#THAT'S A WEEK AFTER MY LAST DEADLINE

[ohbo-ohno]

y'know originally i had a big "yay i finished my exchange fic!!" post planned but it's literally an entire week late soo. that feels a little pathetic at this point el oh el

that being said - i finished my exchange fic! i have absolutely no control over when it will be posted, but i'll make sure to put it here when it is!

please please please go follow the deadcoddoves twitter account if you're at all interested in this exchange, they'll be posting about everyone else's fics too!!!

#never ever doing writing a fic with a deadline attached again. im too much of a chronic procrastinator for this #i have learned some things about myself though #(1) i tap out at writing about 4k words a day lmao. after getting that much written my brain is drained completely #(2) i am really really bad at not putting things off until the last minute. which i already knew but WOW this made it obvious #anyways!!! gonna go read all the fics i've missed this week! ceil im coming for you #also if we're deep in the tags and confessing things... #y'all i am sooo self-conscious about this fic LMFAOO ohh i hate it. i hate it so much. #thinking about turning comments off on ao3 for it tbh #but i think part of that is because it's so late. like this damn fic was a full seven days late and it's not even my best work??? #ohhhh i am Embarrassed. well and truly humiliated #anyways my counterplan is to write a bunch of other stuff im proud of so i can stop feeling like shit lmfao #the mods were very patient and kind tho shout out to them for not hating me

[knifebaby3000]

“outfits i wore to the office in jan that reminded me of my gay ocs”

#artists on tumblr #art #oc #rkgk #digital art #my art #tian #zhu #tz #oh my god i drew this as fast as i could after work today i JUST got done and now i'm double-uploading??? procreate...... #''girl don't overthink it just shoot'' girl (me): SCREAMING...... 🆗😭 #ARE YOU SURE IT DOESN'T NEED TO BE CLEANER #i wore z's outfit today and t's last week (to my performance eval which i nailed btw)...... i should have put them in glasses too oh well #last one for january!!! cheers i'm going to bed i'm on major deadline ajdlgadjsg

[swordsmans]

CON CRUNCH IS REAL I THINK IM GONNA JUST START HOT GLUING SHIT TOGETHER TONIGHT FUCK IT WE BALL!!!!!!!

#AAAAAAA #how important is peronas hat REALLY #months of work and i’m still putting shit together t-minus 72 hours before i gotta start loading the car #you know. the usual #me: haha i have plenty of time to get everything done #the last two weeks of july: TWO COWORKERS ON VACATION SO YOU GOTTA WORK 6 EXTRA DOUBLES ON TOP OF UR REGULAR DOUBLES #MULTIPLE SELF -IMPOSED AND ACTUAL IMPORTANT WRITING DEADLINES FOR EVENTS #OH ALSO STILL NOT DONE W/ THE COSPLAY FOR THE CON YOURE DRIVING 500 MILES DOWN THE COUNTRY FOR [[checks calendar]] IN THREE DAYS #AND SURPRISE!!!! YOUR IN-LAWS SHOWED UP TO SPEND THE WEEKEND BC THEY WANTED TO GO TO THE BEACH BUT DIDNT WANT TO GET A HOTEL #me: [[through gritted teeth]] haha i have plenty of time to get everything done #asdflhjhskdfhjls someone send help i need 8 extra hands and 30 more hours in the day. sitting at work going insane rn #i need to stop working 6 days a week. thats definitely not helping the ol' stress levels #i slept for 15 hours yesterday bc sunday is my only day off. which knocked out 15 hours i could have used to get stuff done unfortunately #anyway i’ll post test pics + closeups of my accessories before i hit the road #i’m doing a costume test wednesday night after work #I SWEAR TO GOD IM HAVING FUN ALL OF THIS IS FUN STUFF IT'S LIKE A GOOD STRESS!!!! except im also on fire at the same time #gyro.txt

[pallases]

