#Will miss those boards

[mattodore]

theo’s bedroom is slowly coming together

#river dipping #theodore doe #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #after the save broke yesterday morning for the fourth! time i finally pulled up mod manager and started looking through the hundreds of #conflicts i apparently had and also deleted well over 500+ duplicates... my mods folder is SO rancid i'm sure i missed some conflicts #bc see those dark blue pillows on theo's bed? those are actually white :) but for some reason when i move the pillows near the wall they #change color depending on the time of day... it's not just those pillows some other objects do it too... just closing my eyes at it <3 #the bed and desk are where theo spends most of his time so i spent forever on them. his bed needed to be overwhelmed by stuff #there are... ten pillows i believe two large covers a sheet and a blanket. theo kind of just... burrows into the center and hides. #bunny boy behavior........ and yeah those are matthias's gloves on theo's desk <3 #i have to recolor the stuff on theo's walls later. i imagine his walls are mostly empty and it's just the floors in his apt. that're messy #but i wanted sticky notes to help him remember things and that back wall is going to have matthias's art and love letters #<- which theo definitely takes down and hides whenever matthias actually comes over lmaoooo #also i finally moved all of the pins from theo and matthias's boards over to @theodoredoe (mattodore was taken 😞) #i wanted a place just for my oc boards and i also wanted to be able to add sections to each oc's boards so! new acc! #yk how i mentioned theo's board looking so cluttered? yeah so. figured out it's bc over half of his board is just quotes #i made a section and threw all the 200+ quotes in there and will slowly put some of them in his main board #his board just looks so much better now like i'm so happy about it 🥰 it was definitely worth the time #OH ALSO!!!! IF ANYONE HAS SOME DEAD PLANT CC PLEASEEEE SEND IT MY WAY!!!! #theo really loves just. ripping plants and flowers out of the ground and taking them home to put in little pots but. he always kills them #jsknndkhj so i need dead plants!! limp!! DEAD!!!! #but i seriously can't find any #anyway... that's my build update <3 fr not much has happened bc i've had to start over four :) separate :) times :) but it's getting there. #i miss mattodore tho...... gkhjndfkhjn so i might take a break and get some poses and an edit going soon

[uselessnbee]

what i wish people would also explore more when it comes to Percy is the other side of his feelings about his mom about family and his childhood but this fandom is too afraid to paint Sally even in the slightest bad light (even if it's not bad just acknowledging her flaws because she's a human being and not perfect) that no one will touch on that subject. like yes Sally is the best mom but she also isn't and that's the thing! She isn't perfect! but she tried her best but her best still got Percy hurt and it isn't her fault at all but that's the tragedy of it. i want Percy's feelings about this explored. how he grew up with a loving mom but an abusive step father. how his step father would humiliate him and call him stupid but then his mom soothed him and told him he's not the things Gabe calls him. how Gabe would hurt him and Sally would be there to make him happy and loved but at the same time she stayed with him. i want Percy's feelings explored about how he knows his mother loves him but her absence still hurt him. she would work so much to have money to raise him she did that for him but at the same time it meant Percy was left alone or with Gabe. Sally gave up so much for him, she sent him away to protect him but at the same time he was sent away from his mom. she's the only parent he has because his father is absent and Gabe is not actually a parental figure at all but she's also often absent in his life too and that must have left him with such mixed feelings because it's not all black and white! Sally's love protected him but also hurt him. Percy loves his mom so so so much but there's also this deep-seated bitterness and hurt and anger he never let himself feel and then the guilt for having those feelings because his mom loves him he knows that and she gave up so much for him and she married a monster that abused her to protect him, he knows that but it doesn't make it hurt any less. the mess his emotions are because he knows his mom suffered for him and did it from her love for him but he still desperately wishes she never married that monster that he wouldn't have to have the childhood he had with him that he wouldn't have to live with the trauma he was left with. this all is exactly what makes their relationship so fascinating and also heartbreaking.

