#but at this moment I am a bit too tired

[max1461]

@str-ngeloop

Your ask gives me various things to contemplate, although I haven't read the whole thing yet. So thank you for all your thoughts! I will read the rest and think about it and then respond.

#but at this moment I am a bit too tired #but #thanks!

[ebonytails]

Hey everyone! this is where the zebra is currently with the design.

It has knee braces!! I will most probably be drawing the zebra usually with them on, but it’s no requirement, for example if anyone else wants to draw the zebra :-]. I always like to make sure an animal design has official colors underneath any clothing and accessory anyway. I think this will be final! thank you everyone for your feedback!

As a reminder, aside from why the zebra was requested for this flag, this is also just a zebra with the disability pride flag on it. It’s just a deisgn to fit the flag, with input from other disabled people in our community. It doesn’t mean other animals can’t have designs with these colors, too! I don’t mean this design to be the only mascot for all disabled people. It’s just a silly series i do of pride animals, and at the time, during disability pride month, I wanted to see what everyone wanted me to start off with for this flag!

the goal with my pride animals is to take requests and make people feel happy and seen.. that’s all <:-)

#disability pride #pride animals #disability #disability pride flag #zebras #I’ve been a little stressed about this animal for the past week.. I will be honest with you #The zebra has many stripes and I wanted to try my best to make sure it wouldn’t cause issues like headaches or other things #also.. if]ve been working on this for a while now.. i want to call it done soon! #But now that this is finished #I will start designing stickers and pins to put on redbubble and also for me to print IRL! #thank you everyone! I’ve also learned more than whatbI already knew this week #Even if it was stressful it was fun to see everyone get so excited when I would show updates to the designs #Sorry for a long speech.. I am a very nervous person today #Excuse my typos! I’m a fast typer and tired from the day #ebonytailsart #Thank you yomcloud for giving me your feedback as well. I don’t have a lot of perspective on visual processing disorders and photensitivity #so it meant a lot to me #just like the other pride animals I am very open to making more animal designs for this flag! But I’d like to save it for the future instea #It’s a bit too soon at the moment. thank youuu

[sivvan]

@userdramas​ event 01: (one of my) favourite kdrama[s] + favourite kpop group

↳ seventeen (hug) + if you wish upon me

#userdramas #kdramaedit #kdramanetwork #asiandramasource #mine #if you wish upon me #roserayne #i am not sure how i feel about this set tbh #i tried for those first and third gifs i swear #seeing everyone's entries made me go 'hmm do i want to try blending' #and then i realised no i'm sticking with what i know because i know i'll spend way too long on it and it'll come out trash anyways #sjfnhkjd i need to Study blending first #i didn't get to include some of the great moments or the happier moments lmao #but man hug just FITS #my choice of scenes......i don't 100% agree with lmao but i got tired of Thinking sljfdjslf #i think from the 6th gif down i love it but the rest is a bit like ehhhhhhh but ANYWAYS #stream hug by seventeen while watching if you wish upon me if you want to cry yourself to sleep #ALSO i was freaking out thinking tumblr dimensions changed bc the text was looking blurry #and eventually (today) i realised it was bc my browser was zoomed in

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[keeperthemultiversemom]

How are you doing today?

"My, I am doing rather fine lately ! A fair amount of beings and viewers have been in need of comfort that I am more than happy to provide, but otherwise it has been pretty calm in my domaine; for some reasons things seemed to have settled down... Although I did hear that the Archives have become busier lately. I am glad, to be honnest."

*Keeper pauses, thinking*

"I think things might be 'moving' soon. If my experience is anything to learn from, great periods of calm always end with something big happening."

