#When I was 15 I was obsessed with them

[ankhnu]

FF men sketch dump

#When I was 15 I was obsessed with them #I'm a simp #Final Fantasy #Warrior of light #WoL #Dissidia #Firion #Zack Fair #Vincent Valentine #Sephiroth #Cecil Harvey #FF1 #FF2 #FF4 #FF7 #Crisis Core #Fanart #My art

[canisalbus]

Your art tastes like aged paper, sugar, and chocolate to me, with a hint of salt every so often

Machete looks like white chocolate, and Vasco's like buttery caramel

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#aw #that sounds nice #anonymous #answered #I was wondering what the aged paper is doing there but it reminded me of something #so I'm going to share a weird personal detail totally unprompted #I think I used to have pica disorder when I was a kid I would gnaw on and eat a lot of small inedible objects #pieces of cardboard rubber bands and blu tack #the plastic animal figurines I had had bitemarks on them and were often missing bodyparts like if a dog had gotten to them #also a ton of uncooked pasta #I think it wasn't a flavor thing I had obsessions for specific textures that weren't found in actual foods #I particularly craved those candy wrappers that are made of waxed paper #(finns might be familiar with pihlaja or marianne wrappers for example or those translucent inner wrappers in lehmäkarkki/ cow cream fudge) #can't say for sure when it stopped but one day I realized that hey hold on this probably isn't normal human behavior #I think I was over 10 but under 15 #and I had forgotten the whole thing but got such a vivid flashback from that line it was actually kind of alarming

[pynkhues]

literally sooo fascinated by logan and caroline's marriage tbh. give us all your thoughts!! (if you want ahah)

Oh, man, I could talk about them all day, haha. I kinda feel like people can sometimes rob both Caroline and Logan of any nuance, because yeah, sure, they’re often the central antagonists of the series, and their abuse and neglect of their children permeates the series, but the show’s always also been careful to show that the cycle of violence never started with Logan, and Harriet Walter’s talked in interviews too about the cycle of neglect not starting with Caroline either. They’re victims and perpetrators in the same way that Kendall, Roman and Shiv are victims and perpetrators, and the fact that neither of them were able to break that cycle is the exact sort of tragedy that's at the broken heart of this series.

It makes it really fascinating to me in that sense that Caroline and Logan found each other at all, and I think really slots into what we know about his three marriages – namely, that he marries women who are in some ways as damaged by life’s cruelties as he is. We understand that explicitly with Marcia, who pretty much says out loud that their connection has been born out of the fact that they’re both survivors, but I think it’s implied in his relationships with both Caroline and Connor’s mother too. At least Marcia and Connor’s mother became somethink like partners for a while too – Marcia was a co-conspirator with Logan for the bulk of season 1, and the RECNY Ball episode I think also showed that Connor’s mother, for at least a while, was the sort of socialite who could lubricate and work politicians alongside Logan.

We don’t really know what role Caroline played in that sense, but she’s obviously intelligent and savvy enough to have worked to secure the kids real power in the divorce, something we see her give back to Logan in 3.09. We also know that her title gave Logan the class elevation that he wanted (even if its one he also seems to bitterly resent), and that his money gave her security, and in a lot of ways, that’s a strategic match that sees them both step forwards in power together.

I was actually listening to an old episode of Vanity Fair’s Succession podcast recently where they interviewed Dame Harriet Walter, and she talks quite a lot about Caroline’s backstory.

She says that Caroline was born into a neglectful aristocratic family, an only daughter who due to the social structures of British aristocracy, wouldn’t have inherited her father’s estate as a result of her gender. Instead, his estate would’ve gone to a distant male cousin, which ties into what Connor says in 1.09 to Willa about the house being the ancestral home Caroline didn't inherit.

She was disregarded by her family but encouraged to marry rich, and she sees Caroline as having gone through a bit of a wild child phase, that she partied, used drugs, tried to escape herself. That she was probably featured frequently in the social columns ‘in disgrace’, and then married young to a rich British man who bored her. She sees Caroline as having escaped to New York on a trip, and met Logan who dazzled her. Who was the opposite of the men she’d grown up with, the men who’d cut her out of her own inheritance, and that he was exciting and creating something and married too, and that they likely left their spouses for each other. That he married for a title, but he also married her because he found her fun and funny and different from the other women of her class and station.

