#and networked with a bunch of people

[pekasairroc]

Ah, Ignaz Semmelweis. I described you as “a bit of a dick about hand hygiene, understandably, and the guy who shouldn’t have been the one to figure it out.” The lady giving the introduction and history before the opera called you “an ass” which is also fair and true. You really did try to help.

#holly does epi #went to the ✨opera✨ about the quote father of hand hygiene #and networked with a bunch of people #including the lady who gave that presentation #after chatting about syphillis and Blades In The Dark with my friends who also went #a day in the life of a holly

[villainihavedonethymotheronao3]

one of the last barriers keeping jester from sending ludinus da'leth the most threatening four part save the date to her wedding has finally been removed. only the cage surrounding the moon still protects him.

#critical role #critical role spoilers #'hey beau and caleb say you're uhhhh busy taking over the moon people which is BAD and you should feel bad and honestly i don't' #'i don't know if your energy is matching our party plans right now but you DID send a really cool fruit basket to my gallery' #'opening AND you hired the shipping company a bunch and fjord is trying to figure out this networking thing so anyways if you're still' #'a super important guy by like... late spring? you can come to the reception at the lavish chateau. ask caleb for our registry. byeeee!'

[salamispots]

dream from three days ago

#dream diary #flotsam diaries #sketchbook stuff #something something a bunch of huge ass crocodiles in this sewer network basement thing and people were trying #to petition to reopen this old tunnel that led to one of the great lakes that apparently was 3000 feet deep so they could have space #and if you gave them yellow apples/asian pears they would leave you alone #also huh starting to slowly have dreams again; kinda had a period of time where it wasn't on a regular basis

[butchsophiewalten]

“Jenny lived a very normal and fulfilled life, y'know? She just, like, lived in the suburbs, with supporting people in her life." Looks like we all have to kill ourselves now

donnt even worry im ignoring this paert 👍 he doesnt know her like i do

#ask #this is a joke #in actuality this isn't honestly all that dissimilar from how i've always thought of jenny #because even though i've always imagined jenny's home life as being pretty fraught #all the same i've imagined her as someone who still managed to find a support network in the form of her friends #where like. she gets to know a bunch of other queer people in Brighton and those end up being the people she really relies on #where the point is just that Jenny has had some privilege and some social cushion that Sophie simply hasn't #so their behavior and their outlook on the world is foundationally different #Maybe this sounds like i am coping. Maybe i am. i simply wannt my jenny ideas to coexist with filecanon ❤

[gorps]

ai art discourse is driving me up the wall. how are you mad at the neural networks and not capitalism. the problem is that we’ve built a system where being automated out of a job is bad (can’t make money) rather than its “natural” state of being good (don’t have to do work). You also aren't going to get this technology to go away by being mad at it and refusing to understand how it works. AI artists are going to do 1000x more than you to push ethical AI usage if your only position is "AI evil, don't ever use it no matter what, and AI art isn't real art"

#hi dakota :) #im gonna regret this post for sure #excited to get a bunch of comments from people who dont know how neural networks work

[pherre]

i literally forgot how it is liking tv shows that arent hyper popular because man does it suck that they have to make an ending that at least seemingly wraps up the story because they dont want to leave it on a cliffhanger if they get canceled

#the fact that they were more confident in this aspect in s1 is crazyyyy but i think having a fanbase changes the outlook quite a bit #now they have the threat of disappointing actual human people hanging over them #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers #i want to say it used to be less dire for tv shows like that but thats not true lmao #some networks are just more forgiving than others and hbo max is arguably the wir #worst* of the bunch

[danielpowell]

Find it very interesting that Chai is labeled as a slacker and is on paper having no prior work experience + is called an idiot on several occasions + is stated to be a college dropout

And somehow he managed to get into college in the first place

I'm going to be contrarian and say this man actually had a scholarship but struggled with certain aspects of academia, consequently losing the funding he needed and forcing him to struggle to find a career with no credentials and no experience

