#brought shame to my family

[rosepompadour]

She’s a star-gazer, a dreamy, sensitive soul. She's a nymph taking refuge in her illusions. She wanders about in a garden, this sweet fanciful girl.

Victor Hugo, Les Misérables (1862)

#i am balls-deep in my les mis tag and i don't have a single fantine post #i have brought shame to myself and my entire family #les miserables #victor hugo #literature

[skunkes]

the way I've been raised has shown itself in a recent awful experience I had and the realization won't leave me because I'm not sure what to do about it.

I don't like feeling anger/upset and it's rare for me to feel it anyway but it's led to me being unable to tell what's worth getting upset over anymore. If my wants upset somebody, then, well, maybe I shouldn't have them? What is so serious that I need it to go completely my way...? What desires am I allowed to have. It's not that serious, it's okay if not, you can't always get what you want....

every time I feel Upset I am later wracked with guilt because it wasn't a big deal and I was just being selfish... What IS a big deal then? How can I tell? Its admittedly never a big deal... But I keep being upset. And stepped on....

#talkys #this is what led to me Staying for as long as i did #there would be issues but if I brought them up i wld then be made to feel guilty for feeling that way #but i cant reverse that bc well!! its true like is it really a big deal? life isnt that serious I dont need to get upset... #i get upset at something my parents do and in the end i feel ungrateful and selfish #i really cant tell anymore which is why i Stayed as mentioned above #in the sense of well yeah the way im being treated doesnt make me feel good but why do i need to feel good? #isnt that selfish...isnt that asking too much...isnt that making yourself out to be Better Than... #i really dont know. i get so ready to give up my position on anything because I dont want to be selfish #and because im no better than anyone else #my mom caused some drama on my birthday wrt my sister's family and it led to me not being able to go to the duck #pond on my birthday... which is the only thing i really wanted to do on an otherwise uneventful day #i was meant to feel shame abt it because well we can always go any other day!!! relax!!! #and it is true....! #we can go any other day why did i get upset? its not that serious...nothing is that serious...i feel so guilty + spoiled + selfish #i just felt humiliated for wanting to go in the first place. and for getting upset that we couldnt go. like a toddler. #*not that i actually get Toddler Level upset...but it always Feels like i did...ykwim #i just dont understand......idk if i can Repair this....

[anonymouspuzzler]

oh baby it's Foofy Fiday (note: i have absolutely no idea what day this will queue up.) more thanks to @incorrectbugsnaxquotes for many of these prompts as well!

(alt text/image IDs below the cut!)

[Image 1 ID: Doodle page with various drawings of Floofty, including: - A three-panel comic with first, Floofty handing a wax-sealed envelope to Shelda. Second panel is Shelda, looking confused, opening the letter, and third, a POV of the letter reading simply, "bitch. Respectfully, -- Floofty F. Fizzlebean". - A very simplified drawing of Floofty smirking and sitting on the ground, legs out, with an arrow pointing to them reading "la creatura". - A sketch of a silhouetted Floofty, goggles glowing, walking along the beach with their pegleg and a severed leg clearly in one hand. - Floofty gesturing to a closed chemical cabinet with a sign reading "GENDER. CAUTION! HIGHLY TOXIC" - A meme recreation of Floofty holding up a flask with text reading "FINALLY. GENDER FLUID" - Floofty, grimacing and gesturing with one hand, saying, "I've come to make an announcement. Snorpington's a punk-*ss b*tch," - The X-Files "I WANT TO BELIEVE" poster, but the UFO has been replaced with a drawing of a T-posing Floofty floating at a slight angle into the sky.]

[Image 2 ID: A 4-panel comic of Filbo and Floofty. In the first panel, Floofty is sitting at a bar sipping from a cup, looking annoyed as a dancing Filbo backs into them with a smile. Filbo says, "Hey! Can I have a sip of your water?" and Floofty replies, "It isn't water." In the second panel, Filbo has turned around to wink and do finger guns at Floofty, saying, "Snax juice!! I like your style!" Floofty, glaring, responds, "It's vinegar." In the third panel, Filbo, still frozen in finger-guns position, looks on in horror and Floofty, still glaring, takes a slow sip from the cup. In the fourth panel, Filbo, horrified, says "...what?" and Floofty replies simply, "It's vinegar, plebian."]

