#and i'm just gonna publish it bc whatevs lmao

[hackedmotionsensors]

i didn't reblog the post but I do agree that the terminology for zines has gotten completely twisted.

ON THE OTHER HAND I don't think that selling them for say 20$ (which is what i sell my sketchbooks for) is unreasonable or unfair to still call a zine. I need to cover my costs of printing and the time I put into putting them together. yeah I can TECHNICALLY get a printer and print them myself but with the cost of printer ink and the lack of space its easier for me to just pay for someone to do it professionally but I'm also NOT making them at like....the HIGHEST QUALITY, LIBRARY BOUND, HARD COVER, IT COMES WITH A THOUSAND DOO DADS AND GIFTS. its just sketchbooks ofpreviously existing doodles and a few new sketches or sketches that I had before and colored in. Its essentially like selling a full print but in carryable size with some notes from me.

Its a zine but I call it a sketchbook because the idea of zines has changed for a lot of consumers. Thats not their fault bc those zines or anthologies DID start out in the "lets make a big ol book together because we are all horny for Reigen" kind of thing. A lot of times they're projects made from passion. I HAVE noticed that there's been a turn in the whole process of making them that both stresses out artists, requires kickstarters, and all sorts of shit that should be considered Artbooks. ARTBOOKS have always been on the higher end of things. There's nothing wrong with considering an anthology thats proper bound, and for a certain amount on a kickstarter you get extra things like stickers, charms, whatever.

But zines SHOULD go back to being simple little things. The cost to buy them shouldn't be lost UNLESS the artist wants it to be. If you print at home or using a schools printer and just print a bunch of cute little zines yourself then that should also exist and you can set your price point for whatever you want.

Its all semantics and personal preference at the end of the day but I do think that...yknow it wouldn't hurt if we could start calling the big project 50$ range books that often get run into the ground from bad leadership (or fun stuff like the organizer of the thing runs off with the money to play genshin) ...something other than zine. Like Artbook or Anthology. Or even Collection lol

Zine should be a small thing that you collect for fun and doesn't require a committee, a new discord channel, and a contract to make sure your organizer doesn't run off to play gacha (I'm sorry it still makes me laugh)

ALSO another thing about zines is that often times they were originally made to be alternatives to really closed minded book sellers. Like...its where a lot of the OG star trek fanfic/porn came from. Its a place to have your ideas put down. To explore narratives. Essentially Doujinshi can also be considered A TYPE of zine in that it literally means self published (not NECCESSARILY that its...yknow...bl or waifu porn lol Sometimes its just manga that artists put out before they can get published)

But lately there are a lot of zine projects (again...more actually like anthologies or art collections) that are REALLY REALLY closed minded even when the subject is SHIPPING.

So even the nature of CREATING the zines has changed a lot.

So yeah I agree with that post that I forgot to reblog. My only REAL gripe is that it doesn't mean that you should undercharge your work because you didn't print your zine at home or hand craft it like a youtube diy video. I did enough of that at art school I am not gonna bind a book or try to cut pages ever again if i don't have to lmao. CSP even has a zine preview so I can see the pages in 3d as if they were bound before printing lol

[sipsteainanxiety]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love ❤

i was tagged by @coopigeoncoo @andypantsx3 @willowser and @namodawrites to do this lil self fic rec game and after finally sitting down to think about it for a very... long... time... i have done it! thank you all for the tag i kiss you each on the forehead and give you a bowl of sliced fruit<3

after looking at all the wips i have in docs right now, i can definitely say that this list would be completely different if i had finished a few of them, but for now this is my ranked list for things i've published already lol

devil's glare — demon!bkg x reader

bakugou katsuki is a powerful demon that you have the pleasure of dating. but when he pisses you off one day, you decide to get back at him in a pretty petty way: drawing a salt circle around you to force him to apologize 

i had THEE most fun writing this one shot LMAO. it was based on a tiktok of all things that i'd found back when i was still on the app pfft. i just loved the idea of bkg being all surly and aggravated that his little human had purposely drawn a salt circle to prevent him from encroaching on their space. and like... him dealing with wanting to idk kiss you so bad but you're trying to teach him a lesson and he's sooooo mad and fuck, he's gonna do whatever he can to get you to comply to him lmao. if i could draw, there's this one scene where you're wearing this like. cute little set of pjs staring up at this big ass demon, wings unfurled threateningly, snarl on his face, arms crossed with a line of salt in between the two of you. like i have a vision. too bad i can't draw it LMFAOO. maybe one day

2. holding out (just for you) — dragon!bkg x reader

in which you find a horrendously injured dragon in a cave and make it your duty to heal him, not knowing that he’s the infamous dragonshifter, bakugo katsuki, who has been cursed to remain trapped in his dragon form forever—unless the spell is broken

this fic... oh boy. i've been working on this fic since mmm 2021 i think? i can't believe it's been a year since the big bang LMFAOO. i also can't blv this shit evolved from being a standalone to having 3 spinoffs and a sequel but well. here we are. complaints aside i really do have fun writing this fic!! i dunno!! i dont think i'd ever read a dragon bkg fic before and i was like fine i'll do it myself and this happened. i added way too much plot and you guys don't even know about half the worldbuilding and shit i have planned for the sequel HAHA. i can't even talk about it bc it would be major spoilers rn rhrsfjhrjfrjrhjg. it's also been giving me such a rough time lately pfft, especially with having to make sure everything lines up for the spinoffs n stuff. im so afraid of publishing ch4 and having to go back and tweak things bc i havent planned out far enough sdkjfsjkdf. i think it just means i'm gonna have to go on a hiatus or smthn and write out all the spinoffs + ch4 at once idk

3. and i give my all (to you) — merman!bkg x reader

you think you bit off more than you could chew when you decided to do your dissertation on ocean acidification, leaving you stranded out in the open ocean. alone. for months. well… maybe you weren’t so alone after all

this is another fic that i've been working on way longer than it's been posted for pfft. i can't blv the first chapter was released over a year ago LMAOOO i am so sorry. i do like this fic tho bc it's one of the easier ones to write and i go back to it sometimes between writing for dragon bkg lol. like i have the chapters all mapped out, all i have to do is sit down and write em. ch2's at abt 3k rn tho and i hit a spot where i'm like oof i dont wanna write these descriptions dfhdkfg it's just a silly goofy story with merbaku and dealing with some of the subtle intricacies of getting to know a mermaid. actually, fun fact, this originally started off as a fic for jotaro from jjba, back when i was in my jjba era. but then i went back to my bkg era and switched it over. i didn't even have to change much LMFAOO jotaro and bkg act the same sometimes. also!! this is the first fic where i'm like... drawing little doodles for each chapter!! and it's so nice but also i'm like damn wtf do i draw for the rest of these chapters.... i'll figure it out ig

4. loving all the parts of you — pro hero!bkg x reader

in which you learn to love all the prickly parts that make up bakugou katsuki

i.. don't think i've thought about this fic for a very, very long time. but i just scrolled thru the masterlist and stuff and i... really liked writing it (when i was focused on it anyways). it's one of my gentler fics tbh. it's more of a character study of bkg, exploring a different aspect of him in each chapter. tbh i need to go through and reread it and make edits so it can better match the writing style i have now, but i rly liked thinking abt what would make bkg tick as a pro and as a person. and tbh, with what i know now of the manga and anime i think i could go very deep with it pfft. also the banner i made for this fic is so cute LOL. it's not high on my priority list rn bc i have other things i wanna work on, but i do hope to return to it one day.

5. forget me not — pro hero!bkg x reader

When you first woke up, you found yourself in a white room, lights blinding you from all directions. A bit disoriented, you squinted and looked around, realizing you were chained to a chair, your arms locked behind you. In front of you was a poster of a man, muscles rippling throughout his body, a spiky mess of ash blond hair nestled on his head, and striking crimson eyes glaring right at you from behind a black mask. In the upper right corner was the name “DYNAMIGHT” in black and orange letters. As you observed the poster, the sound of a P.A. system suddenly rang into existence, the deep, hoarse voice of an unknown person echoing around you. “Your name is [Name] [Surname],” the voice said without emotion, “and you hate the man named Bakugou Katsuki.”

