#trying to put them in perspective is hard... but im pretty happy with what i made!!!

[crescentfool]

orpheus and thanatos 💚

#persona 3 #ryomina #ryoji mochizuki #minato arisato #makoto yuki #lizzy does art #HIII EVERYONE :3 happy halloween.... (has been working on this for four weeks off and on) #i've always yearned to see art of ryoji and minato based on thanatos and orpheus!!! #i know that ryoji can be likened to being the eurydice figure which i agree with but I HAVE BEEN THINKING SO HARD ABT THEM LIKE THIS OK. #it was nice to give drawing something more ambitious (for my standards) an earnest try again! i love working with lineless and lighting #and working on this has inspired me to HOPEFULLY start doing some studies of sorts! i want to learn so many things... #all so that i can make ryomina as epic as possible... #also LET ME TELL YOU that thanatos coffins are making me realize i seriously need to do drawabox or something. #trying to put them in perspective is hard... but im pretty happy with what i made!!! #also can i just say i love how shapely orpheus is?? i love orpheus joints etc etc its so nice. very fresh #sighs longingly. i love them very much they make me want to do better at things. i hope everyone has a wonderful week ahead! 💙 #very excited to see what people do for ryomina week (<- they haven't made anything 4 it yet bc Busy... but i'll submit smthn late maybe)

[lexthenonbinary]

lil spicy hc's for sdj

literally 18+, any and all blogs that's ageless DNI otherwise you'll be blocked. Any minors DNI.

so with all that out of the way, here's my personal thought process for the dang man. also this is going to be gn for everyone to enjoy. and try to censor myself as much as possible so i don't get clocked by tumblr lol...also added is that i only recently got into this game and that i don't know everything so im sorry if there's a lot of things that aren't really good listed...thank you <333

-of course if you played the extended demo, you know he loves to praise mc, right? Oh man now can you just imagine the power he has??? Mr. Jack will use that for basically anything like to condition mc to go back to him...sort of like pavlov's experiment.

-now, if you uno reverse poor jackie boy...the outcomes is without fail, so good. he'd be all flush and whiney, immediately just do everything he can just to be told he's good. he's not above groveling. just to hear mc call him "good boy" makes him into a puddle of jello.

-now putting into perspective of joseph/jack...one's weakness doesn't go away when they transform. the weakness is the filthiest sloppy toppy mc can give. it doesn't even have to be that good, pretty sure especially jack would just love seeing how excited mc is to give it...he's about to blow no matter what...

-he loves giving head, favorite thing ever to do. sure he can stick it in...but why would he do that when he can give mc the best head they've ever had in their life??? he has to make mc nut (i hate how i have to use that) at least, like 2-3x before he even Considers helping himself. what a gentleman.

-is 100% okay with letting mc top. proper equipment or bought equipment, doesn't matter, he would be so proud of mc. the entire time he's getting absolutely demolished and ravaged by mc, he's still praising them, telling how good they feel, and how good they are to him.

-obviously we've seen how he tops, how he absolutely loves tearing mc apart and putting them back together again...he just adores watching mc's face as they get closer and closer to the edge. the best pleasure for him is to see mc getting the pleasure they deserve

-most def a tease. he always wants to please mc, don't get him wrong. but also he loves how borderline delirious he's made mc, making them work hard and 'earn it'...of course his rewards is so delicious.

-now if mc would flip the table on him...he'd be putty in their hands...and he would be pouting the entire time. being unable to do anything but just sweetly beg for some release off his c*ck...

-if mc says anything about how big he is...it's a wrap. jack is not egotistical in the slightest, but he will no forget what mc said. will be thinking about it Forever

-we all know the premise of the game, he's so possessive it's safe to assume he'd leave Marks all over mc's body. only stops putting it in visible places when mc complains how many times parents scolded them for leaving the apartment like that

Here's a bit softer hc's i think:

-loves when mc and him laugh during s*x...it makes him so elated that even when mc is asleep, he replays the memory in his head over and over again

-he's been locked in that tape for so long...of course he's touch starved. this man Yearns for any form of affection.

-genuinely loves to get to know mc, their favorite music, and pictures, and just everything, it makes him so happy to know everything about mc

-going back to about how he wants so much affection and attention...literally is the epitome of when someone says "i want to crawl into their skin, that's the only way i can be close enough"...yea that's him. cannot stand being without mc's touch for a second.

-loves when mc does small...nothings. like simple things that most people would just skip over. take for granted...not him, not jack. jack would worship everything that mc does.

last one:

-jack/joseph love fat mc. like big belly, smaller belly, whatever. apron belly? muffin top? they eat that shit up daily. chef's kiss thank you for coming to my ted talk

#lemon #citrus #sunny day jack #somethings wrong with sunny day jack #swwsdj #sdj jack #sdj joseph #sdj x reader #sunny day jack x reader #sdj joseph x reader

[diabolikpersonals]

sorry for such a broad question but in your opinion is laito a well written character relative to everyone in diabolik? i really Want to learn more about him but i also dont want to subject myself to All That and i just want to know if he's worth reading about or just a pile of interesting plot threads thrown together for shock factor and unfulfilled thematically.

like my current personal opinion (may be wrong) is that i dont feel satisfied with the idea of yui's love or proactiveness fixing laito in any way because it doesn't mesh well with the actual ideas surrounding his character and unpacking that love is not poison goes beyond romantic love or a singular place of understanding. additionally it doesn't feel earned it feels like a chore for the player to trudge though for the sake of reading. i dont want to read laito's story that bad if it's the case yet im intrigued by the things offered by his character like the processing of the deeply visceral way csa shatters who you are

I wanted to wait till I finished his CL to answer so I'd be fully caught up with laito's routes, but that'll take too long so.....!! I might change my answer later!! lmao

[tw laito stuff, csa and suicide, yeah]

I do think Laito's a well-written character but his stuff is really difficult to get through if you have certain triggers, so it's tough to recommend. Even beyond the csa stuff, Laito is in a real hurry to die and he makes several attempts throughout the series. There's a certain unique sort of awfulness, at least for me, involving scenes where a character fails a suicide attempt and then get even more upset and desperate about it. So I understand what you mean when you say you're not excited about putting yourself through it. They were the hardest routes for me to get through too :')

A lot of earlier games suffer from endings that are like "And the two lived happily ever after, and we're not gonna unpack all that stuff!" and Laito's routes are no exception, but if you can look past that and make it to LE, I wouldn't say that Laito gets fixed. He has an ending similar to Ayato's that's like, it feels like we fixed everything but in reality we couldn't overcome the core issue! They really seem to believe that Laito absolutely can't be happy or live a normal life the way he is now. He has to die and/or rewrite his memories to be comfortable loving someone. It's up to your tastes if that's satisfying or not, but I kind of love the bittersweetness of LE endings, and the way they feel like a happy ending until you think about them a little too hard.

What's interesting is that Yui's purehearted love often hurts Laito more than it helps him. He responds to love, from Yui or from his family members, with revulsion. There's jealousy when he interacts with straightforward characters like Yui or Ayato, like "If only I could be as simple and pure as you, but nope, I can't." He's very self-aware for a diaboy, which only makes it hurt more when he keeps arriving at the conclusion that he's rotten. He definitely makes progress, which is really satisfying to see, like how he gradually allows Ayato back in his life emotionally. But as of right now, the end of his arc is so, like, "I tried, really I did! But my perspective on love is fucked and I need a hard reset! Maybe I'll be normal in the next life but definitely not this one!! Bye!"

