#also this whole thing is reminding me how when ppl would call me a st blog id get offended š even though i essentially was
seeing a lot of posts about this so my two cents āļø i think there is a difference between thinking a fandom is annoying which is true for every fandom vs not wanting to be personally involved with the fandom despite being a fan because they are by majority weird people you don't want to be around or find reprehensible in some way. like it's the same thought being built off and yeah the second one is a bit more holier than thou maybe morally righteous but the first usually comes with "so i don't like it at all anymore" and the second is "so i just have my own space to talk about/share it/etc and try to distance myself to whatever level but generally don't care what other people think if i like it" ... doubly so with bigger fandoms. and most of us all do the second anyway just naturally and it's not a big thing so. about 95% of my mutuals would never say they are In A Fandom at all not that it's inherently wrong to say or whatever but like people just like things. who cares.
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ā¶ ššš šššššš: ššššš & šššššššš, ššššš & ššššššššš
āāLong story short, I have been thinking about this for wayyyyy too long now and wanted to get some ~thoughts~ & analysis written down! This post is going to be...fairly long, lol. Apologies in advance :D
āāAlso, if you canāt see the last gif (the one forĀ āholyā), click here. Tumblr keeps fucking up the image when i try to upload it :////
āāThis post is probably going to be about 2/3 yorknew & phantom troupe/kurapika focused, 1/3 chimera ants, maybe with some references to other arcs (including manga-only arcs) mixed in. so, ofc, tons of spoilers ahead! also, i realize that my blog theme is hard to read (and iām p sure clicking ākeep readingā sends you to the og post itself), so iām linking the post w/ full text copy/pasted in on my art backup side blog (which has a more legible font) here.Ā
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āāIām sure absolutely nobody is surprised with me starting here - there is just. SO. MUCH. DEATH. in hxh. & right from the start, one thing I noticed that togashi really emphasized was the #4 and its connection to death. in japanese, chinese, and im p sure some other asian cultures the number 4 is pronounced like the word for death so itās associated with death in general, and boy oh boy does theĀ ādeadly number 4ā² thing show up E V E R Y W H E R E. we get to the hunter exam, and hisoka is applicant #44. kurapika is #404. i didnāt notice it at first, but this was so intentional holy shit. togashi is NOT SUBTLE.
āāSo pika & hisoka are, right off the bat, associated with death. okay. and then there are even more clues to drive the point home: hisoka is member #4 in the phantom troupe, kurapikaās birthday is april 4th (aka 4/4). 100% not a coincidence (!!). with hisoka, itās pretty obvious why togashiās throwing all this death 444444 stuff around - dude is a psycho murder pedo clown, literally gets off on killing people (and thereās also the fact that judas sits 4th from the left in the last supper painting, and heās sort of the judas equivalent for the phantom troupe). with kurapika, though, itās a bit more subtle and woven deeper into his characterization, which i LOVE. togashi puts the mans in blue & gold & white (traditionallyĀ āpureā orĀ āheavenlyā colors), makes him so fucking kind & so good-hearted.....when heās not relentlessly pursuing his revenge, ofc. more on this in the next section, but pika = death. togashi has made that v v v clear.
āāBacktracking a bit to hisoka, though, I also just wanted to point out the 4 is death symbolism in the fortunes too (GOD i love the fortunes): in one translation, heās the false fourth moon, and in the og japanese (i think), heās the false hareĀ (4th in the lunar zodiac or w/e itās called. i donāt know the japanese cultural influences here, but in the chinese legend that established the zodiac animals, they race across the heavenly river & the top 12 animals got zodiac slots. the hare finished 4th, so itās #4 in the cycle).Ā
āāAnd just as a final note, Tserriednich is the fourth princeĀ of the kakin empire, and also another dude who has a hard-on for murder & other gory shit. again: togashi is not subtle with this, lmfao
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āāAs probably everyone whoās gotten to yorknew knows, togashi is so 0 fucks given when he wants to be. I mean thereās the whole thing where he just. took New York and decided, Yorknew. LMFAO, but also, he made the main antag of that arc be named chrollo lucilfer, sit around in a ruined church, have a reversed cross coat, pale & dark-haired/dark-eyed, generally dressed in dark colors, very terrible murder guy. liiiike......chrollo x devil symbolism game is 1000/10 at this point lmaooo
āāAnd i know absolutely nothing about christianity in general, but pt/kurapika & yorknew arc is just so full of christian imagery/symbolism! one thing that i L O O O O O O V E though is how togashi really blurs the traditional christian-coded good/evil, holy/damned boundaries.
āāBack to kurapika: he wears gold and blue, his coloring is very stereotypically āangelicā, heās precious and good and kind. his chains are all about ~judgment~ and ~healing~ - some of the chains are also in literal cross shapes, arenāt they? And the chain dagger in his own heart...the imagery is very startlingly similar to the immaculate heart of mary, where the swords stabbing thru the heart apparently represent seven sorrows. IDK much about this stuff other than the visual similarities; literally had to google ādaggers through heart christianity?ā to even get the name of that thing LOL. anyway, at first, it seems like togashi establishes him as theĀ āangelā, theĀ āgoodā, theĀ āholyā in the angel/devil, good/evil, holy/damned dichotomy between him and chrollo.
āāBut thatās not the end of the story. his entire storyline is driven by a huuuuuuuge giant desire for vengeance, first of all, and then thereās the scarlet eyes, which canonically are seen as demonic/cursed/what have you (according to one of the movies or smth? where they show pika as a 10 y/o?), and then we also have red eyes in modern culture being associated w pretty much the same thing (vampires, anyone?). the fight scene with uvo has everything in b&w besides the blood on his face & his red eyes & the moon (<<< more fortune foreshadowing & symbolism, i love to see it), and there are tonssss of scenes where he has to suppress his rage. so all of that is obviously not very angelic of him i would say LOL. in fact, what i find super interesting is that the scarlet/red eyes (which areĀ ādemonicā) is actually the driving factor behind his super powerful nen abilities; this ties in so well with the fortunes & death associations imo! the fortunes call him the ādeath-bringerā in one translation, orĀ āhalf-angel, half-deathā, so thatās one side of pika = red eyes = death, but thereās also the fact that emperor time is literally draining his life force. so pika = death for both himself and others namely the pt, question mark?
āāNowĀ for chrollo: togashiās devil symbolism is EXTREMELY overt with him, but i love the subtler jesus references too. the church thing, obviously, and the st. peters cross which is cuz st peter respected jesus too much & didnāt think he was worthy to die in the same way as him (or something like that, i am the most atheist person in the world & hxh is literally my entire christian education pls) but is also used as an anti-christianity symbol these days. banditās secret looks like a bible, lbr, and mans has a cross tattoo.
āāOther things beyond visuals - 12 spiders, 12 apostles; hisokaās betrayal, where member #4Ā can be thought to correspond to judas sitting 4th from left at last supper. and this miiiiight be a bit of a stretch, but i think the meteor city being the place of origin may also play into the blurred line between angel/devil and holy/damned here; meteors are defined as space rocks that are in earthās atmosphere, becoming incandescent in the process. meteorites are for the kinds that actually reach the ground. and idk, lucifer was cast out of heaven / sky too right? so i think there might be some subtle fallen angel imagery/symbolism playing into the pt as well
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āāLast section yay! i donāt have as much to say about this, besides when i was making chimera ant arc edits & realized that there might have been some subtle gon/meruem parallels???
āāSo obviously, everyone knows that line killua says to gon -Ā āyou are lightā - and then i was just remembering that meruemās name means....Ā ālight that illuminates allā (!!!!). maybe itās a coincidence, but knowing togashi, iām leaning towards nahhhh. there HAS TO be some kinda meaning there (!!).
āāGoing back to the events of the chimera ant arc....ooh boy. letās see: gon is optimistic & hopeful even in the face of kite potentially being dead, killua says heās light, they find kite & dude is fucked up, gon is pissed. gets all angry & ~dark~, especially during the palace invasion when heās staring pitou down as she fixes up komugi. then the actual fight against pitou: more darkness, more anger, but through it all thereās still light, namely his jajanken being very orange & fiery lookin.....and that final sequence, where he puts all his possible nen heād ever have into his ~final form~ or wahtever & turns into a male version of true form!bisky but dressed in a crop top & short-shorts (i am SCARRED, btw. s c a r r e d !). thereās just huuuge flashes of light as thatās going on, and it reminded me of supernovas or dying stars when i was thinking about it, where the star is like, collapsing under its own weight? & burning thru its own fuel, until thereās nothing left except a dwarf or black hole or what have you. one final, extremely deadly burst of light & energy before death.
