#I really cannot stop crying

[doll-elvis]

꧁ “All this love I have for you…I don’t know where to put it now that you are gone” - Lang Leav

Another year has gone by without you and it hasn’t gotten any easier

I know I should be looking back on your life with a smile and be proud of all you've accomplished but I cannot stop the terrible sadness I feel for you. And I cannot stop the tears from coming when I think of what could have been and what was taken from you and everyone who loved you on August 16th, 1977

I'm thinking about how you could have still been here. You would have been able to see your baby Lisa Marie grow up into the talented and beautiful woman she was. You would have been the one to teach her to drive and, most likely, the one to buy her first car. And I bet you would have been the happiest "grand-pappy" the day Riley was born and taken home from the hospital

You could have also celebrated your 88th birthday this year as an old man with grey hair, or maybe Larry Geller would still be dyeing it pitch-black for you. Maybe you would have been holding your great-granddaughter Tupelo to your chest while your loved ones surrounded you, singing happy birthday. You would have been even happier to be the “great-grandpappy”

But that’s not what happened for you or your family and it breaks my heart

Rather than growing old, you passed away at the age of 42

On that night, you kissed and put Lisa Marie to bed for the very last time, not knowing it would be your last, not knowing you'd be gone just hours later. You left this world alone and quietly in the early hours of the morning without a proper goodbye, leaving so much unsaid by the people who loved you and wanted you to know. You left feeling like you hadn’t done enough to be remembered but it’s now 46 years later Elvis, and you are just as loved as you were then

And I am so grateful to say that I am one of the many people you reached, who love you, and think about you every single day. The impact that you have left on me cannot even be measured or described. I will forever be indebted to you Elvis, and all the ways that you left this world more beautiful than you found it. Truthfully, I wouldn’t want to live in a world that wasn’t touched by you. You make the days more bearable with your music and your presence, and I know that whenever I need comfort or happiness I can find it in something you did

You were simply unique and completely irreplaceable… the world has felt so dull and so empty since you left it. I truly mean it when I say that I love you Elvis, and if there is a way, I hope you know just how much

I miss you more than words could be said, and I’ll miss you until my last breathe. Rest in peace my love

Love “allways”,

𝒜𝓅𝓇𝒾𝓁

#I really cannot stop crying #I miss you terribly #we love you #january 8th 1935 #- #august 16th 1977 #elvis #elvis presley #elvisaaronpresley

[saewokhrisz]

bro is pondering!!!

#drew these ALSO With my left hand cuz boy am i!!! in a lot of pain !!!!!!! #i feel obnoxious a bit saying it every time i post art i did with my left but i also wanna make it known cuz its really challenging and #im proud of myself for it #if theres a will theres a way you cannot stop my creative genius #anyways !!! i love pewter !!! give him his boyfriend back please im still crying #aitsf #pewter #ai the somnium files #my art #fanart

[yyamssoup]

this is almost like 2 years old idk 😭

#i dont really like it anymore but i mean #VIVIDLY remember drawing this with my laptop touchscreen and my thumb during a math class 😭 #i miss that #I MISS MY MINI DMC FIXATION I CANNOT LIE #dante #devil may cry #my art #bleahhhhh its 4am i need to stop deciding to post so late man #anyway i think i should redraw this . perhaps maybe

[godblooded]

let me tell you i haven’t ever felt this uncomfortable on here and i. hate. it.

#ooc. o kaptain. #[just another absolutely fucking terrible day in a bulleted list of absolutely fucking horrible days. i have worked myself so exhaustively #my hands and my arms are absolutely covered in claw marks and bruises and I’m exhausted. I have to take my aunt for a surprise transfusion. #i have another appointment with her on Monday. I’m off this week but I can’t relax and I’m just. hoping I can relax. I don’t know. I don’t #even know. things get okay and then they get absolutely terrible again. I cannot stop crying and I just want my life to calm down for like. #a minute. just a minute. and I feel like I can’t vent for more reasons than I can even actually mention and that? that sucks. this fucking #sucks. it’s really just a want to cry for hours but I can’t kind of Saturday. here’s to hoping this transfusion is easy.] #negativity / #medical / #cancer mention /

[plasky]

WHY WAS EP 7 SO LIKE FILLED WITH FUCKING FAMILY SHIT

#im halfway through #but im quite literally sobbing at martin like actually taking a interest in both baby finn and fionna #LIKE HE DIED TO FUCKING HELP FIONNA AND OH MY GODD #I really feel like I should also at the very least dislike this version of Martin but I physically cannot #gggrrr and also Simon talking about Marcy and how he “raised her in as his own” #i cannot stop crying #adventure time #AT:FaC #fionna and cake spoilers #fionna and cake #fionna & cake

[misfithive]

After that trailer we really deserve emotional compensation with fanservice in the form of cute and HAPPY wilmon boyfriends content.

