#Seriously I've been working so hard

[crescentfool]

orpheus and thanatos 💚

#persona 3 #ryomina #ryoji mochizuki #minato arisato #makoto yuki #lizzy does art #HIII EVERYONE :3 happy halloween.... (has been working on this for four weeks off and on) #i've always yearned to see art of ryoji and minato based on thanatos and orpheus!!! #i know that ryoji can be likened to being the eurydice figure which i agree with but I HAVE BEEN THINKING SO HARD ABT THEM LIKE THIS OK. #it was nice to give drawing something more ambitious (for my standards) an earnest try again! i love working with lineless and lighting #and working on this has inspired me to HOPEFULLY start doing some studies of sorts! i want to learn so many things... #all so that i can make ryomina as epic as possible... #also LET ME TELL YOU that thanatos coffins are making me realize i seriously need to do drawabox or something. #trying to put them in perspective is hard... but im pretty happy with what i made!!! #also can i just say i love how shapely orpheus is?? i love orpheus joints etc etc its so nice. very fresh #sighs longingly. i love them very much they make me want to do better at things. i hope everyone has a wonderful week ahead! 💙 #very excited to see what people do for ryomina week (<- they haven't made anything 4 it yet bc Busy... but i'll submit smthn late maybe)

[fedoraspooky]

I truly hope the rumors of tumblr selling its user's artwork and other images to midjourney aren't real, because I am extremely tired of having to uproot and move around on the internet and still haven't fully recovered from the old dA-to-tumblr exodus... But juuuust in case a deal like that does go through, I'mma just leave this linktree post here. Just, y'know, for reasons.

The worst part is, you can't even delete or go back and edit your posts to opt out if this happens, because reblogs are unaffected. If anyone has ever reblogged your work there will be no way to opt out of this unless we can get a class action suit for tumblr going, or I guess report our own artwork and hope they nuke it themselves.

Just... Really didn't fuckin need this. Tumblr has been my internet home since 2011. I may not have a lot of followers, but I've made a lot of friends here over the years, and i don't wanna start all over from scratch AGAIN because some pissbaby CEO decided to have a transphobic breakdown and sell out all of the site's artists to theft machine robber barons for a shiny nickel.

I'm hesitant to post on insta too because zuck's vacuuming up everything for his AI too. Same with musk. Like, where the hell can we even go now?

All I can think of rn is just... Bluesky, cohost, sheezyart (which is as of this post still in closed beta), and newgrounds. There's furaffinity and stuff too but idk if I draw enough furries to be on a furry site, y'know? Idk, maybe my werecreature and nonhuman character stuff counts but just ughhh if we gotta move, can we all just agree on a place and move together and not scatter to the winds again? That would be great.

#seriously i am so tired of every single place i've worked hard to get anywhere on pulling heinous shit like this #sheezyart cant open back up fast enough #i also need to post more on bluesky now that that's open too #like i know the internet's already been scraped but you just know #ai corpos are making these deals so they can skirt the lawsuits and say they 'legally licensed' our works fair and square

[flecks-of-stardust]

wholeheartedly and with as much gentleness as possible, i truly think there needs to be more discussion about downpour in the community as it is now. for a variety of reasons.

#not main tagging this right now but #some tag babbling. like #some of yall are unnecessarily cruel about downpour. seriously. #you don't have to like it but you can also stand not to tear down someone's work like this #if every word out of your mouth is just about how much you hate downpour. why are you still here? #and i mean that genuinely. it's unpleasant for you and for everyone else. and i say this as someone who still prefers vanilla's lore #at the same time i think it's a real issue where some people take downpour as gospel and assume things about other people's creative choice #even though downpour is a DLC and it's hard to make certain claims about canonicity because of that #it has been publicly acknowledged as being an official AU. multiple times. by the MSC devs themselves #downpour is a fan made passion project that was worked on for years and years before it got DLC status #it was never meant to be scrutinized in the way it is now. i think it's more appropriate to regard it as like #a really popular fanfic most of the fanbase has read #i just feel like. a lot of the community conflicts i've seen stem from downpour's messy existence as a DLC that was originally a mod #and i think it's valuable to have community discussions about that. but also this is tumblr. so. i'm probably asking for too much

