#anyway ive actually had this in my drafts for 2 months and been sitting on it but listened to this song again and just fucking christ-

[qeyond]

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CW abuse/trauma/ptsd. It's a pretty raw song (both in lyrics and the way Black Dresses preforms their songs) so listen at your own discretion.

This song really speaks so honestly to the deeply self-destructive spiralling for B, in my opinion. Speaking politeness through your gritted teeth with a lying softness, boiling over, letting it out, feeling it on your bared, snarling teeth, breathing out smoke, "is it me? am I the problem? am I the evil monster?", "its always been me", spitting up blood, biting the hand that feeds and ripping them the fuck to shreds to be left alone.

Lyrics under the cut.

Why thank you for your opinion What you think is so important So let's talk this out i love it You're so funny i hope you're doing well Thank god for the tongue in your mouth I'm so happy i'm so lucky I get to do whatever i can be myself But you know what? I have zero tolerance for Bad little shitheads Who only seem to fuck around

Same shit different day You need to fuck off you need to go away I don't wanna talk about it That's all that I came to say Get out of my space You worthless fucking fuckface

Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are?

Hey bitch, what the fuck's going on? Is this how you wanna spend the Last few years of your life? Of your life? The last few years your legacy Your legacy your legacy your

You can hide out in your tiny little lair You can be the fucking evil monster terror Scared you can be the evil monster It was always you it was always you It was always you it was always you It was always you

It was always something I couldn't be That was just outside reality It was always something I couldn't know That I didn't know that I shouldn't show Because everything around me Felt just like a bad dream It was all or nothing Be the kind of person you hate or be

Hated for the things that you Thought were common sense Just a little further One day it will make sense Hold yourself a little tighter Your innocence

Preyed upon and vilified by Your blood and friends

Who am I if I can't assign a Name and place to what this is? Everything that's mine feels rotten from The touch of it everything all the time is a Message that I shouldn't be Who the fuck are you? Stay the fuck away from me

I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me Memories are killing me Memories are killing me it hurts

#q music #trigger warning #abuse #ptsd #trauma #assault #im not really sure what to tag this cuz it can be a genuinely very triggering piece. so please genuinely just tread lightly #anyway ive actually had this in my drafts for 2 months and been sitting on it but listened to this song again and just fucking christ- #i just love it so much im so upset black dresses probably wont be making music anymore because of harassment cuz their work is SO HONEST!!! #anyway uhm this song is so deeply B-core #your 'legacy' your 'legacy' YOUR 'LEGACY' YOUR- #i genuinely ALWAYS feel so nervous to share such obviously deeply emotional and trauma-based songs or art and being like 'hehe my blorbo' #because I KNOW how that looks and I know how deeply that feels like im making light of it or making it an Aesthetic. cuz yall dont know me #and thats okay. thats just how it is i dont expect ppl to know me or my intentions through and through #but I really really hope people understand that my doing posts like this is very much coming from a place where its For Me too #like i deeply connected to this song so wrapping it up and giving that to B makes me feel not so bad <3 #B is my lil guy that I dump my problems on and we hug each other as the storm passes over us both and then we're okay again #B kinnies and fictives and lovers we're all holding hands from knowing and I love you deeply #i have a MILLION thoughts on this for B. like i could write you a whole novel about this song but also iykyk. and thats just for Us. #so anyway im over explaining myself as always ah. I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS SONG AS DEEPLY AS I DO <3 #if i was going to make a new amv for B I would use this song. but im retired and the idea of trying to find a cracked sony vegas hurts me #LOL #also this is ok to reblog and/or interact with if youd like <3

[bi-bats]

hello!! i was just wondering, since the damitim fic is ongoing, does this mean know yourself updates are slowed/paused? (not a complaint i’m loving both!!)

Hiya!! Sorry that I never give easy answers 😂

So yes, Know Yourself updates are slower (not paused or on hiatus!! I am working on it still), but it's not because of the DamiTim fic.