#mel talks hi fi rush #you can find ways to get through school by doing the bare minimum #and with how Chai is I'm willing to bet he saddled up a bunch of extracurriculars that helped him qualify #for said scholarships #I would even goes as far to say he is fully capable of studying things he has interest in but #lacked a support network to assist with things he struggled with #and who is to say he didn't do odd jobs or run errands to get enough to survive #but had no idea how to put that in a resume #the beacon (original intro song / streamer mode version) has very telling lyrics to me #also unrelated but the disability commentary is there and it leaves such an impact in my eyes #will one day make a post talking about my favorite line #edit: saw a lot of people saying it's not a serious game so Chai might have just dropped out to get said arm #which I'm not... a fan of #I could see the possibility and 100% get behind the reasoning #and still manage to make it super angsty because (vague gesture) #but this makes way more sense to me personally #gods is it apparent I have no one to infodump and discuss this game with

[thenegoteator]

things heating up in the karate club fandom (Zachary's 1977 information flow model for conflict and fissions in small groups)

#she speaks #school shenanigans #it's a network analysis thing about the flow of information and the example is a karate club that eventually split #because the instructor wanted more pay and the committee didn't want to pay him more #and it turns out one of the last people to join a faction was a guy who was about to get his black belt #and would have had to start over if he stuck with the committee so he tossed his hat in with the instructor #truly riveting stuff. plus a bunch of math

[arolesbianism]

I’ve been thinking abt one of my older oni colonies and decided to doodle my first three dupes in that save

#keese draws #oxygen not included #but yeah these guys were my main scientist digger and rancher respectively #this was one of my actual spaced out style saves so ofc I chose the cold asteroid still #it was painful opening this save again to look at their traits as it was basically my first longer attempt #let’s just say I had no idea what I was doing and ran out of power literally everywhere #might do a rescue attempt on this save tbh sounds like a fun challenge #but yeah I actually have characterizations for most of the dupes in this save in my head they’re like semi ocs to me #they’re the ones I like to imagine fumbling about post olivia entering sleep mode #cause there’d be such a harsh contrast in how they’d all react and move forwards #burt in particular would take it rly hard mostly because he’s the only scientist #so everyone ends up looking to him for answers and help and he just doesn’t know how to provide any of it #he had already spent so long feeling overworked and under appreciated so this wouldn’t help at all #quinn on the other hand is generally more optimistic as they have gone through a lot of rough shit and made it out on the other side #so they see this as an obstacle they’ll all overcome and grow stronger from #they’re also just very used to being suddenly forced to say goodbye to people for potentially forever #harold was almost relieved by the whole event because it lead to a lot less activity in the neural chip network #which is in fact a big source of panic for most of the dupes but harold pretty much exclusively goes to like 3 rooms so he’s not as effected #he also just doesn’t like the noise of the hundreds of commands that he can’t even follow #he just manages the plants and the pips and sometimes helps with the cooking #he honestly really likes the freedom of figuring out what to do without instruction #as the pip farm he manages is very. well let’s just say pips tend to starve in there a lot #yknow thankfully I did give these guys a bunch of phones so at least they’d be able to still know what’s up with eachother still #still an uncomfortable feeling loosing that connection that you’ve been relying on for years

[bassforte]

The Megaman Battle Network experience is thinking you are going through the main plot of the story, beating up a bunch of really tough enemies and gathering some good chips…

Only to realize you are not in fact following the main story and have instead just went through a bunch of optional areas and your chips are kind of op for where you’re at.

#megaman #mega man #mmbn #mmbn1 #megaman battle network #for context i didn’t know you had to talk to a bunch of people to gather all of the w3 codes #i only talked to Higsby and basically grabbed the knight sword and hero sword and got stuck #i then had to look up where to go only to realize the story needed me to find 3 people outside #ive been trying to play this game blind but i literally had to cave bECAUSE THEY REALLY DON’T MAKE IT CLEAR ON WHERE TO GO #bassforte ramblings

[kristsune]

There was a delightful amount of shenanigans during the gaming portions of the last tma2 kickstarter stream, as per usual. Martyn added more than his fair share of the chaos that resulted in said shenanigans. Screenshots taken from each session.