...So, it's hard to say if you'll be happy with it. I see a lot of mixed opinions concerning the LE endings. They often give the diaboy what he wants but not what he needs, so you're left going, "Wait, I don't know about this...!" A lot of people really hate these endings, but they actually get more interesting to me the more conflicted they make me feel...and oh boy, was I conflicted about this one! :'D

If it sounds interesting to you, too, and you don't mind some pretty brutal scenes along the way, give Laito's routes a try. His HDB will definitely make you mad though lol

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[theravenkin]

been thinking a lot about low-empathy adam parrish (via @parrishwife here and @crimeronan here ) and i'd like to add that i also think ronan is low-empathy, but in a different way, and that this difference is what causes most of the conflict between them (in this essay i will-)

so basically, in very simple psychological terms there are two main sides to empathy. on one side, you've got cognitive empathy- the ability to see things from another person's perspective in an objective manner and understand why they might be feeling a certain way even if you don't feel "for" them; however, you might think that they are overreacting. then there's emotional empathy, which is when you see someone having strong emotions or going through something tough and you feel "for" them, sometimes literally; you might feel nausea or pains in your chest from experiencing someone else in emotional pain, or you might feel elated when someone else is happy or excited. that doesn't necessarily mean, though, that you can see things from that person's perspective; even if you feel for someone, you might not think that they're coming from a place that matters because you can't put yourself in their position. when both of these main types of empathy are present, then you can also have compassionate empathy, which is like both working together- you feel for someone and can see things from their perspective. people with low empathy may struggle with both of the main types of empathy, but some may only struggle with one while maybe being hyper-empathetic in the other type; i'm pretty sure the latter is common among autistic people. i, for one, have very strong emotionally empathetic reactions to things, but i have a really hard time seeing things from others perspectives; so while i may feel really bad for someone, it can be hard for me to understand why they feel bad in the first place.

okay. now. blorbo thoughts.

i think that while adam has an easier time with cognitive empathy (though still struggles with it a bit), he has not developed a very strong sense of emotional empathy at all. whereas, on the other hand, i think ronan is hyperempathic when it comes to pure emotions, but has a very very hard time with cognitive empathy; the way he thinks tends to be more egocentric, meaning it's hard for him to remember that other people don't always think, feel, or process the same way he does (this is what i struggle with, personally, but i think ronan struggles a whole lot more with it).

i could go pulling a bunch of textual evidence, and god do i want to, but lord i ain't got the time. so im just gonna point out a couple things ronan does: he often hugs and comforts people when he feels that they're upset (and he often notices when people are upset before others do, when they're trying to hide it etc) but he doesn't care if these people want to be hugged- he just does it. the only person he doesn't do this with is adam, i think because adam is one person ronan works really hard to understand. ronan also tends to say things without thinking or caring about how they might make people feel, but he still feels so strongly himself (re: bronan "i'm not proud of it" "i'll be proud for you", ronan, read the room). he feels for every dreamer, even those he hasn't met yet, and that empathy drives him so crazy he goes and does a bunch of questionable things in order to try to make things better for people. but he cannot imagine any justification for why adam didn't text him back within a couple hours other than that adam now hated him suddenly (essentially, can't understand how adam doesn't know what ronan is thinking without communicating it).

ronan's inner monologue is very frequently about himself and how he's feeling; when he talks about others, he describes what they say and do and look like, but can't seem to explain how they think or why. adam, in comparison, is constantly psychoanalyzing the people around him, trying to understand why they do what they do and how they tick. part of this is his analytic nature and part of it is the remnants of a survival tactic- the need to understand his abuser, get inside their head, in order to avoid or prevent the next blow. but i think, too, all this analyzing has divorced him from feeling strongly for others, once again, as a survival tactic/coping mechanism- because he believes that as soon as he feels for someone, he becomes them and loses his autonomy. this is only beneficial when dealing with abusers, though. so when he's dealing with his loved ones, adam has to parse through their actions, codify their behaviors and what they mean, and establish heuristics of how they think in order for him to not cross a line and hurt them without meaning to. i feel like i can say more on this but it's late and im tired and i am no psychologist, just autistic and insane about characters

so i think that this difference is a lot of what makes pynch work (the impulse/impulse control dynamic or the right brain/left brain dynamic, but much much deeper and more complex obvs). but i also think that this is where most of their conflict comes from. ronan feels so deeply for and about adam, so much so that he doesn't know how to process it and it eats him alive. but even still, he can't quite understand why adam works the way he does, why his motivations are what they are, why he holds the values he does; usually, ronan just accepts that adam is adam and life goes on, but sometimes ronan gets so frustrated that he can't just accept that adam does things that- to ronan- make 0 sense. (think of the garage fight scene, just before the hand lotion, where ronan tells adam he should just quit school- a pretty tone deaf thing to say, knowing adam, but ronan was getting frustrated and couldn't understand why adam needed to keep working himself to death.) then there's adam, who typically understands where ronan is coming from, but doesn't understand why ronan feels so strongly about things, especially other people- especially him. he struggles to understand why ronan keeps helping him despite being told not to- which is why ronan does things without asking (ie, the rent), because he knows adam won't understand. adam may understand where ronan is coming from, but sometimes he just may not care. he doesn't want ronan to feel badly, but it's hard to motivate yourself to do something about it when you can't understand what the fuss is all about. think about the fight over the green mantle envelope: to adam, it's practical and logical, and he doesn't understand why the whole thing is upsetting to ronan or why he should care- if it gets the job done, doesn't matter how unpleasant the process is. ronan, however, doesn't care as much about practical; he can't understand why adam thinks this is okay, because he has such a hard time understanding that others have different values and priorities than he does.

anyway. this took so long to write. someone please read it and understand what i'm saying.

#i looove psychoanalyzing fictional characters mm mmm yummy #my fingers hurt from typing this #please know i know jack shit about psychology #but i read crimeronan's low empathy adam post before work and thought about this the entire shift #so now here we are #adam parrish #ronan lynch #pynch #character study #the raven cycle #adam parrish meta #ronan lynch meta #the raven cycle meta #the dreamer trilogy #trc #tdt

[karoochui]

I just wanted to say I am so enamoured with Binary Insurgence! I eat up everything, every little crumb, you drop about it and the entire idea is so interesting to me! I'm so in love with stories and worlds like this! I'm also curious to know about the relationship between Sun and Moon, if it's alright to ask. How was it before the fire compared to after? Does their relationship begin to mend (because I'm certain over the years it deteriorated) when y/n comes back into the picture? If any of this is too spoilery or you just haven't fleshed it out yet then you don't have to answer! I'm just super curious about the boys and how you see their dynamic/relationship. I just look forward to seeing how their bond has grown and/or broken and how it may be mended over time.

AHH im glad you like it so much!! Im happy to talk about what i've got, but you are right not everything is fully fleshed out. I have points i wanna get to but while im brainstorming and planning i make up a lot of stuff as i go and then go over it again later to see if i like it or can connect stuff in any way. I have 3 chapters for Arc 1 fully summarized as of now! (Which probably doesn't seem like a lot but i like my chapters long, so it's quite a bit actually).

I wanna say, too, that i'm planning for the first story to be more in the perspective of the reader, so most things about Sun and Moon's personal thoughts and feelings are gonna be more implied than said. I might have some switching points of view, i'm not sure, but i haven't found a place i'd do it or think it's relevant. The sequel is gonna be more from their perspective since it'll mostly be about them.

NOW! I see Sun and Moon as brothers, so they really treat each other in a way that's like that. Before the fire they get along pretty well. Most instances of issue would be when Moon blocks out Sun when he fronts, or just mutual panic over the fact Moon lost his shit w/ the virus. They'll have their disagreements about things (i havent planned specifics yet) but generally they're chill. Sun just worries about Moon hurting people, but Moon worries too. With the way the virus functions in this AU it's hard for Sun to fully fault Moon for what he does, especially because he's also affected by it but not nearly as bad. (I'm gonna explain this more in another ask i have).

Plus, even before the virus they were always glitch/bug-ridden because technicians fucked up their programming continuously after removing them from the theater to work in the daycare. So they had to kinda navigate through that together, glitches and errors on both ends (though not deadly). They hate P&S bc of this, obviously. Hardware fixes suck but they fucking HATE software examinations.

Later on though some issues come into play whenever Sun starts getting worse by being further exposed to the virus (it gets worse for him when they eclipse) because it presents itself in Sun differently than it does Moon. He gets snappier and angrier at times (that comic i made that's captioned "well someones snappy") and while they both understand he doesnt mean the shit he does it's still not great. And nobody's gonna just let themselves be talked to like a dog even if the reason it's happening is because of something the other person can't really help. They're still relatively fine at this point, though.

It's at the end when shit goes really bad, because this part of the story does end badly. I won't spoil specifics but after the fire Sun loses his shit. He starts trying to put the blame on Moon for everything (the virus enhancing his already bad habits/fucking with his line of thinking) out of grief and anger. That carries over into the apocalypse and he just gets worse in general. He gets irrational.

