#and lots of pent up stuff

[rennyrose]

Crybaby scribs

#kinda like the thot™️ that yeah Liv is the crybaby and has earned the nickname but when Raz cries it’s either very messy or a full meltdown #just a 0 to 60 with the waterworks pfpfffft #big dude with bigger emotions kind of thing #and lots of pent up stuff #trigun #trigun maximum #livio the double fang #razlo the trip of death #Trimax #trigun manga #drawing #sketch #digital art #art #fan art

[enhanced-operatives-division]

Points at you. 10 and/or 11 for starstruck?

Two starstruck asks,,,,,,joy of joys,,

Part of an ask game linked here.

#10. What's an au you have for them?

Since them meeting at all is technically an AU i have 3 different ways that they do meet up. There's the one where Juniper ends up with the agency/adjacent to and ends up working with Reggie (have written a fic with this). The next one is Juniper surviving but basically going stealth and living as normal of a life as he can and ending up meeting Reggie through chance (most recent fic I've written). And then there's my personal favourite where Reginald "You're lucky my tracking skills are still up to snuff" Crane keeping himself busy after Phoenix was MIA and finding Juniper still alive (fic I want to write but haven't started mainly because it may end up multi chapter).

In terms of more AU canon bending taking them and putting them in a completely unrelated situation...I have a guilty pleasure Warrior Cats AU for IEYTD in general. Both JJ and Reggie have perfect warrior cats suffixes in their names already (Juniper and Crane) so they're called Junipersong (charcoal bengal) and Craneflight (tabby Norwegian forest cat). It's very silly but the amount of scenes I have in my mind for it...good lord...

#11. How was their first kiss like?

Augh my friend Imp wrote an absolutely excellent fic about it (tragically in the realm of unfinished Google docs) and I'm shaking their hand about it so hard. Basically Juniper kissing Reggie but he like wasn't ready/fully expecting it and Juniper absolutely panicking because he thinks he's misread every interaction between them both since they got closer. The second one is much sweeter though,,

#realised i phrased all the fics ive written like those ghosts that haunted scrooge #ah yes the fic of starstuck past #the fic of starstruck present and the fic of starstruck yet to come. it's so dumb #and uhh for the warrior cats thing um. of course they aren't purebreds minus Juniper who used to be a kittypet (housecat) but - #- it was moreso for easy description #reggie is fluffy but he's not quite maine coonf fluffy...norwegan forest cat was a nice middle ground...still gets big guy points too #also um side note roxanix in that au um. they adopted a kit as a stand in for robutler in that au...... #also solaris is a VERY grumpy warrior turned medicine cat annnnd thats about all I have fully hashed out in my mind for it so far #im so torn abt also having triple threat.....extra large polycule where phoenix is just intimidated by the others prism is dating lmao #ANYWAYS ENOUGH ABOUT THE WARRIOR CATS AU #can you tell I have a special interest in cats/warrior cats. oh how I miss drawing cats. but I must learn people. for the brainworms...ouuu #i don't have much else to say on that second question other than....AUUUUUUGH they're so. there's so much pent up stuff. #like for JJ it's the first time he's let himself actually love another man the way he wants to while for Reggie it's a lot of - #- realising JJ is trying to be a better person while still ackowleging the fact that he did bad??? basically second chance yada yada #man. i love these two #ik im a broken ass reccord but I've never proactively posted abt them outside the last couple months and it's been so theraputic #ty for the ask it was fun :3c #ieytd #starstruck #junicrane #ask game #not tagging them specifically I don't wanna clog up tags too much #god WHY do i have such an issue eith that. mental issue. anyways

[simlit]

3, 6, 7, 9, 13, 19, 22, 24, 25, for VEN

What is your OCs fatal flaw? Are they aware of this flaw?

In his current state? Probably his selflessness. He gives too much to people and has a hard time drawing lines if it's someone he deeply cares about. Case in point, letting Naida more or less railroad the entire family into chasing the Fountain of Youth. In his defense, Naida isn't really someone you can win fights against, but considering the dangerous nature of the voyage, one would think he should have fought against it a lot harder. I do think he's aware of it, but not in a way he can actively check, because it's a lot of him overcompensating for the way he used to be and the things he's done. So I guess a larger and probably more fatal flaw is the fact that he carries around so much guilt and does a lot in the name of reparations.

How easily could your OC be convinced to do something that goes against their moral compass?

Easily, but tbh I feel this is one thing Ven shares with Kato. His morals can be bent depending on who is involved and the consequence of the situation. Ven isn't standing on moral highground in the first place, despite understanding right and wrong well enough. He certainly doesn't care enough about authority not to break rules, and as far as life or death is concerned, a life will always matter less to him if they're at odds with someone he loves. That being said, I think he's resourceful enough to find ways around making risky choices.

