#so. its not optional. apparently.

[elegyofthemoon]

gotta love my schools not-actually-optional optional classes :^)

#my school: oh and u can take electives during this study period in case ud like to get ahead on ur clerkship! #me: oh ok! that sounds great but id rather use that time to just study for this big exam instead #and the deadlines are absurd (each deadline for the classes is every single day. that is absolutely unsustainable what) #my school sends me an email about falling behind bc im not taking the classes 🧍‍♂️ #so. its not optional. apparently. #i went back to reread the first email about it and they were like oh yes heres an opportunity for u to take these classes IF you want! #so like yeah for my own sanity i thought #ok id love to learn from these but its probably better if i just take care of myself and focus on studying #but nope! #im really contemplating more late nights and losing sleep but after last weeks conundrum after losing a whole night of sleep #and having subsequent panic attacks after that. Uh. No. #tw vent #vent #well. ok. i guess. #snow speaks #i sent an email to them about it so i can have a clearer understanding of wtf is going on #but they are sooooo slow #sometimes i wont get a response until the following week 🧍‍♂️ #sighs... ok back to studying ig #i feel like the past two months is me constantly going 'i am THIS close to giving up on this dream and just going off the deep end to #do something else.' but no i wanna keep trying orz

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

not me immediately getting jude from this

who did you guys get? 👀

#idk any of them i just see jude around a lot so it made me chuckle #@/judejazza and their wonderful posts i often run into #victor is apparently my opposite from these options and elbert is my 2nd choice or smth #(friends and i usually do 'quizzes' 3x to get our main/secondary/opposite) #anyway im just snooping around now. still not sure how i feel abt it but was never too tempted for ikevil. #the less gacha in my life atp the better ngl ;;;;;;;; its why ive stayed away from most of the new games and tryna limit current ones #though if they ever do finally drop ikegen (unlikely asf) ..... count my ass in #i can't even be mad ikepri dropped bc ive enjoyed it so much more than i ever thought i would. easily my fav or 2nd fav bc ikerev #i still adore ikerev and magic and the world building and everything.. alice is just pretty dumb sometimes #which is why i adore b&tb-esque belle/emma so much. also why i like mai in some routes (ikesen humor op) #ikevamp has always just kinda been there tbh. usually the events feel more interesting than the routes ngl;;; charas are fun tho #anyway let's see how this bad boy goes #who did y'all get?? #ikevil #ikemen villains #my post 📫 #aerin.jpg #from the official ig acct btw

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the artblock be hitteth Harder than normal, for tis not normal artblock. woe. Wally be upon ye

#im still So Inconsistent when scribbling him #he never comes out the same way twice #but then again. do any of us? #anyway i think the Misfortune of the past week finally killed my brain #its a tiny smoking poppy seed resting in the middle of my skull floor #too much all at once. cant art anymore #i keep pulling out my tablet and setting up to draw #and then i stare at the screen feeling mild to intense discomfort #i try to scribble. it comes out Horrible. #i put my tablet away and go stand in the middle of the kitchen #i come back to scroll on tumblr #i feel Despair. rinse and repeat #scribble salad #is it distressing? yes! one more to add to the ever-growing pile! #i need to start pre-packing for my inevitable move #sigh... dont wanna go.... #but its not like i have a choice! i quite literally have a single option which is to say! no option at all! #apparently if im in a constant state of severe stress for long enough my creativity completely breaks. shattered right down the middle #too exhausted. the Despair is too strong #and once again i am accidentally venting on a scribble post! sorry! please ignore this im just Saying Shit

[spacedlexi]

going through the wiki transcripts and finding out clem and vi support each other even more than i already thought......... god.....

#the reassurances and support................... killing me........ #thought the 'this is marlons fault' option was gonna be mean to marlon but its clem reassuring vi that what happened wasnt her fault?? #and that vi couldnt have known marlon was lying to her?? #vi being kind and understanding about clem holding up tenn and tries to soften the tension between them #RAAAAAAHHH #it speaks #twdg #violentine #had to start a new save to see some of these choices ive never picked In Action and its great so far thank you wiki #having a real [GLASS HIM] moment right now about some of these like wow i did Not think that was what that option meant #new [GLASS HIM] moment: telling vi 'sorry to disappoint' is SARCASTIC??? 'no disappointment here im glad you came back :)' #and clem smiles and 'hah's about it 😭 theyre so cute new fave option there #'what about the others?' 'ohhh well theyre less excited about it' #end of the ep said vi was annoyed by the sarcastic greeting which is very interesting since they were both smiling about it #see what i mean i thought it was gonna be mean sarcastic but it comes off as playful sarcastic but its apparently mean sarcastic

