#because this has eaten me whole

[archergray]

I never expected to write a Call of Duty fic, but stranger things had happen, right? Sometimes you have a duty to write a fic and it's calling you ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Summary: Simon Riley never cared about soulmates. It’s a shame then that his soulmate cared about him very, very much. And when your soulmate is John MacTavish, you find you got yourself an equally stubborn match. You just need to realise it first. Or: AU in which your soulmate’s scars appear on your body, but they’re in colour. It changed a lot, but at the same time, it didn’t change a thing.

#ghostsoap #ghost call of duty #ghoap #call of duty #modern warfare ii #soulmates #angst with happy ending #hurt/comfort #this is just 5k words of simon being too oblivious and johnny just being in love with him from the moment he got his first scar #and rudy is the only one with some kind of emotional intelligence #because alejandro is as dumb as ghost #i love all of them anyway #because this has eaten me whole #it's almost ridiculous what am i even doing #bon appetit #john soap mactavish

[bitegore]

So seriously: if you have a serious recoil/disgust factor at uncommonly eaten parts of an animal being in any kind of food context (eg: whole fish being served at a table) and you want to work on minimizing that reaction, I really really recommend eating "normal" versions of those unusual foods, like for example deli-sliced tongue. I know I'm talking out of my ass here, but things like liver and haggis (organ meat), tongue (tongue), and probably a whole lot of others I've never had can be pretty easily made into forms that taste real good and don't look much like a weird lump of flesh you can recognize, and being able to get from "that's weird and gross but I want to get it" to "that's weird but it tastes really good and I want to get it" will probably make building up momentum easier when you move on to less "common" pastures.

Good luck, by the way. I believe in you.

#red rambles #i'm doing this with bugs for the record im not like JUST talking out my ass. I have a full on phobia of dead bugs #I can and have eaten live bugs! I've eaten and really enjoyed cricket-flour chips! I'm working my way up to "whole preserved scorpion in #chocolate'' type desserts but I haven't gotten there yet #so I know for a fact that there's a kind of person who has this sort of instinctive repulsion and also really really REALLY wants to get #over it. and also i didn't even realize this was a thing because i grew up with whitefish and tongue and so on #anyway im not sure if people like. KNOW that you can get like... liver *spread* or prepared tongue or brain or w/e #being able to go 'oh that is actually delicious' is a big thing or at least it is for me! it's very motivating! #you're the only one who is going to really 'push' you on these things- god knows my immediate family and friends mostly wants me to #STOP trying to eat bugs LMFAO (this is due to my behaviors but also like my dad told me I was not to keep cricket snacks in the house) #(so it's a bit of both but mostly because i cannot be trusted not to just eat a random ant because they are delicious these days) #but like at least in my experience the second you step out of the 'culturally normative' fold people stop being like 'yay stop being picky! #and start going 'no stop go back to being picky' so it's really really important to find your own motivators and not rely on other people

[eclipsedsuns]

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#i haven’t eaten in over 48 hours but i’m so scared lmfao #like i just cannot make myself eat #i had a green tea smoothie today. which has almost nothing in it. and it took me 7 hours to finish because i was so anxious the whole time #and that’s literally it. i had nothing but water & ice on monday #and i’m starting to feel unwell because i’m not eating but what if i eat and then i feel bad in a different (& worse) way? #carley’s soliloquy #tw food #tw eating issues

[eddis-not-eeddis]

I hate the shaky, kind of fizzy feeling of a blood sugar crash wearing off. Like, do I need to eat more, or is this just the residual tremors? Why is my entire face numb?

