thinking about how honest the hope is in disco elysium, if that makes sense. how you face consequences for the actions and life you can’t remember. how your nightmares come back and they just might be there to stay. how you still wake up in pain and have to very actively fight off the cravings of your old addictions. how it isn’t easy trying to chose not just life, but living better, living for yourself. how it doesn’t mean any of the problems will go away, or the pain will stop, but it gives you an option other than constant suffering. there’s always a silver lining, it’s just a matter of being able to look up and find it.
hope isn’t always easy, and sometimes it is a choice, but in a torn up world and a torn up body, it’s something. it’s not always pretty or perfect, it’s clumsy and sometimes foolish and hard to keep close, it’s difficult, and maybe it’s all you have but it’s something - streets and sodium lights, the sky, the world, you’re alive
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hi friend I am respectfully making demands at risk of siege that you talk about something in your modern au that might never come up in text but is a piece of it nonetheless
you have 72 hours otw canadas next
Somer. You nearly made the temptation to wait on this too much. Luckily I’m a Grade A rambler being asked to ramble and there is a good bit that either won’t or might not ever be in this. Buckle up buttercup. 🤪
So I have included, in some of my ramblings, references that the First Hero (ie the one mentioned in Skyward Sword as being Sky’s predecessor) and that trains will be in this AU. Currently the plan is to make this very slice of life, one-two shot set up for the Before the Adventure stuff and then have a “introduction of plot” fic that’s chaptered… before the rest is back to the one-three shot slice of life stuff. So my opportunity to have many things be brought outa the vault is pretty high. So that said…. This will be pretty much bits and pieces of ideas I had and scrapped but still like or things I’m holding onto but likely won’t write;
That said… Mister First will likely stay as just referenced as the Queen’s companion, until or unless he appears in LU canon and I feel it necessary to include him more. Mostly cause nine is the biggest cast I’ve written for… ever. Which isn’t even the full number for LU but it’s the most consistent one. Also because i don’t know enough to feel like I’ve got a good grasp. Plus it’s fun to make him kind of cryptid like in this quasi-political court field I’ve created.
Then the trains! Spirit Tracks is really cute and very much set far after Wind’s time. So I thought it could be fun to have that as a little teaser to maybe having the train boy come in. We’ll see. I want to go through a little more and see how some others shake out with the plot I currently have.
The Champions were actual people in this! Not just constellations. They did pass in The Calamity and I will likely only ever reference them briefly for feels. Urbosa was the soccer coach at Wild and Flora’s school. Revali was Link’s rival in archery. Mipha was Swim Captain and in a flirtationship with Wild. Daruk was the wrestling coach. Both Urbosa and Daruk taught actual classes. Daruk did Math, don’t ask me which.. pls I don’t like math. Urbosa did the Gerudo language class.
Urbosa was Riju’s cousin, it was distanced though. Daruk was Yunobo’s grandfather still. Mipha and Sidon still siblings, can’t change that. Revali was Saki’s nephew.
None of this will ever really come up because Wild’s past amnesia will only come up occasionally. It’s said that in BOTW that he has regained his memory by the end, so im going to run with a version of Wild who remembers, is grieving, and is trying to move on. So at most there will be a reference to them as his still healing grief comes and goes.
A lot of my world building are things that likely will not be big big in the story, just things I’ve made note of so I remember that they’re important references.
Like Sky and Twi’s nicknames for each other! They defend them ruthlessly, even if they’re a little embarrassed by them. They were penpals as kids, a program ran by their schools to encourage the grade schoolers to practice writing, and got made fun of by their classmates because their names are the same! So the usual school yard taunts of their penpal being themself and things a long those lines. Little kid logic of let’s give each other nicknames and that’ll solve the problem! It didn’t but it made them feel better and special, so they stuck. The nicknames come from their middle names and I haven’t decided if those get revealed in story or not, so no sharing here yet.
There is some funky magic stuff that happened, happens, and will happen. Time and Lullaby do have the whole time magic stuff. So while Time remembers meeting Warriors… Warriors remembers meeting someone much younger and thinks Time is his own younger brother (this may come up, it may not). Warriors did deal with some funky portal magic stuff like from his game, yes Cia was in the middle of it, and The Calamity was a magically driven disaster.
I played around with the idea of the depths also being a part of the Hyrule map and having it be the home of the Twili people… except that was going to be a little much to handle as far as keeping track and mentioning. So I scrapped it.
The Twili people do have a land of their own, it is outside of Hyrule, but it is not a part of Hyrule. Midna lived with Dusk when she was an exchange student. Her phone number was turned off because Hylian phone carriers don’t work in the Twili lands. The Twili people are more nomadic despite being modern times, they still move from place to place. They have ‘Village Sites’ where there are some buildings that they move into when they move. Their clothing reflects that more nomadic lifestyle and they tend to not keep anything that can’t be carried easily.
There will be more probably… once I start actually hammering out full pieces, there will be for sure.
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i’m gonna cry
me to other patients: i’m really bad at noticing when the way i said something was insensitive or sounded aggressive, i guarantee you i didn’t mean it like that. just tell me calmly and immediately and i’ll clarify what i meant or how i meant it and we can avoid conflict.
other patients: ok no problem, will do, thanks for the heads up :)
*spongebob narrator voice* a few days later:
ten minutes after a short conversation that i thought was completely normal and neutral:
other patient who’s in his late fifties and like 1.85 metres: *gets in my face, cheeks red out of anger, yelling at me like a father and in front of four other people: IF YOU GET IN MY FACE LIKE THAT AGAIN AND TREAT ME LIKE I’M STUPID AND LIKE YOURE SO MUCH BETTER AND SMARTER THAN I AM, YOU AND I ARE GONNA HAVE A REAL ASS PROBLEM!
me, almost crying cus im having flashbacks and feel humiliated: oh my god, im so sorry, what did i say that came off like that? i thought we had a normal chat! please stop yelling at me!
he: I YELL AT YOU AS I PLEASE AND YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU SAID, SO STOP BEHAVING LIKE THIS OR YOURE GONNA REGRET IT VERY, VERY BADLY!
me: i really am so sorry, whatever i said, i didn’t mean to be aggressive or inappropriate!
he: DONT TALK TO ME LIKE THAT, YOUNG LADY! You got it? Alright then we’re fine again.
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It’s barely March here and I started the prompts. I literally have the whole thing outlined, I just have to write it… but I don’t wanna. Why am I like this? Come on Cyn, you can write this then possibly think about the extra scene you totally want to write too. Isn’t it enough that I have it in my brain? Must I write it into existence?
Update: I was making progress but then a trade happened and now I’m unwell. It ruined my whole day. I’m still so sad. Blueger my beloved, you deserved better. I miss you 😭😭😭
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