcanon that toriel has a hand-washing compulsion where she does it wayy more thoroughly than needed, instinctively trying to scrub under her claws even when they're perfectly clean because she can still feel the phantom of dirt under them from the time she dug chara's grave.

#one. two. three. four hundred years. it doesn't matter when you buried your child alone #i think she was your obvious standard ''my son just died'' distraught at first just out of shock. but from the moment asgore declared war? #she swallowed her grief and acted as cold and rationally as she could. organizing her leave. taking the body without being noticed. #finding the ruins. sealing them. and yes burying the body. i think she held it together perfectly during that sequence of events #but when she went to wash her hands after it was done and she couldn't get the dirt out. and she could FEEL it digging into her fingertips #but unable to get the sensation out no matter how furiously she scrubbed & dug under them THAT'S when she truly lost it for the first time #and had a full on mental breakdown over everything that happened in so little time #and that experience kinda sealed itself in her brain. both mentally and sensorially. ergo: compulsion #this goat is so fucking traumatized #answered asks #undertale #toriel

[ganondoodle]

Since you said it's ok to send you random ask, i've always found your "monsters" design to be really really gorgeous, and I wanted to know : in any form of media you've interacted with, what's PEAK monster design for you ?

i have been thinking about this ask alot bc ... i dont ... know? theres a problem with what counts as a monster really too, most are either some sort of anthro/furry or the horror gore type of monster that instills you more with disgust than awe

i guess theres some i really like but idk if thats what id call 'peak' (though its rarely JUST the design but their vibe and stuff too);

(its a lot of zelda.. sorry)

Eldra, Farodra and Naydra (engl Dinraal, Farosh(?)) though Eldra is def my fav one of them, i like how they are a little more less typical dragon- with the fur around the neck the floppy ears and kinda goofy face yet manage to be the most ethereal, awe inspiring creature i have ever seen in a game with how they act and are presented as (in BOTW!!! do not mention anythign sonau/zonai with stupid magic pebbles to me about them i will manifest worms into your tea)

Leunen (Lynels) (botw) -i could not find a better picture wtf, fav are white and silver ones) FINE they had some pretty neat new horn designs in totk- idk i just like them alot, rather simple if you think about it, horse lion plus horns- but its so well put together it just kinda scratches my brain in a good way (also how intelligent they clearly are, like the way they fight and act and also even their death animation is so??? huh?? you are just gonna treat them like any other mindless monste- *remmbers they treat ganondorf even even worse all things considered* .. nevermind you're good)

'Beast' Ganondorf (twilight princess) its my favorite beast ganon design (even if it technically is just kinda a man boar .. again) though if ww gan had a non puppet beast form that one would most definitely be my fav lol (i will not get over the fact that some descriptions call this a hideous beast EXCUSE ME???? WHERE???) (honorable mention here, darkbest ganon from botw, pig on fire but it looks cool as fuck)

Nimbusgarde (ww) .. (engl .. darknuts?) do i need to say anything? (i could throw alot of ww design here) not sure if it counts as monster but they are not human so ????

the pathless bosses- (here in order, Cernos, the Godslayer, and Kumo) all of them are rad as hell (except for the final version of the godslayer ... liek im sorry but it looks to boring compared to any other one lol) again not just the design but man do i love them

since i dont know what would count as a monster or no i could just list my fav characters here bfmjbfmjsbmj like radahn (elden ring) is just kinda a zombie, aurelion sol (league of legends) is a space dragon, the forest god in princess mononoke, Narisha (skyward sword- sky whale)- i could go on but this post is long already (honorable mention to Omus in nausicäa, weird bugs but also something divine, though it is much more how they are treated and the vibe etc)

in all honesty though i cant think of one that i would describe as perfect, what i want of a monster design is to be ... cool but also a little weird, big hulking monsters that have something off about them and something that makes them 'other', but also not, as much as i like bloodborne, just bloody gory messes of rotting flesh, AND not just as a monster to kill, i just crave a game or otherwiese piece of media where the cool monsters arent just there for you to kill- the perfect one i guess would be something kinda big scary weird and off but while non verbal clearly not a mindless beast?

