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aaasherr · 2 years
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being a collector and living with your parents is so hard, my room is so small and i dont have any room for my STUFF but i have so much STUFF
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</3 (my fictional heart breaking fr at the thought of my fictional men not kissing)
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bookishjules · 1 year
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so today we got to the part in tlo when percy bathes in the river styx, and my 9yo got so upset with percy that she decided she's not finishing the book. she's done with percy jackson because he's making a mistake and becoming mean and arrogant, and why didn't he just listen to achilles??
her sister and I had to spend the next half hour trying to convince her to stick it out, and eventually she and I struck a deal, which.. thank the gods fr because I was about to break down sobbing at her feet if that's what it took
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elesssar · 11 months
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why is doing Activities so expensive. i wanna do something that isn’t playing video games or walking around the block both of which are things i enjoy but are also not what i wanna do. board games are EXPENSIVE and you still have to pay at the cafe. bowling is so bloody expensive and for what. pool is cheaper but you do still have to pay. why must i spend money for a few hours of enrichment in my enclosure >>>>:(
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toastsnaffler · 4 months
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yet another evening of cooking showering then sitting at my desk and sniffling miserably for 2 hours bc I can't work up the motivation to click open any of the hundreds of videogames or movies or drawing wips or literally any kind of enjoyable activity on my laptop and then going to bed at 9:30 before i throw myself off the roof
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avourel · 4 months
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watching the new TGCF episode, and seriously, once again, (i'm sorry i keep harping on this), Lan Qianqiu ANNOYS ME SO MUCH
seriously, you're crying about how even though the common people were saved, your parents died, to Xie Lian? TO XIE LIAN? even though you know what happened to him? first! at the hands of your ancestors!
...the thoughtlessness is annoying.
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lunarsapphism · 1 year
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eepy.
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incarnadinedreams · 5 months
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UGH why am I LIKE THIS I got to the end of the available 2HA volumes and just like TGCF I couldn't fucking wait for the officials so finished up the rest of the fan translations and now I'm deep in the mire of the edited MTL of the chapters beyond that and I should have just waited but no, I couldn't wait, and now if I stop and wait I'll have to wait even LONGER since I'm past what will be in the next official volume so at this point I'm going to just. Finish I guess. While mostly following along, ish.
Woe is me and my 100% self-inflicted problems, curiosity killed the cat, etc. At least it's... sort of readable, mostly, and at least I am FINDING OUT WHAT HAPPENS.
I KNEW I shouldn't start another unfinished (in official translation) series because my whole "I'll just casually read them as the official translations are released and stretch it out for ages! :)" thing fails 100% of the time why do I keep attempting it
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broodsys · 5 months
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venting abt creative woes feel free to ignore <3
it has been really hard for me to post art, both drawing and writing. it's not just about engagement/lack thereof or abt concrit or about anything in particular. i just get so caught up in comparisons and breaking things down and wanting to be objectively "better" at it and idk if i'm even enjoying it anymore.
sometimes i think seriously about stopping? i'd still create but. just for me. idk.
and im having mixed feelings about fandom in general. idk. it's late at night and it's been dark for too many hours and ik that's putting me in A Mood(tm) but it's still been! hard! and i get sad and frustrated and self-conscious all the time
it just feels like im out here putting my ugly shit next to everyone's polished pretty pieces. and ik, ik, two cakes, i've been trying to internalize that, but it's hard right now. i cannot stop thinking about the pretty fics ive read and i cannot stop being so fucking envious of them and it feels gross! like i should just appreciate them? they're lovely, mine doesn't have to and shouldn't be a replica, etc etc, all these things i know intellectually, but... ugh.
and it's extra frustrating bc i know ppl like my stuff, esp my writing. they do! they've said it! ppl who have no cause to lie to me, strangers, etc. but i just can't feel it and im so... envy demon has a fucking hold of me lmao.
might be circling back to the going too fast/pushing myself too hard thing again. but i've just been dealing with the constant undercurrent of severe frustration with everything i attempt. i try to shake it off but idk, if it's this consistent...?
