#are quite upsetting enough

[whetstonefires]

Oh yeah I recently had a moment of realization, which is that Lady Catherine's main underlying motive for pushing the Darcy/Anne marriage isn't actually her ideas about keeping property in the family etc, or her agreement with her late sister at all.

The number one reason she's so wedded to it is the same basic reason Mrs. Bennet is so eager to have Mr. Collins as a son-in-law.

Because while Rosings isn't entailed, which has allowed her to lady it over the demesne all this time on the strength of her daughter's status as heiress, property law is such that as soon as there's a man in the family--as soon as Anne weds--it will all belong to him.

And while she won't be forced to find other lodging or anything unless a truly dreadful groom winkles his way in, she'll no longer be the mistress of the place as she has been all this time, not even as much the mistress as she was before she was widowed, because that will be Anne's place now. She will be only the mother of the wife of the master of Rosings.

And there is not likely to be any great supply of fellows of sufficient distinction and lineage to meet her high standards, who will want Anne (whose main appeal is her property), who will also allow their mother-in-law to rule the roost.

Darcy is a known quantity, who doesn't especially want Rosings and can be relied upon to prioritize Pemberley. And he is very respectful of his honorable aunt. Lady Catherine makes it clear she believes her sway over him is considerably higher than it actually is, because he values his family so highly and hates a fuss, so she has always always gotten her way with him before.

If she could get Anne married to Darcy, then she could fulfill her maternal obligation to Anne, and her lineal obligations to the de Bourghs and the Fitzwilliams. Without having to give hardly anything up herself.

And it's really cool how it's set up like this! Because the fact that the system is rigged so a woman fulfilling her duties to family and society inherently obliterates any power base of her own is totally fucked up, and wanting to resist that is understandable and sympathetic.

But as is so often the case, the easiest way to resist or evade such compulsions and injustices is by finding a way to exploit other people, and gain your own security and independence by taking theirs away.

And so Lady Catherine, like Mrs. Bennet, is ultimately a tacky and appallingly selfish human being.

#hoc est meum #pride and prejudice #lady catherine de bourgh #gender #inheritance law #Austen engages so delicately with human motivation #with the drama that exists perfectly well in the world without having to contrive transgressive melodramas #when the normal systemic injustices of society operating as intended #are quite upsetting enough

[nose-coffee]

you know what i DO want to talk about? that scene on top of the truck where nona’s arguing w varun, and varun asks “do you love?” and nona says, “yes - no yes. i don’t know what it means. i say it, but i dont know what it means. did i ever know what it meant?” which is truly heartbreaking to hear from a character who’s spent the entire book up until now loving most everything she lays her eyes on with nearly reckless abandon.

and fifty pages later - after paul’s birth (pyrrha saying, “it’s not love, what you’re about to do. it’s a mistake.” being almost immediately replied to with, “the perfect friendship, the perfect love.”/”life is too short, and love is too long.”), and kiriona’s interrogation (”okay. different question -- do you love her?”), a near constant barrage of “what does love really mean?” and “what is love?” and “what would love make you do?” “what lengths would you go to for love?” when she’s already struggling with the idea of knowing if she’s felt love at all - she very nearly gives in to that despair, the lack of certainty that she knows what her feelings mean and that she’s allowed to feel them. she’s mourning, and she’s not able to reach pyrrha through her grief, and everyone else she’s with is more broken than she’s ever seen them before. but then paul reminds her of noodle. and nona, in a moment of lurching panic, decides to live, if only just to save noodle.

to me, that’s a devastating moment of raw, human love. it’s like that moment in alien (1979) where ripley’s about to abandon ship, and then goes back when she realises jones (the ship cat) is still on board. nona was ready to let them all die, hopless and lost and sad, every one of them-- but noodle, a sweet yet unimportant pet, is what brings her back.

and i think that’s what make’s paul’s statement of, “it’s done, it’s finished. you can’t take loved away.” hit as hard as it does. she’s just had this crisis of faith in her own personal belief system of loving-things-for-the-sake-of-loving-them, only to have it reaffirmed, and is now facing the abyss of personhood, facing returning to a self who was hurt and was deeply angry, going so far as to say, “i’ll be different...and palamedes -- i won’t love him...i won’t love anything, i won’t know how.”

paul says, “don’t worry,” (even though she just explained why she was worried), “we loved you too,” because maybe nona’s right and she won’t know how to love anymore, but she needs to know that she did. she did love, and she was loved, and there was never a doubt in anyone elses mind that she loved them fully and completely and genuinely. maybe she thought she was faking it, maybe she thought she was just making it up, but it was real, and now it’s done, and no one can take it away. no one.