or the idea of Percy having weird mixed feelings after Estelle is born because that's his little sister and he loves her with his whole heart and would do anything for her and wants only the best for her but there's also this little jealous monster deep down that wonders why she gets to have a loving mom and a loving dad and a happy normal life but he never got that. why does she deserve it but not him? why couldn't he have that too? doesn't he deserve that too? he was just a child too so why why why??? and then the guilt of feeling that way too it makes me want to scream. emotions are fucking messy and they can be really ugly and they can make you hate yourself and there's no way Percy's feelings aren't a mess when it comes to this and i want to see it explored so badly!

and with Sally too! her feelings about Percy because she did so much and tried her best but sometimes unfortunately your best isn't good enough and it still got her beloved son hurt and she hates it and feels so guilty but she just has to live with that but she can't help to wish it was different. that their lives would be different. better. normal. she can't help but to wish she didn't have to do the things she's done, didn't have to suffer so much just to protect her child. can't help to wish she didn't have to worry so much, didn't have to be so scared about Percy, didn't have to be terrified that one day he won't come back home to her, that she won't be able to hold her son anymore because he will be gone, she just wishes he didn't have to suffer so much, she just wishes and wishes and wishes

and i just wish people weren't so afraid to explore this because it's so heartwrenching and yes if you want something do it yourself but unfortunately i cannot write nor am i able to handle this topic in a way it deserves so i am left only with rambling about it on here thank you

#i am not trying to victim blame or anything i love Sally and she did her best and didn't deserve any of the crap life gave her #but there's just something so tragic about the fact that she married a vile man and suffered abuse to protect her son #just for her decision to hurt him anyways just in a different way but the only other option would probably be Percy ending up dead #so she can't really truly regret it but she just wishes those weren't their only options #that she didn't have to do this just so that her child could stay alive #thinking about it makes me go feral #they had no choice but to suffer there was no way for their lives to be without this much hurt and trauma and it's terrible #and they didn't deserve it but there was so much love too #but the horrible thing is that that love just wasn't enough to save them from all that pain and i need to be sedated bye #percy jackson #sally jackson #pjo #hoo #percy and sally #percy jackon and the olympians #whatever you do don't think about a six years old lonely Percy sitting in a corner waiting for his mom to come back home from work #and he knows she loves him but he misses her so much when she spends so much time in work and that hurts #don't think about a ten years old Percy being sent away to a boarding school and he knows his mom loves him #but what if she's sending him away because he's just too much? or not enough? and what if she doesn't want him anymore? #and he knows that's not true but what if? #i'm thinking it #okay i think that's enough

[hgduo]

I think a lot about Bagi and Jaiden being the "Failures" of the federation... at what point did they fail to meet expectations that they likely were never even aware of- when did they fall short of their imposed goals or when did they stray a bit too far from the path discretely planned for them? Maybe it's the other way around, that the federation themselves failed with them in some way- whatever they had in mind for them not going to plan for one reason or another.

Was it before they wiped the memories of the woman who once worked alongside them or after they locked her away in their own experiment reduced from co-worker to just another subject? Was it after they wiped the memories of the woman whose seemingly unshakeable determination for the truth got her too close for the feds comfort or long before with a curious child unaware of the secrets held by the island that was her home?

By what metric is the failure measured? Jaiden who even while deep in her indulges of chaos still states that she'd betray anyone for Cucurucho- and Bagi who does not care for what the federation thinks of her engaged in a dance of working with the federation so she can one day tear it down in her own personal way. They are very different people, so it's hard to picture them both being labeled 'Failed' in the same way... but maybe it is about the same thing and it's something they share with everyone else on that board.

What does it mean for their future- What does it mean for those who consider failure as unacceptable? When something fails you either try again- either entirely or with some revisions or you give up- and leave it or scrap it.

There's just so many ways to read the word "Failed."

#qsmp #oibagi #jaiden animations #idk all those posts about q!Bagi reminded me of something I think about at work every now and then so I decided to put it to words #I feel like I'm really overthinking this but there's just something about these two out of everyone sharing the same label on the board #that just makes my mind go Wild... also I just miss making theory/analysis type of posts it's my favorite thing to do tbh

[godhasforsnakenme]

I want a whole series with Fourteen & Donna. Like that episode was just so great.

