#IM CRYING IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH

[captn3]

until next time.... stay fresh [plain text: until next time.... stay fresh]

#splatoon #splatoon 1 #wii u #memo's constellations #inkling girl #memo's agents #memo agents: 3 #technically. its the splatoon 1 promo inkling but based off of my 3 design #sad im probably not gonna get to play splatoon in its last moments #its okay though #god. the 3ds and wii u era was fucking awesome #im gonna miss her #triforce heroes‚ splat1‚ pushmo world... god. god #i listened to noteblock's 3ds settings remix and it actually made me cry because triforce heroes showed up in the background #and then it hit me how long its been and how much these two consoles have meant to me #the 3ds was really my gateway into art #thank you colors 3d. ive made it so far because of you #man. something about the online services ending the same day as the eclipse over here. #and the wii u was technically also my gateway into art with splatoon. it made me draw so much more #do you know how much splatoon ive drawn. that game changed me. that game makes me who i am today #thank you

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Rubius left the server for now, but he says he’ll get more involved in QSMP again. First, he wants to call the admins so they can update him on the lore.

Rubius also said that, at the time when QSMP first started, he was a little “Minecraft”-ed out. But now that some time has passed, he wants to enter the server and build small things… but as a “human” without losing his angel and demon lore.

#i talk #qsmp talk #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! #CELLBIT QUACKITY ROIER THANK YOU SO MUCH THANK YOU #YOU FINALLY GOT HIM BACK #frickin crying sobbing weeping #IVE MISSED RUBIUS CUBITO SO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHH #IM SO EXCITED FOR EVERYONE TO MEET HIM #I'm also so SO excited to see him interact with everyone as a human #RUBIUS AND VEGETTA INTERACTIONS... #RUBIUS AND ROIER... #RUBIUS AND QUACKITY... #RUBIUS AND CELLBIT AND RUBIUS AND PHIL AHHH #SO MANY POSSIBLITIES

[oatbugs]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago. #(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year) #(hed come across the bridge on a lake) #we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared. #it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much. #and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine. #she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

[skateboardtotheheart]

hm yes hello good morning good day I am about to lose my shit

#why did i decided to watch the promo while at work???? #couldn't fucking tell you #i am trying not to scream #holy FUCK #ive missed them so much #THEY LOOKED SO GOOD #AND THEY WERE SMILING #im gonna cry theyre so cute #i love them #i love this show #im gonna jump back on my bullshit so fast yall dont even know #I LOVE YOUNG ROYALS #young royals #simon eriksson #wilmon #prince wilhelm #young royals season 3

[clementine-writes-things]

"I've got a busy day tomorrow. I should really go to sleep."

*proceeds to listen to the Born To Die Paradise Edition album while sobbing into my pillow*

#lana del rey #aka lizzy grant #lana del slay #born to die #i love lana so much #this is a daily thing for me tbh #DON'T MAKE ME SAD DON'T MAKE ME CRY SOMETIMES LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH AND THE ROAD GETS TOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHY #LETS GET OUTTA THIS TOWN BABY WE'RE ON FIRE #BEEN TRYING HARD NOT TO GET INTO TROUBLE BUT I #OURS A LOVE I HELD TIGHTLY FEELING THE RAPTURE GROW LIKE A FLAME BURNING BRIGHTLY #I'VE GOT A BURNING DESIRE FOR YOU BABY #THINK I'LL MISS YOU FOREVER LIKE THE STARS MISS THE SUN IN THE MORNING SKY #LIKE A GROUPIE INCOGNITO POSING AS A REAL SINGER LIFE IMITATES ART #MON AMOUR SWEET CHILD OF MINE YOU'RE DIVINE DIDN'T ANYONE EVER TELL YOU IT'S OK TO SHINE #AND THERE'S NO REMEDY FOR MEMORY YOUR FACE IS LIKE A MELODY IT WON'T LEAVE MY HEAD #COME ON BABY LETS RIDE WE CAN ESCAPE TO THE GREAT SUNSHINE #THIS IS WHAT MAKES US GIRLS WE ALL LOOK FOR HEAVEN AND WE PUT LOVE FIRST #TELL ME IM YOUR NATIONAL ANTHEMMMMM #BABYS ALL DRESSED UP WITH NOWHERE TO GO #WE GET DOWN EVERY FRIDAY NIGHT DANCIN AND GRINDIN IN THE PALE MOONLIGHT #IVE NOTHING WITHOUT YOU ALL MY DREAMS AND ALL THE LIGHTS MEAN NOTHING WITHOUT YOU #I WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE END OF TIMEEEEE #NOW MY LIFE IS SWEET LIKE CINNAMON LIKE A FUCKING DREAM IM LIVING IN #DIET MOUNTAIN DEW BABY NEW YORK CITY NEVER WAS THERE EVER A GIRL SO PRETTY #HELLO HEAVEN YOU ARE A TUNNEL LINED WITH YELLOW LIGHTS ON A DARK NIGHT #WOULD YOU BE MINE WOULD YOU BE MY BABY TONIGHTTTTTT #YOU MAKE ME CRAZY YOU MAKE ME WILD JUST LIKE A BABY SPIN ME AROUND LIKE A CHILD #I NEED YOU I BREATHE YOU I'LL NEVER LEAVE YOU! #HEAVEN IS A PLACE ON EARTH WITH YOU TELL ME ALL THE THINGS YOU WANNA DOOOOOOO #ONE FOR THE MONEYYYYY TWO FOR THE SHOWWWWWW

