#I hope you like my blog when it’s active!

[themirokai]

I’m baaaaack! The queue is back on and the app is back on my phone.

However, my break came with the realization that if I want tumblr to be a sustainable thing that I do, I need there to be *less* on my dash. This means that I’m going to be unfollowing a bunch of blogs. And that includes some blogs that are currently mutuals.

Sooo if I drop off your followers list, I promise it’s nothing you did and it’s nothing personal. Please reach out to me any time, please tag me in stuff, please send me posts you want me to see. I very much hope we can still be mutuals in spirit.

🥺👉👈 I just need my dash to be less overwhelming.

Anyway…

#miro irl #sort of #Miro on tumblr #should that be a tag? #also I got a bunch of spam follows in the last few days #and some regular people #hi new followers #I hope you like my blog when it’s active!

[utilitycaster]

I've been accused of arrogance many a time and yeah, there's some truth to that, but I am the image of humility compared to people who put their random D&D PCs in actual play main tags or as reblogs/replies to barely related posts.

#also my arrogant manner is a deliberate cultivation to prevent people from being overly chummy and creeping me out #anyway i know this is bitchy but words cannot describe how fucking annoying it is when randos shove their d&d pcs in your face #girl (gn) i hope they crit fail on a dex save and go unconscious from fall damage and then crit fail on their death save and permadie #(this is not about people making pc posts on their own blogs that aren't put in unrelated shit. your blog is your castle. go wild) #and it is not about mechanics questions sent to me! I actively like those! if you have questions about your pc for me that's great! #but once you look at a random stranger or a fandom and are like yeah THEY have to know about my PCs? main character syndrome behavior. #literally what thought process occurred here if any

[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

#ok i feel like i should say Something before i start being active again #but i dont want it to be a Statement which is why i’m putting it in the tags #(also bc i procrastinated doing this for weeks so i know this is a very stale topic by now #but i also haven’t been on tumblr literally at all so this is 100% my organic authentic opinion lmao) #so read if you gaf and ignore if you don’t #anyway: george def could’ve done more to ensure she was comfortable #and as someone who has also gotten in over my head with older men and regretted it #her hurt is valid and i’m deeply sorry she feels the way she does about that night #but with that said i see no reason to believe george Should have known how she really felt #or that he deliberately took advantage of either her youth/inexperience or her discomfort #and that’s the most important thing for me— he fucked up and misread a situation but that doesn’t make him an evil person #and i hope they can both move on and grow and heal #as for my future in the fandom: i honestly dunno how active i’ll be going forward #i was already becoming pretty disconnected so this might’ve just sped up the process? i’m tired of being put through the wringer #but i also don’t really have a fandom to replace this so i might just continue casually participating in the way i have been #either way rest assured i will never become a rabid anti. that shits embarrassing #i got HORRIBLE drolo rsd the other day when tommy’s mom needed clout and vagued him so like if nothing else. droloisms are forever #also as a last thing— this feels kinda silly and self centered to say but i will anyway #sorry for not opening up my blog as a forum for discussion again the way i did with the drituation #i know i helped a lot of people sort out their feelings and that was (and is) really really important to me #but it also tanked my mental health (mostly as a result of the fallout and not the act itself but still) #plus my life irl was pretty stressful at the time when everything was first going down #so i just didn’t feel up to putting myself through that again #but i’m sorry if anyone wanted to discuss w me but wasn’t able to #anyway. i think that’s all i have to say! #i don’t want to turn this into a capital D discussion but as always my askbox and dms are open #love you all tons! i hope you’re having a good day 🫂🫶 #bella talks

[thresholdbb]

I was gonna go to bed, but instead I went feral

#thank you for tolerating me on your dash #just love Star Trek so dang much #that blog hasn't been active in years but I hope they don't have email notifications on cause rip #I saved some in my drafts for when I feel like the dash is dead I promise #also have been kinda under the weather lately and haven't wanted to deal with it #so this was definitely better than trying to sleep it off some more #this has been fun #I love you goodnight #melts into oblivion

[airenyah]

Sex scenes don't bother me as much as kiss scenes. When the characters are making out in a way that indicates it will lead to sex, I'd scream at the screen "Just take off your pants and start grinding under the covers already!" because I cannot watch them mash their mouths together for another second.