We have the Doctor showing how caring this version of them is by saying it out loud, by holding her hand, reassuring her thar everything will be alright, calming Donna down with acts of physical contact (the stark difference not only between ten, but also thirteen oh boy)

Then the breakdown – gave me waters of mars vibes, David's acting is just so amazing in that entire scene – showing us how the events with the Flux has left them, and how he wishes Donna could understand him without having to explain it. To share the pain of learning the beginning of his life, how they came to be, is a complete lie.

"A million years."

To unpack everything from the events of the timelord victorious, to the Ponds, learning gallefrey did not fall, events as Twelve, and then finally, you get to the newests of torments having learned of the timeless child.

For fucks sake I need them both to sit down and talk about it.

We also got to see how Donna is traumatized of being left behind again by the Doctor. That he somehow couldn't tell the difference between her and the no thing. Plays into the whole self-worth bit. And can I say, Catherine Tate, that acting was *chef kiss* because for a second I was convinced the damn thing had copied Donna 100% and I would've brokedown crying with her being left behind omfg

Also loved that whole parallel thing with their conversations when the no things are first shown, it was a quite nice way to prelude the horrors.

#dania rambles about shit #doctor who spoilers #doctor who #fourteenth doctor #donna noble #wild blue yonder #does this count as meta? idek at this rate #killed me with that small “is it you?” and “all those years. I missed you” #absolutely brilliant this pair is and I'm afraid of saying goodbye so soon #we just got them back and now nothing will ever compare again #you know what? back to ao3 and the drawing board of wips #also anyone else get Midnight vibes? like somehow the no thing are related to the shadows? #give me more horror episodes please and thanks

[ladybeug]

MAN THE MUSICAL NUMBERS CAUGHT ME SO OFF GUARD I HAD TO PAUSE AND STARE FROWNING okok!!! so the thing was that one time agessss ago you said liking ml fanfics is just wanting to read the same story over and over again and after that textbook 2016 post reveal final kiss that sentence just flashed in my mind and everything that happened in the movie (the ladynoir patrol fighting in the rooftops, the adrien snapping at his dad, gabriel being actually decent) just shifted in context for me and the realization of how fanfic coded the movie is and how that directly related to my enjoyment was so clear i couldnt stop laughing hdhshsjs

WOW ACTUALLY

i remember saying that and its STILL TRUE!! And honestly you're putting it in perspective for me, thats why i liked the things i liked about the movie. like the ladynoir patrol fighting on the roofs also did lowkey make my dreams come true they could have done whatever they wanted in the rest of the movie, that scene is what i live for.

And that last scene really did feel like it was out of a fanfic, A 2016 FANFIC, its OLD FANDOM VIBES. back when we were still chewing up the concept of a reveal and not picking apart the bones of adrien's identity like mad scientists.

I remember thinking im sure ive read this scene somewhere. idk where but i have. all of it in different pieces a million times.

Anyways thank you for sharing this i love it?? good take

#sorry it took me so long to respond even though you like WARNED ME IN ADVANCE you were gonna send this i havent been online much #but i love thinking about the movie im excited to rewatch #im so hot and cold on it #ive heard great takes about it im on board with most of what ive read #i had fun but severely missed the character + relationship depth that the show brings us #they tackled too much to do any of it well!! but what a fun time and i kind of loved seeing chat noir be a little rascal #hes so fucking nice all the time in season 5 and i adore it and would die for him but do you remember he also gets to be a scamp sometimes? #as a TREAT???? #SCAMP TREAT FOR CHAT NOIR!!!! HES HUNGRY and deserves it #he contains multitudes and one of those multitudes is kind of a little bitch #ml movie spoilers #ml movie #what are the tags we're all using #miraculous awakening #also you know what it’s a day later and I’m adding more tags bc #back in the day we WERE still obsessed with adriens identity but it was more exploratory #like gently unfolding a complicatedly wrapped gift #now it is mad scientist we are in the package dissecting

[fisheito]