āāOnĀ the meruem side of things: born into a dark cave, exhibits a traditionally evil/cruel/wicked/whatever personality/traits so that has ppl associating him with darkness. then he gets to know komugi, starts to appreciate other aspects of humanity, seems like he could have actually turned into a decent person who doesnāt want to eat everyone - so thatās aĀ āpath to lightā, maybe? - and then the extermination team yeets themselves into the palace, netero takes him out to bumfuck nowhere, they fight. neteroās fighting is just ALL light, from his giant ass golden 100-type guanyin bodhisattva to the poor manās rose. again, thereās the sense of finality to it all, in a similar vein to dying stars: netero comes in determined to kill meruem no matter what, and we all know netero doesnāt flake. then we see netero get destroyed after the zero hand, and he triggers the rose, and everything is burning & on fire before the flames are put out and all turns dark again.
āāBut wait!!! pouf & youpi revive meruem and all he does is play gungi with komugi, even with the poison of the rose. he eventually dies, and the gungi pieces in that final shot of them together (i am BAWLING just thinking about it holy shit) has one thatās all white, one thatās a black ring and white inside. i assume all white is for komugi, who has never done ANYTHING wrong in her LIFE, so i like to think that the 2nd one is for meruem - bornĀ āinto darknessā, literally & figuratively, but he turns something likeĀ āgoodā by the end. itās interesting how togashi has sort of gone for a bit of a subversion here: the hero going from light to darkness, and the main antag from darkness to light.
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āāAahhhhHHHHHhhh so if you read all the way down here through my LONG rambles, tysm! i would LOVE LOVE LOVE to hear what other people think about all this, and iāve FOR SURE missed tons and tons of stuff - chimera ants is just. SO MUCH. and i donāt know it as well as yorknew eeek.
āāIām not sure if iām really ~knowledgeable~ in any other areas relating to hxh, so this might be the only one of these that i do, but i definitely think about some of this - esp all the religious symbolism & #4 stuff - a ton! so in the meantime, if itās of any interest, iām just going to shamelessly plug my hxh x religious beliefs/superstitions edit series :DĀ lots of love to all!!!
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I LOVED season 1 and 2 of the crown but found season 3 quite dull and difficult to get through. I'm enjoying season 4 (still havent finished bc I watch with my family and we're rarely all together) but I think that the earlier seasons were a lot better in my opinion
hi! i completely agree w you!
I AM SO SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY! I replied to this the day you sent it but my laptop crashed and I lost everything I wrote so I put off till now!
All in all, the writing for the first two seasons were WAY better. My ranking is s2 > s1 > s4 >>>>> s3. In my opinion, season three was kind of terrible.
hahaha this is so so long.
In the first two seasons each episodeās mini story for the day was actually INTERESTING. Like, I loved where one episode was about the Mountbatten name and then the next was about the Great Smog! But, there was always an overarching plot and it always added up in the end. S1, S2 and S4 all had an overarching plot that worked! S1 was balancing family and the crown. S2 was balancing prime ministers and her husband. S4 was the downfall of Margaret Thatcher and Charles/Diana. S3 LITERALLY HAD NO PLOT! It was just a bunch of stories put together. The finale for season 3 was about the end of Margaretās marriage! And although, it is an important event in the familyās history the fact that it was the finale episode????
Anyways, Season 3 genuinely just sucks. Season 4 is REALLY good. Yet, it still doesnāt leave as much of an affect on me like the earlier seasons. AND LIKE I KNOW BECAUSE IāVE REWATCHED THE FIRST THREE SEASONS SO MANY TIMES. Iāve only seen the fourth once because Iām too busy and itās also too early for me to rewatch it. So, maybe my opinion of season 4 will change!
Now, because I am extra šš and crazy I will talk about every single episode IN ORDER. hehehehehehe. feel free to hate me
SEASON ONE
101 Wolferton Splash - 10/10 this episodes just sets everything up! we see how happy the marriage is and how loving king george is and we also see the FORSHADOWING!! we see lilibet and phillip making their life thinking they had time when we know they donāt and itās just :( AN AMAZING PILOT EPISODE WITH AMAZING QUOTES!
102 Hyde Park Corner - 1000/10 this episode needs no explanation. the suspense and DRAMA right before lilibet finds out about her dad ALWAYS gets me!!
103 Windsor - 10/10 I hated this episode the first time I watched it! I didnāt understand the importance of her uncle and I didnāt understand the complexity behind the episode. I was 14 when I saw this episode for the first time! So, mind you I was quite ignorant. but, david basically represents the audience in the show for those who hate the monarchy and call them out on their hypocrisy. BUT DAVID IS A TERRIBLE PERSON! FUCK DAVID! i understand hating the monarchy and for him i know it was personal but the way he talks about his family in the letters UGHUGHGUHGUHGUHGUH this man is evil! thereās also the other story in the episode about the mountbatten name which is so brilliant!
104 Act of God - 15/10 this episode was boring on first watch but I WAS FOURTEEN! this episode took a break from the monarchy and concentrated on a british national horrific event THAT WAS IMPORTANT and i liked how it connected throughout the episode and all that and the CINEMATOGRAPHY OMGGGGG! anyways, something that pisses me off about this episode is that the crown kind of has the same kind of audience as euphoria! they only care about a hot actor or iconic character or the aesthetics AND THAT MAKES ME ANGRY! bc those are the ppl who call this episode the boring fog episode and the latest episode of euphoria a waste of time! they donāt understand the importance of what their watching. an event that killed hundreds by something that could have been avoided bc of science and for euphoria an ongoing pandemic of an ugly world and its affect on ppl not wanting to go on! IM SORRY THIS TURNED INTO A RANT but this episode is important in reminding audiences that disasters can be avoided but also once they happen anything can happen THIS WAS A SAD EPISODE OKAY AND I LOVED VENETIA SCOTT!
105 Smoke and Mirrors - 100/10 THE CORONATION EPISODE! Phillip tries to bring it to the common public and all the fighting between them just makes the coronation even more impactful when we watch it!
106 Gelignite - 8/10 I DESPISED MARGARET IN THE FIRST SEASON i saw her as a spoiled brat who wanted to marry her dadās assistant! AND ALSO HOW DID SHE NOT REALIZE THERE WAS DEFINITE GROOMING INVOLVED! this episode is generally very good but margaret just pisses me off a lot! however, her not being able to marry peter boresend shouldnāt have been because of his divorcee status but bc he simply was a predator in anyoneās clear eyes IM SORRY IF YOU DISAGREE BUT SHE MET HIM SO YOUNG NO WAY THERE WAS NO GROOMING good episode but pissed off at margaretās lack of critical thinking besides but I WANT HIMMMMM LIKE I WANT EVERYTHING
107 Scientia Potentia Est - 11/10 hated this when i first watched it! but now one of my favorites! lilibet feels dumb and needs a tutor! prime minister and wannabe prime minister have health problems and keep it from her! lilibet finds out by accident and they all get yelled at! I LOVE WHEN SHE YELLS AT MEN!
108 Pride & Joy - 10/10 this episode is just adds on to the overarching plot of the season: balancing the crown and family. margaret says disrespectful things to ppl who donāt deserve it in place of lilibet while sheās on the commonwealth tour fighting with her husband! then lilibet scorns margaret and we see an ugly papa loved me more argument! absolutely brilliant!
109 Assassins - 1000/10 hated it the first time but now I LOVE THIS EPISODE! itās the painting and porchey episode and churchill leaving episode. Itās so so so good! i honestly have no words to describe the brilliance of this episode besides the acting done by almost the entire main cast CLAIRE WOW! MATT WOW! STEPHEN (THE PAINTER) WOW! JOHN WOW! HARRIET WOW! when we see the painting getting burned coincided w the downing st dinner GETS ME EVERYTIME I LOVE IT SO SO MUCH!
110 Gloriana - 100/10 the climactic fight between the crown and family! which will lilibet choose?? and the foreshadowing to suez MWAH!
SEASON TWO
201 Misadventure - 100/10 LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS EPISODE the cutesy lilibet and phillip until it all goes down WOW! and the suez stuff i love it all
202 A Company of Men - 100/10 this is where i think mikeās wife starts snooping or itās the next episode BUT THIS IS WHERE SOMETHING BEGINS FOR SURE first of all it foreshadows the episode later in the season about philipās childhood AND MATTāS ACTING!! itās too good for words!