Like you said, we all were expecting angst, but that was a lot. I need a balanced season this time bc it’s the last one, we are only getting them one last time and it would be really disappointing to have them go through hell and barely be able to be happy.

I am so glad u agree with me ive literally been having a mental breakdown for a week and i feel totally unhinged bc it feels like everyone else is happy and excited meanwhile i’m thinking about how much they have had to suffer and why they keep having to suffer and why suffering is never ending and it’s killing me 🙃

so personally i need more of this :

And more of this :

And more of this:

And more of this :

And more of this:

Thank you for coming to my ted talk 🙏🏾

#i dont need anyone im my asks saying what did u expect this isnt heartstopper blah blah blah BLAH #my anxiety does not care lmfao #these are my BABIESSSSSS #I HAVE LITERALLY BEEN THE BIGGEST OPTIMIST FOR MONTHS NOW #TELLING EVERYONE IT WILL BE FINE THEY WILL BE HAPPY THEY ARE BOYFRIENDS #buf seeing wilmon cry has literally destroyed me and idk how to function anymore #simon sounding like hes crying saying love shouldnt be difficult echoes in my brain #im gonna stop before i panic again #but anyway i just want to see them happy i really cannot comprehend why thats too much to ask for #young royals #wilmon #misfit answers asks

[running-in-the-dark]

and I'm having thoughts again

so I've been watching that John Larroquette interview that I reblogged on repeat for half an hour now and I'm just. man I am so very....... okay I'm trying not to say that I'm stupid anymore but god what else is there to say. it's making me feel like my brain just turns off and all there is is static and [insert very high frequency screaming sound].

like I would love to be able to have actual thoughts about this shit but I am not. I just love love love people who think about shit and face their issues and work on getting better. and talk about it. like it's just a thing that happened. because it is. it's not 'oh you did bad shit in your past so you're fucked forever now'. it's 'bad shit happened, I did bad things, I confronted it, I made different choices' and that's it. I just. man I'm feeling really emotional and am probably gonna have a good long cry about this now.

#one thought that I had when my brain stopped just loudly screaming at me was #oh I totally always think I wouldn't ever end up in a cult. because it's not something that would appeal to me and shit. I'm suspicious of #anything like that. one person claiming to know everything and all that #and it just hit me like. DUDE. you would absolutely 100% end up in a cult if the right guy was leading it #like if he had a cult that I could join right now? oh dude I'd be so in. kinda joking but also like. come on I am so fucking obsessive I #would absolutely fall for that #(and lets not even get into the whole thing of actually getting attention from the person I'd be obsessed with. oh it'd be bad. it'd fuck #me up. I'd be so easy to convince if we're being honest....) #but anyway I just. I don't know #honestly though? I just love studying one person at a time from afar like. hi I would immediately explode if I ever met this man I could not #handle it. but I can absolutely find out everything I can about him and study him like. something that normal people would study idk I'm #insane. #anyway man that was a weird tangent #true tho. #I don't want to make light of actual addictions like alcoholism. I'm not. addicted I guess. but I'm absolutely fucking obsessive about shit #and I absolutely know it cannot be healthy to keep doing this #like dude you have no life because all you do is watch other people live theirs. why am I studying this man's life like it matters. it's not #making anything better. knowing every damn thing he did in the 80s will not make up for the fact that I don't have. anything. #fuck now I'm really crying oh well this really took a weird turn #fuuuuck. #personal

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#really fucking struggling to see the point of anything anymore #i've been silently crying for almost 2hs but i don't have time to fully spiral cause i have work to do #but yeah... i just can't deal with shit anymore i'm so tired #as i've said it already idk if it was on another vent post or i said this to my partner #but i feel trapped #i feel like i've been tied up and gagged and i cannot move or break free #and it's driving me INSANE #i just want it all to stop #i'm tired #personal #angel talks

[xenodile]

mannn it doesn't feel good to vague about a friend that's not on tumblr but I swear if another tabletop group falls apart because she cannot handle literally any inter party conflict that only she knows about I'm gonna be really frustrated

#literally I don't know WHAT she's so upset about nobody knows she just started crying and left mid session #and apparently it's been bothering her since like our earliest sessions before she switched characters?? #and she just didn't say anything and we're all grasping at straws because everything seemed completely fine until now #like. is she upset that the party is opting to take a different path than the one she wanted?? #I cannot make heads or tails of it and it's really hard not to be angry that this is the second time this has happened #like first time I'll take blame because I was playing a prickly grouch of a character and got too into that angle #but it's still the second time she's just not addressed or brought up player to player or interparty issues #until it reached a point where we had to stop the session

