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dreammutual-remade · 6 years

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idol!you and lucas

request: please do a bullet scenario about lucas and his gf both being sm idols - anon

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a/n: first of all,,,, this gif hurts me badly, seCOND OF ALL im so sorry for the inactivity !! I have finals this week and I graduate really soon n ive just been v busy !!! also I had hella writers block trying to finish this ish up but I hope u like it anon !!!!its a lil hard for me to write as an idol just because thats such a Wildt lifestyle but I did my best ily

warnings: cursing n also some crying because god knows all of our boys prolly have during their idol days :(((((((

what’s up butter cup

let’s dive tf in

as a pre-warning thingy i’m making you a singer so i’m very sorry if you can’t sing i can’t either bby

alright so this story begins when you’re not even 16 years old and you audition for a bunch of companies

tbh you didn’t think you were /that/ good at singing or dancing but ???

all the companies wanted you??? you got offers from JYP and SM and Pledis ????? go off queen

we stan

anyways

you decide to go with SM since they produced leGENDS SHINEE

FUCK I LOVE THOSE GUYS

(binch if u went to JYP u literally could have been in TWICE ?!?/&.&. ABSOLUTE LEGENDS UR LOSS THOT)

also because you just think that’ll be best for you ?? idk we don’t judge here (i already did though i’m So Sorry)

on your first day as a trainee you’re in search of the female dorms and you just can’t find them

eventually you run into this,,,, Gang Of Adolescent Boys

they’re wearing dorky ass muscle tees and keep saying shit about “foreign swaggers”

(.... y’all already know who it is sjdkdkd)

and you’re Meek and New and Small so you’re like um, hellowherearethegirlsdormsplease

okay there’s four of them and they’re all fckin huge except for one

the Biggest One with the american accent points you in the right direction and you try to scurry away but end up smacking into the Second Biggest One’s arm because he moved in your way on accident ouchie

“god lucas why don’t you just run the poor girl over”

“hYUNG PLEASE”

“hehehhehe i’m just kiddin”

and you just kind of mumble that it’s fine and go on your way

okay so you train for three yEARS before your debut

and you def come out of your shell alright like you’re Extroverted and whatnot

you still see those boys and even make friends with mark and donghyuck and the Foreign Members

but the entirety of the group you met has debuted except Lucas

you’re not close but you wave and say hi when you see each other

you turn pink everytime from Emotions and also Holding Your Breathe Due To Anxiety

and he was cute years ago but he’s only gotten prettier with age dude

they recently dyed his hair to give him some Blonde Stuff and he looks reaLLY GOOD

LIKE TO THE POINT WHERE U HAVE TROUBLE LOOKING HIM IN THE EYE

but eventually you’re like hey now i’m a grown woman i can handle this giant childish man !!! quit that @ emotions

alright so you debut like, days before him no lie

you’re a solo artist bc idk

red velvet was full 😔🤟

anyways you’ve been filming the video for the past couple weeks and the concept is sort of filmy and shimmery like old sparkly anime water u kno ?

and you’re wearing similar stuff to what ten was wearing in the new heroes mv (BIG OOF) except less warm toned ?

like swishy sort of see through white shirts and spandex underneath

you’re a Beautiful and Skilled dancer so they have u all over the place with this choreo

on the FLOOR on the WALL in the AIR

no joke they had you in a harness doing cool swirly shit in the air this is the stuff of legends my g

but like the inside of SM ? is very cold

if you’re not filming you’re bundled up in a blanket and trying to rub the goosebumps out of your arms and legs

because you have to look all smooth and flawless for filming and those are two things goosies are not

luckily the song wasn’t a huge ballad because it’s rather hard to belt out long ass notes when you’re upside down lmao

anyways, the song is a bop and the mv is beautiful and you are wearing minimal clothing and although these are all nice things but also

RECIPE FOR DISASTER

the filming is almost done thank GOD

you’re taking a break from filming and you go out in the hall in your costume to go get another water bottle because ain’t nobody around to give a pre debut thot a water bottle 🤧🤧

your arms are wrapped around yourself when lucas jogs up behind you and throws his jacket around you??

literally throws it like you made an oof noise

“um ,? thank you that was aggressive”

“i knOw i’m sorry it’s just you are practically naked and it’s Cold in here and also walking behind you i noticed you were Very Exposed sO”

you turn bright red because that means everyone has seen your ass prolly and you duck your head and pull the jacket tighter around yourself

“oh! i’m sorry i mean you look uhh? really good ?? yeah you look good nOT that i was looking super hard or anything or that i uH saw aNything BUt if i did it would look good i’m sure nOT THAT I thInK about that ?$/&/“

and now you’re both blushing very hard but you feel a little better when you see he’s just as flustered as you

you brush your fingers on his forearm to get him to stop staring at the floor and tell him thanks and ask about when he’s debuting

he tells you the mv filming is done since they had to go Real Far Away to do it and get it done ahead of time and that the teasers will be out in three weeks and then the mv release and then its Show Time Baby

you’re excited for him and he’s excited and you debut really soon as well and he’s excited for you and !!!!!

there’s excitement all over the place

he’s smiling so big and his eyes are cute and crinkly and :(((((

you still got a crush on him /sigh/

one of the staff literally yells your name down the hall and you’re like aw shit that’s my cue lol

you leave him with with a lil squeeze of his bicep and you’re BOTH shook

him because ?? was that fLIRTING

you because ?? THAT WAS FLIRTING

also because his biceps are thicc i’m gonna cry

big baby stands there for like 3 mins just shook and with uwus oozing from his pores

you skrt very quickly to avoid the consequences of your actions and get back to filming

okay TIME SKIP

your mv was released and did GOOD AS FUCK

you didn’t hear it from me but lucas + nct boys were seen on vlive jamming the fuck out to your song

you’re backstage like 10 mins from going on and having an absolute panic attack

what if you trip ??? or your voice breaks !!:&::

what if all the reviews say you’re Trash live and that the mv was better since they edited

what if you FLOP AND HAVE NO FANS

NO ONE DOES THE FANCHANTS

FUCK FUXKFUCKFUXKCUDJ

so you do call the king of debuts

mark lee

and you’re like mARK FUCK IM GOING TO CRASH AND BURN PLEAS LLSSE DHELPD ME

he tells you to Calm The Fuck Down and assures you it’ll be fine but it’s not working and mark is but a young boy he don’t know how to deal with FEMALES

you hear some deep ass voice on the other side ask who’s on the phone and mark says your name and then the voice is closer and deMANDING to be given the phone

u already kno it’s our boy yukhei

he can hear you gasping through the phone and having a mental breakdown and immediately makes his voice all low and soft

wow i’m , affected writing this shit

“hey, y/n, listen to me, you’re okay, you’re fine. i promise it’ll be okay.”

