#barrier line

[musiconspotify]

#CharlotteLeLievre Barrier Line

#spotify #charlotte le lievre #barrier line #songs from the barrier line #musiconspotify

[obscureenthusiast]

-Brutus and as many as 60 co-conspirators, circa March 14th, 44 BC

#ides of march #would you believe that I created this image all the way back in january STRICTLY BECAUSE I HAVE THAT MUCH BEEF WITH CAESAR? #this was created because he insisted that the Rhine was the border between Gaul and Germany #just so he could declare that he'd 'conquered' Gaul #but there's very little evidence that the peoples living in those places even viewed the Rhine as a barrier between lands #and their continued fighting against rome along that border line could indicate that they were in fact #attempting to reunite lands occupied by foreign invaders #anyway fuck you caesar i hope your triumph sucked ass #and that everyone who ever made bald jokes about you found idk a denarius in their pocket unexpectedly #yes i'm retroactively wishing dead people good and ill i'm complicated like that

[starzonez]

something about how when maddy disappeared, the tv was simply found burning in their backyard and how owen sticks his head in the tv and it’s sparking and it surely hurts but he can’t get himself out until he’s forcibly removed. how he vomited up the sparks and the static. he wants so badly to be on the other side of that screen but unlike maddy, he can’t fully cut himself off from the reality that is so tightly holding him in place. maddy was always so sure of themself, always independent, even as a child. they knew they had to get out, whether owen was coming or not. and he wasn’t ready. he was never ready. but there is still time

#i saw the tv glow #and obviously the worst was still yet to come for maddy but breaking the barrier between them and the pink opaque was easier #they knew something was wrong. they knew this wasn’t the life they were meant to live and they tried to hard to break free from it but #something was just so fundamentally wrong. #owen still believes this is all there is for him. this is the end of the line and there’s nothing to be done about it #it’s so sickening when he just goes along with life the way he think he should be living it. when he moves into his parents house

[britomart]

[ID: Nine photographs of Florence Welch during the Dance Fever tour, holding fans’ faces with one hand as she sings, often leaning in so her forehead touches theirs. /end ID.]

#i need this to happen to me so badly do u understand… i would literally risk it all this would literally fix me #soapbox #florence welch #like. aghhhhhhhhh #and i am seeing her in march like good god…. #idk how early i’ll have to line up to be at the barrier but i will be there.

[clairedaring]

You've got a guest? Er… This is Ming. He is…er… I'm Joe's friend.

MY STAND-IN (2024) | 1.03

#poom phuripan #up poompat #my stand in #my stand in the series #userbunn #userrain #usersasa #userjamiec #tobelle #msiep3 #usertoptaps #tuseralexa #userrlana #userjap #rinblr #my stand-in #clairedgifs #msiedit #i didnt like the iqiyi engsub so i had to gif this myself #i dont like how iqiyi translated joe's 'i never asked him' when he actually said 'i don't dare to ask him' #there's a very different connotation from that line and those translations #it insinuates this barrier of anonymity that ming has built up even when he's been w joe for 6+ months #sth sth joe being afraid to ask anything personal about ming vs ming asking everything about joe's work

[sergle]

scar therapy you son of a bitch idiot! and with silicone tape no less. you wish! you fucking wish you were me!

#this is my way of telling you that I'm officially graduating from moisture barrier protection goo #into scar treatment goo #I have lots of healing to do but I AM shut. I am fully fucking shut. I just have red lines now. they aren't 'stitches' anymore #sergle.txt #so officially moving into the next Chapter of healing

[spookberry]

I feel very torn on this, i thought id get an outside opinion

#my art #was discussing it with a professor #and while i understand from an industry standpoint the fully colored lineart is the more preferred method #and that it looks like its more work and therefore feels more sophisticated #heck i even use it on occasion when i want something to have a very specific look #but personally i prefer doing it the middle way #with the edges staying black #to me it feels more intentional and allows for a built in barrier that keeps the character from bleeding into the background #solid black lines is good obvi it just feels too harsh/unfinished for my style specifically