THIS FIC... THIS FCKIN FIC. i have so much i can say about this fic and i am so sorry for the oncoming ramble pfft. firstly, it's both my baby and my number one fucking enemy. like, holy shit i think it gave me the most paralyzing anxiety and bc of this it took me like 3-4 years to finish (apart from being generally busy of course). i started it literally while i was in high school n applying to college, so of course there are aspects of it that i look at now and i'm like mmm don't like that. not to mention there have been so many things that happened in the anime/manga that i wasn't able to add or delve deeper into!! like the war!! bkg's fcking trauma!! midoriya's quirks!! i was an anime only when i first started releasing chapters (and i still am), so i didnt know about the endeavor agency arc or anything so i defaulted to shit with best jeanist and idkidk.

if i could rewrite all of fmn, i think i would. or maybe not all, but a good chunk of it. like i'd condense the first few chapters probably. i also have a different grasp of bkg's characterization now compared to when i was younger lmao. putting bkg in that specific circumstance (iykyk, i wont spoil it) only happened bc of certain outside factors that forced him into that position. which was how i was able to justify it. but... idk. IDK!! this fic had so many things to it that i was not knowledgeable about so i winged a lot of things without doing proper research (i.e. hospitals, police investigations, general bureaucracy and whatnot) and i feel like this has caused certain plot holes that i am not able to detect, but like.... it's been so long already that i'm too lazy to fix it.

i just really wanted to write about having amnesia but... still having this muscle memory and ache of the person you were in love with. that you can fall in love with them all over again. but, jeez, i put the reader through so much that there's so much... trauma and brainwashing and just rhhrhjrkhrhgrkjg. she's a mess and a half!! and this makes it so difficult to read fmn bc she's so frustrating!! but! at the same time idk it was interesting exploring that kind of ptsd and recovery. i think at my core i love writing about truly heartwrenching topics and horror. i rmb i had the most fun writing about reader's nightmares or that one chapter where she was messing around with illusions. actually- one of the things i would change is the reader's fckin quirk and hero name LMAOOOOO what the fuck i made her so op i basically just smashed together dr strange's and wanda's powers for her pfft. i'd also tweak her personality a little, i think.

i digress. anyways. im in the process of editing all of fmn (just like. writing tweaks. changing the phrasing of certain sentences. adding more fluff to descriptions) and i can really see how much my style has evolved lol. like, i am the most happy and proud of the later chapters, where you can really feel certain emotions with bkg and reader. like... the beach scene, or the stakeout scene, or the party scene!! i think i would also add more substance to the investigation and how being a hero is like post-war. the antagonists as well!! there's just so much that could've been built on, but at the same time... i didn't want to go too deep into it bc i was writing an amnesia recovery story.

flaming aside, i am very glad i was able to pull those plot twists successfully LOL. i loved reading people's theories back when i was still updating it, seeing them question things and being like wait a minute... no way... it can't be... it was an era i will never forget pfft. but... because of that expectation i think i was very nervous to reveal specific things or even write the ending bc i didn't know if people would be satisfied lol. fmn was so complicated and for what sdfkjhs. fanfic shouldnt make you this anxious fr and yet there i was. i'm glad im done with it, but at the same time.. i do miss it.

tldr: fmn is the fic that i am the most proud of but also the most insecure LMFAOO. i do eventually want to get to the extra chapters from bkg's pov for it but... idk. i don't wanna even look at it right now sdhfskdfjsf

thank u all for coming to my ted talk B) i'm sorry if u've been tagged alr in this but here we go anyways!! no pressure tags: @earthtooz @call-me-ko @thecatduet422 @boo-kugo @theloveinc <3

#jeez that fmn ramble rly is long but it is what it is #i could go on even more about it ngl #but i wont sdkhksdf #gamer girling w shay

[aft3rhrs]

ari i wish you didn't have to explain yourself to that anon :( they're being inconsiderate and they shouldn't have done that. no one should ever make you feel obligated to tell you to publish anything in time. people really have to understand that we're all just human beings who have tons of shits to sort out in real life behind this hellhole. so what if ari promised to post a fic tomorrow but can't make it? life happens! shit happens! and the least you could do is not harass her bcs who are you to demand something from someone who literally writes for free? 😔

ari, i'm very sorry for any unfortunate events you went through in your life. truly my heart breaks a little when you said you're using your brother's phone to post an update. bcs you absolutely don't have to do that but you did because you're you, literally the embodiment of selfless and kindness. and i appreciate that so much T^T i hope everything will get better soon, i know it will be! honestly i'm so glad and thankful you're still around despite having a rough time here and there. i really love seeing you interact with your people here! hopefully you're doing okay, please take care <3

bonus koo pics to brighten your day 🔆

tbh now that I'm thinking about it, I don't remember setting any release dates for anything so I don't even know what they're talking about 😭 I literally don't do that, because I know my mental health, and sometimes I can focus on one fic, then I get stuck and need to write something else. or I need a break altogether. so I don't make any promises! the most I'll say is "guys, it's almost finished/it's going well/hopefully tomorrow/I will try". but as you pointed out, shit happens even if you do make solid plans or promises. I know ai is popular right now, but I'm a person not a writing machine, just like all the other authors here ☠️

nooo baby :( it's okay 😭❤️ this is his older phone, so I can keep it! and trust me it's an upgrade for me ☠️ I've started classes and proper therapy and I'm getting back into the swing of things in baby steps 🥹❤️ it will be okay, it's just not a short or easy journey, but it will be all good 🫂

I was feeling annoyed and so discouraged lmao but it doesn't even matter anymore, I'm doing much better today. 🥹 literally everyone else manages to be decent and respectful, all my moots and the rest of my readers... because they also are human beings with lives and shit happens 🥹 so I'm not gonna be bothered by a few anons, whatever 😭☠️

please thank you guys and thank you so much honey, you have no idea how much I appreciate you 🥹 thank you for bearing with me and supporting me and letting me share this space with you. as long as I'm enjoying writing, and you guys are around, I may be slow 🐢 but I'm not going anywhere ❤️

I hope you're doing well too baby and taking care of yourself always <33333

#ugh tysm i love him and ily 🥺

[andthebubbles]

Character Development Questions ask game

A simple 2 + 3. 😌

(for this ask game thing)

i hear i had a choice to do this for a/b!anthony and/or canon!anthony but lbr everyone knows canon!anthony (for these two questions esp (in hindsight i realised that some of the other questions listed might be interesting for canon!anthony bc they're kinda headcanon-ey)) and canon!anthony isn't really... mine per se, SO.

this is for a/b!anthony! :3

2. What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

With Violet: I think he liked her, I mean he (atm) last saw her when he was 2 years old. And he's her firstborn, so. She probably spoiled him a healthy amount :P But then when Benedict was born, she probably paid him more attention for a while so Anthony went through a (imo) very natural jealous stage

ETA: after he meets her again and she realises who he is, I think she's just gonna smotherrrr him with affection and not want to let him out of her sight, and he's just gonna be like, uhhhh (and... etc, lost as well, and... lots more things I haven't considered yet bc i'm not up to it. but he's ... probably gonna be so angry at his adoptive parents for a while? but he also doesn't really have anyone to turn to, exactly? like, he hardly knows violet, and him and benedict are... also going through it...... in a different way.................. lmao)

With his adoptive mum... who iirc I am calling Jo??? I haven't even written her yet bc I haven't got up to her or written the flashbacks haha: I think he really loves her. And she really loves him. (This is before he finds out that they (she and his adoptive dad) kinda hid him from his real parents.)

Ummm I think she took care of him really well when they were on the ship, she was the cook so... I think she had him in the kitchen with her, and once he stopped being upset about his real mum and dad/forgot about them, he started helping out. And his mum also sorta picked up recipes from the different countries they travelled to and started cooking different cuisines because Anthony tried food from whatever country they docked in and then decided that he wanted more of that when they left (e.g. he likes Indian food).

I think the day he forgot his real parents and called her mum, she would've been really happy. (This is after they tried to return him to Edmund, but Edmund got the note too late of where the ship would be docking on the way to finally leaving England for a few years, so from Anthony and his adoptive parents' perspective, Edmund didn't want him because he didn't show up, so his adoptive parents were quite angry/upset for him/'well we'll take care of him then!' and Anthony ofc was distraught when Edmund didn't turn up to take him home (because it's just further proof that they didn't want him/preferred his new baby brother (happily, he kinda forgets this trauma, but he gains a fear of abandonment :P)))

I think Anthony finds out fairly soon that his mum is trans (like when you're all sleeping in one big room (I presume) in hammocks, and Anthony is probably sharing a hammock with his mum, welllll) but he doesn't realise until he's 5 or 6 that if both his (adoptive) parents are biologically male, then he must be adopted

Ummm. When he realises that his parents have this goal of saving enough money so that they can stay in England permanently and have a shop (that sells art supplies), he starts working on the ship (when he's about 7 i think)

(Somewhere along the way, the art shop idea evolves... because they're trying to make it profitable, and Anthony's adoptive dad is an artist (painter (for the ships) originally) so it becomes a publishing company for children's books mainly, with illustrations by his dad)

His mum is good with money. And hmm maaaybe with languages too since they're translating some of the fairytales from different countries by themselves. But I'm not sure about that yet. I haven't really thought about it because I haven't gotten up to it :P But yeah his mum IS good with money/business-minded/kinda ends up running the shop

Iirc I think I said somewhere in one of the earlier chapters that she's the best out of the three of them re sailing/rowing and Anthony learnt both of those things from her (and from other people on the ship ofc)

At some point when they're back in England, his mum sees the ~missing posters for Anthony Bridgerton with a reward if he's found, and she (and his dad) know that he's a Bridgerton (because 2y/o Anthony told them) but ofc Anthony has since forgotten. And since there's a monetary reward for finding Anthony, plus Edmund didn't show up all those years ago, his mum's just like, we are NOT giving up our son for money/to people who don't even really want him!!!