[welcometogrouchland]

Stephanie Brown and Dick Grayson: I Am Going To Be A Good Parent To Pass On The Good Parts Of My Tumultuous Childhood/Give Someone Else What I Didn't Have Growing Up

Vs

Damian Wayne and Cassandra Cain: You Could Not Pay Me To Be A Parent For Fear I Would Continue The Cycle Of Violence

#dc comics #stephanie brown #dick grayson #damian wayne #cassandra cain #ramblings of a lunatic #don't ask me about tim jason or duke idk what's going on there #Tim can't even make it to college unimpeded his ass is NOT entering fatherhood #you could do something really interesting with Jason as a father but it'd either have to go hard into the 'jason healing' route- #-or the complete opposite direction and go full on 'repeating the cycle of violence' fucked up #and either way it's gonna be divisive #i recently found out (bc i skipped batman and the outsiders) that duke's dad is some kind of immortal entity???? what in the fresh hell #I'm not saying it can't be cool I'm saying I'm. so goddman surprised it's never brought up by ANYONE #i know duke doesn't get his flowers in fandom but SERIOUSLY. WHAT? #ngl i can't say for sure that i don't like it bc i haven't seen the execution but. instinctually i prefer his og backstory #it just felt more grounded and linked to his setting? his whole thing is being the light and pushing batmans message further- #which is already hard for some writers to work w bc depending on interpretation that's the territory of like. 5 other guys in batfam #but duke does it in his own way with the whole working the dayshift angle. idk am i the only one hung up on the eldritch daddy thing? #bc i simply can't imagine the thought process behind that #anyway I've been thinking about the bit in robin 2021 where damian says he's never having kids. he's so real for that #he loves both his parents deeply and that series made that clear but MAN he is not passing on all this mental illness to anyone #and then i thought about how badly steph wanted to be a mom even as a teenager despite her own shitty parents #how she wanted to give someone else more than she had growing up (HOPE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A THEME FOR STEPH LISTEN TO ME) #and she ultimately gave her kid up bc she knew she couldn't give that to them at the time #oouughhhh. then i just figured that dick and cass are roughly the same in their estimation of parenthood #cass had a horrifically abusive upbringing and insanely isolated life til recent- #-all of which was due to/contributed by the parental figures in her life minus maybe barbara #i think I'd love to watch cass act as a mentor (she was a bit of a peer mentor to Steph and got along well w maps in Batgirls) #but it's hard to picture her as maternal. big sister yes. mother no. #dick is soooo dad shaped it's unreal. just as much as he is brother shaped. especially after everything with damian

[illir]

coloured stuffs

i don’t have a lot of them, so i thought of putting the ones i drew this year in one place  ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

most of them are based on yuumori merchs/cafe collabs, i’ll include the links so you can see the original designs ^~^

based on the poster for ova release event. character menu is from the gigo cafe collab (1) (2)

bonus: please look at these adorable pics from tatara-san and mizuki-san who went to the cafe and recreated my fanart 😭💗

for 22.2. (it was cat day or something...)

...just a silly doodle

i was thonking about the alternate volume 14 cover (jump sq june 2021 issue bonus...?)

based on the halloween merch

based on the alice in wonderland merch

based on the smile base cafe collab, to be exact this chibi illust (not the one where they’re sitting on chairs, they’re a bit different) (i drew the stripes one by one so please scroll up again and stare at this one a bit longer thx)

#sherliam #william james moriarty #sherlock holmes #yuukoku no moriarty #yuumori #moriarty the patriot #my art #i'm seriously. not good at colouring so #i don't particularly like them #but i still worked hard on them okay!! #i want to be able to render/paint someday #(i've been telling myself that for months and then not practice lmao) #until then please bear with fill with bucket tool coloured stuffs (/owo)/

[angelofthepage]

Hey everyone! Kat here, and boy has it been busy! Yours truly has been working hard alongside a bunch of fantastic folks here in the Bendy community and the BATDR voice cast! We’re in the process of cooking up something pretty special for all of you! I really hope you enjoy our teaser for this project, you’re in for a real treat!