ugh. idk. i've been going back and forth on this for a while. do i push through? do i try to drop my standards? do i just keep all my stuff to myself? unknown.
like, no matter what im finishing my bigfic. for me. but idk. should i even bother posting it? it's not... it's not about engagement. it's about the fact that i feel like the whole thing is just kinda... an embarrassment? like i cannot stop looking at it thru the most critical, least compassionate version of a potential audience and it's fucking with me so bad. when im writing i enjoy it, i think it's cool, i think it's good. but then i post it and after a while im just so embarrassed. i still think it's good! but it's still also embarrassing! i've worked hard for years to learn to trust my audience, to not spoon-feed them every bit of information and then follow it up with a quick confirmation just to make sure they're getting it, but now i feel like i'm being drawn back into that.
i read it. i've reread it a few times, in fact, for pleasure and not for editing. i love it? but im also so embarrassed by it whenever im not like... actively reading it. it's just disheartening.
idk. it's my personal baggage more than anything ig.
anyway im genuinely not asking for my ego to be stroked here or w/e, just- this has been weighing kinda heavily on me for quite a while. it's very frustrating.
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dufrau · 10 months
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I'll try not to go off in a rant here just 'cause there are sooo many things I absolutely love about your writing (but I'll probably fail and make a mess, excuse me pls). Ok, so first of all, I think you nail the characters' "voice" (thoughts, phrases etc) in a way that is almost unfair, and especially with Robin. Don't even get me started, just how you get her wit and humor, but also her more vulnerable/insecure side... Just like, the way her brain works, yk? Ugh. Perfect. (You do a wonderful job with Nancy as well, obviously, but it's just your Robin always feel like she's stepping right out of the screen to me lmao it's hard to explain).
Which reminds me of the other thing I really appreciate which is just the dialog and the way you balance the humor with all the other stuff going on (trauma! teenage angst! the woes of being alive!). Like, it's never overdone and it doesn't fall flat, it just hits that perfect balanced level (!!!). Obsessed with this tbh.
Also yes, all the sad&horny vibes and the bantering&fun vibes, you alternate between them in a flawless way imo, depending on what the story (or the scene) requires. These aren't the only aspects worth mentioning imo, just the ones that call out to me more, I guess.
Ok, that's it for now. This wasn't very eloquent (if at all! lmao) sorry!! but yeah, big fan of your writing, in case it wasn't clear yet LOL
Ahhhh this is all so nice thank you 😭
I do find Robin a lot easier to write than Nancy! I don't know why I just feel like I get her, whereas with Nancy I am obsessed with figuring her out but I never feel like I've quite gotten there lol.
I think sad stories need humor! It makes the sad stuff hurt more when you remember the funny bits! This is a trick! You heard it here first!
I am writing sad and NOT horny right now but maybe i'll write silly and horny next time to make up for it??? It honestly really helps to keep me motivated to kind of switch tones and also POVs back and forth piece to piece so I dont get bored or feel like im repeating myself TOO much.
This was such a nice message thank you so much 😭💜
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menzoberranyr · 3 months
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tavstarion? (bonus hellestarion)
hi jiub thank you jiub ♥️
Tav/Astarion
I’m not gonna commit to ship/don’t ship for this because it’s really dependent on the Tav in question! generally I think people write pretty compelling Tavstarion dynamics—especially the people in our server, hehe—but in my heart I cannot ignore the droves of people who badly misinterpret his character and play really awful storylines as a result HAHAH. everyone can do what they like, but it’s not always for me!
Helle/Astarion
1. Why do you ship it?
believe it or not, I did not create Helle as an Astarionmancer initially. but the second I got to thinking about those juicy dhampir/spawn dynamics… it was over for me.