I actually love that backstory a lot, and in particular I think it feeds into the themes of cycles on this show, both with Shiv, but also in Caroline being cut out by her own family, and then cut out by the one she tried to make for herself, and the damage that likely caused her. It also I think really beautifully depicts this idea of legacy and succession which is so crucial to the show – that Logan can spend a childhood brutalised by a man who’d give him just enough to build an empire on and that Caroline can spend a childhood in luxurious neglect with parents who will leave her with nothing.

What that meant for their relationship - - I think they did love each other, as much as they could love anyone, and I think that vulnerability between them was something that probably allowed them as true an intimacy as they’d ever have for a while. I also think that that vulnerability and that intimacy gave them power over one another that they’d use often and likely cruelly, and that the final years of their marriage were probably torturous for both of them.

After all, at the end of the day, Logan had the wealth Caroline could marry but never inherit, and Caroline had the title Logan could marry but never inherit, and what is that if not a reminder of the poisoned soil they sprung from?

#i am literally obsessed with them #in the 1980s spinoff in my head they are despicable to one another and i adore them #interestingly too harriet walter says that they were married for 15 years #which is an interesting indication in terms of the kids' age gap too #with the insane timeline that exists in my head haha #i do think it's probably four years between shiv and kendall #and roman and shiv are either twins or he's a year older than her / three years younger than kendall #which works with shiv being 11 when caroline left + the 15 year marriage #anyway haha #caroline collingwood #logan roy #caroline x logan #hbo succession #succession meta #welcome to my ama #always thinking about Them atm

[hooved]

#phantasy star #phantasy star universe #i was obsessed with these things as a teen ever since i saw them hopping around that one shrine lobby #which they're like. mint green in. i dunno why the one you can put in your room is pink but it's cute too #anyway i never got this item back when i played on xbox 360 but i got it earlier (on a private server). after wanting it for like 15 years #i love him he's so cute....

[knifebaby3000]

“temple”, 1 july 23

#art #digital art #illustration #artists on tumblr #oc #tz #tian #zhu #gay married. in love. and i love them. u know the drill #this is actually the second part of a ''''diptych'''' but u have to wait for the first part #i started this 15 june but wanted to finish the one where they're cracking up first #my fav is being obsessed w drawing their rings + having to come up w ways to show both of their left hands in every composition. stress! #anyway i just wanted to go off on some lines... regretted this when i had to waffle thru tian's huge-ass tattoo but i made it thru... #may revisit later... as u can imagine anatomy was Challenging & i think it's obv where i did or did Not have ref LMFAO but i still like it!

[msnihilist]

Thinkin' about "didn't know they were dating" Phinabella but Isabella is the one who doesn't know.

She's been pining for years and finally can't take it anymore and blurts out that she's in love with him, and Phineas immediately and enthusiastically returns the sentiment, saying that he's glad she's finally felt comfortable enough to say it after all this time. (Isabella is loading, but manages to say, "what?")

Turns out that Phineas always returned her feelings, he just doesn't show them in big, flowery ways like he does in her fantasies. ("You didn't think Paris was romantic? I had so much fun looking for airplane parts together!" and "You've always been special to me, Isabella. I don't treat Buford or Baljeet like I treat you." and "You always seemed so nervous, I didn't want to push it." and "I'm happy as long as you're around, anyway — we don't have to be holding hands or kissing.")

Isabella is casually having an existential crisis as years of their friendship recontextualizes itself in her head. Phineas is waiting for her to finish processing very patiently. (He's waited this long, after all.) And with the confusion cleared up, they both agree to "continue" "dating" and have their first kiss 💕🥺

#phineas and ferb #phinabella #kind of obsessed with the idea of phineas just. casually being in love with isabella #he already thinks the world of her! #she's the first person he checks on when something's wrong he always has a compliment for her he's always happy when she just shows up #i think his feelings are soooo. quiet. in contrast to how loud isabella's can be sometimes #Phineas literally couldn't care less if Isabella never wanted to kiss him— #he just wants to be able to see her every day for the rest of his life <3 #imagining this as them ~14/15

[toxooz]

omg i literally love wheelbitten as a comic and ur art is amazing

random question but how long have u been drawing as an artist and do u have advice.............