I’m not permitted to share details on what this is, and I can’t confirm if your guesses are right or wrong (though I will absolutely encourage you to try and unravel the mystery). But I CAN tell you that I’m responsible for some of the art on this! I illustrated the stage and did a lot of the static typography. I had a lot of fun making it, it was honored to be asked to help. I can also tell you that this is NOT DLC or official/canon. There’s so much more to come, you have no idea what you’re in for!

#bendy and the dark revival #batdr #batdr spoilers #bendy and the dark revival spoilers #bendy community event #batdr voice cast #I've never felt so conniving in my entire life #over here giggling like a gremlin as I continue to work on this #seriously though I really hope you love this #we've been working so hard to make this awesome #and I hope you're all blown away #there's SO MUCH TALENT on display here!

[ugisfeelings]

my current march revelation is that when u have dental care and u haven't yet been caught w/ an arrest record and you’re not at the threat of institutionalisation and u have at 1-3 friends whom u can spontaneously call w/o shame at weird hours, look forward to any kind of company to catch up over coffee or watch a 3.5hr film with on the weekends, The Other Stuff Does Not Have To Be That Urgent.... u can have fun and do whatever it's not a big deal it doesn't matter........... #livelaughlove

#qq #now i'm not throwing up my guts and blood and i've started to sleep more again i'm like. why have i been anxious and existential this time? #i'm not even in school! my life rules! #i'm like. extremely lucky where i am rn in that i work in a slightly more dynamic office job in archival collections #i live independently and do extracurricular arts&crafts or w/e and gig research work as i please #i am just trying so hard not to take myself seriously! #and most of my energy after work goes to *** *** ********* organising #it's as laura said that one night-- that i sometimes am pathetic but that's been the worst of it (:

[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent sky photos 

#still... I am not joking.. every time I post things like this it is so hard to narrow them down #I am almost as obsessed with the sky as I am with cats. I have a folder of just cloud pictures with like 650 photos in it right now #I don't post them all because I think it'd seem repetitive probably but just know... lol #that could be an entire blog or something.. hundreds and hundreds... #Like the same way that I cannot explain my obsession with cats or why they've imprinted into my brain so heavily - clouds are the same way #anyway.. .still have the costume photos and stuff like that I just havent edited and posted yet lol.. I will.. hoepfully have actual art #content and stuff thats not just random cat photos sometime soon. I'm just always so preoccupied at the beginning of the year with trying to #adjust to new goals and schedules.. plus.. still wokriong on that wretched little slideshow aaaaaaaaaaaa... it is going to take me... #a million yearbs..... #I just want the worldbuiling lore established so I can branch out and do other things.. aughhhh...... #also have to work on game videos and a few other vidoes.. still trying to keep up wiht the youtube a little.. I just havent been productive #like since new years as I've felt sicker with my stomach symptoms and stuff.. ToT ALSO I DID MAKE THAT ENTIRE interactive fiction game which #I still have no posted anywhere lol.. Because it was kind of to accompany something that I was doing on a game site (like imagine making a g #ame to go along with one of your neopets or something) but it works totally fine as a standalone thing as well like. so detached from the #lore of the game site in general that it'd be broadly understandable and is it's own thing of course (because I dont really like writing #other people's characters/in the confine's of other worlds so I made everything original as possible with just a loose tie in to the neopets #typw thing lol) - but I figured since it works on it's own I could post it publicly other places too like 'hey look I made something' since #that is...... kind of somehting that counts as like... being creatively productive lol? like I keep talking about getting nothing done while #also forgetting about the things I actually HAVE done. alas I continuously forget. Seriously I am so bad at social media. I am never exagger #ating for comedic effect or something. I am the type of person that could legit like. write and produce and direct and complete a movie #that will be million dollars shown in theaters or something and I would forget to mention it anywherte until like 5 months later and go 'oh #uh .. oh yeah.. i should post about that online somehwere probably.. oops' . Cursed with the 'forget about everything once it's complete' #trait. Like the way my brain works is just like. once I finish something I'm immediately like 'cool! onto the next thing!!' without processi #ng what i just did. I'm just always looking forward to the next thing. I'll finish sculptures and then throw them away or forget about them. #I take photos and they sit in the drafts for 6 months before I post them. Like to me the enjoyment comes from the PROCESS of making somehtin #g but I don't care as much about the end result so it just doesnt exist in my brain anymore once I'm done? idk.. anyway ghjbhj #SORRY.. trying to be more active. I want to make and sell sculptures again. sell all of my spare clothes too. stuff. things.. aaa.. ***