What's one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

Also a really fun question, cuz I haven't thought about it in years LOL. Though Ven stayed mostly the same from conception, he was supposed to be a bit more "roguish" even after his Reaper years. More of the typical pirate: loose, unkempt and thieving. But he ended up being way more charitable and straightlaced than I'd initially planned, but that ironed itself out almost immediately so I don't really consider it to have been "the plan" just "what I had had in mind at some point" lmao. Now the idea of Ven sleeping around with literally anyone is goddamn baffling to me.

Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

Every single word of his theme song, "The Balancer's Eye" by Lord Huron, but all of this: Nothing's waiting for us in the great sky Life is equal to dust in the Balancer's eye Now I know that I can't lift an old curse Tell me, how does a man change the universe? Will I ever be forgiven for the crime of my life? Will it haunt me till I die? To the end of time?

If you met your OC, would the two of you get along?

I think Ven is one of the few characters I can genuinely answer "yes" to this question lmao. Just because Ven is hands down the least judgmental of my OCs, not to mention packing all that charisma, he can literally talk to anyone. Although I probably would just be dead on the floor so it wouldn't be a very interesting conversation.

How does your OC behave when enraged?

We so rarely see Ven angry. Honestly, a bit like Kyrie, Ven has a quiet temper. He's good at restraining himself now, because he knows intimately well just how horrible of a person he can be, so he makes a concerted effort never to let anything get him that upset. Mostly, things don't anger him as much as he may be disappointed or saddened. There is one scene in OST:O I've had planned for years that actually showcases Ven's true anger and it is very much "silent and lethal" lmao.

What character alignment would you consider your OC to be?

Oof, I dunno, somewhere between neutral good and chaotic neutral. Hard to pinpoint lol

What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone done? How different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?

Oh, this one is interesting. I think Ven could have easily continued down the path he started on when he got the sight. That is, had he not been able to pull himself back from that maniacal person he'd become as consequence, he'd be unrecognizable today. That's not to say he isn't already because he absolutely was that person for a moment in time. The Reaper King wasn't just a persona, it was his entire essence. He was ruthless, violent and he did very literally kill dozens (I won't say 100s but it's up there) of people. We like to imagine him as the loving father and perfect husband he is now, but outside of maybe Elsera he's my OC with the highest bodycount. And while in a way you could justify he killed people because "they deserved to die" he was never in the right to pass that judgement. Had he not eventually woken up from that state of trauma and derangement, he'd still be a completely unstable murderous lunatic .-.

What is your favorite thing about your OC?

How hot he is. The end.

#jade babbles #ec: ven bellamy #ask game #this is old but I needed a mental break #I've been working a lot of 12 hour days and im just so tired #not having time or energy to do creative stuff gets me so pent up too #I only have one day of this left but tonight was just getting rough so I needed to do something for myself #thank god I ignored this when aymay sent it in the first place LOL #also I was reading back on ost:o and bellamies and getting nostalgic #anyways I get one troll answer bye :squidwardasleep:

[kyouka-supremacy]

Does anyone know where I can find the good quality version of this image? It's so frustrating because when cross searching on google it'll tell me the original quality is 850x478, but I can't find a way to download it in that quality. This is another version of the image (I'm guessing it's Mayoi promo art):

But I liked the clean white background one...

#It's cute... #It's got Akutagawa stealing glances at Atsushi #Thought asking was worth a try ;;;;;; #Google cross image search has changed and as someone who used it as I use breathing it's been absolutely heartbreaking. #It makes cross searching images so much harder it's awful #Because before when you looked up an image it suggested you the best quality avaible of that image. #And the search got worse every year but it was still functional you know?? #But now there's not that anymore. There's no “large” “medium” “small” and instead it only gives you “find image source” #Dude I don't want to find the image source. I've downloaded the image I KNOW the source. What I want is ANOTHER SOURCE with better quality #And I used to get it when I was 10 and I used to get it when I was 15 and I sued to get it when I was 20 #And now I don't have it anymore?? It stripes away one of the most powerful search tools on the internet from the public???? #It drives me insane. Like why does internet get worse every year that's not how humanity is supposed to work #Sorry. I needed to rant. This makes every quality-freak media archivist (like me) job harder beyond comparison #Btw if you're looking for an alternative Yandex images still does the work... It's not as powerful search engine as google #and it's often going to miss the particular hidden media (y'know- super niche Akutagawa merch from 2018 and stuff) #But for the rest it does a pretty good job. If anything there's still the best quality avaible option #But seriously looking up stuff for aktgw-daily has gotten so much harder ever since this fucked up change to google lens #and it makes me hate the world. I haven't been able to find a way to reverse it but if anyone more tech savy than me who has any idea- #what I'm talking about can help me. Please please hmu I'll be grateful forever #Sorry for the rant I have a lot of pent up rage over this. Stop making broke people's lives harder challenge #random rambles