#i get so upset thinking about how she wasnt quite sure at the end there if it was real #like no babygirl!! it was!! you loved!!! you were loved!!!!! #ntn #nona the ninth #tlt #the locked tomb #the locked tomb spoilers #tlt spoilers #nona the ninth spoilers #ntn spoilers #nona tlt #paul tlt #kiriona gaia #pyrrha dve #fuck off lou #my post #long post #noodle tlt #i dont think people talk about that convo w varun enough #making her face the truth of her identity while asking why she'd protect people who essentially murdered her #i cry #essay #sort of #this has been sitting in my brain for a long time #esp the alien (1979) comparison #this is kind of meandery but i know what i meant to say

[commsroom]

i honestly do feel that eiffel's disrespect for authority and willingness to complain are positive traits. in terms of 'these are things i value in real people', but also for what it represents and what he's resisting within the narrative of wolf 359.

it's notable in the face of cutter's personal philosophy and goddard's corporate culture (pryce & carter #5, etc.) ... eiffel won't just accept anything, he won't do his job with a smile (he might not do his job at all, but either way, he reserves the right to be upset about it), he won't learn to compartmentalize. he will complain. he will keep on complaining. he values emotional honesty, and actively encourages others to express their feelings, especially the ones that aren't goddard-approved.

no matter what happens, or how long they've been up there, he never gets desensitized, and i think there's really something about someone who will keep saying 'this isn't normal, it isn't okay, i'm not okay with it, and i ask you to also not be okay with it,' even when he seems alone in saying it. their situation is horrible, and he feels everything so strongly. being able to express that is healthy, and it's human. i find it reassuring.

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #you know? #it's how all of the antagonists in wolf are so good at compartmentalizing. it's cutter's particularly intense brand of toxic positivity #eiffel isn't interested in any of that. he feels how he feels and he's more than willing to express himself. #it's not just that he doesn't get desensitized either. it's that he is always surprised when other people are. #no matter how much callousness he runs up against he never stops being shocked and disgusted that other people can do that #and his emotional honesty creates a space for people who otherwise don't feel safe or comfortable enough to be honest with themselves #minkowski tries so hard to buy into the corporate culture but she's never quite got it. #and hera has internalized on a much deeper level that it's not safe for her to express her feelings #so it's just... nice that he can do that. i like him. #i like that he doesn't try to fix things for hera or tell her to feel better. he's just willing to be there and be upset with her. #to me (and i think for her) that counts for a lot. #& being good at complaining is a very attractive trait. to me.

[bookishjules]

my biggest issue with percy's competence in the show isn't about him being smart or knowledgeable or anything.. but more about how an mc should function in a hidden fantasy story. they are supposed to be more distanced from everything. they are supposed to be confused and not know what tf is going on. because that's a big part of what makes them relatable to the audience. it's like an entire angle when it comes to world building--introducing the mc and the reader to everything at the same time. we are able to put ourselves in the mc's shoes and also learn things in a way that feels natural. but with percy just.. spouting greek myths he's apparently known forever (bc of him mom and mythomagic etc.) it distances him. it removes a lot of the meta reasons of why he was kept from this greater magical world for so long.

#if you think i'm upset about him figuring things out quickly bc i don't understand the books or percy or whatever .. i just.. #it's quite the opposite #there's a reason hidden fantasy works the way it does #and this show is banking far too much on fans wanting to be surprised #no. leave that for percy. mr. hidden fantasy mc icon #and the other kids tbh #oh yeah them being 12 is a whole other monster but i feel like enough people are tackling that #anyway #pjo tv #pjo tv show #percy jackson #pjo tv spoilers

[stardustizuku]

Rozemyne: Ferdinand is so dumb, how can he not see people obviously care for him? I adore him and Sylvester would fight the Zent for him. Not to mention how much Elvira idolizes him. Truly. How can he be so oblivious

Also Rozemyne: Oh Sylvester could absolutely just murder me lol. I’m a commoner there’s no reason for him to keep me around other than the goodness of his heart

#ascendance of a bookworm #honzuki no gekokujou #girl you saved his children multiple times and have become the emotional support of his baby brother #just the fact that her death would upset Ferdinand is enough for him not to do it #but even then Sylvester cares for her #like quite a bit #it baffles me how she doesn’t realize it

[abby420]

being attracted to women is so hard cause i’ll think a woman is hot asf and be interested in her but then my brain goes “how DARE you sexualize her??? hasn’t she been through ENOUGH!? can’t women do ANYTHING without being sexualized???”