It's a long period of time though, so he eventually also manages it, in his own way. But! I did say before in an ask that in the sequel he's "not evil, persay, but he's a fucking nut". He damns Moon to an hourglass to just fucking get rid of him about 100~ years before they meet you again (he fully thinks he's in the right for this (and he also just hates him) and the only reason he really even stayed around after that was to make sure Moon didn't get out again). He's not a bad-intentioned individual, but he's off the fucking wall at many times bc of the virus having made him worse. He's stubborn as all hell to an infuriating degree, he's irrational, hard-headed, reckless, and while a good bit of his old, kinder self is still pretty prevalent he can be downright fucking mean if provoked. Again, worse than before, and it doesn't take much these days! I always imagined him to have more dramatic, snappy, diva aspects to his personality (even before Help Wanted 2 came out) bc hes so theatrical and intense, so basically take a Sun that's like that, crank it up to 100 and put him in a Bad Situation. That's what Round 2 Sun is like at his worst. He's not a complete lost cause though, and he's far from dumb when he does stuff, just clouded by his own judgement. He doesn't think anything's wrong with him (or does he?).

Moon doesn't really hate him like Sun hates Moon, because although he knows that what happened (the ending of the first story) is technically both of their faults he just feels guilt. They do fight a lot, though. Most of it is Moon trying his best to tell Sun that he's basically full of shit and not seeing things right after Sun starts something, but Sun's at the point where he's gotta learn by consequence. Part of the reason he's so bad is bc 1: hes been infected by the virus for so long now and 2: in his grief, anger, and resentment he's learned to live with it rather than fighting it.

But the sequel is gonna be a feel-good story! Falling in love w/ the reader all over again, i want things to get cleared up - or at least some kind of middle ground between Sun and Moon - the whole sha-bang.

#my asks #binary resurgence: round 2 au #binary resurgence

[rocketyship]

That poll is so hard to vote for cause on one hand, it feels like Tiff would fit the best because of her incredibly unreliable narration matching Ted's while it would still be a subversion of the original because of the reason why she's unreliable(rose tinted glasses and extreme devotion to BE as opposed to the stuff Ted's got going on) and her pov on and relationship with BE would just be so fun to see explored and the horror of the situation being a subtle thing thats swept under the rug could be so cool.

But on the other, Evan would also kinda match with the original due to his open emotional distance and disconnect from the girls, AND it would bring a lot of fun, fresh stuff! Seems like Evan is the one who pays most attention to AM, and seeing what's happening there from his pov would be so interesting! He, just like Ellen if she would've narrated could bring up how things like being the only one of the opposite sex and gender in the group and (from what we know from the short story at least) only dark skinned person would like.. idk change perspectives on things?? I'd also love to find out more about him!

Oh, not to mention Naomi!! Having narration that is pretty damn reliable would make worldbuilding and exploration much easier and she's also got that disconnect due to her age and crystal clear memory, being able to see things as they are and were could be really refreshing in a ihnmaims universe and i really want to know what her whole deal is! Being born toward the end of the war must've made quite a difference to how a person would process everything, Ted's whole "I'm youngest so my experience is different because i barely had time to live as an adult before the nukes" wouldn't have shit on someone who wasn't even like... done w puberty.

Ooooh they'd all make for such fun narrators 😭 It's really too bad that writing takes so much time and effort or it would've been amazing to see all three's povs! I still don't know what to vote for or how the results are looking so far but im really looking forward to seeing what the results will lead to!

Maybe you have a character you have the most ideas for or would like to write most? Cause if so, that'd def help me choose what to vote.

Sorry for the wall of text(would you believe me if i said i wanted to write more? This is me trying to show restraint, didn't even write about the potential AM could have as a narrator), and i hope you have a good day!

Okay so first off, I love-love-love this response. You have such fun perspectives on these silly little au characters of mine and it makes me a little sad that you didn’t write anymore cause I definitely would have read it, especially what you were thinking about what an interesting narrator AM could be.

As to which character I have the most ideas for, is such a difficult thing to answer cause well I have so-so many. But I do want to put them out there for you so here they are:

Tiffany: narration wise, I imagine the stuff she says can and does come across as nonsensical and border line trigger happy, however sometimes she occasionally lets something slip that clues into her true feelings and that a part of her may indeed be aware of the gravity of the groups situation, however she shuts it down as she has severe attachment issues and cannot fathom how she could possibly survive without BE. Another thing I pictured is that she very often quotes the bible and other religious texts, as BE doesn’t present herself as machine and genuinely as a divine entity. I also have been toying with a scene similar to the one in the radio drama, where AM is talking to Ted about bumblebees and getting high r something. Where it is set up as the reverse. BE showing Tiff the horrors of what the radiation and world has come to (in a way that is seriously deceptive) and claiming that all she has to do is snap her fingers for it to return. It would definitely read as a story where there is total tonal whiplash from one scene to the next, so that is something to consider.

Evan: I have come up with so many pasts for all these survivors before they were “rescued” by BE, however one thing to note is that I don’t really think of these characters as just “genderbent versions of the originals”. Evan is one of the key examples of this, as in this au he is technically the original Ellen’s older brother, however he left home when she was around 12-13ish, as he didn’t like the life, college and job his family set out and tried to push him into. Unlike Ellen who was a successful engineer, who may have been a hopeless romantic based on the original text. Evan was and very much still is kind of a massive party animal. I picture him very punk but like the old kind of punk. Like he was the kind of guy to go motorcycling around the country (even into war-devastated bits, cause it was a thrill), he went to underground clubs and concerts, and sure as heck slept around and had no shame in it (both women and men if you are curious). He doesn’t want to get sentimental, he wants to live his life on the edge and BE doesn’t allow that. He constantly tries to upset her, get some kind of intense reaction from her. He tries to escape, he kicks and tries to tear open parts of her internal network. This man has tried to kill Gloria (Gloria kind of deserves it thou) and the only reactions he gets from BE is her finding him cute, amusing, or as if he just needs to be put in a corner to calm down for a bit. Truthfully he is someone who just wants to go back and experience life again, recognising that BE’s utopia isn’t living and refusing to buy into it.

Naomi: I won’t lie, Nimdok is so boring in the og story, and they definitely tried to do “something” with him in the game. I don’t like it, again different ramble. So like Evan, she is a different person. Like you said she has barely started puberty and because of BE neither her body or even her mind has really aged in anyway and she is horribly aware of this. Due to the war she has had her childhood taken from her, but now because of BE she shall never experience adulthood or growing up. Her memory hardly anything particularly helpful. She remembers exactly what BE did to the others when they first got brought to the compound, she has seen what goes down in the labs, she knows what pills are and aren’t sleeping pills, developing a habit where she will pretend to take one and spit it out if she is able to. As stated in the survivors master post, she knows BE’s blind spots and will often go there on her own. Not really to do anything, just kind of sit around. Further more, she and Evan have a way of communicating, number of blinks, which fingers moved when you spoke to them, that kind of stuff. Still she doesn’t want to escape, she knows she’ll die if she does, generally she acts more like a mediator in the group. As a narrator, I did have this idea for a few odd habits she has learned over the years. Example is that she constantly counting, time and routine is import to her, as she notices when something is wrong and that freaks her out. She also has this habit of just staring at the others for very long periods of time, especially Gloria. She clearly remembers seeing her on tv during her old life, and also remembers how she attacked her when Naomi attempted to mention it to Gloria.

Writing does take so much effort, especially for me, cause truthfully I’m always jumping back and forth on what I’m working on. On top of this au and the fic, I’m also in the process of finishing the final script and sketches for a different web comic I’ve been planning for a while, as well as a completely unrelated world building project that I’ve been at for two years now. Anyhow!! Tell me more please

#i have no mouth and i must scream #ihnmaims #am ihnmaims #ted ihnmaims #ihnmaimsloveau #alternate reality #harlan ellison #ellen ihnmaims #ihnmaims am #allied mastercomputer #small artist #horror #fanfiction #ao3 writer

[kicktwine]

wanted to ask, could we get a look in to how you put together your animatics?? I've been toying with the idea of trying to make one of my own, but I've got no idea where to start

oh yeah totally

though to be fair, a HUGE chunk of my time is spent listening to about 20 seconds of a song and imagining how the images move around like a little movie, and I refine a ton of stuff in my head before starting to actually put scenes down on paper. This happens with non-music boarding too, imagining different versions of how the scenes line up with dialogue/music. So step one: put a song on repeat and daydream for at least two hours. But, if you aren’t sure how to do this, I’d suggest looking at animatics, MAP projects, AMVs, animated musicals, fight scenes, etc. what do they do that’s cool? Imitate them.

after that, I have most of the main images with some blank spots im not sure how to fill until I put them down. I make something like this and get the compositions of each main image looking more or less okay in this form. This is also the stage I figure out the in between blank spots. I try not to have weird camera moves or other storyboarding don’ts, but some storyboarding donts are completely valid to break if you know what you want aesthetically. As usual. This one was actually pretty clean, but check out all the framing edits. i always have to make the frame bigger

If you really don’t know what goes in between things, don’t be afraid to focus on some little details of the scene, pull out and show us the setting, put some flowery symbolism on screen, give us some fun little comedic anime inserts, or do what cowboy standoffs do and build tension. What we used to do was draw paws stepping across the screen or eyes blinking, lol

next comes audio sync! I like to get the timing extant on copies of these rough thumbnails before moving on. It helps my brain work through smaller more animated movements + testing if the things I came up with for the blank spots work. and also just makes it happy. And also, most importantly, it tests if the compositions work. If you can see it, the whole sequence with mom was a blank spot until I sketched it. I usually do this step in roughanimator even if i don’t finish it in roughanimator. Keeps it very rough.

after this is just a lot of polishing and layers! For lots of small animatics, I just use roughanimator and leave it like that. It’s surprisingly good for a very basic program. But, for things that need tweens or lots of camera movement, I use toon boom harmony. It’s more powerful and is actually supposed to be used for animation, which. Yknow. I do. I tried storyboard pro, it wasn’t my favorite.