#Oh look i can't feel any of my extremities and my nose is cold again #gosh dang #i am so sick of my blood sugar crashing out of the blue #so far as I've been told i'm not diabetic and my sugar has always been pretty good every time i've been tested #but i've started having really weird episodes where my blood sugar PLUNGES for no reason #even if I've eaten pretty well recently #and i have no idea what that's about #also it makes my whole face numb and my hands and legs start to shake #my nose and lips go cold and sometimes blue #i can't really tell when my sugar is going to crash though because i no longer feel hunger #and a lot of the things that used to alert me to an oncoming crash just don't happen anymore #it's getting worse but when i went to get blood work done everything came back normal so i don't really know what to do

[todayisafridaynight]

Especially because in the end... Arakawa loses his son in small ways that just Accumulate... but Jo's the one who even gets to outlive his son... AUGH. THROWING MYSELF INTO A WOODCHIPPER

Also while going through old messages, I saw I actually had a dream back in 2021 that Jo came back in LaD8. I mean sure he had "longer hair" and "a new outfit NOBODY liked except me" and was Unserious like RGGJo whereas in the actual teaser he sounds more depressed than ever but I'm still taking credit alright... the vision came to me...

And in a Hell Will Freeze Over Before This Happens I Just Like To Think About It way. I want him in my goddamn party and I have for all of Y7 so it's not related to the new game. I don't care. I want to find out what his favorite flowers are I want to take him to Every Movie and get his commentary on all of it I want to take him out to eat and watch his little itadakimasu animation play out I want to have the most light-hearted and inconsequential conversations and I want him to chime in I want to exhaust every option on his Drink Link I want to unlock his sickass tag-team moves I want to wear True Hero and fight by his side I want to shower him with so much love and affection he won't know what hit him (<- channeling Arakawa tbh)

its just insane because from a metaphorical sense arakawa 'outlives' masato in that he becomes aoki and like. That's One Thing, but then Of Course. There's Jo. //stuffing my mouth with wet cement// like OHHHH the pain never stops it never ends,,

mate i think your brain was just tryna manifest RGGJo to make a come back through y7 ☠️☠️ CREDIT WHERE CREDITS DUE THO BUT DAMN would have been. THE MOST interesting change to his character though.... on the real.... because yeah he just sounds so tired from the trailer so far （；´д｀）would be hilarious if instead of entering a Super Depression arc bro's just. Yeah Alright Fuck It. What Can We Do Now Amirite. walk right out the cell with the white suit and snake-patterned lapels and all ☠️☠️

OK BUT MOST VALID RANT EVER. MOST VALID WANT EVER. would really just have the vibe of dragging your jaded uncle around the city i would died to have that,,, 😭😭

#snap chats #ON THE REAL THOUGH JO PARTY MEMBER WOULD'VE MADE ME YELL #it too is a part of my This Is Guaranteed To Never Happened But What If wish list..... #i still stand firm he shouldve at least been left with tendo for five minutes. JUST FIVE THEN EVERYONE ELSE CAN COME IN #first he necks his boss then he fucks up his office like LET HIM. GET A FEW SWINGS IN. it's what he deserves i think... #BUT REAL PLEEAASSE I WANT THE SAWASHIRO SOCIAL LINK GIVE IT TO ME RIGHT NOW SEGA #id die and throw up because you just know he and ichi'd have to talk about arakawa at some point during it... #if the whole SL not JUST being about meetin arakawa or his early days in the family #also forgive me for calling it 'social link' i unfortunately played persona a lot years ago and just. Its A Social Link ok ik im a monster #persona's one piece of media that was crucial to my developmental years its in my dna now... #IN ANY CASE NOOOOO I COULD SIT AND THINK FOREVER ABOUT JO MAKING LITTLE COMMENTS... #its my mental illness... its my weakness i think..... just thinkin of silly scenarios... #see while im cringe at being intelligent i AM adequate at making funny scenarios... hehe even... #its a dangerous thing to put an idea in my head as Creatively Ambiguous as that one oh no i feel my brain being eaten alive already #PLEASE I NEED THE PARTY TO REACT TO JO 😭😭 IN A NON VIOLENT SITUATION 😭😭 #i hope when jo's forced to be in social settings he's just Weird. like not Weird weird but its painfully obvious he's never had friends #like he just doesnt know what to do with himself the closest friend in age he has is adachi and He. Is Definitely A Character (affectionate #i hope theyre all out to lunch and someone makes a lighthearted joke and jo takes it too seriously and one other mate gotta just #'my guy relax. it was a joke. see [explains the joke]' and bro just Hm..... Not Funny Didn't Laugh about it right #he's not gonna flip the table now at least #UGH why would you remind me of the timeline of jo being a party member. im gonna drive myself mad thinkin bout it （；´x｀)（；´x｀) #ITD BE SO SWEET JUST SEEING JO BE NICE FOR FIVE SECONDS. NOT EVEN 'NICE' JUST CHILL #jo karaoke wouldnt exist but it'd be cute to at least see him in the crowd... #I REPEAT IM GONNA THINK OF LIL SCENARIOS LIKE THESE ALL DAY NOW NOOOOOO im ruined 😔

