#but I think I'll be forgiven

[edithdraws]

This is a Thanos Rising 2013 by Jason Aaron hate blog every day I'm fuming over the damage he did to Thanos' backstory but ESPECIALLY Sui-San. You don't understand her like I do... Anyway this is old art from 2021(?) that I never posted because uhhh idk why lol.

#Thanos is oozing mommy issues but not the kind that Jason Aaron thinks he has. #thanos #sui-san #eros of titan #mentor #a'lars #cosmic marvel #art #I'll probably draw Sui-San with long hair in the future but her Thanos Rising bisexual bobcut is cute #desperately grasping for anything good about that book lol it's just her hair and Thanos likes to draw :) that's it throw the rest away. #I think about them so much... Sui-San being the only one who might've forgiven Thanos if she didn't die when he blew up Titan... #Sui-San's love for Thanos and how her and Mentor still failed him... Thanos seeking solace in Death... it's all so AUGHHH #Also I don't know how to draw babies I struggled so much with Eros LOL I had to just give up at some point #enjoy<3 I need to draw more...

[deltasilver64]

yasaka kanakoomba

what have I done

#touhou project #touhou #kanako yasaka #I would say may god forgive me #but after what I did to her I don't think I'll be forgiven #mountain of faith

[theartisticintrovert]

me before double/neoplasm: niko is innocent! mikoto is putting on a mask so people will like him!!! (righteous fury)

me after double/neoplasm: niko is innocent.... mikoto is putting on a mask so people will like him........ (sobbing incoherently)

#in conclusion: AUGH #im not fucking calling him john btw #if anything i'll call him taro #bc taro yamada is the japanese equivalent of john doe #anyway niko was so desperate to look guilty so mikoto would be forgiven #it only made him seem more innocent to me tbh #but honestly? i think i forgive mikoto too #bc like. i've been there. GOD i've been there. i too had a bunch of masking burnout + a stress breakdown or three #i was just lucky enough to have people able to help me #mikoto doesn't seem to have that #someone get this man a fucking support system STAT #ty talks #kayano mikoto #mikoto kayano #milgram #milgram project #nikoto #orekoto

[comradedanipedrosa]

Gonna admit to smth on here. I have never watched sepang 15 OR argentina 18. Failed as a motogp fan on this website 😔

#there's some races I'm like saving for a rainy day to watch and all but these two I don't think I'll ever watch #unless it's somehow a group setting or whatever #i remember when they uploaded argentina 2018 on the youtube lol and the comments were all so. SO. lmao #made me scared that marc had committed some unthinkable horrible never to be forgiven crime #and 2015 isn't really available anywhere on yt and motmundo has stopped working for me rip plus I'm not interested in it too much #it's like the Lore is so much nownit will never live up to it's name.....

[lawluenvy]

lol i've learned due to the recent tgcf episodes that there are actually people in this fandom who thirst over and love qi rong which i suppose should not be surprising since anything is possible as the villain obsession in fandoms can be terrifying sometimes but goddamn this particular instance has gotta be one of those weird fandom phenomena that i do not relate to and do not feel or sympatheize with in the absolute slightest way

- qi rong is such a whiny spoiled rich kid piece of shit who doesn't see anything living as rightfully living or deserving of even the tiniest of tolerances - he nearly fucking killed hua cheng when they were kids and he wouldve if hua cheng wasnt so resilient and xie lian didn't save him

- i don't care that he's supposed to look like xie lian and thus should technically be pretty cuz he is such a deplorably perverted little bitch that i cannot see past his grotesque personality to glimpse one shred of similarity at all -

so if it wasn't already clear:

This is a qi rong hate blog.

i like some of his fanart still when he's drawn just to go with a set for the 4 calamities but jfc do i ever despise that evil little fucker

lol of course people who want to like him can like him by all means but i just do. not. relate. whatsoever.

