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crismakesstuff · 4 months

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im so excited for invincible s2b now that it has an official release date… and that release date is march 14th

Let me talk about why that has me worried for the future of the show

‼️also no hate to any other shows mentioned‼️

I want to start with these two images :

invincible compared to the boys and now hazbin hotel has BARELY gotten any offical advertising on this level. The boys also got ads in times square for the promotion of s3 and the spin-off gen v im pretty sure but I could be wrong.

Don’t get me wrong I am rly happy to see an animated show get promotion at that level and I think more streaming services should do the same but why is it that invincible, a show on its SECOND SEASON gets nothing? The official invincible accounts have to do most of the heavy lifting themselves with generating hype on their twt,insta and tiktok. People complain that the accounts often make “an announcement for the announcement” but they have too! They literally have no other option! It sucks to see invincible show signs of a show thats clearly being tampered with by executive fuckery that has led so many other animated shows to an early grave.

Also I NEED people to realize that invincible’s release schedule NOT THE FAULT OF THE CREW

I see people regularly being rude and borderline aggressive to crew members online (which ive seen happen in other fandoms too) but the amount of people that were bitching and whining about the hiatus saying things like “this is why we shouldn’t let animators have good working conditions” and people agreeing with those takes were INSANE. The crew have no control over when the show drops or not, that is a decision left up to executives.

Now why could this delay be happening ?

a little bit ago amazon made this announcement to its customers:

this very well lines up with what many people began to speculate online as to why invincible had such a weird release schedule for season 2. They release the first half and get people hooked on the first 4 episodes ending on a massive cliffhanger and then release the second half after ads are introduced in hopes of making more money bc ppl don’t want ads in the middle of their shows.

Even then many people (myself included) think that it would’ve ultimately been better for the sake of the shows own hype to just wait to release them in March back to back all 8 episodes. Because the midseason break just kneecapped the hype the show had built up so hard and now many people are reasonably frustrated.

Because there was no clarity on when the show would be back. Most people assumed it would be a month long break for the holidays which shows have done for a long time. And then fake leaks came out that the show would come back in early January, and then the invincible accounts were virtually silent, and people were saying the break was intentional for fans to (recover) for ep 4. It was all over the place

What should fans do going forward?

Best thing you can do is stream the show legally if you can! TALK about invincible, don’t let the hype die out. Get this shit on trending ! Boost any official posts online showing that there is still a demand for this show! If you can, buy merch! Read the comics legally ! LET AMAZON KNOW WE STILL CARE ABOUT THIS SHOW!

again no hate to the other shows here bc ive watched all of them! I just want invincible to get some of that love too because this show is so amazing and you can tell how much love the crew has put into it <3

#i would honestly be so fucking heartbroken if invincible got canceled because its genuinely one of my favorite pieces of media ever #shoutout to the invincible crew for putting so much love into this show it fr shows #it deserves so much more promotion and attention #invincible #the boys #hazbin hotel #gen v #animation #invincible show #amazon prime #long post

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babygirl-riley · 8 months

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Part IV

Ghost, Soap, and you meet up with Alejandro near a market. And talk with Valeria

Warnings: violance, flirting, negotiations, swearing

Ghostly Ruins

simon x reader guide

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You stood near a fruit stand, fresh fruit it read as you handed some pesos to the older lady. You grabbed a peach, one of your favorites, taking a bite out of it. “This is Bravo 0-9,” You said swallowing the peach down. “I am in position.”

“You eatin’ love?” Ghost’s voice said through the comm.

“A peach.” You responded taking another bite.

Soap chuckled through it. “Swear lass you can find food anywhere.”

You shrug walking away from the stand. “It’s fresh and an old lady gotta get something.”

“There is only one peach I would love to eat.” Ghost teased, your eyes widened.

“Woah.” Soap choked.

“Ghost,” You hissed. “Not over the comms.”

“S’rry love.” Ghost said with amusement behind his voice.

“Thu na coin olc.” Soap mumbled.

“English.” Ghost said annoyed, you could see his eyes rolling.

“Both of ya are nasty.”

You chuckled as you walked around looking out of Alejandro. Unfortunately the cartel are more on high alert the last couple of months, due to capture Valeria the first time. Anyone could be watching, even children is what was told. Them being little street rats gossiping to the cartel.

You hated children being involved in wars street to global. They should be innocent, worrying about the next toy that comes out or when the next time they will play with their friends. Not about soldiers and terrorist, you remembered when you were a child innocent. Didn’t even realize that your mom was shooting up while dad was out on deployment. You and your brother would go be off in the neighborhood playing with other children.

Even you didn’t have a proper childhood. It made you think if any child had a normal one. One where they didn’t have to worry about adult things at the age of 7. “Hermana,” Your thoughts were broken as Alejandro walked up. “Long time no see.”

You smiled. “Alejandro,” You patted his shoulder. “Wish it was better circumstances.”

“Me too,” He sighed looking around to start walking. “I assume Ghost and Soap are somewhere close?”

“Of course we are.” Soap said through the comms.

Alejandro smiled. “Perfecto, come now we found someone that knows where Valeria is.”

You followed him through the market watching closely around you. It seems like a normal day around them, people laughing and chatting. Something that you craved for, you wanted, a normal life. Yet you also craved for this, helping the need, having the world safe while you dirtied your hands.

“Valeria could be anywhere at this point.” Alejandro sighed.

“Ya think she could’ve left Las Almas?” Soap asked.

“No she would never leave this place, at least I don’t think she would. It’s her ground. Her home. Even if she doesn’t want to protect it.” Alejandro replied, his face turning into a frown.

You inhaled deeply passing through a group of people. “Well let’s hope she is still here then.”