I've been writing Know Yourself for over a year now (even though I haven't been posting it that long) and I'm just struggling with getting the words on the page to be what I want them to be. The plot is sorted out and I'm content with what I'm going to make happen, but also when I think about the fic my brain starts to feel the way my eyes do when I stare at a screen too long 😂 so I'm trying to be patient with myself and let myself take my time with it instead of pushing something out that I'm really not happy with, because 1) I think it'll show, 2) I'll just burn myself out, and 3) if I treat it like a chore it'll never get finished.

Also I've realized (post-jaytimweek) that I prefer writing in present tense, it makes everything feel more natural to me and I can control some writing things like timing and flow a little better and I WROTE OVER 100K WORDS IN PAST TENSE FOR THAT FIC AND I'M NOT FUCKING SWITCHING NOW!!!! SO I GUESS I GOTTA FINISH IT IN PAST TENSE!!!!

And also we're at the point in the plot of Know Yourself where I'm really stepping on the gas on the number of things happening per chapter, and the chapters are overwhelmingly long. And I would love to simply be more brief, but everything happening is relevant to the plot, so. Sigh.

Now, the DamiTim fic.

That one is just going up because that fic is happening to me. I can't prevent that fic from occurring. I would love to think about something else, actually! That boy is so unwell! But that's what I'm feeling inspired about and lately I've only been able to write when something worms into my brain and I have to put it on the page immediately no matter where I am or what I'm doing (I have a newish manager who doesn't know how to write a schedule, so I'm currently on day 7 of a ten day stretch of work where I only had one day off, which I had to spend doing all my chores and then hosting D&D. So basically, gone are the days off where I could just sit at my computer and write for a day 😭😭��).

Also, Ive been having problems with Know Yourself since May, but the DamiTim fic is just fucking pouring out of me fugue state style. My brain hasn't latched onto DamiTim and released Know Yourself in favor of it, it's that the claws of Know Yourself began to unsink from my flesh like, 2 months ago and DamiTim saw its chance. Like, this isn't about to be a cute analogy, but I feel like I'm vomiting out the DamiTim fic because it's a virus. It can't be in my brain anymore okay? I need it out. And it feels like a shame to have like, almost 40k words of it written and just sitting in my drafts when I could be updating it (which I'm sure you appreciate if you're loving that one too 😂), and it has the added benefit of yall knowing I haven't abandoned the fandom/preventing yall from thinking that something horrible has happened to me!

Tldr/to reiterate: yes I'm slowing down on Know Yourself, but it's not because of any of the other chaptered fics I'm working on.

Anyways, sorry this got long and ranty, I think I needed to vent all this out anyways so thank you for giving me a chance to do that!! And also thank you for phrasing your ask the way you did, I really appreciate you specifying that you're not complaining 😂 this is a valid question (that did not upset me but could've if the phrasing was different) and I didn't feel pressured so thank you!!! Ily anon 💕💖💚

#🥸 anon ask #batsasks #know yourself #bibatrambles #i hope this doesn't read like me feeling like I had to justify myself bc fr I don't feel like that #i just wanted to kvetch for a little bit 😂 #everyone play nice with anon I'm not upset with them 💕

[ambertpdpmasochistrun]

Alright, so... thoughts.

Let me split this to the Difficulty Corner, and... Amber's Confession Corner asjghJLSGSG

Difficulty

Shinki is the toughest, for sure. Followed by Keiki, then Medicine in the Suzuran Field, and Yuuka. I know Miko is super tough at the start too, but Spooky swept them.

I think I might be able to survive normally against Shinki if I wasn't being STUPID, but Keiki is the biggest curve for sure.

That said, the difficulty... feels very weird by the endgame. It feels like the game is SUPER hard at the first half, then you have to intentionally not grind as much by the end

And now... The Confession Corner

1) Regardless of me putting the 'no lookup' rule, I tried not to look things up to make things more interesting.

