i've got a job interview tomorrow morning which in hindsight is my own fault for scheduling it then but it means i've had to look at a model instead of writing more fanfiction.
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My mother was a paranoid schizophrenic. Still is, I suppose. She was deeply convinced that dentist offices were secretly agents of (government) that would steal us away from her for nefarious purposes. She couldn’t help it. Anyway, I haven’t been to the dentist since I was four years old, when it first got Really Bad.
I had a checkup and X-rays a month ago. Today, I’m sitting in the office, anxiously waiting to be called back for a deep cleaning and scaling. The dentist was very kind when I spoke to him about it, after he asked what made me decide to seek care now, when I hadn’t for so long.
I’m nervous about the pain. I also have a weird secret anxiety that something will go terribly wrong, almost a reflexive fear. Like goosebumps from the arrector pili muscle. A vestigial anxiety, a muscle pulling at long hair that’s no longer there.
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Not me outlining a Syril x Dedra gothic romance AU while having no experience with writing period dialogue or historical fiction
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My fwb has been going through some shit lately so we haven’t been able to engage in S&H (Sneezy and Horny) activities in a while, which is fine! I just want them to be good, ofc, so I don’t mind and just want to be supportive! But for the first time in months I got that “let’s do this” message and I’m basically that gif of SpongeBob from the first movie where he’s screaming YES! YEAHHHHH!!!!!
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jack ❤️ some TL?
"So he's not yours, then?"
Finally, Roy thinks, they're getting somewhere. "No," he says, truthfully, ignoring the way it sets his teeth on edge.
"Pity," Trent says. "He's imprinted on you like a bloody duckling."
-from might not be mine (but I'll keep you all the same)
for every "🌹" received in my inbox i'll post one random sentence of a random WIP i'm currently writing
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tonight i talk to my parents on a video call for the first time in almost a year. the last time we spoke, they were trying to convince me to go back into the closet and masquerade as a straight woman so my ex would take me back. i’ve spent a year growing teeth and rage and i just found out last night they have been reading abigail shrier’s book irreversible damage: the transgender craze seducing our daughters (iykyk).
i don’t intend for there to be survivors.
(what else are the teeth even good for?)
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starting my 1000 word history report three days before it's due 👍
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Ok I survived the internship interview and now I'm just going to wait. It'd be a really cool place but it's also in Helsinki so I'd need to travel a lot more.
Managed to pick up a paperback copy of The Odyssey while I was in the city so not a complete waste of a journey even if they tell me no thanks. :)
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shout out to the time when i was 12-14 wherein i was so severely mentally ill that i specifically remember that the only thing genuinely keeping me going during the day was living in my head and pretending i was a star wars character
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Got a hot valentines date with my therapist.
Do ya’ll think he’ll find my red outfit and cheesy pickup line jokes I have prepared cute?
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