[ne0nwithazero]

It's strange how I kind of went from consistently disliking my art, to like, disliking individual pieces, but when I look at my overall work I just get filled with so much joy and pride

It's not like I'm doing anything groundbreaking or utterly amazing, but I guess it's the thing of like, seeing myself as an ordinary human capable of creating things? I just see so much beauty in humanity's capacity of creating things, and I guess I had to teach myself to see that beauty in my own capabilities as well, no matter how mediocre they are

It's hard to say I like things I create because I fear people will think I'm full of myself, but I just have so much pride in my work. If I start looking too closely at my art, I start seeing all the mistakes and everything I hate about it, but if I step back and take in the bigger picture of all I've done and how far I've come? I don't know, it's a strange feeling to describe

It's best described as this sentiment of fulfilment that makes me realize that there's nothing else I'd rather be doing with my life other than creating art I love and sharing with people

#Jay Talks #turning off reblogs because I'm paranoid over people interpreting me the worst way possible #I feel like creating my website last year was what helped me come to this realization the most #I love creation #I've been drawing seriously since I was like 11 or smth #And only now at my mid 20s am I getting to a point of being okay with what I create #I still have a lot I dislike and things I want to improve #But it helps not loathing every sketch that leaves my hands #Cherishing every bad drawing as a stepping stone to something greater #All the outdated art that gives me psychic damage to look at #All the out of character OC art that doesn't fit anything I have #All the art with bad wonky proportions and terrible anatomy #I still can't look at those pieces without shriveling up in cringe #But I'm learning to celebrate those pieces not for what they are but for where they took me #idk is this anything #Don't mind me my mental health has been in the gutter these past months #Finding peace in my escapism and pride in my work has been so freeing... #It's hard to celebrate my joy when so many artists struggle with enjoying their work #I can't help but feel like they'll think I'm rubbing it in...

[tarnishedxknight]

{out of dalmasca} Welp. I'm sick. I felt a little off when I woke up this morning, and I've just been sneezing and feeling horrible all day. Took my temperature a few mintutes ago and... yep, I've got a fever. This is perfect, really, it's... it's so wonderful I could just yeet myself out the nearest window for all my joy.

*sigh* It makes sense, though. I often get sick after being stressed out for long periods of time. Then when the stress is lifted, my immune system dips, and boom, sick. I just wish life had waited more than just one day after work ended, that would've been kind.

I'm still going to write here because dammit I've been trying all week and this is just getting ridiculous at this point. What I'm not sure about is my multimuse. I guess if I get done enough over here and I don't feel too horrible, I'll pop over there, but if I start to feel worse as it gets later, I may just bump my multi to tomorrow instead. Although... I may feel worse tomorrow. I guess I'll have to just play it by ear.

For now, I'm here to do as many things as I can, and I'll update in a few hours as to what I'm doing with the multi.