That being said, I'm not a huge fan of sex scenes because firstly—I can't take the movements seriously, and if there's sound effects, there's also a high chance of me laughing. Secondly, the squishiness of the human body is another thing I can't take seriously. When I first watched the Only Friends trailer, and I saw that scene where Sand thumbs Ray's tattoo, I thought it was a butt tattoo because of the way the skin bounced in slow-motion, but no, it's actually a hip tattoo; the human skin is just that springy on every part of the body. While everyone was going crazy because of the tattoo-touch, I'm laughing because the bounce was so pronounced.

Basically, kiss scenes ick me out while sex scenes are comedy.

omg that sounds like such a fun way to experience sex scenes tho!! i wish my reaction was more like that rather than convulsion. i'd much rather experience a comedy show tbh dfjkkdgj

also interesting point you bring up about the human body being so squishy. i never really thought about it but yeah. human bodies are just so weird?????? actually, only the other week i was talking with another friend (who's likely also ace-spec) about just how humans (and tbh even animals) will just have things dangling from them?? whether it be genitalia or boobs or whatever. like, those body parts are just... hanging there?? and technically even your arms but at least you can control those. meanwhile my boobs will just bounce depening on what movements i make and i can't control them and they're just hanging from my chest while i go about my life. like, why?? i want dog boobs where you mostly have just the nipples and they only really get big when i have an actual child to feed (i know human breasts also swell when they fill with milk during a pregnancy, but why do i have to have two balls of meat hanging from my chest even when i'm not pregnant?? who thought of this design??). coming back to your point of the human body being so squishy and actually yeah, i'm realizing now that i can't take it seriously when people talk about how hot boobs are precicely because boobs are so squishy and also so wobbly and just. how is this not funny to people? dkdfjdjfk

and lmao i remember everyone going crazy over the tattoo!!!!! i realized right away that it's on the hip but maybe that was bc i remembered the placement of it from the eclipse. which is also why that scene didn't make me laugh, i was actually too busy trying to read what it said bc in the eclipse we never got to see that tattoo up close enough in order to be able to read it. so while everyone was freaking out i was just sitting in my corner like "omg so the tattoo says 'beautiful'???" i'd been wondering about it for a year ever since the eclipse, so i was just excited to finally know what it says bc i'm a nosy ass bitch lmao

anyway, i love hearing about your experiences. it's so fascinating how varied the ace experience can be and how specific things affect everyone differently. and i think it's also cool to hear what things other ace people pick up/focus on while the allosexuals are busy drooling over whatever is happening on screen dkjkdkjg

the kissing... idk, i can't tell you why it doesn't actually bother me that much or why i might even enjoy it. although i do have to say, the act of kissing does look extremely weird. sometimes (usually during longer kiss/make-out scenes) i'll be sitting there and suddenly it'll hit me that "actually kissing looks SO strange, whose idea was it for kissing to be a thing??"

sometimes in my head the kissing just conjurs up the image of a fish opening and closing it's mouth, like so:

except, you know, kissing involves two people so in reality it's more like:

#i hope you don't mind that i'm publishing this on my blog again! #i'm just thinking it might be interesting for other people as well to read about our varied experiences #do let me know if you want me to go private (or just hop straight into my dms <3) #asks #actually a random memory popped into my head while i was writing this #remember how in my other reply i said kiss scenes sometimes bore me? #actually in the first and only relationship i've been in i actually would sometimes pretend to be asleep #(even though i struggle with sleeping and can fall asleep during the day ONLY when i'm sick or under a serious lack of sleep) #i pretended to be asleep to avoid my then-bf turning the cuddling session into a make-out session #bc making-out just bored me so much as an activity lmao #(it didn't necesserily bother me or gross me out but yeah i just thought it was insanely boring) #(i still went along with it the way you'd sit through your friend's fave movie even tho you personally find it super dull) #(bc i didn't have the heart to tell him i wasn't all that into it dkfjkdg) #(actually he once made a comment how ''the two of us couldn't go a day without kissing each other!!'' and out loud i agreed #but in my head i was like ''oh i EASILY could 🤭🤭🤭'') #(again i didn't say the truth bc he was a really sweet guy and i just didn't want him to feel upset at my lack of enthusiasm about him) #to this day i have no idea if the guy was the problem bc i didn't have strong enough feelings for it or if it was bc of my asexuality #i didn't know about asexuality back then but if i'd known i might have figured it out right then and there that i was ace lmao #(it took another 2 years until i got there)

[nerice]

i wanna replay nier automata so badddd and in fact i can and i will after im done streaming nier replicant for a friend (in my weapon grinds era) the anime is so good it's nothing like the game it could never be you simply cannot replicate the experience of playing it the slow unraveling of information nier is a story that repeats itself etc etc the small banter during sidequests (ANEMONE.) the way the environment changes the way the ui and screen get increasingly fucked up during certain scenes or from interference the [everything abt route c] the moment yokotaro shoots you point blank and then flashes the game title 15hrs in because you just completed the prologue do you hear what im saying the anime does not compare but GOD DOES IT GET ALL THE BEATS RIGHT I WANT TO REPLAY SO BADLY

#best vg adaptation ever while still not coming remotely close am i making sense #all the small machine sidequest the nihilism and despair the ultimate message of hope THE ENDING WHICH. DONT EVEN TOUCH ME #i have to admit the c/d choice in original nier never meant that much to me despite being the biggest kaine stan on the planet #but when automata hits you with the c/d choice I FUCKING SCREAMED #((even though again my choice was fucking transparent as hell)) but the way it influences the final fight I AM SIMPLY. UGHGN #god the entire tower sequence though the way the pov switches during ascension like. these things you can never take out of vg into anime #but anime is sure activating every single sleeper cell in my body that has been dormant since 2017 #THE LIBRARY IN THE TOWER EMILS LUNAR TEARS FIELD THE [a girl who loved her grandma] GNHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #also getting run over ass naked by a moose. game of all time #oh also fucing A2s spear handling. the taunt animation. U KNOW #nier blogging #sorry for my insanity its the yokotaro pay me in emotional damages rn

[skarifikator]

funny how we waited to get the ol miku blog up and posting again the first of this month cuz its a clean date to start on and then i wake up and see twitter shat itself.

i wanted this account to mostly be lurking and following friends blogs and not too much else but even so my dash has suckd so maybe its for the best that i just start following any artists i like here like i do everywhere else.

#no offense u guys love you but my dash is an echo chamber where i'll see the same post 5 times in a row cuz u all reblog from eachother and #i have no posts to pad the space between ur reblogs cuz i follow like 5 people who post actively every day and u know who u are #that will change very soon i hope. #i miss tumblr ca 2019 i miss my old blog but it was too far gone had that shit since 2016 at least! #i miss the niche of deviantart i used to hang around even more back when the site was useable tho. it was so chill and nice. #and i miss the collections feature

[donghuamuqing]

Its just me and my inactive tumblr against the world

#my post #sorryyy :’( #i havent checked the byler ao3 tag in literal days #i hope i get over this phase soon bc i miss yall but i cant force myself to be on here if i dont want to be lol #ive just been on twitter and pinterest tbh #i feel like the anime fan community is much more active on there bc i did the same when i got into demon slayer #maybe ill put my freshly multifandom blog to the test and rb a bunch of shit LMAO #thank you all for sticking with me i love uuuuuuu #ill have a new fic soon im just on spring break rn they have my ass in CONNECTICUT!!!!! THERES SNOW ON THE DAMN GROUND!!!!!!!