203 Lisbon - 100/10 i like it when they fight lol thatās the only way i know how to describe why i love it LILIBET WAS EXCITED TO SEE HIM AND SO WAS HE but then mike ruined it by being a disgraceful and dishonest man RUINING EVERYTHING
204 Beryl - 10/10 i start to like margaret bc i feel bad for her! sheās suffering sheās sad that her lil predator boyfriend is no longer w her but look who it is MATTHEW GOODE! he not suspicious at all but the writers are like here take 20 minutes of perfect chemistry between the actors!
205 Marionettes - 100/10 I LOVE THIS EPISODE basically someone who loves the monarchy insults the monarchy and lilibet actually goes to listen to them! w resistance of course but she still took everything he said to fix the monarchy !
206 Vergangenheit - 1000/10 one of my favorites! i didnāt know about davidās nazi past so when i watched this episode for the first time i was completely baffled! another episode where she yells at a man!!!! iām always annoyed in this episode tho by all the talk from the priest about forgiveness bc im like why would u want to forgive david for being a nazi?? but i think it was intentional by the writers to show the importance of understanding forgiveness and the grounds for it! THIS EPISODE IS JUST PERFECT IM ANNOYED BC I DONāT WANT TO FORGIVE HIM
207 Matrimonium - 9/10 this episode is amazing BEFORE youāve seen season three bc you root for margaret and tony! but, also throughout the episode thereās all that tony and family and his gf and bf stuff that you think is going to lead somewhere but doesnāt??? like what was the point of introducing his mother and his relationships if it was going nowhere and not even mentioned in season 3??? LIKE WHAT WAS THE POINT WHAT WAS THE REASON? but, also thereās lilibet and phillip fluff in this episode I LOVE
208 Dear Mrs. Kennedy - 10/10 this episode is fun as an american bc i think jackie kennedy and jfk are so idolized here in america it was so interesting to see this other pov! BUT I ALSO REALLY LOVED LILIBET DANCING W NKRUMAH! I THOUGHT IT WAS SO CUTE AND THE MARTIN CHARTERIS STUFF LEADING UP TO IT WAS SO FUNNY!
209 Paterfamilias - 100000/10 no words. IT WAS SO SMART TO PARALLEL PHILIP AND CHARLES this has a lower rating than the previous episode which makes no sense but only goes to prove the idolization of jackie and jfk
210 Mystery Man - 100/10 EVERYTHING FROM THE FIRST EPISODE IS ADDRESSED IN THIS EPISODE THE SEASON COMES FULL CIRCLE JUST LIKE SEASON ONE DID AND SEASON THREE DID NOT DO THAT AND SEASON FOUR DID IT TOO BUT NO WHERE AS GREATLY
every single episode of seasons two has a 9+ rating from me!
SEASON THREE (worst season)
301 Olding - 5/10 weak starter but good for introducing olivia as lilibet and harold wilson and departing churchill BUT THATāS IT! like the whole spy thing just went bleh LIKE IT HAD POTENTIAL but it needed early seasons writing not third season writing techniques TOBIAS DID A GREAT JOB THO IN THIS EPISODE HE WAS A GREAT RECAST FOR PHILIP
302 Margaretology - 6/10 okay. just okay. margaret kind of bratty but you actually feel bad for her then she gets bratty again and then you feel bad for her again and the scenarios in the episode just didnāt feel real like the whole lyndon b johnson was so jealous of jfk that he was rude to the queen so they sent margaret JUST DIDNāT MAKE SENSE like i know this show is fictional but the fiction tends to be believable until i research the episode afterwards BUT FOR THIS it just didnāt make sense
303 Aberfan - 1000/10 ONE OF THE GOOD EPISODES OF THE SEASON! those first fifteenish minutes??? TEARS! i never knew about aberfan until this episode and seeing this episode made me cry!
304 Bubbikins - 10000/10 THIS EPISODE IS TECHNICALLY NOT AS GOOD AS THE ABERFAN EPISODE BUT THIS IS A PERSONAL PREFERENCE we meet anne and alice in this episode AND I LOVE BOTH OF THEM (erinsdoherty is my current url!) this episode is so sad and sweet at the same time and loving bc iām a sucker for philipās back story!
305 Coup - 8/10 this had potential I FEEL LIKE IF THEY WROTE THIS EPISODE DIFFERENTLY LIKE HOW THEY WROTE ONE OF THE SUEZ EPISODE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH BETTER the fact that it all went to nothing and nothing basically happened WHAT WAS THE POINT
306 Tywysog Cymru - 1000/10 this episode made me like charles! what a horrendous statement! but, like i thought his relationship w his tutor was so heartwarming and he actually seemed to care and all that and it just all in all MADE ME HAPPY like this episode isnāt sad itās a happy episode until the last scene w lilibet BUT YEA they gave us this one good episode until we hate him which i appreciate makes the story telling better
307 Moondust - -100/10 hate this episode LIKE GENUINELY HATE IT HATE HATE HATE and tbh im generally very very nice w my opinions ANYWAYS I WAS SO EXCITED FOR THIS EPISODE BUT IT WAS SO STUPID LIKE THE ASTRONAUTS BEING ASSHOLES WAS STUPID PHILIP BEING AN ASSHOLE TO THE PRIESTS WAS STUPID LIKE PHILIP IS AN ASSHOLE BUT ITāS BEHIND PEOPLEāS BACKS AND THEN THEY KILLED ALICE OFF SCREEN I HATE THIS EPISODE
308 Dangling Man - -1000/10 HATE THIS ONE TOO this episode convinced me that the writers for the first two seasons to this season has changed all of a sudden we forget that david was basically a nazi and the charles we met two episodes ago sees him as exactly like this uncle who he swore he would be nothing like to the people of wales??? LIKE WHO WROTE THIS THEY WERE DOING CRACK WHILE WRITING THIS EPISODE and i felt NOTHING during the lilibet and david goodbye WHACK EPISODE TERRIBLE JUST BAD TERRIBLE
309 Imbroglio - 5/10 episode started off good but then just went a lil too crazy by making it seem like a whole secret spy mission going behind lilibetās back
310 Cri de Cour - 4/10 bad just bad HBC GOOD ACTRESS AMAZING ACTRESS given bad material like NONE OF THIS FEELS CONNECTED THIS STORY IS ALL RANDOM AND WE HAD A WHOLE EPISODE ABOUT MARGARET AND TONY AND WE DONāT EVEN MENTION ANY OF THE CRAZY STUFF FROM THE LAST SEASON BUT WE CONCENTRATE ON MARGARET BEING A SUGAR MAMA MAKES SENSE YALL
once again i hate season three
SEASON FOUR
401 Gold Stick- 8/10 written weirdly but had GOOD SCENES such as meeting thatcher and diana! BUT THE SCENE STEALER WAS OBVIOUSLY MOUNTBATTENāS DEATH AND PHILIP TELLING CHARLES THAT HE BECAME DICKIEāS SON INSTEAD OF HIM SAD STUFF so like the death was sad and dramatic and I FELT BAD but like i shouldnāt bc im south asian and mountbatten did bad stuff to us BUT IT DOESNāT CHANGE THE RIPPLE WE FELT
402 The Balmoral Test - 9/10 funny episode but needed early seasonsā writing
403 Fairytale - 9/10 good episode but needed early seasonsā writing BUT ALSO THAT SCENE BETWEEN CAMILA AND DIANA MWAH CHEFāS KISS THEY BOTH DESERVE ALL THE AWARDS but needed early seasonsā writing
404 Favourites - 7/10 this episode is good but frustrating bc u finally realize how terrible of a mother lilibet is BUT THE ANDREW STUFF WAS GOOD I AM GLAD THEY PUT THAT IN! i liked seeing thatcherās non-existent relationship w her daughter NEEDED EARLY SEASONSā WRITING
405 Fagan - 10/10 GOOD EPISODE I LIKE HOW WE WERE EMERSED IN FAGANāS LIFE AND I LOVE THE ACTOR FOR FAGAN TOO AND I LIKE HOW IT WAS CONNECTED TO THATCHER AND FUELED THE OVERARCHING PLOT OF THE STORY!
406 Terra Nullius - 100/10 GOOD EPISODE CLOSEST TO EARLY SEASONS WRITING THATāS WHAT MADE IT GOOD seeing them not get along and then get along and then not get along again through a series of montages made the episode brilliant!
407 The Hereditary Principle - 6/10 this episode. how do i explain? the material for this episode was absolutely perfect for the writers of the early seasons! POOR EXECUTION
408 48:1 - 100/10 i like the political episodes more than the family episodes SO THIS EPISODE IS SO BRILLIANT BC OF THE BACK AND FORTH AND I GOT TO SEE CLAIRE!!
