#and i want to hate her so badly

[lebrookestore]

feelings are so complex

#its funny in a way yk #because like on one end of the spectrum theres this person that was supposed to be my best frien #but she ended up manipulating me and doing some really shitty things and will be all nice to my face but talk shit behind my back #and honestly she can be a terrible horrible person and has hurt another close friend of mine really badly #and i want to hate her so badly #and i think part of me does hate her because being around her now just drains me of my energy and i suck at being fake about people #but at the same time i loved her at one point bc she was my best friend and i cant just let that go?? #and she's going through a lot so i just feel sad for her #so like i cant hate her if im sympathetic and its just weird idk man #i want to hate her but i cant #like i feel awful ab the shit she's going thru but that doesnt excuse the crappy human being she's being but i feel like a bad person #holding her accountable for that bc of how much she's going thru and like why why WHY is it like this why is it not in black n white #then on the other end of the spectrum there are feelings that like im kind of terrified off but like #i underestimated just how easily those type of feelings can blossom #is this me talking about the L word? yes. 🧍🏻‍♀️ #i thought that falling in love per se would be like. way more work way more time etc etc #but apparently not? its oddly simply? but at the same time admitting it is like oh okay what #and therefore its like u gotta take time to figure yourself and it out and then like #like you dont really realize it until you're standing in the midst of it #man i dont even know what this post is lmfao 😭 i quite frankly dont even know what im saying right now i am just putting my thoughts out #into the abyss because i gotta put it somewhere #goodbye and goodnight now #brooke rambles

[lowvintagesims]

@funkiesims and i saw john mulaney last night and this is the front and back of the shirts we made for the occasion

#john mulaney hate is more than welcome in the replies #his set was remarkably unfunny #he’s always had questionable jokes about jewish people but how DARE this man use the phrase ‘jew me down’ #when his whole justification was haha my wife is jewish. like ok buddy #you cheated on her and got another woman pregnant robbing her of her child bearing years #left her for that other woman. put her in the hospital. all while you get to flit around being famous #his last bit was about how he thought his tour bus driver was an idiot redneck but that he was actually autistic #i hate him with my whole heart #i can’t believe there were people who paid $800+ to sit in the front #i planned to buy some of anna marie’s art of equal or greater value to the ticket price but everything on her website is sold out :/ #i want a print of dinner in march so badly #john mulaney #big mouth #textpost

[lobotomyladylives]

I think bpd is a bullshit stigmatizing label thrown at women to pathologize what is very obviously a response to prolonged childhood trauma and would be better labeled as C-PTSD. that being said my god I am bpd as fuck

#my sister just snapped at me bc i said i dont want to do a ton of physical labor for the job she signed me up for which apparently does i #in fact involve a lot of it. and her being mad for even that moment sent me spiraling so badly & i had the reaction i often do where #i start hating both her & myself terribly & want to isolate forever #i think she hates her new job & is taking it out on me but it doesnt matter bc i cant handle being yelled at #and the fact thst it took me till adulthood to realize thats bc i associate it with my father is crazy. yeah its just the cptsd like #everything else. and whats nutso is how i continue to think my trauma Wasnt Bad Enough for ptsd . #just bc he didnt beat the shit out of or molest me i feel like i dont even have a right to be this fucked up #not that it was only him. being bullied at school really did not help. i guess now that i think about it the problem is that until #i was a teenager i literally did not feel emotionally secure anywhere. home or school. always the ticking of a bomb in the bg #the inevitable moment my dad blew up over nothing or i overheard my peers talking about what a freak i was #i dont know why it still hurts to think about. im so far removed from it my life now couldnt be more different #well thats the stupid fucking thing about childhood isnt it. those are your very first experiences with the world & other ppl #i do know my view of romantic relationships was irrevocably poisoned by my parents & that is never going to be undone. so cool

[lollytea]

I get to write Willow and Amitys weird awkward friendship in this fic I'm so excited!!!

#its hard being both a willow lover and an amity liker #i LOVE to talk about how amity deeply affected willow's life for the worse #but i also love to talk about how amity has to live with that truth for the rest of her life #i love how amity continues to try because she loves willow #tries too hard even #i love how amity STILL continues to fuck it all up because shes so painfully awkward and guilty #and shes so busy trying to preserve a friendship that died years ago that she doesnt realize that she should be aiming to build a new one #because this is NOT the same girl that she knew #i love that amity still means so much to willow that she cant bring herself to get confrontational over the obvious infantilization #i love that willow is trying so hard too because she wants this to work out so badly #and she cant even admit to herself that this idealized friendship shes wanted back for YEARS is not everything she hoped it would be #i love both girls so much #it used to be a real struggle to talk about this because somebody with a hate bias towards amity always wants to chime in #and like okay fine sure you can hate whatever character you want im not gonna shame you for it #i just dont WANT to discuss one of my my favourite dynamics with people who hate one of the characters yknow? #theyre two teenage girls who love each other and theyre struggling to love each other properly but they want to #I LOVE THEM!!!