Like if you checked the pinned post, this was what I put, and... any Nuzlocker would research things in advance, but... not did I didn't look things up, I can't.

Because there's no guide on the Extended mod other than videos.

The things I did look up are:

Kanako's Team and what she gives when you beat her

A way to counter Satori (I DIDN'T FIND ANYTHING, SO I HAD TO THINK ljaSGHAJLSG)

Shinki's illegal IV + EV stats, and her item

2) I have been planning the Shinki talk for... a very, VERY long time.

It was after like, Play 4 months ago when I actually started thinking how to make it interesting for you guys, so... here's a few drafts which were scrapped at the end until... two days ago? Yesterday?

If you guys want to see the old script, here you go.

I scrapped it because Shinki sounded so cold in it, it felt so out of character ljasghljasg

I hope you guys enjoy the 'final' version rather than the one I drafted initially :D

Bonus 3) Most of the shitposts are just done on the fly, except for two things:

I mean, I KNOW YOU GUYS DO BUT CRINGE IN THE BAD WAY lasgHJALSG

I try not to force humor or anything, so I just kind of let things fly most of the time. But there are two things I planned, which are:

In the case of the narrative when my starter, Spooky, died. SHE DIED SO INCREDIBLY FAST, I WAS KIND OF AT THE LOST FOR A MOMENT THAT I ACTUALLY HAVE TO SIT. I told a few people that Spooky dying threw a wrench into my plans, and it would end up with Shigure and Spooky visiting the first place they visit in the end, and I had to plan what Shigure's going to do next

The whole thing with Shinki, which was mentioned :D

Everything else is just Amber's brain being stupid AJLSGHAJLSASG

But I did make two things which I did not manage to show

4) I have quite a few more rare candies, but...

Let's be honest, no one wants to see 6 Level 100s, right? Well, at least, not me, so I went with the current party OTL

ANYWAYS YEAH THAT'S IT

THANK YOU FOR TUNING IN

#:DDDDDDD #APTPD Play 12

[niightbiite]

Screenshotted post by @cuppimagines

So ive had that imagine [link 2 said post] sitting in my drafts as a idea to do for awhile now.... n ive done it!!!

And in the process came up with!!! Character Lore. Kinda. Still poking at it but its pretty fun i think!!! [Lore n bonus pics under the cut]

Me trying to figure out designs + dark wizard trans. Why does he have a tenta dick? A dark spell he did had the (accidental) side effect of giving him one (and also changing a good like 50% of his anatomy into something a little more monsterous but shhhhh we're not talking about that), but honestly he'd been wanting one Anyways, AND the spell went off correctly, so he 100% won that gamble.

(HI soooo this backstory thing ended up a LOT longer than i initally expected. Have fun reading lmao)

Sooo the relationship between these two is that theyre recently reconnected childhood penpals!!! They live on two different, yet similar worlds, and those worlds have some hidden connections! One day, a hot summer day, young lil baby Cafe (the person who is Not a wizard) found one of those connections, in the woods behind their family's home. Being a weird little child (as all children are), they decided to send a letter through it.

On the other side of that connection, a few days later, DW (Dark Wizard) found that letter (and the connection) in the woods surrounding his grandfather's home, and also being a weird little child, sent a letter back through. Thus! A wonderful summer friendship was struck up between the two, and lasted for years.

Unfortunately, somewhere around the middle of highschool, DW one day simply stopped responding. Cafe held out hope for months, but soon years had passed, and they simply had to move on. Life waited for no one, and they had college to get to.

The reason behind DW's sudden disappearance is the simply fact that his kindly grandfather, the one who he had been apprenticed to for the last 10+ years, and raised by even before that, was a dark magic user. And the particular kingdom they lived in hunted dark magic users. Also in his heyday, DW's grandfather was a real powerhouse, and caused Many issues (Likely also contributing to the banning of dark magic in that particular kingdom lmao).