2. What are your favorite things about the ship?
an outsider looking in would think they fucking hate each other when they are in fact obsessed with one another
biting killing etc. couples who eat people together stay together ♥️
they have so much fun together. I don’t talk enough about how much they just genuinely make one another laugh and have a good time together. sometimes this is at the expense of others LMAO, but it’s also innocuous stuff like going to a festival or a tavern together, doing each other’s hair and nails, reading the same books and arguing about their interpretations…
the woes as well of course. Helle threatening to kill Astarion if he ascends. Astarion trying to use Helle as a weapon against Cazador early on. when their joke arguments turn into real arguments and they get genuinely mad at one another and have to grow up and talk about their feelings instead of just resolving it with sex. the tension of Helle being a daywalker while Astarion is resigned to a life in the shadows. the very fraught enthrallment powers subplot.
but also the tenderness. UGH. don’t let me think about the sickening earnestness and gentleness and love
3. Is there an unpopular opinion you have on the ship?
wouldn’t it be funny if there was? an opinion that’s unpopular with the 2-3 other people who actually care about this ship, but it doesn’t even matter because I make the rules. I suppose I have some Astarion opinions tied up in this that might be unpopular with the broader fanbase… but that’s a whole other can of worms
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faneposting-my-beloved · 11 months
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You ever think...how little of Fane is really Fane? His origin, (most likely rewritten/changed and) shoe-horned into the shrunken game after the development curb.
His race, a mix of repurposed Raanaar assets & a lazy simplification (@ you Godwoken novel) - which, don't get me wrong, the little differenciation Eternals DID get from the Raanaar were great! Just never elaborated upon later on. Yeah, the novel again.
The clothes he is wearing in the arts etc? Just a generic 'wizard' armor that wasn't designed just for him contrary to clothes of other origins (even though Ifan/trp don't have their clothes in game)
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What is really his is the key art armour, which I speculate is the Eternal Armour you can make...that doesn't look remotely close to the concept in game and only warrants ONE line of banter dialogue (which is generic, i.e every character speaks it) And the whole key art is...so foreign and seemingly random. I just don't get the bones around his neck. Maybe it's meant to represent Fane as the Divine? Exclusively? (since no other origin got such treatment) idk, this is a topic for its own 5000+ words post. His mask at the very least gets better treatment, but the inability to use it with a helm makes it inefficient in the late game. Which is a gameplay woe that could be adressed with what, one additional activate/deactivate toggle?
ugh
This was faneposter speaking her second dos2 rant this week from the deepest depths of hell she confined herself to. Madwoman out.
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aching-tummies · 2 years
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What are your favorite tummy-related lines?
I got an ask a while back (that disappeared before I could answer) asking me what my favorite tummy-lines are. It made me realize I've never really compiled a list of stuff like that. I'm not usually interested in the actual lines too much--for me, it's like 95% what's going on in or on the tummy. Hands or other objects being used on the stomach and the effect of those actions within. But there are a few verbal cues that get me going.
In no particular order, these are some of the lines just off the top of my head. Granted, this is not a comprehensive list and like any person I go through moods so it's hard to say "these always work"...but these work a good chunk of the time.
"Please...don't push...it hurts!" Most variations of "don't" or "stop" or something...the one with the tummy-issues clearly being in pain and having to verbalize it to the partner.
"Ugh...my tummy..."
"Ouch...unngh...f-feels like I'm gonna explode...nnngh...*whimpers/moans/gurgles*"
"Whoa! What's going on in there?"
"Aww...is your poor little tummy hurting/upset?"
"Well...that doesn't sound very good." Describing the sounds as "sick(ly)-sounding" or "icky" or just in general commenting how the noises from the tummy don’t sound good.
"Wow...no wonder you can't sleep--I can literally feel your stomach struggling."
"Your tummy's been hurting/hungry/sickly that long?! Why didn't you say anything? Poor thing...poor tummy." (LOL, a partner that's got more concern for the tummy than for the person as a whole)
"Wow! *firm pats on the tum* You really do feel like you're gonna burst." (possibly a scenario where the one with the tummy's been mentioning how they're too full but the partner's sorta refused to hear it...and it took literally grabbing partner's hand and forcing it onto the tummy for partner to realize 'damn--they weren't exaggerating'.
Another party describing the tummy noises or the sensations from the stomach as "angry".