“It took us months to find her,” Rudy spoke through the comms. “Luckily we found her through the children.”

“The children?” You asked walking lass more people.

“Si,” Rudy answered. “You give them money they will give information.”

“Trainin em to be spies eh?” Soap said huffed after.

“Unfortunately that’s the way it works.” Alejandro commented.

“So where is she?” Ghost interrupted.

“Well,” Alejandro stopped at a corner. “Hermana, she hasn’t seen your face yet. So,” He looked over at a truck. “You gotta change.”

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You waited inside a lobby as people walked in and out. The information was told she was here, in a whore house. Yep. Whore. House. You had to change into the skanky clothes to get into a lingerie. Show off your tits and ass. You knew Simon was not happy about it but Alejandro said he had some of his people in there if something goes south.

“See anything?” Ghost asked.

“Nothing,” You looked inside a darker room to see a woman giving a kiss on a man tying him up. “Just nasty twisted things in here.”

“What type of things?” Soap asked amusement laced in his voice.

“Something you couldn’t handle.” You quipped walking towards stairs.

“Stay focused she could be hidden up on the top floor. Only the head woman is allowed up there.” Alejandro explained.

You walked around, listening to the giggling, moaning, the beat of the music. You looked up the stairs to see the head mistress, she flickered her eyes to you. She knew that you weren’t one of her girls, she knew of that from how her state became curious. However, you needed her attention.

A drunken man came into view speaking spanish, it was hard to understand. Since most of it was slurring from drinking. You giggled and kissed his cheek before rubbing his face. Another woman took him apologized that it was her client. You didn’t mind. You weren’t here for that. Once you looked back up the mistress was heading down the steps.

You looked at her one last time, before going into a room, hoping that she would have followed you instead of security. You waited for a moment as you looked around the room you stepped in. Definitely a waiting room, has goodies and drinks for the men or women that come through.

“Quién eres?” A woman’s voice rang through.

You turned to see her, the mistress. She was cautious glaring up and down at you. Both of you stared for a moment before you smiled. “Elena, estoy aquí para ver la sin nombre.”

The lady was taken back at first. “La Sin Nombre is not here.”

“No?”

“No.”

“Then why did she ask me to come?” You froze, why would you state that? It was way too bold. Way to harsh.

“What did she say?” Rudy asked.

The men started to have the conversation of what the hell happened. “Hermana you gotta go now.” Alejandro said.

The lady was confused yet, you could tell that she didn’t want to say anything. You just fucking hoped this was the best route. Stupid but there was no other way. “Hope you know what ya doing.” Soap said in the comm.

Fuck you hoped too, hope that you just didn’t fuck everything up. The lady nodded. “Come.”

You slowly walked behind her, watching your back. “I have sights.” Ghost said softly.

The staircase was spiral, leading up to a singular hallway, with couple doors on the side and one at the end. The lady turned to you and raised an eyebrow. Your heart thumped more and more as the door came closer. The mistress turned to you. “She’ll know if you tell the truth.”

With that she opens it, you looked as she side stepped revealing the room. It was pretty large, couch on the side with a table. Chairs side by side on the other, the desk on the other side with it’s chair. The room had one window which was covered. Painting of women all around.

“Interesting you knew I was here,” Your head snapped to the chair that it’s back was faced away. The one against the desk. “Only select few know.”

When the chair turned it was her. Valeria. You smirked from her comment, only if she knew. “I had my guesses.” You commented walking fully in.

You looked more into your surroundings. No guards from what you see, mistress left. It was only her and you. “Guesses,” She asked standing up walking around the desk. “No one just guesses cariño. Not even some of my people know where I am at.”

You rolled your eyes. You had to match the energy with her. “Fine I wanted to know where you were at so I paid little children.”

Not completely in the lie. She smirked. “Using the orphaned? Smart. The question is though why?” You glared at her for a moment, amusement behind your eyes. She leaned against the desk. “You’re a gringo yeah? Why would you want to see me?”

“What else would I want?”

“Power?”

“No.”

“Money?”

“No.”

“Then what?”

You thought about it before swallowing. You needed to know Makarov but it came around to heavy, it would send red flags to her system. “You.”

Valeria glared before gears started to turn. “Alejandro sent you.”

You couldn’t lie. She knew she had to right? “What if he didn’t,” You turned it you walked closer. “What if I needed information?”

Valeria laughed. “Information, Mierda, no doy información especialmente para los vaqueros,” You shook your head before you could answer. “I know he sent you. Eres una rata.”

Shit. “It wouldn’t matter if he did or not Valeria,” You explained. “Men are already around this place. I just need information.”

Valeria shook her head. “I could kill you right here. What if I call your bluff huh? Then what?”

“Then you have a bullet in between your eyes.”

Valeria glared at you before she picked up a pen. Moving it between fingers. “Pretty confident. What information?”

“What the dealings with Russia was for? How it intertwined with Hassan.” You said getting ready for the pen to fly your way.

Valeria stopped her tracks. “Russia? Never dealt with Russia.”

“She’s lying.” Alejandro stated.

You watched as she twirled the pen. “Don’t play dumb Valeria. You are not the only one who can see through lying.”

Valeria rolled her eyes with a smirk. “Even if I did what would you give me to help you?”

“Not kill you would be the first thought.” You quipped.

“Tsk tsk tsk. No gringo. You get information I get a favor.” She said placing the pen down.

“That’s not how this works.”

“It’s exactly how it works. No matter how many times the cowboys get me. I will always get back out,” She explained stepping closer to you. “You get information and I get my favor.”

You glared at her as she walked closer. “What’s the favor?”

“Transportation.”