#not to mention i still havent forgiven mu qing either #but i do still like and feel for him as a character #but i think i'll hold what he did to xie lian against him forever because i #like hua cheng #hold grudges #against selfish and rude people #especially #if they have harmed xie lian #personal #arrie rants #fandom #qi rong #tgcf

[outeremissary]

Tagged by @turbulentpumpkin43. Thank you! Although I know I've got a lot of stuff I haven't finished, I'm doing my best to be prompt with new stuff.

rules: shuffle your 'on repeat' playlist and post the first ten tracks, then tag ten people!

(Emi note: I have come to understand that "on repeat" is a Spotify thing, so tonight the method is that I'm going to do my verrrrry best to remember stuff I've looped a lot recently and we're all going to super duper trust me that it's like, analogous.)

Thunder N' Rain - Hammer No More the Fingers (YouTube | Spotify)

Judgment in the Sixtieth Year ~ Fate of Sixty Years - ZUN (YouTube | Spotify)

To the Last Drop of Blood - Beast in Black (YouTube | Spotify)

Lay Down - Priestess (YouTube | Spotify)

Ride or Die - The Knocks (feat. Foster the People) (YouTube | Spotify)

The Purge March (Amane's Second Trial) - DECO*27, TeddyLoid (YouTube | Spotify)

Yin Yang Relationship - Wadatakeaki (YouTube)

Austerity - Katatonia (YouTube | Spotify)

I Really Want to Stay at Your House (Turbo eurobeat remix) - Rosa Walton (YouTube)

Dancing Samurai - Kanimiso-P (YouTube)

If interested, @camelliagwerm, @bearvanhelsing, and @mountainashfae?

#y'know I think I started this with other things I wanted to comment on but once I remembered the purge march #it's all that in my brain #earworm that one #so nary a sound can be heard a second time I'll crush your throat too :) #look no one follows me for Milgram takes but look. look. we gotta vote amane forgiven. #I need to see what happens when she's cut loose (she'll kill someone) this isn't about morality or anything I just wanna see it #I've made peace with it she can't be saved we just have to make her worse #can't wait for kotoko second trial later this fall. kotoko forgiven also for me. always. heart. women's wrongs. #genuinely this list gets funnier and funnier the more I look at it but yeah. I think it's accurate. my Range. #tag game #tbh dancing samurai is probably the most looped on the list the past few days. animal by deco*27 honorary mention. should probably be here. #also everyone please clap Internet Yamero isn't here for once!

[sburbanrelapse]

chapping my lips with estradiol. going to make the thrall i have chained to my bedpost realize some things about themselves

#kicking it in the asylum #as there's no delicate place to put it #i'll just write here #that yesterday i was lifted out of an extreme depressive spiral #by someone referring to me as their thrall and saying they wanted me chained to their bed #now i'm not going to say i'm normal #but i think for this i can be forgiven

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

i might be a little bit obsessed with clouds in general,,,just a liiittle bit tho<3333

#my art #wip #i KNOW okay i know it looks similar to day 2 #but you HAVE to understand like!!! clouds are FUN to draw #and gosh the poofy blue ghibli clouds make me want to paint sooo badly so yeah!!! clouds again!! #if it's any consolation it's gonna be a whoole lot bigger and detailed so!! i think i'll be forgiven >;)c #i hope you guys will like it at least xDc <3333 #i'm pretty sure most of you are asleep since it's 2 am here hhh but i'll update you guys later! wish me luck >:'D

[red-moon-at-night]

I don't think I'm mentally prepared to go through this voting ordeal again with Amane because. I know deep in My Bones she's gonna end up being the first prisoner to receive 2 guilty verdicts isn't she. Isn't she.