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

WAITTTTT ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING MEEEEEE BAIZHU’S RERUN BANNER IS IN FOUR DAYS????????????? FOUR FUCKING DAYS????????????????

#I DONT KNOW IF I SHOULD CRY OR CHEER?????? #you dont UNDERSTAND he’s literally the reason i started playing genshin ???? ive been waiting 2 get him since zhongli’s first banner??????? #but then …. i stopped playing ……. and missed sumeru :’3 #and now right when i start playing again after like. a Year. HE’S GETTING A RERUN???????? #ITS SOOOO MEANT TO BE but also . if i dont get him …………… #…………. #time …. to start saving …… i guess……………. #:’3 #ohhhh im abt to be so irresponsible w my money #baizhu i love you so much mwah mwah mwah <3333333333 #ari noises ✩

[qhostcaptain]

just finished the final episodes of ghosts. im not ok.

i have never cried so much over a series oh my god that was absolutely heartbreaking DO NOT talk to me i don’t even know what to do with myself anymore.

#oh my god that was the saddest ending ive ever seen #bbc ghosts #i am absolutely devastated #im literally crying #i did not expect that twist #im too attached to them i cant do this #the six idiots #oh my god im gonna miss them so much #i love you larry rickard i really do #laurence rickard #jim howick #mat baynton #mathew baynton #ben willbond #martha howe douglas #simon farnaby #lolly adefope #katy wix

[iqmmir]

Hi im back . For some time

#.mimiming ❜ #um . hi im gonna slee soon but i missed you all so much #umm first of all im trying to ccut down in screentime because my therapist told me to #second. after two or three months of convincing myself that i literally do not care im only going to school for just a few more days (onl #y today and wednesday) i literally do not care #i almost keep crying . because well um #idk. i was originally planning on cutting off contact with everyone #because of stuff thats happened before #but my friends. my current friends dont just treat me as a therapist or something so #also one of my wives would probably hunt me down and kill me if i tried to cut off contact #but ill still miss this stupid class and this stupid school and all the stupid teachers and students #and the horrible tasting canteen food #and the playground ive played in eight times total despite being here for 12 years #idk man #also because of my periods my mood swings were so much worse #and i just ..idk i needed a break ig #anyways im back for sometime then ill start looking for a job #me friend said maybe we can do something together #idk #you can always send me asks and dms tho 👍👍 #im not really sure . like about anything right now #ill try to get the drawing requests done soon maybe #wild how time passes huh #god i need to stop acting like such a grownup im literally three years old

[sidewindes]

𝐭𝐯/𝐟𝐢𝐥𝐦 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 : @demadogs 𝐚𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 : @px3

[thanatos-nightshade]

Im so sorry i played Our Life: beginnings and always and not only has it sucker punched me with bittersweet feelings of life and change and relationships but its also thrown me into brain rot hell of it. Im sorry if ocean boy cove floods your feed get it? Its a pun