[weizhiyuan]

I love utsukushii kare so much I’m gonna be SICK

#I LITERALLY CANNOT STOP TJINKING ABT THEM #AND WHEN I DO INWANT TO CRY SO HARD #LIKE RN YES I AM A LITTLE OVERLY EMOTIONAL ABOUT THEM. #i have another analysis thought thing that I want to post but every time that happens I have to fight through my emotions so that #the sentences I write actually make sense. do u get it #UGH BUT ALSO NOT EVEN JUST THEM LIKE. OKAY HIRA SPECIFICALLY BC HE IS LITERALLY ME LIKE IVE NEVER FELT SO SEEN IN A CHARACTER LOWKEY… #AND JUST THE FUCKING STORY. THE WAY IT TIES TOGETHER PERFECTLY #OR THE CINEMATOGRPAHY AND EVEUTJTJNG RFGJFUDUDGGGHHRHRGHHH I CANT YALL ITS SO BEAUTIFUL #(saw a really good edit yesterday and it’s not helping this brainrot) #anyway. just had 2 post abt it. thank u #utsukushii kare #b.txt

[louhearted]

....

#my thoughts #my dog died today and i had just managed to not cry for about... 3 hours #but now that the day is winding down... i can't fucking stop #i just. that was MY dog. mein herzenshund. #i loved the dog we had before her and i love the pupper we still have #who was the new addition to the family about a year ago #i do love them #but sunny? sunny was MY dog. my mausebär. #i really really cannot comprehend any of it and i am.... very much not okay

[dandyshucks]

experiencing my bimonthly (every two months) morality spiral of "it's bad that i like men, why am i not as attracted to women, i must be a misogynist if I personally am not as often attracted to women as i am men"

i would say i need to go touch grass to get over it but unfortunately I do that at least once a day and it does not seem to help 😔 (this second paragraph is half joke)

#the ocd is OCD'ing !!!!!! get me OUTTA here !!!! #what actually would help is getting out and being around real life ppl more but. i am so tired fsdjkl that is so difficult #also i am afraid bc my immune system is so fucked up and i really cannot afford physically or mentally to get sick #if i was a man or man-adjacent i wouldn't feel bad about being attracted to men i think #bc then i'd ''at least be gay'' #but when i am nonbinary and transneutral then i feel like everyone is just going to see me as girl-lite in a straight relationship #and if i am not attracted to women then surely i MUST be a misogynist! because women are wonderful so why am i not as attracted to them! #its funny bc we have a lesbian in the system and also a gay man and then a few other ppl across the span of sexualities #and im just over here being the only one having mental breakdowns about my sexuality HFDSJGKL #everyone else is like. it literally does not matter the way u seem to think it does. ur fine. wtf are u on about. #and im over here spiralling out into crying breakdowns bc i convince myself i must be a terrible person for not being as attracted to women #i need to figure out how to stop going through this spiral every couple of months bc it is exhausting and so so so stupid oh my god #vent // #dandy.cmd

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

There always seems to be one kid who just screams like a tornado siren, all day long, at any given opportunity. Like, kid, I love you, you are precious and deserve all the happiness in the world; but please for the love of god shut up. There are people trying to learn here and you’re not helping them or yourself.