[Image 3 ID: A 3-panel comic of Triffany and Floofty. In the first, Triffany, grinning and holding a stack of papers with one arm, extends the other to Floofty while saying, "Good job, Floofty!" Floofty, taking the item with one hand, says, "You're giving me a sticker?" In the second panel, Triffany, still grinning and gesturing with one pointer finger, says, "Not just a sticker! It has a kitten saying 'Me-WOW!'" Floofty, staring down at the sticker looking nonplussed, replies, "I'm not a kindergartener." In the third, Triffany, looking disappointed, leans down and reaches out saying, "Okay, I'll take it back." Floofty, glaring and holding the sticker in both hands, whirls away while saying, "I earned this, back off."]

[Image 4 ID: A two-panel comic of Floofty and Shelda. Shelda, sitting on a log, eyes closed and hands clutched over her heart, says, "I never considered you an enemy." Floofty, sitting on a separate log with a book in one hand and leaning their head on the other, doesn't even look up as they respond "I never considered you at all." In the second panel, Floofty continues reading and not acknowledging Shelda, who has placed both hands on her knees and says in disbelief, "Now that's just hurtful".]

[Image 5 ID: A drawing of Floofty recreating a scene from It's Always Sunny. They are grinning wildly, one hand pumping a fist and the other holding a whiteboard marker, moving so quickly they're motion-blurred. Behind them a whiteboard reads in all caps "MURDER".]

#Anonymous Puzzler art #bugsnax #floofty fizzlebean #bugsnax spoilers #fun fact! casey mongillo themself has a copy of the I WANT TO BELIEVE as a print #one of my buddies was like hey i'm going to a con where they're signing you want anything? and i panicked and sent That Specific Drawing. #apparently it got a laugh though. so i have not brought shame to myself and my family just yet #bugsnax shelda #filbo fiddlepie #triffany lottablog #bugsnax character tags are so fun. #tw for implied amputation/dismemberment and i suppose for references to drinking/alcohol #and also for censored cursing #just in case! i know there's some youngin's in the bugsnax fandom. best to be safe

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[colin-becher-death-countdown]

Did you just spell it "iron brew"????

Its spelled irn bru you uncultured swine

apologies in repentance i will let all the scottish side of my family slap me in the face with a wet kipper 😔 even then i don't think ill ever be able to show myself in scotland again

#ive brought great shame to my family #i mean not really irish people don't have shame #not colin becher death countdown

[chewbokachoi]

"I've watched enough Hannibal to know what to do here." -Me as I try to cook chicken liver for the second time ever

#false i have not watched enough hannibal #and i did not know what i was doing #my grandfather shakes his head in disappointment at the shame i have brought to the family #hannibal

[kvetchinglyneurotic]

i got some very nice comments on tell me something true (thank you!) BUT they are giving me the extremely unwise urge to reread it and i know from experience that i need to wait at least a couple of weeks to get out of editing mode or i will give myself The Horrors

#i reread chapter 4 of THD a couple of days after i posted it and was like oh no it's terrible i have brought shame upon my family #and then reread it again a couple of weeks later and it was actually fine

[muskmelon-enjoyer-199x]

thinking about the time this young 19 y/o guy i used to work with was talking to me about a bunch of random stuff and I said something about how he shouldnt worry about something this girl said on a dating app because he was just overthinking it and snowballing over nothing.

He paused a minute and said, "I guess you probably have more experience with women than me, huh?" I thought a second, but it was true. I'm not some kind of relationship guru and I fuck up a lot, but I do know more about dating and maintaining a relationship than a 19 y/o wannabe bodybuilder that watches Andrew Tate and has terminal virgin energy.

I said "I guess so, yeah'" and he visibly deflated. Like it was such a blow to his ego. I think maybe he was tethering his sense of masculinity to some weird sexual marketplace virility bullshit and felt emasculated?

im like a weird limp-wristed lesbian with a flamerboy 2003 fashion designer voice. I wear mens and womens clothes as I feel and often just have frizzy hair idgaf about because i'm not a public-facing employee most of the time anyways. if you spend more than a few hours around me it's probably pretty easy to see im a tranny no matter how hard i deny it and im honestly just kinda goofy and do silly shit for my own amusement. normies seem to like me alright and say im fun to be around but also think im a weirdo and I guess that's okay because I have some friends and a wife and I don't need external validation like that (or at least not desperately lmao).

but he seemed genuinely hurt and threatened by the possibility that I've been more successful with women than him and that just feels so weird to me. like why do you feel bad? It's not a competition and even if it was the women you like wouldnt like me and the women that like me wouldnt like you? Maybe stop talking about right wing bodybuilders and acting macho at work because those girls you like think you're an annoying closet case?