[pinacoladamatata]

"if you fancy Astarion, you might want to consider therapy. He's so damaged I must have him! Enjoy the fantasy and then call a therapist. It's a two step thing and it's very important you do both." - Amelia Tyler what do your narrator eyes see? 😂😂😂

#ohohooooohoo the little random tidbits devs and voice actors have dropped about his companion arc is making me NERVOUS #just throwin out some meta thoughts here #in order for astarion to *get rid of* the tadpole; cazador *has* to die first. like i'll bet my left tit this is conditional #since cazzy is apparently a control freak he might be enemies w the mindflayers/absolute cult bc ''bleh bleh my city'' #i think its entirely possible that we could ally w cazador against the absolute; this would like have to result in astarion attacking tav #im just worried it might be like; you have to at least temporarily side w the absolute if you kill cazzy? #idk! idk! #and like i do think there will probably be a 3rd option of like 'i hate both these groups kill them both' but man. #and then there's whatever is going on w his ''this soul is not for sale except in the realm of the undead'' stamp #like are we gonna have to go the there? wherever the fuck that is? #pls amelia i am begging on my knees i need a sign! of hope! #bc now the hug and hand holding in the trailer is making me think larian is trying to trick me into believing he'll be okay #only to hit me with a devastating ending(s) no matter what #idk. man. i read astarion's writer was fanes writer. idk dos2 but like i am aware of what......happened w that 'romance' #pls i need a sign larian #i am so sick of the bioware style romances! the morrigans! the solases ! the unresolved endings of it all! ENOUGH #i want closure from this i am begging #for once in my life i just want closure for a video game romance ending #i JUST THINK LIKE ideally. for me. he'd have at least 1 ending where he's not cured but lives happily ever after* #i am having a hard time picturing him cured of vampirism. tbh. but if it's possible without him immediately dying then. well hats off #its 2 AM here i need to knock it tf off and go to bed #........unless.....yall want to enable me and discuss this further #i am 1 more bad day away from writing a thesis on this in MLA format istg

[good-beanswrites]

hello beans!! hope you're doing well 💜 ^w^ I know you've probably gotten a lot of requests - but I'm gonna add to that pile anyway because it's fun and also your writing is wonderful and always cheers me up to read!! I'm so inspired by your drabbles and you really bring these characters and this little world to life ;w;

From drabble list #1:

14. "Please tell me, this is not why you woke me up."

Character(s): honestly anyone, but my gut was saying Es as soon as I saw that sentence so... up to you!

Woo thank you pal, same to you!! Thanks for your kind words ah ;--; This is the perfect line for Es omg, I've been cracking up over it for so long 😂 I was tempted to write them waking up for T2, taking one look around and going "uh-uh," but decided on some T1 comedy...

Es rarely dreamed. Usually it was vague images and thoughts. Sometimes it was just them thinking about breakfast the following morning. Occasionally they were plagued by a nightmare of being forced to sing karaoke with the prisoners. Most of the time, though, it was just silence that welcomed them at the end of the day. Wonderful, peaceful, silence.

BANG-BANG-BANG!

Someone slammed their fist on the door. Es just about fell out of bed.

Mikoto’s voice came from outside. “Oi, get up! There’s been… uh… an incident!”

That was the last thing a prison guard wanted to hear at -- Es checked the clock -- 2am. Damn. 

They muttered to themself as they threw on their uniform. Why the prison’s cells didn’t lock was beyond them. Some of the prisoners were more troublesome than others, but the first trial had been going smoothly thus far. Why now? 

Their mind flashed with various possibilities, each one worse than the last, all urging them forward. By the time they were running down the hallway, their shirt buttons were a row off, and they had to switch their shoes to the opposite foot. They adjusted the cap clumsily on their head.

Fear gripped their chest as they heard Jackalope’s voice crying out for help from the panopticon. Jackalope never called for help. 

Es burst into the room. The prisoners froze, looking up guiltily. 

They sat in a huddle on the floor. Yuno and Muu held the little furry warden over a tub of sudsy water. Bottles of soap and shampoo sat nearby. An assortment of brushes and combs sat to the side. Splashes of water spread across the prisoners and ground, speaking to several failed attempts at getting Jackalope into the bath.

Nearby, Mahiru was holding up the tiny guard’s uniform, her sewing kit spread out on her lap. Es spotted bandages on Yuno’s and Kazui’s fingers. Shidou was currently dabbing blood off Fuuta’s nose as he fumed. Jackalope leaned over to nip at the hands holding him, but Yuno and Muu held him fast.