Later on, Anthony starts asking questions about his biological parents, and his mum says they adopted him from an orphanage in London as a baby and that his real parents didn't want him (1/3 true (from their perspective) lol). And later when they're living in England permanently and Anthony starts looking for info on his biological parents in the orphanages, she gets kinda pissed off/scared about it/scared he'll find out he's a Bridgerton somehow, so Anthony learns not to tell her about it (or his dad) and continues looking in secret

Re Anthony going to Harrow, I... think it was probably his mum who was very determined that he get a good education. Like, to her, education is important, and she kinda instilled that in Anthony. (I think Anthony must've had some lessons from someone educated on the ship, maybe a passenger, orrrr... huh idk, HUHHHH no i just had a thought, maybe his mum is a bit more on the middle/upper middle class side than working class?? but she (well, probably he* at that point) wanted to marry a working class guy so her family disowned her, maybe... ANYWAY (that could work actually!! Basically I need Anthony attending Harrow on a scholarship))

(just gonna say that upper middle class people (or middle class people) from places that aren't london/kent/(bath?) don't know/haven't heard of the bridgertons~)

Anywayyyy, so re Harrow, because his mum was so keen for him to attend, he doesn't tell her he's getting bullied. I am not sure if he holds it against her....... because he knows that this is important too. Hmmmm. Idk

Anyway. Fast forward to Oxford. He does love her. And thennNNNNN when he finds out he's a Bridgerton (and that she didn't tell him he's in a relationship with his biological brother when he introduces Benedict to his family HAHAHHkfjdhfkkfkgf but like, how can you tell that without giving the entire thing away? skjngkSJDNKGJ)

3. What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

With Edmund: idolised him, just like in canon. Idk why but I headcanon lots of piggyback rides/lil Anthony sitting on his shoulders skfjgnk. (maybe it was mentioned in the book? iirc it was?? hskjfkf) And... Edmund trying to teach him things like how to be a good person/a gentleman even when he was like, 2 years old, and them spending a lot of time together. And then Benedict is born and Edmund is a bit busy with him for a while, naturally, so then Anthony gets kinda clingy with him/wanting more of his time again. Normal stuff imo.

I think... maybe the day he lost (?) Anthony/Anthony went missing, ... I have written a bit of this, but I got bored lol, so maybe I should change it, but they were kinda near the docks looking at the (at the time) biggest ship built so far, or at least, just a very big ship. Maybe Anthony had a ship phase and Edmund indulged him :3

With his adoptive dad who I STILL haven't named skjfngkfg: he's a painter for the ships, which is why he (and Jo) was even at the London docks (because the London docks don't take passengers afaik...). Anyway, Anthony obviously loves him too. They're just really nice people?? Apart from the whole... sorta stealing Anthony bit... lol

Umm so yeah he starts out as a painter but he draws/paints/watercolours on the side, and he's very chill. Once they get the shop in England, he can like, lose daysss in the studio just painting something.

Idk why but I feel like he's painted lil Anthony's face before like you do with kids, where they get like a tiger's face, and then Anthony goes around pretending to be a tiger for a day

(I think when they go fishing, they go as a family (all three of them))

I feel like his adoptive dad's a bit more chill about Anthony asking about his biological parents (his mum's more like, omg stop asking!!) but still also guarded.

Anyway, yeah! I don't have much about him yet apparently SKJDNKGJFKG

ETA: Anthony is probably gonna resent his adoptive parents later for... well, several things lmao, but probably the main thing will be for... well, lying to him, not so much keeping him from his real parents. After all he doesn't know them. But he hates that he was lied to :( (Also maybe there'd later be some regret that because he was lied to, he never got to talk to/get to know Edmund?)

Thank you for the ask!! This was really fun 💙

#suspendingtime #a/b fic #a/b!anthony #fic talk #ask game #might add more if i think of more

[cordeliawhohung]

Hi! I'm reading Soft Spot rn and it is everything!!! I just read Death of Me pt 2 and I adore the way Johnny meddles and even got Spook (SUCH an amazing nickname btw???) to dance w/ him for answers 😭

You are so enormously talented, I can't even function. I love the way you've given the reader her own backstory and how flawless your interpretation of Simon is. Everything about this series is gold, I swear! I could literally write a paper on this. I love how protective he is, and how in spite of his silence he shows so much love. Dunno if you've ever mentioned this before bc I'm new to your blog, but if you ever publish a book? Please let us know asap haha 🙏🏼💖

(this story has got me smiling like a fool, my cheeks HURT)

Sorry for rambling, I hope you have a good day/night!

hello i'm gonna cry??? this is so sweet???

i'm so glad you're enjoying it! it's been a passion project of mine that i've been pouring more effort into than i probably should lmao. and ah yes, that part! loved showing Johnny and Spook interacting with one another, both just so worried for Simon and each other and ugh. and i did a lot of studying on Simon's character to try and make him realistic as possible a;djklf

it's been a dream of mine ever since i was a kid to be published! unfortunately i've spent most of my time writing fanfiction rather than like, actually working on anything original lmfao. i've been working on a story for ages though that i may one day get published, but who knows! it'd be neat though!

thank you so much for your message though! i love hearing people's thoughts, and don't apologize i'd be interested to listen to whatever you have to say <3 (this story is literally my baby i will talk for ages about it and have already planned to do a whole dissection of it once it's finished lmao)

i hope you have a wonderful day/night as well <3

#core responds #soft spot #like i will literally talk about this series forever #until i die #and it's just a silly cod fic lmao

[vodid]

MORE QUESTIONSSSS

Sooo, first one is, what advice do you have for aspiring writers and artists that follow you? Follow your passion, practice a lot, don’t get distracted, etc?

What’s the best part about being an author and a writer? The satisfaction when you finally finish a piece, or when a lot of people like and share your artwork and book?

Do you read any fanfictions? I’m wondering because I’ve almost ran out of good Prowl/Jazz fanfictions and I want more to cure my need for cuteness and angst with those two 🤲

Do you listen to music when you write/draw? If so, what kind of music, or does it depend on the scene when your writing/drawing. It definitely depends on what I’m writing at the moment to determine the music lmao

Will you ever make your Obsidian King fanfiction into a little series? Like after you’re done the first one with Prowl and Jazz whenever, will you plan on doing one with like Bluestreak and a love interest and how that would all play out? Or is the Obsidian King just a standalone?

Have you ever cried when you were writing your books? The Obsidian King, Vulnerability or otherwise? I cried during Vulnerability :( poor Bumblebee man and I relate to it so much too! Like, I absolutely love your writing in both because it feels as if I’m actually there, y’know?

Do you plan on continuing to learn German despite when you finish your Vulnerability fanfiction one day and only need a bit of German for it? I find it cool to learn German! I’m learning French at the moment, but I’m thinking about learning German after.