ourgejjg

#i am feeling so ill rn for no reason and i need to shower and wash my hair so bad but i can tell if i do it rn it’ll make the #lightheadedness ten times worse and there is a nonzero chance i will just pass out in there 😭 #best guess is bc my period started today and yeah the first two days suck but they’re not usually This bad #personal #also this is the last thing i need rn it’s tech week and all rehearsals lately have been going/are going to go till 10 pm and i have no tim #to do all my assignments and my probability prof assigned a lab today that’s due TMRW AT MIDNIGHT? <- we usually get a class period btwn #it being assigned and the deadline and he’s not even giving us until the next class period to do it now like why is it due at midnight #instead of noon the next day… also i have not one but two exams immediately following this weekend and i really want to see my family for #easter but that sounds like such a bad idea im so unproductive at home and i’ll be busier than usual when i go home on top of that bc easte #and one of the exams is circuits for which exams are worth 90% of our grade and im averaging a 74% at the moment which is NOT #promising and. AAAAA #also have an exam this thursday which imnot nearly as worried abt but still. and i have to meet w someone abt a scholarship tmrw during my #free period so i Still can’t work on that stupid lab due tmrw night like. this sucks okay ‼️ #the engineering chronicles #the music chronicles #i know it was only a matter of time before musical started stressing me out but 😭 please give me back the joys of saturday’s rehearsal… #oh also there’s ANOTHER probability lab due day after easter and same day as circuits exam and the prof is the same so he knows full well #what he’s doing like. why are you not giving us the usual period in btwn for these anymore fuck you <3 #OH ALSO soldering qualification i need to do for like 3 hours wednesday the night before my thursday exam. nearly forgot abt that one i hat #it hereeee #soldering i could reschedule tho which i might do. but ive already pushed it back once so im like :/ do i really wanna do that #idk. still feel sick as fuck and still need to do physics prelab tonight 😭 it shouldn’t take long but i really don’t want to get up and #stare at my computer even more ifeel so awful rn #ANYWAY. sorry that was oversharing even for me i am just 😐 you know.

[norfkid]

2,462 words baby 👍

#personal #uniposting #after a week of intense and agonising fucking work (and an all nighter or two) we done did it #so sure. they provided with an approximation for how many words we should be writing for each section and mine are wildly disproportionate #and maaaaybe i “forgot” one section entirely for the sake of how much content i had to write about in the other sections #and maaaaaybe i bit off more than i could chew in terms of the numbers of research points i was going to address (i ended up doing 5 of 9) #but the research was researched. the citations were cited. and the references were referenced. #…i still have the fairly laborious task of formatted all my practical work into design boards for submission #(which will take some time (i have three days including today. which sucks bc i pulled an all nighter yesterday) bc i- #-lacked much showcasing of my process and development (spoilers: i Did Not Have anything. i winged (wung?) it due to deadline pressure) #AND i can’t forget to complete the last page of the job application template they wanted us to submit too. feck’s sake. #…but yeah. essay done 👍

[yohankang]

missing you guys </3

#sorry i have my hands full rn... it's my last week of work and the girl i'm training is not ready to replace me at all 😭 #i have so many deadlines and upcoming exams that i don't even know where to start #and i'm moving in 10 days which is like. insane considering i haven't even started thinking about it #WAIT. IT'S 8 DAYS NOT 10. #oh well!!!! #that's a problem for the end-of-the-month me :) #k.txt #i need 3 weeks off #i don't even go on tumblr these days bc you guys make me want to watch new shows every day 😭 #just... 40 days more and i'll be done with this semester and i'll have SO much free time #so until then i won't be much active on here #40 days... ok i know it doesn't sound too good but. i'll get 3 months of free weekends after that <3

[shamemp3]

havent been to classes for most of this week AND i called in to work today i feel like suuuuch a failure kill me kill me!! i have so many papers and assignments and proposals and applications and a presentation and finals and a cover letter to write and submit and its too much like im busy dying in my bed!!! please!

#i just feel sick and im so behind on everything and finals are so soon and i have 1000 deadlines both for school and masters applications #coming so soon and i feel like everything is going to crash and burn #z.txt #AND DAY 2 OF 7 NO SMOKING. 😶 #and ive canceled plans w my friend too after canceling last week. EVERYTHING IS BAD

[nerdie-faerie]

There are a few rare occasions where I feel like a proper student rather than just someone wasting thousands in student loans, but I seem to save them up for the lowest moments

#student living #Biomed sciences #ive got a presentation coming up in anatomy and physiology so im currently tucked away in a silent study room with music playing on my phon #earbuds in with 2 textbooks open pen&paper out for notes as well as my laptop open to clarify organisation of said notes for my presentatio #this coming after having a meeting with my university adviser last Thursday about my 'attendance and engagement' 🙄 #due to the worst spate of depression ive had in the last couple years cus i completely overwhelmed myself like an idiot #but hey at least im doing my presentation sooner than the night before the handin deadline and pulling an all nighter to pull it off #which is the other half of the student experience that i usually experience #but this is a reoccurring thing that i get really low then i have like a week of being super productive in which i exhaust myself #and as a result lose momentum because its not sustainable its all super fun #at least im actually researching instead of just skimming the abstracts of a load of potential journals and calling it a day #had to pull out the flashcards as well when i needed to draw out a flowchart to wrap my head around it and #i have neither my notebooks or post it notes with me as i didnt actually plan to study when i left home this morning #that would be too much organisation especially first thing in the morning when my brain doesnt kick in until 1pm