[alexa-crowe]

#the power of a reblog i tell ya #went from what? just over 1k? #and now we're at like 3k #from a single reblog #and like yes reblogs from NOT todayontumblr will obviously do a lot less #but when we say that reblogs ARE tumblr we're not exaggerating #and honestly i don't care if i sound prissy i want people to see my shit #because you know what? i love those tags where people from like a 56 person reblog chain are like ''omg i remember watching this with my x'' #and it's just like. make it an active choice i guess #instead of just passively not reblogging #instead of just going eh i'm too lazy or whatever it is that most people do (we should do a poll maybe) #bc it's about spreading joy and sharing the things you love #idk this probably isn't going to change anything #and it's not really a big problem #it's just a little sucky #your blog is your own but i hope more people learn to find happiness in sharing things with others #rambling

[despairforme]

      I think we’re gonna need some weapons ‘fer this shit.

#[ nnoitra cocking his gun ] #[ honestly wtf is up with all these bots??? ] #[ over 200 of them have followed this blog so far :V ] #[ ANYWAYS! i have been busy ] #[ but today i have time for some writing and some drawing uvu ] #[ i'm excited! ] #[ i'm always so excited when i get to be creative like hello YES my favorite activity ] #[ hope you're all doing good guys! ] #[ thank you for being patient with me! ] #despair for me. ╱ in character.

[kyeomblr]

hai im still alive <3

#still crazy in love w svt and dokyeom <3 #i just scream about them elsewhere now lmao #tbh i miss tumblr but at the same time everytime i log on i feel like i have to create something #or write something in the tags if i want to rb a post #and its not like im forcing myself ; when i say something in the tags i really do mean it of course #but most of the fun here is being active and engaging w your mutuals and the posts u put on your blog #and sometimes i dont feel like giffing. sometimes i dont really have anything i want to say #sometimes i feel like ive already said everything i want to say before #i think despite how much i want to believe im only giffing and editing for myself i dont #that i feel kind of like 'my value here depends entirely on the content i make and if i don't make any then whats the point' #which is funny because i have plenty of mutuals who dont create content ever and i Love seeing them on the dash #so i know its not true but thats what being on tumblr feels like to me #and i think its making me feel a bit burnt out #and just to be clear i'm not talking about notes or follower numbers i don't care about that #this is purely about me and creating content and my mind blanking out when i want to say something #so !! anyway #all of this to say idk if i'll ever be as active again as i was #but im alive and im alright and i hope you all are too mwah !! <33

[shadybug]

Wait ur a system? I (may or may not be, no diagnosis) too! Idk I am one of your moots I’m just shy to talk about it when I’m not 100% certain of it. Without proof, I just call the other women in my head ghosts, they seem to prefer being called that??? I have no idea why I’m messaging if I’m not gonna come off anon tbh

yep!! i've got DID, more specifically ^^ i don't put it in my bio or anything bc i like keeping some plausible deniability (ableism's a bitch and this tumblr's not very hard to link to me irl), but i've been slowly being more open about it. it's awesome to see someone else with a similar situation, details/diagnosis aside!! if you ever want someone to chat about it with, you're always welcome to dm or come off anon ^^ but also i get that being vulnerable about these sorts of things is hard, so no pressure ofc

#asks #also that offer's good whenever and for whoever #i don't mind talking about stuff in detail in dms!! #i just get kinda cagey when it's somewhere that family and/or employers could theoretically run into it #but like. i've done a lot of research on DID/OSDD-1 just trying to figure out my own brain. and now i love talking about it w other folks #especially if it has the potential to help people #i deadass run a blog trying to help new/questioning systems with resources hehe #(anyone can ask off anon if they want the link for that too btw!!) #(it's anonymous for safety reasons but i actively want it shared around so it can help more people) #this got rambly. tl;dr if you're a system i love you and if you're questioning i love you and i hope you have a good day

[dmclemblems]

At least for now I'll keep this URL simple enough and close enough that people will probably know it's me who aren't seeing this right when I change the URL.