“Es!” came his frantic voice as he thrashed around. “You gotta help me! Make them stop, dammit!” 

From the group of prisoners who had been watching from a distance, Haruka turned to them. “Oh! Es! Th-they thought that he needed a -- uh, a bath! His uniform had a h-hole, and Mahiru can s-sew! And they thought, they thought we could do it all t-together… Muu called it a -- a spa night…” 

“At two in the morning?” Was all that came to mind.

“We tried to get him to do it earlier today,” Muu said, “but we didn’t get a chance until now.”

“They didn’t get a chance to kidnap me, she means!” He squirmed around some more, swinging his antlers wildly. “They hid around the corner and nabbed me like the filthy criminals they are!!”

Yuno said, “hold still,” as she brought him closer to the water. He kicked his feet wildly, screaming at Es to show a little authority and do something. 

“Hold on a second,” they stopped her.

They closed their eyes, pinching the bridge of their nose. They took a measured breath. They were here to contemplate sin and crime, guilt and forgiveness. Their job should have consisted of questions about morality and life and death; they never anticipated looking around their prison and asking, “is human shampoo even safe for his fur?”

Kotoko spoke up from the other side of the room. “That’s what I thought, but is he really a rabbit? He eats human food and everything, we didn’t think a bit of soap was that different.”

Jackalope disagreed (“that stuff is as bad as poison -- poison I tell you!”) but the others chimed in with their agreement. From around the room came promises that they were being gentle with him, and that they’d keep quiet, and that they’d dry and brush his fur really well when they’d finished, and that they’d feed him treats, and that his uniform was already good as new, and so on. A few complaints at getting bit mingled with Jackalope’s own insults. 

“-- Alright.” Es held up a hand to silence them all. They knew a warden shouldn’t be making compromises with their prisoners. At the same time, they didn’t have the energy to argue about bunny baths at this time of night. “You can continue, but wash him outside of the tub. And go easy on the shampoo. Any mess you make must be cleaned by morning.” 

They were met with excitement and thanks. Jackalope grumbled that they were too soft, but he sounded relieved as he was whisked away from the dreaded bathwater. 

Es sighed. There may have been a few bites and bumps, but that was all. No emergency, no fight, no danger plagued Milgram tonight. Their relief quickly turned to annoyance. They leveled their gaze at Mikoto as he entered from the hallway behind.

“Please tell me this isn’t why you woke me up.”

“Huh? Oh, this? No, no -- we have everything under control. Aw, Mappi, that looks great!”

He pointed at her sewing job, revealing bandages on his hands as well. It looked like no one was safe from the rabbit’s little teeth… Then Mikoto jabbed a thumb casually over his shoulder. “Nah, the faucet in the men’s room broke when we tried filling the basin. The whole room’s flooded now. I think it’s gonna start spilling into the hallway soon.”

“WHAT?”

#milgram #es #jackalope #mikoto kayano #and some others #rip es... they are eternally dealing with So Much Bullshit.... 😂😂😂 #half the fun was actually writing it and the half of it was sitting around brainstorming all the options of trouble the prisoners could #be getting into at odd hours of the night LMAO #i cycled through so many dares/challenges (the fucked up high school variety) - competitions - show offs - crazy games #and thats Before i considered the genuine trouble they could get into #the line was so versatile asdfsdfsd #anyway uhh dont try this at home and all that -- apparently bathing bunnies IS bad for their fur and very distressing 💀 #but im sure our little cryptid prison warden can handle it... #amane and haruka arent involved directly but they are chilling okay #its getting more and more difficult to write milgram humor as they reveal more and more character trauma but im trying!! 😭 #thank you so much for the request! these have been such a blast -- i really appreciate it! you are so kind :') #i hope youre doing well and taking good care of yourself pal!!👍✨ #i hope you enjoy :D #drabbles

[minglana]

feel like throwing up just by thinking of the concept that tomorrow i have to choose an erasmus destination honestly

#i dont think im ready to go to germany.... i dont have any type of language certification... #and apparently they dont rly go easy on u at all. like they dont care that youre a foreign student they treat u like any other student #and idk same w vienna i think. plus its more expensive. idk. OH OH and i havent even told my parents. #this time fr i wasnt trying to hide anything from them i just. completely forgot😭so i have to call them today and tell them #and maybe theyll be able to help some. another option is staying here or go to a flat next yr. idk i have some moments where i rly wanna le #leave. and other times i feel like i need a 180º in life yknow #idk. thinking abt the future makes me soooooo nervous im not even kidding. i hate it #z xarre

