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foli-vora · 2 years

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So ngl I finished reading You're Somebody Else and this day has been tough due to regular depression, period depression, anxiety, a bunch of medical issues and just waking up on the wrong side of the bed and I wanted to thank you for the cathartic cry - I've needed a bunch of them all day. BUT - I also wrote this??? I've never written fanfic before so you inspired me? There's ALSO MORE but I'm exhausted and just need to go to bed. Anyway, thank you for this. I have a whole ass story in my head now that continues on but here's fanfic of your own fanfic. Love you!

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Marcus keeps tabs on you after your release. A massively reduced sentence, only a year, for your “cooperation”. He grimaces. Guilt knaws at his stomach. A not too uncommon occurance nowadays. He tells his partner that the information about where you are is to make sure you stay out of trouble, but he’s sure that Bernie can see right through his pathetic excuse. A pitied look, a soft half smile.

You had said you never wanted to see him again. It didn’t mean he couldn’t see you.

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A couple months after your release, he had attempted to go to the coffee shop you liked, mainly in a poorly conceived attempt to see you “accidentally on purpose”. He’s immediately accosted from behind the counterby the owner, Shelly - a girlfriend of one of the guys you helped put away.

“What the fuck are you doing here?”

Marcus sighs.

“I promise I’ll leave in a minute. I just wanted to know wh-“

Shelly scoffs.

“You got a lotta nerve, you know that? Like she’d even wanna see you in the first place. Didn’t she tell you that she never wanted to see you again? Yeah, that’s what I thought. You know? As someone who dated a criminal, I’ve seen some pretty shitty things, even if I didn’t know the specifics. But what you did? That’s probably the shittiest thing I’ve ever seen. So congrats, you’ve just reconfirmed by ACAB beliefs! The door is back behind you, hopefully it smashes your ass hard on the way out."

She turns and starts to enter the door behind the counter.

“Please, Shelly. I’ll leave as soon-“

She whirls.

“She’s. Not. Here. She hasn’t been by for over a year, since she was - you know - in prison. She doesn’t even live in D.C. anymore! Thanks for stripping away the one fucking support each of us had, you piece of shit. NOW GET THE FUCK OUT!”

Marcus nods once and leaves. He hears a sob behind him.

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He finds you in a small city in Virginia 20 minutes outside of D.C. by the metro. Marcus was privy to the information provided by your parole officer to the federal government. Since Marcus was assigned your case, he had access.

Marcus doesn’t even know what he’s doing here. You made your feelings clear…but, if he was being honest with himself, he wanted to make sure you were alright. He sees the betrayal on your face when his eyes met yours in that interrogation room when his eyes close shut. Your sobs as he left the visiting room permeate his thoughts at night. Your laughter haunts his dreams, your soft mewls you made when making love sing to his soul. He still loves you.

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Marcus drives past your new shithole apartment. He remembers your old one in D.C. - a home. Your own original pieces lining the walls, books on art and life and love spread across multiple brimming bookshelves, the smell of garlic and onions wafting through the air - courtesy of your stove. This new apartment is sad, lonely, a life belonging to a felon. Marcus has to tear his eyes away.

He reaches his destination about 15 minutes later and Marcus already sees your little crappy car parked in the lot.

The park is nice this time of year. Everything is green and vibrant and full of life. He sees the flash of white as he steps out his car - an easel.

And you.

His heart pounds harder. You look as beautiful as the night he met you, sitting in that lawn chair. He smiles, sadly.

You don’t see him yet. You’re staring at the easel. Marcus can see the way your eyes narrow at the ducks walking towards the little pond you’re facing. You’re holding a pencil - a preliminary sketch before the obligatory painting to come.

After you seem satisfied with the ducks, your head turns slightly towards the easel. Marcus sees you lift your pencil. His breath catches - he always loved this part, whether it was an original painting or a fake, the start of a painting by you was magical.

But -

Your pencil stays glued to that one spot. It doesn’t move. For five minutes, for ten. It stays put.

Marcus looks at your face again and he finally sees it. The wobble of your bottom lip, the realization that painting was pain, not pleasure. He’s not close enough but he senses the tears in your eyes. Your hand begins to shake. You drop your pencil.

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He’s going to come over to you. He’s walking and planning and thinking - “I love you - I’ll always love you - I’m sorry - Forgive me - You mean everything to me”.

Your hands cover your face. Your frame is wracked with sobs. He’s almost there, he’ll make it better, just hold on -

Then, he sees him.

The man beats him to it. Marcus stops short.

The other man tentatively puts a hand on your shoulder. You startle slightly and shakily wipe away your still falling tears. The man asks if you’re alright. You breathe out a small bitter laugh.

“I can’t paint anymore.” Your voice cracks.

Fuck.

I’m sorry, what??

This is wonderful, anon. Like holy fucking hell. I’m so fucking flattered!