“bUT WHAT IF I-“

“you won’t. you’ve worked too hard and practiced too much. i know you i saw you do it. do NOT let all of that go down the drain. you can do this. now get your cute ass out there and take NO SHIT”

“i know but i am, scared”

“don’t be! this is what you love isnt it?”

“i mean,,,, yeah”

“and you want to do this more than anything don’t you?”

“well , yeah”

“then for gods sake don’t be a wimp and do it”

“hey i miss the part of this conversation where you were being nice to me”

“that part’s over babe you need some TOUGH LOVE now please for me and for yourSELF get out there”

“okay.. thanks lucas”

“anything for you, angel”

yOU HANG UP SO QUICK

how dare he

you were all Comforted but then he went on with that angel bullshit

okay long story short you ended the industry dude

all solo artists BOW BEFORE YOU

VOCAL QUEEN

DANCE QUEEN

lucas: shaking because His Angel did so well and you were wearing white and actually looked like an angel

but you don’t see him for the next like twO MONTHS because he’s promoting boss and you’re promoting your single and neither of you are home ever

when you do get a second to yourself you try to send him an encouraging text but

you seldom get a second to yourself :(((

he does the same thing and they’re so sweet :(

“good morning i hope u slept well !!”

“princess don’t forget 2 hydrate”

“i saw ur mnet performance u looked beautiful <333”

this man is practically begging you to wife him up i mean

he’s cute

he’s BIG and WARM

very sweet to you :(

talented and lovely

absolute dweeb

supportive of you even from great distances

BEST BOY UWU

you try to be just as encouraging back because he deserves it UGH

“bub don’t forget to eat i know ur hungry rn”

“!!!!!! you came foR MY LUNGS WITH THAT CENTER DANCE AT THE END BOI”

“why are u sending me messages u need to rest bby :((“

when things calm down though you,, see each other

he doesn’t formally ask you out and you don’t say anything but, youre dating sort of kind of

as idols you’re both still so so busy and you JUST debuted so neither of you are really allowed to date anyways

you settle for little bits of cuddling and secret touches as you pass each other in the hall

you both stand outside of your respective dorms at night to facetime without waking your dorm mates

he desperately wants to go on dates and do Normal Couple things but there’s no time :(

the most affectionate you’ve ever been is when the girl group who shares a dorm with you was out promoting and you had him over and you took a nap together :((((

he Insisted upon being the big spoon and basically wrapped your whole body up with his limbs

pressed a few lil kisses to the back of your neck and your shoulder when he thought you were asleep

you weren’t though and you turned around to kiss him on the cheek and then tuck your face into his neck and pass tf out

he has to leave though because mark texts him and is like YO I KNO UR WITH Y/N AND HER ROOMMATES ARE ON THE WAY HOME

ABORT MISSION DUDE

and that’s pretty much it :(

months pass without much between you even though you’re trying your best

and even though you live in dorms you’re still so lonely especially when you’re traveling because you don’t have any group members

you don’t want to annoy or worry lucas though so you don’t complain

he notices though and late at night he’ll call you while you’re in bed and talk about his day and how he misses you and wishes you were there

and when you get all emo he says he’ll be waiting for you at the airport

(he really does he goes and hides in the bathroom and texts you so you can go in there and TACKLE HIM)

he still calls you angel all the time :((((

god that’s another weakness of mine ??? IM SUCH A WUSS

but it has specifically changed to “my angel”

uwu

your first kiss and first Real Confession happens on the Worst Day Of Your Life

you’re about to go on stage (you’ve released an album since your debut so this is new stuff) when you get a call from your mom ??

she’s crying and tells you your grandma is sick and in the hospital and it’s really bad

immediately you’re barely holding yourself together because that woman half raised you and was the reason you stayed in dance and worked so hard to become who you are today

there are tears streaming down your face already and the makeup team is fluttering around you trying to fix what you’re messing up and it’s bad

you still have to go on though so you go and perform with tears in your eyes and your manager yells at you after for not pulling it together

you go home in tears and then you’re not looking where you’re going and ran straight into a staff who yells at you some more for being some entitled idol brat

originally you weren’t gonna say anything to lucas but, the staff pushed you over the edge and you call him in tears and are incoherent and can barely tell him where you are before you hang up

our boy BURSTS into your room and sees you sitting on the floor with your face buried in your knees and 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨 !!

he gathers you in his arms and sits on the bed with you curled up on his lap

he holds you close and rubs a comforting hand up and down your back at the same time as he frantically tries to figure out what’s wrong

“y/n?? baby what’s wrong? angel, please you gotta tell me or i cant help”

“i jjJJUST Got a cALL and my grandMA IS SICK AND THEN I DI D BAD AND DISAPPOINTED EVERYONE AND My mManageR yeYELLED at me and theN I RAN iNtO a staffF meMbEr and he yELled at me too and I JSUT .$:&:&;& i’m sO SORRY u doNT need to deAL WIYH ME you have problems of YouR own and-“

“shhh listen to me i always care about you okay? angel, i want to help you no matter what you know that. also, if you weren’t so distraught i would go beat some SM ass you didn’t deserve to be yelled at :(((( how about we call your mom and check for updates with your grandma and i’ll stay here with you for the night?”

you nod and then reach for your phone while keeping as much physical contact with lucas as possible

he’s the only reason you haven’t reached the Depression Point Of No Return so

we stayin close

you put your mom on speaker and set your phone down before squishing yourself back into his chest and sniffling while the phone rings

your mom answers and you shakily ask for any updates and she tells you not much but your grandma has improved and they think that within a couple weeks she’ll be better

you cry some more and tell her you love them both and you’re so relieved and lucas kisses the crown of your head and is just There For Comforting

once you hang up and you’ve calmed down a little more you back up a little and turn to face him

“hey thank you so much, you didn’t have to come and help me so much but you’ve always been there to make me stop Freaking Out and laugh and i just, love you. yeah that’s what it is. I LOVE YOU I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU, WONG YUKHE-“

he cuts you off by snatching your face in his big warm hands and kissing you right on the lips

he then kisses your nose and your forehead and pulls you back into his lap to tuck you under his chin

“it’s all for you, angel ;)))) i love you more”

#me: a connoisseur of shitty endings #uwu im so soft someone call me their angel right now immediately #lucas #wong lucas #wong yukhei #wong xuxi #nct #nct u #nct 2018 #nct scenarios #nct scenario #nct fluff #nct u scenarios #nct u fluff #nct 2018 scenarios #yukhei scenarios #yukhei fluff #Lucas scenarios #Lucas fluff

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lysitheaioandeuropa · 7 years

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hey! let’s talk! about me!