#internalmelon #this guy apparently talked to a trans woman on a dating app and didnt know #and his family shamed him like “that's a man! look at the hands dumbass!” #and he brought it up at work to tell it like a funny story (BAD CALL BRO) and they made fun of him too #and he was all weird when he talked to me about it and i said idgaf and wouldnt judge him because it wasnt weird of him to like her #he got all defensive but admitted he liked her before she told him but not anymore and then got weird when i told him both of those were OK #like do you want me to call you a fag or say you have to date people you dont feel attracted to? what was your expectation #like he seemed kinda offended that i didnt judge him for it but hurt that others did. who cares that you thought a trans woman was hot lmao #i wonder if he would've still been interested in her if his male relatives didn't call him a maricón for not clocking her #for some reason the “would you fuck a tranny if...” conversation comes up a lot with the men at my work #when i stumble into it i just say “sure why not” or “been there done that” and they get really uncomfortable lmao #like i get you're proving your straightness to yourself and the bros but why are you so unsettled when other people aren't paranoid like you

[landlordevil]

I like that all my tavs/durges have romanced different ppl i can't imagine making another tav that works so well w asty considering it seemed like a total fluke. Consistently battling between approval n disapproval, they regularly challenged each other (and that included times eins was callous without realizing just how much their words meant to asty)... like I truly think just playing the game as close to what I *think* my character would do worked so well I would just be trying to recapture that magic if I tried 2 romance him again

#i think due to their upbringing and the way people treated them back in bg eins was like... #not ready to believe that a vulnerable love was possible for someone like them #actively pushing asty away but wanting him to stay close. #and then asty does the same thing and its like god you guys need therapy #but LOVE.... persevered.... #plus i feel like it made the line about 'would you have brought me to cazador if things had been different?' hit SO hard #because eins really was a dirt poor ''criminal''. sure they had family and friends but no one could do anything if they went missing. #like they were a prime candidate and i think both of them are upset by that truth. #they'd have to work thru a lot to stay together and that makes it really interesting to meee #truly a shame that the market for tav/asty is so saturated. i dont need 2 throw my hat into that ring #im too busy googling up mid 17th century clothing for my little homoerotic wyll/starion doodles. i got shit to do man

[starpros-sunshine]

Sometimes I think back to when I was a child in elementary school and a lot of time's I stayed for the afternoon thing they had because my parents were working and I was like six years old and because I had no friends there (as far as I can remember) I had to entertain myself which wasn't difficult or anything because that's what you do as an only child anyways but that's not the thing that's strange it's the way that when I had nothing more entertaining to do I'd go look for an ant road and take a rock and then sit beside that ant parade of ants just doing their job being hard workers and doing good things for the eco system and I'd sit there with my rock and crush those ants as they passed me by and to be honest i dont think rhags weird behaviour for a kid but its a biz funny to think about how I must have an ant killcount un the ups because I dont remember most of my life but the fact that i remember thaz as a core memory is. Something for sure

#little anectode from my life #people always tell me that that is not normal but i was six six year olds do that kind of stuff #i mean I still prefer to let insects and spiders I caught inside the house asphyxiate under the glass and then throw them out #but thats just because i don't like them #they have no business being in my room they brought that upon themselves #I'd do the ant thing again actually if I didn't have better things to do I think I'd consider it it's not likw their ant family will be sad #they're workers in a colony they're disposable #I would make SUCH a good ceo man #workers are disposable crush the poor under your rocks you collected for this purpose specifically and bbut their union #such a shame I'm too decent a person to be a pefect one #delete later not like the sins of my youth meed to stay preserved forever is all

[mchiti]

my friends i usually don't make post like this because I choose peace usually n I don't like to indirect ppl but like. I guess i've reblogged a total of 3 old posts in recent times from aj*x gud days and I only went to check on one of those acc out of curiosity and I saw them posting about finding this amusing/weird. as in "what's up with the nostalgia from fans of these players, it's been years, u weren't even watching aj*x" (i guess this was about the ziy-ech ona-na post from yesterday lol) and on one side it was funny bc i watched *counting* 5+ years worth of eredivisi-e I should get a medal for that alone. My usb drive full of old memories I occasionally go through to feel happy. u want to know something about aja*x those days I have everything at ur disposal. 16 april 2019 in ams, I was there. I mean just to say we can't really assume what people liked or didn't like before just to shame strangers having fun u know