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yfmconfessions2 · 4 months

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HELLO ITS ME AGAIN THE PERSON THAT YAPPED ABOUT PUFF AND I AM BACK WITH MORE SHIT!!!

I'll bet my life savings that Puff forgot to reply to Tigs message for a month and left her on delivered for that long multiple times.

He questioned his sexuality multiple times when he was younger

He had unrestricted access to the internet when he was a kid. He was a weirdo (still is) but in a good way.

He has the most fucked up humor on this planet. Yk the videos that show a tost falling flat onto any surface with no music? He finds them hilarious. And he has such a goofy fucking laugh. Like, its either some actually cute giggles (only when hes drunk) or straight up wheezy cackles.

He always says that hugs and that kind of stuff are dumb as hell and he hates them but deep down he craves them so much but hes way too embarrassed to ask, and his ego wouldn't let him anyway.

He knows everyone's insecurities. No one knows how. He just does..And its scary. And he will NOT hesitate to make fun of them.

He secretly watches kids cartoons bc he never actually could watch them as a kid. Dee Jay walked in on him watching some cartoons and Puff threatened him that if he tells someone hes kicked out of the band. When theyre alone Dee Jay makes fun of him for that.

He cant understand emotions that well and thats another reason why he cant comfort people that well.

I bet 20 dollars that once he got drunk asf, went to the bathroom, looked into the mirror and he realized he looked like his mother and i also het he will never EVER want to look like her. He cried for 10 minutes straight and if anyone asked what the hell he was doing in there for so long and why are his eyes so puffy and red, he just said that he was doing weed. Also probably tried to do something with his hair once to not resemble his mom that much but the next day they looked exactly the same as before so he gave up.

ANYWAYY THATS ALL I HAVE FOR NOW!

I READ ALL OF THAY AND HOLY SHIT THIS IS MY FAVORITE ASK IVE EVER GOTTEN ON THIS OH MY GOD IM GONNA CRAM ALL THOSE INTO MY PUFF HCS TOO

AND OH MY FUCKING GOD HES SO ME!!!!! I LAUGH AT BREAD FALLING OVER, I HAVD UNRESTRICTED ACCESS TO THE INTERNET WHEN I WAS AROUND 5, I WASNT ALLOWED TO WATCH SPONGEBOB, AND I CRAVE HUGS TOO!!!!

HOLY FUCK ANON I LOVE U SO MUCH FOR THIS *KISSES YOU ON THE CHEEK* /P

#yfm #your favorite martian #confession

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starlostseungmin · 1 month

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ATE KEISY 😇✌️ i just binged ur works i missed over my hiatus hihi and i want to say that i loved them all !!! i think i only have empyrean prince cascades left cause its a bit long, so i decided to save it for my bedtime story today or tomorrow

but ate. lie to me.... it was so good 😭😭😭 YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW I MUCH I PHYSICALLY REACTED READING IT???? jaw dropped. its such an interesting read, like i dont think ive been this excited over a story structure in so long AND I LITERALLY HAD WRITING CLASSES FOR TWO SEMESTERS LIKE I WAS SO INVESTED IN READING IT

i dont think ive ever read a fic structured like that before? i mean ive encountered similar stuff but not in fics ... overall im just hyped at it ur so big brain ily and i love your works and i love your writing and its so huhuhuhu i cant stop thinking about it !!!! my other reactions on the story are in my reblog tags but still i think i'll keep that fic in my mind a lot (kinda wanna do smth like it too... ur so my inspiration coded)

OMG!! hi cielle! i'm currently reading your other feedbacks and i'm so happy you love my works. there are only a few since i haven't been so consistent with my writing after graduation hsksksk tbh i'm entertained (hard on that kauyabon core because me too TT) i'll reply to the rest in a bit.

i hope you enjoy empyrean prince cascades tho! it's one of my favorite fics and it took me weeks to write it! i know it's pretty short for a 10k-worth of words to write in weeks, i was so busy when i wrote it and i had to squeeze in during my work days HAHAHA and please take your time reading the story. it's kinda long tho 🥹

AAAH yes lie to me.. i wrote that fic for like a day or two days before the deadline for the collab? i forgot, i was also occupied that time. kdramas influenced me on writing that too and there was a song that was assigned to me to be able to make a story out of it! yung story sana eh masaya na sila sa piling ng iba chuchu but then i realized, cheating will make sense so i had to write it with that. i just finished my thesis that time too so maybe nadala ko yung pagsusulat ng thesis namin sa fic na yan? believe me i don't really have experience to these romance and cheating stuff, i just wrote what i see in other people talaga HAHAHAHA and lie to me felt like a rushed fic that time?? i didn't know it would turn out to be good for the readers since i wasn't confident with the result but thank you for your warm feedback cielle! and lucky you for having writing classes tho, i envy you!

thank you so much for appreciating me and my work even though sometimes my brain is not working properly. i just write whatever the hell my brain tells me and i hope i have a big brain to cater everything that i want to write! maybe soon, more future works to come HEHEHE i have an upcoming seungmin and chan fic this month sooo i just hope it will turn out good.

you flatter me cielle! i can't thank you enough 😭🩷

#🌧️. 𝗺𝗼𝗼𝘁𝘀 #✉️. 𝗺𝗮𝗶𝗹𝘀 #🎀 . 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀 𝘁𝗿𝘂𝗹𝘆 — 𝗸𝗲𝗶𝘀𝘆

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dramarising-replacement · 1 year

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Apologies or something

Okay so like years passed at this point and i never apologized. Im N from earth, the flipper annoying forums kid.

