#anyway this post is rambley

[shaykai]

I think Durge would be more possessive than Gortash is

Like yeah Gortash is also possessive, he’s a tyrant, he grew up in a place where anything that was nice wasn’t his and never would be. Even when he’s older, he holds onto things like someone threatened them. But the point is that he has things now that are his.

Durge has nothing that’s really, legitimately and only theirs

Anything they do have is a gift that Bhaal allotted them, and it mine as well be a threat for if they step out of line

But then they meet Gortash, and he’s important. They need him for their plan to work, killing him early would ruin everything. And yeah sure, he’s Bane’s Chosen and to admire him the way Durge does is beyond foolish, but foolish or not, Gortash is still alive

They promise he’ll die by their hand, (because even when it’s not Bhaal’s they cannot push their luck) but it will be at the end of the world when they’ve succeeded. And until then, he is Durge’s, the one thing they have that Bhaal cannot, not yet

#this is rambley and I’m posting it right before I go to sleep so who knows how coherent it is #anyways I think durge takes what they can and never lets go dhdhsjsjjs #bg3 spoilers #durgetash #ask to tag

[irlapple]

while i dont like how ed and stede dealt with that argument (leaving) i do understand why stede is dealing with everything this way. he’s never been praised for anything, always felt subpar. he was not a good husband by any means and hasn’t really ever been good at anything in his life so wow suddenly these new pirate guys come along and they’re praising him woaw!! this isn’t to say that all this overcomes his love for ed, i think stede believes his old self that ed fell in love with Was subpar or not good- he’s trying to make himself into a ‘real man’ or a ‘real pirate’ so he can be good enough for ed but this backfires because ed wants stede for himself. the little guys stede picks up in his fame only see the genteman pirate, not actual stede.. some things need to be learned not told i guess

#him saying ‘i told a joke and everyone laughed!!’ was the most relateable neurodivergent person trying to fit into neurotypical spaces #moment i ever heard #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd #stede #ed #gentlebeard #blackbonnet #wow this is rambley anyway. hi #my posts

[which-qsmp-egg-would]

#Context under my tags because it's going to be too long kkkkk #qsmp #qsmp eggs #qsmp chayanne #qsmp tallulah #qsmp dapper #qsmp ramón #qsmp leonarda #qsmp richarlyson #qsmp pomme #qsmp pepito #qsmp empanada #qsmp sunny #qsmp sunnysideup #qsmp chunsik #posted: march #Okay so when I was younger we had these dark brown woodchips lining the playground. for safety reasons maybe? I don't know #I got injured from them plenty #but every few months or so they would bring in a truck or something to add woodchips #but they would just pile them all up in one spot at the beginning of the day and I guess flatten it out after we had gone home? #So what would happen is that you have a gaggle of children between the ages of 4-9 or so #seeing this ginormous pile of woodchips #and thinking 'I want to climb that' #I cannot express to you how many people had to walk the fence everytime the mountain showed up #I was good enough not to disobey the teachers so I didn't climb it. Though I was walking the fence plenty anyways #I was a VERY talkative kid and got in trouble for it a lot #Okay this is VERY RAMBLEY so I'll stop now

[reel-fear]

👁️👁️

You must tell 👀

*rubs my little hands together* sorry for taking a bit on answering this! My brain has not been braining lately but your ask couldn't have come at a better time bc Grant has been on the mind as of late and I am hyped at the excuse to infodump abt him- [this is gonna be long I am so sorry-]

now for quick disclaimers for anyone reading this that isnt the asker or me- we're not discussing canon Grant Cohen, we're talking my Grant, this black haired dude, that guy. Another fun disclaimer, I was HEAVILY, inspired by Grant's role/character in abomination for my Grant. Taking time to awknowledge every part of his character or story that was inspired by it would make this 10x longer so if similarities are spotted know its very likely I did that on purpose bc I just really love abomination KJHFSDGKJDHGSD-

Alright with that outta the way I'ma talk a lot abt what happens to Grant in the canon of Showtime to explain what I meant and also maybe a bit of me rambling about aus that explore Grants relationship with Sammy n Joey under a more romantic lens. Should be obvious but spoilers for It's Showtime down below~

So Grant in Showtime after he dies ends up joining the ink demon cult, becoming a lost one and earning the title of The Priest.