So uh, yeah. DW had to go on the run.

Eventually he became a powerful enough tyrant/menancing cryptid mix that folks collectively decided to stop attempting to hunt him down (barring the occasional greedy/overly confident idiot), so DW came back to where his grandfather's house once stood, and settled down there. He never truly forgot about the connection, but it took a few months before he finally worked up the nerve to pen a letter to his oldest friend. Thankfully, DW happened to finally put his letter through just when Cafe happened to be visiting home for a break between semesters.

Even though they had long given up hope on ever hearing from DW again, Cafe still enjoyed hanging out in the woods to chill out, and checking the connection was practically a ritual at this point. Only this time, there was a letter in that script, one they never could have forgotten, even if they tried.

And basically after that its them catching up on each other's life in the past few years, and sending each other lil trinkets and pictures of themselves and whatnot. Then yearning. Lotsa yearning. DW and Cafe have lowkey had childhood crushes on one another all these years, but how the hell would you tell that to a someone you've never met in person, and cant actually ever meet in person??? Plus, Cafe has tried the dating scene, and never really found anyone that interests them (they are demisexual). DW has literally spent years on the run. So they (individually) just kinda. Stew in the Yearning-Pining soup.

Eventually magic fucky ducky shit happens and connections around the world turn into fully fledged, creature permissible portals. Its a lotta chaos, but thats not the point, cause now! Now they can finally fucking hug each other!!! And be incredibly gay horny young adults together.

I dont have anything vaugely thought about beyond that point, but just know they grow old and grey (...eventually. dark magic does some Weird Shit) together.

#art biite #sketch #exophilia #terato #exo #nsft art #nsft #cafe + dw #<- thats a temporary tag bc their designs. fun. also ive thought abt them too much to let them go hxhxnduxdh #ALSO WARNING under the cut is. long. lots more writing than initally expected

[loneleesoul]

Paparazzi

this is kinda like, obsessed reporter peter, finally gets to meet his idol tony stark, but tony knows that peters madly in love with him and offers him a thing he couldnt possibly refuse, i added Paparazzi by Lady Gaga because 1 i love her and 2 the song is kinda like an obsessed paparazzi obsesses over someone, anyways enjoy.

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Peter had been working at the Daily Bugle for a while, it was an easy job.

It was also his favourite part of the day, even better than being Spider-Man.

He got to see him every day.

It was a little bit of an understatement to say he was obsessed or crushing. There was no word that could even come close to describe how Peter felt.

He basically stalked Tony Stark, hanging on every word, getting a picture from every angle. Opening doors and secretly buying his coffee. He knew that Tony could afford it, but Peter got some sickly pleasure from doing things for Tony.

A pleasure that Peter felt would get worse if he were to actually do sexual favours for him. It was already hot enough to watch the look he gives him when Peter opens the door. Or the signature smile when he poses for pictures.

God don't even get Peter started on Tony's voice, a deep baritone. Every syllable and noise goes straight to Peter's sensitive ears and just.. does crazy insane things to him.

It makes him melt, the soft grunts he wished he could hear in the bedroom, the soft praised he gave to fans as encouragement. He wanted that.

He needed that.

He's craved it for years, and he sure as hell deserves it.

He's ignored all of his other assigned celebrities to photograph and interview, it was just him. Only him.

It eventually became a problem and he was fired, but he still followed Tony everywhere. Pretending to be a reporter, only to find out the information he could never ask as a professional reporter.

One day, Tony speaks to him. "Why don't we have coffee? You've been following me around for months. I guess you haven't gotten any answers."

Peter agrees immediately, desire pooling in his gut. He wanted Tony to take him to... anywhere private, bend him over any surface and fuck him senseless.

"Do you like your lovers in lingerie?

"What's your favourite position?"

"Daddy...."

"I've been waiting for so long, I need you."

Peter has to force himself from saying the filthy words in his head. His Spider Senses have been frying his brain, he's nearly overstimulated by the time Tony sits down across from him.