You took time out of your day to write this and share it with me, with us, and god damn it I’m crying. Sobbing.

The pain you made me feel at the end there—fucking ouch. Her whole life is art so to not be able to paint would ruin her, god she must be so heartbroken still! This is so fucking brilliant and I keep reading it and just loving it each and every time and I don’t think I can properly articulate what this means to me, nonnie.

I’m drowning you in love, forever and ever. I appreciate this, and you, so fucking much.

#foli answers #I’m broken #nonnie wrote me a whole ass story here #what a fucking SWEETHEART #LIKE HELLO

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dearlyjun · 3 months

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hi it's baby (even though I'm older than you!)

I need beomgyu before I hit up my ex so your car breaks down near dark in the middle of nowhere and you had such a bad week that you're about to have a breakdown

you sit in your car for almost an hour waiting for someone to drive by before you think you might lose your mind. you've been thinking about calling your ex a lot lately anyway because you've been lonely and so you start to dial his number. until headlights bounce off your rear view mirror and the car pulls over behind you

the door of the car opens and a young man gets out and even in the almost darkness you can tell that he's drop dead gorgeous. he smiles at you as you close your door by leaning against it. "car trouble?"

"the car's in trouble and so am I" you reply as he helps himself to the hood to check it out.

"did you call somebody?" he asks as he fiddles with things inside the hood

"I was about to" you sigh exhaustedly

"poor baby" he says and your heart flutters at the name but you look up to see he's talking about the car. "tell you what. I'll fix this for you no charge" he looks down at you "because I'm a good guy and this is a good car, it's a shame for it to suffer like this" he smirks. "but only if you let me take you out for dinner"

this was probably dumb but idk just want him to come save me

ahhh hi baby!! (hehe I love that you remembered the thing I always say lol)

this is so cute and so beomgyu😭 don’t call your ex!! I don’t condone it. unless you are going to ruin their life. then I suppose I can allow it….

beomgyu calling your car baby AH I can so see him doing this lol. this would so be the way that beomgyu meets his significant other…saving them on the side of the road, realizing they have common interests. cars. it’s very girlfriend that likes cool cars & boyfriend that knows how to fix said cool cars.

ah who could possibly say no to him.

#ash replies #txt soft thoughts #anon ☆

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echy-hexi · 5 years

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Me:You let a pyro have a match... What did you think she was going to do? Just light her cigarette?

My dad, almost having his eyebrows singed off:Yes

Me:...I'm disappointed

My dad:As you should be.

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King:hey I gots a question

Me:Nani?

King:What happens when a girl takes a penis enlargement pill?

Me:...I- what?

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Me:You're too sober Faith, go get a beer.

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JJ:Bruh why the fuck are the staff at this funeral home crying?

Celo:Because they work at a fucking funeral home

King:But they should be used to it

Me:No mom

JJ:Yea but you'd think they'd be desensitized to it.

Me:they're paid to cry

Celo:People have emotions unlike you. Not everyone is an emotionless piece of shit.

King:Sympathy

JJ:I'm not an emotionless piece of shit, you're confusing me with Faith

Me:lmao

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JJ:It looks like Satan's cock

Me:Wtf

Celo:It does

Me:How would you kn-... Nvm

King:Satan, did you just send a dick pic? [Context:They all call me "Satan"]

Me:No wtf

JJ:Trap

King:Don't lie

Fai:oh

Me:I'm literally bleeding from my twat and you assume I just sent a dick pic

King:TF is a twat?

Celo:Pussy

King:o

Me:I regret life decisions

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JJ:Lei are these still your notes for us?

"My brother said he is a explosive potato"

"Oofity scoop"

"I mad I wasted 4 years at LCA"

"ok listen here failed abortion im tired of trying to be nice so fuck off you ugly lonely ugly cunt and good night"

"Drink coffee it doesn't stunt ur growth although u don't have growth"

"lmao I got kicked out of 2 friend groups bc i said tiddies in Japanese"

"This is why you're not allowed to have a kid"

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JJ:Isen wants to speak to your manager lmfao

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Me:We're great friends here at Chaotic Evil™ the Group Chat HQ

JJ:Move I'm gay

Fai:Oh great

Me:We know

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Masky:I don't know JJ I just want to kill someone so I can eat *vibrates eyes*

Me:o h l o r d

Me:gEt ThE hOlY wAtEr MoThErFuCkErS

Masky:NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Masky:NOT THAT!

JJ:*sprays with holy water*

Me:XD

Masky:NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

JJ:*spritz spritz bitch*

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JJ:Everytime somebody says some dumbass shit I have a split decision between saying: "fuckin pardon?" or "come again *****??"

Fai:Why not both

Fai:Mix them together

JJ:Pardon again *****? Fuckin come again??