#please how do i get over this #my one coworker is so pretty and soft and her hair is soft and her lips are soft and she has a great body ngl #and i won’t lie i like her quite a bit #but i just feel so wrong for it #but not in a way that’s like. ‘liking other women is wrong’ #but in a way that���s like ‘fuck how dare you sexualize her she’s just hear to work and your over here thinking about her like this you’re no #better than the men. can’t women just live without being sexualized?? what is wrong with you hasn’t she been sexualized enough leave her #alone she would be so upset if she knew you thought about her like this’ #idk it’s weird but i can’t get over it #help #lol #bisexuality #also this happens a lot it’s not just this one instance

[seariii]

Hum...

#im just thinking... im okay tho /gen #just thinking about the words the bestie said to me after I told him about my mental health... #particularly a phrase... he just said 'you are already committed' and when i asked what he meant he said 'to life' #its just... idk... it was impressive and had such a weird feeling... sadly i guess i am committed........ 'sadly' huh.... #sigh another important thing was that it was crucial i went back to therapy... i dont really want to tho... #but 'youve been feeling like this for a long time you need help' ... sigh... what i need is... #the future is so scary... sigh... okay #ill put an alarm to wake up earlier tomorrow and work on that! #seari talks #what i need is adderall- jsjsjsjsjs yeah... alr im sleepy time to mimir #tomorrow ill catch up with everything i missed too #also if anyone reads this dont worry pretty person! i got a bit scared/upset up there but its okay #im quite stable right now! at least enough to survive for a couple days! so yup! #miiiight have to look up a new therapist tho... since aside from help i wanna get a diagnosis.... #sigh... but okay that's not for rn seari it's for future seari. rn seari has to go mimir because shes tired #a mimir a mimir pat pat pat

[marsbotz]

once again thinking about that scene in s15 when they find garmadon again and all wu can think about is how happy he is to see his brother again

#ARTGHHHH [beast mode activates] #lloyd is understandably mostly pissed off snd upset but wu is…. calm. and smiling #he fully forgets Why they came there and is just liek. so happy knowing garm is okay and growing on his own #its strange bc. in some ways that garmadon isnt the same one as the one who died to save ninjago #but in others. he really is the same #i think about. young garmadons constant battle with himself over who he is and if hes truly evil #i think abt. the man who harumi brought back. and how hes not quite whole. but hes learning. #i think about the lost time that neither of them will ever get back. but maybe its enough knowing theyre both okay. #I HATE THIS SHOWEW !!!! (screamed lovingly) #farts #ninjago

[enden-k]

im sorry to hear people are stomping all over your boundaries, big props to you for sticking up for yourself and putting your foot down. I hope you're doing ok (/gen)

on another, hopefully happier note, i noticed your info post mentions that you self ship! I'd love to hear about your favourite self ships if you're comfortable talking about them some time?

i actually never did or had interest in this but then haitham waltzed in so hes the first and only one (this whole thing flusters me so its smth i indulge in for myself in private by reading or daydreaming or sometimes i babble and ramble about him very in depth)

(most hkvthm things i draw is just me going 'wish that was me' and drawing it LMFAO)

ohh also same w kaveh but in a slightly different way than haitham (theyre both the only ones) i want them to hold hands. i want them to hold my hands. there

#i dont feel attraction to ppl irl mostly bc im just not comfortable around ppl #and the ones i am are my friends and theres obv no romantic attraction #so when i saw haitham and learned more and mroe of him and how he and i share so many traits and ideas and things it was #instant comfort and the feeling of being understood #that its like #if he was real i would seek out his warmth and presence instead of getting away frm it like with my ex partners when it was too much for me #knowing that he would understand me therefore knowing how to handle me without making me uncomfortable or upset #uhh so basically. he made me realize all i want is just someone who perfetly understands me and knows how to treat me #when to come close and when to give me space #perfectly knowing me and reading me #i cant speak and in the rare moments i am able to im often struggling to form my thoughts into sentences that make sense #so he would still understand and put together that garbled mess and know exactly what i mean #not misunderstanding and acusing me of things or tones i never said or used #ppl and things messed me up quite a bit in the past that im having trouble w lots of things unless im alone #only when im alone i feel truly comfortable and safe bc nothing can hurt or upset me but even then you kinda realize in some moments that #you actually want someone with you but it has to be smn you trust and who knows you inside out and all that #i dont have anyone like that and idk if i ever will but rn this character is jsut rotating in my head giving me these things i crave and #thats enough #sorry that was a lot of gay rambling there but yea idk if it sounds stupid or nah but my #mental health issues got way better and balanced ever since haitham so he really #grounds me and gives me strength and comfort to deal with things i would have be unable to do in the past year #bc even if i dont have smn who truly knows and understands me #inside me there is someone #reply #tags tbd #in case i get embarrassed LMFAO