"So, you're obsessed with me." Tony starts, freaking the hell out of Peter.

"I-" He squeaks, setting down his notes. "I'm joking, it's your job to follow me right?" Tony laughs, the sound heading straight to Peter's cock.

Peter smiles, "Yeah, I'm a big fan."

Fucking understatement of the year.

"That's great, I love my fans." Tony beams back at him and Peter quickly wonders how soft his hair is.

He has to refrain from asking, smiling sweetly. "I love you."

fuck

His smile falters, heartbeat rapidly out of control and about to shatter against his ribs.

Tony chuckles. "At least let me buy you dinner first."

"I- I mean, your story! Sorry I tend to forget to finish sentences and make an ass of myself! I mean, you like changing your father's company and becoming Iron Man, a hero and legend. Fighting evil and saving lives." Peter trails off, somewhat sated as Tony's smile grows.

"Are you really a reporter?" He asks, twirling the straw in his cup.

Peter's taken completely off guard. "W-What? Of course I- fuck." He sighs.

"I was fired a few days ago, but I never finished my work on you." He says, and it's not technically a lie, or the truth either.

Tony sighs, a smile still on his face. "You're adorable kid. I understand it's hard losing your job, especially when you have to buy me coffee secretly without me knowing." Tony smirks.

Peter's frown grows. "I'll find another job, and I honestly thought I was smooth in buying all of those drinks." Peter says sullenly.

"Well I mean, you only bought me like 236 coffee's this year alone, so I guess I owe you."

fuck me.

"What?" Peter ignores the dark desire in the back of his mind.

"Hmm, let's see, around 250 drinks. I owe you 1,000.. 4-ish per coffee." Tony pulls out a wad of cash and Peter is speechless. Disappointed he wasn't offered anything else.

"I- I can't accept this." He mutters, suddenly remembering that he's been stalking his man for months, obsessing over him for years.

Taking money from him, with or without consent or knowledge seemed wrong.

"You can and you will, it's not even that much kid." He smirks then adds. "Gotta make a living somehow."

"I'd rather earn that money, Mr. Stark."

"Well, then we're in business Mr. Parker." Tony puts his hand out to shake and Peter feels like he's in a dream.

He's glowing with pride and victory, he could get whatever he wanted from a man wanted by millions.

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He's well succeeded earning the thousand in coffee cash, he was just doing it not to please Tony.

Idol, dolden dream, daddy... his sugar daddy.

Just another thing he could call Tony

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as usual this turned to hot garbage near the end, sorry but tumblr tends to not save drafts ive worked on for hours, so this was written in about 70-80ish minutes, but y'all dont really care. if you want more then lemme know, i really need to fix my life.

[yoonia]

Mission Accomplished!

HOLY CRAP I DID IT!

After writing so much for the whole month, I am now truly lost for words. Honest to God, I was so close to giving up. With so many obstacles heading my way since the very beginning, from having to deal with my cat’s illness, having to deal with an early final graduation project submission at uni, then getting involved in two major projects from my workplace, and in the end, getting sick in the middle of it due to overworking and lack of sleep, I already lost any hope I had of succeeding.

But it was like things were meant to happen as it is. 

I knew that carrying my writing journal at all times would eventually do myself good. Because even when I found myself unable to sit in front of my laptop to write, I was still writing. Whether it was in the middle of a meeting, in the middle of project visitations, in the car, while commuting to downtown or to visit my big bro, at the vet, at the hospital, I was constantly scribbling all the ideas I had in my head and later found myself writing either a whole paragraph, a whole scene that helped me get out of a block, or long dialogues to add into a recurring scene I was working on. Then right when I was so close to getting strayed to focus on new WIPs that suddenly came to me, I got some sort of a revelation or an epiphany (idk what to call it) and words kept flowing out of me to allow me to finish Blood Moon Rising. Yes, I still strayed out of my initial plan, but since I got a lot of work done in the end, I really got nothing to complain about /cue nervous laugh here/