thank uuuu and I've been drawin my ass off since I could hold a pencil and I'm 24 (25 next month) now so this shit wasn't overnight by any means lmfao idk the way i did it was have A Thing that you like drawing and just draw the fuck outa it and eventually you'll get better for sure whether it be the desire to get better at drawing said thing makes you do research and study something to become better at it or just literal muscle memory from drawing said thing so much. I had lil spouts of taking time to get better at specific things like anatomy, shading, ect. by studying it but overall i just subconsciously got better by mentally picking up new things everytime i draw and analyzing the world around me. Even recently i got to see that with drawing tactical gear (that ive never really drawn before and never wanted to draw in my life) soley bc i just REALLY fukkin love Ghost and Konig

i went from being terrified and intimidated of drawing tactical gear (even trying to put a gun in front of it as if that was any better lmfao) it used to be vague as hell and my brain would shut down just trying to look at the references(i remember having a ''shit man am i even gunna be able to draw these characters???'' moment of dread the first time i was drawing Konig pffft) to absolutely loving drawing tactical gear and seeing how much more detailed i can make it with every new drawing, so a complete 180 but that's bc im just totally obsessed with the characters and drawing is how i express that sO thats mainly what i mean by just have a thing that you love and want to draw and the rest should follow with time, patience, and practice. I think it's about training your brain and motivation to pick up on details or a certain way something looks in lighting (or lack thereof) bc my brain is probably wired a certain way after art being like a centerpiece of my development to the point to where drawing is just What I Do and at this point if i dont draw for even a few days i start getting vaguely antsy and fidgety it's crazy lmfao SO idk if this is worded like i need it to but yeah art and the act of drawing can be frustrating as hell but it should be enjoyable and rewarding above all else at the end of the day!

#i drew bc the piece of shit im unfortunately biologically related to drew a lot when we were kids so id just copy her #then i drew winged wolves and dragons and the occasional horse for like 7 years then The Axel obsession started #where i drew axel from kindom hearts literally all the time and had 870000 aus for him where i would draw for all of them #when i tell you the obsession for him was catastrophic u best believe but it kept me drawing like a motherfucker until i made my monster oc #which was around the age of 15 is when i started consistently drawing humanoids #OH YEAH i had a whole lion king phase too in 2011 where i would strictly draw lions all the time and my first record of drawing online was #on the lion king fanart archive (which i still visit to look back its like visiting an old janky friend:') ) #but yeah then my heart was stolen by my ocs and all the potential designs i could make them #and thats where i am now aside from the festering COD masked men obsession boiling over in the corner AHA #so basically latch onto an obsession and pick up that damn pencil #even as a kid if i liked anything the immediate connection was trying to draw it #didnt matter how weird to draw or undrawable it was my ass would be in that notebook bc its the only way i know how to express myself lmfao #this is long as fuck but NOW im out peace skskksk

[snixx]

can i say something that might get me cancelled if i said it irl. why are we (indians but more specifically the indian governement) so obsessed with border and military disputes our country is literally twice the size of the entire continent of europe and/or the cumulative size of oceania and the americas put together population wise. as far as i know most of the people from these territories aren't really begging to be a part of india either why do we need such a massive fucking military budget over this shit "they can't stay independent pakistan or china will pounce if they don't belong to us anymore" don't you think that's THEIR choice and prerogative. they aren't asking to be a part of india. "if pakistan gets kashmir they will keep taking and taking and india will be in ruins" you sound like a conspiracy theorist. kashmir has never unanimously wanted to be a part of india. don't we have enough problems to worry about people are literally starving and homeless everywhere in our country. decentralisation isn't the worst thing that could happen to a territory right now we're too big and diverse a country is an indian identity we're forcing on them really the most important thing right now

#making this non rebloggable because im a engineering student (derogatory) #and ive read a LOT on this subject but i acknowledge im not the most qualified to talk about it #and im not confident enough in my opinions for people to spread them around lol #but yeah thats my two cents. if anyone has different opinions or nuance or reasoning please lmk im open to discussion #its obviously not black or white and id really appreiciate explanations from people who arent condescending fascists #india #indian politics #but on a fundamental level as far as my understanding goes i do not. get why #like literally 15% of our budget goes to what is fundamentally destructive military shit #seems like a waste to me when people dont have basic human rights idk #i could be wrong try change my mind im open to it #but yeah this is my blog and i share my thoughts here and im never gonna learn unless i ask the questions i think sound dumb #not that i think this is that dumb. its a perfectly valid question imo why are we so obsessed with the fucking military

[fatsmyname]

does anyone remember the scooby doo ghoul school special or just me anyway heres a character redesign of elsa (elias here lol), winnie, and sibella from that series plus two of them are butch because i said so

#my art #illustration #scooby doo ghoul school #scooby doo characters #character redesign #i loved this special so much growing up and like no one remembers it #of course i made elias and winnie butch and yes of course i changed elsa's name to elias because im butch and trans #theyre all besties #when ur friendship circle is two butches and a femme lesbian #aged them up to about 15-16 ish #obviously elias is a grunge fan and winnie is a thrash/hardcore kid #winnies patches are power trip exodus and mindforce but you would not know that because i scribbled it in lmfao #i am honestly obsessed with my designs for them i may or may not make more art...... of them... of the butch4butch persuasion....

