#and im 90% sure this looks bad.

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

trying something i dont think it looks good

#yeah this isnt getting fandom tagged #i wanted to mimic some lighting/shading styles i'd seen but um im not good at like. #doing hard shading/lighting??? #most of my shading is pretty soft #and im 90% sure this looks bad. #but um. my special little guy though #my art #im very low energy today (but when arent i?) so you're all getting low effort sketches with color slapped on #sigh #guess its better than NOT doing art and will help me get better

[simcardiac-arrested]

rewatching the achilles animatic again and even though every frame was a new different special kind of torture it was still fun. Sometimes. therapeutic even one could say

#kind of miss working on it is what i mean . just working on a polished/long animatic project #and like you can REALLY tell i was struggling with 90% of the poses and faces and head shapes UEHEUJEGSJS #the only things that look consistently good are like. The hands (?) kind of. a little #i mean the animatic is good and looks great obviously but you KNOW i wasnt lying when i said in the description that #drawing is hard. unfortunately #i think at that time i was actually at the cusp of burnout too ? if im remembering correctly ….. and then i kept working on the animatic #through the sheer power of autism . and then more autism happened forever #But well if im honest most of the reason it looks wonky is probably bc i was just not used to drawing iterators #like before that i’ve drawn them a few tjmes sure but it’s been a good year or two #and i was drawing more normal lookin humanoids instead of bald ass robots #it was fucking up my artstyle sooo bad #it’s interesting to look back now #i havent drawn iterators in forever but i think i’ve gotten a bit better at them even if i still struggle #crammerposting

[amygdalae]

Top surgery....

#every now and then i think like 'oh that can be far in the future ill just slowly try to save up for it the dysphoria isnt TOO bad #and then some days im just like. get these THANGS offf me!! get em off!! cast them into the fire #the thing is im like 90% sure im a lil genderfluid so some days its not a problem at all and i think they look kinda nice #i still think itll overall be better for me to get em off eventually because the dysphoria i get from them is so much stronger than like #the 4 times per year i like them lol

[bravevolunteer]

i have been avoiding rbing memes bc of the sheer volume of my inbox but also. all of those are from before gaining a handful of new mutuals—

#aaaaaaaa #bc i know memes are the easiest way to reach out for a lot of people they are for ME #and yea im trying to focus on tackling old drafts rn but i wanna offer that so bad DFSHGDJF #and i don't really do starter calls much (i AM still planning on getting to the rest of the movie based ones dw) #i might grab a few later tbh fuck it i cut down like 50 it's fine DSFHDFJ #after i go talk to my manager bc they want me to come in for reapplication even though i'm 90% sure i'm still in the system #i will either be there for 15 minutes or an hour who knows #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[wellthatschaotic]

coworker (derogatory)

#she just fucking. IRKS me #so we have the same job. same authority level. yet she acts like shes a lead #which would be fine im ok with others taking charge #IF THEY DO IT RIGHT #shes SO FUCKING BAD AT IT?? #AND. we have senority!! #yes she is older than us physically but we have worked here for months longer!!! #if anyone is in charge (WHICH SHOULD BE THE LEAD) would it not be the guy who worked there longest??? #uggghhhh #she came in late today then was like um youre doing potties wrong youre only supposed to fill half and leave the other stalls for ne #girl then be on time #im not waiting for u im not making the dogs wait for u #so she starts bringing my dogs back (against the rules) (we literally had a meeting last night) #im done arguing. just. fine. whatever. she better have charted or else thatll look bad on me since i brought the dogs out #confronts me later. make sure you fill the potty waters. i say i do. she says yeah but not enough #gestures to a bowl she has filled that is 1) smaller than the bowls in potties 2) TOO FULL #we're not supposed to fill them past halfway so they dont spill #and theyre in the potties for like. 15 minutes. even if they finish their water. im fairly sure its not that inhumane for them to #wait a few more minutes before they go back to their room #THEN. she goes to do feeding. someone is in a meeting where the ipads are (needed to track feeding) #only ipad out is for the front. the front also needs an ipad. so i am instructed to wait #few min later. she comes with an ipad. is the meeting over? no i took it from the front #GIRL. #and she always complains about being in group too much #bestie 90% of the job is group #if you get a day shift youre gonna spend it in group #chill #just. ugh #chaos chitters