Anyway, I’m just so relieved that I decided not to quit and that I finally made my goal of 50k in 30 days. Here’s a little list of what I actually been working on:

About Time - revamped Pt. 1-10 - added around 12k to the original version (all have been posted, scene by scene, on Wattpad and Inkitt)

About Time - Pt. 11 - added around 12k (draft will complete at 15k. well, maybe)

About Time - Pt. 11.5 (Jungkook) - added around 2k

Blood Moon Rising - Pt. I - nearly 7k (completed)

Blood Moon Rising - Pt. II - somewhere around 8k (completed)

Blood Moon Rising - Pt. III - nearly 9k (completed)

Blood Moon Rising - Pt. IV - added nearly 1k

Tidal Waves - epilogue for Intertwine - added nearly 2k

Nocturne - Pt. 2 - added nearly 2k

Flux: Ripples - added around 2k

28 Days - Pt. 3 - added around 3k

If you’re wondering why it seems like I was working on a lot of stuff, then you are definitely not wrong T^T I have a problem with something called short attention span, which happens only because I am always dealing with a lot of things at the same time, so I always jump to other WIPs whenever I get stuck on one. You might be able to see how messy my whole writing process has been if you check out my progress tracker (totally not advised to, but you are welcome to do so lol)

I just want to send all the greatest and warmest thanks to everyone who has been supporting me and motivating me, and to all my writing buddies who I would occasionally check on just to get myself that little push to finish the whole thing. And to those of you who have been sending me love either here on Tumblr, on Twitter, or on any other platforms where I have been active on. I am truly, deeply grateful to have you guys by my side. 

A little note on publishing the writings I have finished: I will continue doing my posting process as to how I have been doing it for the last few months. I will start editing the completed drafts one at a time and will be posting them on either Wattpad or Inkitt first, scene by scene, before posting the completed versions on Tumblr. That being said, I will be focusing on editing the finished works alongside a few others all through December. I will be updating my WIP list along with my posting schedules pretty soon. Some spoilers will also be thrown out occasionally while I am working on them. 

As for now, I will celebrate my achievement by...catching up sleep. A lot. And most probably added by cuddling with my cats. I’ll be ending this post to show my best regards to this month’s muses ♡

#psa: nanowrimo #about time #blood moon rising #28 days #flux #nocturne #tidal waves #writing progress

[marktheweaver-blog]

Update after a long absence!

Hey everybody! I’m not dead!