#welcome home au #welcome home #whmultiverse #keeper poppy au #multiverse mom #ask peacekeeper poppy #ask blog #poppy partridge #welcomehome #poppy welcome home #Keeper wisdom moment ? #it's not really lore related #more about how she feels about the current moment #of course times are very rocky lately with all that's happening in the world (and fandom in a smaller case) #but it's hard to translated it that much in the story nor is it really necessary too #i am a bit tired lately and struggle to find motivation to draw Keeper ( Stitcher is fine cause she's easier to draw) #but I still want Keeper's space and blog to feel like a safe space for people's mind if that makes sense #ramble in tags #don't mind me and my thoughts haha #i hope your day is going great too

[girlcrushau]

#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/ #but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to. #until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you) #and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text. #i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in. #just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me. #im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest. #and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

[raitrolling]

my brain is still percolating the forensic pathologist/cosplayer idea...

tho i had an idea for the way they look and i was like. hm what if they had a kinda messyish fringe with long strands on the sides and one of those tiny fluffy high ponytails. maybe they should wear a long white coat as well- goddammit fuck thats just glasya again. shit.

#ooc #i was thinking of that Tired Lady Scientist archetype. she loves her job and is probs a bit of a freak about it. but those hours are Long #and im leaning towards her being either a transwoman or genderfluid. mostly she/her but has the occasional they/them moment #also. giant fuckoff centipede lusus. kinda wanna give her some sort of Fuckass Bug Shit too but idk what #tho i dont wanna think abt this design too much because god i do Not have the time to draw talksprites and make profiles and shit #thats too much work. and vallis' updated profile STILL isnt finished yet. its been a wip for well over a year by now #and also all my relationships sections on my profiles are outdated. i am sisyphus and oc profiles is my rock #anyway i should. probs get outta bed and eat breakfast and shit. its 1pm and i have art to work on today #tho by 'art' i mean 'tracing over pics of cars to use as thumbnails in the screenshots that are gonna accompany the next D2S drabble' #because who am i if im not making fake twitter and reddit posts for my famous trolls

[jorvikzelda]

me to one of my friends: yeah i told my two main professors atm about my migraines because it felt important that they knew, and they were both really understanding and apparently both had migraines in the past!

her: wow yea thats so nice!

me: yea :)

her: so nice to know it can get better!

me, before processing: yea it really is nice that theyre so understanding and willing to accommodate me!

me, now having processed: wait what

#i am So in the moment that i dont even really consider things like. long term #which i think is a fair outlook right now. but my friend does also have a really good point #however. it is also So painfully obviously the perspective of someone whos never faced chronic illness #very kind and I like her very much. But also #Person who goes 😟😟😟😟😟😟 when youre casually like yeah ive been tired for five years and have a headache 24/7 #She was like. I have a headache when I’m doing REALLY BADLY and even then it’s just like a little bit #And I was like. ??????? That’s the normal?? #And then ofc i remember my life before i got migraines and its like. Yeah #I’m a weird one I got those late onset migraines #didnt have them before high school really #Which checks out because theyre REALLY energy related and thats when i started sleeping too little and doing too much #and then theyve only gotten progressively worse! #anyway. i shoud Eep #z talks

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit

[mashmouths]

is it an adhd thing to need to reinvent the concept of a study space so you have any chance of actually studying or just a facet of being alive that no one warned me about

#like 2/3 of the battle of successfully being 'productive' is just finding out what will work for me in this moment as opposed to what worked #not even 30 minutes ago let alone yesterday. whether or not i can handle music and the type of music and the volume are all determined by #whims outside of my comprehension and i am. so tired. i can't work in a space that's too familiar unless i can except i can't. i can't work #in a space that's too unfamiliar unless i can except i can't. i can't work in a space with noise or without noise unless i can except i #can't. are we seeing the pattern here :( how has anyone alive ever established a routine ever when trying to parse my stupid needs hour by #hour is like pulling teeth every time. every bit of analysis and like reflection is a Task and i already can't handle tasks very well And i #takes up brain power and like. bits of my attention span that i desperately need to shore up to get anything actually? done? once i'm #settled? but i can't settle if it's not the right set up but i have to minutely tweak the set up until it's right but it so rarely is. #sorry to be like mopey on the dash i have papers and finals due and then actual finals week and i've been waiting on my period for a week : #what if things were. easier. hot take i know. and yes this is (hopefully) the last time i'll have to do finals unmedicated but ohhhhhhhhh m #god is this round determined to make it hurt as much as it possibly can to make up for it. a sigh and a sob etc etc #a post

[cutearose]