[fishalthor]

rand al’thor & mat cauthon in every episode 1.06 - the flame of tar valon

#the wheel of time #wotedit #twotedit #tvedit #fantasyedit #fantasysource #cauthoredit #cauthor #rand al'thor #mat cauthon #matcauthonedit #randalthoredit #*** #I'm of the MINORITY apparently that was kinda bored by this ep? idk #just me? probably #BUT ALSO LOOK ITS TIME FOR ME TO RANT AGAIN #also the fact that Rand makes NO SENSE defending him so vehemently? #egwene is like HE LEFT US and hes like HOW DARE YOU #but he did? #500 options and they chose this THIS i hate them for this #as tho MAT CAUTHON would ever leave his friends #ON THE BRINK OF SOMETHING THAT COULD KILL THEM ALL #SURE OK SURE #I would've loved this show a lot more if they hadn't done Mat this dirty ok

[caffeinatedopossum]

I complained a lot about the side effects from my anxiety meds but they've genuinely changed my life in the best way. I'm talking to friends again, I'm playing video games, I'm not having panic attacks about dying every single night... genuinely wish I had this years ago

#im pretty sure the main side effect of emotional blunting has actually mainly gone away now #pretty sure it was because i was taking them inconsistently #im supposed to take two a day but before i got adhd meds i couldnt remember to take my second dose #and then it also says on the bottle to take with or without food but take it the same way everyday #and i didnt start doing that until recently. and its gotten better since then #it changes the absorption of it apparently so you gotta do it the same everytime #i was gonna go with not eating every morning cause i normally didnt like to eat when i got up #but i always eat before bed when i have to take my second dose sooo yeah #anyways. just realized this is probably super boring to most people #whatever its my tags its im free to be boring #engagement is optional

[raisinushigher]

#i have not mentioned how disappointed i am that its all coming out immediately because i hate complaining #but i am. not only is being there for it and watching everything go down in real time way more fun but also not doing that apparently lower #the shows ratings or something. so it’s just like Why man #absolutely no advantages i can see from this. but oh well #mine #clone high #also my answer is the first option absolutely without a shadow of a doubt. #i need it and i need it now no waiting i dont Care okay. #ESPECIALLY with the fear of being spoiled for literally Anything are you out of your mind #do it your way though have fun

[guinevereslancelot]

most fucked up thing at my new job is there's only zero calorie sweeteners at the coffee station in the break room. three different kinds of zero calorie sweetener but no regular sugar because the assumption is that literally everyone is on a diet?

#is this because its a job dominated by women in particular??? idk #that's so weird #like sorry i can taste the difference and i prefer naturally occurring sugar from nature how is that not even an option #drinking nasty bitter af coffee bc i am So Sleepy but i refuse to use artificial sweeteners #they Do taste different and they're not even good for you im not doing that lol #also they got mad at me for telling one of the parents that we took one of the kids temperature and it was 99 and he threw up a little #when his dad came to get him yesterday and all of the other teachers were nowhere to be found #they were like tou shouldnhave had colleen do that #ma'am colleen went home before that and so did you #i should have left already too but waited bc the ratio on the playground was bad #anyway i did NOT say he had a fever i said it was 99 and to talk to the teacher inside #but the dad didnt yalk to her clearly then went home and scared the mom that he had a fever and threw up so she texted my boss freaking out #i literally just said he threw up a little and we took his temperature and it was 99 and to talk to the other teacher #which was all true and there was no one else there to tell him #anyway #apparently the person who had my job before me was a wacko who scared the parents with fake medical information or something #but that is not my fault and nobody told me that or not to tell the parents anything medical until this morning #ugh #also my supervisor is kind of a weirdo #she wanted to show everyone ~cute~ pictures of animals she has killed while hunting??? #and i said i didnt want to see #and she was like ~oh it's not dead yet in the picture~ #like okay but its dead now??? #she traps them first so its a cute little fox in a trap about to be killed 😭 #like wtfff #i know trappong predators is a reality but why take pictures like ohhh so cute then kill it #THEN show everyone the cute pictures like yeah isnt he adorable i killed him btw <3 #huh?????? #she has a bobcat tail on her keychain too she was giving it to the teachers and kids to pet like ohhh its so soft <3

[crinkler]

i cant sleep so

#i need to watch more barbie movies apparently #im looking at the list and i dont know like half of them #poll #polls #barbie #barbie movie #barbie movies #i think its a pretty obvious choice #also idk if these are the best ones to include cos some of them i only watched like once so i dont remember how gay they qre #but i wanted to fill out the options so i used the synopses on wikipedia to choose some idk #but i doubt theres any gayer than [redacted] (ill tell you my choice at the end)

[incorrectdmp]

Percy: I’m not that stupid!