[caluski]

Yeah I'm fucking sick and tired of being used as a personal venting dump. Literally ignoring me for fucking weeks and then running back to me the second her friends ditch her. And I'm angry and heartbroken at the same time because she was always like this - but back in the past, whenever she'd throw me away for new, richer, more popular people, i assumed she just wanted to have a wider circle of friends, so I didn't feel jealous. Wish it didn't take me so long to realize I was only significant for her because she literally didn't have anyone else. Lmao

#FUCK ME!!!!!!!! I'M SO STUPIDDDDDDD OMG #Like my whole life I cried worrying if I wasn't just a plan B to everyone I cared for #And now it's like so damn fucking obvious. I was always just there because I was convenient. Nothing more #She's literally embarrassed of me - its just that. This is all I am #It fucking sucks! I need new friends! I need a new job where I can find new coworkers and get along with people #And not feel like the stale cheese in the back of a fridge that's only gonna get eaten if someone's starving and has nothing else #pogaduchy

[andthebeanstalk]

This is how I organize my story notes. I thought the scene titles looked pretty good today

#original #I'm sorry I took an edible and I can't do an image description right now but hopefully I will remember to come back to this #the blacksmith #the title of the arc is 'the amazing armadillo woman' #I have been stuck on this arc for a thousand years but I'm finally making progress! #the chapter snippet I posted earlier today is like the first part of that I've fully finished #but the good news is that a lot of other parts of the story are more written than I thought they were #that's a weird way to word that. whatever. this is a graphic novel not a novel! my logic is flawless! #if anyone's curious I label them like that so they show up in exact order when sorted alphabetically. #S1.P3.C4.a = season 1 Part 3 chapter 4 - first scene or scene segment #I manage my ADHD partially by breaking things down into manageable pieces. #and I MISmanage my ADHD partially by overcommitting to basically everything bc i have NO CHILL #but like. if this project stops bringing me joy/fulfillment i will quit. but right now it feeds my soul and it has for a couple years now! #i have discovered that if i want a creative project to actually get completed it has to be a true labor of fun and love #FUCK YOU CAPITALISM #i have MUNCHIES TO ATTEND TOO #be careful when you take edibles y'all! because if I didn't know what was a big or small dose of THC I easily #could have missed that I am in possession of some of the highest dosing gummies I've ever had #and I might have just eaten a whole one instead of painstakingly cutting one in half with a knife! #there is no consistency to what is a standard gummy dose and nowadays a lot of the time things are labeled which is awesome #but if you don't understand the significance of the labels then you might assume that a single gummy is a small amount. #I got to tell you being too high is a horrible horrible experience for most people #anyway if you're not sure just start with 5 mg and then work up in 5 mg increments if you spend an evening without that dose affecting you #anyway I think it's important to note that the villainous lair is in fact their childhood treehouse. they are rooming there as adults. #one of the reasons they stop doing crimes at the end is because they are given access to proper housing #it's kind of grouped in with a number of other reasons but it likely not going to surprise anyone when future chapters are like #🔥no longer even attempting to be subtle. this chapter is about homelessness and how cops are pigs.🔥 #ahem. but this chapter is just a fun romp! like for real. it is an example of the warmth and happiness possible in this story's world.

[loveofastarvingdog]

ohhhh human cas in my little au.... thinking about my poem i made a while back and it’s about his gender but also about being fully angel and fully man and if the angel part is taken away... and while dean and cas ARE meant to be side by side in what they’re going through it’s still different because dean got changed but cas got part of himself taken. stuffed into a shell and then got all the guts removed. ship of theseus.