When the cult was all together him and Sammy worked together to run it. Sammy used his connection to the ink demon to recieve messages and learn more on how to survive in this new situation and Grant made sure the lost ones acted accordingly. [A role not so far off from the one he was forced to take when the studio started facing troubles before his death] Grant also took the job of dealing with sacrificing souls and sending them back to the dark puddles, which sometimes was members of the following chosen at random and sometimes whatever poor soul found themselves captured by them.

However when Malice rose from the puddles and made a deal with the Projectionist to seize a considerable amount of the studio as theirs, the cult was split up, Sammy and Jack forced to flee to the music department and Grant with the rest of the following being down in the area of Chapter 4. This put Grant in a very bad spot, the lost ones were very shaken by this event and since then Grant worries their faith in him has wavered.

An important thing with the ink demon cult was that it is meant to be a more realistic take on how a cult works. The Ink Demon runs the cult, he is the most powerful figure in it and yet the hardest to contact, so Grant and Sammy are little more than middlemen tasked with keeping things running or else they face the ink demon's wrath. Sammy is sadly very aware that the ink demon is not as benevolent as he or the lost ones would like the believe. Grant likes to think being the Priest will at the very least protect him if things go wrong, but he is sadly mistaken.

Grant is in a very dangerous spot, he knows the lost ones beneath him are getting angsty and worried about just how truthfully safe the cult is or if they should believe in the power of the ink demon. But he also knows if things fall apart the lost ones will come to tear him apart long before they go for the ink demon. Despite him merely being a puppet for their lord. A role Grant is not ready to acknowledge, not because he isn't smart enough to see he is just a pawn, but because he chooses not to think about it, less his paranoia eat him alive yet again... A very important thing to keep in mind with Grants character.

Grant did in fact play this role in life as well however, when things started going wrong in the studio, Joey was very quick to turn away from what was going on and continue asserting everything would be fine. Which while a lie he himself believed was a lie nonetheless. However Grant quickly became his right hand man as people like Thomas and Wally started noticing cracks forming all through out the studio. Staff going missing, the ink changing in the way it behaved and an eerie feeling the machine created in both of them.

Grant despite deep down being smart enough to know things were going poorly, parroted Joey's words, hanging off of them himself and doing whatever he could to shut down any attempts to bring to light the things going wrong. Of course, him and Joey both ended up paying the price for their lies, but so did everyone else around them. But unlike Sammy, Grant barely even seemed shaken to see that, like a conspiracy theorist seeing evidence their theory isn't true only makes them double down harder, Grant only seemed to double down on the idea that if he followed every order he was given. Surely things would turn out better this time.

So that's canon to the story of Showtime, but I do want to take a second to get some AU non canon ideas out of my brain centering around Grant and his relationship to both Joey n Sammy. In canon Grant's only romantic interest is Thomas, his literal husband and there is a lot of interesting conflict there, but I fucking love shipping so of course I have a million aus merely indulging in ships I think would also be interesting to explore in their own contexts. In this case, I'm gonna ramble a bit about Sammy x Grant and Grant x Joey and the interesting things I think there are to explore in their relationships in Showtime.

So you might've noticed that while not literally [as saying the ink demon is Joey in Showtime, while somewhat true, is not the entire truth of the situation and simplifies it quite a bit] Grant did end up following Joey to the grave... And then kept following him beyond it. Something that is objectively~ very queer of him.

There's just something so compelling about the idea of Grant yearning for Joey so much, being so close yet so far as his right hand man but not being brave enough to become his lover eventually drove Grant's love for Joey to become an outright obsession. The idea that Grant's feelings for Joey became so intense from how hard he pushed them down it blinded him from seeing the truth of the situation outside of the way Joey painted it. Then dying and his obsession turning into an outright worship of him.

The idea of Grant settling for just being Joey's favorite lackey, his most loyal pet and knowing that's his role but not caring bc at least it makes him stay by Joey's side. Ohh it's an interesting one to say the least. I even did a few sketches of them u can see-

They are doomed by the narrative to me and have been on my mind a lot lately can ya tell? KJDHSFGKJHDFSGKJHDFGSD

However when it comes to Sammy and Grant, I think there is a lot of interesting potential between them too. After all they share being the Ink Demon's henchmen in all of this and to see them both come to terms with that and try to find comfort in each other is such a fun idea to me.