409 Avalanche - 7/10 early season writers would have shown the arguing before the avalanche and dianaās reaction JUST SAYING
410 War - 9/10 THIS EPISODE HAD THE YELLING AT EACH OTHER SCENE THAT WAS SO GOOD BUT ANYWAYS THE PROBLEM W THIS EPISODE WAS THAT IT DRAGGED I FEEL LIKE THIS EPISODE AND THE ONE BEFORE SHOULD HAVE BEEN ONE EPISODE TOGETHER
ALAS, what i would like to say is that i feel that season 4 shouldnāt have been so diana centric! it was diana from the beginning of the season to the end! not, that i donāt love the whole diana story but it was dragged and i think she should have been introduced around the third/fourth episode of this season the same way tony was in season two! camilla should have arrived at the beginning of season 4 so that the intensity between camilla, charles and diana was more believable! if we season three wasnāt so spread out they could have had more brilliant episode.
OK HAHA I AM SO SORRY FOR THIS VERY LONG RANT ABOUT THE CROWN PLZ FORGIVE ME! AND IF U READ ALL THIS WOW! IDK WHAT TO SAY I THINK I TALK TOO MUCH HONESTLY :( anyways thank you for talking to me :)
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twdg take us back thoughts (forgive me if any of this is out of order, iām doing this from memory)
-the game took 10 minutes to download and those were a wild ten minutes iāll tell you that
-right off the bat i was worried clem was gonna get bit
-i tried to shoot lilly at first, then i saw it didnāt work and wished her well. thatās just my s1 lilly fanās final breaths of air right there
-LOUIS SAVED MY LIFE THANK YOU IāM SORRY ABOUT YOUR TONGUE
-god louisās little smile though oOF
-VI I LOVE YOU
-THE OTHER KIDS ARE ALIVE
-vIOLET INITIATED KISS!!!!
(adding a read more bc this got LONG)
-uhhhh iām pretty sure iām not the only one who was left with some post-ep3 lilly vibes with minnie. like fuck u for expecting some kinda redemption arc with any character we are going to make them go Batshit the next episode
-like i really thought weād be able to help her or something when she was fighting off those walkers. i mean i get she was totally brainwashed but cāmon man. sheās a kid. but fuk that ig
-walker james man. i sorta justified not going back and killing lilly last ep by saying this was what james wouldāve wanted (also itās my playthrough i do what i want), and now that i know what happens if you do save him uhhhhhhh.... iām glad i made the choices i did tbh! itās what james wouldāve wanted.
-i spent so long in that cave looking for āsomething to light on fireā
-i decided to trust aj. i figured a) that could possibly save my life (it didnāt lol), b) it would make him feel good about himself, and c) iāve taught him pretty well up to now so i trust him.
-MEETING UP WITH VIOLET AND OUR LITTLE FAMILY HUG WOW CAN I JUST SAY THAT SHITāS THE GOOD SHIT
-i low key wish iād named the school castle violet, but i figured it was more important to give her the choice. texas two squad, gang gang
-fighting minnie on the bridge i was thinking āok minnieās gonna get a lot of shit for this lolā
-speaking of Bridge Scene, that shit was INTENSE if nothing else
-like SHIT
-when minnie cut me, i thought āoh fuuck, somethingās gonna bite thatā
-i also thought āhey clemās gonna have a big leg scar to match her big arm scarā but i was wrong about that lmao
-iāve never been more stressed that someone was gonna bite me than in this ep lmao
-i also thought the scene from the trailer where you try to grab ajās hand was gonna be here on the bridge, not on the rocks
-oof when tenn died i was upset, but i feel more secure in that than if it were violet who died. only because that was tennās choice, and tenn was another person, like james, who had seemed to make peace with the walkers in a way. plus he died with his sister, which seemed to be what they both wanted at the time. thatās not so say that i wish i couldāve saved him without killing vi (or louis), but i do feel satisfied with what i got here (rip tennessee, you were a cool kid)
-and then vi jumps over a fence ok bye violet
-climbing up the rocks, i knew this was when it was gonna happen. but still. i cried lol
-when i uncovered the bite, i was reminded of the s2 game mechanics. oof
-as soon as she was bitten i said āyou have an axe! cut it off now! do it!ā and when they didnāt i died
-the next bit was reminiscent of lee making his way to the marsh house in s1
-actually, clemās limp reminded me of a new day when lee got into that car crash lol
-and when clem and aj were closing the doors to the barn and clem said to get something to block the door, i was expecting her to continue and say something like āsomething strong and sturdyā like lee said when they were blocking off the pharmacy in s1 bc that scene gave me strong pharmacy vibes
-and then strong jewelry shop vibes bc why tf not
-playing as aj. that was rough. heās FAST tho oml
-that was when i went āok so clem is dying for realā and cried a lil bit more cuz you know me
-switching between clem and aj. DUDE that got me so emotional
-also aj using clemās trick (that used to be janeās trick). GO KIDDO
-seeing clem looking more and more dead fuckt me up (like how did she get from that to the end of the ep i donāt get it. like even if it was because she waited shorter to cut it off or because it was her leg rather than her arm or what. it doesnāt matter because by the time lee looked like THAT his arm was (determinantly) long gone. but hey, not gonna analyze it too much lol iām just glad my girl clemās alive)
-okay when clem was talking to aj that also got me crying
-and when i told aj to leave clem, i was thinking āokay, maybe sheāll link up with james. or tenn, but like hopefully not minnie at this point. and lEE maybe sheāll find lee. or luke. or her parents-ā
-and then he picks up that ax and i was like āwoa ok did you just kill her??ā
-and then the flashback. lemme be real and say i thought that was the afterlife or something, and that those floaty specks were Afterlife Dust
-but then i remembered āoh right the ranchā
-lemme just say i didnāt think the ranch was gonna look like that lol
-not 100 percent on what was going on at the ranch tbh
-like who were those people and why did we kill all of them? one would assume that clem would first try to get aj back peacefully
-oh wait they were at war right
-also i really liked the design of like all of those people
-and the LAVA GUY HOLY SHIT
-obviously i mercy killed him
-also wait, was clem with the people they were fighting? i couldnāt tell
-ALSO also, was. was that eddie? from 400 days? checking the wiki real quick
-yea i think that was him. rip eddie you didnāt deserve That. i mean i was happy he was back nd then we were just forced to kill him oof sorry man
-felt bad about killing that woman also, but hey, she had aj in a tiny locker, so i didnāt feel super bad about it after finding him
-also lemme just say
-little kid aj??
-SUPER CUTE OML
-heās like the perfect mix of anf ajās face and tfs ajās face. kudos to whoever designed little aj
-also when clem was talking with him in the car. i felt like it was sort of unrealistic little kid talk, but not so much that it distracted from anything going on
-never go alone god rule number one had me crying
-and then weāre aj fishing!
-i didnāt catch any fish as aj lol
-also i LOVE how they changed the dialogue options for aj to be a lot more childlike if that makes sense? like fuck yeah that was a really nice call
-ROSIE IM SO GLAD YOUāRE OK
-i didnāt scratch out the v+m heart because itās history, and itās not mine to scratch out. same reason i didnāt make clem spit on marlonās grave
-CLEMāS HAT GET IT
-GET IT GET IT
-OH GOOD GIRL ROSIE YOUāRE A GOD
-oh a walker
-oH THATāS A TENN WALKER SHIT
-well iām not gonna kill him Again
-also i donāt want the other kids to have to see him
-i was so glad when i got the option to throw the rock
-he learned from james what a good boy
-RUBY HI
-god rubyās the best lmao
-my thoughts when theyāre talking about the hat ā...aj hasnāt put it on... they havenāt talked about clem in the past tense.... is she.... possibly.... not dead?ā
-lmao and when the next scene started, the trees + sky reminded me of the st johnās dairy and i wondered if we had another lee dream or afterlife or something but nope
-is this take us back??
-hOLY SHIT ITāS TAKE US BACK!!!