[tinylittlebab]

when i see people with the same ugw as me but theyre taller i feel so bad about myself

#idk i just. a bmi of under 15 is considered where its far more dangerous #and im already very unhealthy so im just not sure i wanna go below that. i guess 5 more pounds would be that big a deal #ugh. my ugw was less than that before when i was younger bc i was shorter. ive been doing this so long ack #i used to wanna be 70 but i was shorter then and alwo didnt understand the danger as much and also didnt care as much #but at this moment i dont wanna die and u less i suddenly lose all my free time to do what i 3njoy i dont think thats gonna change #ugh. 80 wouldnt be that bad would it. ill see how i look once im 85 and then ill put effort into gaining muscle wnd losing fat before i #go qnd lower my ugw. previously when i weighed 105 my ugw was 90 #part of me wants to lower it way more into the dangerous zone bc i know im never gonna look like a lot of the insanly thin ppl in thinspo #unless im very dangerously underweight but also.i will be so tired if i do that. and ill be too tired to do my favorite thing. and as much #as being skinny is important to its not the most important thing. simply being skinny usnt gonna make me happy and fix my problems #i wont be able to just look in the mirror and feel ok. but my fav thing does do that. and its always my top priority to keep that available

[skrunksthatwunk]

i just finished saw v and i don't have high hopes for the rest of the franchise (based on what ive heard) but im in too deep to stop now

#no i haven't enjoyed the last two no i don't expect to get much out of the next five or so movies. but i need to know. #i guess saw v mightve suffered bc i watched it basically immediately after iv #something i didnt do with any of the others #but i was told v was one of the good ones so i was looking forward to it. i dont think it was burnout yknow #but uh. i didn't like it. i think i liked iv more honestly. strahm and hoffman do absolutely nothing for me #i liked the traps. that was it though #it felt so pointless and empty. it was the first one where i genuinely wondered why they made it. why did they decide to keep going with #this. i think ii and iv both function more/better as setup for their following films but like. at least iii was pretty good yknow #like both amanda and hoffman's accomplicing feels kinda retconned in but at least amanda's an interesting character #what does hoffman have. what does strahm have. nothing. and no i don't think they have much in the way of homoeroticism either. #i don't tend to be so negative and im sorry if someone goes in the saw tags and feels bad about me talking shit about something they like #because i know that doesn't feel good. honestly i'd love to hear why people like v. maybe it'll change my opinion of it if i look at it a #different way yknow? but for now im just annoyed by it. iv was engaging in the moment but very forgettable #i liked riggs well enough but we barely learned a thing about him. he wasn't a deep character at all and i think that's a shame #but v was just a paperwork-based cat and mouse chase. 90 minutes and it still felt like they were wasting my time #why did strahm go to the old trap locations? i don't think he found anything out there. likr it was just a framing device for the flashback #but he didn't actually have a reason to go there. waste of my time #not an original critique im sure but saw ii on seems to be more focused on scale and layers of shit (i.e. having two games going at once) #than using the traps to examine the characters. i mean you go from two guys in a bathroom for a couple hours #learning about who they are gradually at a slow pace vs like 8 people in a house plus cop stuff plus 90 second traps of dubious fairness #hoffman has no real relationship with kramer (unlike amanda) and basically everyone who'd been following jigsaw is dead and so are jigsaw #and (presumably) amanda. what am i supposed to be here for? the vague outline of a saw trap? the type of torture happening? #im not even opposed to that per se but frankly the more they focus on the cops surrounding this shit the less fun it is #why are you making all the traps like 15 seconds long and tied to characters who aren't the primary focus. it's saw #ughh i miss adam. i miss amanda. hell i miss kramer and he was pretty present in this one (flashbackwise) #whateverrr. anyway that poll comparing chainshippng shotgunnshippng and coffinshippng where shotgun was last? lesbophobic. #im only half joking about that. im sure ppl have their reasons for coffin but i also think it's the tendency fandom bias for “two white guy #ships. but hey maybe vi and onwards will add more context to that that'll make me reconsider. i mean i wouldn't have liked the amanda #accomplice thing That much if i'd only seen ii. i think iii really makes it mesh better and it leads to fun character stuff #(though i still think i would've liked it more bc like. amanda was always grateful to jigsaw right? again hoffman comes outta nowhere)

[lostbrazilian]

Trick or Treat!