An au where they both decide to ditch the cult and the ink demon and on their own try to figure out what happened to Joey and how to fix things is very compelling to me. I could see their relationship starting out as doing all these things for each other under the excuse they just need comfort until it starts to turn to actual feelings for each other. Both of them coming to terms with the fact Joey was not in fact a perfect person and maybe didn't even know how bad things were getting deep down himself but also finally letting themselves hold him accountable for the lies he told... It's a very fun healing narrative and very in line with a lot of the themes It's Showtime deals with.

Either way, I just really love what I've done with Grant's character in It's Showtime, he's for sure one of the most fascinating to me and the themes his story explores are ones that are important to the story as a whole and by extension me. Umm this turned out very long but I hope u enjoyed the read! Tysm for the excuse to infodump abt him, I was itching for one as u can see KDJHGKJDHFGKJDHFGSD.

#ramblez #dont think Ill main tag this since its very rambley and contains spoilers for its showtime- #but its okay to reblog n such #esp since I dont care tooooo much for spoiling my own stories #for me my stories should hold up regardless of whether or not youre surprised by what happens in em #but if anyone does care abt spoiling Showtime for themselves if or when I make it an actual fan game/story #do beware of this post KDJHFSGKJFGHJSD #sammy x grant #grant x joey #grammy #death and taxes #Music Multiplied #I think those are the ship names? #mostly for blacklisting reasons on here but if I can feed those crackships at least a little with this rant hey good for them <3 #anyways fun tag secrets Ill put some fun trivia abt my grant in here #he uses the tommy gun instead of alice in showtime its joeys gun but he has it after everything goes to crap he mostly only uses it #just to keep norman away from the cult tho just know he is armed and dangerous and feral and unhinged and- #the cages in the chapter 4 area are used by grant as punishment for those who speak out or for people who havent yet come around to #worshipping the ink demon. obviously people in cages take priority as sacrifice options #my grant might struggle from a paranoia disorder I based him more off my own expierences and a bit off of research on ppl with OCD #Im not confident enough in my understanding of OCD to diagnose him with it straight up but he does almost for sure struggle with some sort #of paranoia disorder #anyways thats it tyty for the ask again and sorry for writing #five hundred paragraphs in response-

[howdy-folks-its-showtime]

Meet The Mods: Mod Whirly!

Howdy! I'm Whirly or Cobalt, both names work though Cobalt is usually the name I use for my sonas. Speaking of Sonas look at the LOVELY batim-sona my partner Roddy designed for me!! Such a talented boyfriend I have truly. They got my vibe down so well and gave me such gender~ I always loved the lost ones designs so it just felt fitting for me to be one.

Brief backstory time! I'm the writer and original artist behind It's Showtime, I wrote the original bits of story for it probably about 5 years ago, around when BATIM first released. It's Showtime basically started out as just my own predictions and theories for how Batim would go, but as it continued I fell so in love with the story I began telling through RPs and ideas I picked up along the way, it just sort of gradually became it's own thing!

Of course the entire thing needed a huge rewrite considering I was newly in middle school when it started and now I've graduated Highschool, but I've made tons of progress on it so far. It also needed a huge redesign and I have my lovely partner to thank for all the wonderful designs you all see on the website! They truly took my old designs and fresh rewrites of the characters and made the kind of art I always imagined would pair so well with this story <3

So whatever it is we choose to do with this story and its characters I can promise you all, I'll put my heart, soul and other organs into it.

#batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #cartoon #mod Whirly #not ask #oops turned out longer than I meant for it to be #can you tell I'm a bit... Rambley? #I literally have a tag on my main blog just for rambley long posts I make so yeah I am quite chatty #anyways just wanted to add in the tags here I am so flattered by how nice u guys have been abt the blog and Its Showtime in general?? Like #oh my god you guys are very sweet ty for all the nice feedback #its so nice ;w;

[regularshcw]

i need to work on the bios soon buuuuuut

margaret is trans ( trans woman )

benson is trans ( trans man )

em is trans ( trans man )

fanny is trans ( trans woman )

penny is nonbinary ( genderfluid )

neu is nonbinary ( unlabeled )

rigby is trans ( trans man )

and pops' gender is ?????

