#I’m not fine rn but it’ll be fine

[zeestarfishalien]

Not me plotting out ideas for dpxdc week

We be throwin at least one crack ship out there.

#shhh I’m definitely not on the edge of a mental breakdown from pushing too hard #writing is definitely not how I’m choosing to cope #I just really wanna take part in a dpxdc event this year okay? #whacked out thumbs be damned I will write some stuffs #I’m not fine rn but it’ll be fine #I’m working on it #writing helps so don’t tell me not to write or take a break #I literally cannot

[shima-draws]

Work was reeeeeal stressful today and my anxiety’s suuuper high rn lmao. Send some asks?

#Shima speaks #I’m probably gonna play the new Genshin update to help me wind down a bit hfhfhhfh #It’s always crazy busy at EOM. I wasn’t even able to get everything in 😔 #It’ll be fine I know. It was just a long day lol #Anyway. Genshin. I have not been playing at all the last few weeks ooos #*oops #I tried pulling for Xianyun with the little primos I had #Got a 5 star my first pull but it was Keqing 😭 #It’s okay I’ll grind primos while I explore the new region :’) #Haha can’t believe One Piece has distracted me from even Genshin. Which I play religiously. LMAO #Ughh there’s so much I gotta DO I need to draw but I don’t want to put more stress on myself rn #Just play viddy games Shima……no more working today for you……

[creature-from-unknown-orgins]

Zzzzzzz mimimimimi

#tired #no thoughts head empty #I wanna do stuff #but no brain power #*sighs* #they should let me make commas in the tags #I love commas #gn who ever sees this #may you have a lovely no wakey cold pillow nigjt #maybe you’ll see me later hehehhe #(I forgot to take my sleep meds but I’m hoping it’ll be fine) #for sure I won’t just wake up in the middle of the night right??? that’d be crazyyyyyy #also (ignoring that nobody will have gone this deep into my tags) I removed all of the nd stuff in my bio because I didn’t show signs when - #was little #I’m getting trauma therapy though #I’m curious how much of my brain rn is trauma and how much is actually me/ my genetics /gen #very interesting #I’m hoping it will make all of/most of my mental health problems go away #but that would probably be too good to be true #‘s kinda funny when you think about it #my body has been in fight/ flight mode aka traumatized for 6? years now? #man that’s a long time #wow #I didn’t realize it was that long #anyway #vent post #tag because it might’ve accidentally turned into one #good night :D #mimimimimim

[ninawolv3rina]

I want to be writing so bad rn i don’t understand why I’m not lol

#is this burnout #I’m big in the ‘i can’t afford to be burnt out’ stage rn lmao #and also??? I’m not burnt out i just need to get back into it #i know once i start up it’ll be fine i just need to get into it #ughhhhh i hate being an artist i hate creating #my shit #‘oh Nina this sure sounds a lot like burnout’ how about you shut up!!! /j #i have a lot going on i need creating to be an escape i think i might need to put off work on Friend to let myself rest…. and i hate that #i just want to love it and i know that to love that story i need to pause and wait until I’m healthy again #and in the meantime give myself grace that all i want to write is horror even it’s ‘unproductive’ #idk man there’s stuff happening in my life that just sucks and i want it to be over but it’s not going to be over for at least another week #idk #shit sucks bro #vent

[cryptid-on-a-string]

my mom sometimes offers to let me stay home from school if she sees me crying an obscene amount about something, so guess who’s not going to school tomorrow, bitches

#something kinda insane is going on rn and I’m just feeling shitty in general #plus nothing important is happening at school tomorrow so I think it’ll be fine to miss a day #I still wish I didn’t feel like shit though :/

[x-mensirens]

Ngl lie y’all the episode got me in a weird place 😭 I just been doing school work and playing video games….literally halted some story drafts I’ve been working on for some time (while simultaneously giving me new ideas)

I’m all caught up for the week tho! So idk what scene exactly but I’ll prob make some more content for y’all tomorrow ima do my best idk idk idk

be well tysm for all the notes

#personal #it’ll be fine but #but damn yall #I honestly hope they get the original show runner back like #everyone has an OF these days #this is a pro OF and sex worker account like #only way I’m making money rn Smfh #but massage therapy school is going great :) #unlike the nicer of ‘97 #but like also #what if evo rogue and this rogue met 😭 #it hurts in my chest #cable got me thinking about Hope too

[akkivee]

we going!!!!!! いってきま~~~す!!!