[fieldsofbone]

one of my advisors emotionally eviscerated me in my dissertation meeting this morning and made me cry in front of him and my school dad (my other advisor). i know that some people have the “you doubted me and i’m going to prove you wrong so you can eat your words” instinct when they receive criticism but instead i was cursed with the the “internalize it until i feel worthless and the last five years of my life in which i’ve been studying toward this goal i deserve but have had many undeserved obstacles to feel pointless” reflex

#my school dad was clearly upset with ben (my other advisor) and he asked ben to stay after in the zoom meeting after i left so i think he #told him he was being a dick so thank god i have one advisor who actually has feelings and is sensitive to me and gives a shit #but like i was literally asked today if i even want to continue in grad school because ben doesn’t think that i’m making progress fast #enough and he said it seems like i’m not really advancing and maybe i should just quit :) #even though he knows how hard i’ve worked for this and he recognizes how smart i am and he’s regularly told me i’m one of his best students #and he knows that i had a debilitating trauma happen to me after i was assaulted by a colleague 👍 #i asked him to join the meeting so that he could catch up on my project because he’s so hands off that he doesn’t KNOW WHAT I’M DOING!!!! #EVEN THOUGH IT’S HIS JOB!!!! #and i figured he’d make me feel a little demoralized cos he does that cos he can’t read social cues but he ambushed me

[roobylavender]

Omg I'm glad I found a fellow new teen titans hater (or at least critic) because while I think Wolfman had some really neat ideas it really amazes me how so much of what he's written for Dick is like the polar opposite of his character for 40 years and how people ignore that simply because they don't read golden/silver age batman... like I hate reboot Nightwing as much as anyone but it's crazy to me how people think he's always been the most anal about his moral code as if it didn't take years for him to develop it after watching Bruce (like in canon: https://64.media.tumblr.com/f20ae729d626788129a371dab7f790db/5b84ba907a5dc5f9-ac/s1280x1920/e0e719108502d4fa51364eb748450141fd1bcedd.png), or how he'd give up college/a day life to be Robin when in canon he was the one all gung-ho about going to college while Bruce hoped for him to stay home (and ironically enough Bruce quit Wayne Industries himself so he could focus full-time on being Batman lmao: https://64.media.tumblr.com/48945b33fa70a2bfbded0fe6c83017d0/68e853c82fce0d82-5a/s1280x1920/32e3b3ab44fa7364ca82eb63bb8c6d5bbbbb7132.png), or even that Dick wouldn't have the patience to mentor children or something when the literal purpose of creating Robin was to be a role model for children to relate to and sef-insert themselves as his friend, hence why he always excelled in school and sports and stuff...like Bill Finger even created this concept of "Robin's Regulars" to show that Dick liked kids and inspired them (https://4.bp.blogspot.com/_wpPLG-yJpJw/S5v2_3KXjdI/AAAAAAAADnM/1aOMBWuCmT0/s400/robinsregulars.jpg)... the good part is that NTT took place when Dick was just 18-19, I can easily pass it off as his angsty phase that he grew out of in the same way Peter's Ditko era is passed off as his edgy college kid phase in-universe that he outgrew thanks to his friends lmao