I’m gonna bullet list in hopes to keep this concise (UPDATE THIS SHIT IS A LOT LONGER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE AND I THINK I WILL BE MAKING SEPARATE POSTS), bc i know it definitely isn’t going to be very organized. Before i had my fucking mental breakdown this afternoon, i actually had a lot of thoughts this morning. Some good, some bad, but i felt like i was taking the time to really acknowledge and process some things that.. I don’t get to acknowledge and process often. Or that i just flat out refuse to, or i choose to repress memories, or am still struggling with “wait, did that really happen or am i making it up,” which apparently is a sign of childhood emotional negligence or some shit like that. So basically this will prob end up being a series of extremely personal anecdotal text posts that i have shared with.. Absolutely no one prior to now, for all of my two followers to read (but tbh y’all don’t even have to, i’m mostly keeping this up here for me & prob to have something to share w my therapist, but i won’t stop y’all)

Part I - Oh no, I Caught “The Gay!” Alright, so boom: sexuality. I know i don't shut up about being gay, i know i am entirely way too hype about having a gf and being absolutely fucking smitten with her (AND WOMEN IN GENERAL), but when it feels like i’ve been forced into being silenced about that for sooo fucking long, shit can you blame me? I’ve been pretty open about it as an adult (p much 20 & on or so), it wasn’t like.. This huge secret or anything, but it also wasn’t something i went out of my way to make public. I never officially came out, and unfortunately when people found out it was because this real crazy chick decided to out me out of nowhere and i guess i just figured i had to own up to it, i didn’t really care what people thought of it then. It was weird answering questions, but easier to navigate in my 20s, though more on that later. I did let my partners know if i was dating anyone seriously (as seriously as you can as a teenager anyway), but past that idk, it just never came up. And i sometimes envy the younger kids/adults that like.. Have all these resources and labels available to them now, you know. I feel like its a lot easier to explore who you are and your identity today than it was when i was in middle school, having an extremely hard time sorting out my feelings for my “friends” (read as: i usually thought i just really wanted to be their friend, but also was v aware of how attractive they were to me, but it didn’t seem okay to talk about; whereas, middle schoolers now are a little more open? Have more labels? i have always settled for gay, Bc i did like and develop feelings for guys too but even then knew i liked my friends more). And i mean it was always something i personally was okay with, i wouldn’t deny myself the pleasure of finding girls attractive whatsoever. It’s weird looking at kids now like “oh no, they’re only children!” But i was all of 11 yrs old, first day of sixth grade, when i literally prayed that hands down THE prettiest girl in my 5th period would sit next to me as soon as i saw her walk in and had instant butterflies when she smiled at me and took that empty desk, like holy shit lmao (bruh.. She was 5’1”, puerto rican, and in my head at the time, looked RIGHTTTTT. We were partners in that class for the rest of the year and best friends outside of that class and her voice & her laugh, like bro!!!! Again, confusing and frustrating to have a crush on her, know that, be her friend and hello ofc she’s gorgeous so every boy was always after her too. Navigating feelings was so hard, but then i found a boy to crush on and felt normal again lmao). BUT it just seemed like the normal thing to do was not talk about it or ever bring it up to anyone at all at any point in time which i realize now is.. Yikes lmfao. I think it would have been different if i had someone to navigate that with, i was “mature” enough to figure it out on my own, and know to just keep it to myself, and accept it and not feel like a weirdo or anything, but not always be so eager to act on it. Again the older i’ve gotten, the easier it’s been to tell the story of how my parents thought the neighboring boy and i were so cute together in pre-k & meanwhile i was kissing this one girl during nap time, lmao. So like, i’m okay with that much; i don’t and never have felt guilty about being gay (bi, pan, whatever), even growing up in a church bc it rly was something that just came naturally to me from the jump. Puberty was slightly confusing but not a total shock either.

High school was even more so challenging and confusing? Bro. one of my best friends (and we’re def still friends now) and i were very close and the bitch had absolutely no boundaries whatsoever. Granted she had always been like that, I had been friends with her since the 6th grade as well and had seen her with other girls and boys but never put too much thought into it (you will see that this is my reaction to 90% of shit that happens to me). I’ve posted before and recently about being gay but not wanting to be predatory but getting mixed signals in “regular girl friendships,” and this was fucking textbook, lmao. I never got my hopes up or anything, and i just didn’t consider being with her a real option, but yeah, no, i deadass liked her and i’m sure she knew and didn’t mind the attention either lmao. Call it my first situationship i guess, lmao. We shared a locker so she would leave me notes and gifts, and vice versa, we’d bake for each other, we’d walk to class together, usually have lunch together, so on and so forth; she had no problem holding my hand and hugging me and being affectionate and calling me baby but like.. We weren’t dating. That was a thing. I both welcomed it and brushed it off; i was really comfortable with her physically, but still thinking i should only be dating boys even though they made me extremely uncomfortable and i’d flinch if they got too close (lmao, i have an entire separate section ready for men; cue eyeroll). I mean she kind of lead me on but not rly? I knew not to take it srsly BUT i also knew i’d be down as fuck if she ever changed her mind lmfao. Deadass she’s a 10/10 both then and now and she’d always do this cuuuute thing where she’d wrap her hands around my neck and kiss my nose and bruh i’d melt. Most people were already convinced we were dating *shrug* anyway though, this guy tried to hook up w me but i was like ehhhh so he ended up hooking up w her instead and i started dating my first boyfriend (who was terrible, abusive, and legitimately ruined my life in the short span of 10 months or so but that’s in the men’s section). It’s not like all of that magically stopped either though but i never pressed her for anything more, just entertained her and got butterflies every time she would hit me w that “i’d so love to date you” but her issue was she was comfortable with women but not sexually. I obviously wasn’t trying to sleep w her at 14, but i get it, that's her prerogative & it never got in the way of our actual friendship & i 100% value her as JUST my friend, she’s been rly great to me and has been there for the shittiest of times and has gotten me out of some rough spots. It was what it was lol. And there were other pretty girls after her that i would have considered pursuing but just never went for it. There was this senior girl i had for a class the following year and she also was and still is just jaw-dropping, beautiful, like holy shit. Something about her reminded me of strawberries and just made me feel cozy, you know? She always smelled nice, her hair was strawberry blond wellll past her waist, and she had to have been dumb to not notice me checking her out 25/8. Anyway though, i’m not trying to talk about every single girl i’ve had a crush on; the point is, i have always been firm on my sexuality you know, i never felt like i had a “questioning” phase and it just felt normal (and it has been annoying to have people question just bc i wasn’t “out” long enough to them? Or bc i’m straight passing as far as being fem + dating shitty guys goes). The only weird part was just never pursuing or never having the means to, obviously every girl is 500% straight in high school, or they sure were back then at least. I knew all of like two or three openly out girls and while i was not interested in none of them, i did envy the confidence they had not in just “hey i’m GAY,” but one of them was notorious for just pursuing any girl she was interested in and having it work in her favor? Even the “straight” ones? In my head i could only think like bro how the fuck? Anyway, proceed w checking chicks out on the sly and dating shitty guys (#bars)