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JJ:Anyway I'll be sleeping w multiple soft n fluffy pillows like the trashy hoe i am and y'all will just have to deal, g'night

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Me:My sister wants to send a bird and some grass to China

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Fai:i'll just stab him in the dick. No more kids for you buddy

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Me:Reasons I don't need to discuss you butt taco

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Jeffo:That goddamn bever exposed my twitter

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JJ:Don't fuck rachel gardner tf y'all are both underage

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Celo:Concern is futile

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Su:You're literally talking to someone who read Danny x Rachel fanfiction at 5 in the morning

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King:How y'all doing

Fai:Dying

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Me:*recites the entire script of "history of the entire world, i guess" in chat*

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JJ:YOU CAN'T TALK ABOUT ANYBODY BEING A BOTTOM CELO

JJ:I PUSHED YOU AND YOU LITERALLY FUCKING MOANED

Su:w o a h t h e r e

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Me:"My parents are going to beat me" kinky

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Me:Last year:King being accused of raping JJ

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Me:ur mum gae

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Me:SHE WAS LOOKING AT LEVI'S DICK-

Su:And I oop-

Fai:Stop. Halt. Halt. Stop.

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Me:EVERYONE IS GAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Fai:No lei

King:Nope

Me:GO BACK TO YOUR CLOSET

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Me:lets rape africa

Fai:lets not???

Me:they scrambled to see who could rape africa the fastest

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Me:let's blame the maine on spain

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JJ:Cactus dildo

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Me:the holes just appear over night and magically get white stuff in them-

Fai:Alright

Su:I-

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Me:FBI OPEN UP MOTHERFUCKERS

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Me:michigan's a 4-year-old basic moody bitch wearing crocs and socks drinking some fucking starbucks and breaking down in the corner of america while everyone else gets high and drunk af and ignores him to cry. except ohio

ohio is michigan's not alone buddy

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Me:kim kardashian is a boy?

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Me:levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith levaith

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Me:all i heard was big. what-

Fai:don't worry bout it

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JJ:You ask your broke ass friends if they have money

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Me:my sister has a girlfriend apparently-

Fai:Her hand

Me:no

King:Jeffo

Fai:ye

Me:This chick she met in a game

JJ:When's the wedding

Me:Lmao

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"You can't legally stab children"

"Not on purpose anyways"

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Me:TIL my dad's boss lives near Jeffo and my sister's into punky skaters

JJ:TODAY I LEARNED THAT CELO'S MOM KNOWS MY MOM WHAT THE FUCK

Me:so kids what lesson did we learn

Fai/JJ:Nothing

JJ:Jynx

Fai:This is horrible

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Celo:unholy tutu screeching intensifies

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Me:im seriously crying by saying "im a weiner dog"

Me:i am the weiner dog

Me:the holy weiner dog

Su:w h e e z e

Me:im the all-mighty weiner dog

Celo:I can't breathe

Su:c r y i n g

Celo:And I'm ashamed

Me:im crying-

Me:im not

Me:im probably contact-high

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Su:The question is not are you choking, its what are you choking on?

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JJ:"Go jerk off to your fictional waifus, you horny fucking weeb"

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JJ:I speak English not oui oui baguette motherfucker

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King:i just had a flashback of when Destiny Powell started to have nicknames and called Nini tater tot.

King:then christoff just yelled, TATER TOT SHE'S A THOT

JJ:I don't remember Destiny saying that but i definitely remember Christoff saying that

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Me:hi and welcome to college! you want fresh air? WELL IT CANT FUCKIN HAPPEN! BECAUSE WE'RE TOO AFRAID YOU'RE GONNA COMMIT SUICIDE! SO THIS IS ALL YA GET. A SMALL CRACK IN THE WINDOW!

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Me:i enjoy the fact that none of us can actually bother correcting shit after sending unless someone points it out or we notice and it pisses us off.

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Me:i read that as "my new seat in meth is great"

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JJ:stop flirting some of us are trying to spill some tea

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Celo:Squidward thicc af 😏

Me:I- Cel why-

Cel:Aren't you the bitch that likes fell

Me:fuck you dont use this to your advantedge

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Cel:Also, how does that explain why Skyler doesn't even have a dick

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Me, using something from Tumblr:

Cel:There's a fight going on down the block. Wanna go see?

JJ:What-

Lei:Wh- what the fuck- why?

Fai throws Jeffo and Kint down the hallway to their right yelling “FUCK YOU!"

Sounds of things smashing

Lei:I could use some air and time out of the house. Sure why not-

Est:Take me with you I've been stuck in here for *counting on fingers* 50 years-

Lei:You're only 21-

Est:It only looks like I'm 21

Lei:What the fuck-

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JJ:Did Cal just tell me he loves me for the first time?

Lei:Yes.

JJ:And did I just do finger guns back?

Lei:Yes. Yes you did.