[leclercari]

ok this melted my heart... so for context, benji never cries during their reactions, it's always rizzo who is the emotional one that cries over everything, to the point where it became a joke between them that benji is basically heartless.

but lo and behold, here is our silly little romcom being the thing that finally got to him. and it's beautiful to see. 💙 (x)

#red white and royal blue #rwrb #and 'i'll break the sound barrier for you' being the line that got him 😭😭 damn i started crying too #it's so nice to watch queer people get to enjoy a wholesome queer love story #i'm so happy they finally reacted to it

[milesfingers]

If there is a phrase in Outlast that makes me having chills everytime I hear it is that "How you know you're not a patient?"

Everytime I hear this line I realise how it fit so well with Miles and his jeurney. Think about it: since the fist moment Miles experiences the horrors of the asylum, becoming a witness and victim of the same tortures that the patients suffered. As the story continues Miles slowly begins to lose his sanity (as can be guessed from his notes after the Walrider appeared in the courtyard), almost losing hope of saving himself and realizing that he will be destined to die inside Mount Massive. Like the other patients.

Do you remember what the parameters were needed to become the host of the Walrider? Having seen and endured hell on earth, basically. For years Murkoff tortured patients at the asylum with their horrific experiments, and in the end it was Miles who became the host, who until then had never had anything to do with the whole matter

So basically Miles not only remained a prisoner of Mount Massive and tortured, but he managed to become the host of the Walrider after Billy, as if he had been another guinea pig of those experiments.

Miles is a patient, and he doesn't even realize it, but the others do.

#sorry if i canìt express what I mean perfectly but I do have a linguistic barrier #outlast #outlast game #outlast whistleblower #miles upshur #red barrels #waylon park #outlast meme #eddie gluskin #blake langermann #outlast 2 #murkoff #mount massive #poor miles #seriously I love this line I want to get a tattoo of it

[dr3amofagame]

I think Dream in prison was always going to go poorly because it would require Sam to be as infallible as Pandora's Vault itself, and he's not. He has way too much personal stake in what Dream is doing, and in trying to force himself to be an emotionless machine that abides only the protocol he became a hypocritical wreck that only indulged his vindictive emotions and spiraled out of control trying to keep the situation steady. That's not even addressing how keeping someone in the prison would never be ethical because it's a psychological torture box designed by the psychological torture guy

I mean, I can see the argument that it would've been hard to like. Not make Pandora's Vault unethical, considering the size of the server and the fact that he was the only prisoner etc leading to a situation where yeah, he would've been left alone for long stretches of time no matter what, solitary was kinda inevitable, etc. Like I can see an argument for that. But on principle I feel like the influence that protocol had on the prison arc and on c!Sam specifically tends to be heavily overstated...because a significant portion of the prison arc, honestly, is making the point that the protocol was entirely based on what c!Sam determined.

Like, sure, the prison was always going to suck. c!Dream was never going to come out from it entirely unscathed. But there's a huge fucking difference between what he was prepared for (isolation + shitty food for an unspecified amount of time) and what situation he ended up in (his life at the mercy of two people that showed absolutely no damn qualms about literally torturing him). I think it's very fair to say that yeah, c!Sam was far from an unbiased party, and he was very much emotionally affected to his detriment during the prison arc. But...ultimately? I feel like we really don't see c!Sam struggling to maintain protocol over the course of months only to slowly break down. I don't think we see him "snap" and "lose control." necessarily, in the way that people often act is the case. (The strongest argument, in my opinion, in favor of c!Sam being greatly affected by some stressor that then has him turn to extreme cruelty has little to nothing to do with the prison itself and more to do with his brief stint with the Egg, but with so little attention drawn to that as a cause in the story of the prison itself, I feel like this mostly remains in the realm of speculation.)