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[merchantarthurn]

sigh... sometimes i wanna put a ND headcanon on a high shelf away from people who seem to see Character Flaws and go "ah, it's because he doesn't understand social cues. criticism or irritation at his flaws is ableism".

no. no he just genuinely is conceited. he can also have the social cues issue but he's also conceited like textually. like it's not just 'socially awkward' to constantly talk down to someone or fucking. choose one of the lowest moments of a friend's life to go "well ahaha once again, this is why i didn't become a warlock. why didn't he sacrifice his immortal soul for a second time, age 24, like he did when he was 17 and was taken advantage of by a powerful demon? kinda sucks of him if you ask me" anyway i feel insane watching people talk about gale sometimes.

#he's a well written character but you want him soooo badly to be wyll and be an uncomplicatedly nice dude like pl e a se #like obviously you can like him despite his flaws. this kettle is vanta black i love the bloody vampire #this isn't even gale hate this is fanon-gale hate like you took a potentially interesting character is ignored the interesting part #ive seen people say people try and make astarion more wyll like and rightly criticise it but #people doing that with gale is ingrainnnned. #admittedly the wyll thing took me so aback i actually pulled an aghast face in real life #like shadowheart is taken aback but she's also Just Learnt about her parents and also isn't that judgemental #astarion fails to empathise with wyll's heartache but from a position of non-judgement #but argh man.

[wrymalfunction]

hystericaly and through tears heres how earth c could still win

#oh my god they killed the quality thanks tumblr ... #no hate to any sprites i just miss normal nepeta so badly its stupid! #im really happy with this actually look at her !!!!!!!!!!!!! #i guess this goes in my earth c au where i get to pretend any characters i want are there :) for fun !!!!!!! #my art #👍 whagever #nepeta leijon #jade harley

[lemongogo]

me admitting that i dont hate ast*rion after all .

#like him.even . maybe. #i just drew him and i was like teehee~kicks feet and giggles and thenni remembered who this was and #my face morphed in2 thousand yard stare guy #IM SRYYY IM SRRYYYYY #IM FALLIBLE !! #wat do u want from me. if its good taste in characters wwll. u r in tha wrong place . #though i do think its bc like . like tell me why he has 90x the content of anyone else #if i hear wyll say well met one more time im gna blow up our camp.IM SOOOz give me something anything pelase please #like he’ll have nothing for 30 long rests save for a line here or there #but astarion will just want to chat u up every night like can u equal it out please pls ❤️ karlach even . #anyways . i hate gale tho HATE GALE . GALE HATERRR ☝️☝️☝️☝️ #idk if its because i found him last or what but atp i dont care to get to know him #this game is legit saur fun . the exploration especially #like i spend 90% of my time opening every vase and crate and reanimating the dead on every1.talking to all the animalz #speak w the dead* i mean #also just rhe potential 4 the funniest mistakes ever #when auntie ethel disguised herself as mayrina in fromt of my eyes i didnt process it and killed her indtead of ethel HAHAAGAHAHAHAHHA #like the sjock of messing smth up so badly but u cant do shit abt it like ok!i guess ! #karlach pushing 1hp shadowheart in2 firepitcon accident and killing her . happy family❤️🫶 #bg3

[opens-up-4-nobody]

#i could add more but idk those seem like the worst. i hesitated to add karin bc her story is interesting and her actions make sense but #ya kno. for me its gotta b rin bc shes not even a character. shes a non entity. just a memory there to welcom obito into the afterlife #and i fucking hate that. but kushina comes in second for me. bc shes written as wanting to be hokage and then has to watch her husband #become hokage and then b happy abt it. that just feels mean. but. i mean. should the answer actually b sakura? #shes not even interesting as a character which is pretty bad. ok i think rin is the worst bc kishimoto forgot to make her a person #and then sakura for forgetting to give her literally anything interesting and useful to do. so much potential wasted #then kushina bc kushina is my baby girl #so so so much potential. oh god but theyre all so badly written. its an impossible question #naruto #naruto ramblings #polls

[akatsukitrash]

Not to be an Orochimaru apologist but the demonization of Orochimaru by the narrative/Konoha is just a way for them to erase the fact that Orochimaru was a victim of the state. Yes he experimented on children, but it never was bc he had “darkness in him even as a child” or bc he was a “born psychopath” or whatever other ableist bs. Orochimaru is a product of Konoha’s cruel war machine. They sent his parents to their deaths, left him an orphan with no psychological support, used him as a child soldier, sent him to war where he witnessed countless atrocities that shaped him to become the cruel, apathetic man we know now. He then had to watch his friend Tsunade mourn the deaths of her 12 YEARS OLD brother and her boyfriend. His disgust and fear of death literally come from the second handed trauma of seeing Tsunade cry over the mutilated body of her baby brother. It’s canon. Is he a cruel megalomaniac who grooms and tortures children? yes. Is he responsible for his actions? yes. But Konoha is responsible as well. They made him a monster, then they turned around and acted like he just woke up one day as a creepy crazy snake man, when it’s literally the result of decades of severe trauma and brainwashing. 