ANYWAYS, too many questions, I have more though. I was planning to send this before you woke up at some point, but then I had to go to a doctors appointment and I ran out of data unfortunately. Can’t wait to hear your answers if you respond to this!

hello anon <3

advice for aspiring artists/writers? you hit the nail on the head lol gonna preach the three P's i told myself and others years ago: practice, patience and passion. when you're a growing artist (which you always will be) you need to have patience with yourself as you navigate through the mistakes and learning curves as you practice. the passion keeps you motivated. if you don't have that passion and patience, you might have a hard time with the practice and growth

best part of being a writer? short answer: i love getting comments that analyze my work. long answer: i have been trying my best to focus less on the end product and its reception when it comes to writing, much like my art. this can even lead back to the first question: i personally believe you should not focus most on those things, but the process more. the things you learned, the steps you took, the parts that felt therapeutic for you. that's what should be the best part. (but ofc, i do love the comments i get on my writing and it certainly makes it feel even more worth it. analyses on my writing? THE best.)

j/p fanfic recs most of my favorites come from beloved rizobact. winner takes all and crystal ghosts are my favs from her. it's been a long time since i read this one, but domino milkshake was a fun one as far as i remember. if you've already exhausted those, the j/p zine just published some fics ',:)

do you listen to music when you draw/write? lot of times, i focus best with no music or a single song on repeat. tho i don't like the silence as much, it's quite boring. i like to have something so i'll either listen to music or put on a youtube video, usually mark or jack, sometimes reaction videos from other youtubers. i don't usually switch up what i'm listening to based on what i'm writing bc most times, it's the music that determines the art but it's not the biggest influence. i tend to listen to whatever my neurodivergent brain decided to attach to that week ...or month. rn, i'm still working through exhausting a german playlist and "rising kingdom" (yes, the minecraft song lol)

will obsidian king be a series? this is the plan as i realize i may not be able to juggle the various stories all in one fic (i'm sure i could but the way i had started the obsidian king wasn't the right setup for it) the next one i want to tackle after j/p is megoplita's story. from when they all first fell in love to the beginning of the autobot-decepticon war. bluestreak and the twins may not get their own story for a long while, if at all, since i do not have anything figured out post-war.

have you ever cried while writing a fic? not any of my current ones, no. but i have cried writing you are my flower iirc and infinity (i took prowl's death HARD, man.) vulnerability does hit home with me since it's just pure projection with bumblebee, a lot of it was actual sensations and thoughts i've experienced, but it was more therapeutic than upsetting for me. take care of urself anon <:)!

do you plan to continue learning german after you finish vulnerability? hell yeah, i hope to! i don't have a solid end goal going into this, because i highly doubt i will reach any sort of fluency, but it will always be a fun and interesting thing to learn. if i did have to give myself a goal, it would be to write a fic in german to test my knowledge! but for now, it's mostly just keeping my brain busy and engaged with something new

u can always drop more questions if u want <3

#vulnerability fic #obsidian king au

[gaypiratebrainrot]

Hello! Just wanted to drop in and say, you gotta create what feels right to you! I hope you get the support you need and are able to avoid any nay-sayers. Fanfiction is meant to be exploratory and diverse. You're so very talented and have already given the fandom a really beloved story. I really hope you can lean in to whatever is making you feel creative right now. If you ever want to talk about it, I'm also having some fear about a long young izzy/young ed fic that I'm really proud of. But I'm legitimately terrified to publish bc folks are ruthless hahaha anyways, hope you have the support to figure out what's right for you <3 good luck!

hi! thank you so very much for this sweet message!

the irony of this situation is that i so deeply believe in fan fiction as a space without creative limits, and i'm deeply committed to following my creative instincts wherever they may take me. the first two fic i wrote for this fandom were you make me feel, which is straight up fluffy smut, and then ink, which is also fluffy smut but is about ejaculating squid ink lol. of the two, you make me feel has a lot more traffic, but in my opinion, ink is a much, much better/more creatively interesting fic. after publishing ink, i promised myself i would chase what i find creatively interesting and not what i think the biggest audience will appreciate.

which is why it was so surprising to me when does the body good blew up, because it was a complete accident that the audience for it was so big. aside from it being a solidly-written piece of silly smut, there's no izzy, there's no calico jack, and there's none of the angst of eps 9/10, just the good ol' OTP mutual pining and touching each other. but i didn't write it because i thought a lot of people would like it. i wrote pretty much exactly what i wanted to read, and it was pure chance that so many other people wanted to read it too.

so, really, this is just a challenge for me in sticking to my promise to myself to write whatever i want regardless of what my audience thinks, and is challenging at this moment primarily because i accidentally picked up a much larger audience with the last thing i wrote. but all of this anxiety will ultimately be beside the point, because i'm definitely going to finish writing and publish this new fic anyway, and i'm also gonna stand by it if/when people scold me for it (or engage respectfully with legit criticism, if appropriate).

i so very much hope you do publish your young ed/young izzy fic!! for any piece of art, there will pretty much always be haters. even tho so many people loved dtbg, there were still some folks who didn't like it for one reason or another. and that's really okay! it's impossible to make a piece of art for everyone. what i tell myself every damn day: it's okay for some people to not like me or my art. it is, in fact, a perfectly normal part of being a human. there are just a lot of us, and we have a lot of opinions lmao. put the art out into the world anyway!

#asks #my ongoing psychological fight to become fully creatively empowered

[posi-pan]

BaB's lionization of *Anything that Moves* is both hilarious and infuriating. On one hand, the zine and its publisher (y'know the Bay Area Bi+ and *PAN* Network) are blatantly pro-pan, and it's really weird that they think it's not. On the other hand, it seems like they've kind of succeeded in associating AtM with their movement, and it really sucks bc it's such an important piece of bi history and they stole from the large bi community *again* like they did with the armory.

controversial opinion but i don't think the bi manifesto is as important as people make it out to be.

before anyone clutches their pearls, let me explain. (this is a long rant that honestly has little to do with your message anon, so i'm sorry about that lmao)

there are bi texts from the same time and even before the bi manifesto was published that say the same thing, and even say things that are more nuanced, detailed, and explicit in inclusivity and solidarity. so why is the manifesto held to such a high regard, while literally all other bi texts are ignored?

and it's not because it became integral to bi activism or whatever. because it only became A Thing in very recent years, largely when panphobes started spreading a section of it around because they thought it supported their panphobia. (and i'm not gonna lie, the vast majority, if not the entirety of, the bi texts/quotes i see spread around a lot are because people think they "prove" something against pansexuality.)

(sometimes i think it's because someone had slapped the word "manifesto" on it and people think that makes it mean something big. but if that were the case, then other bi texts titled "bi manifesto" would be held in the same regard. and besides, it's really the magazine's manifesto more than it is bisexuality's.)

and like. i've seen so much misinformation about the bi manifesto, because people just repeat what they heard someone else say, who heard from someone else, who heard it from someone else, and so on. it's become a horrible game of mspecphobic telephone.

people who praise the bi manifesto have said: it's a book. it was written in the 70s. it states bi has always been defined as all genders or regardless of gender. it shows that bi has always included nonbinary genders. it holds The Definition of bi. it proves pan is redundant and biphobic. they act like it is and always has been widespread and universally known.

none of those things are true. and like, it does suck that there is so much hatred and lies surrounding the bi manifesto now. because the people who wrote it don't deserve it being used as a tool of vitriol against people they support. (kinda similar to how panphobes used lani ka'ahumanu as a tool for panphobia even though she supports us.)

and another big aspect is that it just really bothers me anytime people hold one single queer text above all others, and when people act like one single queer text needs to be The Most Important to every queer person. because that's utter nonsense.

there is no reason why the bi manifesto has to mean anything to anyone, even bi people, beyond being a way of learning more about bi history. the way people outright say it's biphobic to not care about it or to criticize it or anything beyond mindless praise is wild to me.

that's not why we learn queer history, that's not why queer people write texts on queerness. the bi manifesto itself says it is not representative of all bi people, not all bi people will agree with everything in the magazine.

i've read a lot of queer texts and very little of them mean something to me personally. and that's okay and actually just fucking normal??? i just. have no patience for queer people grasping onto a few queer texts to the neglect of every single other text.

people who say "read the bi manifesto" over and over.....i have, now what? do you want to have a conversation about what it says? about what it means? do you have recs for bi texts that expands on it? like what are you doing. people share a screenshot or tell someone to read it then pat themselves on the back for doing a good activism. and i just...what?

anyways. again i'm sorry my response was sparked by one tiny thing you said anon. (i'm not directing any of this annoyance at you anon). but yeah. it's both funny and annoying because the holy grail text they cite for their panphobia explicitly supports us but also doing so is blatantly misrepresenting bi history. but what else do you expect from panphobes?

#asks #anonymous #pan antagonism #mspec antagonism #long post #bi antagonism #bi manifesto #battleaxe bi #i just have a lot of thoughts about things lmfao rip me 🙈😭

[wildernessuntothemselves]

This is gonna be disorganized, so bear with me.

I actually thought your characters were well developed. They all had backgrounds and experiences that were aligned with their motives and mindset. As for consistency, I don’t know?? I don’t think anything the characters did were out of character for the way they were written? Did they do dumb things that not everyone would agree with? Yes, but people do dumb things you don’t want them to do all the time. I find consistency to be a confusing term bc I don’t think real people are all that consistent either. In that sometimes we act out of character depending on the circumstances. Unless a character does something they were completely opposed to (with no reason for them to have a change in their views) then I don’t know what would be termed as inconsistent.

Going off that, OC was such an unstable individual. Instability is like the exact opposite of consistency and even then she mostly held her ground on trying to be morally upright. And when characters (Taehyun) did show change it was shown to be an obvious dilemma for them.