#milgram #I completely understand where amane guilty truthers are coming from but have you considered: I will cry #when the time actually comes I'll say more about my thoughts on her + we haven't even seen her MV + song + voice drama yet and-- #--that might change everything! #however I am very confident that if that girl gets another guilty verdict there is No coming back from that. #people are insistent that we can just 'give everyone a forgiven vote in trial 3' and fix things BUT... that has never been established #we don't know how this voting system works!! is it whichever got more guilty/innocent votes overall? so 2/3 guiltys = guilty overall?? #it. scares me a little ;w; #ALSO besides that I actually think amane will simply refuse to engage with us or take anything in at all if she gets guilty again. #like I know she's not the most compliant or flexible person but we haven't even given her a chance to change? like at all? #anyway. at the end of the day people will choose what they think is right and I cannot change that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #capri talks #I always make a whole essay in the tags asdfghjkl

[hella1975]

I have so many thoughts about this show and none of them are remotely articulate but yeah the thing about endeavour redemption is it’s not really explained WHY he decided to do a complete 180. like he got everything he wanted and then was like ‘ok NOW I’ll be a good dad’ when most of his kids are fully grown. like what? and people are so defensive of endeavour when he was abusive! this isn’t even implied he on screen hits his six year old son until he threw up and hit his wife when she tried to stop him WHY ARE YOU DEFENDING HIM

LITERALLY LIKE I CANT BELIEVE THIS IS EVEN A DEBATE his children were all born to fulfill his selfish ambition, something he was so transparent about with them that touya died because despite it being physically unsustainable he was so desperate to keep training and hold his dad's attention and he knew that was the only way to do it, his only purpose from the start, and endeavour responded by continuing to push the same ideals onto his youngest son and physically abuse him and his wife until she had a mental breakdown that led to his son being mutilated and her being put in a hospital for a DECADE and neglecting his other two children and all of this went on for 24 years UNTIL endeavour finally got the thing he was after that whole time and went 'oh i feel a bit bad now'

#and i'll say it again! i dont CARE if people think endeavour's character is cool i dont CARE about if he does or doesnt get redeemed #like good for him! but any forgiveness/redemption endeavour is met with NEEDS to be equal to what touya is met with #THATS what bugs me. if you hate touya bc he's done bad things then fine! that's fair! #but if you dont hate endeavour too then that's a really odd double standard to have #and if you want endeavour to be redeemed and forgiven then great! but why can't touya? #the lack of empathy from people is astounding like before he was ever a villain touya was a victim and that has to mean something #ask #mha #mha spoilers

[irregularbillcipher]

i keep being like "man it's weird that all the dads in brad's party have scenes about fatherhood except birdie" and i just remembered that ollie is also a dad but like. i don't really care if he gets a scene about fatherhood tbh and we do not need more ollie scenes, he got two. just give his theoretical fatherhood scene to birdie, so birdie gets two as well. he's earned it i think

#i was literally riding my bike home from work and i was just like wait. ollie is also a dad i forgot that. huh. #i've literally made up names for his kids idk how i forgot that #but also i'll be real ollie barely remembers he has kids they are mentioned ONCE and are not even part of his bio #so i think i can be forgiven for forgetting the dude apparently had a wife and kids pre-flash

[thehealingplum]

Maybe if I watch enough media where characters get a redemption arc, I can also learn to forgive myself as I go through my own redemption arc.

#thinking aloud #I did something mean once and I still haven't forgiven myself #Even if I'm not that same person I feel like that bad thing can't be erased #So I'm still hurting #Anyway I'll live vicariously through fictional characters forever

[astrxealis]