#🐦 margaret // about / i'm not seeing anyone right now ; guys are jerks #📋 benson // about / no ; i can only write the truth and the truth is i don't appreciate you #🐾 em // about / but it's really quite alarming 'cause i'm such an awful fuck #🍽️fanny // about / let me wrap my teeth around the world #🦠penny // about / blood on her skin ; dripping with sin ; do it again #❄️ neu // about / dominated by all you hated ; this will make you ultranumb #🦝 rigby // about / my pepperonis are roasting up here #🍭 pops // about / surely i'm invited to my own birthday party #long post / #someone in the past thought it wld be appropriate to dm me just to tell me they didnt like when ppl headcanoned most / all of the cast of a #-show being trans. so now most of my characters are trans <3 #tbf most of them were trans anyways #dean is a demiboy but im not sure if that counts? im not demi myself so #of course anyone is free to label themselves whatever a label is just a label -- smth that you can use to help things make sense but isnt- #-necessary. i like labels bc it helps me to explain things better #this got long and rambley im sorry #im sleepy from work but

[cannotfly]

thinking about the narrative and how no matter what, they are all doomed. not matter what world, everyone is doomed. in every single world, benjamin is cursed to pursue his own selfish desire for vengeance over his family and how he always succeeds eventually but always looses lucy all over again. how there is practically nothing to save them. they tell this story again and again in different universes, yet it always ends the same way.

#anyway rambley post just to say that in pretty much all of my aus yes canon is happening in the background #it's just not important to touch on it always since johanna is kind of removed from the main plot #turpin will always face a brutal murder because that's what he deserves #benjamin will always face the consequences of his actions #enter h.ades.town lyrics #*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. ) #tbd. #i don't want to do replies i want to listen to music and Feel and play the s.ims

[grahammmzcrackerrz]

My puppycunt was so wet when he was pulling and playing with my hair 😵‍💫

I was so hard I’m surprised he didn’t notice…maybe he did

#this is mostly a confession post to him 😓😓 #I was trying not to hump their thigh and start something we couldn’t finish 😭 #we did anyways 🗿 #and we didn’t finish 🗿 #imma make it up to both of us though fr 💪💪 #puppygraham rambles :3 #mlm nsft #t4t nsft #very rambley today mb #foggy brained and bored

[sorenlionheart]

gonna be honest, despite all the love drama in the comics, i still genuinely see sonally as a relationship without labels. not that they don't have romantic feelings for one another or don't use them at all but since they don't really align with societies expectations of romance they decide to use labels very sparingly. neither of them really know what to expect or what they should expect from a relationship so they just don't put a label on it. but if sonic was to be called sally's boyfriend she probably wouldn't deny it, y'know? they both know their feelings run deeper than they let on but it's not something that they're really worried about. they probably have a conversation about this stuff but since neither of them have a clue of how romance works (or how it's "supposed" to work) they decide they'll just take it one day at a time and they can worry about labels another time.

if any of this makes any sense, i feel like this is probably a very ace (and neurodivergent) way of seeing their relationship but that's how i feel

#soren.txt #sonally #anyways they are my blorbos i love them very much #i never rly post in tags anymore outside of the occasional art posts and im posting this at 8 am on no sleep if you haven't noticed lol #but seriously i never understood why some adaptions of sonic make him into this flirtatious guy? it makes no sense to me #he'd only be a flirt to get what he wants /lh #not that he'd never flirt period but i feel like he'd be a lot more comfortable with it in private (and later on in their relationship) #but its a learning process for both of them #it takes sally even longer to muster the courage to even flirt back #because i also like to think that sonic is one of the few people who sees sally as someone more than just a princess #and someone more than the leader of the freedom fighters. because she's so much more than that. and vice versa with sally towards sonic #so when they're alone they feel more free to just be themselves #because they know those expectations aren't being thrusted upon them #this got more rambley than expected hi i care about my first otp a lot