and here is the thing; my own characters do not furfill that, my designs are really rather conservative, much to my dismay, anthro of a mix of animals, maybe an extra arm thrown in- Eadrya, one of my favorites, is really just a blueish furry (yes they have fur) and their demon form is a mix of seals and catfish with some extra arms, too many teeth and a mouth that goas wayy to far (if they want) - Shargon is a feather dude with extra arms and his demon form is really just a chinese type dragon crossed with a bird, throw some darts at the color wheel, done

together with my problem of my monster characters losing their 'otherness' vibe within the story rather fast bc the majority of my characters are non human and speak and you see them in all sorts of emotions and parts of life- they lose that divine, unknown vibe and i HATE that that happens, i want them more akin to the forest god in mononoke but thats not possible unless i start from scratch

and i really dont mean to make myself look bad to sound self depre- ... however you spell that; i really am rather dissatisfied with my own designs but mostly just roll with what i got bc i never seem to be able to actually achieve what i want

even my redesigns often really make things LESS interesting (unless maybe the og was just ... human, but they are blue eyed with golden hair and white so that makes them divine you seE-), the skyward sword dragons as i redesigned them made them much more classical dragon, in part intentional bc i was drawing a connection of them becoming the botw dragons at some point, but by all means the canon design is much more weird and unusual than what i did with them, you could apply the same to even demise, his canon design might seem a little uninspired but really what did i do? inject him with some classic satan spice like that makes it in any way less stereotypical evil demon ??? lol

im sorry this post devolved into whatever this is but i really am trying to answer sincerely, i am confused about it myself, what counts as a monster, what doesnt, there must be more that i really loved but why cant i think of them, why do i design characters like this when i really want something much more different, i dont know, i feel like my brain is in a cage, why do i keep making things less interesting in an effort to make it interesting, am i falling into the corporate trap of cool sells who am i what am i doing

(theres a zelda artist with a style so strikingly genuis in shape, color and just .. DESIGN that i want to chew my nails off bc i cannot design like them, their designs and redesigns are so different yet sensical and so full of crisp shapes i have never seen before it drives me nuts and i would want to give them a shoutout but i think they dont like me so aaaaarhekjbfhgdknbgdfklbg)

#ganondoodles answers #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #this ask was so innocent and nice #what did i do to it #me trying to think of my favorite monster design spiraling into me realizing i am making things often more boring than the og #and in general just dont achieve what i want to even with my own creations #i have infinite possiblities of creativity at my fingertips and yet what to i draw #blue furry :) #i feel like an ant that just experienced cosmic horrors of realization #(to be clear- having infinte possibilites and yet deciding to just draw furries is FINE AND VALID if thats what you want #(do -I- want that though??????????????????????

[autismrelatabites]

#actuallyautistic #interactive #poll #autism #first poll lets gooooo #mine is long #i hate the feeling of my fingertips touching stuff #lets say long is like half a centimeter plus #and short is where you can barely see the overhang nail

[majormeilani]

#seems silly but i kinda want to know #bc i myself cannot live with my nails shorter than my fingertips or i have a sensory overload touching anything #there's no judgement to this btw i just notice people have there's different to me #and i wonder about why and if it's to do with comfort levels #so feel free to specify if you want to! #but it's not necessary

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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#having some rough days lately friends #break is coming up soon but I'm not sure how to feel in the meantime #I'm really struggling with understanding and handling well my feelings tbh #my main issue right now is that I have LONGED for community for SO long #and I hoped so badly that I would find it here #but now that I'm here and with community at my fingertips it feels like I cannot join in for some reason??? #I'm struggling not to isolate and I'm feeling like I don't belong and I know better than to care about what people think #but I want to know what they think?? I want to know that people like me?? #I want to know that people like me for ME not just in some vaguely spiritual way where they have to keep me from sin??? #but I'm so tired lately and struggling to focus and I don't have people to talk to about it frankly here #and I can't shake the feeling that wanting people to lean on is sinful (because I should lean on God alone right? expecting other people #to fill the spot that I should have reserved for him is sin?) #I don't know anymore. I'm sorry for dumping this on you people here but I need somewhere to put it that isn't just my journal. #pray for me please. I feel like I can barely pray anymore myself. which is a terrible place to be when at a Christian university. #delete later