fuuta is so interesting tbh

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚ #i voted innocent already but i'll see the drama audio as soon as there's a translation that i can watch/listen to after i do homework asap #i can really understand fuuta. he reminds me of me if i go too far #and so i think that in all honesty yeah guilty -> innocent -> innocent #unless he still might benefit most from a guilty vote this time around #he's really interesting bcs he's actually really similar to us. the viewers #'hoisting up morality and feeling good' he's calling the milgram project out and US. but he's now also being a hypocrite #which is interesting. he said in 'bring it on' smth smth about evil hypocrites are shit! he's like them now ngl #and so guilty vote i think was best. for the first. but ultimately he deserves innocent i believe #the 2nd trial i am unsure about bcs it will of course affect the last trial. and also the rest of the prisoners one way or another #and there is real danger of someone dying... but also idk they might have said that to scare us but this is deco*27. i believe that #the site is so slow oh my god bless i was able to vote almost immediately LMAO #i think fuuta obviously shows regret. also i don't think he was the one who started the flame but the one who added more fire to the flame #and he's. like. 'follows the flow' and 'coward' but 'good at heart'. and ultimately he should be forgiven i believe but yeah yeah? #he's at fault but not the most at fault but he deflects all taking of responsibility and i think that's wrong #i REALLY understand him with that. i was the same. and that's why now i'm still not fully honest with saying my true thoughts #because it's really just hard but ultimately you NEED to. and idk whether an innocent or guilty vote would be best ngl #hmmm tbh nothing is truly certain yet though. lots of theories still but for me thats the gist ^^ ? #he needs to be open about his feelings and thoughts. man up. take responsibility even if it likely is true he isn't the most at fault #because he still is. but at the same time the whole 'spectators' and 'pressure' makes me think it may be some sort of #yk. following the flow. peer pressure thing. and he was the one that was either the loudest in the end or the one who lagged behind #i think he was looking for some sort of validation of sorts maybe. seeking the applause. because he's 'last in line' ??? #'blame-shifting'. i think he's a victim but he's still at fault one way or another but i think he isn't the main/first perpetrator fr #'one mistake and now i'm out of chances' he's defending himself and making excuses but also he's also right #maybe i'm projecting because i really relate to him (not to the extent of causing someone's death ofc but kid me was stupid) #'not my fault not even slightly' now THAT'S wrong. but it's more that he's in denial rather than now knowing that he's wrong #last tag! but yea tldr he's regretful but he still needs to get more out of denial. from experience innocent might actually help w that ngl #fuuta kajiyama

[alex-just-vibing]

GRGRGRGRGRGRGRGRGRGRGRGRGGRGRGRGRGRGRGRGRGRGRGR YOU DONT KNOW HOW MANY EMOTIONS THIS FUCKING SONG MAKES ME FEEL GGGGGRRRRRRRR

#my stuff #CUZ MAYBE I KNOW WHAT MY HEART DESIRES MAYBE I'LL LEAD W A PASSIONATE FIRE CUZ BABY I KNOW THAT IM DESTINED TO FLY #BUT IF I HADN'T EARNED A DOLLAR #WHAT WOULD YOU THINK OF YOUR DEAR DAUGHTER #WOULD IT BE PITY OR DISHONOR TO ENSURE #AND IF I FAIL TO EARN BLUE RIBBON #HOW COULD I EVER BE FORGIVEN #TELL ME WHAT LOVE WOULD STILL BE GIVEN FROM YOU

[skrunksthatwunk]

haruka should be allowed to be mad at kiryu tbh

#not just in y6 but like all the time #dont get me wrong i LOVE them and i love them being sweet and happy and i love kiryu being a good dad ok #but kiryu is uh. not always the best. in ways that i think she should be upset about #and i think the canon narrative doesnt rlly wanna address that bc kiryu is trying so hard and that effort must be forgiven #and for a happy ending to occur the family must be reunited #and i get that but like. haruka's side of the story is often ignored completely #or else boils down to unconditional daughter love in ways that are supposed to be admirable #and again. i love these two dearly. i love them very very much. but i think that tension should be explored #their relationship would be Very Complex and i think it would be Messy tbh. not like screaming fighting per se but i think haruka should be #allowed some moments of Uncle Kaz Im Sick Of Your Shit type stuff #im not even sure why i feel this way specifically bc i know i used to have reasons for it but like. yeah #even if you dont think haruka's justified or that she's missing some details/perspective or whatever i think she should be hurt and upset #about some of The Bullshit. baby girl needs therapy she needs some support and sometimes kiryu just. idk. #anyway go listen to welly boots by the amazing devil. thats basically my thesis statement #look maybe I'm just projecting my own daddy issues or whatever idk. maybe more people should do that with them like. shit #I'll do it someday I'll make that content i swear #sorry thinkjng about the unconditional daughter love again. she's kind of an ideal. she's a fantasy sometimes of a daughter figure who will #always understand how hard you're trying and be cute and love you no matter what. does that make sense??? and it's like. like i almost feel #bad for knocking that bc i get parents are under a lot of stress but i think she should have that power and that agency to be upset with #him. idk if im making sense. she's reduced to the Ideal Daughter and i want her to be loving and kind but with some moments of bitterness