#i mean I don't want a prize even if I wasn't there I still don't think it's nice yaknow #I even had a tumblr blog to read I just wasn't into using it then bc I had a ig page then. sweet soul was I. I despise ig now #also I know this is depressing and none of u care about it #but like 2019 my mama passed away in january. it was the most horrible year of my life. and the previous year hadn't been great either. #I have been follow hakim/aj/ax since 2015 but football that year especially was my escape. #my brother brought us to ams in april to visit family and brought me to the stadium and brought me tickets for ucl #cause like I was completely out of it. Let's say I guess i was heavily depressed and I should have been to therapy honestly. #I don't remember ANYTHING about my life back then I only found escapism in that club and morocco and hakim and nous that year #so I mean u don't know whats up with ppl let's not shame people having fun on the internet. idk it made me feel bad gkfjdh #tw mental health #tw death #tw parental loss

[ndcgalitzine]

going through posts on my dash and noticing a spelling error in the tags from months ago

#omg why are you even following me I'm completely incompetent #I even had to google the word incompetent because I wrote ENcompetent #🤣🤣😭😭 #OMG I JUST FOUND ANOTHER SPELLING ERROR 🙈😱 #the only reason I'm taking this so badly #is because my vocabulary SUCKS #I know like 50% of all words in my native language and english #(which is why my text posts always suck... it's like a 5yo wrote them) #but in spelling I usually EXCEL #so yeah... I have brought shame on myself my house and my family

[dncingthrghlife]

talia burns never did anything wrong ever in her life, buuuttt…

…i was kinda looking forward to her and theo being fully on the run together from jack and apollo at the end of season one

#halt #there be spoiler ahead #shame #just imagine #the drama™ #this is the better version that lives in my head #this post has been brought to you by: #my first first kill watch #and #burns family #especially #talia burns #theo burns #apollo burns #jack burns #calliope burns #first kill spoilers #first kill #first kill netflix #fk #fk spoilers

[catty-words]

i need a supercut of all the nhie musical cues

#i want to submerge my face in it like a bucket of water #catty's perpetual nhie rewatch #this post brought to you by the super cute and sparse use of one of the main themes #that plays after devi makes her debut as a girlf who won't being shame on her family pre orchestra concert

[dancingisdangerouss]

I been wondering since the Grabbers age is not revealed in canon, how old is Black Acres Al?

Eh, I headcanon him in ITB around 48, so probably 50-51 in BA

#still younger than my dad so #all good in my book LMFAO #man the shame I’ve brought upon my family #asks #anon #penny for your thots #black acres #into the black

[obsessedwithegos]

What if Cade got picked up as a stray dog?

This was always an awkward situation whenever it happened.

If it was animal control he would simply shift back to his human form and apologize, but this wasn't animal control.

He was currently riding in a car with two parents in the front and a young kid hugging him while asking him what name he liked better; Krypto or Ace, making it evident that they liked superhero comics.

The mother looked back at her kid "Now now sweet pea, we have to take him to the vet to make sure he doesn't already have a family, okay?"

Oh thank goodness, that would make this just a little bit easier. He did have a chip, it was registered under his 2nd boss for scenarios like this.

But the kid protectively hugging him tighter made him feel a bit bad.

Eventually when they got to the vet, the vet assistant scanned him for his chip and successfully found it. Once seeing it was registered, told the family that they would get in contact with the owner and call them with any updates.

Luckily the family left with minimal crying from the kid this time, but the vet assistant looked at Cade, clearly unamused. "You really need to stop walking around town in your dog form."

Cade shifted back to him human form "I know." he says with his ears lowered but his smile still present on his face.

#owe answers #anonymous #my writing #owe writing #cade tag #luckily Cade is friends with most of the vets and their staff around town because of this #They do still call his boss and make him do the car ride of shame in his dog form tho #That boss often also meets with the family that brought him in to thank them for bringing back his sweet dog and all of that #makes everyone feel less bad fghdjskfgh #prompted writing tag #new tag!