It’s been -way- too long since Ive posted an update. Figured I should explain why. Its been mostly a silence due to shame over lack of productivity. For the last 6 months or so it’s be so difficult to get the writing i want to do done. I’d have weeks where I couldn’t get into a grove, and when I did manage to get something written it was way shorter than i wanted to. I would sometimes spend days thinking of how i wanted to write that next bit of text. I’m not the first person to struggle with writers block, nor will i be the last. Hell, this is a long project so i expect it will strike again sometimes. I haven’t posted because I didn’t want an endless stream of posts of “oh i didn’t write much this past week”. But I’m here now so that must mean something has changed, right! Yes actually! I’ve recovered my Mojo so it seems. I figured it would be appropriate to share some of the things that i feel have helped me get back on track. The holidays were really bad for getting creative work done for me. There was just too much chaos on top of already annoying writers block issues. I don’t liek being interrupted, so having my week thrown off by having to plan around family events really sucked. In January i started making some changes. The first thing i did, and i think one of the biggest changes i made was to create a google spreadsheet. On that spreadsheet I put a bunch of tasks that I wanted to aim to get done every day. One of those(and the most relevant one) is to get at least 1 page or 500 words written every day. That’s into a difficult goal. It’s a small one that’s easy to achieve so that hopefully once I’m in the groove, I can get much more than that amount written. The keeping track is mostly so I can see trends where productivity is suffering and actually try to adjust for them rather than sweep them under the rug. The numbers here hurt, but don’t lie. In January I completed my 1 page/500 words goal on 9 days out of 31. Ouch. That hurt me to count. That’s hardly inspiring. Whats worse is that often that was barely meeting that goal. But... BUT, lets look at February  so far. it’s 2/13/2018 (well, technically it’s the 14th, but for writing purposes, since i haven’t gone to bed yet, it’s still the 13th.). There have been 13 days so far and of those 13 days Ive completed my writing goal on 9 of those days. That. Is. So. Much. Better. AND having that streak inspires me and tells me that I can keep writing even more. Whats even better is that many of those days I wrote well over the minimum goals (like 1000 words or 6 pages). This past week I had a day where I wrote 1700 words, and another where I wrote 1500. Today, including the words in this post I wrote over 2200 words(only 1000 without this post, haha). The chart has helped me so much. It’s given me encouragement when Ive been doing well, and through shame it’s exposed what i knew but wasn't giving proper respect to. A long stretch of red colored “No”s has been a really powerful motivator. That’s not the only thing that I think has helped. At the beginning of this month I had kind of a realization. The stuff I was struggling to write was basically filler. Sure, I had intended it to have character building and plot points in it but ultimately it was filler. I had put it in the outline because my brain said “oh these needs to be a time gape here, so something needs to happen.” I may have been right still, but sitting down and trying to write something just to kill time in the story isn’t good fro meeting my writing goals. So i started skipping those parts and getting to the stuff that is most important to the story. One of the big hurdles for writing those scenes is that they’ll require extensive rewrite because i already know so many things i want to change for draft 3. So it becomes this balancing act “okay so i write it like this, but write it with this new plot point in mind because you going to change it”. It may be that i have to write these sections anyway later, but I’ll have the benefit of the larger story being complete and those plot points I want to add being built. It will take so much less mental effort on my part once that is done. The past week Ive been writing some of the most powerful emotional moments in the book and it has been so... Refreshing to write the scenes again. To feel the impact. They need work but i think Ive given it a good base. Being able to write the important scenes that Ive seen in my head for the past year and a half has been great. One thing that has been great for my writing, but maybe not so much great for my sleep cycle is changing my writing time to be after 10PM. Like I said I don’t like being interrupted, so picking a time where  the only people calling or texting me while I’m writing are either drunk or in an emergency is really liberating. I’ve heard that a lot of other writers do similar things (writing either really late, or really early.). Maybe it will work for you. Dungeons and Dragons has been a super important activity for me. When i completed Nanowrimo last November i had just come off of running a year long story oriented campaign. I think that’s what allowed me to finish the 50k words in a month. After that I haven't run a campaign since then. I didn’t want to split my creative energies. i didn’t want to “waste time” preparing for DnD when I should be writing my book. I was playing in a friends game for the past year but not running one. Then i made the realization at the beginning of the year that I wasn’t getting the creative stuff done and I wasn’t doing something that I really enjoy doing. It was then that some friends bugged me about starting a game for them. I caved and set a start date for February 3rd. The first session went amazing and the next one is this Saturday. I’m running them Bi-weekly  trading off every other week with my friend. The chart helped me get onto a schedule, but i think running and planning for DnD again has given me a huge boost to my creativity and creative endurance. When you’re running DnD you don’t get to slack off and say “I’ll finish that scene tomorrow”. You’re players are right there and need a description, or ruling *right now*. this is a great skill to have when writing. The ability to just decide on a detail or event right now is invaluable. I’m a story teller at heart. That why I want to write this book: Because I have a story I think is worth telling.

There are some other smaller things (but important) of a more personal nature, but I don’t want to put them out into the wide public but if you’re curious feel free to message me.

If you made it this far, then thank you so much for reading!

#writers block #update #blog #Gift of forever #marktheweaver #weaver of stories #amwriting #writing #Dungeons and Dragons #late writing #wordcount