OC was definitely weak, but she had a personality, otherwise people wouldn’t have found her so annoying. She was also stupid, yes, but she literally grew up sheltered. I think people often mistake disliking a character to mean they were written badly. But also this commenter reminds me of that era in time where we hated feminine and kind female characters bc they weren’t strong badasses. It was giving misogyny, especially towards the end of the comment with the nonsense about Jordan Peterson.

People who think women enjoy abuse are idiots and people who justifying why other think that way are also idiots. People who stay with their abusers, stay with them out of attachment, not because they enjoy getting hurt 🤨 And obviously OC did not enjoy abuse, they were love starved and Gyu provided that, otherwise they wouldn’t have gone back. It’s just such a black and white view of “oh your relationship is abusive, you should leave” Obviously if abuse was the only part of the relationship people would leave smfh

And ofc I don’t think the abuse and rape were romanticized because if it were, these two would’ve ended up together. They wouldn’t have had so many problems and OC would’ve been able to brush aside whatever had happened bc true love conquers all and that bs.

you've summarized my feelings so well.

again, i'll be the first to admit that i'm not a particularly great writer. i see my own mistakes clearly and i've talked about it a lot. i do think Kai's character switch was inconsistent because it was too abrupt and i will own up to that. had i the time and the ability to go back and change what i already published, i would've done it in a much smoother way. but other than him i don't really think my characters were inconsistent. yeah like you said they did things that are stupid or hypocritical but i tried to explain why they did that and had other characters call them out for it (like oc calling tyun out when he tried to get her back). and yeah people in real life are nothing if not inconsistent. i like to think i never made my characters do anything wildly out of character, but if someone has an example i would genuinely love to discuss it because maybe you'll point out something to me that i didn't notice.

yessss i'm so glad you mentioned that because i also got the same vibe from the comment, the "she's not a strong, independent woman? then she has no personality". i used to be like that too but now i appreciate that there are all these different types of characters out there and that being strong doesn't mean that it's a good character (there are currently a multitude of examples of that in media). OC was hated by most readers and yes she was flaky and selfish and always wanted to give up but that is still a character. i know because i channeled myself a lot in her whenever i wanted to give up because my life was shit lmao

i don't think the commenter thinks that women in abusive relationships stay because they enjoy it, i just think that they think none of them would think the way oc is. like maybe they're trapped because of kids or a financial situation rather than being manipulated by their partner. i get it. it's uncomfortable to read about a character that is in love with their abuser but that happens too.

thank you babe

#mort talks #yamqn

[headless-horsepossum]

this may be a silly question but. what does an editor Do. I ask b/c I might need that service but don't even know I need that service.... hope this doesn't come across rude I'm just genuinely curious

Not silly or rude!! it's a fair question cause there are a bunch of different kinds of editors.

Basically, if you're working on something, (written work in my case but there are like video editors and audio editors and all that too,) you can send it to an editor and they'll help you get it ready for Whatever You Want To Use It For.

.....this got long lmao so i'm putting the rest under a cut ig

I'm very freelance (bc i'm disabled and don't have a degree 🥴) so i take whatever projects come my way, which atm means a lot of Masters and PhD level dissertations/theses, because my mom works for a university that has a lot of international and first-higher-education-degree students but DOESN'T HAVE A WRITING CENTER for some reason, so I'm usually like half editor half writing coach. Which is to say, an editor for a publishing house probably does much different work than I do and tbh I don't know Anything about what they do lol.

but how *my* job works is:

you send me a draft of your project.

I learn as much as i can about the end destination and audience of your project.

(this is a lot easier if you're writing, like, a Memoir or a Pamphlet For An Art Show, and a lot harder if I have to Read The Chicago Style Manual) (Chicago Style is probably fine but their style manual is fucking wack and i stand by that)

I read your project and i mark anything that is either a.) unclear or b.) Against The Rules Of Your Intended Destination

So like, if you're writing a masters thesis, I'm strict with grammar and with formatting. The style your institution is using probably has rules about whether you can use first person, and when you use italics, and whether your citations go in a bibliography or in footnotes or w/e.

If you're writing a Novel, I can be a lot looser with the rules and just look for: is this effective? what is this line Doing? is it doing it well? Does What It's Doing Actually Need To Be Done Right Now?

(editing fiction/creative nonfiction is WAY more fun but i don't get to do it very often. sigh)

I put my suggestions in the document you've sent me, with Track Changes on so you can see everything I've changed. I add comments to the doc wherever I think they're necessary/helpful.

I send the doc with my edits back to you

You (hopefully) read through and decide whether each edit makes sense to you. (this is the most important step, honestly)

If they make sense and you're happy with the resulting draft, my job is done and we shake hands and depart as friends.

If you have questions, or the edits require extensive rewrites, we ideally meet over zoom or w/e and I explain my suggestions to you, and we figure out how to Make The Words Do What You Want Them To Do. You send the doc to me again and I do as much of a second pass as you want/Will Pay Me For.

It's worth noting that there are different *levels* of editing, too. I've done jobs where I'm just checking grammar, or where I'm just checking formatting; I've also done jobs where I meet with the author and we basically write the piece together (which is really fun, actually, I like sitting down and asking, like, "okay, what are you trying to say," and figuring out how to help YOU figure out how YOU want to say it. it's like detective work :3 or therapy possibly). Those all take different levels of time and energy, so for student papers I end up with a lot of, like, "this could really use a thorough content edit/rewrite but it's Due In A Week so we're gonna make sure everything's spelled write and the footnotes are formatted correctly." (which i HATE doing btw, it's a perfectly reasonable thing to do but it Hurts My Brain bc it feels like I'm not Doing My Best which is Hell.)

anyway, the tl;dr is: editors take writing and suggest changes that will make it Perform Its Intended Function Better. the actual act of editing takes a lot of work, and often a degree of background research, too. tip your editors, is what i'm saying.

#editing #writing community #I Guess idk #again: my disabled non-degree-holding ass is just doing my best and learning on the job for a lot of this lmao #this was fun writing though :3 and a good break from my current editing job lmao #so thanks for the ask!!!! mwah #also disclaimer i have Not Edited This Post lmao. thats my job i aint gonna do it for free

[bonesandthebees]

HI! this is an anlysis ask but i saw spruces ask and was like oh no did i do something, and wanted to say that in my last ask i wasnt trying to be negative or anything about niki, i just was talking abt what we were discussing in stars discussion in the discord. didnt mean to try and pressure you in any way, im not upset abt niki or anything! :) now onwards!

so proud abt stars, its amazing, loved the new chapter, super excited for epilouge aswell!

"i need to talk to my boys" AHHAHAJHDBHGDUYBEDGJSJSHLDKJ my childhood traumatized, found family loving, i wish that was me self is SCREAMING >:3

"never trust a traitor" love that quote sm, i cant explain or really describe why but there is something about it that i was just like, oh damn that slaps

glass divine: ive never read someone elses dream, and im not 100% sure i plan to, but i WILL be reading through a glass divine! so hyped >:D

tubbo's betrayal: i want to say i saw it coming so clearly, and honestly, the little voice in my head did, but part of me was also like, nooooo tubbo, he will get hurt, save tub boi, so i was 100% in denial lmao

so glad they got to hug it out man so happy 10000000/10

overall, it was amazing. (are we rly surprised, its always amazing since it is Bee) so so proud, so grateful, and i gotta say, this is the best fic ive ever read. i loved it. i will be buying copies for all of my friends, and if you ever do a book signing, i will be there (if i can convince someone to take me) ill be there in spirit no matter what. you are my favorite author. much love to you, and i hope you know how amazing you are, and that you understand how hard to do this is, dont be afraid to take a break after stars is 100% over, because this is a huge project thats taken you super long, and its done, dont be upset about that, and if you need anything at all, we are here! sorry for being sappy fren but im so proud! <3

-👑

omg no king anon you're fine, there was someone in my comments on ao3 who posted some critique that I made a post complaining about so that's what spruce was referring to. you're totally fine I promise!!

I knew the "I need to talk to my boys" line would get people screaming (and tbh I was so excited to write that too)

THANK YOU I was so proud of the "never trust a traitor" bit

literally no pressure to read someone else's dream you don't need to and tbh I do not like someone else's dream that much bc of how I rushed it so... also glass divine is gonna deviate from it so you literally have no need to read it. so glad you're excited for glass divine!!

awww thank you so much king anon. if I ever do actually get to publish stars as an original novel that'd be a dream come true, but we'll have to wait and see if it's something I'm able to do. I'm so happy you enjoy my stories though. and don't worry about me! I'm not taking a break because I actually need a writing project going on at all times or else I have no creative outlet and I get very stressed. I love writing so much and while I know I COULD took a break, I genuinely don't want to. I always make sure I have something planned I can be working on or else I just feel way too restless. I'm just so happy I have readers who I know will read and support whatever silly story my brain decides to come up with next :)

thank you for the kind words you guys are seriously the sweetest <3

#ask #the stars and their children #king anon

[just-a-honey-badger]

I posted 417 times in 2022

That's 417 more posts than 2021!