admittedly i think trying to ascertain any kind of moral code from bruce or dick in the golden age is a bit of a directionless endeavor bc the writers switched things up soooo often depending on whether they want to pander to morality or comedic value 😭 like there's a golden age issue where bruce quite literally lets= someone die in an electric whirlpool of some kind omds it was hysterical. but yeah interestingly with wolfman i like a lot of the things he did with dick as a character if i view them as developments resulting not only from his personal foray into adulthood but also from the distance that started to grow between him and bruce. it was completely logical for dick to reassess a lot of the things he wanted back when he thought it was going to be him and bruce forever versus at present when bruce clearly no longer wanted to sanction him being robin and dick took that to mean he wasn't good enough (even though bruce was merely being protective and trying to respect dick's own ability to choose his own path in life). the problem with wolfman is that rather than portray it as a series of newfound assessments made in context of newfound developments in dick's life, he wrote these assessments as if they had been lodged in dick's mind since the day he was taken in. which to me at least seems to diminish the significance of dick's development into a more agitated, hyper-emotional control freak. it's not supposed to be something that's always been there. it's more latent. dick's belief in himself with respect to his relationship with bruce sort of hung by a thread for the entirety of their tenure together. that's what happens when you let a nine-year-old become a vigilante and spend nearly nine years together thereafter fighting crime with him as your exclusive partner. it builds expectations, hopes, dreams. for his entire life dick was building up to this.. fantasy almost. and when he went to college it still wasn't so bad because even if there was a desire to be independent he still felt like he had bruce's support. the fantasy remained intact. it was only when dick started to realize that being in college hindered what he really wanted to do with his life, and then bruce opposed him on it, and then they proceeded to disagree on a number of other things—as respectfully as they could admittedly. that was the nice thing about the early 80s. they actually talked in the truest sense of the word—and then bruce finally cut the cord (so to speak) on robin existing as a required extension of batman, that the floodgates really opened. every latent positive emotion that dick had ever felt in his life because of what he believed bruce had given him unconditionally was suddenly up for dissection. and that's how you proceeded to get the neurotic ticking time bomb we know and love so well today. or at least that's how i like to conceptualize it in my head

#outbox #dick age eighteen: i'm coming out.. as depressed #also love the panel about bruce quitting his management position at wayne industries bc you know he's lying to himself lmaoo #he doesn't love the management work obv. but we know full well he only sacrifices things for himself in the civilian world #bc he feels like he isn't doing enough in the vigilante world. he likes being bruce wayne. but he can't Justify being bruce wayne #and that subsequently makes it a lot easier (well. that's debatable) for him to be a helicopter parent with respect to everyone else #he's fully entitled to rob himself of his little civilian joys. but it'll upset him if anyone else does the same for themselves

[recitedemise]

𝗚𝗮𝗹𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗿𝗲𝗹𝘂𝗰𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗸 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗽 𝗵𝗶𝗺𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗲𝗮𝗴𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗼 𝗹𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗲𝗱. This, beyond being a testament to his softer heart, his rather sizable well of care, is a consequence of his time shared with Mystra. Being a worshipper, a follower and lover both to the mother of magic, Gale is far more familiar with giving than receiving. A tremendous deal more. Beyond those illusions of love, Mystra granted him nothing, and whenever she was troubled, even sour or short, it was Gale, doting Gale, who would smooth it out. In truth, short of the stars, he had offered her everything. His whole life to boot. Still, living for some years prioritizing Mystra, Gale's grown notably reluctant to ask for help. It's why, when strapped with the netherese orb, newly blighted and rotting to death, he'd sooner clamored in his tower than look to friends. He's loathed to show his folly, of course, and is far from a fan of stirring worry, but with Mystra, any ask he'd made was resolutely shunned, and from his lover, his deity, that left its mark. Gale--a giver, a man that wants to hope but doesn't dare to--is not a man to ask for anything. If ever he does, the ask is comically small, and even then, he expects to be denied almost immediately. Consequently, an eager kindness leaves him floored. Gale can read displeasure. (See: Mystra.) Gale's trained to soothe it, too. Yet, when confronted with the novelty of that same generosity, your resident Gale of Waterdeep is like a fish out of water.

#HEADCANON. #This hit home because I know too intimately what Gale went through. #God. It sucks. Gale is so attuned to Mystra and her periods of distance and #her cold demeanor. #He just learned to go right into tell me what I can do to make it better mode. #I think Gale isn't really the best at reading or catching social cues #but he's very aware when someone is upset. #He had to learn because god forbid he failed to recognize something and receive less warmth from Mystra #(she isn't exactly warm to begin with.) #she was just largely neglectful of Gale and Gale was convinced it was love #he showed so much of it and so much warmth and...kinda felt being chosen by her #was enough of an expression of love on Mystra's part (it isn't!). #Gale also only asking for help from YOU because he knows you deserve to know #because hiding it would be a danger to others around him. #Like Gale truly asked for no ones hand before the nautiloid incident. he had to be quite literally #torn from his life and freefall into another disaster before even asking for help #a small ask too. This man is like hey can I have your UTTERLY useless necklace so I don't die? i'm so sorry i'm such an inconvenience #fuck. Gale. Gale...baby.... #Literally you go 'children shouldn't die' (arabella) and he's all you're such a decent person...i trust you #???? honestly. need i say more. #anyway idk if ill write much today beyond this. im DROWNING in work and i have to prep for an event tomorrow #so you can just frown with me about gale #Me writing about Mystra: wow theyre a lot like my abuser. 🥲🥲🥲🥲hauew..a..