Charlie: Percy, you literally ate the wax from a babybel.

Percy: GRACE TOLD ME IT WAS EDIBLE!

#incorrect quote #Grace Garden #Percy Blackwood #Charlie #submission #HJSAKDAJSKDAJKSD? #personal favourite #THIS ONE IS SENDING ME AND IDK WHY #ITS JUST REALLY FUNNY? #why WOULD grace do this im #it feels so correct #so i just googled it and apparently while babybels did exist in grace's time #they didnt exist in the UK until the 70s #i did RESEARCH bc this quote made me laugh so hard #option a is grace knew and was being a little shit or she was just as ignorant #thanks submitter i loved this one #dmp #discord murder party #quote

[sydmarch]

spent months like I need prescription for my mental health give me prescription please please & now that I have it I'm like hm. do I want to have to take meds, actually

#part of it i think is just that typical anxiety that comes before any life change like s new job or whatever but also like #despite never having TRIED stimulants im familar w them i know people w adhd who are on them i had an idea of what to expect & thats what i #i figured id be getting but shes having me try this non stimulant option first bcus 1 apparently its good for people who also have anxiety #and 2 easier to get w the like Adderall shortages & shit rn #& im like ok i have NEVER heard of this drug before and didn't even know there WERE non stimulant options options. #like im doing all my research TODAY for the first time then pick it up tomorrow? #like me heslth anxiety girl just has to be like ok sure i guess. i had mentally prepared myself for stimulants & thats it!!! #i mean worst case i just try it & see if it works or if i have side effects but like. ugh. & i dont like that i dont like my np LOL like id #probably feel less uncertain about trying something i was previously unfamiliar with if she was someone i liked & trusted more #if i knew there were unfamilar drugs they might recommend to me i probably wouldve started over & found someone new to work with. AGHHH & i #didnt discuss any of this w her bcus it took me a couple hours after our session to think abt it & do my own reading & process my emotions #to really come to thia conclusion. & also i wouldnt have wanted to talk to hwt abt this anyway bcus i dont like her & have not felt at all #like cool w opening up to her beyond the minimum i had to do for the assessment #& my therapist is sick this week so im not gonna get to talk to her tomorrow!@ #texticles #anyway i know ive got fellow adhd bitches following me. anyone try guanfacine did you like it or nah

[bonestrouslingbones]

(x)(x) some more bc i guess this is what i decided to do with my day 😔

#the first one didnt have any tied hair options so stretch looks weird lol #what i;ve learned in all of my picrew searching is that all of these guys are actually some flavor of lesbian. you know #especially edge. i dont think i've found a single one that didnt make him look like he switched teams #its the pwetty eyes ofc #on an unrelated note i went to a theme park yesterday and fun fact apparently it is possible to only get a sunburn on your top fucking lip #ok it is so late i Need to go to bed look at these non-lesbian-lesbians goodnight

[raksh-writes]

Me, unable to play, because its been 30+ degrees Celcius for over a week now and my room is absolutely awfully hot even without my PC sweating:

Maybe I should multiclass my Ranger with a Druid 🤔🤔

#baldur's gate 3 #video games #Raksh posts #tbf Ive been 50/50on which to choose wgen starting the game #but the Renger just speaks to me #I need my wood elf with a long bow doing insane damage yknow 😂 #but today I learn Druids can apparently shapeshift into a sabertooth tiger? I neeeeeeed #Ive read some guides and this is prob not an optimal build or anything but the RP and fun element!! #and its prob better to experience a full class on the first playthrough buuuuuut #a wood elf ranger druid!! Ive already been building up a nice backstory to my character and both having familiars And a wildshape fits #I could do like maybe 8 into ranger as my main and 4 into druid for the wildshape?? #Im already at lvl so maybe I could respec now so next lecel I get 4 in both and then finish up with ranger 🤔 #I dunno theres so many options ahhhhhh #also Ive been wondering if I should multiclass Astarion into a ranger too #give him two attacks and the gloomstalker is apparently very good so itd fit I think 👀 #having these two in my party makes my options otherwise very limited so making my MC mote versatile seems a good option too hmm #for now Im going around with Shadowheart and Lae'zel in the mountain pass and might stay this way #anyway this is just a random ramble while I wait until it cools down enough to let me play 😂 #there's some clouds approaching so - fingers crossed 🤞