-okay and walking home, seeing everyone. god i was so sjfsakjfa there
-like when i saw aasim run up to ruby i was all !!! and when they held hands i was all !!!!!!!!! yknow?? and then when i saw omar and WILLY and then on the gate there was VIOLET (i was so glad she was ok lmao the last thing i wanted for my girl was an offscreen death) god that was so good with the music i was crying a little again
-need to make another bullet to stress how happy i am for ruby and aasim. like i wouldāve been happy either way but they were portrayed as such a cute couple in the few seconds we got of them, so like. consider me a fan now i guess
-i was worried for louis at first cuz i didnāt see him
-i thought maybe this was the end of the game because we closed the gate and stuff and i was thinking āoh, like closing the storyā but NOPE
-sup omar. up and cooking again i see
-lmao my sleep-deprived brain found it hilarious that we just put the empty bucket down next to him
-uhh what came next the graves or clem?? i forget
-WAIT IT WAS THE GRAVES BECAUSE THE TIRE SWING WHICH IS SO CUTE AHH
-well tennās grave made me :( but then CLEM
-so glad my hunch that she was alive was right lmao
-but also i thought that was determinant it was a lot less satisfying when you realize that no matter what she lives
-i mean i get why they did it like that, they didnāt want anyone feeling left with the ābad endingā, their thing is that their games are tailored to how you play and there IS no bad ending but still. a little variation on that front wouldāve made it a lil more satisfying
-also where did they get those crutches
-i love talking as aj. so much.
-heās just a funky lil guy!
-that convo with clem on the steps, when she asked if she did a good job... like FUCK YEAH you did a good job, IāM YOU, you think iām not happy with how i raised me??
-aj saying āare you crazyā when clem asked that made me smile
-okay i know ppl have been saying this. but. siblings aasim and willy rule.
-and then the meal!!
-i was super hoping for a card game but what we good was good. not great, but good. also, card game as aj would probably not be quite as fun. or itād be very fun. honestly, itād probably just be a different kind of fun.
-when we panned over the table i saw a flash of louis and i went all ālouis!!ā in my head
-louisās little note sadfasf that was so cute
-and honestly everything about louis in this scene i love you louis
-actually, just this whole scene was cute. willy and omar were adorable, and then ruby, and willy asking for seconds, and everyone just being Soft in general like. yall deserve this happiness
-vi and clem talking Strategy dude sign me up
-i love how clem trusts aj now. and i trust aj too tbh, a lot more than i did initially. i think i taught him pretty well.
-violet and aj duo letās go
-slightly worried abt that caravan that was mentioned, but hey. the game left off on a high note, so NOTHING BAD CAN HAPPEN TO THEM EVER. YOU HEAR THAT??
-vIOLET INITIATED KISS PART TWO!!!!!! CHEEK KISS EDITION!!!!!!!! IM SOFT!!!!!!!!!!
-okay that hallway with the snb teamās names all over the walls?? dude oof. they worked so hard it made me so happy to see their mark on texas two
-haha texas two
-ANYWAY
-obviously i looked at all the collectibles i had, AND pet rosie, because i knew that when i ran out of things to do, the game would be over, and who wants that?
-aj: *places human skull* *looks at animal skull* wow clem really likes skulls
-kiddo i hate to break it to you but
-seems like youāre taking after her in that regard
-good girl rosie
-lmao aj and his magic powers
-itās like louis in a box
-hanging up jamesā walker mask made me :((
-he is watching over you aj. and he would like that
-ok guys i am BEGGING you. if you havenāt already, PLEASE repeatedly click disco broccoli until you canāt anymore. itās great.
-and then i finally had to put down the hat
-āthank you for playingā GOD THANK YOU FOR HAVING ME
-I CANāT BELIEVE THIS SERIES IS OVER
-I CANāT BELIEVE IāM SAYING GOODBYE TO CLEM
-i mean i still have my louis route BUT ITāS NOT THE SAME AS A FRESH EPISODE YKNOW??
OKAY FINAL THOUGHTS:
-FIRST OFF I JUST FOUND OUT VI CAN GO BLIND
-honestly im in favor of that i rly like blind violet au and now itās not au
-rip her eye honestly
-new tag to match my rip louisā tongue
-also i left violet feeling loved FUCK yea i did i love violet
-OKAY ACTUAL THOUGHTS
-looking at this episode afterwards, is it just me or is it a little... lacking? like, a little off? i mean obviously itās good in the moment, super intense, but there were just a few things that make me feel like itās the weakest of the season
-also lmao i guess fuck minnie james and lilly, their storylines all felt kinda like a middle finger to their fans if that makes sense
-but holy shit was that minnie stuff haunting. like HOLY SHIT
-also, for a game thatās been focused a lot around clemās interactions with the other characters, there was a lot... less of that in this episode. no card game, barely any interaction with anyone other than louis/violet, tenn, minnie, aj, and james. and two of those people are fighting you. one of them is even determinant. i was just expecting a little more on that front, because this seasonās been really good with that sorta thing
-also i wouldāve loved a little more time with violet/louis. but thatās just a personal thing and not necessarily a problem lol
-again, i feel like it wouldāve been a little more satisfying for clem to survive if there were an option where she didnāt. but again again, i totally get why they didnāt go that route
-in that vein, iād really enjoy a little more time with the person who wasnāt on the bridge with you. i miss my boy louis :(
-idk thereās just something a little off about this episode.
-thatās not to say i didnāt love it (because i TOTALLY did just look at all that stuff above haha)
-like i know i didnāt love the minnie part, but like i said, that shit was INTENSE
-i can sorta see why they went that route
-and i canāt speak for living!james but walker!james was oddly peaceful to see. like, there was a feeling of āthis is what he wouldāve wantedā
-and okay i loved the violet initiated kisses. so much.
-also ruby and aasim that was pretty cute
-and obviously im happy clem isnāt dead thatās always great
-OH and i loved the scene with the snb teamās names on the walls. like that was so good.
-finally, the end scene was so satisfying. it ended the series the right way. with clemās hat :p
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texts from 3:55pm to 7:01pm
blue
hey lib. (: havent talked today. just wanted to drop in and see if u were doin alright
i have memes if u need them
libby
i mean, technically we did talk. i reminded you of the moment the world stood still: when valentine and you made contact (1) time.
are you okay though? you seem a little, weird
blue
i maintain that valentine was an alien in a spider suit that wanted to destroy me
but u know what I mean djdjdjd just chats between us. the gc has been a june holden fest lately lmao
hope it works out for them tho
anyways
i am always weird in ur eyes djdjhd. but im fine. shit was crazy that night and we never really got to talk about what happenedand if u wanted to talk i just want u to kno im here
ABOUT NADIA
bc
yeah
kdjdjjd
libby
don't talk to me or my son ever again
yeah, wow, okay so holden stayed over the night. i only know that because i saw his stuff in her room? i think she mentioned that like, it was a one time thing but i feel like... he might be coming over again which.. is Interesting
oh. yeah, no i think i'm okay. i guess just in shock. june is very broken up over it, so i'm doing my best to be a good pal, and bring loads of ice cream and kisses. /:
do you wanna talk? about nadia? i know that she like, meant something to you
blue
ok good luck getting me to stop talkin to u but as for valentine? bye Felecia!
is that right. hmm well he doesnāt seem like much is goin on so maybe they were just,, hanging out. bringing a bag over is pretty damning tho.
and if he does come over and u see him tell that bih he owes me $ bc he ate my fucking chorizo salad ):
r u proud lib?? I ate a salad by choice
well I would have if Holden wasnāt a lil birch
bitch
DONT CENSOR ME
fuck. im sorry. ): i actually wanted to see june today tbh. but if u need anyone pls let me know alright? id skip practice if u needed me, lib
WELL. i mean ok i was sorta close with her in middle school and sheās always been a friend and I just. Iām just fucking numb tbh. I really canāt believe it
libby
i'll have you know that valentine died shortly after my 18th birthday so ):
idk idk, why would they hang out in her room if they were "hanging out"? like they have history. i feel like thats, a little too ... suspicious given the context. in a good way though. like i hope it works out theyre both so miserable without each other.
oh my god!! look at you go! so proud of you, dude!