Here are some, I guess, miscellaneous more technical tips for making your animatics feel nice!

If you’re going for lots of movement, try out timing it so big movements or scene transitions line up with the spikes in the audio WAV. If it doesn’t feel right, move it a few frames BEFORE the spike/audio beat. Your brain usually wants to see something move barely before it hears it - this works for dialogue especially. BUT! Don’t feel like you have to do this for every beat. unless you want to feel like Wes Anderson, which you can do and I will not stop you.

If you’re going for something slower with not that much movement, try motion tweening! or adjusting something very slowly so we don’t linger on one still image for forever.

you don’t need crazy camera angles for everything, but put a few in there for spice. This all depends on your mood you want to cultivate. Slow = flatter, spacious, details; fast = lots of moves, weird angles, perspective; disorienting = slow/jerky weird angles etc etc. the camera has emotions built into it. Because the camera is you! surprise!

watch storyboarding tutorials. lots of people zoom in too much when they draw and I am not excluded. Also, keep in mind the eyesight rule. It’s hard for me to explain concisely but… you as the artist are always leading the viewers eye somewhere, with every shot you make. Don’t make them dizzy by having the center of attention jump around to six different spots for six shots straight - if you find yourself unhappy with a sequence, especially a fast one, see if your line of sight is going all over the place and try moving the subject of a shot or two somewhere else or having them move/gesture towards the new shot’s focal point so the viewers eye moves there naturally. I’m actually not great at doing this when words/lyrics are involved, pmv makers have my respect.

contrast is your friend. If you want to emphasize a big fast move or big bright image, put little slow moves or simple images right before/after it. and vice versa! this counts for camera too!

easy camera shakes are just 3-4 frames of cam down/up/down less/up less, a blank tween or two (easing back into normal), and then a key for your desired normal camera location. Or left/right, whichever.

your brain needs about six frames to fully register an object as being an object. If you want someone to see and really See it, rather than just get a glimpse of it and go "What was that!" It needs more than six frames.

don’t be afraid to experiment!!!!!! And don’t get overwhelmed! Everything I just described I MOSTLY do off instinct, which you’ll get a sense for after you make one. Or like…. Ten. Does it feel good in your heart? Then that’s what’s important. Find an idea you want to make move, figure out your limits (programs, attention span, drawing capability, make sure not to commit to a minute long amv if you dont KNOW you wanna do a minute long amv), and plan around that. When I was A Child, people on youtube were just making like three amvs per second and cringe hadn’t been invented yet so they were all mostly untrained unpolished and so so important and based to me. Stop thinking so hard about it. You gotta get that animatic out there into the world or it’ll start fermenting in your brain and make you sick. So what if it doesn’t turn out exactly the way you imagined it? You’ll have another idea tomorrow. And if it matters that much, you can always do it again. Go make! Good luck!

#long post #haha sorry! That turned into more of a tutorial which I hope is what you wanted #i dont know how to do edits; honestly; but thats not what you asked. a very cool form of video making! no clue how to do it well #ask #anon #hmm for the eyesight rule #dont misunderstand -- dialogue over the shoulder shot a/ shot b style are not 'jumping around' #i mean like something moves on the LEFT and then the next shot has something spinning down from the TOP to the BOTTOM and then the next #you have something on the LEFT again moving UP #yknow? #idk if hearing gifs counts as synesthesia but silent moving things make noise in my head #so it kinda works vice versa. sometimes noise can make moves

[astroluvr]

given that today is mother's day, im sure that a lot people are expecting a fluffy blurb, but i do want to acknowledge those that no longer get to celebrate this holiday in the same way as everyone else. i did write this from a somewhat personal perspective and i know that everyone grieves differently, but i hope that anyone who may need this blurb today can find the slightest bit of comfort in it!

cw: grief, brief mentions of death

***

When you arrived in front of Jack’s childhood home, you forced a smile on your face. You knew today would be hard, but you didn’t want to spoil it for anyone else. As you looked out the window, Jack’s hand slid to your thigh and you turned your head. He was dressed nicely for his family’s annual Mother's Day dinner and you were too, your white sundress matching his white shirt and pressed jeans.

“Are you sure you’re okay?” his eyebrows were raised in concern and you just gave him a soft smile.

“I’m fine, Jack. It’s Mother’s Day.”

“That’s why I’m asking. I know today is hard for you, baby.”

“I don’t want to get upset about it, so can we just go ahead?” you asked softly, clearing your throat.

Jack agreed and left the subject with a kiss to your forehead. You grabbed the pretty flowers you got for Maggie and looped your arm through Jack’s. The door was already open for you two and the sound of a happy family was a little less than contagious than it should’ve been.

Jack’s body guided yours through the foyer and into the kitchen where everyone was. Maggie was sampling a piece of pie when she saw the two of you. “Hi!”

“Hey, Mama.”

“Hi, Mrs. Harlow.”

She set the saucer down and walked towards the both of you. She hugged Jack first and you greeted the rest of the family while he talked to her sweetly. By the time Jack was done, she was wrapping her arms around you.

“Happy Mother’s Day.” you said. Your smile was more polite than genuine, but she couldn’t tell.

“Thank you, darling. These are gorgeous.” she took the bouquet you presented her with and set them in a vase with the other flowers she’d collected through the day. “Have you been keeping your eye on my boy?”

“I’ve been trying.” you chuckled and watched over her shoulder as Jack took a bite of the key lime pie.

“This is good, Ma. Is there anymore?”

“I guess that’s all you can do.” she sighed before turning around and you giggled. “Jack, honey, can you not wait until after dinner?”

“I’m about to be married with kids and I still have to wait until after dinner?” you scoffed out a laugh and Jack smirked.

“I have no idea where he got that from.” you whispered and frowned.

“Either way, you’re going to wait until after dinner.” she scolded, walking up to him and leading him out of the kitchen with her hands on his back.

When he was outside of the kitchen, Jack smiled back at his mother and grabbed your hand. “Everyone’s outside and Dad’s barbecuing. He might let us have some samples.”

You rolled your eyes at his false bitterness and let him guide you outside. The backyard was gorgeous on behalf of Maggie’s redesign and the spring weather was beautiful. Jack had his arm around you as the two of you approached where the grill was smoking. You couldn’t deny you were in agreeance with Jack in hopes for a sample.

Clay was sitting with his father at the picnic table and jutted his chin up. “Jack, come here quick.”

“What’s up?” he sat next to his brother and left you to sit next to Brian who gave you a kind smile.

“I put together this slide show for Mom. Do you want to see?”

“Hell yeah. Is it from both of us?”

Clay sucked his teeth and Jack nudged his shoulder. “Man, you’ve been doing this for years.”

“You give Ma the sweet, sappy stuff and I give her stuff she likes.”

“Fine, it’s from both of us, but that necklace you got is too.”

“That necklace was expensive as hell.”

“So was the app to make this shit.”

“Would you believe me if I told you they’ve been like this forever?” Brian leaned over and you laughed.

“I would, actually. I hear them on the phone all the time.”

“Wait, Y/N, come look at this.” Jack reached out for you and you walked over to see Clay’s iPad displaying what would be their gift.

You swallowed in preparation for emotion to come as the video started. It began with two pictures, one where Maggie was carrying Clay and the other where she was carrying Jack. It slowly progressed with two pictures until Clay and Jack were both born.