[somelazyassartist]

#dealing with a lot of feelings right now. just all of them i guess #I've had some good stuff too but it's mostly been idk. jealousy. grief. anger. homesickness. a lot of stuff for a lot of reasons #it's been weighing on me for a while but it just all kinda snapped last night #I'm feeling a little better after getting some of that anger out and venting it through Vikki but it's still there #but it'll get better now that it's not completely pent up i guess #just been having kinda a rough one for a bit. but I'll be fine #it's not meant to be. #three eyed cats in my living room #vicoros #vicoros nightbreeze #vent

[zorasapphires]

ive had a shit week ok and also like i need to pay eastlink but the site is down. i need an installment system on my fine but they wont just give u one they have to get you to upload all your income info first and i cant deal with that. i go ok ill buy that wifi extender ive been meaning to buy and the jaycar website is down. i go to play ffxiv and theres an update, of course i forgot i havent played in 3 months of course there is an update. and itll take over an hour to download.

i still havent got a full nights sleep in my new house. i slept til 12:30 today to try and catch up on sleep (i usually wake up at like 730 on the weekend)

anyway these are just the small things i wanted to vent about lol bigger things happened and im just o|-<

#a student walked into my class and started beating up another student so that really kicked my week off #ive been teaching 2 vce classes im not ready for #and just generally Not Feeling Great about teaching right now #oh and the real estate agents got back to me and they wont fix the things i requested bc there not bound by law to fix those things #my fucking bad for wanting to live in a nice house :) #anyway i hate them so much that now i dont even want to garden anymore bc i dont want the landlord to benefit from MY gardening #as u can tell i have a lot of pent up stuff i did not mean to type this much #thoughts live stream

[oloreaa]

Hi guys🥺

#so. yeah. #i am currently living across the globe atm so lifes a mess and studies and family stuff and everything #like there is a lot going on #and i really miss home #but its gonna be alright so im clinging onto that #there has never been a time in my life where i wished that winter would come faster #but this year winter means going back to my love #so winter cant come soon enough #other than that its just been kinda lonely in the huge city with so many people and no one you really know #i have promised myself to start writing again tho so hopefully the time here can be used to get rid of all the pent up yearning lol #so yeah. short version lifes a mess and im trying to cope as good as i can </3 #rea rambles

[edwardshundredyearoldspunk]

I tried making a no bake cheesecake and but wanted to see if it was true that evaporated milk whips like whipping cream (it does) but I forgot that you have to cream the cream cheese first so when I added it it didn't really mix well and left a bunch of little lumps of cream cheese and idk the batter tasted good but I'm just so disappointed I was so looking forward to making this but now I'm so upset with the lumpy batter that I'm not even excited to try it and I'm run-on-sentencing too

#this kind of stuff usually wouldn't bother me #but it's just that these past few days haven't been great and i can feel myself becoming very overwhelmed with pent up frustration #and a lot of my joy was in looking forward to making this cheesecake #and i don't know I'm just upset and allowing myself to be upset #just gonna lay down for a while and then I'll wake up and eat cottage cheese looking cheesecake #it's whatever

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

Stg if I cry on my lunch break instead of on the clock...

#I'm fine just a lot of pent up stuff bubbling around #Personal #post o' mine

[brbremaking]

sending myself down ollie au rabbit hole

#okay so what if Ollie but. he still has his kids but he gets them a lot younger and he’s still single dadding it. how does he cope with #the things he’d usually go off and isolate himself about? does he still do it? I wanna say no but he pays the price for it mentally #I love him he’s my dad but every day my brain is like what if he just had a really bad time and we watch like he’s in a fish tank #I don’t think he’d be a Bruce flavour bad dad bc of it I just think he’d be climbing the walls and kinda insufferable but also like. #self destructive. sending the kids to uncle Hal’s or Dinah’s for a week so he can drink himself stupid and burn off all that pent up energy #what if I wrote this stuff properly instead of making dumb text posts? what if I didn’t wanna make myself sad about Ollie all the time? #anyway. #Ollie thoughts #i need a self obsessed tag #parent ment in tags #I think he’d do his usual trying but not always hitting the mark 100% as a parent esp if he’s dealing with that shit but still beats bruce #zh writes

[spookyfloof]

Sorry to my upstairs and downstairs neighbors for screaming randomly but also I'm not sorry because I will probably do it again

#autism stuff #actuallyautistic #anything to do with college overwhelms me and i had a lot pent up #i needed to scream but it only helped a #little

[caestusarchivum]

writing what you know as a general thing is really fun for me, and bc I know some people say my portrayal of hikari's adhd is important to them, i will absolutely continue to do so.