( even if you never got to it lmao )
no, no, it's okay. june needs all the support she can get, and i don't wanna impede. i'm really fine, i just sort of need to accept it and i guess reflect on how terrible it is. she was a really sweet person and fuck i really cant believe any of it i guess
blue
fuck
what
kdjdjdnd I thought valentine just
yeeted
shit thatās not a good way to put it fuck but. im sorry lib ):
ok I take it back Valentine was alright.
still scared the fuck out of me tho
all i know is that if i loved someone as much as holden loves june, i wouldnāt let you go
**THEM fuck
Damn phone
Typos
Djdjhdi
canāt believe u make me eat green stuff
its truly CRUEL
whomst? I only know
nadia just didnāt fucking deserve any of this. shit even daisey didnāt. i just want to protect everyone and i donāt know HOW
it goes without saying that im happy to be ur uber driver for the indefinite future
libby
no omg, i took good care of my boy. idk what happened, they can live up to like 15 years so i was pretty bummed tbh. i was a bad mom
he appreciates your support from the grave though
i mean, i guess. but not everyone you love is going to love you back, i think that's where holden's at. not everyone wants to be clung to, and june seems reluctant
besides, you know all about that. holden, the love of your life, loves june. how sad
it's good for you!!!
i'm helping
i ... feel so badly for both of them. i can't imagine how their families must be feeling, fuck. i hate this. i'm moving to spain
ah, dude you don't have to do all that. you probably are busy with practice, and holden, and work. thank you tho
blue
im sure ur a great mother. ): but still valentine was lucky to have u. and im sure he misses u in his weird spider heaven web of flies and whatever it is spiders like idk ill dm peter parker and find out
i mean... guess thatās true. I suppose I dont get to see how june feels most of the time. i just wish theyād talk about it and sort it out at least. they both deserve to be happy
holden is the loml that is true aksjjsjd. holden has enough room for both me and june in his heart. so i mean technically i can love someone else too?? but enough about that lmfao
you definitely are helping. even coach has noticed dkdjd. making me better without even trying
u canāt move without me whoās gonna get me free popcorn ):
youāre just as important as practise and holden to me, lib.
libby
god, i miss him. you think the girls would be mad if i bought another one? like, to keep in my room.Ā
i know! they're both obviously still in love, you can tell. i can't wait for them to overcome this and get to be together. also, im grateful for the amount of sleep i'm able to get now that... the room next to mine is less loud
welp, i hope you find someone who is willing to share you with holden lol
oMG, REALLY? IDK WHY THAT MADE ME IRRATIONALLY HAPPY LOL. WE CAN GET SALAD LATER
let's go, we'll go to spain and take on a new identity. we can live along the coast and work in a bakery or something. get a puppy
don't show holden that text he might cry.
but dsjflk thank you, you're very important to me too. kinda my best pal
blue
u would have to ask. but if you did get another what would u call it? thanksgiving?
funnily enough valentine is only a few weeks away. a sign??
i mean fuck ive known holden for years and can confirm he is happiest when heās with june. when sheās not roasting him at least lmfao. and if my MasterPlan works im afraid things will get bad again djdjdj. I can take one for the team and try to get them to come over here tho - u donāt need to deal with that shit
i hope i do too tbh. and who would I want it to be u ask? thatās right. danny devito.
LETS NOT GET TOO CRAZY IVE ALREADY HAD THREE VEGETABLES THIS WERK AND ITS ONLY TUESDAY. I think itās popcorn time 8)
bold of u to assume i know where Spain is dkdjdjdjdj
well heās gonna catch on soon enough we spend every day together at this point lol
libby
i was gonna name this one patrick, after st patricks day actually lol.
yes you know what's also approaching that is more important? your birthday!
i know, it doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure that out. he's v much a relationship kinda dude, actually bc he's also kinda slutty lol. but even june is sad and its just, SO HARD. i hate when people are clearly, happiest together are like, nO IM GOING TO PROLONG THE MISERY. i feel like we're in a rom-com. how do we get them back together?
i'll let him know. my v-day gift from me to you
oooo, should i get the skittles ready too then? popcorn is kinda of a veggie if you think abt it
omg, okay well now you can't come with me. offer rescinded. im going with the hot cop
lslsfkjdjkldfs i mean its not like we're doing anything weird, so its okay, right?
blue
ur so cute wtf. although if u did do this i hope u know im calling him patrick star. also how the fuck do u tell if its a female or a male spider theyre so small and gross. fuck it is too lol.
i dont have any money so im gonna let ppl down on the party front lmao. ud still come tho, right?
how can he be both slutty and relationshippy. like not to be weird bc i know hes ur cousin and all dkfjgg but he doesnt.. have people over anymore. unless hes someone learned not to stomp around the house WHICH I DONT BELIEVE. and ha hA im already on plan 384 to get them back together get on my level lmao. Ā we just gotta force them to spend time together tbh.
does that mean i have to give u the hot cop for valentines bc i mean. i would if that's what u wanted but im sure u can do much better than him
OH FUCK UR RIGHT OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP HAS BEEN A LIE TO CONVERT ME TO VEGGIES HASNT IT
r u breaking up with me? well fine, ill take the dog ):
it's... it's not weird unless we make it weird. and we haven't. have we?
libby
fdsjfjdsl shhhhh, back at you. Patrick Star will be his full name, i promise you this much. as for gender idfk, i am honestly assuming its pronouns lol. i'd be sued by the LGBT community if they knew.
also dude, of course. i'll make you cupcakes. plus i know what i wanna buy you!
iĀ can't wait
dude what? really?? i thought he was seeing people this whole time, holy shit. dude he's really messed up over this huh? wow, okay, we need to kick this into high gear and have them get back together. tell me your plans.
omg, no you clown. i don't even like him that much, he's just pretty. i do like... some personality and he has 0
GOD MY PLAN HAS BEEN FOILED. I CANT BELIEVE IT
like i'd ever let you take the dog. she's mine
sdfjlkdsfjlk iDK DUDE. I MAY HAVE MADE IT WEIRD BUT WE'RE BAD AT TALKING ABT STUFF, SO WE DONT HAVE TO LOL.
blue
do spiders even have gender i thought they were just the minions of evil lmfao
lib u rly dont have to get me anything, really. altho now im curious tbh. but get ready for me to get a lit gift in june >:) ill even wrap it myself which says a lot bc i cant wrap for shit but i want it to be personal lmao
not many that im aware of atm. will give u info is this changes. huh we r spies lib. >:) but i dont have any current plans except trying to force them to go in a photo booth together or something when we eventually go to the arcade djsjdh
omg how did u know. but idk everyone speaks about him like hes gOD heās just a dude. eyebrows on fleek tho
I will say that IM SO HURT UD USE ME LIKE THIS LIB. ALL THIS TIME WE WERE GETTING CLOSE AND U WERE ONLY HERE FOR THE VEGGIES
so u get Spain AND the dog. what do I get, sadness ????
you havenāt made it weird lib, i promise. not to me, anyway. maybe we both wanted the same thing. maybe. oR MAYBE NOT LMFAO but yeah we can talk about whatever lol
libby
don't talk about nate like that omg!
i want to, plus its a surprise so no asking what it is. also wow i cant believe you remember my birthday, lol. you dont have to get me anything. you can buy me an ice cream though
oh my gOD THAT'S BRILLIANT! aw, what if they take one of those cute kiss pictures in the photobooth like in the movies? i can't wait for them to love each other again, they're so cute.
are you jealous that no one is talking about your eyebrows? you have nice eyebrows and nothing to be jealous abt
GOD, IM SO SORRY. ROY HIRED ME. HE WAS WORRIED ABT YOUR HEALTH. IM SORRY YOU HAD TO FIND OUT THIS WAY. I THOUGHT YOU NEVER WOULD /:
you get the memory of what we were to keep you warm
right, cool. noted
blue
why do u talk about the string bean all the time i know u grew up with him but seriously he's like a pale pipe cleaner that i dont need in my life
ofc i remeber ur birthday lib. dont u remember ur 10th?? probably the best day of my life lmao. and if u get me something i get u something thats how this works
as long as june doesnt say anything mean and holden say anything stupid, its a pretty solid plan tbh.
im not jealous
HOW DARE ROY PLAY ME LIKE THIS. cant believe u betrayed me lib, after all we've been through ;-;
but what if i want something to sell off now that u took the house
oh fuck lib i didn't mean it like that. just... pretend i said nothing ok and. yeah talk about something else
libby
hey sorry, i gotta go. talk tomorrow.
blue
oh
is everything ok?
but alright
talk tomorrow then i guess
bye lib
libby
night
blue
its 6pm lib
but okay
night
blue
lib if i did something u dont have to tell me but pls know i didnt mean it, whatever it was. i hope youre okay. but i wont bother u again i promise. just. yeah
libby
it's okay, dude. i'm fine. it's honestly my own fault, it's not you. you're always great. i'm sorry. it's fine
blue
i dont understand what ur talking about but i can tell u dont want to so ill just... leave this. but you're always great too lib. the greatest, in fact. just let me know if ur still coming to the arcade later or not
yeah
libby
i guess i'll go. i like pacman.
blue
if u... if u change ur mind i understand. but i really hope u can make it.