What is this weirdly feelyweely status exclusive to yakumo

#unless i missed something #it felt like everyone else had pretty rational text effects...like standard conditions in their status boxes.... #was this the only status that explicitly mentions being all squishy to GENTLY convince someone #because right now it feels like #eiden in a sequential interview situation. he is alone in a board room with someone he needs to win over. he's prepared his thesis(?) #with edmond first #eiden brings out his master plan and says OK HERE'S MY PITCH. PLEASE GIVE ME JUST A LITTLE BIT OF TRUST ONCE YOU HEAR IT #we're going to do THIS at THAT PLACE at THIS TIME with the goal of THESE RESULTS. My capabilities include: THIS. ThaT. AND PERHAPS THOSE. #PREVIOUS EXPERIENCES indicate that method A and B will do well but in case that fails i have prepared options C D and F #eiden pointing out his massive presentation board with the spreadsheets and red strings #edmond deliberates very seriously before cautiously approving of eiden's plan #when edmond exits and oli takes his place. eiden starts the presentation anew #oli nods thoughtfully and encouragingly throughout... like yes! this sounds like a good plan! i trust you with this :) let's do it :) #then oli leaves and yakumo comes in to take his place #eiden doesn't even need the presentation materials. #he just sits across from him. gently places yakumo's hand on his chest over his heart. then stares soulfully at mr protoserpent #and says (please trust me? ��) #yakumo crumbles IMMEDIATELY #and when they emerge from the room into the hall where edmond and oli are waiting #eiden's like GREAT! EVERYONE'S ON BOARD! let's get this started n_n #and edmond's just like.... yakumo why did you come out so fast. eiden's presentation lasted at least 7 minutes #oli just smiles knowingly and thinks lmao eiden heckin got im #journey to a nu world #nu carnival yakumo

[revvethasmythh]

I am curious about how Liliana and Ludinus' goals differ. Because Ludinus' obvious goal is to eradicate the gods--Liliana's, however, is apparently to free the Ruidusborn from the burden of their powers. How do these two things coincide? Obviously we can see how releasing Predathos causes the downfall of the gods, but why would releasing Predathos help the Ruidusborn? The obvious (though not necessarily correct) conclusion one would jump to is that, in order for Ruidusborn/Exaltants to be free from their powers, one would need to kill Predathos, not just free him. So I'm led to wonder if Liliana is willing to aid Ludinus in achieving his goal (kill the gods) in order to achieve her goal through some secondary effect (however one goes about killing a thing powerful enough to kill the gods). Which I suppose makes some sense, because why would you go to the effort to destroy all the gods only to allow a creature of equal-to-greater power of the gods continue to exist over Exandria? You wouldn't, would you? You'd probably want that to be gone as well

#we're back at it again at the pepe silvia board my friends #i've not written out a more concrete theory here but I do have one in my head. not enough information to know if i'm right yet #like we (the audience + the hells) are clearly missing an important piece of information! one that we'll get eventually i assume #also MY assumption would have been that there's NO way to get rid of an exaltant's powers because they've already been touched #by predathos/ruidus so you can't just??? take that back?? #so getting rid of perdathos would spare others from ever getting powers but not cure those that already do? #but that's how my brain works and i might be very wrong! liliana clearly feels otherwise and she has more information than i do! #critical role #gonna have to put together a real pepe silvia board at this point #yes i have been thinking about all this since my last post of this nature thank you

[action-not-despair]

shut up im thinking abt loquatious' final speech again. such a small detail is that he mispronounces zerxus' name. which is fine, hell he did it with his own name in the first episode's broadcast. but theres something about this one.

zerxus has made a Deal, and if anyone in the ring of brass knows something about deals itd be our faerie warlock. and i think about vespin chloras, whos wish to not be forgotten was granted by being remembered as the worst villain in history. and i think about how loquatious tells laerryn "history is not true". and how faerie and devilish lore both share a belief in the importance of names.

and yeah, its probably not that deep. but maybe, just maybe, it was loquatious' way of protecting his friend from the march of history flattening a person's identity into a word on a sheet of paper.