#it's like looking in a mirror and trying to convince yourself that your reflection is just as physical and a part of you #as the skin you can feel. yes it's two dimensional and flat. and the glass cold. but it isme! you cry. it is me! #because if it's not then what is left of you? #timothy's txts. #thee gender debacle fic #human cas #and ofc will i do it in-universe pre or post canon human cas? OR will i do it and ignore timelines period #i just don't know #but i will be excited for certain things with him as a human #he takes super long showers and i can delve into his texture issues and things like him having. oh what's it called #i know it's an adhd thing for me. when you're having a bad time but you don't know WHY and then five hours later you're like oh fuck #i needed to pee this whole time AND i haven't eaten in two days #anyways i think he would do that as a human. and he would struggle with. not paranoia exactly? but his senses are extremely changed #and i think it makes him very anxious #and having DREAMS... sleeping is fine and he can do it just fine (he has insomnia...) but even good dreams unsettle him i think #to believe something so fully that it can even affect what you believe when you're awake! that's disconcerting #anyways i am Thinking about this fic. having many Thoughts #can't wait to make dean menstruate #tw swearing

[blujayonthewing]

hhrhhhgh hhrhrgghh why do I feel so blehhhh

[stayed up til 7am because of reasons] [has only eaten a bagel today [clocking a slight fever, which may be because I had on too many layers and overheated but may mean I'm coming down with something] [took dayquil on an empty stomach] [blood moon rising in two days]

#IT IS A MYSTERYYYYYY #I would LIKE the slight fever to be not an actual fever but just 'too many fucking socks disease' #but I've also been sniffly for a few days so I'm not necessarily holding my breath there :') #I don't leave the HOUSE how DARE #anyway [lays on the floor in a pathetic heap] #oh the 7 am reasons was that our cat needed to go the vet early this morning to get a biopsy done #and staying up later was just gonna be easier with my sleep schedule than trying to wake up early :') #update an hour has passed since I started writing this because we discovered that the cat's incision site has been bleeding #and it's been A Whole Thing and also I still have not fucking eaten and now dinner is cold so I have to wait more for it to reheat #woooooo #about me

[corvuscorona]

computer goals for soon...

1. more hard drive. more of. them

2. PC build 2: it's for the living room this time

3. server. make one. Server In My House Right Now

#minor software-type stuff: mostly solving the blu-ray authoring forum post links dependency riddle. and also SA2 mods #sonic adventure 2...... almost runs on linux. like almost. #hey actually you know what. in the meantime maybe we have room for me to set up my gamecube now finally #i think we have a tv with the right inputs.. didnt have space to set it up before but it's a whole new ballgame now babey #i want to play SONIC..! ..... ...!!!!! #and. MEGAMAN X COMMAND MISSION..!! and POKEMON THE COOL SPINOFFS....!!! #and probably NOT harvest moon magical melody because who THE. FUCK HAS time to get eaten by harvest moon in 2022 #magical melody is the best harvest moon game. im not comfortable with this fact either but it's the truth and we have to deal w that

[yousaytomato]

technology just failed in a way that sucks so much, and in a way where I'm not entirely sure if it was my fault or not but it definitely looks like my fault and it's going to delay a bunch of stuff and make me look stupid and FUCK 😭😭

#woes of emily #kmn 😭 i hate this so much #i might ring tomorrow just so theres so proof that i didnt just FORGET #and that it was infact BROKEN 😭 #but tbh idk if that would even help because i dont think there's anything they can do and FUCK this sucks goddammit #they reminded me so many times to do this thing and i was so ready and yet. i couldn't even do it !!!! #why has this whole application been so cursed i s2g #im so stressed and i havent eaten all day:(

[hauntingblue]

Roger and nika keep me up at night I swear I get the similarities between roger and luffy, because he is his idol and wants to be pirate king so luffy being similar to him is destiny etc. but these similarities would also extend to roger and nika: the smile, the want for freedom.... so roger was just unlucky he didn't get the nika fruit? Should he had eaten it? Why did shanks steal it? Was roger a nika follower of some kind? Was info about nika on laughtale? Because nika awakens in very special occasions where the host is in sync with nika, by being similar to luffy, roger would have been a good host too? BUT WHY?