Like, if we look at the facts, c!Sam's behavior day one was already weirding people out. Day one and c!Dream is already throwing himself in lava and c!Sam does not seem to give a damn. Of course, both of their behaviors had a myriad of reasons behind them, but it's important to note that there's like literally never been a single moment in the prison arc where c!Sam hasn't been, like, off.

We never see any of c!Ranboo's actual prison visits, but we know these happened very very early in c!Dream's imprisonment and that they were terminated quite early as well, once c!Sam discovered c!Ranboo writing in ender in the prison contracts. However, considering how the inside of the prison was the same between his dream and the real world, it is reasonable to say that c!Sam's behavior in the dream could've also been taken from reality, and "he knows what happens [when he disobeys]" is a hell of a statement to make.

c!Bad's prison visit is when things seem to be seriously off. Even if you consider c!Dream's behavior in this stream as entirely an act, c!Sam is noticeably tense after the prison visit and very demanding about what c!Dream said once c!Bad leaves the cell. c!Dream commenting on food being withheld is consistent with what we know happened in the prison arc later on. c!Sam says that c!Dream has been tossing himself in lava for attention. Several comments are made about "behaving" and "behavior," c!Sam is looking into the installation of an automatic feeder, and visitation is facing restrictions.

Pretty crucially, we see that c!Sam is very comfortable with making changes to the prison. Major changes to the prison, even. Installing an automatic feeder isn't exactly an easy process? And it obviously wasn't outlined in any kind of preexisting protocol. But c!Sam is perfectly willing to change this, just as he's perfectly willing to make all kinds of rules on visitation and limiting visitation because of c!Dream's behavior, etc, (which can reasonably be inferred as not being preexisting rules because that would mean that c!Dream, who allegedly helped with the creation of all of these rules, would be intentionally sabotaging his chances of visitation...when he very evidently wanted people to visit? like sorry but that doesn't make any sense) because he's the Warden and therefore the sole authority of Pandora's Vault and allowed to do literally anything he damn well pleases.

Further, sure, c!Dream might be acting in all the prison visits. Sure, he might be acting In General during this time, etc. But despite disobedience (disobedience with the explicit expressed purpose of trying to get c!Sam to spend more time with him...?) I would hardly characterize almost anything he does during these early days as being anything for c!Sam to be reasonably vindictive over. Even if you consider hopping into the lava (something c!Sam could've solved literally as easily as just raising the netherite barrier), tossing the clock into the lava (also preventable if c!Dream can't access the fucking lava????), and a couple alleged escape attempts (the only one that we know of being him trying to use the lectern to create a nether portal, something hardly easy to do and an attempt that c!Sam very evidently put down quite easily)--like. I can understand him being angry because of what c!Dream had done in the past, and obviously being angry because of c!Dream telling him about exile, but c!Dream early on in the prison arc hardly behaves badly. (Not that bad behavior would justify abuse, but you know.)

By the time of c!Sapnap's prison visit, c!Dream isn't the only one acting weird. c!Sam is strange in ways that are never fully explained and uh heavily imply shady shit??? He's not abiding by protocol when he suddenly interrupts the process of helping a visitor out of the prison by forcing c!Sapnap to respawn in order to check on c!Dream for Some Reason. He's once again very persistent about the question of whether or not c!Dream "said anything" and then reacts strangely when c!Sapnap was able to get him to say a word. He's replaced like a quarter of the obsidian in the cell with crying obsidian, which again, is an instance of c!Sam making BIG changes to the prison without protocol or anything dictating his actions. At most you can maybe make the argument that he's being moved by the spirit of the protocol, that being security should be prioritized over everything (hence potatoes instead of steak, hence no courtyard, hence--in this case--crying obsidian to make the escape attempt ineffective) but it's clearly nothing that they explicitly wrote down.