[princesstokyomoon]

on the one hand, im real sorry to the followers who have been here since Before i started to get more open with horny stuff on here, cus thats not what most any of yall signed up for lmao

on the other,,,,,, i have spent 10 years trying to undo the mental barriers that both my religious upbringing and the online puritanical culture i let suck me in when i was a teenager, put in my brain to make me Ashamed of literally perfectly normal thoughts

this is ZERO shade to ace people at all, but the fact that im ace ALSO really added to that shame, cus it feels like its such a common thing to... "shun" all hornyness when youre ace? thats not a Specific to ace people either, its to anyone who even KNOWS what ace is.

like,,,, when you realise youre ace, it feels like people expect you to just have zero interest - or maybe even disgust - towards sex. and yes, thats absolutely true for plenty of aces! but its not true for all of us. and im SO so tired of hiding that part of myself? i knew i was kinky LONG before i knew i was queer. the fact i like kink stuff convinced me it was Impossible for me to be ace for so long. and when i FINALLY began to accept that i was ace, it felt like i had to act as though nothing horny mattered to me.

and im so so so tired of pretending. and im so so desperate to FULLY shake the puritanical shame drilled into me for enjoying some horny shit. and i am getting better at it! the fact that ive slowly followed more and more openly horny people over the last couple of years has helped immensely.

im gonna continue my best to at LEAST tag horny shit with "nsft", for anyone who doesnt want to see that sorta shit, and part of me (the part that still drowning in shame feels) still feels the need to apologise for the fact im gradually gettin more and more comfy rebloggin horny shit.

and the other part of me is INSANELY excited and proud of me forr gettin more and more comfy with horny shit

#long post #ish #more rambley than long #anyways i know no one has asked or even commented #its just something /ive/ noticed and the shame part of my brain Desperately demanded i talk about it i guess

[zmeydeva-arch]

there is... something to be said about zoya being a fresh water creature; she has a distaste for the open sea, yet she is always at her most relaxed when submerged in a tub. water is obviously one of her ruling elements but when mixed with salt and sediment well it no longer can sustain life, at least human life that is! there also is pure water in blood and of course zoya's connection to rain and the water found in vapor i do often thing about her capability to render herself entirely into mist as well but that is a post for another day

#i just find her hatred of the sea to be so funny all things considered #not to mention how much she loves nikolai and that IS entirely his element #the sea is in many ways what the sky leaves behind... and then made to fester and gather salt and coral and fish #𝖎𝖎𝖎. *ੈ ˖ ° ⥽ you gleamed like silver in the distance... ⥼ ⅋. about #anyways i feel like a million years ago i made a post about how zoya enjoys the sea and that ain't true i am rescinding that #she loves fresh water rivers and lakes thanks #anyways this is a very rambley post but just some Thots

[rightpastnowhere]

my old friend.......... teen and up gen fic...................................

#i have written so many of these #they're usually character studies #it's like my comfort zone #anyway i posted more cr rambley writing #nova chatter #hm i like that tag

[gemharvest]

I am SO excited to play TWDG tonight. We're finally out of Jane hell and can move onto S3 !!!!!! I hate the way Kenny is written out but my god do I love Javier's story so much that it doesn't get me too down abt the game as a whole.

#ramblings #countdown to karl's jane ableism callout post /hj #seriously as much as i love s2 i cannot stand it once shes a main character. she genuinely makes me wanna vomit #`kenny is a threat!! he could snap at any moment!!` maybe YOU should give him space to fucking cope with losing his partner #like yeah kennys an asshole. i hate how he treats arvo since it gives me bad memories. but youre not helping #triggering him by making him think you got AJ killed is dumb and makes me genuinely grossed out more than kenny with arvo #i have thoughts on the way kenny is written in this game but thats for its own rambley post #just. fuck jane #anyways woooo javier my favorite `hes canonically bisexual but the game doesnt actually show it when they really should`!!! #i hope my brothers let me romance kate i love kate and javier's relationship. also fuck david

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for removing “minor” from my bio?

there’s been a lot of posts about this, wondering about my situation. so i turned 16 fairly recently. this does make me still a minor, but the age of consent in my country is 16, so i don’t feel like i’m being sneaky/misbehaving/a freak (lol) when i’m lurking in nsfw stuff anymore.

