#but I'm in pain T_T

[cistematicchaos]

i'ont know how some other disabled folks manage being homebound. i want to meet people, i have shit i wanna do outside of the house, i don't even wanna be living here, i'm not entirely sure this counts as living most of the time. i don't like it. i feel like i'm struggling to keep my head above the water a lot of the time and rn? i just feel like i'm drowning.

#actually disabled #cripple shit #fibro things #chronic pain #actually mentally ill #vent tw ig? #sorry #im just #one of my dogs died and i'm grieving so hard #i can't get out of the house and i feel smothered #ppl're trying to convince me my dad is not and never has been abusive #and its fucking with my head so #all of it on top of each other #with NO help for my pain issues is just #a mess T_T #\o/ #would i welcome advice? #yes #pls #chaos is speaking

[airi-p4]

Figure Skating Lukanette ❤️

#my art #airip4 #lukanette #Pro LukaMari #Lukanette figure skating #lukanette figure skating AU #I want more figure skating AU Lukanette!!!! #((Yes- I'm still planning and working on my AU but I'm stuck at chapter 3 T_T)) #((I'll write more eventually- the story is mostly planned- but super long ;v;)) #((I can't believe this is my first proper drawing of 2022 O_O)) #((Anatomy was hell- the pain was real here)) #((I'm glad that I managed somehow?? :D )) #((Thank you for drawing with me last night Freya <3 ))

[sevicia]

When I reply to a mutual's post or send an ask or interact in general you have to imagine me jumping up and down and running circles around you OK ?

#Cause that's how I feel genuinely I'm like OMG the people on my phone!!!! so cool!!!!!! #and I haven't been jumping IRL recently ever since I landed weird on my foot and was in pain for like a week T_T

[fortune-maiden]

After 10000 years (of laziness) I have finally finished this embroidery piece!

#don't mind me having a moment #fortune's crafts #I loved doing the stems but oh my god these leaves were a pain #good practice I guess? #they were so tiny though T_T #this is what I get for choosing a piece solely by the number of French knots xD (0) #i think the main lesson learned here is that i generally do not enjoy working with 1 strand #i should stick to pieces that use 2-3 strands #and fewer small details #i'm going to switch to cross stitching for now #i like the more math based approach to that one xD

[thyandrawrites]

(I will not say goodbye - Danny Gokey)

#Music #Todoroki natsuo #Todoroki touya #E slur #Hello new natsu song dropped and I'm in pain #JUST GIVE HIM HIS BROTHER BACK PLEASE. FUCK. SHIT. I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE T_T #Guess who just decided which song will open this playlist

[charliethomascoxuniverse]

💕 Charlie Cox as Ishmael 💕

Moby Dick (2011) Pt XXV ~

"The sailors at the fore and mizzen had come down; the line tubs were fixed in their places; the cranes were thrust out; the mainyard was backed, and the three boats swung over the sea like three samphire baskets over high cliffs. Outside of the bulwarks their eager crews with one hand clung to the rail, while one foot was expectantly poised on the gunwale. So look the long line of man-of-war's men about to throw themselves on board an enemy's ship." (MD, Ch 47)

#poor Ishmael...Ahab's being a pain in his ass again 😅💀 #ugh I'm so behind on my MD reading this week -- ever since I got sick I just want to stay in bed and sleep all the time T_T #Ishmael #Starbuck #charlie cox #ethan hawke #moby dick 2011 #moby dick #herman melville #baby charlie #screencaps

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Persona 3 Manga color: April 6th pt 1

Pt 2, and Next date. 

(Ugh, finally got the first 10 pages colored. *sobs* I even went back and did Yukari’s panel and didn’t go my lazy route I had. All the color pallets and schemes are based off the game, rather with polys or the animated cutscenes. In this case the latter. I’ll be posting them in chronological order rather than volume order 8U I’ll be posting by date and 10 pages at a time, so if I date has only two pages....then after those two pages are done I’ll post those two pages. 8U)

#persona 3 #p3 #persona 3 manga #minato arisato #makoto yuki #persona 3 manga colored #i know it's minato i'm taking makoto because more people probably follow that name for P3MC #i hate the dark hour i hate the dark hour i hate the dark hour i hate the dark hour TT0TT #it's such a pain to color in #I HATE BACKGROUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #let me rest T_T #i've done 11 pages so far so I have 6 pages to go for this date #edit: fun fact the pink and blue on the first page are a reference to minato and hamuko (hamu's UI color being pink) #the yellow is the dark hour moon (but you can think of it as Aigis too) #just wanted people to know that shade of pink is what I got from Hamu's UI (Yukari's pink is a diff color and it came from her shirt) #i just wanted to celebrate hamu where I can! TT0TT #yukari takeba #pharos #pharos (p3) #pharos (persona 3) #silly colors

[salsflore]

i just got out of school;;; goodness

#had an awful day T_T received my test results and whatever then then then in class i got hit with a fucking basketball it was so painful- #-on the back too???? how awful like #none of my friends cared that i was tearing up or literally spilling tears theyd just kept on laughing and its like. #so i excused myself went to the bathroom cried in a stall thats so humiliating i'm #⠀mika’s chatroom !⠀ #cw vent

[someoneoffthestreet]

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#I don't wanna go to the dentist but my teeth hurt so terribly T_T #I'm so sad #and in pain