102 posts created (24%)

315 posts reblogged (76%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@an-ungraceful-swan

@frayro-called-frey

@fromthemouthofkings

@shipsgaysfordays

@bitch-is-ace

I tagged 245 of my posts in 2022

Only 41% of my posts had no tags

#bel rants about random shit - 60 posts

#ask bel - 25 posts

#bel gays homosexually - 24 posts

#bel rants about hp - 19 posts

#bel rants about marauders - 19 posts

#bel procrastinates - 18 posts

#asks - 15 posts

#marauders era - 14 posts

#important - 13 posts

#bel writes - 13 posts

Longest Tag: 124 characters

#like 'i don't want to be a woman but i don't want to be not a woman' and assumed i was just. a woman who kinda had to settle

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

✨the queue✨: a guide

the queue is great! it's helpful if you want to post regularly or if you have lots of posts you want to reblog but don't want to do all at once.

you can queue posts by either a) clicking the reblog button > clicking the arrow next to it once it opens the page where you can add comments > selecting 'add to queue'; or

b) going into settings > clicking on the part that says 'labs' (where tumblr has new features they're working on) > turning on 'fast queue' (this adds a new icon next to the 'reply' and 'reblog' icons where you basically reblog a post but 'add to queue' is the default).

and why would i want to post regularly, you ask? well, the more you post (and the more diverse posts you have), the more likely it is for your posts to reach more people. accurate tags help with this, too. it also helps if you need to post at a consistent schedule for whatever reason, but can't always log on at the same time every day.

if you want to queue your posts at more random times, go into labs and turn on 'queue 2.0'. this enables a more detailed way to schedule your queued posts. i had to play around with it before i found something i liked, and i suggest you do too.

that's it

17 notes - Posted November 30, 2022

#4

15 questions 15 tags

ty @shipsgaysfordays for the tag <33

Nickname: tortilla (from @fruutcake)

Height: fucking short lmao under 5 ft even though i'm fully grown

Last thing I googled: 'chapbook publishers' bc i'm trying to figure out if that's something i want to do

Song stuck in my head currently: line without a hook (she's a, she's a lady, and i am just a boy) <3

Number of followers: with the excessive amounts of porn bots? 47

Amount of sleep: ah. um it's inconsistent but on average 9-ish hours?

Dream job: university professor, author, maybe architect? or artist, i want that gay literature major kinda vibe. probably gonna be a ux researcher or sum tho

Wearing: pjs

Movie/book that summarizes me: anne with an e <3

Favorite song currently: r u mine? by arctic monkeys or dandelions by ruth b

Aesthetic: solarpunk/goblincore/light academia

Favorite authors: rick riordan? i don't read enough

Random fact: when a pig gets a cold or cough they shoot their intestines out of their anus and the farmer has to stuff it back in

no pressure y'all: @fruutcake @bitch-is-ace @frey-the-they @4remus @presidentroarie @too-many-fandoms-to-explore @an-ungraceful-swan @whooshsoohw @kara-night-light @that-bitch-kat3 @ihopeyoubothstaysafefromharm @fromthemouthofkings @adharastarlight @linh-song @xanadaus

(ik i don't interact with half of u sorry i wanted to hit 15)

20 notes - Posted December 18, 2022

#3

writing a new marauders fic where all the marauders in the afterlife react to harry's daily life (not his war stuff but like his cringe everyday stuff)

21 notes - Posted November 8, 2022

#2

new tag game!

featuring: questions i never really see

1. a time period you feel you'd do well in: the 1970s

2. a mythical animal you wish you could be: a dragon

3. your favourite time of day: sunset

4. the main character that's the most like you: anne shirley-cuthbert

5. your favourite flower: sunflowers

6. a universe you would love to be in: the potterverse (without the terf part)

7. the aesthetic you wish you had: downtown girl/skater girl

8. a character you would love to be: beth harmon

9. a character you would be best friends with: anne shirley-cuthbert

10. your favourite outfit to wear: my band outfit; aka a dress shirt and wide-leg linen pants

tags: @fruutcake @shipsgaysfordays @bitch-is-ace @an-ungraceful-swan @too-many-fandoms-to-explore @frayro-called-frey @fromthemouthofkings @4remus @presidentroarie @kara-night-light and anyone who wants to do it!

25 notes - Posted December 24, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

okay, but what if peter didn't exist and regulus was in his place and james and remus took sirius and regulus's last name and the marauders were all the blacks and they went to see walburga and were like 'hey mom!' and walburga fucking flips

173 notes - Posted September 23, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #redoing this because last time i did it was november

[louisfeatharry]

here’s a ‘ally gets really sappy’ post

i got inspired to do this by a bunch of other people on my dash lmao so here goes! this isn’t really a follow forever but more of a shoutout to the specific people that have made 2017 truly one to remember :’) i might make a part 2 of this because there’s a lot of people to talk about and this is prob gonna get really long because i don’t know what being concise means!

@imlouisaf: you’re my best friend on this hellsite, the person that legit gets me 100% whether it’s us spending ludicrous amounts of money on 1d or talking nonstop shit. 2017 wouldn’t have been half as fun without you from my weekend getaway and seeing louis at the TCAs with you to you kicking my ass when it came to my big bang to you staying over at my house for a week and us not killing each other to paramore/harry in nyc/philly. you always encourage me to live my best life and do what makes me happy even if you’re sorta a bad influence. i can’t wait for 2018 with you and our several harry shows (lmao) and the one niall show. you’re a blessing and i love u v much

@flickersesh: my daughter, my pride & joy, the niall to my louis! i love you so fucking much. you’ve talked me through some real rough times and dealt with my dumb ass crying, so i know that you’re one of the real ones who always has my back. thank you for your constant support and love and for always talking sense to me and talking me down from ledges. i love having you in my life, and i can’t thank you enough for this past year for sticking around. :’) and i can’t wait to come down to raleigh and see our man, niall, with you and the other members of our squad. :’)

@niallandtommo: stef, my fave nouie! what would i do without you constantly shitting on me and my sometimes lowkey, sometimes highkey narry love? LMAO you’re still one of my most Fame™ friends, and i still can’t believe you follow my mess of a blog. i also still can’t believe that you put up with me and my soft larrie bullshit or with the spam of larry manips and gifs i send to make us cry. but most importantly, thank you for having my back when i feel insecure about some things and for validating me when i need it the most. i love you so much!

@craicthatniall: KELS, 2017 wouldn’t have been 2017 without you in it. we’ve had a year supporting (y)our man(s) from camping out all night (and then in the rain) for niall at the today show to going to shawn mendes and getting you drunk with (y)our sista to going to the today show AGAIN and talking to the today show peeps about how much we love niall and promo-ing dat album on national tv!!! to the niall concert where i got ya into 3rd row and almost made you take a naked lap in a bar :’) so many memories and so many good times and even though i make fun of you like 75% of the time i’m with you, it comes from a place of so much love. we’re meeting niall (!!!!!!!!) together (!!!!!!!!) this year and attending like all the fucking shows together, and there’s no one i would want by my side at a niall concert than you :’) i love love love ya! and tell your sister i love her too!

@hrrystyles: i was gonna make this short and be an asshole, but i guess i’ll be nice and loving. deemon, our relationship is v much love/hate but the hate is v loving and the love is said through hate, and we’re constantly like :/ at each other, but i wouldn’t have us any other way. thank you for your constant friendship through all the bullshit of this year and for being one of the few ******* i can tolerate on this site. mostly because you’re just a genuinely nice human being who doesn’t have the capacity to be rude for no reason. sdlkfjsldfjasldf aNYWAYS i love u v much even if i say i hate you and i hope harry/niall love you again and actually come to your country for a concert lmfao.