Treat! You get...

One (1) box of Bis™️

#trick or treat #it might not look like much but this thing is a national treasure #im 90% sure that if we started exporting these bad boys they'd overtake the international chocolate market in a matter of months

[todayisafridaynight]

Hahahaa he's so "bright talented young man alters himself to attain greatness and escape a life he was unhappy with but despite warnings (he ignored them) fails in the end and dies while his father lives on without him"

Secondly though I also HAD to throw on some Mother Mother. Notably, Body (tbh a disabled bitch anthem imo) and Arms Tonight (y'know. Bc the end of the game). Stg I'll send you the playlists for the Arakawa's when I'm done with them. I take my sweet ass time tho v sorry hahaha 😂

Litcherallyyyyyy thats what im sayin bro..... esp when in the story of icarus his father helps him escape the island/helps him succeed and when icarus does fail his father is left imprisoned.... does that not happen to our icarus too.... does that not happen to his father also..... wild....

And take your time with your playlists, no rush ! A dude knows what its like tryin to make it Just Right

#snap chats #the icarus comparison is more ironic considering in the story icarus plummets to the ocean and drowns... #And If We Say Irony. Since Arakawa Was Dumped In The Ocean. lol.... #but noo i gotta be so guilty since growin up i always took Body as a trans allegory. or at least adjacent #and ik i havent breathed about it in Months but aoki did evoke trans energy... to me... to my delulu-ass brain... #but then i feel bad cause aspects of him that Yell trans to me are actually about his disability so i feel like im disregarding it #even tho thats not my intent i was just too silly playin y7 the first time around 😭☠️☠️ its generally why i dont talk bout it tbh.. #too delulu.. and i feel awkward talkin bout hcs like that BUT MOVING ON THIS IS NOT ABOUT THAT #either way body Does fit. esp with the whole Take My Lungs Take Them And Run bit ☠️ #Take My Tongue And Go Have Some Fun can also be representative of aoki’s influence and- apparently- the publics inclination to follow him #I.E. with His Tongue anything can be passed or anything that has his backing can be validated #BUT IM NOT HERE TO DO AN ANALYSIS ON MUSIC AND AOKI even if i really want to......... #i will say tho... im 90% sure theres a line about Taking Eyes but i cant look it up rn lest my tumblr app reser and i have to type all this #but anyway That Refers To This Bitch’s Eyesight Getting Worse #im gonna go listen to that song now its stuck in my head.. uh oh... #everyone always say Mother Mother is Basic and that may be true but so am i so let me listen while i be sad THANK YOU. #ok bye <3 ive prattled too long and my phone will surely die soon and i want One (1) listen in <3

[fairest-destroyer]

No. I am not making a super dope and fun nordverse H4X0R oc..

#I’m just making three of them #I love dumb but intricate lore #nordverse is so previous to me and probably only to me #I know it’s an elaborate ad #they don’t even try to pretend it isn’t at all #but the capitalism tastes so good when it’s bad 90s hackers themed #anyway I have two names/designs picked out and a look for a third one #PR3TTY1NP1NK182 #and #W3BW34V3R #are the two for sure names #and no one is allowed to look at me if I start shipping any of my ridiculously unnecessary ocs with canon verse characters #im very normal #critical role #nordverse

[bunnyb34r]

I got freeze dried skittles and I was so excited after hearing how AMAZING they are... they suck shdgdggdgdgdgdgd not worth the $8 I paid for this bag

Theyre also literally skittles they have the s and everything AGSGSGSGGS I thought maybe they made their own... nope