So of course, college came around right, and thankfully i knew myself well enough at this point to know that my relationship with women was completely different from my relationship with men. How we interacted, how they made me feel, etc. i moved out at 17, had my own apartment, all that jazz. I had a serious boyfriend but we did do the “open relationship” thing for a bit and lo and behold, available women were everywhere. And we’d chat, flirt, and i knew the physical attraction was there (and, you know, i’m not going to get graphic or anything but confirmed i enjoyed that aspect as well) but not rly much else. So again, never put much thought into it, i was open to being with women romantically but it just never came up and finding straight guys to date after that boyfriend and i broke up was just easier. At this point, i took a “cross that bridge when i get to it” when it came to “officially” being out; it seemed pointless to make this huge deal when i was still just dating dudes, or not dating anyone at all. Not too long thereafter though, one of my close friends (i only have a couple) called me freaking out, it was adorable, lmao. So this girl confessed her love to her and she was confused about what she should do lmao (my gaydar went off THE SECOND I first met my friend and i mentioned it in passing but she always brushed it off). The whole “do what feels right” line is tired but that was the only advice i can give her really. Putting a little more thought into the situation this time and wishing i had someone i could call when i was freaking out over a girl i told her like “you know, there’s nothing wrong if you’re gay. I’m gay, i turned out just fine.” long story short, if you ask her she will always credit me for helping her come to terms with that, but she was also the first person outside of a boyfriend that i said that out loud to and.. It was nice. We kinda helped each other through that and it was nice to have that one gay friend finally lmao. But let’s just fast forward to maybe a year after that, i’d talk to girls here and there nothing serious, when the same crazy girl that liked my friend wants to talk to me (i told y’all the lesbian/local community dumb small) my friend didn’t care and i wasn’t trying to date her seriously, i was in town for the holidays and figured it’d be fun, whatever. So i was going to LIC w A HUGEEE group of my friends. Like. a significant amount, that i had only seen a couple times since high school, and that i obviously did not share my personal business with. This girl knew i wasn’t out, i told her not to be acting crazy either smh. So i knew the girl in passing but not like officially and we did most of our talking online/texting (bc thats how lesbians meet lmao). Keeping that in mind, this is the first time i’m actually meeting this girl not irl but def f2f y’know.. And this is the third time that i’m saying she’s crazy. We find a place to meet at LIC between sets and i told my friends i was waiting for another friend of mine thinking that would be the end of that. Now the whole “lesbians are crazy and move way too fast” trope was a thing w this one bc as soon as she spotted me she ran to me and just kissed me, i swear it was straight out of The Notebook, bro and i turned around and my group of MAYBE 10 friends that caught that were literally staring, wide-eyed, jaws dropped. And i just brushed it off and said k, i’m ready to go, and the questions from there on after just would not stopppppp. It was partially embarrassing bc i am not a spotlight ass bitch whatsoever, but most people that saw us together strangers and whatnot thought we were a “cute couple” and we were complimented most of the night. But every time she’d hug me or kiss me or anything, my friends would be ready behind her back in group of three trying to mouth over me like “girlfriend???? Dating?????” and no she wasn’t my girlfriend but the way she was all over me i had to claim her as such at that point to make my life easier lmao. And i can laugh it off now because no, it rly wasn’t that big a deal to me then but it does kind of suck that it ended up not being my own choice y’know. I had fun with her, the night ended well, she left w me and slept over (nothing happened [that time] but it was still nice nonetheless lol). New years eve was the next couple days and we made plans together and again, we weren’t official or like REALLY talking and it was a (different) group of us going to this house party. I didn’t think she’d do the same thing like, bro without asking or anything, imagine if i was a person that did seriously mind?? Anyway, she got drunk and was the life of the party, she has quite the presence, and by the time it was midnight she straddling my lap making out with me and thats how i came out to everyone else i knew and whoever wasn’t at any of those two events sure did receive texts and pics of my date and i. It was embarrassing initially cause this girl!! Why the fuck did she do that!! Lmao, explaining myself to my closest friends was odd bc they were offended i didn’t tell them sooner and i’m just like.. It never came up at all you know. With that said, i have waited to see if i would ever seriously date a woman bc i knew i wanted to but the opportunity never presented itself until recently, and that’s why ya’ll see me out here screaming on rooftops about how gay i am bc i finally get to do that, on my own terms, and bc i love someone soooo so so dearly.

#okay so this part isn't complete but its late and i didn't wanna back out on posting it #fair warning if you decide you want to read this irs super long #rly personal (nothing graphic or anything - just personal)#and it's stuff i have never said out loud or to anyone.. ever p much #maybe mentioned in passing but thats about it #this part is the nicest part to write about bc.. the others i have planned are rly ugly #but they'll also be posted soon enough #personal #?#me #idk i feel like this should have another tag #writings

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asdgkjlasfdjgkl · 7 years

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all numbers on the 'send me numbers' meme

Oh jeeze annon!

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

My gf!

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Mmm, it depends on the person? Once i get to know someone, im out going, but if its a new person, im rlly shy tbh,,,

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

My gf,,, evry day,,,

4. Are you easy to get along with?

Idk? I hope I am,,, but a lot of people don’t like me,, so idk?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

I’m like,,, 2,,, but if I were drunk,,, i hope so???