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2017
1. What did you do in 2017 that youād never done before?
iāll try to do this chronologically again:
so at the beginning of january one of my best friends left to study abroad in rome which was sad and i missed her a lot. i saw rory scovel do stand up. i took an animation class which was fun for the first few weeks until i failed it lmao. actually my classes from jan to march did not go so well tbh but whatever i made it through. my sister came to visit me the weekend before st paddys day which was super fun and then we saw panic which was soooooooo fuckin rad i love them still wow! i went home for spring break and visited a local winery w my dad which was a lot of fun and then a week later uhhh me and @carrot-gallery became gfs!!! and my whole frickin life changed bc i love her so much wow!! but then a week after that i turned 22 and spent my birthday alone! which i tried to pretend didnt make me sad but by the end of the day i was very sad about it and thats when my sweet gf called me to sing happy birthday and i sobbed on my couch and ill never forget that!!! so okay then spring quarter classes started and i was a part of depaulās visiting artist series which was super cool... i met a lot of new awesome people (both at depaul and the industry ppl that were our guests!) and made some great friends in that class! i was a house manager and camera op which was super fun. i went to a screening of my fave professorās short film which was also rad. i saw a ghost story at the chicago critics film festival, which was amazing. i saw idiocracy in 35mm and then mike judge did a q&a! the very next day i was house manager for depaulās student film festival at the music box! i saw chris gethard do a live recording of beautiful/anonymous and then also do some standup, that was awesome. i saw day wave live!!! amazing! i spent an entire dystopian day dealing with megabus. that was hell! i sat at an outdoor amphitheater and even tho i couldnt really see him i got to listen to seu jorge sing david bowie covers and life was magical for a few hours. my sisters came up to visit me and we saw aladdin the musical and had our minds blown, it was soooo fun! i went to the chicago pride parade for the very first time but i went by myself and at one point i was sitting on the curb just crying! not a high point but still memorable. i won a ticket to an advanced screening of the big sick where kumail & emily were there to do a q&a after the movie.... had a fuckin blast OBVIOUSLY and then saw the movie 9 other times in various theatres. i also made it into a commercial FOR the movie i just loved it that much lmao! i moved into a new (and my current) apartment! lorde released melodrama and fucking murdered me in my own home. otherwise i had a pretty uneventful but anxiety filled summer bc of financial aid stuff so that really sucked. i saw good time w taylor and the safdie brothers were there to do a q&a and they were such interesting guys i could listen to them talk for hours honestly. my mom and sisters came up to visit me and we took our mom to her very first cubs game which was sooo so much fun and they won that day too!! it was awesome and we had a great time :) watched the eclipse (or tried to anyway!!) fall quarter classes started and i honestly kicked ass at them, i got on the deans list (i almost typed honor roll lmao i mean its basically the same) i hung out with ari again which was cool!! we went to the aquarium! me and taylor saw beach fossils which was honestly the most buckwild concert ive ever been to i think, it was good shit. i got jobs at AMC (which i have since quit lmao) and starbucks and left my job at the paint place which was bittersweet! me and taylor saw mbmbam live!!! so fun!! and we watched trolls that night and goofed on it so hard!! i went home for thanksgiving and found out my big sister is gonna have a baby this year!! :D i saw mike birbiglia do stand up! which was soooo incredible of course (except i felt bad bc my mom was supposed to come w me but she couldnt go! so i brought taylor lol) UMMMMM MY DAM GIRLFRIEND CAME TO CHICAGO TO VISIT ME AND STAYED FOR A WHOLE DANG WEEK AND IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER SHE MAKES ME SO HAPPY WE HAD SO MUCH FUN AND I MISS HAVING HER RIGHT NEXT TO ME EVERY SINGLE GOSH DANG DAY <3 ;_____; and that was my year!!
2. Did you keep your new yearās resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
last year i said id like to read at least one book each month and watch at least 100 movies - i did neither! im keeping the movie resolution though bc cmon 100 movies should be EASY for a film major wtf am i doing!
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no but it will happen in 2018!Ā
4. Did anyone close to you die?
not a person but we had to put down my sweet doggo, flash :(
5. What countries did you visit?
still none :/
6. What would you like to have in 2018 that you lacked in 2017?
More confidence that I actually deserve to be in college and that I can do this shit and Iām awesome <ā that was my answer from last year and the year before but yeah. same. also money.
7. What dates from 2017 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
ummm march 25 when me and gf became gfs and also dec 17 when she came to visit :)
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
putting myself out there by doing VAS/Premiere, getting on the deans list for the first time since freshman year and then also getting a new job
9. What was your biggest failure?
this summer i didnt do shit besides wallow and cry and it sucked!
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nope
11. What was the best thing you bought?
every movie ticket and the bras i bought for natalie ;-)
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
natalieās because sheās amazing and works so hard!!!! and she can always cheer me up and im so in love w her
13. Whose behavior made you appalled?
mine bc i could never just get my shit together and do my homework when i was supposed to :) < thats from last year but lmfao same!
14. Where did most of your money go?
RENT, movie/event tix, food, in that order
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
THE BIG SICK, the new season of sv, p much all of the events that i listed in the first question lol
16. What song will always remind you of 2017?
umm honestly probably any song from melodrama
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?
Iām a. happier, b. probably thinner? or maybe the same idk, and c. definitely DEFINITELY poorer
18. What do you wish youād done more of?
read and write and watch movies and write and read about movies
19. What do you wish youād done less of?
Spending money and also being bitter about everything for no reason <ā last year and the year before that AGAIN and also same!
20. How did you spend Christmas?
working at AMC which i hated every second of :)
21. Did you fall in love in 2016?
yes with my amazing girlfriend @carrot-gallery
22. What was your favorite TV program?
silicon valley, AMERICAN VANDAL, the good place, great british bake off
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didnāt hate this time last year?
nah just politicians who like. actively want me to die lol
24. What was the best book you read?
bitch,
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
mitski like why the fuck did i sleep on her..... tbh thats about it bc i still listen to the same music i did 10 years ago
26. What did you want and get?
I wanted a steadier/better paying job and i have it!
27. What did you want and not get?
idk i wanted to be financially stable on my own and i still dont have that
28. What was your favorite film of this year?
ugh i hate this question! ok in no order: THE BIG SICK, GOOD TIME, A GHOST STORY, GET OUT, THE FLORIDA PROJECT
29. What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
uhhh having my sweet girlfriend by my side each and every dayĀ
30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2017?
sometimes chic, always sweaty
31. What kept you sane?
Sydney, my best friend in the entire world. (This was my answer from last year and the year before that and the year before that AND THE YEAR BEFORE THAT but it still holds true)
also everyone in the sv discord chat still AND natalie of course of course
32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
kumail nanjiani duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, taika waititi, and martin starr always and probably more but i legit cant think of anyone rn lol
33. What political issue stirred you the most?
yikes all of it. all of the issues (this was from last year but same lmao)
34. Who did you miss?
i miss my dogs and my family and my girlfriend
35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2017.
You can set goals for yourself and talk about it all you want but itās nothing until you actually start working towards it and doing something about it. <ā answer from last year and the year before that and the year before that, still true!! imma keep that. also idk just like, there are good days and super bad days and ive survived all of them so its just a reminder to myself that ill be okay.
36. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
These days will all seem better in time
Waiting on that hindsight
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alright so i apologize if this is random but i've been following you for a while and i've always noticed posts with the tag "for SCs" on them, especially since they're usually posts that i enjoy or are my aesthetic p much and from what i've gathered they're for a story? or a book? soooo i was wondering if you would want to like give a summary or smth? i'm a writer too, and obviously you don't have to if you don't want, but i'm curious ^-^
Omg bro (if u donāt mind me calling u that ;;0v0) u have made me giddy with excitement and felicity sending me this message :D
Those posts tagged withĀ āfor SCsā are indeed for a story idea I lumped into some shape during the summer. Altho creating a whole new universe and society rlly hurts my brain ;w; then school started so I didnāt have much time to sit down and mold the lump into a definite shape.Ā
I hope u donāt mind me posting this ask publicly becuz other followers might also be curious about the āfor SCsā tag. This will be under the cut cuz it might get very lengthy :0Ā
I apologize in advance for making u read probably an essay length?? Idk weāll see when Iām done.