#t-n talks #personal #our life: beginnings & always #olba #i love him so much i love them all so much i need to replay with all the dlcs and get shiloh to come to our wedding #because i named a fosh after him in like step 2 or 3 and i missed him and i dont care if he lied to us im sorry shiloh #come baaack #but also baxter what happened baxter we missed you so much youre important to us youre important to meeeeeee #everyones my friend now how do i have jeremy at my wedding but not shiloh? jeremy you should have made shiloh suffer tooooo #im so glad i got jeremy though god i felt for him so bad like genuinely what was wrong while he was mean to us #i just wanted to be nice and friends but also dont be mean to cove and im so glad hes mellowed out a bit hes really a good kid sometimes #i love them all so much dereeeekkkkk hes such a good friend god hes SUCH A GOOD FRIEND im screaming #and baxter baxter baxter baxter sometimes i dont think hes in love with us but in love with our relationship but also like #i wouldnt mind us three being closer because youre fucking important to me baxter just like jeremy #youre all part of this found family gay as shit now if i can be adopted then that means i can adopt you too!!! #god but seriously? like i expected to cry because of relationship love drama at first not because i was having #complicated feelings about being adopted and my relatiinship with my sister god ive never had an older sister really #and my siblings and i arent super close but im adopted and i dont think ive ever wanted something more than this family #this game man i just god my fiance was like “i dont think this game was meant to be so deep/intense” but like its a visual novel #novels are meant to invoke feelings and thoughts and discussion and reflection at least thats what i believe every story has a purpose #its up to us to figure out what its purpose is maybe not in general but to us what can we take away from it and god #it makes me want to hold onto my friendships tightly and reach out to everyone i knew/know #i have too many tags on here because of brain rot but i love this game and im so excited for the next one and i would love to download #like my log of the entire game so that i can recap everything at like my leisure #just cause im not gonna remember all my choices and stuff

[hanrinz]

also mourning for twenty sundays rin fic @naosaki

#that was my life line #my reason to breathe #the very thing that change my existence and perspective of the world #crying shaking screaming #made me absolutely insane and reread it on sad days #note: which is very often #twenty sundays my absolute love and joy and my reason to live i will miss you so much #come back please ive been dying to be in your arms and hold you close all day #OH MAHH GAHHHHHHHH #im gonna sob so baf #twenty sundays is the queen #she stays on top #she will be missed dearly #she will close to our hearts #im cryinggggg #im need her #im need twenty sundays #ART PLEASE #i cling to her very existence #awkward rin is my og fave #twenty sundays was the og ong #twenty sundays had altered lives and rin lovers were born out of it #i will forever not shut up about it #i feel sorry for those who have not yet read it #it was the masterpiece the world needed #NEEDED AND WANTED

[hismourningflower]

so you mean to tell me MY HUSBAND SHOWS UP JUST LIKE THAT ?????

#i was singing to myself and i went DEAD SILENT IN AWE #IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH AAAAAA HEHEBSJWNSKSK #IM SO HAPPY I MIGHT CRY ?????!!

[the-kipsabian]

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#the thing about being so bad at writing is that when you also do it very irregularly about shit nobody else cares about #you drive yourself into a hole where absolutely nothing motivates you cause nobody misses your fics #also ive been made to feel bad lately about choosing fic writing over drawing so its. been a really fucking bad brain time #idk. i dont feel like a contributing member of the fandom. like it doesnt matter at all what i do i dont provide anything of any value #i hate it here and once again im just. sad and done but im useless with anything so what does it matter and who cares #its so hard to explain. i just dont feel like im doing anything meaningful #and i know thats not an actual indicator of the quality of my work but. try telling my garbage brain these two things arent related lmao #sorry im just. im just useless. i dont just feel that i know i am. with anything i cant do just piling up and the list getting longer i jus #maybe i should finally give up writing too. would make thinking about everything so much easier. nobody would miss it #and nobody can convince me otherwise about that #im gonna go cry in my cocoa now goodbye #night is an absolute mess on main

[cinnamon-notes]

i have been ghosting my friends for idk a month??? and they have been doing the same??? except for when we meet in a workplace cuz somehow our jobs decided to cross over :)