How do you expect a mentally unstable child thrown in a battlefield to react? Did they think he was going to grow up to be a nanny? He was taught to torture and kill. Why are they so upset about it? They have a Torture Department that operates in BROAD DAYLIGHT in Konoha. A good chunk of the beloved Yamanaka clan works there. Danzo kidnapped, groomed, brainwashed and experimented on countless children, but bc it’s for the village, it’s okay. Orochimaru is only evil because he hurts people for his OWN gain. That’s why they’re now fine with him in Boruto even though he still experiments on people. Now it benefits Konoha, so the fake morals they dredged up against him previously just vanish.

#orochimaru #anti konoha #anti hiruzen #orochimaru should've stayed a villain #he cannot be redeemed but them acting like its only bc his experiments didnt benefit the village irks me #dude had every right to want to destroy konoha lmao #where's that post where someone says that they shouldve maybe questionned why a founder of the village the student of a hokage and like #two other konoha shinobi wanted to destroy konoha so badly #its a hellhole #i like that orochimaru is almost completly apathetic and doesnt whine abt his backstory #but i wish the fandom at least still acknowledged that he became like that bc of konoha #not 'psychopathy' or whatever #honestly his character was ruined in shippuden #i miss part 1 orochimaru lmao #also wouldve loved a real fight between him and tsunade #but not bc tsunade wants to protect konoha or whatever i want her to beat him up to save the kids #i hate that the emphasis is on poor little konoha and not the children he tortured #anyway this has become an essay oof #naruto meta

[noahmrshall]

I. DON'T. HAVE. WORDS.

#HE'S FUCKING INSANE #THE WAY HE'S SMILING AND KISSING HER LIKE THAT FACT TURNS HIM ON EVEN MORE #AND VICKY?????? ''GOOD.....THAT'S GOOD'' SHES SOOOO TIRED OF PEOPLE SAYING SHE'S BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIS POWER/ESSENCE #SHE WANTS HIM INSIDE HER SO BADLY (IN MANY WAYS LMAOOOOO) SHE MISSES HIS ENERGY HIS ESSENCE #THEY ARE SO INSANE I HATE THEM #romance club #heaven's secret #malbonte #rc malbonte

[sagau-my-beloved]

I got Faruzan, and I also had elegy, I was going to use elegy on Venti but he has a r3 stringless that has high EM. I feel bad for giving her his bow I was trying to save for him, but the only reason I got her was to make him and Scaramoche stronger!

I hope he isn’t mad at me 🥲

😬😬😬

Mad probably isn't the right word, not like he could ever truly be mad at you of course, but maybe concerned fits better? You're not thinking of investing more into her than him right?

He's a bow user too! He's got wayyy more experience with a bow that she does you know. Ha, someone who claims to be a century old or so? Try 26+

And don't think he's forgotten about our dear Scara there, you're not thinking of switching over to the shiny new anemo user, right? Honestly, it's his element, he shouldn't be one to discard so easily

You're in the clear for now, of course your choices are always absolute and he respect them no matter what, but he might just have to prove how he can perform even better with a simple 4 star bow that that nice pretty decked out limited time 5 star one, you wouldn't bench him then right?

#genshin impact #genshin venti #sagau #venti x reader #genshin x reader #yandere genshin au #yandere genshin x reader #i got both of them too lol #completely out of primos now #i really want yanfei tho so i might still try for her when i save a bit if the banner isn't over by then #I can't express how badly I need a 5 star Bow rn #just one hoyo pls #I haven't even gotten a stupid bow billet to upgrade the one he's using now in an unreasonably long time #I've got like 3-5 of all the other weapon billet it's insane #I really think the game hates me I'll be honest #anyway almost done with finals eyyy #I'll be back in like 24 hours or so for real prob #luckily the finals weren't as strenuous as the midterms #I'm gonna have so much free time on my hands #I won't know what to do with it all

[novelconcepts]

Mari looking SO excited about the rifle. There’s a universe where she got to be huntress AND cook, and she is THRIVING.