#{out of dalmasca} {seriously life? i've been working so hard} #{and now i have free time} #{and this is how you do me?} #{i thought we were friends}

[dead-men-disco]

NOTHING will make you feel more sick and embarrassed than two tween girls nastily looking you up and down then giggling/whispering

#sweetie pie ypu are wearing what is basically a bikini to home bargains i am not the one that needs to be judged #WHERE are your parents #seriously tho I've been working so hard on not hating my appearance and suddenly one 3 sec interaction has just. ruined everything #it's not as if I'm misreading it either #they were very deliberate with their nastiness in a way only high schoolers can be #Caitlin Rants

[thebirdandhersong]

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#at the point where i am mostly like. what is the point. WHAT IS THE POINT!!! #i'm doing terrible at my job and can hardly keep up with schoolwork #and all i want to do in the future (concretely know that i want to do) is write but WOW my writing needs so much work if i ever want to pu #publish #and the world is so large. so large and full of things to do and people and places and just so LARGE #and i am so small and silly and for twenty one rather slow and confused #i can hardly handle my own life. i can hardly even manage to do morning prayer every morning or stick to writing regularly #or even control things in my life like food and exercise which is like. basic self maintenance #i don't know what's going on half the time! i don't know! i don't know why i try so hard half the time either! #it is so SO hard to remain joyful and optimistic and hopeful and i am TRYING hard at it i really am #it is just so much of a struggle all the time and i don't know WHY i'm suddenly unable to function properly like a human being #it is so HARD to resist being unkind and selfish and self-serving and withdrawn and cold nowadays #i just want everything to be put on pause for a little while and that's basically impossible #sorry this is another rant i just have no idea what to do #and i am at the end of my tether once again. seriously this is the closest to rock bottom i've gotten since lockdown #if i were a drinking person. but i am not and thankfully have enough aversions to drink and other substances that i am firmly Not going #to go to extremes. but suffice it to say. multiple mental breakdowns this month multiple 3-5hour nights #many many days in a row of just. having zero energy zero motivation zero ability to do the things #i have a very high sense of Shame and Guilt and also Following Rules and so i wouldn't say i've lost the will to live #because even at the Worst of the worst times things like self harm and suicide have never been an option in my mind #but i am as close to it as i can be i guess. i am just SO tired and very scared #like. God help me. what is my worth if i can't write good stories? what is my worth if i can't be loving and kind and gentle 100% of the ti #time? what is my worth if i can't put 200% into everything and do ALL the things for everyone? what is my worth if i'm not doing My Best? #why can't i just be Normal and Well Adjusted and have SOME of the things figured out for once?? #i can't even EAT PROPERLY how can i enter the workforce or raise a family?

[idnek83]

@everyone who cosplays short haired characters, how tf do you find short wigs?????? Like I have short hair but I don’t particularly want to bleach it so I’m looking at wigs and even the “short” ones are like generic pretty anime boy short so like still 5 or 6 inches?? Do they not make short wigs? Am I just gonna have to bite the bullet and bleach my hair?

#It's been a long time since I've seriously considered cosplay and now I'm remembering that the hair was the hard part #I cant sew but I've found a place that sells a decent outfit with good reviews #but i cant find a fucking wig #I don't know how to bleach my hair and not kill it #I dont want to pay a fuck ton of money to get it done proffesionally #I also dont think id look good with bleached hair so #a wig would be ideal but I cant find any that would work aaaaaa #honestly if someone can just point me to a decent place to get wigs that would be great cus im lost #personal ramblings

[noxtivagus]