You felt yourself growing a little overwhelmed with the music that swelled over home videos of her chasing both boys of images of her kissing both of them. You could see the love that only a mother could possess and it made you realize how much you craved it. It wasn’t until there was a grainy video of Jack and Clay at elementary school ages that you got too emotional.

“I love being a mother more than anything,” she said in the video and a smile graced Jack and Clay’s faces. Even Brian smiled fondly. “My boys are my entire world and I can’t wait to be even prouder of the men that they become.”

“This is really cute, but I have to, um, use the bathroom.” you excused yourself to Jack who nodded distractedly before rushing off to the house.

“Y/N?” Maggie said as you passed and you slowed down. “Are you alright?”

“Yes ma’am, I just need to use the bathroom, that’s all.”

“Oh! Well, there’s some fruit in the kitchen if you want some.”

You nodded frantically at an attempt to hide your emotion before continuing to Jack’s old bedroom. When you made it there, you shut the door and exhaled shakily before pacing around the space.

You did your best to contain your emotions all day. You didn’t want to have Jack worry about you on a day that meant a lot to him. He loved his parents and he was dedicated to being with Maggie on Mother’s Day, so the last thing you wanted to do was dampen the day.

As hot tears rolled down your face and you began soaking through Kleenex, Maggie was already outside expressing her concern. Clay and Jack had put the video away to keep the surprise, and now the attention was fully on you.

“Jack, why’d you drag Y/N to spend Mother’s Day with us? You came last year.”

“What do you mean?” he furrowed his eyebrows and Maggie frowned.

“She’s been seeming a little distant. I know you haven’t been here long, but I’m sure she loves her mother as much as you do. You’ll have to share the big holidays, son.”

“Where’s this coming from? Did she say something to you?”

“No,” Maggie shook her head and picked at her nails. “I can just tell she probably wanted to be with her mom today.”

“Oh, shit.” he muttered to himself and his family watched him stand up before walking to the house.

Jack immediately felt terrible when he heard your muffled cries through the door. You hated talking about your mother and your feelings about it to him, so it wasn’t rare to hear you hiding from him to let it out. He was more than willing to hold you and he knew that he needed to now.

He knocked three times and heard a sniffle before a response. “One second, please!”

“It’s me, baby. Can I come in?”

“Can you give me a minute?”

“I just want to talk to you.” he twisted the door knob and you wiped your face as best you could.

After smoothing down your dress, you opened the door and revealed Jack. He stepped in and looked at you before pouting. “Jack, I’m okay. I just thought to come up here and let you guys have your moment.”

“You’re a part of our family, too. I wouldn’t have invited you here if I wasn’t comfortable.” he said softly before crossing the threshold into more pressing matters. “And I know that you know that, so what's the matter?”

“It was just a really sweet gesture. Made me a little emotional.”

“Y/N, baby, you can talk to me.” his voice was slightly pleading and it made your lip quiver.

You sat down and felt your body go weak with your feelings. “It’s just hard. I mean, every day has bee hard since I lost her, but days like this, they’re the worst.”

Jack kneeled down in front of you and rubbed your knees as you sobbed. “Hey, it’s okay. I’m here, baby.”

“And I hate talking about it. I don’t want to have to deal with the fact that she’s gone, Jack. I can’t deal with it. I miss her more and more every day. It sucks.”

“Yeah.” he whispered, grabbing your hands as your body shook with sobs.

“There was so much that she deserved to see, that she wanted to see. Our wedding, our kids, meeting you. It’s just so...” you squeezed your eyes shut and shook your head. “And I don’t want to feel jealous or left out on Mother’s Day, but I do. The love you have for your mother is the same kind I had for mine and I wish I had the chance to tell her.”

Jack himself was beginning to shed tears. He could feel your emotion in the grip you had on his hands grow tighter as you hyperventilated. He could hear in your voice how many times the subject had tried to escape from your lips, but fell short. The way you looked in his eyes, he could see that you trusted him to carry a piece of the burden you carried around in your heart.

“I just miss her so fucking much.” you blinked away tears as the words came out like you were exhausted. “And she’s the only person in this world that could tell me I'm going to be alright.”

“I have no clue what to say to ease the pain, but I’m so sorry, Y/N. I want to say I understand, but I can’t. I can’t imagine what you went through, what you’re going through, and how this is going to affect you for the rest of your life, but I know you’re so strong. I would’ve loved to meet your mom and tell her that her daughter turned into the love of my life- the strong, beautiful, sensational, intelligent love of my fucking life. I’m not the person you want to hear it from, but you are so loved.”

Your tears became less of your grief and more of love. Over the years, you hadn’t received many sentiments that were able to quell an insufferable ache, but these ones were able to make you feel a little less pain than usual.

“I love you, too, Jack. That truly did help me.” you murmured, wiping your eyes and leaning down into your boyfriend for a kiss. “I didn’t mean to ruin your Mother’s Day.”

“How could you have?” he pecked your lips once more before looking at your sad eyes.

“I-I just dumped all of that on you.”

“No, you didn’t. It’s good that you can talk to me about it. We have a lot of life to live together and we’re going to need moments like that.” Jack reassured you softly. “When we get home, maybe we can find a way to celebrate her.”

You smiled softly and nodded your head. “I’d really, really like that.”

“Good.” he sighed, rubbing your lower back before standing up and pulling you with him.

“Thank you for being so understanding, Jack.”

“Anything for you.” he said as he pressed a kiss to your forehead.

#jack harlow #fan fiction #jack harlow x reader #jack harlow blurb #bf!jack #jack harlow fanfiction #jack harlow angst #jack harlow fluff #mother's day

[lilypaddsss]

Ghost x Reader

SMUTTTTTT alsoooooo....... Im inlove with this man (I mean who isnt???) so your going to be seeing me writing about this man lots! Currently Im just going to be writing the reader as a women but let me know if you want it from the male perspective as well!

I had just walked into the door with groceries. I had just spent the night and saw this man must only eat take out so thought I would make him a nice home cooked meal.

At least that was the plan until I turned around from closing the door to see him in sweats and no shirt. His abs just out on full display. "Oh hey, your home babe" he says to me with a stupid smirk. "You planned this" I say still staring at his exposed chest. "I did nothing" he says wrapping his arms around me.

I giggle and try to escape his grasp. "I've got to put these away" I say. My head was pressed into his chest and I could see the floor. He let a small laugh leave his mouth and grabbed the three bags in my hands. Simon placed them on the counter and walked right back towards me without stopping and successfully pinning me into the door behind me. "Now I didn't get my usual welcoming party last night" he says kissing into my neck. I let out a quiet moan and say "you were late aandd I-I was tired" I struggled a bit from the kisses he was giving.

"Is that so well you don't seem to tired now" he says as his hands work there way under my shirt. Truth be told I was really tired that night and he was late. I also love being a tease. He placed his right hand on my waist and his left started climbing closer to my boob. "Simon I was gonna cook-" I get cut off by him kissing my lips. It was a slow and passionate kiss. I close my eye and let my right hand cup his cheek. The left starts to run through his blonde locks.

"You can after right now I need you" he says while gesturing with his eyes to his very hard dick. "Oh you need me?" I say slightly smirking. "That's enough" he then tells me to jump. I wrap my legs around his waist and let him carry me to his bedroom while kissing. My arms were around his neck. He moans into the kiss when I move slightly against his cock. I do it again and he stops kissing me and throws his head back. "You need it bad huh" I say as he kicks open his door. "You don't even know" he says while placing me on the bed.

"I want to see you need it just as bad though" I tilt my head slightly as he goes through a drawer. He pulls out a purple vibrator. Simon turns and looks at me with a spark in his dark eyes. I swallowed my spit as I prepare to swallow my dignity. The vibrator usually gets me pretty loud. Simon walks over to side of the bed and places it on the side table right by my head. "Your gonna love this I promise" he says with a smile. "I want to do something a little different is that ok?" I think about it.

He would never do something I wouldn't like so I say sure. He kisses my lips and starts taking my shirts off. With it my underwear. He looks at my bare pussy and licks his lips. "So wet and you don't even know what im gonna do" he says grabbing the vibrator. He puts it on a medium setting and holds it on my inner thigh. Slowly driving it closer to my sensitive bundle of nerves.

I groan and that leads him to finally put it on my clit. I throw my head against the pillow and hold back a moan. He instantly moves the toy from my clit. "What" I say annoyed. " Every time you hold back Ill leave you hanging" he says happy I figured out his trick. I let out a groan and feel him start to lick my inner right thigh. "Ok ok I get it Ill let you hear them all" I say needed him to help this ache I have now. He places the toy back on my bud and starts to lick the outside of my hole.