#ooc | field of clover #plus its therapeutic as shit for me to write! #anyway hikari is innatentive type with some hyperactive presentation ( but not enough to qualify for the mixed presentation diagnosis ) #according to the dsm-v #but the works out to expend what energy she DOES have pent up and enjoys it quite a lot #so like throwback to that one tumblr post where those kids had undiagnosed adhd and their mom was making them chop wood n stuff and op was #like 'yeah apparently she was medicating us and had no fucking idea' #and due to cis women in healthcare getting overlooked with mental disorders ( adhd in particular ) hikari was not diagnosed until she was #17 years old

[rockband2]

me initially: nooo, i'm not gonna give wherewolf a heat/rut cycle that would be too much

not even a week later: oh but it would be so fun :)

#my stuff #difficulty: expert #local tour: wherewolf [he/him] #his season only lasts a few days and happens every 3-4 months instead of 2 weeks once a year. #its more intense if it lines up with the full moon of course <3 #monster guy who normally strives to have a lot of self-control and humanity suddenly having that all ripped away from him yayy ^-^ #hes normally very chill/submissive so anyone who sees him all aggressive and pent-up like this is like 'woah what happened to you' #OUGHH i gotta draw him after a show like this or something teehee #being really restless/snappy and not 100% knowing why... :) #smiles cutely. i love being mean to him #hes also def the kind of guy who would be really embarrassed to buy any kind of sex toy soooo i imagine he finds himself buying #new bedding and stuff. every few months. partially because he has a tendency to bite things really hard. and he has claws.

[waywardsalt]

the dilemma of having ideas that would be best expressed as comics but being afraid to draw

#im gonna give it an actual shot sometime soon. maybe in a sort of storyboard kinda look so i can give myself acceptable room for error #anyways. linebeck comic idea. kinda in vein with that ‘everyone on mercay knows linebeck’ had going on hang on #salty talks #i love using mask stuff with linebeck. both in an autism sense and i nthe general sense that he has multiple different outward fronts for #different situations. the idea that he lets other people decide on those masks for him and he goes along w what they might want #to see from him. not really in a people-pleasing way more in a way to get what he wants and avoid getting hurt or. whatever criticized ig #but its to the degree where his actual self is very… repressed? stunted? restless? he doesnt actually act like himself a lot and the maskin #tires him out and drives him to despise others bc he does it as a sort of defense mechanism and to get what he wants so in a sense whats #under those masks has turned into almost like a muzzled beast. hes abrasive and resentful and exhausted and just a lot of pent up nastiness #like there are times when he drops the mask and its fine (like when he does it around link in ph or. like. if hes in a good mood #but a lot of the time that pent up masked resentment is what bubbles up to the surface when hes alone and he finds ways to utilize it #this leads into the idea that all of that pent-up… frustration? with SO MUCH gets wrangled by bellum n used as motivation for bellumbeck #like. i do like the idea that bellumbeck is an awful fulfillment of a lot of things for linebeck. a chance to actually be able to protect #himself in a fight but also a brief outlet for every awful thought he’s repressed and shoved down. some of those bad thoughts being directe #at link ofc like theres a lot of envy and frustration there and it does lead to a lot of the guilt he feels afterwards. i like the line abt #him asking link if he knows he wouldnt hurt him is like him just saying that but also asking himself. like. he was forced to act on bad #thoughts yknow so then hes afraid of what that makes him even if it was forced. anyways. linebeck acting differently to get what he wants #and burying and allowing his actual nature to fester and become resentful until he finally drops that mask shit and airs it out #just some assorted linebeck thoughts here. taking whats a puddle in canon and turning that shit into a sea bc why not. this idea probably #doesnt come across in any of my current fics but i want to do smth with it going forward yknow #linebeck ideas. yippee. idk how far into ooc territory im in now and at this point i dont fucking care cuz im tired of worrying abt it

[hyah-lian]

when I get my own house I am straight up having a sensory room I am going to have a tent with weighted blankets in it and noise canceling headphones. i am going to have a sandbox or a dirt box or both. i am going to have a big ass tub with a mist setting on the shower head. so many biteable objects you don't even know. S T R O B E L I G H T S and big ass bean bag chairs and floor cushions and it will be laminate or tile floor or those plastic chair mats because carpet is awful thanks for coming to my "I have been inside for too long and stayed understimulated to try and be able to mask and fit in and cope at work that now i am going slightly feral for need of touch sand and dirt and loud sounds and sensory input and social" TED talk

#am struggling to read things i want to or watch things i want to #bc too much pent up static #also been talking a lot about fairies again and im sonhype about that stuff and oceans and horror and i am just so filled with passion #for my interests *