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#having a bit of a breakdown bc i keep fucking everything up bc of how bad my mental heath is rn #and im so tired of feeling like this useless burden #i keep fucking up in the exact same ways and its expensive and frustrating and stressful #and it sucks to be losing my mind over these mistakes while also just aggressively not wanting to be alive #like what does it matter if my bike is dead bc i ruined it and now cant go to my friends wedding? what does anything even matter? #being alive is too fucking hard #and i am very alone and dont want to burden anyone w my mental health anyway #but i am just. completely falling apart at the moment #and im so fucking tired all the time #hhhhhHHHHHH #struggling here pals. #post

[breninarthur]

you ever settle in for some nice fic reading and end up reading the most harrowing shit of your life

#LISTEN i am all for letting fic writers do whatever #which is why i'm complaining here and not commenting or anything anywhere they might see #and you know i love a bit of angst i do #but 110k words of angst for the sake of angst 😭 #by the time i was halfway through i was in too deep before realising oh this is just forced misery #light moments of happiness and what i felt was foreshadowing to moments that didnt happen #just every time something was okay or good SOMETHING had to happen 😭 #like gooood there was a suicide attempt in the PENULTIMATE CHAPTER #i spent 24 hours on this and now i'm tired and sad #op

[marsixm]

i guess the answer is youre not “supposed” to have bad emotions. if you do thats your fault. even if you dont want them and cant control their existence. even if you dont act on them. even if you actively dont act on them. if you cant either be normal or pretend to be normal convincingly, you get shafted

#even just discussing this in retrospect to work thru my feelings i feel like i am doing something wrong #over a stupid social interaction #whatever i am working thru it im getting thru it #ig this is also a good reminder to make sure im not accidentally doing this to other people too and making them feel boxed in emotionally #or also to remember that things can be shitty and tense for a bit but if everyone involved has good intentions itll be okay #my fear being that im always gonna make things tense and shitty enough times people will get tired #but something that does help is remembering those moments where i have good intentions and put my foot in my mouth #people around me who like and care about me also often have good intentions and just. say dumb shitty stuff #i do too! i dont mean to but i do #and itll be okay #not everyone treats every little problem like some horrible thing to lord over your fucking head forever

[piplupod]

i love having multiple creative hobbies but man is it frustrating when i cannot decide what to do fjdsfjkl, i want to needlefelt but i also want to draw but i also want to crochet right now and i'm stuck because i can't decide on what to do

#one helpful way of deciding is figuring out where my body is at in terms of capabilities esp my hands #crochet and needlefelt are hard to do when my fingers are cooperating and needlefelt also needs arms to cooperate #and then drawing is hard when my hands or body are shaking #so that helps to narrow it down a bit fdjskl #i think drawing or crochet will be most doable rn bc i can't sit up well at a table for needlefelt at the moment fdsjkl #crochet might be best bc i dont have to think too hard and i am very tired rn fsdjkl #also i want to get these shell plates done before the five day vacation that we'll be going on in ten days #so that i can bring one less yarn ball fsdjkl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[mayulli]

Time to rest. I am having a moment...

#i am fine just feeling a bit down right now #a little tired #over thinking too much #burn out #need to hide from social media for a moment #give me like 3 days or 4- #i will okay then #mayu vent

[heyclickadee]

I’m extremely lucky to be able to work from home for a company that lets me work at pretty much any time of day, and I still feel like I need a solid month off of work to have the energy to consistently do anything besides work right now.

Edit: To be fair, I think having been very recently (in the past week or so) removed from a very bad situation at work that I’d been sort of fixated on for the past year (it wasn’t actually that bad but it was affecting me badly, it was all I could think about, and I’d get so paralyzed about it that I couldn’t work and then would have to put in more time to make up for it until I finally exploded a month ago and talked to someone about it) is definitely going to help.

#I’ll get spurts of energy and I’ll write or draw a bit #and actually cook something #all of which are things I like! #and I like my job! #I like it even better now that I’ve switched teams which is absolutely going to help. #but I am very tired #and very bad at differentiating between work time and life time #which doesn’t help #so I can’t really sustain it for very long #at the moment #honestly the doing normal people things suffers too #so here’s to hoping the change at work helps