#I don’t like being harsh with people in general but if one child is raising the tension in the room to a fever pitch every single day #making it incredibly hard for the kids who are trying really really hard to focus when they already have focus issues #and because I know this specific kid gets absolutely spoiled rotten at home and is allowed to do whatever they want #you know… sometimes it helps to show the kid how they sound to others by demonstrating the obnoxious nature of The Scream #because when the parents do Jack Shit about teaching their kid discipline and courtesy; you have to be a parent in their stead #But do NOT continue to scream. You are an adult with adequate emotional control. Screaming should be be done EXTREMELY sparingly #and only utilized for demonstration purposes or to stop a brawl; not for bullying or intimidation #Don’t do a JoJo Siwa and TRY to make kids cry even though you may get stressed enough that you want to escalate on purpose #Again: you are an adult with adequate emotional control; don’t escalate unless the overreaching plan is to deescalate #if eliciting a startle response will stop harmful behavior and “snap them out of it” for long enough for you to get through #or if they just need to let all their emotions out at once so they can lose enough of that high energy to think critically #then sure #but you have to guide them back down very carefully and calmly; it’s a precise science #Don’t be mean about it; be genuine in your feelings and don’t go overboard. Genuine ≠ mean unless you’re evil #Or if you don’t feel emotions very strongly (like I do) then react like a “normal” person. Lie about being angry or sad if it is appropriat #Again: Your goal should not be to get the kid to do what you want; the goal should be to get them to feel good enough #so they are ABLE to do it in the first place #And the goal should also be to show them how their actions affect others if they are not aware of it #“Teach a man to fish” and all that. Don’t always check them; get them to check themselves #If a kid hits another kid when they’re angry at something completely unrelated; then 1.) redirect destructive behavior #and 2.) walk them back over to the kid they hurt and say: #“Look at [name]; look how sad you made them. [name] didn’t do anything to you #It’s okay to be angry but we CANNOT hit people when we are angry because it hurts and makes them cry.” Works great #Always remember there is a power imbalance inherent in EVERY child-adult relationship and NEVER abuse it #And if you’re not patient or emotionally stable enough to work with or have children; then don’t. Please don’t. #Children are not cute little dolls to play dress-up with; nor are they perfect angels; nor are they your personal stress ball #Having children is NOT A GAME. They are PEOPLE who will grow to be your age one day and everything you do affects them #Sorry I’m just tired of all these parents who shove iPads in their kids faces so they don’t bother them. You’re giving them an addiction

[queerhydrangea]

had a lovely evening with some very cool people and now i’m yet again wondering if i should move back to berlin: if i’d live here i wouldn’t have left the nice gathering this early and yet, living in berlin was one of the most lonely experiences i’ve had in my life. but if (one of) the most important person(s) in my life is gonna move to berlin, do i not go??

#i’ve been fully crying on the train about this wft #(and i’m drunk) #i kinda don’t want to go back to berlin (bc my parents are close & these lonely experiences feel so close) #but these lovely people would give me a job in a heart beat and if l actually moves here. i also have to?? #i cannot image a life without her living less than 10 minutes away #but she’s gonna have these friends here that i don’t really vibe with #aghhh. i have to stop thinking about it like this. it drives me insane #rambles

[lusalemaart]

dooo tle. scrible.

#i. am on my seishin shit rn. seishit. i. cannot stop. thinking about him. #oh my god. so far im keeping up with posting my shit. woah. mostly bc ig locked me out actually but. whatever #....sittin on a mountain top well above the clouds i dont feel lik e im about todrop hanging in the palace i dont harbor any malice imma be #n up in the slums imma been up in that palace im INFINITY sacred geometry living SIM PA LY universe aligned i feel the SYNERGY #thats why they call me temple PRIEST mother FUCKA #....i...dont think you trusyt. in. my . self righteous su #i #cide #i. cry #....... #when angels deserve to DIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEE #I digress #muroi seishin #shiki #alright back on my unpriv grind aaaaaahhhhhh #seishin muroi #must i try anymore i really dont want to render i just want to scribble #i really do. im tired. #actually im not done i have more thoughts. sorry gotta talk a lot. but. #i just love seishin so much. i love sunako being like HMMM sobota seems perfect. i like the authors works. i bet hes all fucked up. #judging by the way he writes he sounds AWFUL and DEPLORABLE and REVOLTING to the EYES #and then she sees him for the first time and is just like Oh you're just a Guy. You're just a regular old Dude. #makes you wonder just what exactly his published works look like #love that. emo little lad. #on the outside i am fine. on the inside i am... god why have you forsaken me.

[nebulouscoffee]

Friends I crave distraction. Please feel free to send me random Star Trek asks - about the shows, the characters, hot takes, theories, your fics, my fics, someone else's fics- anything is fine, I would very much welcome it

#it's been a rough week. people I know stop dying challenge :( #I'm sorry about the incoming tag rant but I literally cannot believe these last three months #I just got off the phone after what. number 7? 8? #and I feel so bad because it's not even MY immediate family so I shouldn't make this about me but like #these are still people who raised me #people who have been around since I was a kid #people I really believed were going to be around for a lot longer #(and pets. plural. what is UP with the number of deaths lately) #I'm just very exhausted with everything I'm not even crying anymore I'm literally just tired and I feel like I'm losing it #and yes I am not at the centre of these losses but it's still a cumulative effect...like spending hours & hours at funerals & on the phone #with grieving friends and family and trying to be there for them and not having any space or time to process these losses for myself #is not an unreasonable thing to feel exhausted from right? especially not after like three straight months of this? #anyway. would really like to think about people who don't really exist for the next few hours and maybe ramble a bit once I make dinner :)