#this is vee speaking #i’m at the airport but holy heck i’ve already had an entire adventure LOL #my car decided it wanted to have Trouble lmao so i had to get my car towed 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #fortunately i decided to leave three hours early for my flight lol bc i had to get an uber and the driver didn’t take fast lanes/highways #my accommodation isn’t being very accommodating rn and highkey might need to fight someone when i land #but y’know????? kuukou believes in dealing with shit as it happens just don’t lose hope and it’ll be fine and yeah!!!!! #we’ll be fine!!!!! there’s always options!!!!! *is furiously brainstorming lmao* #like i’m still excited despite looming car fees and stay troubles we vibing!!!!!!! not quite at fck it we ball status LOL

[microsuedemouse]

experiencing the spectacular mental and emotional tug-of-war that is ‘just sent a link to a post on My Own Tumblr to a guy I’m talking to’ vs. ‘I use the same username literally everywhere and I have always been quite aware that that makes me very easy to find, snoop on, and - if desired - drag mercilessly’

#it’s fine. it’s fine. he’s nice. it’ll be fiiiiinnnne. #personal #life #(you’re allowed to laugh at me rn. I’m laughing at myself)

[moontxt]

I can’t believe some of you actually graduate and go home and live with your parents. does jealousy ever make anyone else feel sick

#fuck!!!!!!!!!! #but it’s okay I’m gonna make it work I’m gonna get a job it’ll all be fine :) #gritting my teeth rn everything will be okay :)

[chibishortdeath]

So much happening in the world and in my personal life at once and I am completely unable to do anything about any of it. I am completely exhausted. I need to move out, but I can’t.

I’ve been stuck with a headache for a few months.

#text post #vent post #tw vent #cw vent #I’d say delete later but I don’t ever actually do that anyway #maybe I should go through vents and delete them Al #tbh I’m starting to realize that maybe never being allowed to do anything and never being taught how to do anything as a kid was neglect #it probably also wasn’t normal that I tried to be the ‘easy kid’ and avoid any perceived trouble as much as physically possible #I usually just sit in the furthest part of the house dissociate and try to immediately appear fine if anyone walks in and sees me #idk maybe I should just make that super self indulgent Simon’s Quest comic since it’ll probably be practically vent art anyway #he’s a little bit too relatable for comfort #and man I didn’t even fight Dracula to end up messed up how lame smh 😔 #I feel like I would just end up feeling guilty that I’m not doing something else more important though #most of the things I can do right now I can’t without guilt that stops me somewhere through #and that includes trying to rest haha yippie :/ #I can’t even draw the blorbo dead about it like it’s past that level of bad #I guess I shouldn’t even suggest doing anything I can’t do too #I don’t even wanna look at my instagram rn I can’t fix any of that either #idk if I should go into any details or not but I literally just can’t change anything #and I know I can’t get better unless I leave but I can’t leave and there’s nowhere to go #even places online are starting to become uninhabitable #we truly live in a time :/ #I’m just typing anything I think of as I think of it #tldr ​I am a terrible person who can’t get better because I’m stuck in a terrible situation and everything sucks basically #i’m exhausted #i feel so trapped #it feels like I have no autonomy or effect on the world at all #ugh I’m not explaining anything correctly enough anyway #I guess supper is almost ready and I should stop ranting at nothing #I’m basically just here to try to make it to 29 at least for the silly Simon game reference haha that is so pathetic

[ophernelia]

low quality sneak peek?