#rusty quill #tma2 #tmagp #tmagp stream #alexander j newall #helen gould #martyn pratt #jonny sims #there are also a bunch of people from the network #and others from rq #but its so many names #so i apologize for not tagging them all #my audio #alex talking about beating martyn at smash bros is directly referencing the tweet i @'d him in on twitter #thanks to martyn #i dearly hope he does #cannot wait to see them destroy each other on martyn's stream

[coffee-at-annies]

I keep wondering how I’m gonna watch pirates baseball next year. I guess Bob Nutting will either make a deal with Fenway/NESN/SP or the MLB for broadcasts but it’s not gonna be as nice as stealing my parents cable and watching their AT&T Sportsnet. Also I have 0 faith in Nutting or Pirates management which makes it harder to trust that there’s gonna be a good deal in place by spring training.

#chit chat #anne watches baseball #I know everyone is having emotions about hockey because there’s only like 3 pirates fans on here #as someone who has watched a bunch of pirates games this year I understand why no one wants to watch pirates games #(she says while watching the second inning of a pirates game) #but like also there’s a bunch of people doing pirates stuff for the network and I don’t want them to lose their jobs #I dunno ill get in my feels about hockey when there’s games happening #there’s baseball happens so I’m gonna be in my feels about that

[casual-eumetazoa]

I’m re-reading the 25k-ish words that I’ve written for FrankensteinWIP so far and man, it’s been so long since I actually enjoyed reading back my own text. It’s not the kind of literary prose I wish I could do, but it’s so distinctnly mine, and this book in general is such a self-indulgent project, it makes me happy just to work on it. 

On the other hand, I’m realizing more and more that I can’t juggle PhD school, youtube, and writing all at the same time. And logically I should prioritize youtube over writing because it has at least some sort of potential to become my full time job, but it hurts so much to post these videos that I spend months on and get like, a couple hundred views and 10 comments. So I would much rather focus on novels, but it makes me feel guilty. I feel like I haven’t had any sort of success with youtube yet because I don’t try hard enough, don’t post often enough, etc etc.

Doing the PhD is great because my workload is not insane, I get paid pretty well, and I love the people at my institute. I do have to manage my energy levels incredibly well and I end up burn out every few months anyway, but I make it work. Still, eventually I will graduate and will need to get a real job... and I don’t know if I can do it. Like, I don’t know if I will be able to hold a full-time post-doc position, especially a tenure track one. Especially if my chronic illnesses will keep detereorating. 

I’m hoping that after I graduate I will be able to scrape enough science writing and tutoring hours together to work part-time from home, and have time for youtube and writing. Doesn’t look very achievable now cause any freelance like this requires self-promo, and it seems like I really suck at it. But a boy can dream I guess.

#personal #random #not my best few weeks tbh #some good things are happening like #i had a whole bunch of scares about my legal stay here but it was granted a couple days ago #so a year from now i'll be able to apply for citizenship and then actually change my legal name as well #but yeah. constantly feeling like i have no energy to do the things i love #and screaming into the void with creative stuff #are both not very fun #im in a discord server with a whole bunch of video essayists #and literally everyone has more subs than me. out of like. 20-30 people #we were all shouted out in the same way by bigger youtubers - once - and it did kinda help #like going from 100 subs to 400 is definitely something #and that video got around 2k views now #but that's basically it #everyone else manages to network and put out more stuff and collaborate and shout each other out #i get some likes maybe. occcasionally a comment #no one has ever shared me on their community page. not even when they collab with me #and i feel like my videos dont do well in the algorithm cause people just dont click on videos that have less than 1k views #so im just kinda stuck. i can't like #outright beg to be shared or reblogged #i do what i can and it doesn't work #so i really just want to give up #cause after 2 years of pouring my heart an soul into every video they are still going nowhere #but im constantly tortured by the what if #cause every next video might be The One #it feels like querying all over again #anyway idk why im typing all this #not a good few weeks. especially the last few days...