[elegyofthemoon]

gotta love my schools not-actually-optional optional classes :^)

#my school: oh and u can take electives during this study period in case ud like to get ahead on ur clerkship! #me: oh ok! that sounds great but id rather use that time to just study for this big exam instead #and the deadlines are absurd (each deadline for the classes is every single day. that is absolutely unsustainable what) #my school sends me an email about falling behind bc im not taking the classes 🧍‍♂️ #so. its not optional. apparently. #i went back to reread the first email about it and they were like oh yes heres an opportunity for u to take these classes IF you want! #so like yeah for my own sanity i thought #ok id love to learn from these but its probably better if i just take care of myself and focus on studying #but nope! #im really contemplating more late nights and losing sleep but after last weeks conundrum after losing a whole night of sleep #and having subsequent panic attacks after that. Uh. No. #tw vent #vent #well. ok. i guess. #snow speaks #i sent an email to them about it so i can have a clearer understanding of wtf is going on #but they are sooooo slow #sometimes i wont get a response until the following week 🧍‍♂️ #sighs... ok back to studying ig #i feel like the past two months is me constantly going 'i am THIS close to giving up on this dream and just going off the deep end to #do something else.' but no i wanna keep trying orz

[camptw1nk]

many thoughts rushin thru my brain

#i am. im having uni thoughts #specifically drop out of uni thoughts #and i have these thoughts every year its true but usually at the end of the semester not the start #i am just. burned out from study i think #i have been in school of some form every semester since i was 5 years old that is Twenty Years of non stop schooling #and i am Tired #like i wanna drop out and work full time im enjoying my job a lot #but my doctor and gym membership are both thru school and so theyre free and so. if i stop. i have to start paying #which is doable if i work full time probably i just. its a lot and its a big deal #ive contacted the student advisors for an appointment and ill talk to my dad since hes the one that funded my studies #i wish i could just like. do One Class and not have it connected to a degree u know #enough to be enrolled and do some work but not so overwhelming #bc my current degree is one that i dont think can be done part time #so idk #its too late to withdraw and get my money back that deadline passed last week #its just very. im overwhelmed and i can not do 9h of uni on a Wednesday right after 3 days in a row of working #i could do another work day no problem but uni is a struggle bc it takes so much mental work #i don't know gang idk what imma do i will wait and see what the academic advisors say #in the mean time i have elected not to go to any of my wednesday classes i dont have the energy #i might go to my cinema studies class this afternoon i enjoy movie watching

[ivettel]

still very busy with thesis and end-of-semester bullshit but once my plate is clear for the summer i think i'll be able to work on gif art again! i miss doing fun things on after effects about seb so much it's unreal

#staring at a wall realizing that i can literally see light at the end of the tunnel #next week is my last concert! my final thesis deadline! the week after is a sendoff bonfire party for my club and my thesis presentation! #and the week after That is opening day for our class' gallery exhibition! and then i just have to pack!!!! ????? #no idea where i'll be in may... maybe montreal? but then in june i get my little diploma saying i spent 5 years slogging away! #what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[khytal]

Your Stampede soundtrack analysis is driving me insane, thank you for your service o7

I'm so glad somebody is as obsessed with this OST as me. Trying to learn "Memory of Piano" on... well, the piano, as we speak. It's both harder and easier than I expected, I can't believe Knives tried to play it standing up like an idiot in episode 1.

oh ty haha!! glad you enjoyed it :]

I have small hands so all those octaves would definitely be a bit difficult for me lmao (and we all know how dramatic knives is. of course he'd play standing up at least once, hunched over the keys bc he's too tall-)

#anonymous #i am so sorry this was from april and i was gone when you sent it in so i didn't know how to respond orz #i really do want to do more soundtrack analysis!!! I just. a lot of things happened that were outside my control #after i got back last month #since i'm going through burnout now's probably a great time to finally tackle this but I've got some deadlines this week o(-<

[mooshroomgirlfriend]

i'm abt to drop a required introductory course :/. she assigned 15 separate reading/video assignments including two documentaries and a video of police brutality for us to complete this week, a VERY short lecture telling us that we are bad at her class, and a quiz with so many grammar errors that i could not tell what the questions were asking of me. holy shit