#i’m literally editing rn #it has been color corrected or fine tuned yet #it’ll probably look a lot different when it’s published #sneak peek #Lykaia

[fizzytoo]

trying to convince myself that just bc my hair is darker than i wanted it to be it’s not the end of the world

#*fizzyspeaks #my hair is naturally a dark brown but it’s black rn 🫂 i’m struggling guys bc i don’t think it looks good #my mom and brother said i look fine #i think that my week has just been so bad that i can’t really think rationally right now #and i’m not conventionally attractive so now my hair has to look bad on top of that !!! gonna go crazy gonna go nuts #i was ready feeling incredibly insecure and this is just another thing to add on #i thought about stripping the color but i think it’ll just be worse #i’ll give myself a few days to calm down 😞

[by-your-leave]

Going to have a breakdown tonight I just know it (it’s not the gift of forsight I have to go to Debs(prom) tonight with a guy I don’t want to go with but I’m doing a favour and he likes me but I just accepted that I’m a lesbian and I don’t want to bring him but him and my family expects me too and I really do not want to do this)

#also I hate like 98% of the school I’m only going for food and get to wear a pretty dress #like. how much of a loser would I be if I brought my DS or Switch or smthing ?? I want to #guy I have to bring also has friends in my school from last year and. he’s gonna talk to them and I DONT want to hang out with them #I didn’t even. like like him last year I just felt weird turning him down yk? #well if it isn’t #the consequences of my own actions #feeling very sick rn so it can only get worse lmaooooo #don’t wish me luck it will not work. wish it to my poor sister instead who probably has to deal with my upcoming 1am breakdown #ohh also. the lesbian thing is real if I havnt said I totally am. whiles worth of development but here it is #this situation is made. 100 times worse because of this fact #also wish Japanese-American Singer Songwriter Mitski luck aswell she will be making thousands from how post tonight will be #-‘Last Words of a Shooting Star and Once More to See You’- will be working overtime tonight #anyway this is a silly rant but whatever lol it’ll be fine

[dahldahlbills]

nano day 20-25

20- 1952

21- 771

22- 643

23&24- 0 (don’t look at meeee I didn’t have time lol)

25- 2233

Total word count: 32149, 25885 towards main wip (!!!)

I didn’t realize how many days had gone by without updating lol but it’s fine bc it’s not like anyone’s really keeping track

anyway it’s v apparent I’m not hitting the 50k BUT IT’S OKAY! I’ve made peace with it. It was p dumb of me to start the month going “I just wanna write as much as I can” bc obv I was setting myself up for disappointment. So if I’m able to reach just 30k on my main wip, I’ll be happy.

Also patting myself on the back for reaching +25k, I think the 30k will be v feasible with the remaining 5 days. That’s <1k a day!

Also finished the 12th scene! We’re over a third of the way through the project :D (which admittedly is around where I hit my typical story middle slump, but I’m hoping I can remain consistent after November)

#also ​abt the 50k. I posted a fic too so that’s worth celebrating #I’ve written a lot I’m def not discrediting that #plus those extra 20k words are gonna get written regardless just not within this month it’s fine #I’m expecting this project to be ~75-80k #so there’s gonna be plenty left to do after November anyway #scene 13 is a Big Emotional scene so I hope I don’t flub it up #but I’m excited for it I think it’ll be good. I’ve had ideas for this scene in particular for a while #so its crazy that I’m finally writing it #I def feel like this entire story has been a HOT mess so far #mostly bc these characters have been living in my head for so long that I keep forgetting the gradual progression of their development #I feel like I keep skipping significant moments in their growth bc I’m so used to how they’re /supposed/ to be #but it’s cool. I never expected a lot of this draft to be solid anyway but what matters is that it’s something to work with!! #also feel like it jumps around a lot. like the flow between scenes isn’t entirely clear #and that’s mostly bc I don’t wanna write scene connectors rn lol #but that’s always something I can grumble and groan about later #dahl does nano 23

[tvrningout-a]

when i say i don’t wanna practice this korean convo with my partner tonight

#my social battery? nonexistent lads #the urge to cry bc i’m overtired? we ain’t gonna address that #ASDGJHFS #it’ll be fine and we need to practice bc our presentation is tomorrow #but rn i’m having a lil baby moment alright and then i’m gonna push through uvu #i love you all and i promise you can do the hard thing!! i believe in you!!! MWAH MWAH!!! #get ready to ramble | ooc