#feeling so bad about it but like i cant bring myself to interact with people right now but i am also constantly sad because i dont interact #with anyone out of work :/ but working makes me socially exhausted & tbh all i wanna do is be depressed with my books & my movies &my tunes #but i also crave affection like i realize i have zero social life and i sometimes schedule some hangout with my friends but it's almost #become like idk a task? something i look at through work eyes. like- i arrange our hangouts the way i arrange work meetings. it's so sad. #i know it is. but still- i cant help it. through all my life ive been missing having a lifelong friend who knows me like the back of their #hands and i know like the back of mine. never had it. cant cry over that. it's passed. i cant invent lifelong friendships that never existed #and i gotta make peace with that. plus- what am i complaining about if im just incapable of keeping any friend for longer than a month??? #after the first month- maybe the first couple of months- it all gets boring and dont get me wrong i really love my friends but somehow they #lose interest in me and i lose interest in them and we become just people who know each other and occasionally hang out but like- i've never #had a friend who's there for me when things happen in my life. i've always had friends to tell things to afterwards. like- i know i cant #really pick up the phone and say “hey. im having a bad time. can we take a walk? talk on the phone? can you tell me about your day? can you #just be here for me?“ and i cant even idk just randomly pop up with a ”oh my god i hate him i hate him i hate him it's a whole montague vs #capulet but if romeo and juliet never existed kind of hatred!!“ i just cant vent right away. ive always thought that that's my problem. #and maybe it is. but still- how's come they can vent to me? im always there right away. i do love my people and i show up for them. #sometimes my depression makes it soooo difficult to hang out constantly but if there's one thing that cannot be said about mw is that i dont #care. cuz i do. and maybe that's the problem #and maybe it's just easier for me to care than let others care? idk? but then again- i did try to open up. i did try to let them care. i did #try everything by the book & off the book but still- idk it's always just an “im sorry” never an “i care so much to say more than im sorry” #and yeah it's my problem cuz i am not a constant person im not that steady in what i do. i still dont know if it's because i havent found #yet the people worth doing it or if i am just traumatized (my ex is knocking on this door lol) but- idk it makes me extremely sad!!! #and ive rambled on way too much but i jusg needed to let some things out of my mind cuz i cant understand whats wrong with me and why i #crave true friendships although im hella scared of and bored of and unwilling to nurturing one :) #cinnamon diary

[s0fter-sin]

idk what it is about x-men ‘97 but something about the animation style reminds me of archer. like the style is highly detailed but doesn’t match the skeleton underneath? like the model is moving less than the animation suggests

#i dont know its just putting me off a bit #im only on the first episode so maybe ill get used to it #but god ive missed gambit so much #hes so perfect in his slutty little crop top #ive seen people being like oh theyve made him woke #gambit?? #you sure about that? #bc being fruity is practically in his character bio #and man wearing crop tops was in fashion in the 90s #you just have no idea about anything and want to cry about ‘demasculinising’ male characters #which is very pathetic #especially when the guy youre talking about wears hot pink and makes hot pink explosions #you cant get more flaming queer than that #also they heard all the racists having a go and storm and went hold my beer bc holy shit they went off with her #turning the sand to glass with her lightening?? dude #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #peace was never an option #xmen #x men 97

[ozlices]

realized it's my friend who disappeared a year ago's birthday,,, and just got. absolutely whiplashed with grief. i hate not knowing if she's even Alive, much less doing okay. i sincerely, with all my heart and soul, hope she's alive & well. happy birthday, m. not a day goes by that you don't cross my mind. i miss you.

#mine #m tag #idk. what to rly. do w myself now. #i just wanna cry honestly. #ive lost so many people over this past year #but she's one of the hardest ones bc i dont even know if she's Gone gone. #i just know she's unreachable from my position. #& it hurts. it hurts so fucking much. my heart hurts so much & it's so empty. #she's one of the best people i've ever had the absolute delight of knowing. #she always checked on me & was so loving & understanding & always knew exactly what to say to cheer me up. #& she's so fucking funny GOD i miss her humor. #she disappeared before i had full system discovery so my alters never even got to introduce themselves to her... #fuck. im gonna tear up i hope you're okay. please be okay. please come back someday. nothing is the same w/out you. #every time a new v/nc chapter comes out i just. think abt you. & i cant even look at them anymore bc it just hurts. #i love you so much. i hope you know that. wherever you are.