I moan and curse feeling beautiful pleasure. "That's it doll you get a reward now" he says upping the vibration setting and putting his tongue in my pussy. The moan that leaves my mouth is outright pornographic. It felt so good. Simons tongue is moving in and out in me. My walls start to clench on him and he groans. His eyes roll in the back of his head tasting my juices. I let one more cry out and let go.

His lips and tongue work together to gather all of my orgasm not dare missing a drop. He turns the Vibrator off. "That wasn't fun I thought I would get to tease you more" he says undoing his belt. "Seems like you cant wait any more" I say breathless as he drops his pants. He pulls his boxers down and looks at me. "You better hope your ready because Im not gonna go easy" He says. And he didn't hold back for one second.

#simon riley smut #ghost mw2 #simon ghost riley #simon ghost x reader

[lord-shitbox]

part 2 of this ask

📝Process for hurt mezu drawing 

here are the steps i dug out of an art server's wips channel lol

1. initial sketch

2. refine sketch. thats lines now babey. (omitted "the sleeves are KILLING ME WAHHH" stage that led to this)

3. grayscale, to use with gradient map (this is a more polished grayscale than I started with, i dug the working file out to get better images)

4. find nice gradient map (ended up being the same one I'd used for the piece i made right before. the goal is to make what's essentially an underpainting, not to color the whole thing with one map)

5. tweak and add colors that arent in the map with hard light layers & also sneak in a layer for special effect and atmospheric/ scenic perspective while you're at it

6. shading & more finishing effects. pretty much all of the shading was done with hard light layers! the only non-hard light layers I used for the shading were the particle effect layers & like one faint glow layer to fix some values. blood was done with linear burn

✨Inspiration for hurt mezu drawing 

the coloring method (grayscale -> saturated gradient map underpainting -> additive color adjustments) is something I tried out with the piece i'd made right before (the one where gozu is holding mezu from behind) & turned out really well, so I wanted to keep going with it

I also wanted to draw them angstily again because it'd been a very long time. like half a year at least. angsting them is very enriching for my soul so I try to do it regularly, this one was overdue

subconsciously referenced the poses in the initial sketch from this old thing (feb 2021). i love doing this. all my for-fun works recycle old elements in some way. my favorite game is "what old art reminds me of what im doing rn" im so good at digging stuff out of my archives for it. everyone loves when i do this

the gangi-kozou panel also

i went through a "shade in bold red-orange & dark blue with hard light layers" phase in like..april/may of 2021. i still like that stuff a lot so I wanted to revisit it

💚Things you like about hurt mezu drawing

repasting the link there but the sixth image in the process is essentially the final so you can just look at that

the colors are nice!! I'm real happy with using more saturated colors n I think the warm vs cool balance works really well

the sleeves (man being dramatic on the sand meme)

no like fr look at the 2021 piece's kimono sleeves vs the one I just did 2.5 years later. so satisfying

Gozu's expression came out nice

i think the claws and flash lines successfully added Emphasis to Gozu's expression & the piece overall

the poses … the drama …. the brush textures are also good

⏳Things you’d do differently with hurt mezu drawing

add in a liiitle more contrast...aka use a wider range of values. Some lighter lights and darker darks. I miss my 2021 hard neon lighting

a bit more distinction between the characters and the background also

the composition isn't bad but it could be better. Should've thought more about the way the eye would flow around the image in the drafting stage (solid b&w color block thumbnails are good for this)

Moar Sparkles. (I put a solid amount of large & low opacity light bubbles in there & some finer brighter dots especially around the claw stems, but I think more clusters of tiny bright lights on the characters themselves would've gone hard)

💌Some favourite feedback on art

as the wise man Austin Kleon once said: keep a "praise file" of all the positive feedback you get (if you've never read "Steal Like an Artist," you must). so. i am prepared for this question hold on

tastes like sugar glass

multiple people have told me my art is soft & dreamlike

jayce you reblogged my touchstarved art with nice tags on april 10th ive got that saved love uou

umm theres a lot...anytime someone keysmashes or feels emotional because of my art i get happy ,,, lys messaged me about the hurt mezu piece that made me happy also,,,,,there is so much joy in the world

#shitboxposting #asks #shitbox drawn #JM SORRY I FEEL LIKE THE FORMATTING ISNT EASY TO READ NO MATTER WHAT I DO....AUGH #all my class work with actual conecptual meaning is monochrome what am i doing...man....... #i need to post more art and i also need to make more art. aghhh. boots up ultrakill and magical drop again #im actually Not sure how im going to afford the next few years of my life 😭😭 a bitch gotta have time to do fuck all but i need money..!!!! #whatever its fine. i have time to do fuck all right Now and thats what matters

[1kook]

hiiii i hope ur well i hate asking bc i don’t want u to think i am complaining or begging (i am kinda begging, hands and knees) or anyth i kno u were on a break and as u should <33 well deserved, good break !!! but but but i have to ask … abt …. Born Sinner …. *hides* im sorry i just miss church boy n just was wondering if u ever … like see in the future urself updating it again im sorry i had to ask ok ok i love u i love ur mind i love ur works and i love born sinner sm if u ever update again or not it’s rly one of my fav works evr and i think abt it all the time . Ur mind is just that amazing ok okok i love u n hope ur well n happy and i wish u the best yami :* 💗🫶🏻💗🫶🏻 ilyyyy

🫶🏻😎 hi hello thanks for ur kind words!! long answer + answers for zoom jk as well just cuz, not cut bc I figure most ppl who followed for writing r wondering too lol

first off, I have generally not had time to write with school and the chronic guilt I feel whenever I’m not studying teehee just girly things, BUT concerning born sinner and zoom jk, I actually kinda wanna delete those 2 series and write them anew.

I feel like a huge downfall with church boy was that it tackled some pretty deep themes and the direction it was going felt slow and really far off, thus making it hard for me to find motivation in writing it bc the end just seemed so far away. I had planned for it to be about 8ish chapters, and each one being over 7k and trying to put those out on regular basis didn’t work out.

i love the concept of church boy, but overtime i kinda came to feel dissatisfied with his character. I mean. yn’s pov was often very short in the chapters, but if that WAS ME and I was dating a guy who was so deeply religious, he felt the need to blame his shortcomings on ME? girl what 😑 she’s definitely no pushover, but i did feel she was too accommodating at times (even tho i was planning on having her stand her ground in future installments). I love the idea of the story being from jk’s perspective bc it was after all about him going through a huge change in life, but I felt like his constant emotional turmoil and hyper fixation on sex was turning him into a rather unlikeable guy, which is something I don’t want 😭 he felt misogynistic at times and I hated that :/ whenever I had to write his thoughts I was kinda like yuck. Ew. lol, and I also always had to be thinking “ok, but how is he going to compensate for being like this?”

With zoom jk, I kinda felt the same lol but more annoyed with the story’s pace. I feel like the first 4 only 4 ghahbsbwhs chapters could easily have been one chapter that set the stage, introduced the universe, etc. HOWEVER I do think the progression was realistic for the story it was telling; come on lol, you’re not gonna be instant besties with a classmate you’re meeting for the first time over zoom during a lockdown. so I felt like I couldn’t really do much to change that. but like I said it was more so the format I did it in.

at the time I posted both these stories, it was fall of 2020, which was kinda “peak” lockdown where I live. everything was closed or remote, so I had a lot of time to focus on writing. however, now it’s almost fall of 2022 and the circumstances are not the same anymore, which has made writing very hard to do for me.

hope that answer helps !!

#asks

[theninthdoor]

Hi! im pretty sure this is an extended reading rather than a quick question?

In blackpink what do the three other members think of the individual member?

(e.g. what jisoo/lisa/rosie thinks of jennie… what lisa/rosie/jennie thinks of jisoo) and so forth… if you get what i mean lol. thanks for this btw!

definitely an extended reading lol, but I really enjoyed it! i hope this is what you're looking fore. and, of course, thank you for requesting 🥰 !! btw - I'm NOT accepting this request for other groups at the moment! this is an old ask. thank u for understanding. I also feel like it's important to say that you should take this with a grain of salt! We all have our positive & negative sides, so we shouldn't expect anything less from idols. Just because the messages focus more on one aspect of things, doesn't mean that that's the ONLY thing X sees in Y! Put everything into perspective and please be realistic with who they are and where they are in life.