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Gals :9

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

I hope so!!!! I’m not planning on breaking up with my gf any time soon!!

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

thts a bit hetero but,,, the mcelroy bros bc im listening to taz rn :/

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

From a sceintific perspective nope, but like,, from a uhm,,, more,, not,, scientific perspective,,, ive never rlly talked about it but,, im assuming so???

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Mmmm idk?? I dont talk /deeply/ to a lot of people but it might be my gf?

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

‘Np!!!’

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Boombayah - Blackpink

The 7th Sense - Nct U

Candy Store - Heathers

Russian Roulette - Red Velvet

Bomb - Ravi

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

yes yes yes ye s y es p leas e

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

def. luck, but not miracles?? idk is tht weird?

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I got accepted to the school im goin to now!! so thts cool!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

anon imma confess somethin rlly quick,,

i havent had my first kiss,,,

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Yea for sure! I mean, if space is infinitely big, wouldnt it be weird if we were the only ones out there??

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

i can not talk to the green villan chick from kim possible so nope lamo

19. Do you like bubble baths?

yea!! its rlly fun and relaxing

20. Do you like your neighbors?

the only neighbors i know are the ones who are crack heads and who had someone die in their home somehow?? so imma go with no

21. What are you bad habits?

Biting my lips, mumbling, self-isolation, ect ect

22. Where would you like to travel?

i wouldnt probs?? other time periods are more aesthetic, but more misogynistic and homophobic so,,,

23. Do you have trust issues?

I dont think so?? probs not tbh,,

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

s l e e p

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

my shoulders,, theyre rlly broad for a gal so a lot of clothes dont fit me right,,

26. What do you do when you wake up?

suffer

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

nope?? i mean, im v v v v v pale so i probs should be a bit darker for health reasons, but ive never rlly had issues with is before??

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

my gf and besties

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

i only have one and nope

30. Do you ever want to get married?

it depends on what my partner wants? i dont specifically want to and i dont specifically dont want to so itll be up 2 who ever im dating at the time

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

barely. it has a hard time staying up some times

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

bdkhj what the fuck im not answering that im 2 years o l d

33. Spell your name with your chin.

fgZg,klf

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

yep! basketball and soccer!

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV. I barely watch it anyways

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

mm yea

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

i usually try to think of a story??

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

my current gf tbh

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

amazon lmao

40. What do you want to do after high school?

idk yet?? rn im thinking an english teacher in china :0

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

depends on what they did

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

nothin rlly?? Im just usually lost in thought??

43. Do you smile at strangers?

i try to!

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

s p a c e

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

the thought of seein my gf at school ;)

46. What are you paranoid about?

my report card,,,

47. Have you ever been high?

yea but it WASNT MY FAULT. I WAS GIVEN A WEED BROWNIE WITH OUT MY CONSENT OKAY??

48. Have you ever been drunk?

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

no??

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

i think it was my gf’s brown hoodie?

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

uhm,,, na? sometime i wish we were in a dif financial situation, but thts about it?

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

my shoulder width??

53. Favourite makeup brand?

i dont,,, wear make up,,,,

54. Favourite store?

amazon :9

55. Favourite blog?

@genociderfukawa , @eggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggs , @succmekomaeda

56. Favourite colour?

all of the pastels!

57. Favourite food?

penne chicken Alfredo

58. Last thing you ate?

some chicken

59. First thing you ate this morning?

a fudgeround

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Yea! Iv’e won multiple sports contests, and a few art and writing competitions

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

nope!

62. Been arrested? For what?

na man. i have a clean record

63. Ever been in love?

I am rn!

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

i,,, havent had it yet,,,,,,

65. Are you hungry right now?

nope! i just ate dinner!

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

i rlly dont have any tumblr friends??

67. Facebook or Twitter?

twitter obvi

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

twitter!

69. Are you watching tv right now?

nope! im listening to taz

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Emily, Jessy, Mikaia, Zoya, and Patrick!

71. Craving something? What?

,,,,cheesecake,,,,,,

72. What colour are your towels?

green and blue i think

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

7. exactly.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

do pillow pets count?

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

5 or 6?

75. Favourite animal?

owls and bunnies!!

76. What colour is your underwear?

rn?,,,,,,,,, neon pink ://p

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

triple chocolate chunk and tht kinda bull shit!

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

navy blue

80. What colour pants?

also navy blue!

81. Favourite tv show?

i dont rlly watch american tv but,, channel zero is rlly good!!

82. Favourite movie?

Moana!!!!

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

mean girls 1

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

ive never seen 21 jump street

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

idk?? the main bitch

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

dory!

87. First person you talked to today?

my gf!

88. Last person you talked to today?

my dad i think??

89. Name a person you hate?

mm a few kids in my grade and the current potus and staff

90. Name a person you love?

my gf!! i luv her lots

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

na. im p chill rn

92. In a fight with someone?

not tht i know of?

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

2 or 3 pairs

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

3 of 4?? idek

95. Last movie you watched?

a shitty movie for my history class

96. Favourite actress?

i dont have one?

97. Favourite actor?

Lin Manuel Miranda!

98. Do you tan a lot?

nope. i just fukin,, burn like a hellfire

99. Have any pets?

3 cats and a dog!

100. How are you feeling?

pretty cool i guess?

101. Do you type fast?

depends? mostly ya!

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

oh fuck yes

103. Can you spell well?

no!! my spelling is shit tbh

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

no particuarly?

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

yep!

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

i might have?? im,, not sure honetly,,

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

yea! i used to ride rlly well!

108. What should you be doing?

listen here anon i actually did my fukin work 4 once

109. Is something irritating you right now?

just my headache?

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

oh yea

111. Do you have trust issues?

this is a repeat? i answered it earlier lmao

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Im not sure?

113. What was your childhood nickname?

tay

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

yea!

115. Do you play the Wii?

mm i have a wii u and switch, but no wii anymore :’(

116. Are you listening to music right now?

nope! im listening to taz!

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

hell yea!

118. Do you like Chinese food?

fuck yes!!!!

119. Favourite book?

the legend series by Marie Lu

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

4 sure

121. Are you mean?

god i hope not

122. Is cheating ever okay?

no! all partners should consent and agree on all boundaries in a relationship!! the members of that relationship need to respect that!!

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

hell na

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

mmhmm!

125. Do you believe in true love?

im in it rn baby

126. Are you currently bored?

yea,,,

127. What makes you happy?

music i like, my gf, spending tie with friends, and not stressing out about things!