[10hourshift]

Day 3: future (and university? Maybe)

This one is based on my aromantic Bon headcanon, also, Bonnie is a trans girl here ^^!

The song used is tomcat disposables from will wood

The acoustic cover comes from here

More of the story I thought 4 them under the cut

Oki so here the story would be that when bon finally accepted his feelings for Bonnie as romantic he gives it a shot and asks Bonnie out. Bonnie gets too shocked by this and abruptly rejects Bon and cuts him off, ending their friendship in one day.

Bon, later keeps trying to get a partner during most of his college years but none of his relationships work out, at the same time, he distances himself from his friends and ends up with new ones (like Fede and Felix). He's studying psychology to help young queer people.

Bonnie on the other hand, goes under transition until she's happy with herself (at first she rejects bon because she thought that she was undeserving of love, and couldn't see herself in any type of relationship). Now, she's still part of the animatronics (an official band now with a contract thanks to golden) and she's studying marketing to help her band. She's a lesbian but still feels scared of compromise.

They eventually find each other after years and reconnect, but suddenly! Feelings start to grow? Now it's up to them to figure out what the fuck are they gonna do now (the idea is that they end up a qpr or smth like that and that they are both aromantic or smth, idk the point is that they are NOT a couple at the end, think of it as an aromantic romance story if that makes any sense)

#fnafhs #fhs #guys is ir okay if i make two days out of the same sillies? 🥺🥺 #in my defense i did say i was obsessed with them tho. their relationship is so fascinating 2 me #the idea came to me when i was sick w the flu. i couldn't even keep my eyes open after 15 minutes that day and still finished this #bon fnafhs #bonnie fnafhs #fhs event week #day 3

[werebutch]

Yup

#ok I have a problem with this I like the oh hellos but I do NOT listen to them that much. they r just recommended to me CONSTANTLYYYY #especially bitter water bc I had an obsession wif dat song when I was like 15. oki #anyways. here it is. 😭 #Spotify #howling.txt

[sabraeal]

as a writer how do you stop thinking about like getting kudos/comments? I've just started writing fanfic, and when I start a writing something -- it goes well and then eventually I get to point where I'm like "ahh but what the readers don't like that? or what if I don't get as many kudos or comments" and it makes it difficult to continue because then it becomes stressful -- I guess how do you deal with "wanting to write stuff for yourself" and "wanting validation" thanks!

You're going to hate this answer, because I hated it too, but TIME. When you first start writing and you get kudos and comments and people love what you're doing, it's a huge validation of your effort and talent, and it's natural that you want MORE of it. When I first started putting up fics I already had been writing for 15+ years, knew I was good at it, and still for a good few years found myself really glued to the hit counter, and the kudos, and wondering how I'd be able to get people to comment the same way they did on things like Seven Suitors.

But the thing is that commenting comes and goes in waves, and unless a fandom has a big comment culture, or is large enough that you're guaranteed a good glut of them every time you post...you're going to hit a point where you write exactly what everyone wants and get crickets. And at that point you'll get ANNOYED, because LOOK, I MADE THIS, i made it for YOU GUYS, and now y'all don't have anything to say? It'll get to you. It'll make you doubt that you know what anyone wants at all. It'll happen and it'll suck the whole time.

Lots of advice will say "write for yourself," which is an excellent sentiment. You should always write what YOU want. Put into your fic what you want to see, write the nitpicky poetic metaphors and craft the most screwball twists your heart desires. Pour yourself into the most niche AUs and most tin-hat canon theories. At the end of the day, you want the IDEAS you put down to be for you, because comments and kudos are nice, but if they don't come...you have to be proud of what you put out, even when it feels like an echo chamber.

But also...we don't POST things for ourselves. We post things to share. Fic are a conversation with canon and it is perfectly natural to want to create something that creates conversation among other fans. So you're never going to fully get the need for validation out of your head, you're not. You can hide hit counts and ignore your inbox all you like, but the want to have someone interact with your work, to inspire someone to reach out to you will ALWAYS be there. You just have to create a healthier relationship with it.