#exu calamity #loquatius seelie #zerxus ilerez #exu zerxus #loquatious seelie #how the fuck do you spell this assholes name? ik how to spell the word. but did he do it different for the name? #anyway. im rewatching #been thinking abt all of them #i miss them :( #like. between that and that recording he made but didn't send of his resignation? #i want a fic or something where beau finds BOTH of those recordings and makes a conspiracy board on the fuck these people were #and who the fuck that? elf???? what even is he??? is that obviously was willing unreliable as he was clearly telling two different stories #but clearly loved this woman who we only have a title of?? #anyway. i think loquatious would drive beau crazy from beyond the dead and itd be pretty funny #she locks herself in her office for a week before the nein break in like 'what the fuck' and its full conspiracy board in there

[turbo-tsundere]

This game just keeps on gaming huh

#gonta gokuhara #kokichi ouma #dragon's dogma #dragon's dogma dark arisen #turbo-tsun plays #turbo-tsun plays ddda #the isekaied entomologist #kokichi run #another one that deserves its own spot #the fall might've taken two thirds of my hp but the emotional damage was far greater #for those who don't know - YES the pawns CAN catch you mid-fall #and seeing Gonta waiting there I fully expected for this to finally happen for me but I see it was just to only play with my feelings #revenge for ch4 betrayal no doubt #thanks Gonta #how am I supposed to recover from this huh #(ok in all fairness he's still a good boi - you can see he was getting attacked by two harpies - but i didn't notice that in the moment xD) #But yes I DID want to jump down there - I missed one parcel for a bulletin board sidequest and the trek there is pretty tedious #Kokichi was actually very lucky not to fall into the Brine - 1 meter to the left and he'd miss that second cliff's edge #so top 10 anime betrayal but also all according to keikaku in the end xD

[ilkkawhat]

3.18 Precious Metal

#csiedit #csi cbs #nick stokes #sara sidle #george eads #jorja fox #nick and sara #mk.op #mk.edit #mk.gifs #csi 3x18 #i miss these moments from the earlier seasons #those little windows into their breaks #drinking coffee #or discussing the contents of the shared fridge #or playing video games or board games

[iron-cutting-meteor-sword]

you know, I miss when the gang would try to kill each other and it wasn’t played as like a super sad angsty thing but instead was like looney tunes violence where they’re trying to kill each other for being mildly annoying or for some silly plot reason and just constantly one-upping each other in hilarious ways. Shit where neither of these guys are trying to kill each other w guns or swords or anything like that but instead choosing the funniest most contrived methods possible to try and get the other

#lupin iii #samurai sharkie speaks #missing those part 1 interactions where these guys would be buddies one episode and then just happily try and kill each other for no reason #violence like when Lupin stole those scrolls and taunted Goemon but Goemon had switched out the real scrolls and gave Lupin fuckin dynamite #Fujiko just causally trying to kill Lupin as if she won’t team up w him whenever it suits her #Jigen just being on board w duels to the death and genuinely just going for it #Zenigata just showing up with a stupid contrived fucking machine made to blow Lupin to kingdom come #Goemon trying to kill everyone simply bc they don’t pass his vibe check #they’re all awful people but it doesn’t have to be played for angst when they’re all so damn funny abt it #to be clear I’m not against angst but ppl seem to think that’s the only way to portray it

[booigi-boi]

Poe Party came out the year I was in art school, and I fell heavily in love with ravens and other corvids cause I was drawing/painting taxidermy ravens a lot. I now wonder how different my life back then would have been if I had known the series existed

Am a little sad, ngl, I definitely would have made it my whole personality (As if antisocial Poe isn't my personality now)

#not important #poe party #edgar allan poe's murder mystery dinner party #shipwrecked comedy #Anytime someone reblogs one of my Poe Party drawings I just get into “what was I doing back then” mode #the art school was a boarding school in the middle of nowhere in the Finnish countryside near a famous 19th century Finnish artist's home #And ofc being stuck there 24/7 I just spent a lot of time in my “dorm room” watching youtube #So I have no idea how I missed Poe Party #Especially when we had our little film making course and we made a short horror film #no I will not tell you how to find it #Also I need to tell you that the art kids at the school had our living area under an old “weaving mill” so we were just sleeping undergroun #and chilling with those infamous shower spiders

[the-boy-branithar]

"people are blocking me for no reason, there's a hate campaign against me" well I'M blocking you because those are the words of someone who attracts drama

#never seen this person before in my life #but they then went on to say that the haters are missing out because they have so many good pictures to post #girl those are from pinterest. EYE have all those pictures in a board #red flags.