Also, around this time (I forget the exact date) he explicitly bans c!Ranboo from visiting. Also something we can reasonably assume isn't something that was included in any protocol that c!Dream wrote considering his uh, vested interests in continuing to have an informant.

c!Tommy's visit and that ensuing debacle, of course, is one of the first times we see c!Sam clearly, explicitly acting AGAINST the protocol that was established. The protocol outlines that c!Tommy should have stayed in there for at most a week, and c!Sam explicitly denies him from leaving when the time comes??? Even if you argue that he's doing it "for security", he's doing it in a manner that is going directly against the letter of the law of the protocol that he created with c!Dream. This is a clear demonstration that c!Sam sees himself, and acts as if he is above the law of Pandora's Vault, because, of course, he is the law. He is the Sole Authority. He is the Warden, and he answers to no one but himself. c!Tommy's death obviously ensues in quite the emotional fallout for him, and wanting revenge on c!Dream for this matter motivates his actions later on in the arc...but it's important to consider that mistreatment beyond the scope of what c!Dream expected long preceded this point. c!Sam, immediately after c!Tommy dies, describes himself as thinking that c!Dream's will was too broken to do anything like that. Describes himself as having punished c!Dream in every manner that he could think of. He doesn't go in to feed c!Dream for WEEKS after c!Tommy's death, directly leading to c!Tommy himself being isolated and starved post-revival. He bans visitation. All of these matters hardly seem like matters that c!Dream would have included in the prison protocol that he created when he was planning to be put in that prison, where he specifically had a vested interest in keeping himself (and the book) safe + having, like, FOOD + being able to have visitors in a safe manner + NOT being abused?

And even if we dismiss all of this as c!Sam acting in the best interests of security because c!Dream told him that the security of the prison is more important than anything else (which, even though we know that c!Dream did have this perspective to some degree, still doesn't eliminate c!Sam's responsibility as the one carrying out the existing protocol and making all of these Big Decisions and Big Changes etc to the prison) -- the decision to let c!Quackity into the prison stomps on all of that. That decision completely goes against not only the letter of the damn law that they established together, but the spirit of what the prison was ever meant to be in the first place. He compromises the security of the prisoner and the prison on the DAILY by letting in someone in full gear! With items! And plays a game with chance with c!Dream's life (and the revive book) every damn day. He hardly had enough of a system in place to keep c!Quackity from taking c!Dream's life, and he was certainly unable to stop c!Quackity from landing what would've been a killing blow on c!Techno before he got tp-ed out, like. He completely fucks over EVERYTHING that Pandora's Vault was meant to be, and that was...entirely his decision. Sure, c!Quackity manipulated him, true, but he was not beholden by any protocol or any element of his duty when he made this choice.

This isn't to say that c!Sam wasn't very much emotionally affected and making clouded judgements--he was! Especially if you factor in the stress of other events such as the Egg, etc. But I hesitate to ascribe any element of c!Sam's...c!Samness in the prison arc as him "cracking under the pressure," so to speak. The implications of mistreatment just start too early and are too calculated for me to say that he was simply reacting badly to stressors. I think he was absolutely trying his best to keep the situation "steady," in a sense, but keeping it steady never meant simply being an emotionless guardian to an impenetrable prison who couldn't cope as everything began piling up--keeping things steady, as early as that first month, meant breaking c!Dream into something docile. That was intentional. That was something he was making an active effort to do. Nor do I think that the claim that c!Sam was simply abiding by protocol holds any water, as I outline above: c!Sam has always acted above the protocol established in the prison to the point where even from the first time we see him acting as Warden during that first damn questionaire a specific point is made that he is the ultimate authority on the grounds of the Vault and his word is law. He acted within protocol when convenient to him and trampled over it when convenient to him, and I feel that people can overemphasize the role that protocol played in the decisions he made the same way that he himself did when he was shifting the blame of his own abusive actions onto c!Dream when he had the power, and always had the power, to amend the protocol established in any way he damn well pleased.