#i also got 3 packs of Japanese skittles and im VERY hopeful that the orange bag is the dessert skittle bag 👀 #the one ive been looking for since 2015 #marquilla #one is cherry blossom and idk what else but it has cherry blossoms and idk what the fuck the gold bag is sgdgdgdgdgd #they had japanese lays and doritos and i wanted to try them SO BAD but im 90% sure they had shellfish as an ingredient or soy and #id rather not sgdgdgdg id die #also they were spicy so i 100000% would die #i really liked that candy shoppe shdgdgdgdg maybe ill go again by myself one day when i know my cousin is working #not that she doesnt shop on her lunch sgdgdggdgdgdgd

[inhidingxoxo3637]

Mir really gonna make me become a Honda stan

#for the price of mir x honda i can get no-fear-of-acosta-going-to-honda-til-at-least-2025 #but im not sure that is a good deal #i made fun of the marquez stans having to deal w the honda bike in 2021 now look at me #RUINED #my beloved suzuki boys both FUCKED SIDEWAYS WITH A CHAIBSAWWWW #I would say a pro to this is Honda have some cute merch but #90% of honda merch is Marquez stuff </3 #my fav gets a seat but at what cost #hes gonna look so bad in the honda leathers i can't wait #oh tho w that said i think Honda should add more black to their leathers again Haydens Honda fit popped pussy #2004 hayden had so many rights #motogp #joan mir

[be-good-to-bugs]

2021 and 2022

#orbs art #oc #her hair is more pink-red but this was the only filter that didnt look like horrible trash so :/ #ibuprexulmethane #doodles #i dont actually remember drawing the first one so i dont even remember designing this character and im like. 90% sure its mine #but i do worry that maybe i actually drew someone elses oc but then totally forgot. which sounds weird but idk. my memory is so bad #tbh its more like 99% but. theres a tiny chance that i mightve just totally 4got. hopefully not uh #traditional art

[10-dutchies-12-bicycles]

HEY DO YALL THINK THE "/CHRONO" URL SUFFIX THING WOULD WORK FOR MY DRAFTS??????????

#timboblr #mine #ok listen. like. i have this problem right. i have like almost 30k drafts or sth. PROBLEM IS. like at least 20k drafts ago theres this one #post w a link to a website with NATURALLY COLORED COTTON YARN AND F.IBERS!!!!!! so like!!! for YEARS its been my dream to get some of that #green cotton. because!!!! every time you wash it the color becomes more pronounced bc!!!! the cotton IS FROM A GREEN COTTON PLANT BREED!!!! #literally so cool!!! they also had a bunch of brown and orange shades but its been my dream for YEARS to get some of their green stuff to #k.nit a tshirt with! and i also finally have a s.pinning wheel so i could buy their f.ibers as well!!!!! ANYWAY so my problem is ive looked #EVERYWHERE. google. duckduckgo. my chrome history. cleaned out my samsung browser tabs on my old phones (yes Plural) to see if it was there #AND I JUST CANT FIND IT!!!!! but im like 90% sure i saved that post as a draft!!! except.... that was like 5 yrs ago yanno..... #like at this point i suspect theyre just out of business or sth??? but i want some cotton like that SO! BAD!!!! i even looked at ravelry #for undyed colored cotton f.ibers/yarns and stuff like. i want this so bad!!! worst case scenario find the link on web archive yanno??? T_T #OOOO I HAVENT TRIED ASKING PPL IN THE RAVELRY FORUMS YET THO 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔 okay that will be plan J then. anyway back to plan F #but yea basically if the chrono thing works on drafts that would save me like 20+k posts to wade thru!!!!

[mxdotpng]

ive been playing tales of arise lately and hmmm im not sure how i feel about the game. i think i could summarize my thoughts as "just okay" but i dont think thatd be right either