AAAA I WNA WRITE AGAIN

#tag later #i've been reading stuff ever since i woke up #and i've seriously fallen into this pit again but #it's still so hard to start finding the words to write T_T #who do i write for? #i think that's the biggest question i've been asking for myself #i can actually write i think for charas in stuff like ffxiv and #no actually i think just ffxiv. it's the one i know the most #even with that however i don't think i can reach the quality or standard i want/have for myself? #i haven't written properly in ages so i shld probably be less harsh on myself but #it won't just sit right if it feels incomplete to me #maybe i'll start with writing my ideas feelings and thoughts again on emet aymeric alphy haurchefant yh #i cld slowly work on my own original stuff as well #and gbf too. i haven't really been playing very actively for a while but i love it lot still so i may as well #indulge myself. yeah #i think one reason why writing's become more difficult for me now is #i wish it was my reality...? #i'm not sure. i can't understand it nor can i accept it #so i'm trying to discover and find myself first #hmmm #but maybe writing could help with that #it's just kinda hsjfjdjsk bcs i've always really been a dreamer and romantic at heart but #it's a rather vulnerable side of me that. makes me flustered n embarrassed #it's who i am so 💪💪 but at the same time i wna just hide and disappear all to myself 💀 #wah i have so many things to do i'll just try my best and be patient w myself as i eventually make it through all of it T_T <3

[elektroyu]

Having a GP appointment in a bit and... I'd rather do some art honestly. Maybe sculpt something.

Also it seems I need to look into some legal things asap or I'll lose my job in 3 weeks and have to pay a fine on top. I just hope it's enough to turn the homeoffice arrangement that I'm currently in from a mere verbal agreement to a proper written modification agreement or a whole new employment contract, doesn't matter which. If not I'll officially be unemployed soon. Thanks for nothing, Germany.

#random stuff #silly #seriously though if I don't go work on some sculpting soon I'm going to explode #at least I have to try and see how far I'm able to work on these things #under the necessary arrangements of course #somehow I need to do this or I'm going crazy #I've been waiting so long for a chance to go back to it and my patience is running out very fast #the funny thing is though #that outside forces are working incredibly hard to pull me out of that dental tech job lol #I mean I want to get out of there as well make no mistake #but not without any financial backup plan whatsoever please? #the only thing that worries me is the money part of it #everything else I heartily welcome ✨ #let me just work on my art in piece while not threatening the safety of my pets #not asking for any more than that

[loverdude]

I'm just trying 2 do my homework but I'm like having a crisis about my art T_T

#💭 #just that like #i love to make cartoony colorful stylized etc fanart and stuff... #and i mean original stuff too ofc #but college art school life makes me feel so like. stupid for it a lot #since like even elementary school i feel like i've been treated like my regular artwork i make is like #a childish unimportant hobby #like once when talking abt stuff for my senior show last semester a professor was like #'well maybe just don't do the stuff u do for fun for awhile and just focus on the senior show' #?!?!? ok so 1. i'm hearing that the artwork i usually make is like. not as good/important even tho i work rlly hard on it #and 2. i'm not gonna tell u not to enjoy ur hobbies or whatever for like 6 months to a year just bc u have homework. what!?!?!? #i get what he meant but. ARGH #i mean don't get me wrong i love to make all kinds of art #all kinds of mediums and varying in like. subject #i love digital art for sure but also painting and markers and fiber art and sculpture and sketching and whatever #the fine arts world of art school/gallery artists is just not for meeee... #it makes me feel like i have to make a serious professional whatever art piece #ABOUT these feelings #in order for them to be taken seriously #i feel like i have to prove that my usual stuff is still like. valuable/important too by being able to do other stuff #and like #i absolutely think that skills like anatomy and perspective and color and value and whatnot is important knowledge like #regardless of your style or medium of artwork but #idfk. do u get what i mean. hello #sorry i rant abt this a lot i've just got serious senior burnout and am also rlly fed up 😭 #i'm making a website portfolio thing bc i have to present it basically instead of taking an exit exam #(which i thought i had to do the semester i graduated which will be december; not the semester i'm in the senior show- #-which is only in the spring so i'm like rushing this portfolio that i thought i had to present in 8 months not 3 weeks AUGH but anyway) #and like putting it all together is making me feel so lame.... #i have my lampscapes... some fiber artworks but not much bc i haven't had more time (bc of. school. lol)