#musings #its an online class but we havent had more than 5 assignments a week until this week (the 3rd week) #also she started giving us a shit ton of work AFTER the last day to drop and add a class deadline so if i drop it im out 3 credit hours 😑 #but im not learning jack shit and im not going to dedicate my time to this course to let it drag my gpa down idc if i get a W #its an intro course and its harder and more complicated than my 300 and 400 level courses that im taking alongside it

[myownprivatcidaho]

oh shit. ohhhh shit

#another class i was doing i was balancing.my grade at a fuckinb NINETY #and i got behind on ONE assignment #and this prof shes great but shes SO inconsistent. #like she leaves assignments open past deadlines and then she said ''from here on out theyre closing at their due dates' which. okay OKAY #but then she DIDNT FUCKING DO THAT #and so i got behind on one assignment alright. and ive been checking every day to makw sure its still open #and it WAS alongside another from TWO WEEKS AGO #so i was thinking. ok yeah. shes got a general deadline in mind for when she closes these assignments #and even after she closes the one from two weeks ago therell still be the other assignment from last week (that i missed) open right. RIGHT #???? #nope. #she closed bothve them and NOW im gonna get a 0 and my grade in that class is gonna drop below 90 and !!! IM NOT JUST BEING PETTY HERE #THIS IS A BIG DEAL BECAUSE THE FUCJING FULL TUITION SCHOLARSHIP IM APPYING FOR REQUIRES THE FINISHED TRANSCRIPT #I CANT GET A FUCKING B ON THIS CLASS GOD FUCKING DAMMIT #fuck me FUCK me #god. ok #at least her exams are okay. and theyre open note open book you can stop resume any time etc. #im gonna throw my fucking BACK into that exam like my life depends on it #jesus god. #man.

[vordemtodgefeit]

another assignment, another feedback deadline missed

#this has happened five times in the past 12 months #i understand life gets busy sometimes but given how strict they are with us on deadlines it’s really annoying #they would fail us if we had this kind of record #i had laptop issues with the iliad essay and had to submit 5 mins after the deadline. it’s fine now but i had to jump through SO many hoops #to get them to take off the point deduction for being late (given that it wasn’t my fault. and it was by five minutes.) #one of the previous ones was a modhist essay that came back 10 days late because my tutor ‘had a huge amount of work to do’ #funnily enough: a busy schedule is EXPLICITLY said in undergrad handbook to not be a valid excuse for us being late #she didn’t even tell us that she was this busy until about a week in??? it was just complete radio silence before that #she was in her 40s and had been teaching for ages she wasn’t a first-timer #though she did hand off both of my essays for her to a phd student to mark instead #last semester my essay feedback was 5 days late because they ‘forgot to click show-to-students on the results on the uni vle’ #again if we did that we would be chewed out like a piece of stringy beef #i have more patience for this current particular professor but she literally told us IN CLASS TODAY that we would get it this afternoon #my instinct is to always give them grace but this is becoming a very annoying pattern #‘don’t give the students feedback by the deadline that WE set. don’t tell them when they will actually get it back. #don’t allow the students the same flexibility if they do not submit those essays on time.’

[bittwitchy]

ive been five seconds away from a breakdown every second since the 26th and honestly im gonna keep being five seconds from another breakdown until at least saturday

#at this point im just fuckin confused like #the contradictions the weirdness the feeling like im being set up for failure #the fact that if it does happen thats a p massive betrayal all things xonsidered bc other ppl aint gonna want me now that #i literally got broken from doing this #the other form of betrayal from things i was doing being claimed as promo reasons for others #ive been practicing this thing for the entire time and im 50/50 on if ill fuck it up again on nervousness bc i get so badly nervous #and dont want to disappont which leads to disappointing #also going crom being praised to being insulted to being bashed to learningthe same person was praising u behind ur baxk is like??? #such a weird feeling like idk maybe its my tism but i dont understand #and thats making me freak out more #i already broke a tooth too from clattering out of anxiety so like i can quite literally not afford anything else #ive put off my genetic gum disease treatment too long bc of my last beoken tooth and only bejbg able to afford one #if i lose this i wont ve able to afford anything #and thinking about it makes me break down and cry #but also how am i supposed to do xyz when other lpl will yell at me if i do it #anytime untkl a week after monday nights event #but my deadline is friday #which is why its like im being set up to fail #tbd #im panicking and have been panicking and dont know whag to do and just want to die tvh #ikik how ppl feel abt that sentiment but like im sorry its true thags how i fookin feel idk jow else to put it #other than everything would be easier for me if i stopped existing #and maybe id stop disappointing people #depression cw