Of course, this isn't to say that the protocol was good. It, uh, wasn't--and plenty of people have criticized c!Dream for them even though the prison, as it ended up being used for his plans, was never anything more than a place for him to put himself because of the danger that the rest of the server presented, a base for him to hide in after the prison arc because of its security measures, and a "just-in-case" measure for them to hold their enemies if need be (which he never actually does, even when given golden opportunities to do so: inconsolable differences and the finale come to mind. Even if we're talking about his saw trap in the finale, the plan was to kill one and let the other go free (????????) while also giving them the exact items that could've easily been the keys to their escapes. after c!Tommy and c!Tubbo kill him. but I digress). But c!Sam goes so damn far beyond the protocol established by the "psychological torture guy" that he literally wasn't even beholden to when he was the Warden of the Vault on account of said guy being his prisoner. I don't really see any arguments about c!Sam's behavior having to do with him being too fallible of a man for the job he was given--he does exactly what he wants to do, how he wants to do it, using the job that gives him the power to do so. It's just that "what he wants to do" is not exactly what c!Dream had in mind when he and c!Sam were coming up with the plans for the prison and the protocol that they worked together to create because what he wants to do is, apparently, own a guy and keep him in his hell box. You know?

(i hope this didn't read too aggressively!)

#my asks !! #c!sam critical #long post #apologies on the essay i just have very strong opinions on the use of protocol to justify what c!Sam does #if c!Sam gave a single damn about protocol we would've seen him actually abide by protocol #and meanwhile this guy won't even use the literal built in security measure of the netherite barrier #to solve the problem of c!dream's 'misbehavior' early in the prison arc #when it literally could've solved ALL OF THEM #(jumping into the lava. throwing the clocks into the lava. trying to use the lava to start a fire to start a nether portal) #but then goes BEYOND protocol to install a goddamn glass wall later on just. because #like ?????????? #at the end of the day c!sam's actions aren't in line with what pandora's vault was supposed to be mostly just bc he had a different vision #for the prison and the prisoner #and he's c!sam so he's able to justify any amount of human rights abuses in order to do what he thinks is 'right' #including of course killing and murdering his own romantic partner

[boojangs]

You know, trust is like a mirror. You can fix it if it's broke, but you can still see the crack in that motherfucker's reflection.

--Me at this YMU Wenclair arc

#over and over I just hear those two fucking say that line #i love angst #trust in me when i tell you they'll make it #i'm not writing a million words to throw them all away #and ooooooo i am so excited for that final barrier to finally SMASH #i can't wait. #i get goosebumps thinking about it #god i love those two

[theguyinthemathexamples]

spoilers for the first part of @thatdeadaquarius' eldritch god sagau fic

(sorry for the ping 😭😭 but a lil gift for u, aquarius, while i make more art for this cause i can't stop thinking abt it ‼️)

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(the art is utc :D)

finding yourself at basically the irminsul's base as the legboot version of seek from the game doors in the hit game roblox is not the most fun experience, i reckon

(ik that this part of the story was probably set in the blue part of the irminsul cutscene where you went in it w/ scara but it was like 2AM when i made this 😭😭)

#sparkling wheat ♪ #obsidian hard sugar ° #stellar-borne cookies and cream ♪ #silver lined strawberries ♪ #genshin impact #sagau #genshin impact sagau #genshin eldritch au #genshin impact eldritch au #genshin impact language barrier au #crack post #TRY NOT TO BRAINROT ABOUT THIS AU FOR A SINGLE MINUTE (LEVEL: IMPOSSIBLE ‼️‼️) (I LOST IN THE FIRST MINUTE‼️‼️‼️)

[quadrantbreaker]

scuffed lilymeow

#lily barriere #identity v #idv #cheerleader idv #the cat is veyry cute..... #born to flop forced to flop #is this my art blog now . um #this is so scuffed sorry about the 928402842 lines. i could nto be assed