i still don’t interact with it (i’m lurking, no liking, reblogging etc) so there’s no connection at all to my blog. i probably wouldn’t feel comfortable doing that anyway, since most ones (justifiably) require an age in your bio which i just have not put. i understand why blogs require this, but i don’t think i’m putting anyone in danger because

a) not interacting, so again there’s no link to my blog

b) according to the posts this is relatively common? there would be cases about it all the time otherwise

anyway, a lot of blogs that had “minors dni” in their bio followed me when i still had minor in my bio (technically it was actually in my pinned, but again not hard to find). i don’t think they were being malicious, just the nature of the circles i’m in on tumblr means there’ll be a lot of kinky people (think d&d) and they just didn’t check.

i don’t think it’s my responsibility to block them, they’re breaking their own DNI, not me, and not everyone goes through their new followers blogs.

however now with the minor part gone, they won’t know if i break their dni or not.

i’m not planning to and haven’t interacted with any primarily nsfw blogs anyway (some of my friends do “hornypost” and i just ignore it) because to be completely honest doing anything nsfw on my main is kinda a turn off lol.

lurking feels safer and more comfortable so i think i’ll stick with that.

but yeah, i’m worried people won’t be able to uphold their boundaries when interacting with me directly anymore, but i also feel like i’m maybe not obligated to disclose that? i get id be in the wrong if i was Lying about my age to get into nsfw spaces, but i’m not doing that.

i don’t feel comfortable disclosing my age on my blog anyway, minor was a blanket term i was comfortable with to get nsfw blogs to stay away but i feel like i’m in a weird in between space atm (i know. i know im still a minor. but i’m in an adjusting period and i’m trying to get comfortable with the idea of being an adult in two years.)

a lot of this info is probably irrelevant, but maybe i am an asshole for other reasons, so. mod if this gets deleted for being too long/weird/rambley i understand 👍

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[raayllum]

i'm literally sitting here trying to figure out what EVEN i can SAY about aspec rayllum here? i think about them and i want to combust into heart emojis. i watched the first season when it first came out and then only happened to catch up last year with my qpp, and in between i was like. so infuriated when i found out they'd made rayla and callum a thing bc i - naturally - latched onto the green and purple character as an aroace icon at 18 years old, and my partner was like "no no no no TRUST me you've got to watch it, you'll love it"

they weren't wrong and after bingeing the whole show i'm stuck thinking about rayllum a LOT. they're written so much like my own ideal relationship that i kind of want to explode from it sometimes. anyway, my absolute favorite thing about them is how much emphasis there is about their friendship - to the point that when i watched season four, I can't remember which episode specifically it was number wise but when rayla suggested splitting up and offered to go with callum and he turns her down, my first immediate heartbroken thought was "she misses her best friend..." i just love how they're in love but they're in love cos they're best friends....11/10 no notes i need more relationships like that in media

ANYWAY long rambley ask about my loves aside, my question is what are some of your favorite moments where rayllum are so clearly best friends/goofballs in love?

No like honest to god though — me and the Rayla to my Callum are also in a QPR + dash of romance relationship and like... arc 1 and arc 2 Rayllum are just so goddamn sweet??

I don't agree generally that arc 2 Rayllum is more Mature™ than arc 1 rayllum — Callum is more patient and Rayla is more open, so they've matured as individuals — but merely just that they're different flavours of aspec-ness. Like arc 1 is the craziness and rollercoaster of meeting a stranger and realizing they're Your Person, and arc 2 is the deepness after the fact of "I know you, and I know that we can get through everyone so long as we have each other" mostly cause I think the main reason people label arc 1 Rayllum as more immature is because s3 Rayllum gushes over each other, but that's bc people have a hard time conceptualizing having deep admiration for your partner(s) that isn't infatuation... even though like? It's totally normal and welcome, like any long term relationship is "my partner is the most amazing person ever and i'm also very aware of all their flaws simultaneously" and like, arc 1 Rayllum hits that balance perfectly imo