I just wanted to say late sorries for everyone included. CS from arcane, R from ice, P from arcane, BB from lightning, much more people who needed to put up with my bullshit, people who read what ive put up on suggestions forums (lmfao)

First of all, the flipping stuff was ugly as hell. Im impatient by nature and didnt even think about dming CS about it so thought getting rid of the baby would be the best idea (shocking news it wasnt). Ive got angry DMs, then left the server ive met them in cause our conversation lead to nowhere. I felt bad, so i dmed the server owner and got shunned at for misgendering CS (I didnt realize they use he/him and assumed theyre a girl, due to long hair on character from their pfp (which tbh is also really dumb since i used to have long hair, and alot of people that i look up to also do). Then I shown my frustration in another server which got interpreted as bragging (could put it in better words so sorry about it too, moderators of the other server). If i bought back that veilspun from person that bought it i think maybe that wouldnt escalate so hard. Sorry CS for causing you distress and ruining days of people from discord. I wish i wasnt harrassed offsite cause of it.

Also sorry for the regulars of R of ice server and the person ive got banned for fun. I wish i wasnt a burden and just left you guys alone lmao

Next, my suggestion replies were absolute dogcrap. First months ive was thinking them throughough, but then ive got bored and unsupported alot of them for the fun of it. I was a bored kid. Those reasons were absolutely ridiculous too (no halo recolors cause NoT eVeRy ApPaReL hAs ReCoLoRs or no spoons cause dragons could kill eachother with them (while we already have cleavers, shadow apparel, those notn sprite things ive forgot name of). Sorry for people who had to read through the mess ive put up every single time, ive looked up to the other people there but never got a grasp how to be reasonable. Then ive got bored.

The "suicide bait" was absolutely distasteful, though ive seriously shook while checking FR cause ive just got reminded of all the CS veilspun stuff. This game stressed me for no reason at all for months.

And.. i dont know what else. Ive started thinking about it again months ago. I guess sorry for the entire site and this place too. I wish i was a more mature kid back then, now im bit older and i think maybe not deranged, bored kid on a site everyone visits to chill at.

TLDR: just an apology for stupid drama that happened 2 years ago. Cause ive got reminded of it.

Not trying to look like a victim or something, just sincere apologies to people reading shitshow a bored 13/14yo me put out.

#Flight Rising #Cursing #Long post #Confessions #No salt

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iantimony · 1 year

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tuesday!

listening: like everyone and their mother i listened to the new hozier songs this week. they're fine! i dont have any particularly strong feelings about them either way yet, i think i need to relisten to them a few times for it to really get processed, but they were good enough that i'll certainly listen again. i also went and relistened to wasteland, baby because of it and that album still slaps. also, this cherry wine cover:

is very good. i also relistened to the staves' album dead & born & grown because i realized i have windows facing west hehe. what else...my partner's citypop playlist was my music for driving home from the airport on sunday? i wont link that one i'm not sure if it's public or not. and then gym playlist this week was just one of the spotify-made mixes that kinda slams tbh, very early-00s to 10s metal/emo music lol

i've also gotten back into twilight mirage after a bajillion years. it's good! none of the characters really stick in my head besides tender sky and fourteen fifteen unfortunately but hopefully as i listen more they'll become more distinct entities in my head.

reading: i finished the birthday of the world while i was visiting my grandma for spring break!

"solitude": hmmm. this one was interesting. it left me with a lot of questions but i think that might have been the point. 6/10.

"old music and the slave woman": i think i might have benefited from more background, i was mostly able to piece together the factions but i definitely had to puzzle over it a bit. apparently there are a lot of links to stories in another collection, four ways to forgiveness, and i'm thinking that i might have wanted to read those first. 4/10.

"the birthday of the world": title story! felt very different from all the other stories in the book, probably because this one and the following novella are the only two set outside of the hainish universe. i liked it. no strong feelings in any particular direction, i don't think. 5/10.

"paradises lost": the novella! i LOVED this one. i dont know if i was somehow exposed to it as a kid, or i learned about generation ships as a story concept from somewhere else, but i often thought about writing a short story about what religion on a generation ship would look like and turns out what i was envisioning already exists. the concept of the cult of bliss felt very realistic and almost obvious in hindsight as something that was bound to happen. i know it's left open on purpose but i reallllly want to know what happened to the ship after it left. i really loved the themes of this one. 9/10.

watching: i watched an episode of the mystery show 'vera' with my grandma when i was visiting lol. it was cute! very kitschy, genre fodder! i liked it! i was very confused because the closing quip/shot seemed to be about the titular character...shoplifting a jacket or something???? like she asked her coworker if she looked any different and he was like ? and she was like ok great and the final shot is her sitting in her car seat and annoyedly ripping the tag off her jacket, so like, ???? not sure if that's a Thing that people know just from watching a lot of it but shrug.

making: iiiiii did not work on my knitting project at all LOL but i did make my neocities site! here she is! still very in progress but hey :D

misc: trip to visit grandma/s and family went fine! everyone is doing well. back to the grind this week.

oh so the gift from my SO: he likes metalworking and similar things so he made me this necklace!

it is, apparently, titanium with embedded sapphire ball bearings! the ball bearings glow in the dark after UV exposure and they're the prettiest shade of teal, it's also a very satisfying fidget texture-wise. he asked me a few months ago what my favorite constellation is and i went "......cassiopeia i guess?? why???" "oh no reason" this was the reason. it's very nice i love it so much

finally, ive started noting down my workout stuff on my dreamwidth page as well! i thought it could be cool to keep track of what weights i'm using over time, what exercises i like and don't like, etc. so that's on there tagged as gains. huzzah