128. Would you change your name?

nope! i like my name

129. What your zodiac sign?

pisces!

130. Do you like subway?

yasss!

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

he knos im fukin gay as shit

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

i answered this earlier too

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

‘ringdingdong ringdingdong ding, rigiding rigi ding ding ding ....... fantastic fantastic fantastic fantastic elastic elastic elastic elastic’

134. Can you count to one million?

i could but im not dooin that shit

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

‘im straight’

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

closed

137. How tall are you?

5′3 3/4″

138. Curly or Straight hair?

like what i have?? its super curly!

139. Brunette or Blonde?

im a brunette!

140. Summer or Winter?

mmm winter!

141. Night or Day?

night, cause i can sleep with out regrets

142. Favourite month?

February!

143. Are you a vegetarian?

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

dark!

145. Tea or Coffee?

mm neither :p

146. Was today a good day?

i would say so yea

147. Mars or Snickers?

m ars??

148. What’s your favourite quote?

‘dibidibidis my name is minho’

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

yea!

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

‘Burr: Theres nothing rich folks love more’

(its hamilton the revolution)

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Answer questions 1-100!

o m g, Jason is this you? or Nick? hahahahahaha jfc okayyyyyyy

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? - yes! tons of ‘em, i love my friends. ;p nobody who’d treat me any special though, i think 2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? - hell no, i was forgiving this person for way too long since i was a kid.3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” - of cats obviously, my love for cats, cats as purest creatures on planet earth. CATS.4: What’s something you really want right now? - good breakfast. i’m stick with stale bread and tomatoes.5: Are you afraid of falling in love? - yes. it’s hard for me to trust anybody, and also as soon as i fall for you i get, like, twice as affectionate and clingy bcos i love showing you that i love you and care, and that’s how people run away from me. also i have an intense sex drive which can scare ppl away.6: Do you like the beach? - YES! esp in the evening. but i don’t live nearby any.7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? - yup, actually like, a month ago, with my roommate’s sister. like, not WITH her but we def shared the couch. she’s a gem.8: What’s the background on your cell? - currenty it’s some sunset with “til the birds return for spring cleaning” lyrics underneath9: Name the last four beds you were sat on? - my old one, my roommate’s and i think the one in my roommate’s house... idk, this question is weird10: Do you like your phone? - yeah! it’s like, the best one i could get that was not and iPhone.11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? - meh really. when it comes to short planning then yeah. and with school as well, but as for family, friends, relations and personal bullshit, i’m totally disappointing everybody including myself.12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? - my long-term friend’s, she’s changed her number.13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? - both, pups are good, but I think Rottweiler would suit me better, like, mentally lol14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? - emooooooooooooooootional. depends on how strong the physical pain is, but yeah, you can always get meds for that, but for emotional pain? hella mate, hmu if you find any that aren’t leading to utter self-destruction15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? - art museum. animals in cages make me sad.16: Are you tired? - like, now? a bit. it’s too early for my and i just finished my shift at work and yeah.17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? - 21 years.18: Are they a relative? - It’s my momma.19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? - No, NO, ever. well, maybe if I got in touch with Dee again... but nope, I hurt her too much, I don’t want her to have any throwbacks.20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? - hang on, lemme check my fakebook account. - two days ago!21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? - if I knew 100%? also knowing the future? hell yeah, if they wanted to, too. but that’d be a problem if it was a girl cos gay marriages are still illegal in my shithole country.22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - nope, thanks, i’d have to be as drunk again.23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? - one, which is still a lot cos i rarely wear any24: Is there a certain quote you live by? - that’d be ‘el cielo es azul’ which is a SO to Conor obviously. but yeah, lots of quotes from conor, or john darnielle, or sufjan. toooo many 25: What’s on your mind? - upcomming off festival26: Do you have any tattoos? - no, but i want one sooo bad27: What is your favorite color? - purple, green, gray and black. i guess purple28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? - i don’t know. there’s few people, who, i guess, would want to kiss me like that, so it’ll be long, long, looong29: Who are you texting? - my mutuals now! love ya30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? - yeahhhhh. he’s not a good person though, i’m bored talking about him31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? - ALL THE TIME, MATE, ALL THE TIME. I’m a massive intuitive.32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? - 99% of my friends are of males, so yeah.33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? - nope, i don’t think so.34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? - yes. a drunkard begging me for cigarettes every morning would mention so. but i’d always share a cig with him anyway. so yeah, that was him and... him.35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? - I’d tell that someone to RUN AND SAVE THEIR LIVES. i swear.36: Were you single on Valentines Day? - yeah37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed? - nope, don’t want to be38: What do your friends call you? - I’m Gandalf cos supposedly I’m the brain of the group, but I think they do so ironically cos i’m a dumbass most of the time39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? - hell yeah40: Have you ever cried over a text? - too many times41: Where’s your last bruise located? - on my head. it’s not a happy story.42: What is it from? - from my brother punching me. as i’ve said, not happy.43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? - everyday. but 2 days ago the most.44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? - my friend Suzy from uni45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? - nah, i don’t really give a damn about clothes46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? - nope, i wash my hair once more47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? - nope, my hair is like... the only good feature, the only good... part of my body lol48: Do you make supper for your family? - sometimes49: Does your bedroom have a door? - of course50: Top 3 web-pages? - reddit, reddit and reddit. there’s no better web-page. well, pornhub sometimes, too.51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? - YES! I DO!52: Does anything on your body hurt? - my back, i’m sitting in a weird position atm53: Are goodbyes hard for you? - hate to say it, but yes54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? - beer about a week ago55: How is your hair? - red, sweaty and smells like fried chicken bcos of my job56: What do you usually do first in the morning? - i pee.57: Do you think two people can last forever? - yes. my parents for example58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? - I was 11 duuuude, of course59: Green or purple grapes? - purple60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? - my dearest friends next week at the festival and possibly Conor if i don’t chicken out lol61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? - yessss, as always62: When will be the next time you text someone? - possibly soon, one of my mutuals63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? - at home, in the kitchen possibly64: What were you doing at 8 this morning. - at McDonald’s, working65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? - i don’t remember whom i liked and if there was anyone but i def remember i started to dislike my ex66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? - hmmm, i guess so67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? - nope, but i’d do love to. i’m super affectionate and always in need for hugs and smooches68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? - i was wondering if i get the book i ordered recently today. and i just got the message from post office that i will haha69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? - all my life, friend, all my life. esp with people.70: How many windows are open on your computer? - 3 atm71: How many fingers do you have? - the correct number72: What is your ringtone? - some random android ringtone73: How old will you be in 5 months? - stillllll 21.74: Where is your Mum right now? - at her friend’s i think.75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? - oh, the story is long. 1) we were 15, madly in love for the first time 2) she was also a girl, my mom is kinda homophobic, her parents were even worse 3) our parents made us part tbqh 4) my mom e.g. told me that Dee (that girl) didn’t want to see me anymore but I don’t believe that. her parents possibly told her the same about me and yeah. 5) It all happened when my mom found out cos I wasn’t careful enough and yeah. Even though we’re adults now I fear contacting her even on fb, but I sometimes visit her profile, yes76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? - nope77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? - YES!78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? - still on my first girlfriend, i think.79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? - nope. i mean, there is mike mogis hehehehe but i don’t know him personally80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? - yes.81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? - hmm, idk, like 4-5? i mean, like, plathonically82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? - yeah, my mom i guess83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? - idk, possibly not, they’re not well and i don’t want to bother them84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? - my roommate haha85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? - depends on the kind of drugs. if they were addicted to serious shit i’d try my best to help them get out of that. but no, i wouldn’t abandon them or anything like that86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? -...i don’t think my movie trips are ever that eventful haha87: Who was your last received call from? - my mom88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? - OMG WHAT IS THIS QUESTION. ughhhh no, no, no, no. that’s the amount of money I get working for 3 months I think, I’ll rather do that.89: What is something you wish you had more of? - records and books.90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? - yeah, way too often91: Do you sleep with your window open? - always, i can’t stand he heat92: Do you get along with girls? - depends. i mean, i love girls and all but somehow idk, i have more male friends93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? - yeah94: Does sex mean love? - just sex? nope. when you do it with somebody you love the most then yeah, can be one of the best things ever. but there’s lots of way to show, express and share love, sex can be just one of them. but sex is great generally sooooooo95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? - yes, that is, that person is a creep ugh96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? - yup97: Did you sleep alone this week? - i sleep alone nearly always98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? - yeah, my friends and mutuals99: Do you believe in love at first sight? - somehow, yes100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise? - hooooooonestly, we don’t pinky promise in here, I think it’s an american thing haha