[iminaworldofpureimagination]

so the velma show isnt as terrible as i thought it was and im kinda annoyed about that oddly enough i wanted to hate it but i dont i feel the mysterish hooks ya a bit but the main problem is velma

I dont like Velma in it.. she's the mouthpiece for the creators viewpoints and her viewpoints kinda suck. she just isnt that likeable. and i have a lot of favs that are worse but the prob is she's condecending she comes off as Imbetterthanothers and that just not fun to watch i dont like smug people..

not thrilled on what they did to fred either.. (fred is not a whiny littlebitch gosh being feminist isnt about hatingmen)

also is mindy transphobic for liking a jkr post? very possible.. hense im pirating it otherwise id prob watch it legally.. shameif it didnt disrespect former scoob fans/came off as condecending // had better writting/ it wouldnt be too bad.

i give it a 5/10

#velma show #it prob was originally meant to be its own SHOW #but networks hate original ideas i mean the ppg dude had a bunch of em #and networks went nah just do ppg again #its sad really networks are afraid of new ideas #it really feels like the rightwings view point on woke people family guy style if that makes any sense

[fakeoldmanfucker]

...the way that Andrew Garfield in Tick Tick Boom is playing Jesse Eisenberg in The Social Network...

#finn go to sleep challenge #no no but both jonathan and mark demonstrate that sort of obsessed artist #even if in mark's case the 'art' is facebook #tick tick boom #the social network #andrew garfield #jesse eisenberg #finn's flailings #sorry adding more tags cause i can't stop drawing parallels #it's about the draw of a city to follow your obsession even though it means leaving people you care about behind #it's the self-righteousness that makes you So Sure it's work it because you're right. you Have to be right #or else you've hurt a bunch of people for no reason #of course you could argue that jonathan comes to understand his errors while mark doesn't #then again you could argue they both come to understand their errors #the inability to listen to other people (unless they're telling you what you want to hear) until it's too late #your best friend who you get into a fight with is somehow involved in advertising #new york might as well be a character in and of itself

[euargh]

I love Spamton and the Addisons so much. I write my bad fanfictions with them a lot to pretend I have a friendship family such as theirs to block out the reality of how alone and mistreated I am irl lmao. I badly wish a friendship family like the Addisons, but that can’t happen and won’t exist so... fictional world to reside in it is then. Yes, I am a VERY sad person, lulz. Speaking of which, oh man it’s Christmas Eve, I better work on another chapter of the Addisons Sitcom. I need to have Pink want to be the center of attention and break everything in a comical manner. I don’t know why I like making Pink this blood thirsty person while remaining elegant. It’s just funny to me. but oh man I also need to complete the secret santa giftart. arughskj art is always such a chore for me. wish it were fun and easy like it is for most people. I only find writing to be fun for me, depending what it is. Like having to respond back to people or RP’s is also a chore at times. urgh, hate how my brain is so... lame and finds everything a chore nowadays. Drank this energy drink and now I have a migraine.

#rambling #blogging #excuse my excessive ramblings #probably the energy drink #which i'll end up burning out quickly and lay on the floor and not accompliish anything #why do i enter these things only to not complete anything #i suppose to give myself something to focus on and do so i won't feel empty #then i don't do anything #urghhhh i'm so lame euarkdjkfj #anyways i have cartoon network's livestream playing in the background christmas specials #having a bunch of noises playing at once helps me focus sometimes #do i have adhd? urghhhh #i once tried to have a serious conversation with my sis' on that because i was upset at never accomplishing anything and always being a mess #then she responded with 'EVERYONE HAS ADHD' so i went quiet and it's probably why i don't seek help and suffer #and the doctors down here are sexist and would probably say 'oh it's a women's problem' like before when i was bleeding out my asshoole #i hate people and everybody down here #lmaoo excuse my rant i am grumpy today #maybe i'll make a margarita to calm my shit down