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Cel:Hello-

Fai, grabbing through the bars:*Starts to choke him*

Lei: Faith! Faith! Hold on let him explain!

Fai:He’s selling us out!

Lei:Let. Him. Explain.

Cel:*Coughs* Thank you, Leila.

Cel:I’m selling you out.

Lei:*Angry screaming*

Cel:*Choking noises*

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Cel:Why are you smiling?

Jeffi:Can’t I just smile? Maybe something good happened and I’m happy!

JJ:Faith tripped and fell in the parking lot.

King:Did she die?

JJ:No

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Me:you force fed me pizza when i was a baby i remember the future

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Me:all these quotes from the internet, family members, or friends. then there's "ahem You can't be bisexual if you're sansexual. You get to live with this information now, bye"

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Some random discord shit

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toms-bandana-blog · 6 years

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girlfriend- t.h x reader

Inspired by the song “girlfriend” by bea miller

A/N: I’m sorry that I haven’t been posting lately. Im kind of busy and tumblr has just been kicked to the sidelines. I’ll be more active soon. Also this is not edited (like all of the other ones) so please tell me if there are any mistakes

Warnings: implied smut?? i don't even know

You and Tom have had a type of friends with benefits situation for about half a year, and halfway through that, he has been more ‘close’ to you per say. Sure you’ve needed him at night, but that is mostly just because you’re lonely. Tom is now staying till morning, waiting for you to go to work, and acting like you’re in a relationship.

You’ve just came back from work and now in your apartment. It is always lonely here at night. You pick up your phone and go to your contacts. You call Tom to come over, even though you know that he probably has something to do.

“Hey, Tom. Are you doing anything tonight?”

“Uhhhhh kind of I’m just going out with some friends. Why?” “Oh nevermind. I was just thinking if you can come over tonight. It’s fine.”

“Ok bye Y/N”

“Bye”

About ten minutes later, you heard a knock on your door. You went up and opened the door to see Tom.

“I thought that you were going out with your friends”

“Oh, no. I decided to be with you tonight.” Tom said while you let him in.

You both went to your bedroom to just talk and he spent the night there, like always. You soon fell asleep, along with Tom. This was kind of a routine. You call Tom over, he cancels all of his plans just to be with you, and he spends the night with you. You told yourself and him that you don’t want anything serious to happen between the two of you, but he always seems to cross y the boundary. The main reason why you don’t want anything serious to happen is because you don’t want to put in effort into a relationship. It is easier to just have something that is temporary. Tom also knows that, but he really wants you to be his.

The morning sun shone through the small lines on your curtains, and you heard somebody cleaning the dishes. The bed was fairly spacious, and you came to the conclusion that it was Tom. You got up and walked to your kitchen. And to no surprise, Tom was at the sink, cleaning the dirty dishes. This was also a part of the routine you guys had. He stayed till morning and did all of the boyfriend- relationship things that you absolutely did not want.

“Tom, we already went through this. You need to stop staying over. You can go home.” “Y/n, come on. I know that we have something here. You know too.” And he was right. There was a bit of something between you two. You would always tell him that you don’t want it, but a part of you is not brave enough to lose what is already there.

“... Ok. I’m going to tell you again. I don’t want to be your girlfriend. Sure, at night I might have that need to be with you, but in the morning, I swear I’ll be better on my own.”

You could see Tom’s emotion literally go down. “Ok. I’m going to go then. I have a few things to do today anyway. I’ll see you later.” He got his stuff and you walked him out the door. Right after, you went to get ready for work.

After work, you went out and hung out with a few of your friends, but then you got a message from Tom.

Hey I’m free u think we can hang?

You were quick to reply, knowing that he will keep on texting you until you reply

No sorry I'm with my friends

Why you’re always with them

Come on just come over

You didn’t reply because you know that it would be pointless. You really don’t know what is happening between you two. During the day, you’re fine and you don’t need anybody, but towards the night, you start to get lonely, so you cal up Tom. And this is where Tom thinks for himself. He thinks that when you call him, you’re going to need him forever. Sure, you are comfortable with him, and he is good at night, but he is just not enough for you. And you’ve clearly told him that you don’t want anything more with him. But at the same time you do.

As nights approaches, you once again start to feel lonely again. So you call up Tom... again. And he comes into your apartment.

“Look, Tom. We need to stop this.” “Love we both know that we can’t.” he says while his hands move to your hips.

“I know..”

“Y/n, let’s just put that aside for the morning. Right now I want to be with you.” He goes down to kiss you, leading you to your bedroom.

A/N: I hope you guys liked it! Do you guys want a part two?? If you do, would you want it to ed with fluff or more of angst and sad?

Tag List: @tessa-herondale-carstairs1 @lucitaelle @onceuponateenpanwolfian @nerdyphantomlady @smashley8244

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