#yellowjackets #mari #bless her she wants to be helpful So Badly #too bad for her the Wilderness is like ‘what’s the superpower you least want? congrats it’s yours now!’ #lottie hates her visions? tough kid you’re getting a whole religion built around them! #van doesn’t know why she’s still here? too bad! you get to be functionally immortal! #nat’s got mad trauma re: guns? gueeeesss who has the steadiest haaaaaand #I lowkey believe Mari actually fucking hates the kitchen #despises cooking. Will do literally any other chore if possible at home #so naturally she’s out here keeping their asses in what nutrients she can manage #yj rewatch

[abirddogmoment]

I totally get the temptation to power through a dog's health or behavioural issues just to finish a title but consider... not doing that...

#soooo many variations in the last couple days #'he hates the sport so much but he needs one more Q to finish his masters title' #'she's ten and getting sore so i want to put a champion title on her as fast as possible' #'yeah the venue makes him anxious but we spent so much on training i want to finish his novice title' #😬😬😬😬😬 #dont get me wrong I FUCKING GET IT #i have to retire my beautiful perfect dog in his prime from essentially everything he loves because hes broken in the spine #its heartbreaking and so tempting to just finish off that title #(for me it would be his CD and CDX - i so badly want to power through and finish his obedience titles) #(weve trained so much) #but is it fair? is it kind? #im a particular flavour of heartbreak over mavs upcoming end #and seeing this in my messages and in my facebook groups is just making me really bitter #(they arent from people im real life friends with - just people i know from dog shows and such) #“dogblr” #“dog training” #“dog sports”

[silenthillbunni]

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#1st ​my sister was passive aggressive bc i was boiling pasta when she wanted to make her dinner #so she slammed stuff nd chopped veggies aggressively #nd i felt my heart rate spike nd my body go tense nd i always get clumsy nd drop things nd hurt myself when i get that way #but they think i deserve feeling awful bc of mistakes in the past so i cant ask them to stop #i've been walking around w lots of heavy things nd im barely keeping it together #nd i got so mad bc she wouldnt stop so i started slamming the cabinets nd then left when i was done #then my mom nd other sister got home nd i just wanted to ask my mom smth #when i open my door my other sister goes 'omfg already?' #'immediately when we get home i never get a break. it's almost disgusting' #i just got so.. i realized how pathetic nd childish i am so i just went into my room #but then apparently my sister said to mom that *i* was the only one being passive aggressive #so she comes in to talk when i was having my dinner so i said that i plz just wnna eat my dinner #she didnt know nd she's never cared but i wanted to hurt myself so badly i was struggling not to #but then she started screaming at me for being childish nd passive aggressive nd that i never do anything #she left my room. she still talks to my sisters so i know it's onlg me shes sick of #idk.. today is bad bc i cant talk to her nd i dont have ANYONE else to talk to im all alone #and now i barely even wanna go outside my room bc apparently my family thinks i wnna mess w them just for going to the bathroom lmao #i hate myself so much. im so pathetic. im 25yrs old living at home being a burden #nd im just a pathetic nd childish person. i 'need' to talk nd vent nd rant nd #like if i buy some things i have these need to like do a mini haul or if i get books from the library #i wnna show my mom what books i got #it's so childish. i do feel bad for my mom to have to deal w me nd my annoying personality #why cant i jusy be normal. no wonder why i can never keep friends or my family doesnt wnna talk to me. everything abt me fkn sucks #anyway im just feeling so bad and so alone bc my moms mad at me so now i have no one to talk to

[bamboozled-distress]

why is there so much hate on poppy 😭 god forbid a woman do anything

#poppy is literally my favourite character i might have an unhealthy crush on her #AND I GO ON TIKTOK AND WHY DOES EVERYONE HATE HER GUYS #‘she ruined the songs’ #‘branch deserves better’ #‘the her and viva subplot in trolls shouldve been erased’ #‘poppy never learns the lesson she’s just so annoying to branch’ #‘poppy gets on my nerves so bad hope she dies in the next movie’ #WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS #‘i pretend trolls world tour doesn’t exist bc it doesn’t go with the trollsverse at all it’s the worst trolls movie ever’ #WHY ARE YOU HATING ON THE LESBIAN TROLLS MOCIE #POPPYS CHARACTER DEVELOPMEMT IS SO COMPLEX SND SO INTRESTING SHES LOVABLE AND WITH HOW SHE WAS RAISED OBVIOUSLY SHE WOUKD HAVE A HARD TIME #COMPREHENDING THE ABILITY TO HELP IN OTHER WAYS!!!!! THE WAY THAT BEING QUEEN HAS BEEN HARD ON HER AND HER DEVEKOPEMT OF BEING A GOOD QUEEN #IS LITETALLY THE BEST THING EVER WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU #plus why would you want to get rid of the poppy lore #like king peppy gets more fucking terrible in each movie you can’t look me in the eye and say you weren’t excited to see how badly he could #fuck up now #he’s powering himself up every mocie to become the ultimate villain in the last trolls movie guys #trust me. im right #i love poppy so much why is everyone being so mean to her #that’s very lesbophobic actuallg #trolls #poppy #laz.exe