#and like considering the idolatry luffy has for roger but didnt know him the similarities are pretty much coincidental. like destiny. #like maybe this is going nowhere because roger is just a big influence on luffys character and thats it idk #i am thinking about shanks being the imciting incident for luffy being a pirate but roger being his reference bc he wants to be king #idk where this is going i just have questions #if oden was waiting for joyboy so was roger maybe. maybe his d name made him a joyboy follower but why the similarities with luffy then #just for it to feel like destiny to be pirate king? with the whole nika joyboy addition it feels shallow. TO ME #bc what is being pirate king. having complete freedom. but luffy with nika is way past that. it's about GIVING EVERYONE COMPLETE FREEDOM #so???????? #talking tag #watching one piece #welcome to my twisted mind incredible this came out of my brain at 7pm and not like 3 am. i am evolving #maybe rogers time was cut short maybe he should have eaten the fruit

[featherymainffins]

Making a bunch of Dunmeshi OCs and I can guarantee you none of these losers would survive the dungeon

#or maybe theyd survive the dungeon but not real life. hard to say at this stage really #theres a guy who fucking hates explaining why he got no legs because they were eaten and he finds it exhausting #'oh why are you in a wheelchair' 'because i got no legs bitch' #or maybe i should change it to something more like having legs but not having any feeling in them #to be able to vent my frustration that i feel every time people are a little too annoying about my cane #like i know they mean well but like...'oh why do you have that?' guess. you have 3 attempts. #and its like when its a good day and i dont take my cane with me people get mad at me for sitting down in the tram #they assume that since im young there has to be everything right with me #like newsflash asshole my legs suck my body sucks my whole organism sucks and im sitting down because i need to be sitting down #and i hate having to defend myself and explain myself as if i were some sort of spectacle. #and when i take my cane people arent mean but sometimes theyre just annoying. #anyway sorry that turned into a rant

[baphofemme]

i am. craving cheese right now

#when i was in kindergarten i'd always come home after school and have a kraft singles slice as a snack #I wouldn't consider myself a cheese snob because i haven't eaten 'fancy' cheese per se #the fanciest cheese i've eaten was probably bleu cheese and it tastes how nail polish smells #to be honest sargento and tillamook are some of my two favorite cheese brands(?) #my favorite has to be pepper jack (habenero jack whenever it's available because i am a masochist and i love burning my taste buds) #obviously because of the spice #sharp cheddar is a classic #apparently cheddar cheese pairs well with apple pie? at least that's what i've heard #not me typing a whole essay about cheese 😭 #🧀🧀🧀🧀 #🧀!! #what's cookin' in hell's kitchen?

[itsbeginningtostart]

9am timeslot let's go. :~) At the halfway dinner I proposed the idea of getting myself a mobile phone assuring them I would just pay more because I'm one of the top earners here. The host shot it down immediately. Apparently the rule specifically stated that mobile phones were just not allowed in general which is??? Like it's 2024? Anyway, 5G or whatever. I skimmed the rule the first time because there are 17 pages stapled together, front and back except for the last one. But they brought me aside later to tell me that if I make it to one month here, I can buy myself a laptop if I want. So I'm gonna do that lol.

#I wanted to bring it up before but you can't just propose things out of the blue #which makes sense because people are just gonna start demanding things and order needs to be kept. #Halfway dinner is halfway into the week (Wednesday) when everyone who is home has to eat together #you can bring shit up then but not on Whole Dinner (Sunday) #the rest of the days we just cook for ourselves and eat whenever #we have to write down what was used eaten etc but idm it's reasonable to me #like I got used to it two days in #starlightrambles

[zevrans]

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#kind of want to gif another gale kiss but also has no energy;; i haven't eaten whole day because i spent it reading a book and was too into #it to notice anything and i am glad i finally finished it and got out of my reading block! #i have so many books i want to read just waiting there for me to be out of my bg3 phase lmaovbfkgk.... #tbd