[pcktknife]

speaking of nightmares I had a double feature one last night

#first one i was in my grandmas house and i think i had my hand touching on something that really hot and it made my hand clench as a #reaction like it was Stuck. and the skin was either shrinking around my hand or my fingers bones were growing cause it piercing thru my #fingertips and it hurt Alot and i was screaming and begging etc etc it was weird cause it didnt really make sense and it just wasnt stoppin #cut and scene. dream 2. underwater military bunker me and a bunch of other ppl my age in a cafeteria area kinda on lockdown very very big #space. all white. loud cause theres That Many People you know what a highschool cafeteria is like. and i was feeling like anxious and then #theres an announcement on the loudspeaker like theres some sort of breach and before u know it water rushes in thru the outside hallways #theres doors with little rectangle glass windows and its like instant that the water breaks thru the glass and there is a lot of screaming #and panicking for maybe 3 seconds? and then we all drown #i think the first dream was cause i was laying on my hand in a way that was hurting it cause i woke up clenchin it w a cramp (o3o) #idk what that second one was. general fear of drowing and the horrors my mind likes to subject me to #kae.txt

[milkweedman]

Nothing certain in life except the callouses formed by interdisciplinary hand crafts

#very thick guitar callouses on thr fingertips of my left hand #as well one that goes the length of that thumb and forefinger from all the flax spinning ive been doing. was a blister earlier so im glad #side of my right hand has a long weird callous from scraping against the metal teeth of blending board a couple thousand times #plus a few fingertips on the right hand have callouses from fingerpicking #and my palms are pretty calloused though from what im not sure. hand cards maybe #i know i have knitting and writing callouses as well although i think theyve been subsumed into other ones at this point #since those are very small and knitting is the easiest thing on my hands by far #anyway this post brought to you by the fact that my hand feels like its burning bc i was a little too rough with the blending bpard today #that thing can really scrape you up. at least if you use it like an idiot. which i do

[hoffmanstits-enjoyer]

i just think that it should've been strahm to get stabbed by mark, the thin blade sinking to the hilt and shoved so eagerly, the very tip of his thumb crosses the limit of skin and caresses weeping flesh as he mercilessly twists it to bring out a pained, choked up gasp,,,, what warmth there was inside peter's now coating mark's knuckles, they're close enough that he's practically hissing inside of the agent's mouth before peter's head's turning away,,,,,,,,,,,

#perhaps i'm going insane #its just romantic to Me. okay #homoerotic stabbing my beloved #oh. to sink the fingertips into ur enemy and suddenly realize how good. it feels. to see the vulnerability in his eyes as he's scared. #so so frightened. in your arms. oh oh but he changed you somehow bc its never been this satisfying its never been so lacking #you want more. more. more. #you take out an inch you change the angle you twist it just so and he makes such a sinful noise #he sounds so much better like this. you want to hear him over and over but if you keep this up..... there won't be more #I JUST WANT THEM TO LEAVE SCARS ON EACH OTHER OKAY? OKAY #(let peter shoot him on his leg pls. thigh bleeding around his fingers as he pulls out the bullet and then uses that blood #to fingerfuck him into oblivion. pressing down on that wound the entire fucking tIME hhhhhhhh) #haha im coping sooooo well with not watching saw x

[ziipzeepzop-eez]

S'much as I hate funerals, virtual or in person, I'm grateful for the opportunity to see you off.

The losses may be plentiful, but if there's one thing it taught me: it's strength.

Avoidance? Repression? Numbness? A foreign body giving themselves to protect their own.

How much longer will it hurt? It hurts and hurts until it can't anymore. Then, when you feel coherent again, it slams into your side. Your blind side.

Maybe all these things. But I feel strong and coherent right now, if only a little dead, a little broken, a little stop hurting me please inside.

Bless you. Thank you.

I love you.