The partner being mildly surprised at the state of the tummy. Whether that results in them being a caring, non-overbearing caretaker or awakening a sadistic side that suddenly wants to experiment in making things worse...could go either way.
"Full?" In the context of a partner patting the tummy and inquiring about the state of it. Same actions but with, "You done?" or "Hmm...I think you're feeling just about empty." or something if it's in a sickness or vomit-aftermath scenario.
"Aww...cute. Does someone have a tummy ache?" Rare...but sometimes the idea of a sadistic lover saying this while knowing fully that the other has a tummy ache can be nice.
"You're...empty/hungry?" A partner feeling up the stomach and is surprised to feel just how hungry the other really is. Like...partner not expecting them to have gone quite that long without eating anything etc. A bit of a stretch, but could also work as an "on the mend after a nasty bout of sickness" scenario. Anything with the partner being surprised by what they can feel under their palms.
"It could be the [insert what was ingested] that's upsetting your tummy so."
Using "poor (little) tummy in certain contexts is almost always a win.
"Nnngh...hungry..." or something. Slurring of the speech. Specific context though: after a nasty sickness...the one with the tummy-woes sort of having a "fukin' finally!" moment--they've been desperately waiting for their appetite to come back and all that. Like...sure, they completely emptied their guts on day 1, but days 2 and 3 were literally spent in bed, feeling too crappy to move. They were empty and their body was starving but they had absolutely zero will to actually swallow anything 'cuz being achingly empty was better than another round of getting violently ill. Them admitting they are hungry or otherwise acknowledging the needs of their stomach as a sign that they're on the mend/are up for eating. Throw in a concerned partner that's relieved to see them actually have an appetite and helping them with the task of acquiring food and monitoring them while they eat, possibly with some casual stomach rubs during and after to stave off an upset in case the stomach and the sickness decide it was too soon.
"Nnngh...too much..." or some variations of "I ate too much" coming out as a sort of painful whine as they palm at their hurting tummy.
"Is dinner hurting your tummy?" Rephrased works too, like, "Is all that dairy hurting your tummy?" or "That was a lot of food. Does your tummy hurt?" or in general just the partner asking about the state of the tummy, knowing it's due for an ache-session.
"Don't fight it...here...let me..." Scenarios where the partner acts as caretaker and has to squeeze and push into the tummy to get whatever needs to happen (vomit, burp, whatever) to happen...'cuz the other is too exhausted from enduring for too long to have their body do it naturally.
Describing in vivid detail what's going on inside. Either by the one with the tummy-woes describing their symptoms or trying to make the partner understand...or the partner describing what they imagine is going on (which may make the other feel worse as their guts emulate the story)...or the partner describing what they feel beneath their hand vividly, adding to the experience of the one suffering. Anything that invokes the mental image of the internal view--particularly if life then imitates the art (of the story telling).
"You really aren't feeling good, are you?" When partner is concerned. Could be used in a general sickness context but definitely love it when it's said in response to the stomach betraying it's state with a sickly rumble or something.
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wovenstarlight · 2 years
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Thinking about your cached AU and I cannot /imagine/ the dissonance SHJ must feel everytime he sees Yoojin. Like going from the instinctive "Haha little F rank" to "oh shit what the /fuck/" in 0.5 seconds. *NOVEL SPOILERS* And that scene where SHJ's memories completely regress of a few chapters? Like, he sends down his chains to drag Yoojin to him and Yoojin is just like. No. And yanks the chains, unceremoniously dragging Sung Hyunjae down the stairs instead.
Oh! And that's not even mentioning the hilarity of the dungeon glitches!
"Oh No!!! A SS rank monster just appeared in this low rank dungeon what are we going to d-
Oh. Oh okay nevermind Yoojin swatted it like a bug and now it's dead. False alarm."