@midnight-kfc: B! i hope you’re not dying because of your broken door and i hope you’re staying warm to continue to love liam and ot5 with me. running a liam UA isn’t easy in the fucking slightest, and we def feel like we’re drowning when it comes to major events like fucking jingle ball, but we get this shit done even if it has to be over gchat. talking to you is always a laugh, and our constant refrain of “SHIT WHAT IS LIAM DOING NOW” will never not be funny and panic-inducing. thank you most of all for keeping my love for liam alive amongst all the crazy shit going on with the other boys. 

to the larry fic gc, @harrysayingnympho @thiccmom @gloryhalleloujah @leggy-pop @virglows @peachnouis @dearmrsawyer @pinkharold @haroldtea, stef, and justine: you guys honestly see me when i’m on my real bullshit, and y’all don’t (mostly) get mad at me for it. thanks for not voting me out of the tribe yet, and thank you for the constant source of fic recs when i need them! we’re v chill and i love that about us the most. y’all don’t wild out on me and instead keep me sane when most of this fandom makes me wanna quit

to my ot5 angst/spaces between us chat, @lifesbetterasamermaid, @in-madhouses, and isbah: what can i say except i’m thankful for y’all every single day! i’m glad i can love all of ot5 with y’all without being judged and that i can share my excitement for ot5 solo projects with y’all and have that excitement reflected right back at me! thank you for always providing the angst and the laughs and for being bitter with me when the time calls for it. raleigh 2018 and niall are calling us and it’s gonna be so, so, so sweet to experience that with you all!

to the louisgalaxy peeps, old and new: thank you for helping me get the blog off the ground and thank you for your support and dedication through it all! it’s def not easy being the type of blog we are, but we do it because we love louis. i can’t thank you enough for sticking through this year, and i can’t wait to see what 2018 brings us!

to the dailyniall friends: i’m glad i could make our gc lit again. MOGLA. dlskjfslkdfjj but forreal d(b)n is a fuckin ride with yall and crazy as all hell, but we love our man and we love nouis and i couldn’t have picked a better (and hella efficient and productive and kickass) team to support and give our boy the #1s and bragging rights he deserves!

to the motorbike girl gang: DRINKING WITH YOU GUYS ON NYE WAS FAB LMAO i know we don’t talk /as/ often as we used to, but our chats are always A+ and we always look out for each other no matter what. we’re all hella fucking chill despite the amount of tea we spill from time to time, but you’re all just amazing people. and i’m blessed to have y’all at my fingertips if i ever wanna get drunk. LMAO

to the ohana gc: bless y’all for being the good ot4/ot5 space i needed this year. we’ve ranted a lot, bitched a lot, and gotten upset at what this fandom has become, but you all remind me that there’s good amongst it all. the lot of you are some of the sweetest, purest, and kindest people i’ve met in the fandom thus far, and it’s been lovely to be your friend this year. thank you for your love and for your friendship. no to the penguin and baldrection memes. that’s a hard pass.

and finally to all the tumblr friends i’ve met this year that have accompanied me to various 1d/non-1d related things and have made memories with me that i hold dear in my heart. thank you for your company and for being amazing friends in 2017. this past year wouldn’t have been half as lit without y’all. @loumyprince @haroldjagger @fromherlips @aliensingucci @henuttedinher​ @throughthedark​ @foliealou​ @jesysparabatai​ @gratitudecafe​ @harrystyies​ @champayne-problems​ (and i hope i didn’t forget anyone rip)

#i found this in my drafts #and i'm just gonna publish it bc whatevs lmao #i prob missed people but rip #blog rec

[potatoes-tomatoes]

can't believe there's this many amazing fanworks for sp of all fandoms. I'm stil tryna wrap my head around this. I haven't felt this inspired by a fandom alone since Portal. Nothing tops the experience I had since reading Blue Sky but damn... it's dangerously close.

#i'm aware of the resurgence of younger fans clashing w/ older and the whole yassification and wokness from tiktok or whatever #but I'm not in those spaces so like... i only hear of them #what i've DISCOVERED so far was lengthy discussion of story and characters and amazing and hilarious art #gut-wrenching fics.funny fics. terrifying fics. #fics that i'm gonna personally study for characterization and storytelling tips in the future bc there are some phenomenal works #and it's so criminal that these 200k fics aren't like. published novels #again i haven't felt the high of discovering more from a fan space than getting the high from the source material itself since portal #weird comparison but this post was written for me by me to me so what it do lmao #it's so refreshing that I don't have much disbelief to suspend because south park DID everything already. They never held back punches #when it comes to story or subject matter. Future fics? past fics? gay art? straightforward fanart? mockery of fandom? serious stories? #South park covers everything. so does its fanworks #There's so much research when it comes to these fics actually? ghfjkdhg #I know how to properly dispose of a body in three ways now. I know how getting a passport works #I understand the paperwork involved in getting a divorce?? from south park shit???? again it goes so many directions. astounding. #I just finished reading a 200k unfinished fic I need to go touch grass like literally #I'm heading out the door right now

[babygirlgiles]

ok so u cant just say u have headcanons about will graham as an academic and not share them

i would love to hear the email exchanges lol

anon, it has been so long that you will probably never even see this (my own academic finals got in the way and then I have so many thoughts I sat on this for sooo long by accident lmao). I'm gonna keep my email exchanges to myself for now bc I ended up writing a bunch (when I probably should have been replying to emails about my own GAship lmao) and might publish them as a fic someday.

But anyway, I am absolutely about to make you regret sending this ask because Will Graham's Career in Academia Is Something That Can Actually Be So Personal. This got so long, there's a read more lmao.

Will is someone who I think has internalized the idea that there is something wrong with him from a very young age. Whether that was because people told him so or because he saw his own differentness (and felt the pain of isolation, of social exclusion that his differentness caused him) and, in the way small children often do without adult intervention, extrapolated that his differentness was bad, something wrong with him. I've always assumed he was the first person in his family to go to college and, regardless, he would've gone to college coming from a low-income background. And I think for someone who was already as isolated as Will, the experience of being a first-generation, low-income college student would've exacerbated his already held beliefs that there was something wrong with him and only served to reinforce them.

We're never really given a coherent backstory of Will, so idek where I got this idea from but, I'd always assumed is that Will actually went into the police force right after high school. It's a common path within low-income areas (for men, especially) to go into law enforcement because it promises a sort of immediate, indefinite security (and power, but that's an entirely different post lmao) that college just can't, and I think that the Will we see at the beginning especially is someone who craves stillness, stability. So to make this headcanon fit into the actual pieces we know about him lol, I figure he would've started as a beat cop in whatever small town where he graduated high school, immediately and unintentionally climbed through the ranks after kind of accidentally showing his profiling abilities to a more senior investigator, then eventually transferred up and out to New Orleans. Being a cop probably would have made this guy miserable lmao but we're shown time and time again that Will won't leave a bad situation just because it's miserable (gotta respect his commitment to lacking self respect) so I think the final straw for him would've been being stabbed. The whole thing is already driving him just the slightest bit insane and making him think "hmm maybe this isn't that sustainable as a source of security and stability after all" and getting stabbed would be that final straw realization of no, there is a very strong likelihood that this won't be able to give him long-term security. And so he leaves the police force to get a college degree.

I'd always assumed he went to a private college in part because they tend to offer the biggest scholarships which for Will, who's very pragmatic most of the time, would've been a big draw (and also because I went to a private college so it's what I know well lmao). But honestly, more than either of those things I think I made the unconscious assumption because it is... pretty uncommon for first-gen college students to become professors, so of those that do and especially of those that have as prestigious of a faculty position as Will, just statistically speaking tend to have undergraduate degrees from private colleges/universities. And I think this is where I mentally trace back a lot of the traits we see Will have in season 1 especially.

Academia can be... cruel to differentness and to outsiders, to say the least. And one of the things I think about a lot is just the way Will speaks, almost over-enunciating most of the time. He's supposed to be southern born and raised, moving around for a lot of his early life, sure, but mostly around the southern states. So why doesn't he have an accent? Yeah, okay, it's because Hugh Dancy is a British actor with a background in theatre but whatever, beyond the meta-textual explanation I think Will has very deliberately cultivated the way he speaks to just obliterate any hint of a southern accent (and the kinds of pronunciation/vocabulary/dialect that would've marked him as working class or poor) when he went to college. Before that, most everyone around him would've had a southern accent and/or been working class/poor so, if anything, given how much he mimics other people's speech patterns (often unintentionally/unconsciously/unwillingly, that's the only piece of Harris canon I will engage with lmao) he would've been leaning into that. But I think if he landed at a school in the mid-Atlantic states or further north, and especially at a private school on scholarship, he would've really, really tried to stamp that out. And that's how we get to how he speaks today.

I think, also, it just reinforced the isolation that he's felt his entire life and turned it from a circumstance and into a fact of himself. I wrote something once about him in a fic chapter I haven't published yet that about how Will learned very quickly to not talk about his early life to more affluent peers because they all already viewed him as "other" and the details of his early life in poverty only reinforced their image that he was strange and didn't belong. Idek how to articulate it but I think the whole experience could've been one of the solidifying moments of "you know what, being alone is actually better" for him, when he really leans into cultivating the gruffness he uses to keep people at an arms length.