#tuesdayposting #Spotify

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n7punk · 1 year

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oh my god I hate to think you thought people weren't LOVING lmr chapter 4! seems like there really was a universal lag in people not seeing the update, myself included. maybe more of your followers like football than u thought...

i didn't know there was any football stuff going on lol. i know there Are A Lot Of Sports Fans in the world in general but my vibe of the catradora fandom is that our football-viewer percentage is lower than average, unless you're talking about women's soccer 😂 i also think it was influenced by the archive having issues that day (partially down) since i had at least two people tell me they never got an email. I also didn't really mention i posted it on here - which i don't always do for fics, but i had been doing for the previous the chapters. i usually only mention it if im posting something or answering an ask anyway and can tack it on without like, having to make a Whole Post dedicated to it (this is a theme that will return later in this post)

normally when i do fic notes, i include a "what's next" section, but i left it off this time because im not sure, actually! i was initially planning (like, back a month ago when i first started writing) to do an au next but it would be a Lot and my interest is swaying towards canon rn so i thiiiiink it will be some OotW fics since i have a few wips for that and one In Particular that i need to figure out if its a one shot, or multichapter fic, or like two or three fics in a miniseries. i have like a dozen wips rn so its really hard to say.

i actually only realized i was posting on valentines day like two hours ago when i was given someone's milk chocolate haul since they only like dark chocolate lol. honestly im a bad person to ask this because im not one for dates or gifts or any of the stuff valentines is based on. i dont like Special things i just like the little everyday stuff, so valentines seems like a chore to me and its hard to come up with stuff for it. it also depends if you're talking like, in a modern au or for the etherian equivalent of valentines day. my vague answer is just they take it as an excuse to spend an entire day together since they love being around each other, or they go on a fun little adventure they havent found the time for yet. i can see them doing stuff with glimbow "double date" style too.

the answer is both! i go days without messages sometimes (which works for me because i like talking to yall but it also takes energy) and then other times i get a bunch at once. messages naturally gather around talking points (specific posts, fic uploads) so like, ive checked my asks twice tonight and had a decent number of asks both times, but when i posted chapter three i waited a few hours to gather some asks before replying since i knew they would be trickling in for the evening as people read the update.

it's also taken me two hours just to type out the replies in this post (which might give context to my "asks take energy" thing) so during that time more messages can come in and be answered in the same post as long as i remember to check right before i go to post it.

i like putting them all in one post just because it makes my blog and the dashboard experience Neater so i do it when reasonable, but i dont usually wait more than a few hours for the purpose of collection, if i do at all. it also lets me reply to and acknowledge some messages even when i dont have anything to say to them directly (like, i didnt have a reply to that ahhhh anon on its own, but it made me laugh so i wanted to post it, and by putting it in a larger group i can do that).

oh thank you! i feel like its something im actually terrible at since i do have a tendency to ignore/delete messages when im not up to talking (in general, or just dont have anything to say on the topic/in response). i do really love my comments and message tho so thank you to everyone who leaves them! i hope the blanket thank-yous are enough because usually they're the best ive got lol

idk i feel like never figured out the social interaction of thanking people (even/especially irl), so it makes me not reply to comments much because i feel like the best i can do is a canned, one-sentence "thank you!" response (and, of course, that still takes energy as mentioned with spoons, which doesn't feel worth what it "gives back" you know).

actually, ive talked about this for so long, so let me just take a temperature and i can gather responses (or post replies, those are great too!) for a bit: 1) are comments sections usually just [thoughtful comment]["thanks!"] and im otherthinking this because i havent read other author's comment sections, 2) do you Care if an author replies to your comment or not, at least when it's not a question (like, does it influence your decision to leave one if you think they won't reply. i personally don't care at all which is probably where part of my whole thing comes from), and 3) if it does influence you, does a simple "thanks!" really add anything to your decision. im almost certainly not going to change my approach because it's what im comfortable with, but i would like to know if im expending an unwarranted amount of mental effort on this XD

i have before! it's called Let's Get Physical. frankly its just harder to write lol

(also going back to the gathering asks thing, this ask came in while i was writing this post and thus got tacked on right after i posted it)

i have more lmr asks but im waiting until morning because spoilers and i want to put the reply to one in the fic tag so i think that should be in a smaller, more focused post.

#ask #anon #lmr #fic rambling #thank you cards are my personal hell in case you're wondering #long post

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sadasspisces · 11 months

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A secret no one knows about me, it's me. No matter how close I get to someone I can never be me. Because who I am is never enough. How I act, how I talk, how I love, the things that intrest me... it's never enough to make someone stay. Friends or lovers. I have been and always will be a disappointment to everyone I meet. I will leave this world alone. Without a single person to miss me, because they never truly knew me.

i understand this so much lol. it's almost as if i typed this, very close to things i say on the regular.

i'm going to give you some advice that i need to take myself but won't lmfaooo, um so i know it can get incredibly lonely, and idk about you but i have abandonment issues through the roof and it sounds like you might as well. ive found an odd comfort in my own company due to feeling how you described, but again it does get lonely, sometimes you wish you had at least someone to just have to like share things with or just genuinely like you for just who you are and what all comes with you. but there are people that can come around, that won't go and i'm trying to realize that. it's hard when all your life people have literally left. and i'm sure you do have someone that would miss you, my own family don't even know me personally, like no one in it but i know a few that would actually miss me, not many but a count on one hand if that. and tbh that's enough, you don't need a whole lot of people.