The posts withĀ āfor SCsā are things that remind or give me inspiration for my story and its universe or characters. SC is short for Soul Creature, or Soultures as I also call them.Ā This idea actually first took form from my attempt to write a story back in 2015 I believe tho I never got far with it and completely forgot about it till I revived it in summer of 2016 :p
Plot-wise, tbh I feel like itās kinda cliched but I never thought too much on it as I focused more on building the universe and my characters. In this universe there are ppl who have something like a spirit animal that is made from their soul hence Soul Creatures (creative, huh). A SC is basically a piece of a personās soul with a distinct consciousness of its own that could manifest into a physical form. There are endless kinds of animals so I chose four groups to categorize them in for a type of SC a person would have.
The four groups are the Canines, the Felines, the Avians, and the Reptiles (i didnāt use reptilians cuz when i looked it up i didnāt like what the immediate results were LOL). Now in each group, there are four animals, from the most to least powerful in politics and social status in each group:Ā
Canines - Wolf, Fox, Coyote, JackalĀ
Felines - Tiger, Lion, Cheetah, Leopard
Avians - Owl, Eagle, Hawk, Raven (originally Vulture but I leaned more towards Raven)
Reptiles - Snake, Crocodile, Alligator, Lizard
These ppl with SCs also have magical powers altho I have yet to decide if they would do magic by wands, spells, charms, etc whatever (i still gotta do research). As the person has magic, when a SC manifests into their physical form, they donāt have the normal, physical bodies that mundane animals do. SCs donāt need to eat, drink, or sleep but some do for pleasure. They can still receive physical wounds but physical attacks fused with magic have more potency to harm than solely physical attacks do.
Now there is a fifth group and they are simply called the Ordinaries. They are regular ppl who do not have magic or a SC at all.
Becuz coming up with a new language is difficult, let alone new words, I came up with some terminology borrowing Latin words. For the Ordinaries, they are called Solitus (plural n. Solituses) and for those with SCs, they are Insolitus (plural n. Insolituses). I kid u not they are literally the Latin words for ordinary and extraordinary, respectively XD
Then there are the Ibridas and Half Breeds but weāll get to them after I explain more about SCs.
I wrote a list of facts about SCs before and with me being a lazy ass, will just copy and paste them onto here. 0v0
1) Each person is born with a SC
2) A SC is a part of their soul materialized in the form of an animal
3) A SC can communicate with their person from the moment they are born - the person is able to see their SC in their mind though their SC cannot physically manifest yet
4) A SC and their person already have an unbreakable bond that they can feel though that does not mean they know everything about each other yet - which is why SCs can communicate with their person from the moment they are born
5) A SC and person can speak telepathically whether the SC is in physical form or not
6) The person can use their SC's animal form
7) The biological sex of a SC does not reflect the personās own
8) The consciousness of both the person and SC can coexist in the animal form
9) Or the SC can be put into a type of slumber and the person has full control of the animal form
10) The SC cannot take control of the person's physical body
11) When the person is in control of their SC's animal form, their own body disappears in a flash of light and is condensed into a ball of energy that is absorbed into the SC's animal form until the person finishes using it
12) Physical contact is not needed for a person to transfer their consciousness into their SC's animal form
13) When a SC dies, their person will experience the manner in which their SC died, physically, mentally, emotionally - though they themselves will not die as the SC was only a piece of their soul and not the whole
14) When the person dies, their SC will die along with them unless a ST occurs - only those with great magical strength are capable of doing such a risk
15) A person will only have one SC their whole life but if one were to grow strong enough magically-wise, live long enough, or practice an act of taboo, they will be able to materialize more
16) SCs typically first materialize in physical form when their person is in great danger, they judge their person has grown strong enough, or when they feel like it
17) SCs are made from a part of their person's soul but they have their own distinct consciousness and personality
18) SCs can experience everything their person feels physically, emotionally, and mentally
19) A person is able to block off certain things that they would not want their SC to feel or know
20) As they have different consciousnesses, a person and SC cannot hear one another's direct thoughts unless they allow it themselves
21) When a person is born and as they grow, their SC may be already grown or they may also be juvenile and will age alongside their person
22) When an SC materializes the first time, their animal form may be mature or juvenile - it varies with each person, the person's own age does not affect the SC's physical maturity
23) SCs in their physical form are not the same as regular animals as they are also magical beings like their person
24) SCs can communicate with others, person or SC, when in their physical form though not telepathically - which can sometimes cause fright to people who are not aware they are in the presence of a SC and not a regular animal
25) SCs can travel around in their physical form without their person by their side - there is no limit as to how far they can go but their person will always know where they are no matter the distance, and vice versa
Coming up with the history of a new universe/civilization/society/whATEVER rlly hurts my brain but Iād like to state as a historical fact that centuries before, the four groups were at war over territory, wealth, etc blah blah and SCs were once merely treated as tools and weapons for war, disposable pawns in a game of chess. Only the second time writing this word but does Soulture not sound like soldier, hmmm?Ā :)Ā
However, things happened and changed and SCs were now treated equally and regarded as actual beings rather than mere weapons.Ā
Now here come the Ibridas and Half Breeds.
Ibrida is Latin for Hybrid. An Ibrida is someone who has a mixed Insolitus parentage meaning their parents have different SCs. EX: The mother has a Fox SC while the Father has an Owl SC.
It is considered taboo by all for two ppl with different SCs to bare a child. Why? Becuz there are fallouts. SCs reside within their personās mind when not physically formed and becuz I like to put angst and dark aspects in my stories, I made it so that Ibridas would have a life of suffering. When a person has a SC, they can see their SC in their mindās eye moving around and whatnot. For an Ibrida, they will typically inherit both types of their parentsā SC so have two different animals occupy their mind. The two different animals will never get along so there is conflict within the personās mind and soul. I chose the symptoms of rabies for Ibridas to display. Ibridas suffer with constant migraines and become aggressive and delirious. They end up going insane with the pain and become a threat to themselves and others.Their suffering usually drives them to take their own lives or have others take it.
Ibridas can be separated into two groups: with SCs and without SCs. Those with SCs are typically killed or locked up while those without are able to live a normal life. Like hybrid animals irl, Ibridas are infertile and cannot have biological children of their own. So itās impossible for a person to have a SC from each of the four groups. (Or is it? >:O lol jk idk probs not) Sometimes an Ibrida will only inherit one type of SC but it is often believed the second one will later appear unexpectedly in their life.
Half Breeds are ppl with one parent that is a Solitus while the other is an Insolitus. They have a 50-50 chance of inheriting their Insolitusās parentās SC and magic or not. Itās an all or nothing kinda deal.
There are some ppl with both Insolitus parents and have a SC but are magicless. I donāt have a term for them yet but in Harry Potter I think magical-born wizards with no magic themselves are called squibs?
As for the characters Iāve created for this story, there are a few.
Waylin Bixente-Solinix -- Aged 17-19. He is the adoptive son of the Bixentes but no one knows that except for his adoptive parents and biological ones. Solinix is the surname of his biological parents. He has a male Wolf SC named Silas (i might change the name) A reserved person who prefers his own company.
Yuuta Blackburn -- Aged 17-19. He has a male Tiger SC named Hiro. A friendly, gentle person. Tol. Has a younger sister.
Minji Blackburn -- Aged 8. Has a male Tiger SC, name undecided. Very precocious and aware for her age. (She woke af loool)
Sova Featherance -- Aged 16-19. Has a female Owl SC named Hazel. She doesnāt like to talk so Hazel speaks for her. Apathetic and listless. More lively at night. Cousin to Kotori, their mothers are sisters, they each take after their fathers so they donāt look related.
Kotori Lovewood -- Aged 17-19. Has a male Owl SC, name undecided. A total fucken flirt. Interested and attracted to Renard. :^)
Renard Ruxfury -- Aged 17-19. Has a male Fox SC named Conroy. A Tsundere, man. Snobby lil shit at first. Actually caring but doesnāt explicitly show it. Unsure what to do with Kotoriās advances towards him LMAO poor bab
Noel Sinwell -- Aged 60s. Has a male Lion SC named Oswald. They are agender even as the author idk what their biological sex is since I never decided and will keep it that way. Very kind and wise.
Delilah Perfuga -- Aged 16-18. Has a male Snake, name undecided. A snake. Thatās all Iāve got to say.
Adam -- ???? He is just a fetus in my mind. Havenāt thought anything else but his name loool
Oh boi, this took me a while to write and itās late so Iām tired af. I feel like I might have missed some things whoops. There isnāt rlly a plot yet becuz I wanna set the foundation of their universe and society first. But Iāve like thought about parts of it in my mind.
oH nice to meet u by the way Im AJ. Whatās ur name? :00
If u have any questions, aNYTHING, about this mess of mine donāt be afraid to ask. :ā))
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