Jisoo

↦ Jennie || the tower rx, eight of swords rx: Jisoo thinks she could've never been able to handle as much as Jennie does (hate, rumours, crazy schedules, you name it…). It's as if when she thinks Jennie is about to hit the ground, she always finds a way to rise back up and keep going. However, there's also a sense that Jennie has become a little like a robot, emotionless, passionless, jaded… - and, regarding that, Jisoo thinks she kinda got trapped in a prison of her own making. That level of public recognition/interest sometimes just isn't worth it, you know? Jisoo wouldn't want it - that's what I'm trying to say.

↦ Rosé || five of wands, the devil rx: First of all, Rosé is truly a good-natured person; she doesn't play dirty, which Jisoo appreciates. She will fight for what she wants, tho! Competition really doesn't scare her because she has the will and the passion to outdo them. On the more negative side, Jisoo thinks Rosé is often the type to bite off more than she can chew, and then she just has to stretch herself too thin (for her own detriment) because she doesn't want to let anyone down.

↦ Lisa || six of wands rx, five of swords: This one surprised me, to be honest… She thinks Lisa has become the kind of artist/celebrity to whom nothing is ever enough. Perhaps it's an issue with her self-confident or fear of losing what she has earned so far, and it's not necessarily the case of fame getting to her head. I just see her constantly trying to outdo herself and others; scolding others when they make too many mistakes or aren't performing with as much energy as she is; getting easily upset when things don't work out as she had wanted; etc. Lisa is just too hard on herself and, likely due to stress, she becames a little critical and demanding towards other people as well.

Jennie

↦ Jisoo || the hierophant rx, four of swords: She thinks Jisoo is the type of person who will never, ever break her personal moral code or break away from who she is and where she came from. She's not a sell-out; doesn't care about fame, titles or celebrity lifestyles - she's just Jisoo, and no one can change that. She will challenge authority and other people's expectations without thinking twice, because she has decided to put her peace and happiness first. I don't think Jennie understands how she's able to do that, and I also don't think she wants to be that kind of person. Either way, she absolutely doesn't have a problem with it because Jisoo doesn't bother anyone, she just does her own thing + allows others the same kind of freedom.

↦ Rosé || three of pentacles, five of cups: On one hand, she sees Rosé as someone who's truly dedicated to her job, to music, to creative expression. She loves what she does, so it inspires others who work with her (such as Jennie). On the other hand, work often comes first, and everything else is put on the backburner for her, even friendships. Given that, I think their friendship has suffered quite a lot in the last few years/months, and Jennie misses how thing used to be. Besides that, she also feels sorry for Rosé because, no matter how hard she works, she's rarely able to put out what she wants and how she wants it. In a way, Jennie thinks Rosé would've done really well as a solo OR would do really well as a solo, even if it mean ot4 won't be any longer. (not saying R is leaving!! read again)

↦ Lisa || the emperor rx, six of swords rx: This totally ties in with Jisoo's thoughts… Lisa has become a little too rigid and demanding. It's not that she thinks she's above others - she just doesn't want others to make her look bad or to throw away all of her hard work, so she now tends to act a little bit controlling and critical. Also, for some reason, Jennie thinks Lisa is stuck in the past. Perhaps she hasn't accepted that things have changed, including their work styles or priorities, and even the group's style of performance and chemistry; and she's really not willing to move on and adapt.

Rosé

↦ Jisoo || the chariot, king of cups: Big sister energy! She sees Jisoo as extremely reliable, strong, with great self-control and determination. Specially when it comes to emotions, she is always cool, calm and collected; nothing knocks her out of balance. Rosé definitely admires her strength and discipline, but also her ability to empathize and care for those around her. Although she is willful and assertive, she's still extremely kind and gentle. For all of those reasons, Rosé sees Jisoo as someone she can trust 100%; someone who'll protect her and care for her, if need be; plus, someone who is an inspiration, too (particularly when it comes to her ability to juggle her stronger & softer sides).

↦ Jennie || the tower rx, five of swords: It's really interesting that we're getting the same kind of messages from different members! Rosé also thinks that 1) Jennie is capable of handling a lot more than she could've ever handled herself, and 2) Jennie has, in a way, brought many of these issues upon herself. Perhaps she was naive and acted impulsively, or, at the time, she just never saw what could possibility go wrong… Right now, though, it might be very hard to talk to her and to get her to see reason, likely because she doesn't want to admit her mistakes. Or, alternatively, Rosé just doesn't like the kind of lifestyle she's living or the kind of people Jennie has surrounded herself with - which, understandably so, must've changed her personality a bit + keep on influencing her.

↦ Lisa || seven of cups, queen of swords: Out of all, I think Rosé is the member who understands Lisa's point of view the best! She recognizes her immense potential, versatility and intelligence, and that she simply cannot afford to let all of her hard work go to waste. So, although she also acknowledges that cold, rigid side that the others are focusing on, Rosé understands her a little bit more and can see past that. Lisa has big dreams and so does she, so they can, for sure, bond over that and support each other when things get more stressful or difficult. Besides that, there's definitely a feeling here that these two are likely the most interested in the performance side of the job (at least right now), and they really rely on each other when it comes to advice and motivation.

Lisa

↦ Jisoo || two of wands, nine of pentacles rx: First of all, she thinks (and loves) that Jisoo is perfectly capable of adapting to whatever comes her way. She can play for any team, as long as she is allowed to be her real self. Because of that, too, she's kind of the mediator of the group; the one who's able to adjust her work style and personality to everyone else's; the member who's always helping them understand each other's points of view. On the other hand, though, Lisa also recognizes that Jisoo is the least interested in the celebrity lifestyle, which she thinks it's a shame because J has so much potential. If only she were to put in a little more effort and were to be more disciplined, she would reach even higher! (Again, there is Lisa with the discipline thing lol… she's like a mom wanting the best for her kids)

↦ Jennie || ace of pentacles, the empress: She thinks Jennie is an example to follow, specially when it comes to business decisions. J is able to make everything happen for herself; everything she touches turns to gold. Out of all, she's the one Lisa sees the most of herself in, even though Jennie's potential is not yet fully realized - meaning that she has it all, yet doesn't have the time or discipline to completely dedicate herself to everything and make the best out of it, which is unfortunate. On top of that, Lisa also sees Jennie as a caring, peaceful and trustworthy person; someone who's always available to help (personally and professionally). Overall, it's a really positive and inspiring energy!

↦ Rosé || ten of pentacles, page of cups: Lisa sees Rosé as a sister, almost. Like with all sibling relationships, they have their ups and downs, but, in the end, they'll always have each other's backs. These two might share many of the same values and beliefs; the family environment of both could be similar OR they just get along really well with each other's families. I also see Lisa caring the most about Rosé's opinions, for the better and for the worse… she's just very sensitive to them, I believe. For that reason, it's easy for them to misunderstand, overreact and argue here and there - but it's because they care about each other! If I were to guess, I'd say Lisa sees this friendship as the one that has the most potential to last far into the future, to be honest. It's great!

(Disclaimer: all readings are alleged and for entertainment purposes only.)

#tqqblackpink

[thegardenoflights]

Hello Jemma, my name is Pauline, 24years old, sun sign is Virgo and my pronoun is she. I've been looking for a job in singapore for almost a year now but so far i havent found one yet :( . Im planning to move to singapore cus i want to do my degree there (im Malaysian). Sometimes i just feel like i should just give up and work here in malaysia. But i don't wanna give up just yet. I just wanna ask when will i find a job and move to Singapore?

Hello there! i’m sorry if this reading has come a little later than expected 😅 but i’ve read some cards for you and I hope it helps.

So what I have done, is i’ve put your reading together in two parts… I will pull two cards for if there is any opportunities for you now and how to look for them, and two cards for any other advice for your goals.

So for the first part concerning if there are any current opportunities for you, I have the Seven of Pentacles in Reverse and The Hanged man in Reverse.

So with these two cards I’d say opportunity that you desire is not here for you yet, and it has all to do with your outlook. The Seven of Pentacles in Reverse shows someone who is overanalysing the situation and is too focused on details to see the bigger picture. This card also indicates frustration with a lack of growth and a current business management that is not currently working out for you. This all tells me that the way you are going about your goals the wrong way, and you need to change you plans going forward. You are so focused on a certain way of doing things that you cannot recognise the opportunities that are out there for you… For example; this may be wanting a specific type of job in Singapore and you might not be looking for what just might be available to make you money. You seem to try and force a solution instead of being open, so if you try to surrender to a different perspective this may help you.