[aq2003]

oh my god i/me/myself fits ten like crazy i have been searching for a loser to put that song on their character playlist for forever

#when he regenerated into the '''''ideal''''' '''''lover''''' for rose did he consider how transgender it would be. hmm #'am i pretty enough to die' you sure are girl! #dr who #i think there is a certain vibe to will wood songs that fit ten quite well .. upbeat and upset and also queer as hell #like. marsha thankk you for the dialects is a ten and martha song for fucking REAL. i would say its like a themesong for them even

[poppy-metal]

the woes of the night hittin. naws my nails off

#poppy speaks #already lost one friend bc they quite literally lost interest in me and tried to gaslight me into believing it wasn't true #n now i think its happening everywhere #n it just makes me think whats wrong w me that im not. loveable and cherishable enough to just. think abt and value #'i think you're codependent and needy' because im upset that you suddenly dont wanna talk to me when i dont have anything to offer u? #die. die die die. #how am i 25 and not anyones best friend bro.

[neonacidtrip]

“ And it hurts so much! Life is suffering. It is hard! The world is cursed. But still, you find reasons to keep on living." ... "I don't regret a thing, you know. I don't regret the struggles. I don't regret the hardships. The pain. The sorrow. And I've seen so much of it! But still. I don't regret what I've done or how I've lived my life. I just wish the world had been a better place. A better place for them, for us... But surely, a better place for you, my dear." ... "I feel like a vast vessel, with so many dusty rooms and cabins... I have so many of them... So many memories... Some of them are gone, but some of them... Some of them will live on forever. In you, in others. ”

- Astrid, Spiritfarer Farewell Edition

#just in case it was not clear #astrid was probably my favorite spiritfarer character #and im very emo about this quote of hers #shes just such an icon. one of the most versatile characters in terms of perks #shes so cute. she unionizes a company. shes a ww2 survivor and risked her life protecting children #and shes just so heckin cute #i wanted to take even more of the quote but i felt like this part encapsulates most of what i wanted #I feel like a vast vessel with so many dusty rooms and cabins... I have so many of them... So many memories... #im not cryings youre crying #i really feel this quote lately though so i wanted to share it #i put it as my discord status but that didnt feel like quite enough this time around #this is one of those 'can you believe this amazing thing was said by an [insert character here]' things #astrid was like a top three for me along with stanley and probably gustov #i say this even though i got attached to literally all of the characters #except giovanni. could not sympathize a lot with giovanni #its like gwen is wonderful but she leaves you so quickly #bruce and mickey are great but they take a while to grow on you #atul is so lovely but he just LEAVES YOU and also his banging upsets everyone #im not over atul leaving. will never be over it. i stopped the game and googled it because i kept thinking he would come back #elena and jackie and daria are weird ones. i like them but im not sure i love them #alice is another one who is so hecking cute #i think alice and stanley and astrid were the saddest goodbyes for me #i loved them so much but also they were just sad on their own. stanley is just a kid #alices dementia is so long lasting and heartbreaking to witness #and astrids rapid deterioration after giovanni leaves hits very close to home for me #anyway im rambling again but i just love astrid so much what a queen she deserved better than giovanni #astrid #astrid (spiritfarer) #spiritfarer #spiritfarer farewell edition

[xiaowhore]

HOYOVERSE'S BIGGEST FUCK YOU TO ME

#i.... i dont even know what to say..... #my pity............ #^ second acc btw. didn't realize i didnt have perfect partner there so i was confused for roughly 5 seconds #i am. Miserable #i have to quit tot for 3 months to recover from this #LIKE. AS IF HITTING HARD PITY WASNT ENOUGH. I GOT THE PERMANENT SSR I ALREADY GOT TWICE IN MY MAIN ACC #LMAOOOOOO ITS SO UNLUCKY THAT ITS FUNNY #anyways . i hate this game . i really won't touch it until i get over this betrayal #my pity resetting upset me more than not getting the card i want ugh #mao — !