jfc THAT TOOK SOME TIME

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blogs-a-clusterfuck · 7 years

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All of the numbers you haven't done

. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? Good morning 2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?I'm dating her3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?Depends. Weed no, other drugs yes I would care.4. Is your last name longer than six letters?No its 5.5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?Sober.6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?Yeahhhhhh..7. What does your last received text say?Okay lol 💕8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?A lot she is my gf after all.9. Where was your last kiss at?Probably school??? After rehearsal???10. When is the last time you saw your sister?Literally like 2 seconds ago, she just came in my room.11. What do you drink in the morning?Usually nothing but water is I need it. I'm not a morning person.12. Where did you sleep last night?My bed13. Do you think relationships are hard?Depends. The one I'm in I think is pretty easy, but if you are giving everything and the other person isn't it can be hard.14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?Maybe? I'm not sure though.15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?Nope.16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?Rainy I think.17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?Yeah a lot of people have my middle name.18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?None? I'm not wearing any pants.19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?I like to think so, but knowing me I'm not sure I'll probably fuck something up lmao 😂 20. Does anyone like you?Yeah. My friends, my gf 21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?No?22. Is the last person you kissed gay?She's pan23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?YESSSS24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?YES PLEASE I HAVE THEM ALL PLANNED AND DRAWN.25. In the past week have you cried?So so so much.26. What breed was the last dog you saw? Honestly I have no idea.27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?I get out of the shower and dry up in my room.28. Have you ever kissed a football player?Nope29. Do you think you’re old?Ehh no but now I'm adult so like I'd rather be younger.30. Do you like text messaging?Yes and no. Sometimes I get sick of it but I'm usually fine with it.31. What type of day are you having?It's only 8am so idk but I'm waiting to get yelled at and I found out I go to work at 5 not 3.32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?Yeah I really want to get it pierced 33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?Cold? I can layer clothes and stay warm that way.34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?Yes there is. He's been with me through everything 💕35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?Relationship.36. Are you a simple or complicated person?Idk. 37. What song are you listening to?Hysteria by Def Leppard 38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?Absolutely. I apologize so much but I always mean it.39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?She knows a lot about me, I can't say everything but she knows a lot.40. What made you start liking the person you like now?She knows how to make me feel better in times where I can't. She's really a sweetheart and me and her can just fuck around and act like idiots and have fun.41. When did you last receive a text message?Last night.42. What is wrong with you right now?Nothing really right now. I do wish I was still sleeping though.43. How well do you know the last female you texted?I know her pretty well44. Does anyone disgust you?Yeahhhhh45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?No unless my gf was asking me again😂46. Are you in a good mood right now?Eh not a morning person so I'm okay.47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?My sister.48. What color shirt are you wearing?Beige.49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?I mean kinda but not really??61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?Yes. Idk how I feel about ghosts though. Like maybe they are real. Maybe not.62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?I've done it before so yeah.63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?No but we had just started talking.64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?Yeah that's cool bro.65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? I mean my girlfriend is always really cute so yes.66. How old are the last three people you kissed?17, 17, 17 all 3 of them are 17 😂😂😂😂67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? Pay someone.68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print? Neither 69. Do you have any stickers on your car? I do not own a vehicle 70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne? Either is fine by me.71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone? iPhone!72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut? Not in a few months tbh.73. Do you like diet soda? Yeah I prefer some diet soda over a couple regular ones 74. What color are the walls in your room? Blue75. Are you 16 or older? Yes I'm 1876. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars? Not anymore, I stopped after like season 677. Do you have a job? Yeah 78. What are your initials? RLS79. Did you ever have braces? I just recently got them off80. Are you from the south? Unless you mean South Providence no 😂😂 81. What does your last status on facebook say? I don't know honestly82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed? No I don't talk to her83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad? Mom but I don't see her much honestly 84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics? Cheerleading 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters? Beauty and the beast 86. Do you smoke? Cigarettes no, weed yeah.87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops? Heels 88. Is your phone touch screen? Yeah89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly? Natural so it's wavy but more straight90. Have you ever snuck out of your house? Yes91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool? Depends on how clean the river or lake is 92. Have you ever made out in a car? Yeah93. …Had sex in a car? No94. Are you single or in a relationship? In a relationship 95. What were you doing last night at midnight? Watching YouTube videos96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks? Shit. I don't know.97. Do you like the camera on your phone? I use my Snapchat camera 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits? No99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? Yeahhhh100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? Yeah101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare? No102. Name your favorite Kesha song: DINOSAUR103. Do you have any tan lines right now? no, I don't tan easily.104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? Idk maybe? Maybe not?