I just love all of their stages and sides to them so so much

But yeah! Some of my fave moments Rayllum wise for the Best Friends quality has to be when they help each other up in 3x05 (Callum after the soulfang chase and Rayla on the ambler) because things are Weird but they're still always going to help each other? The "I missed my best friend" quality in s4 with no one laughing at Callum's jokes / talking about magic with him (vs their first scene in 5x01 being him telling her all about the magic stuff he's reading) and Rayla keeping her disappointment at bay always hits hard and I loove 4x06 when she's beating herself up and he takes care of her because a Good Relationship isn't about how you treat each other when everything's fine, it's 100% about how treat each other when life is hard/stressful and/or you're upset with each other

But I love all the gentle teasing in early S5 and the fist bump lives in my head eternally rent free. The 2x03 hug also means a lot to me cause that was the turning point she went from being a friend to being family and I think in a lot of ways, that's their relationship's most important turning point alongside maybe 1x06 (trusting her anyway!) 4x09 (forgiveness) and 5x04 (her opening up).

5x02 post-inn and stargazing scene are also faves just because of how happy they are talking about Nothing and everything, and like — that's just so fucking real, y'know? When someone makes everything automatically better just by being there

As Callum says, "We've been through a lot, and a lot has changed. Well, some things have changed, but not everything," and this never will

#aspec rayllum #rayllum #thanks for asking #alterous rayllum #qpr rayllum #poelya #aroace rayllums unite #like i was a basic pre show / s1 rayllum shipper from the start

[chittychittyyangyang]

I just recently got caught up with RWBY and one of your posts made me realize something. You talked about showing not just healthy coping. ever since I saw Ruby start lashing out it made me feel uncomfortable and heartbroken. But it’s also weirdly cathartic to see her being angry and frustrated? Idk if you’ve seen Miraculous Ladybug but it reminds me of Marinette self destructing because to her, she is directly responsible for all the bad things that happen. Ruby also has that kind of mentality. It’s her fault Penny is gone, her fault Atlas fell, her fault Salem has the relics. Maria even mentioned it earlier “you really don’t give yourself enough credit”. Sorry this was really rambley, I was just feeling a lot of feels haha

Okay but why are there seemingly no mental heath workers in Remnant?

Anyway, it's something I feel like has been missing about the talks about what is or isn't healthy or what people should do. Because the thing about the trauma that everyone keeps talking about, is when it gets compounded and not addressed you get Jaune and Ruby. You don't always get PTSD from a traumatic event, but if you are unable to cope and deal that that stress? It greatly increases the chance. Something bad happening doesn't mean you will get trauama, we all go through bad things, the lack of or inadequate aid after does. The one fairing best out of the whole team right now is the only one after Beacon fell to have any good intervention for her metal health (it's Blake and the love and support from Ghira and Kali and eventually Sun).

When you don't know how to manage your emotions, when you have been trying to live up to an impossible standard, and when you feel like the whole world is on your shoulders you are gonna have a breaking point. More so at 17! Ruby has only had three caregivers to model after growing up: Tai who shut down, Qrow who was distant and an alcoholic, and Yang who tried her best to be the light Ruby needed but was never going to be enough because he was a child herself. She had them and her idolized version of Summer she wanted to live up to, all influenced by people's grief. And it's not like you're going to tell a child anything bad about her mother. You're probably only going to tell the me good positive things "Slayer of monsters and baker of cookies".

I care less about how "healthy" it is for her to have the outburst than what it means moving forward and how she handles whatever fallout there is (which let's be real, WBY have been more worried than upset with her, even if Weiss make's it seem like she is). When you are in such a heightened emotional state it's not okay to hurt people, but sometimes you will. Sometimes you might not have much control when your brain gets to a point where you can't even see the world around you anymore. Ruby is so blinded by her depression and the expectations she has put on herself she can't see that everyone around her is worried for her and loves her.

As a friend of mine is fond of saying about me "Depression is fundamentally a selfish thing". It doesn't matter Ruby knows her sister and friends love her, they don't know the position she's in because she's gotta be the one with the answer and has to do this. It's not an uncommon feeling since Yang told Weiss she wouldn't know what loneliness is like (which is still funny to me as a viewer). Ruby hasn't had that same kind of heart to heart with anyone with that same understanding, and I will admit to not knowing who would be best to reach her.

Speaking of rambely, this answer did. But seeing her go off was both uncomfortable and cathartic, and we know this is the start of her breaking, and I hope the start of her getting to a place where she can heal and grow stronger.

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