[mister13eyond]

talking to a friend about getting back into art and i think the #1 most important piece of art advice i could ever get or give is just "figure out what is FUN to you"

like i think there is sooooo much emphasis on how to build SKILL in art but a lot of it really treats art like a job or like video game grinding, like it's this thankless job that you have to work at in order to reach a Threshold and i know it's not EASY to make yourself have fun but like

imo a solid 70% of the reason i create art is because the Act of Drawing is fun to me. it's fun problem-solving and planning and putting down lines and playing with colors and tools. it's fun to depict little scenes in my head or to create outfits or to find ways to fill the canvas. never forget that creating can be fun. sometimes it's hard and sometimes you have to battle through your own blockades to get there but the ultimate goal should always be to ENJOY it, to find what you enjoy doing and then do it forever. improvement will follow enjoyment.

i think especially with all the debate about ML image generation it's more important than ever to embrace FUN. if you're only focused on the end result it's so easy to get in your own head- to think about what doesn't look good or what skills you don't have yet or to compare yourself to other artists. but photography didn't kill the art of drawing and AI won't either because, simply put, there will always be people who want to do the physical act of making art because it's fun to do! using paints and markers, splashing colors around, doing shitty pen doodles, using the symmetry tool in your art program to do abstract mandalas that are just squiggles formed into patterns. do art like you're 5 and you've been handed markers to pass the time. do art like you're bored in class and you're keeping your brain entertained by drawing stick figure comics in the margins. do art like an absent thing, do art because it satisfies your brain. the goal is not to make something beautiful and perfect, the goal is to make something because your hands need to make and your body needs to make.

#i know and love so many people who have intense anxiety about their ability to create art and who are so hard on themselves about the result #and i think that's a REALLY easy thing to feel because creating is also vulnerable & physically difficult and there is SOOOO much to master #but i think for me the people who churn out 300 colored pencil front facing hands behind their backs oc doodles on lined notebook paper- #are the ones with the right idea. they're the ones i aspire to be like #i'm not saying i never struggle either bc tbh #as someone with depression and adhd there are times where the Act of Having Fun is simply not possible #sometimes i CAN'T enjoy things because my ability to feel joy is locked behind a barrier of my mental illness #so i don't think it's an Easy thing to do by far and I don't think you can just Magically Make Yourself Happy And Having Fun #but i DO think that experimenting in a low-stakes low-pressure manner until you find something that clicks in your brain helps #doing things for the sake of doing them is the only way to figure out which ones WILL be fun to you #not all of them will. some things will feel like a slog #but i think you have to look for the passion before you're able to face the slog #if you jump right into the parts that are Hard and Challenge Your Limits it's easy to spin your wheels and get stuck #but if you focus on the super small stakes and the things that are thoughtless and focused more on Sensation- #the sensory experience of mixing paint or the scratch of pencil on paper or the smooth way a specific pen makes lines- #then you can lose yourself in the physical aspect of it FIRST #and then once you've started really ENJOYING those sensations you can start learning new ways to use them #because now you have the drive to want to do more #now you have the desire to find new ways to apply this thing you like doing #long post #even longer tags #art #drawing #artists #art advice

[not-poignant]

Birthday Spotlight - Nathaniel 'Nate' Prince

[17th January - Capricorn]

Nate made his debut appearance in Falling Falling Stars as a minor/side character who was the 'angry wet cat' to Janusz' 'happy golden retriever' personality. A tenor in a queer choir, Nate was a young, grumpy, but secretly compassionate poet. He rubbed Efnisien the wrong way almost constantly, until Efnisien realised Nate reminded him of him.

People fell in love with Nate and Janusz, especially once learning of hints of Nate's traumatic back story with an abusive ex named Christian. I realised his romance with Janusz was pretty magical, and decided to give him his own starring role as the main character (and omega) in Underline the Blue. He's a grump, and he can be pretty scathing and judgemental, but when people realise what he's been through, they tend to understand just how important his anger and impatience is when he expresses it!

He's a lesson to all people pleasers out there that sometimes the goal in life is not to become a nicer person after all.

‘Ignore Nate,’ said the friendly guy. ‘He’s a grump. One hundred percent bona fide grump. He only likes cats and Jude Law.’