One of the weird inconsistencies about his career in academia that I've had to go through... I mean just insane mental gymnastics to explain away is why in the everloving fuck Jack mentions his book being about insect activity after death in the first episode when every single lecture we see him give is on criminal profiling??? Okay, yeah, it's probably caused by some combination of a) the writers not noticing/ not knowing what careers in academia are like and b) needing to twist details for the sake of good storytelling/ narrative devices. But I think why I've latched onto it is because entomology seems soooo much more like something Will would've dedicated years to his life studying or at least more so than criminal profiling. It fits! He could be such a perfect weird bug guy! It's so easy to imagine this weird little man camped out front of those bug wall displays at the Smithsonian in DC! Bugs don't talk to him! Bugs don't have emotional trauma that would get all over him and stick like tar! And leaving the police force as a homicide investigator (which, from my understanding, is a relatively cushy job within the police force, you're not doing traffic stops at least) because it was too much for Will (even though they're pretty vague and a bit inconsistent on exactly why) doesn't really scream "I think I'll go study that thing I couldn't handle for the rest of my life" based on what we see of Will, imo.

Is there an argument to be made that criminal profiling gives him a sense of power that entomology could not? Yeah. But whatever, I want him to hang out with bugs. You don't have to believe this, I don't even believe it most of the time but I do think it's an interesting possibility and could explain away some inconsistencies, admittedly not all of them and creates some other weirdnesses but it's fun to hypothesize so here is my theory: I think it's plausible that Will isn't a full time professor at the FBI Academy. I think it would make sense that the lectures we see him giving there are either guest lectures or that he's a part-time/visiting professor with a full-time position somewhere else.

Some reasons: after my very extensive research (meaning I read a few posts on Quora.com lmao) I've found out that it's generally pretty difficult to become an full-time instructor at the FBI Academy if you're not an FBI agent, which we know Will is not. The main exception seems to be for subjects that aren't like directly duties of FBI agents that they might just not have any FBI agents qualified to teach (the example I saw was like, public policy is something certain FBI agents might need to know but not necessarily practice so a lawyer might teach that). Maybe Bryan and Co. didn't do as extensive Quora dot com research as I did or they just didn't care, but I think that makes it plausible that he's actually full-time faculty studying entomology at like UMD or something and the lectures we see him give are Something Else.

There's also the fact that the lectures we see him give are... kind of shit. Storytelling devices, blah blah blah, but also even then they don't really feel like classes so much as they feel like public lectures/guest lectures. It's such a common trope that would still allow them to use the lecture as a storytelling device for the TV show prof to shout "make sure you read chapter 3 before next time" or "the paper is due Monday" or whatever but the closest thing we get to that is "tell me your design" (and like, what the fuck does that mean Will. What's the assignment. What's the deliverables. When's the due date. Do you want 500 words of murder-y poetry? Do you want a drawing of my murderer-sona?) (again, yeah, sure Will isn't the type of prof who gives reminders, maybe he's just letting them work from the syllabus, sink or swim, like I said it's not a watertight headcanon).

But more importantly re: the lectures being shit, like I was saying earlier it is statistically... pretty uncommon for first-gen college students to get graduate degrees so Will must be a scholarly powerhouse. And the fact that Jack has read his book on insect activity (which isn't directly related to Behavioral Analysis so it's not like he's reading Will's book for the sake of being well-read within his own field) goes to show that it's prominent and well-respected enough to be read broadly across the forensics sciences and not just within that specific domain of forensics sciences. And teaching (and teaching well) is pretty generally considered a part of being a hire-able academic in addition to being a good researcher, especially by 2013. And if this is his class! It's not taught very well! But it's not a terrible guest lecture tbh.

So anyway, here's what could have happened, hypothetically: Will studies forensic sciences as an undergrad because it seems like a reasonable thing to do after leaving the police force, gets really interested in the science of decay/the entomology aspects of it and goes to grad school for a more entomology focused thing (it could still be within forensic sciences or just so happen to have a really strong forensic science application). It seems like death has always been a pre-occupation for him, even if he's got some mixed feelings on murder, so that's how he ends up writing about insect activity and time of death. He's a professor (presumably tenured, why else would he have bought a house) at a university near the FBI and because his research has got such a strong forensics sciences application that they start bringing him bugs/photos of bugs/whatever to ask for consultation. One time he accidentally lets some of his empathy/profiling abilities shine through (the agent bringing him the pictures offhand mentions something about the killer and Will is like "what are you talking about it's clear that the killer was thinking xyz", similar to how I imagine this kind of mistake happened for him in the police force) and then the word gets out. Agents start bringing him cases telling their bosses its to get his bug-related-opinions but they're really asking him for criminal profiles. And then eventually he's no longer "the bug guy" but "the guy who does that freaky thing when he looks at crime scene photos" and he's consulted regularly in the capacity of a profiler and, even while he keeps his faculty post at JHU or GWU or wherever, he eventually gives guest lectures or teach a visiting course on the cases he's consulted on (and we do, really, only ever see him lecture on cases that he's consulted on, which like again, narrative devices but whatever). And that eventually gets back to Jack, and that brings us to the start of the show.

Yeah the timeline of that has issues, it doesn't explain why Jack refers to "his students" at the FBI if they're just guest lectures (Will could, also, be teaching a forensics entomology course as a visiting professor and many visiting professorships also include a stipulation to give so many public/guest lectures). It doesn't really explain why Alana fills in for him that one time but tbh that doesn't really make a ton of sense outside of "that needed to happen for the plot" anyway since she doesn't teach at the FBI otherwise as far as we know and you probably need some kind of clearance for that, idk, I don't feel like pulling up quora again.

Anyway. This got SO long. So many thoughts, head full. Long story short, I think the most important headcanon (maybe not importantly but like deeply held, truly believed) I have about him as an academic is that it really would've just tapped into Will's already established self-loathing and just exacerbated it and shaped him into the Will Graham we see today, stripped him of his accent and outwards signs of his upbringing, and made him the cagey, defensive, self-protective person we see at the beginning of the show.

also (side note) just like imagine having been Will's college roommate, which yeah he probably wouldn't have had one if he went to college later but like the insanity of thinking "wow my roommate is a little odd and clearly a repressed homosexual", maybe even developing your own little co-dependent relationship with him until one day he suddenly pulls away inexplicably, and then decades down the line you're watching the news and the roommate you suspected was gay is now infamous for running off to commit murders with another man lmao. Little did you know, he was one good blow job away from committing murder the whole time (or, more accurately, he was one good murder away from receiving a blow job the whole time)

#hannibal #hannibal meta #will graham #nbc hannibal #can you tell i used to be a sociologist? #The amount of self control i exercised not providing citations for stats on low income college students and law enforcement careers #also acab just to be clear (yes that includes you will graham)

[charaznablescanontoyota]

I WANTED TO DO THE WRITING ASKS i hope its not too late... how about #10 and #4 and #23? (and for #23, how's it evolved since its conception?)

NEVER TOO LATE...i am technically on my way to bed but i will do these first lmao

4. share a sentence/paragraph you're proud of

gonna pull one from lucky people bc it's the most recent thing i've published lol

“INTERFERENCE, ” the umpire howls, and shaq is fireproof, they know they’re fireproof, but the metal-on-metal sound still makes the hair stand up on the back of their neck. they can smell ozone, like the air before a lightning strike, and the only thing that keeps them moving forward is knowing that turning their back on edric when he’s in pain would be something worse than burning.

10. How would you describe your writing process?

uhhhhhh chaotic but it has an internal structure. sometimes i get struck with an idea and sit down and write the entire thing start to finish in 2-3 hours, sometimes i get an idea and it takes me 4 months to finish putting on paper. i generally write when the mood strikes me but if i have a deadline/i have to Make myself work for whatever reason i will Ass In Chair myself and set a challenge to write at least 100 words (or 500 or whatever) and then that usually warms me up enough that i'm in a groove.

my method for grinding thru a lot of lucky people was to be like 'ok i'm going to write until i've done a full scene. ok now i'm going to write until i've written 1000 words today. ok now i'm going to write until i've hit 2000 words today.' and to just see how far my momentum would take me in a given day. also for long stuff i like to kind of quit while i'm ahead and stop while i'm still excited to write the next part because then i'll be excited to come back and Keep writing it later and not feel burnt out. this turned into a long answer lmao oops

23. what's the story idea you've had in your head for the longest?

hmmMMM tough to say. i've had an antlers prequel about richard in the 1970s percolating in there since i was in high school so maybe that. it was originally a lot more uhhhhh supernatural thriller-y but i think if i wrote it now it might be like a black buddy cop-esque comedy murder mystery? like knives out vibes. but in the 70s.

#writing meta meme