[chiropteracupola]

tagged in a thing by @charliemack and @littleastrobleme - wow!

last song: 'gold' by we are the guests, which is part of a playlist I made for an original project some years ago and today found myself quite nostalgic for.*

currently watching: it'll be hilda again as soon as I figure out a place to find the rest of it (the site I was using previously lacked most of the middle of season 1 and all of season 2, to my great dismay)

currently reading: 'leeward' by katie daysh! it is as good as everyone who has recommended said, altho' I do find the frequent use of first names rather than surnames a little odd. excellent Sad Soggy Sailor in there, which as you likely know is a genre I'm very fond of.

current obsession: I have been spending A Certain Amount of Time staring deeply at wikipedia formatting and and also particularly grubby and dusty pdfs in order to figure out how to Capture their essence for art purposes of late!

...also I have been a little silly in the head over 'the motive and the cue' (it's a play about hamlet! and a lot of other things!) for approximately ten days now, but primarily I have been doing that Inside My Head because it is not exactly the kind of silly in the head that causes Posts to form. seriously this is a play that I think Intertextuality Tumblr would enjoy very much, and since I know they have filmed the production (source: was there when they did that) I really hope that that eventually gets put up somewheres where it may be Beheld. also johnny flynn is very good in it if that provides any context to my meanderings.

alright, game says to tag nine people... @natdrinkstea, @sailorpants, @wilhelmina-murray-harker, @graveyardrabbit, @kigiom, @alizuriacrow, @what-even-is-sleep, @cytocutie, @verecunda, what have you all been up to lately?

#one of those tag things #*[guy who already has too many projects] I just miss my funky little sea captain; want to draw her again; cannot because of Reasons :( #are some of my thoughts regarding that play additions to my 'johnny flynn could and should play jack aubrey' conspiracy board? #yes of course but What Of It.

[deus-ex-mona]

man.

something midosena never prepared me for was just how comfortable the train seats are

#like. no joke. most (if not all) of them are soft!!!! carpeted!!!!! and comfy!!!!!!!! #and that’s just the regular seats!!!!! the special reserved seats are forward facing and!!!! they even have those little seat tray tables!!! #[insert home country]’s train seats are ruined for me now wtf i used to think that the wide new plastic seats were the best seats ever and— #and the structure of the train is p. great too ngl~~~~ like the seats are positioned a little ways back from the side divider thing #so there’s tons of standing space if you’re unlucky enough to not get a seat #but maybe that’s just my perspective bc the train cabins seem wider than [insert country]’s so maybe i’m too used to the cramped cabins idk #but g o d yes i understand you now midori the seat at the extreme end is the best most comfy seat ever fr #though!!!! another thing that made me 👁️👄👁️ about these trains is that!!!! eating and drinking (on trains) is not prohibited????? #like man. you’d get fined and get photographed + tabloidified in [insert country] if you did that here.. #(if you get caught by some weird nitpicker who can’t mind their own business that is.) #but train exchanges are kinda complicated. ye a h. ig that’s one thing i miss about [insert country]’s trains. aside from the train fares. #m a n. train fares are so high here. bus fares too tbh. 170 yen for just two stops and all that.. #but!!!! the seats are comfy so they get a pass from me~~~~~~~~~ #the buses are tiny and cute thoughhhhh. but the boarding/alighting/fare system caught me off guard. ig i’m too spoiled by [insert country] #all things considered…. it was a really fun trip~~~~~ would’ve been better if i didn’t fall sick right off the bat though lmao #anyways!!!!!! happy kinyoubi my dudes~~~~~~~ #inedible blubbering

[elisedonut]

i finally found these cute little clothes pins i bought for decorating so might fuck around and print a bunch of art/screenies to decorate a bit so i can feel like i’m accomplishing something 

#percy weasley #merthur #to be specific #as well as a certain Miraculous character that my nieces reminded me i used to be obsessed with #oh and maybe zero escape i miss them #not any of the characters i have a ton of merch for though because there's no point in making merch for them #wait is printing art something people still do or am i showing im old again #i feel like its the same as printing fanfic to read physically but im also not an artist so maybe its one of those things people #dont really like when people do anymore #i used to have this poster board with a ton of fanart i just printed and added when i was like 14 i just want that vibe back #i also got those paint color testers from walmart and think i might use them to craft a bit #i think it might end up cute #anyway i live alone btw so my whole house is just anime and fandom merch all over the place