I'll be periodically posting the link to the new blog here so people can hop over.

Right now this blog is seven asks deep that I have to answer, and I may or may not answer them here or there. Since it'll take some time for people to notice I'm moving my main activity, I may still post a bit here in the meantime/while posting the link. Afterward this blog won't be deleted and may still post sometimes (and some of those posts might be exclusively on this blog), but I just want my main and most focused activity to be over there.

As a reminder, that blog is basically this blog but more of a safe space for me, as well as being a main blog and not a side blog (since this one is a side blog it can't send asks directly, reply to posts, etc. After a decade of running this blog as a side blog, I'd rather have a different place for all that). Since I'm sure this blog will continue to get activity since people who will follow in the future or see already existing posts in the future won't know about all this, this blog will definitely still have posts here and there due to interaction, too. It's just not going to be my main place for posting all my longer thoughts and all those things I do here.

#the tl;dr really is just that both blogs will technically be active but that one is like #A: not a decade old and B: I need somewhere to have a more fresh start #it probably sounds complicated for a lot of you who haven't been with this blog for five or more years or some such #but for those of you who have been around that long you probably get it more #I know some of y'all have been following this blog since before it was super active #and some of y'all found me when it was super active but have stuck around since #and thank you to those people very much!!! I love still seeing your names in my notes and in my replies #and I hope to see you guys over on the main blog too!!! <3 #I still love this blog very much but I also need Another Place to be at #DCE Comments

[lifeaspect]

skimmed a classpecting discord and got SO MAD

this is why classpecting is a one person sport

#i have many opinions i have been doing this for 10 years and NO i will not talk to you about it #because you are stupid #stupid and dumb #classpecting #i was just about to remake my classpecting blog when i remembered why i dont post any of my theories anymore #i have a whole system of classpect planets!! #and god tier activities!! #i have classpected every single major dragon age character in all games! #but why should i share this information when the pioneers of the community dont care about things like unbiased analysis #and half of what they say is based on homestuck 2 & epilogues?! which is not canon! it is literally the premise of those stories #ok part of me is just mad because they said the life aspect is the aspect of TRADITION & PATRIARCHY???? #what in the everloving fuck are you talking about #i know why theyre saying that and its inaccurate to homestuck CANON especially when you take classes into consideration #WHICH youre supposed to!! but they're still saying clowns are the rage aspect so i dont think there's HOPE for them #bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch #but i always get like this about classpecting because it is so near and dear to my heart #also life is growth and domination #which as all aspects is morally neutral #it depends on how it is used

[milkteadrinker]

as my first tumblr post here after struggling with the theme codes for a bit bc im dumb as fuck i will proceed to make a long ass rant in the tags

#i am absolutely ashamed of how i got so used to twitter that i feel wtf @ tumblr's blog syste #BITCH I HAVENT FINISHED TYPING WHAT THE FUCK #ok anyway i used to be a tumblr kid but now.... i am but a simple twitter migrant #decided to finally pay attention to my blogs despite drawing only once every blue moon bc twitter seriously looks like its going to burn do #wn and i want to make sure im at least active here somehow before it actually fucking dies #fuck you melon usk i hope your ass catches on fire #so. i am now very kinda pissed bc i tried to separate everything from my art to my priv and oc stuff like how i did on twt but #TUMBLR'S SIDE BLOG SYSTEM IS WHAT THE FUCK #WE CANT LIKE OR REBLOG SHIT THERE????? #ok goodbye i am not making separate blogs for everything i am just going to suffer as i mash everything into one #also no privs here so time to air out my mental distress to the public just like i did when i was a wee 15 year old #i sure fucking hope no one reads this rant post bc i wouldnt want to read it myself