For the cards that give you advice in this situation. I have two pretty amazing cards for you… you have The Sun and The World. These two cards are an amazing pull for advice and this tells me that spirit is with you right now and is guiding good things into your life at this moment. The Sun is all about happiness and enjoyment and The World is all about completion and fulfilment. The strong message here is do what makes you feel happy, and let passion, love and happiness guide your way to your goals. I know this might seem like strange advice if you are looking for a clear solution… but once you feel happy as passionate in your pursuits will things start to fit together for you and this is shown by The World.

Maybe you have been a stressing about this a little too much… maybe this situation and idea has taken too much happiness from you… if you find what makes you feel while and complete, will the opportunities come in for you. you might also be on the cusp of some kind of awakening aw well. you might find a new big and grand idea that you can see working out perfectly that you won’t have to try so hard for!

I hope this reading finds you well and good luck for the future!!

[metukika]

What's the piece of art you've made that you're most proud of???

idk if i have something im MOST proud of but these are some examples for things i was at least proud of when i posted them:

this and this are sp fanarts i made for my twt bffs' respective dtiys. theyre a bit old at this point but it made them very ecstatic so i was really happy with it!

this and this were both experimental and difficult as shit. i like playing around with lighting and even tho im shit at perspective i always want to try and mess around with that too!! after i finish a big piece i always want to post it immediately for validation of my hard work but with these i was determined to be a little more patient and post them in a set. i like putting a feeling into a drawing. i remember sending the first one's second drawing to my teacher cuz she asked for pics of my art and ig she showed some of the other teachers cuz my tanakh teacher came up to me and told me how much he loved it which is great cuz hes one of my top 3 fav teachers pretty much lol.

this dr post is more recent but its the first time in a while i didnt color the lineart and i thought it looked so so good i like the coloring in this one. its around when i just started coloring the shading individually instead of using multiply and i like how it turned out! coloring the lineart was fun but i think like this the colors match more and its less work! i love souda lol i loved drawing him and i like the stylization of their faces. i always struggle between wanting my stuff to be super stylized and for it to be instead rendered like anime game merch or something.

[red-dyed-sarumane]

aru sekai series is about time loops and saving the world? :0 oooooo so what happens in shuuen touhikou when they try to run for it? If its not too much to ask

asking about this series is never too much & im always happy to talk about it

shuuen touhikou is an escape idealization song as u might guess from the title being demise escape/flight from demise which ever u feel like using. important to note while it does have its ties to the fight or flight concept it kind of mixes both

the song itself builds on the "end" lyrics from aru sekai shoushitsu taking 『終・ヴァイラ 被覆は依然慰労「共生」/胸に青を基調と見えよ』"end: vira the coating is still in recognition of 'symbiosis'/ make the blue in the chest a keynote and watch it" and 『終・間 気流は塞ぐ音像裂開「共生」/胸に青を犠牲と捉えよ』 "end: space the airflow is the 'symbiosis' of closing the stereo audio fission/ sacrifice the blue in the chest and catch it" & just in case u didnt catch on to that from the title those lines are repeated at the end of the text in the opening of shuuen touhikou. aru sekai is more of an objective look at things where as shuuen touhikou is from a specific person's perspective from the middle of everything thats happening.

this person kind of complains throughout the song about the things theyre told, not believing them and thinking doing anything else would be better than sitting there waiting. quite literally 『祈って 只待って居ても/何も変わらない？其んな事は理解している！/依然 「償いは枷になる」と/然も、悔しそうに。』 "praying, and just staying here waiting/nothing's changing? well I can understand that!/ yet it was said 'recompense will become restraints'/ really, it's so frustrating." this person's had enough, devoted so many resources that they're running out of, and in the end no one's going to know if it worked until it's too late and the world starts to end again. its happened so many times in the past and they know this

so they weigh their options. they cant stand around waiting anymore. there has to be another way & they'll do anything, go anywhere to find it. their ideal manifests in the "city in the canyon" they talk about going to in the song but its pretty clear its less of an actual town and more of a fantasy safe place. nevertheless they take off running one night hoping to get there willing to go as far as they need to to find it (the song says 4 quintillion ri! which is way more than the circumference of the earth! apparently this is an actual journey that happened once but i lost the video hiiragima linked to without getting to watch it properly.) they've put all their effort into saving the world but now they're fighting with what energy they have left to escape it. they even relate it to a lottery, like they might get lucky by running away and really find a safe place.

in the end though it catches up with them, it wasn't enough, they never made it out & it starts raining (rain being the typical sign of the end in this series) & the song ends with them praying the whole thing could finally be over

it kind of seems like they expected that outcome anyway with the whole 「見切って逸そ、逃げてしまえたら。」 which is like "we'll never see the end of it if we could flee." the lines before talking about cause & effect of their actions so basically they know if they run they arent going to know what's been done that's worked or not and they're giving up their own chance at sharing that ending. & the running (ha) theme between the text & lyrics is the conflict between personal choice & what seems like an inescapable fate & if they'd been trying so hard time and time before, maybe breaking that chain would be enough to change fate but nothing worked so it doesn't really matter it's all just another repetition of the world

#asks #kukiyuuri #aru sekai series #hiimagu goto #its not a true time loop btw time /does/ pass and the people arent exactly the same every time #which has a whole big section in aru sekai explaining it & thats where swampman comes from #but thats its own post i think #mikitte isso nigeteshimaetara has got to be my favorite lyric in this song. really speaks to me. had to bring it up #theres still some confusing points for me between the aru sekai lyrics & how shuuen touhikou is presented #but given how the series is going we might get a tie in song like how oumen mokushiroku has unplanned apoptosis etc etc & itll clear up

[sweetbabyrayray]

youre a very strong and understanding person, i was really worried i would make you feel worse (i also apologize for being on anon, i just wanted to wish you well). I have a personality disorder and issues with self harm, and i really do know how you feel, it really feels so horrible to have someone you care about kick you to the curb instead of supporting you or trying to get you help, or even just talking to you. i dont know you and our situations sound very different, but i know how that feels to get 0 understanding and 0 empathy when youre struggling inside. your ex being autistic probably made it even harder for him to emotionally understand how youre feeling (though of course we dont blame him for that) - sometimes things just dont work out. the hardest part for me was realizing that some things i did were manipulative, even if i didnt mean them to be, because of what a bad place i was in. you sound like you understand yourself way better than i did and i have lots of hope youll get through this! youre very brave, and very strong to keep moving forward like you are! i hope you get your housing needs met first and foremost. sorry i bugged you so late at night, wishing you happiness in this world and a place to stay- best wishes for the job too! sending hugs and well wishes, and praying you get the support of friends and family you deserve

oh its all good friend! it would take a LOT to offend or upset me, i promise. i typically have pretty thick skin and give people the benefit of the doubt (unless theyve consistently given me reason not to)

yeah, though, it really does. it's not even that he didn't support me, that would be less bad. it's that he directly promised me safety if i gave up everything and traveled countries to move in with him (meaning, spending thousands of dollars, donating half my stuff, selling my car, discarding the ability to find work easily because of immigration laws, pausing my physical therapy for my disability, etc). i wanted to live with him too and needed to move anyway for personal reasons, and he promised me safety if i moved to be with him in canada. then he decided that he didn't want to do it anymore and kicked me out, AFTER i'd already sacrificed everything. its so fucked up dude lol

his autism definitely did make it difficult for him, and i was very understanding of that. the thing is, though, i also have autism. i struggle very similarly to him, but ive worked very hard to still be considerate and listen to other people, to communicate even when its hard. i actively have to remind myself to consider other people's perspectives because it doesnt come naturally to me, either. im not going to stand here and blame him for struggling with things that were crucial to our relationship when they were not things that came naturally to him - that would be not only hypocritical, but plain asshole-ish; however, i am going to blame him for never putting in any work towards meeting in the middle in regards to these crucial things. there was no communication, no understanding, and no respect. his refusal to self-reflect or self-improve caused me an extreme amount of suffering, and his coping mechanisms (i wont go into them here, but basically he was extremely nasty to me) made the situation much worse than it needed to be, and thats fully on him.

thank you for being kind and talking with me. dont worry, ive been staying up late in an attempt to make myself as tired as possible so when i go to bed i just knock out immediately. you werent bothering me in the slightest. if you want to dm me, id be open to it, but i dont mind the anonymous messages either. i also wish you happiness and love <3

#ray speaks