there are maybe like a total of 3 people i can say really know me, like the real me. things i like, things that make me cry/sad, my interests, me as an individual. i don't open up to many people ever, because same, the fear of them leaving. but you will find people that will be open to knowing you as a friend/lover. like its possible but you have to shift your mind a bit and also stay true to yourself, don't get too wrapped up when accepting someone in. like i try to give trial runs first, the people i consider "close" i didnt properly open up too until maybe months to years later lmfao literally every year they learn something new about me cause i have problems ofc lmfao. i'm an open book but i'm not an open book, like i won't read my book outloud if you get my drift. but yeah i feel it all starts with you first.

i can definitely relate though, and idk but i feel its a mental health thing. no ome truly knows me and i feel if i was to leave too, no one would truly miss the real me because no one knows who i truly am. so i get it, but try to start with yourself first, find some peace in yourself somewhere. 🧡 sorry this was super long but i hope it helps you some lol alsooo you could always message me, i suck at responding because my own mental health is poor lmfaoo but i will get back to you eventually but yeah take care i'm always here ☺️

#anon answered #anonymous #anon ask #send me anons

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mossible · 1 year

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Hellooo I have come from AO3 to say Many Things!!! About Cracked Snowglobes!!

But now i'm unsure where to even begin with the gushing because chapter 4 has left me CLIMBING the walls, hanging upside down from my ceiling, HOWLING because good cod !!!!! Intense argument after intense emotional moment after brief humorous, hopeful breath of air, thEN MORE INTENSE CONFLICT--

I was positively SHAKING in bed when i read it last night, it left me IN SHAMBLES (⁠╯⁠°⁠□⁠°⁠）⁠╯⁠︵⁠ ⁠┻⁠━⁠┻

I've been meaning to comment in more detail on every chapter, and just list up everything little detail and exchange i love, but after the current chapter i had TO COME HERE FIRST to send an Ask!!

I am SO HAPPY to see Off the Hook and the Squid sister and Splatoon hanging out, and knowing that sweet, brave Eight is in good, caring hands now 🥺 they deserve the world, and their genuine admiration and trust in Octavio had me 🥹 it was so cathartic to see Marina have the heart to heart she needed with her former leader as well, even if they don't agree with everything, Octavio's growth already showed a teeeny tiny bit in him, reluctantly, agonizingly, agreeing with Marina and making that promise to her (and by extension, to Eight and all of his people)

I don't know what you have planned for the next chapter, i know this one's gonna be tricky since it has to essentially fill in the void between game 2 and 3, but man!!! I really really really hope that, despite all of the baggage and anger and yelling, Octavio can find some solace, something to hold onto, in the genuine hope and trust that Eight, Callie, and Marina put in him, in spite (or because?) of everything 🙏 he's gonna have another tough road ahead of him, but i believe in this stubborn, clever, spiteful old man 🐙 he has fucked up many times before, but i believe he will try his best to keep his word, if only to not let the people down that put their trust in him (maybe that's hust me being delulu and naive tho agsjshdjfhgfd)

My god that ENDING tho!!! The leaky roof has CRASHED DOWN metaphorically, and it's really lucky that Octavio jumped the heck outta there because i would NOT want to be at the camp after all that!

There's poor Callie, probably having a small breakdown rn, and Cuttlefish, who let some /real nasty/ things slip out there (granted, that was mostly the result of being spurred on and goaded by Octavio to be his worst self, i think) that i can't rly see Marina and Eight just... overlook, tbh (especially after he also pulled that whole past identify reveal on Marina in the Metro, which could have potentially ended very, very poorly)... The mood there is probably. 😬😬😬 Rip to the planned party 🎉

There's soooo much more i would like to say, but yeah that's gonna be probably better said in individual chapter comments, but i just HAD to get this all out!

Thank you so much for your incredible work!! The long chapters are a delight to read personally, even if they seem a bit daunting at first; since the writing and pacing is so good, it's very easy to breeze through them :D

I wish you a belated Happy New Year and lots of inspiration, motivation, and free writing time for the chapter 5, I'm super looking forward to whatever you've planned next! 🙌🐙✨

WAUUAUGHH TYSM OMGGG!! i absolutely relate on the commenting thing LOL sometimes ill spend months keeping up with a fic, only to realize later on that oh. oops i havent commented at all. i really shouldve done that! very much a regular ao3 reader thing to overlook it, so i absolutely dont blame u at all LMAO (i do look forward to the comments though, ive said this like hundreds of times it feels like already but feedback rlly is such a strong motivator when it comes to writing! very funny how reading words makes you want to make more words)

but. again. WAHHH thank you !! im glad youve been enjoying so far, and ur kind words mean so so sososo much ;_; omg

i'm very excited to get chapter 5 out to yall, but im also super excited to just like. write it in general LOL it has a LOTTTTT of stuff that i cant exactly talk about just yet, considering that it would all be spoilers for what exactly goes down, but im super hyped for it. and im the one writing it!

the only thing i can say is that, yeah youre spot on about it being tricky and having to bridge that gap! i don't have any plans to change the actual plot points that happen in the games themselves, excluding whatevers gonna happen for the s3 dlc which we essentially know uh. nothing about! we're currently still on track to be following the story modes' outlines. (but as soon as we get off of that track? hooh boy ive got some silly ideas >:))

again tho, thank you so much ik i keep saying it but. it means so much to hear how yall are liking the fic !! <3

#cracked snowglobes

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vickieantonov · 2 years

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So,

I’ve been doing a ton of research over months, and I have a strong feeling that I probably am autistic, but I figured I should share my symptoms and see how some diagnosed autistic people feel and maybe some advice on talking to my parents about getting diagnosed.