Be confident in what you write. Think less about whether people will like it, and more about how you WANT them to react. The reader is the most important character in any novel, but it's the one most authors forget to manage. When you come to a point where you go "oh man, I hope this is good for them!" stop and go, "what do I *want* them to be feeling here?" Focus on where you're putting their attention and whether you WANT it there. There's so much you can do when you visualize your relationship with the reader as PART of the work, and it takes off a lot of the pressure of "is this good? is it disappointing? will this get me validation?" and brings it back into the realm of storytelling. You are taking your reader on a journey, and when you do it well people will think less about "did I like that?" and more about "what comes next?"

#asks #writing advice #writing #please understand nonnie that what you are feeling is completely natural and part of the process #and shades of that will stick with you no matter how good you get #but the thing you want to keep in the center of your mind when it comes to that #is that you can only get kudos once on a fic and you are lucky to get a 1:100 comment vs hits ratio #so the instant validation WILL dry up and you'll have to have something about your story #that makes you push through. because people will come back and comment! #people will blow through 50+ chapter and leave you the most emotionally hungover review promising you their first borns #but sometimes you will have written a good third of them with NO feedback whatsoever #and you just have to trust in yourself that it's good. it's FINE #i used to obsessively check hits and be really put out to see how many people were coming and not commenting #especially when i wrote really emotionally driven stuff and really tore myself up to get those feelings through #but i also would have been miserable only writing fluffy 1 or 2 shots with no plot just to get the flush of comments those fics get #you just gotta do what you gotta do and let your audience find you. recontextualizing the relationship helps a LOT #i already was big on focusing on the meta plot of my works because as i said. 15+ years. had a lot of time to experiment and get good #but i still had to like. give myself the same pep talk 2 years in about how to view that relationship #everyone goes through it and if they say they don't they're a liar and i mean that seriously 🤣

[antiquesintheattic]

who’s ur top 10 bands/artists?

hmmmm it changes a lot but i’ll give a list of my current top 10 🫡 (no particular order)

bruce springsteen

blink 182

beastie boys

death

thin lizzy

joan baez

tori amos

neil young

bob dylan

metallica

#love me some musicians whose name starts with a B #i feel like when i say metallica ppls perception is just gonna be stranger things or 15 year old girls who are obsessed with kirk hammett #but i’ve loved them since i was a kid okay….. #okay..

[widevibratobitch]

call me immature ig but answering to "co?" with "jajco/gówno/prąciów sto" is still the funniest joke on earth to me and nothing could ever top it and im sorry to all ye non-polish speakers who will never experience this level of hilarity in your life

#on a train standing next to a bunch of teenagers prattling on about some nonsense #and some guy just asked 'co' and the other went 'gówno' without missing a beat #and its already the most hysterical shit when you're the one doing it. but its even funnier when you hear it as a third party #obsessed with these guys. now they're talking about what fastfood they'll get when they get off #and one of them is like counting on his fingers 'fries. coke. chicken..' and the gówno guy goes 'sperm' #god i miss being 15

[jaerie]

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#am i in the mood to start shit on main? #a little #serious question tho #why do people want a one direction reunion so bad #in no way shape or form would things go back to how they were #so... why do people want it? #wouldn't you rather see them individually doing the music the want to do? #the music suited for them individually? #like i genuinely don't understand the obsession with getting them back together at this point #like sure it might be fun as like a nostalgia thing in another 10 or 15 years #like for one appearance or something #but apart from that? #like it used to be funny a little #but at this point im to the eye roll level of people wanting it #and asking them about it #it anoys me when people still ask them about it in person both fan setting and in interviews #like dont reduce them to that #theyve all done sooooo much #and grown so much as people #yet everyone is still like SO ABOUT ONE DIRECTION #and i get irritated ON THEIR BEHALF #oasijfpoaijew #like imagine #youve worked hard for your own career #and yet everyone is always like hey yeah but remember that one job you had in high school? #and you constantly have to be like #but look where i am in life? #and everyone is still like #but what about that job you had in high school? when are you going back to that? #sry my bfast was SALTY this morning

[seri-tonin]

I forgot how much joy akaashi brings me I love him so much

#him and bokuto had me in such a grip back when i was really into haikyuu a couple years ago #and rewatching it now its like. yeah i see why 15 year old me was so obsessed with them dkskfks #seri speaks #akaashiposting