Everything you've written for it is so angsty but I can't stop laughing there's so much potential for comedy
LMFAO YEAH. I think early on I said hyj claims to be F-rank but realistically that's way too obvious a lie so in the yerim chapter I marked him down as claiming A-rank. S-rank would be even easier to pull off but ssm and hyh said "okay so as an s-rank here's the bare minimum amount of public appearances you'd have to make—" and he was like I'd Rather Die Than Face The Media (Again). and they were like oh. um. okay. well. A-ranks aren't nearly as popular even though they still are. would that work. and he was like ugh whatever. and they were all like [EXTREMELY RELIEVED SIGH]
so he has to keep up appearances as an A-rank... that combined with the subconscious awareness that he IS stronger than them, ALONG with the fact that he doesn't even pretend to be scared, honestly makes his relationship with the canon S-ranks. well. okay for those who are under his care it's like You're my dad! boogie woogie woogie just as in canon. but for, like, shj and mha and stw and the rest. he's very. I don't wanna say uncanny valley but they're all on edge around him a bit. of course shj is still like this guy is so fucked up (positive) (intrigued). but because hyj is """A""" rank instead of F-rank... you know how in canon they're all like hehe little F-rank we can push around for jokes and comedy. shj knows better than to try any jokes and comedy on hyj here.
it probably makes it worse than hyjs trying so half-heartedly to be like oh woe I'm a A rank who can't help but be weaker than you guys.... because during shj amnesia pool incident he tries to chain up and drag hyj over and hyj is like. [completely deadpan] oh noooo whatever will I do. these chaaaains have appeaaareeed to drag me awayyyyyy. noooo. he follows them and finds shj and immediately gives him an earful and gets a dunking anyway but he's about twice as pissy about it. prereg shj is having an absolute moment up there on the surface because he's all WHAT THE FUCK? WASNT THIS GUY F-RANK? WHAT? [←not scared per se but unused to this new status quo]
the thing is. even if hyj knows he's SS-rank and everyone knows he's SS-rank and he knows everyone knows etc etc etc. he just stonewalls them when they try to ask (Too Much Trouble). and he still puts up the bare minimum facade of being lower-ranked. so if an ss-rank monster shows up, then like... like okay, with the Babar he contributes about as much as in canon because solo he can't actually do anything, it IS a pretty formidable monster. maybe he takes over for yoohyun and orders him to stay back from the fight, or something, idk. with that dragon humanoid diarma sent, which he fought with shj and riette and noah, though. that he just lays into singlehandedly and then when the others are like ?????? he's like Ohhhh I uhhh forgot to say but Myeongwoo was testing out.... some sorta... extra special buffing equipment. yeah that's definitely it. [glowering] Do Not Tell Anyone Else. and like obviously no one believes him but like. lol. what are they gonna do, fight him? so SS rank han yoojin is just.... the sclass world's most badly kept secret
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jodie--louise · 2 years
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Ugh the woes of constantly observing and being observed by me at me.
But let’s talk abt obsession again yay!!
So I’m currently not in obsession mode at all but it’s like…my brain is actively seeking someone to latch on to all the time.
It’s like, if I don’t have an obsession then my head is empty. If I have an obsession, then my head feels like it’s abt to explode. So how do I find neutral?
I mean these days I think I’ve been ok? Def just overall overwhelmed and kinda burnt out with life and trying to not implode on baseline things that are just external. But in terms of BPD stuff, I’ve been feeling neutral I think??
But tbh neutral is such an unfamiliar feeling I’m scared that I’m just bored and dopamine seeking and Mayb that’ll lead to depression or being reckless etc. I just can’t fully tell at the moment.
Bc I kno for a fact I’m always dopamine seeking , but the specific type of BPD dopamine seeking is very…specific.
I always want to latch onto men first of all. Which I fucking hate but I have to admit it bc it’s just my fuckin brain.
And basically I put together that I have this very primordial need, deep deep inside me, to be nurtured by my dad. And so my brain just latches on to any man that resembles him and is like YOU NEED THIS NOW!!! And then u kno I get fucking crazy or watever. And like I basically knew this vaguely but now that I type it out it’s like yah duh. Daddy issues 101
Anyway, idk how I’m doing bc my brain is kinda bored right now and I just hope that doesn’t lead to anything bad.
I thought my sexual feral ness was done but I’m afraid it mite b transforming into something else? Not sure yet. Got to think abt it
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