So… here are my symptoms (there’s a lot)

I’m like obsessed with my calendar and organization

I have to perform every time I open a gift even if I really love it

I have what I think are stims (when i was little i was like idk i guess i just have weird spasms or something)

I have meltdowns after being overstimulated for too long ( for example my family and I were coming back from a long trip and the trip back was exhausting, I was really tired, super overstimulated, and then I realized I had left my charger that I for some reason had an emotional connection to and had a meltdown, like crying and just not great)

I have always had a weird connection to non-human things such as the previously mentioned charger, numbers, letters, my stuffed animals (i would go to lengths to make sure none of them felt bad and my grandma was proud of me for treating them like real people), pens, i also name almost everything i come across, etc.

I need to check instructions 824783939 times

I will be super into a friendship and want to spend every second with a person and then one little tiny thing will happen and then i never want to see them again but i still feel bad about avoiding them

I feel like a lot of social interactions are a performance

I have to think about eye contact

I get what might be special interests (for example my lengthy and incredibly in detail obsessions with Taylor Swift, Freddie Mercury, Marauders Era, autism, ofmd, reading and books, there’s prob more)

Ive always felt more connected to ND ppl

I am very blunt and struggle not to say exactly what i mean

I really like fun facts idk

there’s definitely more but this is already really long let me know what you think!!

#ask an autistic

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coccyodynia · 1 year

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things:

four years and a few days ago, i entered treatment for dual diagnosis care to treat my mental health and drug use

for about 4 straight years before that, i’m not sure i was sober for more than an hour at a time

i was really heavily using benzos and always mixing them with an extreme amount of alcohol

frequently confused as to who i was then, how people perceived me, and how i’m still alive

i’m extremely grateful i went to treatment, because if i hadn’t had some kind of intervention, i dont think i would have survived another year like that

i still really really struggle with relapses

and in the last two years i’m not sure i’ve managed to have a clean streak longer than 3 months

but i am trying

my drug abuse ended up being the last straw for some important people in my life, who would eventually leave my life bc of it

anyway moving on to other topics

i finally saw justin this week, for the first time in three months

it’s been a pretty weird 3 month period of not really knowing where we stood bc i couldn’t keep my feelings to myself, and he needed a break from that i guess

i understand it will never again be like it was when we first started talking

and tbh that really kills me, but i’m very grateful he’s a part of my life still, in some way

the connection was immediately really strong from the start and i really credit him with helping me a lot

he was probably the first person to verbalize “i’m here for you”, and actually follow through with that sentiment

meeting him almost exactly one year after reid left my life is probably worth mentioning here but whatever

ive finally been able to start seeing my therapist again, and i meet with her monday

right now she can only schedule me every other week, which is a really hard adjustment for me to make tbh

since october of 2019 i probably have had therapy at least once a week

im really struggling with staying sane bc my job has become an incredibly stressful place for me, which didn’t used to be the case

like work has always had some level of stress, sure, but this last month or so, i have been getting physically sick from the stress, crying at my desk every day, etc

but on the other hand, i’m also having these really meaningful yet overwhelming moments of gratitude for being where i’m at

like yeah nothing is perfect or even close, but i have created a life for myself that works most of the time

im finally experiencing a level of safety and security that i have honest to god never felt before, and i did not even know that it could improve this much

growing up i didnt have any sense of safety or security at all, which i didn’t realize until very recently

in the last year or so working with nicole (my therapist), i have finally learned that the things i was subjected to as a child were not normal, and that it was traumatic

about 6 months or so ago (possibly less), i learned i have complex post traumatic stress disorder

i had pretty much known for over a decade that i was borderline, before i was officially diagnosed

but i didn’t even have an inkling of an idea that i could be experiencing CPTSD, so when my therapist gently told me i was, my world view realllyyyyy started to shatter and shift

it has been very very difficult to come to terms with tbh

anyways i really miss writing and photographing and making art so i hope to return to that soon

i’m at work rn and i should probably start doing my job before the bosses get here so ta-ta for now thanks for reading this insane post

#things

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skylilac · 2 years

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Bestie now you get to drown in wlw recommendations. I feel bad but that's probably like 80% of what I read right now. And! There's some amazing wlw stuff, not even just say teen novels, even though I read a lot more of those.

Gearbreakers: Please please please read this book. It's a sci-fi dystopian novel that stars two sapphic protagonists and has some amazing worldbuilding. It's part of a duology but I haven't read the second book yet. Either way probably one of my favorite books right now.

Cinderella is Dead: This book sat on my shelf for months and I regret not reading it sooner. I kid you not, I read it in two days. The book itself is a fantasy book about a girl who doesn't fit into the "perfect world" that Cinderella left behind 200 years ago. She's grown up with the myth, but as her story progresses, she realizes that it might not be quite true. (Also I felt myself crushing on the love interest. Great descriptions.)

Now for more teen novels, since I'm a sucker for romance:

She Drives Me Crazy: Rivals to lovers between a basketball player and a cheerleader. It's a fake dating book. I actually think that's my taste in books. Sapphic fake dating books. I'll be honest, not my personal favorite, but still a good book nonetheless.

Some Girls Do: The first sapphic book I ever purchased. I read this at the age of twelve and most definitely shouldn't have, but it's really become a comfort book from me. It's a relationship between a trackstar who was kicked out of her catholic school for being gay, and a mechanic who's a badass. It really explores the differences in queerness for different people, along with unhealthy relationships.

I Kissed Shara Wheeler: I cannot tell you how good this book is. Enemies to Lovers and one of the most captivating stories I've ever read. It's one of the books that turns all the straight people not straight by the end, and I think those are honestly my favorite. Either way, I devoured this book as well, and I'd highly recommend it.