(I'm sorry we couldn't be there, uncle. Rest gently. We'll honor you the same way you honored our clan.)

#i feel so bad for my dad #and the entire side of the family. #y'know. now that i think about it? #a lot of my people has left the planet within the last couple years than the entirety of my entire life #that had such a heavy impact on me. #rest easy uncle. you were a wonderful man. #cw death #cw death mention #honorable mention #for the ones that have gone ahead of us #wait for us yeah? #give me that hope you promised #lest i split my fingertips digging for a truth from below me #lest i die trying. #zeepie beep and her heavy hard feelings #zeep's heart pours ❤️‍🩹🫗 #timeee to update the navi #i always knew i was low maintenance #it was fun while it lasted! 🫡

[omarfor-orchestra]

Noticed another thing about classically trained domenicocuomo

#no actually it's something my teacher said #not about him of coure #she was talking about herself #(because i said those mindfulness exercises don't do shit to me cause I'm way too rational so no I can't feel the difference between my #feet touching the ground and the ground touching my feet) #she said she used to touch and feel only with her fingertips #and when she noticed she tried to switch with her palms #and she found out her palms are really sensitive #he always does that #and i might have a blorbo explanation for it but actually i think it's just him #you know the bad parti in this is that now if i think someone or something is good i have to justify it #I can't just go watch a movie or a show and say 'i really liked it' #because I'm not supposed to like everything #but i do #unfortunately #sorry i don't enjoy my life so at least i wanna enjoy fictional characters and can't concentrate enough on other aspects #do you still think I'm hot?

[galaxythreads]

I think we should maybe not base how intelligent someone is off of whether or not they go to college.

Some people LITERALLY cannot go because of physical, financial, emotional, or mental limitations but that DOESN’T MEAN THEY’RE STUPID OR LAZY. 

#me as person #projecting current frustrations? #yes #vent #bro (gender neutral) i cannot tell you how much of an idiot i feel like now that i have decided NOT to go to college #like my entire self worth and smartness level (DESPITE HAVING A HIGH IQ) feel like they are dissolving between my fingertips #because i'm not going to uni #and it feels a little silly #but at the same time i cannot stop it and neither can god

[carlyraejepsans]

i feel like you can calculate how hard the semester is hitting just by looking at the state of my hands lol

#for those who don't know i have a compulsion where i chew off the skin around my nails #or well. that's what it started as when i was seven #i have now lost most of the feeling in the top part of most of my fingertips up to the first knuckle #it's straight up scar tissue lol it feels like rubber. or leather more than anything #and because it's so stiff!! i keep!! chewing it even more. because it cracks and it's easier to bite and pinch #only one out of my ten finger doesn't currently have an open wound on it. so #take a wild guess how my studies are going #lol they look so creepy. even more when i put them in water cuz it gets even more evident #if some of you like gross stuff i could post a pic or smth like a 5yo showing off scabs

[richardgrimes]

it's just me and my comfort strand of hair that's too short for me to fully grasp between my fingers and the physical pain and yearning i feel in my fingertips to feel it's coarseness compared to the rest of my hair against the world

#anyway. #no when i tell you i feel sensations in my fingertips when i can't grab that piece of hair...

[thedemonsurfer]

having nerve damage in the tip of my middle finger is really inconvenient when that's the finger i use for the trackpad

today is a 'vague hurty/achy feeling' day and i want to gnaw it like a cat that doesn't understand Why something feels like it does, only that it's Annoying

#wear thimbles when you sew kids #and dont get into the habit of pushing the needle through the fabric with your fingertip #coencidentally do you know how often you bang your fingertips into things every day? #its a lot 8'D #i've never had this diagnosed by a doctor #but it p much feels like there's a bruise there when there's nothing visible #and it's been that way for like 4+ years now #i thought it was a bone bruise but since it hasn't improved with me taking a hiatus from cons i'm p sure its nerve damage #and what is a doc gonna say anyway #“wear a thimble and try not to bang your hands into things” #banging my fingertip into things hurts like a BITCH btw #so im so glad that I have the neurological disorder that impacts my brain's ability to keep track of my extremities /sarcasm