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The numbers for the questions didn’t copy & paste but I’m too lazy to rewrite them.

Who hurt you the most?Probably the people that have left me.

Who have you hurt the most?Probably the people I have left.

Who do you miss the most?My gf cuz I miss her whenever I’m not w her cuz I’m clingy. Also friends esp those I haven’t seen in awhile & some family.

Who do you want out of your life the most?No one really. I guess just the people that dont want to be in it but feel like they have to pretend to.

Who had the biggest positive impact on you?Probably my mom, some of my close friends (like Rachel & Courtney ily guys), & my girlfriend.

Who had the biggest negative impact on you?Probably my dad, my brother, & the friends I’ve had who didn’t treat me well.

Who do you wish you could be honest with?My brother & I guess the people that I feel like pretend to want to be around me. Or those who I feel like impact my life negatively & hurt those I care about as well.

Who have you harbored (any kind of!) secret feelings towards?I guess just like anger towards old friends & family members.

Who would the world be better off without?Bigots, nazis, rapists, people of that sort.

Who do you wish you’d treated differently?People that I used to be close friends w but drifted away from.

What was the worst day of your life?Probably a day where my brother was not doing well or when we had to admit him to a hospital.

What’s your greatest fear?Being alone, darkness, bugs

What’s your biggest insecurity?My weight, my skin, my anxiety

What’s your biggest regret?Letting my anxiety get in my way & not keeping in touch w people better.

Describe your ideal world.To be happy, calm, comfortable, & surrounded by love.

Describe your personal hell.Everyday my dude. Not really tho I guess just when I feel trapped by my anxiety. I’ll keep it simple.

What’s a hopeless dream you’re still holding on to?That I’ll become super successful in my career & have a good amount of money.

What’s the most embarrassed you’ve ever been?Honestly after I do anything. Maybe thinking about when I have acted or when I did this lip sync thing cuz I feel like I must’ve seemed stupid & gross.

What’s the angriest you’ve ever been?Lately I’ve been getting very angry which scares me. The other day I was fighting w my mom & just screaming & eventually exhausted myself & fell to the floor crying & then threw up & that’s the angriest I’ve been in a long time. Or one time I got mad & went on a drive just until I felt I went too far & another when my landlord made us move.

What’s the saddest you’ve ever been?Also v recently just thinking about myself I’ve been so sad. Although I remember 8th grade year I felt a constant weight on my chest so idk if it has gotten better or if I have just gotten used to it.

What’s the most scared you’ve ever been?When my brother was having some bad side effect to these antidepressants he used to take which made him not act like himself.

What’s the most hopeless you’ve ever felt?Very recently I have been feeling v hopeless cuz tbh I thought I’d be dead by now & everything seems to be coming so fast & I just don’t know how to handle it & I feel like I will never grow or move forward but just be stuck & end up alone.

What’s the most frantic you’ve ever felt?Probably sometime during a panic attack.

What’s the bravest you’ve ever felt?Probably when I’ve had to help my brother when his seizures were really bad.

What’s the best case scenario for your future?I spend the rest of my life w the girl I love, I live comfortably in a cozy house w lots of pets, maybe live somewhere scenic or at least be able to travel a lot, be successful in my career, be healthy, be happy. Loving friends & family.

What’s the worst case scenario for you future?I end up alone & unemployed, trapped by my anxiety & not able to grow.

What’s the most physical pain you’ve ever felt?Maybe when I crashed an ATV

What’s the most emotional pain you’ve ever felt?Oh gosh idk. I don’t think I can recall a specific time.

Describe a time you felt like a hypocrite.Idk but I defs have been

Describe a time you felt like a traitor.Idk

Describe a time you felt like a hero.Idk maybe helping my brother or a friend.

Describe a time you felt inhuman.When my anxiety or anger just consumes me.

Describe a time you felt like a failure.All the time my guy

What’s the worst thing you’ve ever done?Idk. Maybe lie??? Not sure honestly

What are you proudest of?The fact I’m still here.

What’s your relationship with your family like?Good w my mom & brother. I don’t really talk to my dad but we get along. I don’t really talk to the rest of my family.

What’s your relationship with religion like?I consider myself to be agnostic

Talk about someone you’ve lost.This is I guess about several people but generally get the same feelings every time although one has hurt more than any others. I haven’t lost anyone to death or anything like that but rather a distance just seems to form between me & other people eventually, even when I don’t think it will. Then before I know it it’s almost like they are an acquaintance or stranger & I feel like I mean absolutely nothing to them & it breaks my heart that we aren’t as close anymore. I feel a mixture of anger, sadness, & acceptance & I have trouble letting go of them even though they let go of me so easily.

Talk about someone who abandoned you.Just basically the same as the last question.

Talk about a desire you have that scares you.I don’t think I have any?? Maybe just wanting to not be here anymore but I always worry I’ll maybe miss out on something.

What’s something you wish you were capable of?Not being anxious & pushing myself.

What’s something you’re afraid that you’re capable of?Disconnecting myself from everyone or doing something to myself & maybe hurting people.

Describe the kind of life you wish you’d been born into.Idk if I do wish that tbh

Describe your worst heartbreak.When I started losing a friend that meant the world to me but is still a v important part of my life.

Describe your worst disappointment.Idk I guess just people constantly taking me for granted or abusing my trust.

Have you ever taken a fall for someone?No don’t think so

Have you ever forced or let someone take a fall for you?Don’t think so

Have you ever done serious physical harm to someone?No

Have you ever done serious emotional harm to someone?Maybe? I’m not sure

Have you ever self-harmed?Yes

Have you ever attempted suicide?No

Have you ever stolen something?Yes but never from a store

Have you ever cheated on someone?No

Have you ever been cheated on?No

Have you ever taken revenge on someone?I don’t think so

Have you ever seriously considered killing somone?No

Have you ever betrayed someone who trusted you?No

Have you ever experienced something supernatural or unexplainable?I don’t think so

Sorry if my answers suck (it’s cuz I suck)Thank you for asking!!

#ask #anonymous #anon

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