Falling Falling Stars

Falling Falling Stars - A minor character who is part of two choirs and more than one poetry group. A certified grumpy character and minor antagonist, he shows Efnisien unexpected solidarity, and reveals that people with PTSD are, ironically, a PTSD trigger for him after an abusive ex used his PTSD as an excuse for abusive behaviour.

Janusz adores him.

Underline the Blue - Nate's main story, an m/m omegaverse romance where he is sent to be turned into a 'good omega' and put under the care of alpha companion for hire - Janusz Bodanowicz. But Janusz quickly learns that Nate was being severely abused, and the centre Nate's placed at decides to never send Nate back to his abuser again. Love grows as a slow, fractious healing commences.

Janusz will always adore him.

Underline the Gold - Cameo, he's a friend of Flitmouse's.

Poet

Appreciates nature

A sour, cat-like personality, quick to judge and feel judged, with an inner snarky voice determined to try and protect him from being hurt again.

Definitely more of a pessimist and nihilist than an idealist or optimist.

Black lanky hair, and black eyebrows, with a 'sharpness' about his face and dark brown eyes.

His personality attributes include being deeply soft, but hiding it. Being judgemental and often closed-minded. He loves fiercely and protectively. He is argumentative, even when he desperately doesn't want to be.

Insulting Efnisien to his face (how rude!) and making him angrier than just about anyone else in Falling Falling Stars

Bridge solidarity (iykyk)

Nephew to a very mysterious character indeed - one Corbyn (Raven) Prince

PTSD being his PTSD trigger

Suspicious and hates to be seen as vulnerable

Always falls in love with Janusz, who protects and cherishes him for who he is.

PTSD in all worlds

Needs some help coming out of his shell

Always concealing something (either his mean streak or his compassionate side!)

Never intended to be any kind of main character, but he worked so well as an antagonist I realised he could be extremely useful. After that, it was fascinating watching readers react to him - he was a good foil to Bridge. Readers were quick to trust her, but she was ultimately abusive. Readers were often quick to distrust Nate, but he was the one who came through as Efnisien's ally. An amazing teacher of 'don't trust first impressions.'

Nate's journey was inspired by a couple of friends who had been abused by people who both had PTSD at the time. As someone with PTSD myself, I found it insufferable that these folks used their PTSD as an excuse to harm, hurt and bully others, before falling back behind 'but you triggered me' or 'you can't confront me that's a trigger.' So while Nate isn't based off anyone in particular, Nate's abuser, Christian, is based off a specific kind of abuser that often flies under the radar, because people sometimes give extremely bad interpersonal behaviour a pass when it comes to mental illness.

'Is it really okay to be nice to me?'

Underline the Blue

#birthday spotlight #character birthday #nate prince #underline the blue #falling falling stars #mm romance #queer romance #contemporary romance #writers on tumblr #writers on ao3 #original works #original story #nate is a wonderful guy #once you get past the miles and miles of snark #that he lines around himself like a defensive barrier skldfas

[respectthepetty]

Crossing the line

In episode three, Team and Win struggle with boundaries.

More people are noticing and commenting on their relationship

So the space is used to create physical divides between them

Yet Team is the one who continues to break through them when not fully aware (when it's night, and he is drunk or tired)

While Win reaches out when fully conscious and during daylight.

The first time Win tried to help Team with his nightmare, Team had no physical reaction. He did not touch Win back or lean into him because he was sober.

However, Win gave Team a red-striped helmet to protect him even amidst Team's protests

And when Team woke up from a nightmare, Win was there through color (blue stripes parallel to the red ones)

So the next time Team had difficulty sleeping, he went to Win.

Team has been breaking the barrier when he is drunk or tired, but when Win does the next morning and conscious, Team kicks him off the bed.

Yet Team's heart already belongs to Win symbolized by the blue-striped pocket on the shirt.

Team's hesitation to break barriers when conscious and aware could stem from the consequences he faced last time he crossed the line

#between us #teamwin #between us the series #the colors mean things #the cinematography #the physical barriers #crossing the line