[marypsue]

not to be a horrible shipper all over your plotfic but what would the ships look like in your ageswap au?

The sample I posted does rather invite the question!

I should put out there, as a general rule, I'm not all that interested in Mike/Will and I don't have plans to write it anywhere. I don't really vibe with it, generally, and I believe I've mentioned previously (but maybe only in tags) that I really hate the way the Duffers conceived of and have been handling the possibility that Will might be gay. And many of the ways parts of the fandom have acted in response. I get that it's important to some people, and I don't want to rain on anybody's parade, but I've seen so much bad behaviour from the showrunners all the way down that it's pretty firmly put me off.

With that said, though. This fic was undertaken before I'd had much exposure to the fandom, and also, the roleswap plays...well, a role. I'm a sucker for a good triad relationship, especially the Monster Hunting Trio, and in this version of things, that's Mike and El and Will. So this is probably the only time you're ever going to see me writing reciprocated romantic feelings between Mike and Will. It's just that El is also there. And the entire context of their previous relationships with each other has changed. It feels different. I don't know. I'm operating on vibes, here.

Also because of the roleswap, this is one of those rare places where I'm not mashing Steve and Nancy and Jonathan's faces all together. Nancy and Jonathan are the Hopper and Joyce of this fic, and Steve is the Karen Wheeler. He'll be fine in his loveless marriage while the other two are off having fantastic post-saving-the-world sex. Maybe he'll have an ill-advised affair in the future. Who can say.

(Also Nancy and Barb had a brief on-again-off-again fling post-Nancy's-divorce, which has been over for some time as of the action taking place. Long enough for Barb to find a more stable relationship with the other local lesbian...)

I'm pretty sure that's it, as far as romance goes. Apart from the teen squad, it's pretty secondary to the plot in season 1, and I'm sticking with that. (Also, I need lots of time and space to fully mine the hilarity of Steve being Mike's literal actual father.)

#chatter #ships. plots. triggers. character deaths. whether there will be a banana appearing in a scene. it's all fair game #so long as everybody's respectful about it i love talking about fic whatever shape that takes #and i absolutely don't mind giving warnings or heads up if there's something you're particularly concerned about appearing #(or not appearing) #also it's genuinely nauseating how people want to give the duffers backpats for taking the stephen king route #and using their fiction as an excuse to use every slur they know #'oh the one who's been the target of vicious violent homophobia the whole time is the Only Gay One' try the fuck again boys. #(i have not forgiven them for what they did to robin as soon as she was Canonically Into Girls) #sorry I have. a lot of feelings on this topic. #i'm also most interested in reading will as aro-ace and the duffers' bullshit has only made me double down on that #but i don't want to talk about it like i'm only doing that reading out of spite because i do genuinely think it's interesting in itself #so if i'm going to talk about that i'll do it in a separate post #bc I also don't want to imply that it's an either-or and you can Only have One True Sexuality Headcanon for a character #(they're fictional your honour. this stuff depends on the reader and can also differ in context.) #(like how in the context of this one AU i'm interested in a triad relationship i won't be writing in any other contexts) #also I absolutely don't want to fight anybody for the dubious honour of getting shittily canonized by the duffers' bad takes lmao #'is it/will it ever be canon' is the least interesting metric by which to measure a ship/headcanon/etc to me