Hani and Ishu's Guide to Fake Dating: So this one's probably self explanatory by the title. But it's absolutely incredible. As someone who says they're not a huge fan of fake dating, I sure do read a lot of it, and this one comes in at the top. Simply an incredible book, and both characters are some that I still remember and think about, even years after reading the book.

drowning in wlw recs is the dream actually <3 thank you for these <33

gearbreakers sounds super cool actually?? im not normally a sci-fi person but i trust your taste and it looks rlly good anyway so!

and actually ive tried reading cinderella is dead bc the concept sounded interesting but i only got to read the first chapter before something else came up and i never restarted it 😔 id LOVE to finally read it completely

#i got a message 📜#book recs

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bbiya131 · 7 months

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after few months studying for TOPIK (korean proficiency test) . not hardly. but few times just to realize the exam is gonna be hard, finally the exam day came. I think ive studied 2 days before exam more than I studied for a month combined. Last minute at its best. But ngl, i did study gradually everyday. if its not through textbook, i’ll study just by listening, and reading novels. or tweets.

anyway. today was the day.

I woke up early, studied a lil bit more, hoping the last minute vocabs i found helps. At 11, made dua, asked for my parent’ dua, my dad drop me off to the venue. I brought along my books thinking i can revise before the exam then I saw the long queue for exam registration. “ah theres no way i can read more, gotta find a good place”, went through the long queue handled badly by the committee, suddenly im already at my designated desk. lil did i know my study stopped at 11.

so many people than i thought

“폰을 꺼서 앞으로 보내줍니다” (Turn off your phone and leave it infront)

-Turned off my phone, and gave.

“아이패드도 있으시면 보내줍니다” (if you have ipad too, please leave it here too)

“Oh my ipad” turned it off and gave it to them.

My desk was quite strategic, it was beside the window, not having anyone beside is a blessing. and, I have “goodluck :)” written besides my name pasted on the table. weird. i look at others’, there was nothing. Oh, so sweet of whoever you are, thank you. with Bismillah, i started the first question.

the exam was quite smooth than I thought. I think, for the little effort I put into the exam, honestly, its not bad. Its not hard but its not easy. The time is very limited. I think it was carefully set juuuust nice with the amount of questions. i dont have a second to rest!

the vocabs were okay, its quite, readable? understandable?

the questions were okay, i guess?

the time, was my enemy.

“십본 남았습니다!“ (10 minutes left!)

and I was at question 36 out of 50???????????

I honestly just used my ingenious instinct skill and colored the OMR in. no more comprehensive reading happened.

But its okay.

the pen that they gave and we got to bring back!

I’ve tawakal!! Allah made it easy. I have to always remind myself that its not me, its Allah who made it easy (not that easy but just ok). ALHAMDULILLAH IM DONE.

I now have one less problem to think. i can proudly close my eyes to the topik related youtube notifications now. even, i can turn it off now. i dont have to think i suck for not studying and scrolling tiktok anymore. yuhuuuuu

ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH. im so relieved.

Also, I met a lot of great people there. everyone was so friendly. a lot of familiar faces. 용기 빌려 다가오고 말 걸고..braved myself to say hi. I was so happy to meet them. everyone’s face was so different before and after the exam, everyone looked so happy.

no matter the result, ive tried my best. and I will accept whatever Allah give me In Shaa’ Allah 🩷

Alhamdulillah. it was a great great experience. im glad i took it.

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lucysmuse · 8 months

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september 21, 2023 //

hello again.

ive decided to stop ignoring my pain, my depression, my emotion. i have tried for years to shut this down and turn it off, ive tried to only be angry and sharp-edged and self destructive. im only self destructive now. and pitiful. im ready to just start feeling these saturated, vivid things and if i die from it so be it. at least i felt something.

my appetite can be ravenous some days. this month i had my first day with three separate 'meals' (nothing big but i called them meals all the same. half a sandwich is a meal for me and god damn thats a huge fuhking improvement) and i cried openly in j's arms and he just gave me so much encouragement and support

and j and i are maybe still honeymooning after these months but i really. i really fucking think we have something good going. i finally feel like im fully comfortable to be myself in every way with someone. i do not hide how im feeling. i tell him how im feeling, and i explain how i would like to respond to that, and j either agrees or starts offering compromise.

i dont ever. EVER. feel like i cant speak my opinion in any way. its not even that i couldnt do that with others in the past, it just is so palpable that i dont usually second guess myself, which would lead to insecurity or self hatred or both

and the sex. holy shit the sex. i never realized how incompatible i was with previous partners (AGAIN, not to anyones blame, just a mismatch unfortunately and i didnt understand how to tell or not) in that realm. were an open relationship and it can hurt a little every once in a while when i catch a glimpse of his texts with random people but hes very understanding, patient, kind, he just wants me to be happy too and i believe that

i feel like i am just. cut open and bleeding every time im with him. i feel like my blood is brighter. hes sunshine thats shot into my veins and im radioactive and glowing in his arms

i ate four dino nuggets today and its only 930 pm. i think i can eat more !!

i had my first therapy session since i dont even know when. it left me crying on and off the next 2 days and i cant afford the current frequency but i needed it so badly. im also finally on sleep meds that actually work. its fuhkin surreal the difference

i get tested for adhd next week. i need it so badly. jesus christ i need it badly. even if they tell me i dont have it, i just need to know something concrete. i need to know if i sound like an idiot in my head when im reading something about adhd and i just resonate more than a zildjian cymbal at a gwar show

im losing weight. im getting more active. i went on a hike last week, and ive been cooking a lot. i have a new job on monday after this absolutely hell gig. full time with benefits. i hope i can handle it. i really fuhking do.

im saving up to leave my house. but my student loans are estimated to be about a quarter of my wage so i really need to strike gold or some shit.

cest la vie

souhaite-moi bonne chance

song: dragon slayer by ninja sex party

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