#.text #tales #its like ummm. the first few hours of the game are rlly boring to me ❤️ #i got out of calaglia and the game felt a lot better to play. i tended to play abt 90 minutes at a time while still in calaglia and #it took forever to get out of there bc it was just ummm. boring. #and i cant say cyslodia is much better tbh i feel like its generally the same but also no its not? it feels more fluid and #i think the characters feel better in this part. its weird. im not sure how to describe it #when i looked up the game to see how people thought of it it was more or less just a lot of 'has anyone even played this game' and 'no' #which isnt bad u know but i think its RLLY fuckin funny. ive seen some people say it gets rlly good but also i just dont see it yet #i mean i bought it so ofc im GONNA finish it. like the idea they have seems rlly cool... a guy who's memories are seemingly #sealed away inside the indestructable mask hes forced to wear and who can feel no pain. & a girl who inflicts pain upon everyone #she touches. i think shionne suffers a bit from her character writing but she has moments that make her really shine so #im not gonna judge her too hard for it yet. emotions also might be tied to her curse so u know. like i said. not judging yet. #and tbh i think id say the exact same for alphen. sometimes hes really interesting and fun and other times he feels really #stagnant and emotionless. ray chase is doomed to play the exact same character for every role hes in #he was at his best when he played brother nier in replicant and i can see pieces of that in alphens character as the game goes on so #im willing to wait for him as well. rinwell is really cute even if her and shionne's relationship is annoying. i see where its coming #from but i also just hate it when women in media Hate Eachother. what i have against those 2 is literally JUST me so u know #like i said 'just okay' isnt. Accurate but it also ISNT accurate. i dont know how to describe it. #i feel like what they wanted to go for in terms of story and themes was missed for the first part of the story by like a lot #not sure what my feelings are for that one but they arent positive. but like i just think calaglia overall sucked #its weird. like the writing REALLY feels like they just started Actually Caring once we got to cyslodia. its strange #but like whatever. ill See. ill see. eventually. probably. #summary: noctis lucis caelum is in this game.

[zanathan-aisling]

brain. please.

#its 'sleep debt' i'm like 90% sure but i'm in such an easily uh. reactible? triggerable???? my brain sees stimulus and starts slamming #buttons. #i'm fully composed just like - i saw some furries that looks similar to character featured in NOT BAD but emotionally challenging (to my #personal foibles the art itself was quite wholesome) art that lives rent free in this one out-of-the-way but easily-seen-in-passing part of #my brain and my heart just sank like a fucking ROCK lmao #followed by the actually rather excited (because i don't actually bear the particular art i was reminded by ill will) going to figure out i #it was The Same Artist - wasn't! made sense the masc one was much better put together #for the record the other art was characters wholesomely discovering their sexualities to be Different than they previously knew. #of course my gender/sexuality ocd self hears that and feels like she's being boiled alive ha-ha~! #significantly more offended that a sicko from the *other* side of the fence saw it though and thought #'oh this will go great in the same pool as a load'a dykebreaking crap!!!' ITS CUTE AND SWEET AND THEYRE TEXTUALLY BI ASSHOLE #like one of the images is poorly worded who cares jump off a cliff #(found the art looking up 'insert normie term for gnc masc x gnc fem' stuff i wasn't even trying to gaze at THAT abyss) #....lowkey hate it that aesthetically a solid chunk of my preferences are trapped in 'femboy x tomboy' art like... #bro those aren't the genders i want/need sdhgdsklsgdhlk i can close my brain and pretend its not what the lore says but how fucking hard is #it to find decent sapphic art with trans women in it where they AREN'T big boobie breasted transitioning-like #(i literally have ocs that are t4t lesbians who are virtually indistinguishable not-being-furries-aside from some of the art i've found its #god it fucking kills me i need to get more comfortable drawing for PLEASUREEEEE AAAAAAAAAAA) #but those sorts of 'noone quite makes what i wanna see. i wanna draw it.' moods ALWAYS JUST FUCKING GO AWAY ONCE I GET MORE ENERGY IN ME TO #DO THINGS!!!!! I'M ONLY CREATIVELY ENERGIZED WHEN IM FUCKING NAPPING WHEN I'M AWAKE ITS EITHER HYPERFIXATION OR BIDEO GAMES #AND LIKE. I HAVE LONG TERM ART PROJECTS IN THE HYPERFIXATION ZONE. BUT THAT ISN'T THE FUN SHIT I COULD BE DOING IN THE MEANTIME #-WHICH'D ACTUALLY HELP PRACTICE FOR THE BIG LEAGUES!!!!!!!! #god i'm getting a headache. wanted to get to bed early today. its still early for me despite being 1:00 but like STILL phooey