[noxtivagus]

i will do a lot this 2023 >:3

#🌙.rambles #gna be a lot kinder to myself it's alright to take things at my own pace #i'm really hoping i'll be able to improve n strengthen the bonds i have now n make new ones too >< #ffxiv.. i wld like to develop our fc more. make new friends hopefully find some my age too. #i'm an fc leader now aaaa it's nearly been like a month but i've been busy !! #i will wholeheartedly do my best to live up to the responsibility. i rlly want to grow our fc to be a comfy close knit home for my ffxiv #friends. which is. atm rn just me n apollo on our server T_T BUT ONE DAY #n then static i wld love to raid. i want to help my friends get into raiding 🥺 so there's like 3 of us in our not-yet-established static #which means 5 more. regardless i do hope i'll clear another ultimate this year (ucob?) n raid pandaemonium savage again #n then finish both nier games n ccr n other games too. watch more stuff too hopefully #my sleep's been mostly fixed so i'm going to make a nee start this year #not gna dwell on my regrets to the best i can but i'll be kind to myself if i can't help it. nothing to gain by being too harsh on myself #this year's gna be hard w responsibilities irl w school n all n i am honestly very anxious #i've repressed it a bit w the break ;;;; but i'll face it as i always have. #i will study hard! i can't erase or rewind the past but i can do better moving onwards #these memories i can't return too may hurt yes n there'll be many times where it'll burden me n. i know i'll have many hard moments this yr #but i know i'll make it through n keep on going. pain and disappointment in some way will always be inevitable #but i'm more than my despair & i know i won't be alone on this path ahead of me. never have been entirely n never will be n i'll do my best #to remember n hold unto that!!!! #that said my social energy is still very inconsistent i apologize for that n i honestly don't know what to do regarding that but #i'll find a way as i always do. even if it doesn't quite have the 'best' outcome or wtvr i'll be kind to myself #even if things don't go as i dreamed like. idk the things i wrote to myself months ago.. that's alright #i believe in myself. #i'm rambling rn wait why am i so sleepy T_T #i am very used to being alone by just myself n apollo n my family whom i love very much so i may be really reserved w my friends #i barrly reach out n my social energy is typically inconsistent bcs of uhh old friendships that fucked up too but #i. god i cld just ramble abt this more n more but i think i'll be reaching cap for tags soon #that said though i'm really so grateful. for all the memories last yr. all the ppl in it; old friends n new. each moment each word #all of it. i write so much more than you'll ever know n.. even so i really don't think i can write enough to convey the depth of all the #love i have for like yk my family my friends n everything so dear to me in life :<< tyvm for 2022 genuinely yes

[june-again]

Fellow pianists? (I am a former pianist but I yearn to play again these days)

AYOOOO YEEEEAHHHHH. piano>>

what made you stop playing?

#i stopped taking lessons during covid but i'm back on it bro #studying for practical & theory exams this summer (RCM 8) #T_T #i love it but it's also #so painful on the days where i feel like i can't play #YOU KNOW THOSE DAYS WHERE THE PIANO ISNT PIANOING #no but it's fine i still enjoy it !! #were you classically trained ??? #how many years did you play? #TELL ME EVERYTHING #june's asks #haylo4ever's input

[tarraxahum-ish]

y'all ever love certain songs and the artist's manner of performing them so much that you just want to fucking disintegrate to atoms in the sound and the emotions of it all

#can you tell i've been to a concert yesterday and i'm still not okay #spent 25 years being very normal about music until a certain artist made me lose my mind for a year straight and going #*still going i mean #where's that post 'knowing everything about my hyperfixation isn't enough i must eat it' #that level of intensity #it's almost painful #AND I HAVE NO ONE WHO COULD RELATE IN THE SLIGHTEST T_T #and I am NOT talking to the general fanbase they are all either completely normal about it or get borderline creepy and that's Not It

[paladincecil]

Want to continue packing but don't have any more boxes and nowhere within walking distance has any :/

Also we found out the boiler has some kind of fault. Landlord is calling in favours to get it looked at on Saturday but if it needs parts ordering that's gonna mess things up for moving on Monday

#I don't wanna pay £25 for 15 boxes on amazon that I'll only need like 3 or 4 of at most T_T #I packed my gloves like an idiot so my hands were freezing while I was out looking for boxes -_- #I'm gonna pack up my consoles in their original boxes tomorrow #and I was gonna get going on the kitchen but without boxes I have nothing to really put them in #and I just remembered I'll need something to keep my plates safe during the move #Packing up my whole life in like a week by myself is stressful :) #I'll have help loading and unloading the van thankfully #but the actual packing has been such a pain in the butt

[pinceauarcenciel]

Recently received my copy of @wishing-for-a-good-ending​ zine! The zine itself is so big ✨

I’ve realized that I’m now able to recognize way more of the featured isekai-heroines than since the beginning of the project! Not all of them yet but I surely will someday uwu

#Fanzine #zine delivered! #I'm in!! #master skills of blurry pic (tm) #sad I couldn't order more of the merchs #they were all so pretty T_T #but customs were already a pain like that

[raplinesmoon]

coming to you soon (i hope)

#ngl this fic has been a pain in the ass bc i want it to be perfect #and it's so hard T_T #and I'm sick and feel like my writing sucks #but by some miracle this will reach you all before the end of the month #and Frankenstein Joon shall liveeeee #ok goodnight #isi rambles

[rebellionmoon]

i kind of have a crush on my physical therapist, we get along so good in my head.

#this is why psyche is delusional #she gets it from me lmao #sadly he doesn't know why i have facial pain....and says that everytime i tell him i have a flare up because dude that's why i'm here T_T #in that respect my crush is dead i just hope he can make my pain go away #my post