#but hey don’t mind me what do I know

[theodore-sallis]

“Several Meaningless Deaths Part 1”, Monsters Unleashed (Vol. 1/1973), #8.

Writer: Steve Gerber; Penciler: Pat Broderick; Al Milgrom

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Monsters Unleashed #Monsters Unleashed vol. 1 #Monsters Unleashed 1973 #cover gallery #Frankenstein’s Monster #jumpscare reminder that Marvel has Frankenstein’s Monster in their comics and barely uses that nowadays #(except in the Ultimate Spider-Man and Hulk and the Agents of SMASH cartoons but I digress) #but ah yes…the classic horror pulp comic cover with a damsel in distress #and it sure does set the tone for the Man-Thing story included in this issue and the next #it’s the only story in text in this issue as opposed to being in comic format and probably for good reason because it’s pretty…lurid #with enough fridging and violence against women (in various capacities) to have me side-eyeing Gerber a bit tbh #it is for sure intended to be a horror comic and the story’s title pretty much spoils how it ends #while there are some moments I personally enjoyed…it’s definitely overshadowed a bit by what I feel like a desire to shock #overtaking storytelling #but hey don’t mind me what do I know #I’m just some person on the internet after all

[theoryofwhatnow]

please stop asking me what the ending to Like Minds means. i don’t know 😭 i just work here

#i’ve got some pretty theories and overwhelmed tears for ya. but that’s all you’re getting out of me #this post is mainly about people on other social medias #not here #you guys seem to have a pretty good grasp on what you’re doing #nothing is scarier than getting a dm and the message preview says ‘hey i watched that film and was wondering if you could explain-‘ #NOOO I CANNOT #i don’t even know what the fuck is going on please leave me to die in peace #like minds #nigel colbie #murderous intent #alex forbes #like minds 2006 #murderous intent movie #tom sturridge #eddie redmayne

[absolutely-not-my-main-blog]

I sincerely think if Dennis Reynolds and Jeff Winger were to makeout, it would benefit them both immensely, in fact, it’d be good for their health

#jeff winger #dennis reynolds #wait wait okay they run into each other because Jeff’s a student and Dennis is out looking for his usual college girl type he’s so set on #but like they both come to the realization that’s not what they want anymore/never what they wanted or what will make them happy #because they see reflections of themselves in each other #and after having a wild whirlwind affair or one night stand they part ways each changed by the experience #and Dennis comes home and tells Mac how he feels #and Jeff tentatively accepts the dean’s invite to a dinner or something #text #anmmbposts #and also the next time the gang needs a lawyer Dennis is like I know a guy so they don’t have to use uncle jack anymore #and Jeff takes The Lawyer completely off guard and absolutely destroys him #and Charlie gets to excitedly talk with him about bird law to which Jeff either tells him hey greendale actually has a class on that #or hey you could teach a class on that at greendale #ignore me writing my silly crossover fanfic in the tags I’m at work and the thoughts are suddenly vibing #and they become like amicable sorta exes and if they ever meet each other’s friends do you think Mac and Shirley would bond over religion? #do you think Britta and Dee would get along? #I think Charlie might have fun playing games or building forts with troy and abed they could play night crawlers together #help me my mind keeps going

[sailforvalinor]

Val Is Pretty Sure She Might Be Losing Her Mind, more at 11

#okay so y’all. do you happen to remember Alcott Boy? the guy I had a crush on from school last year (or really the whole time I’ve been in #college honestly) who had Opinions on Little Women #yeah him. anyway I thought I was over my crush on him but GUESS WHAT it’s back and worse than ever #like I only have one class with him that’s once a week but guys guys I feel like I’m LOSING MY MIND like. I’ve never felt the urge to #actually go up to a guy and say ‘hey do you wanna go out with me?’!! like I would never actually do that but the urge is most definitely #there??? and it’s not even that he’s cute (although I mean I think he’s cute) but he’s really really intelligent and funny and very notably #always willing to bring up his faith in class discussions (and this isn’t really the campus for that) and I’ve always admired him for that #(this is also the boy that looked at something I wrote in fiction class and said ‘that’s it that’s what love is supposed to be like!!’ LIKE #) and I genuinely don’t know what to do #like should I be concerned that I feel this strongly so soon after The Boy?? should I be concerned that this might just be limerance??? #my roommate has been offering to talk to him for me and ask if he’s single and is it insane that I’m actually considering it??? #like if I’m going to now is the ideal time—I’ve already had my class with him this week and spring break is next week #and I’m certain he would never make me feel bad if he didn’t feel the same. but if he did wouldn’t he have said something by now? I don’t #know I don’t know I don’t knooowww #but I graduate in two months and I don’t want to regret it for the rest of my life

[wholesomepostarchive]

the most wholesome thing is seeing that the wholesome post blog runner is probably one of the nicest people ever :3 i’m generally Terrified of sending asks especially to a blog that Does Things like this but seeing you talk in the tags instead of just reblogging and moving on makes you seem very friendly and approachable !!!! and i hope u know i appreciate that :] i hope you have a wonderful day and both sides of your pillow are always cool and that if you see a random cat on the sidewalk it won’t run away from U ♡

woah, META-WHOLESOME!! thank ya for the compliment, i try my best to carry out those kinds of traits i value!!!!! i’m SUPER super glad that ya did!!! THANK YOU THANK U!! always appreciating how much of an impact this lil blog has on top of appreciating u for sharing as much with me :-)

it’s always a TRIP getting to hear that something i do that i wasn’t even really mindfully doing makes all the difference?? i’m just really, REALLY grateful for all the different kinds of posts that get sent my way and seeing cool + uplifting + sentimental + OVERALL WHOLESOME posts that i express my thanks + ramble a bit in the tags haha !!

i ALSO hope you have as terrific of a day as you’re able to! and i hope you’ll enjoy seeing more posts pop up!

AND YOU’LL NEVER BELIEVE but i got new pillow cases like a week ago THAT DO JUST THAT! AND THERE’S A NEW CAT ON THE STREET WHO HANGS OUT WITH ME SOMETIMES (i’ve been planning to see if he has a microchip, but i know for a fact that the neighbors who feed all the stray cats on our street already have a cage + are well-versed in TNR, so i’ve been thinking about asking them first because the thought that someone could be out there looking for their pal is enough for me to “do it scared”) !! SO THANK U NOT ONLY FOR THE SWEET SENTIMENTS BUT ALSO FOR THE UNEXPECTED HILARITY OVER THE FACT THAT THEY’VE COME TRUE???

#and i get it!! running a gimmick blog (as i’ve heard it be described) is v v different from the other blogs i’ve got going!! #ik i’ve said it in the past but i genuinely think what makes for the lack of ambiance is the fact that i didn’t really? start this blog out #as a gimmick blog in mind?? it was kind of just for me to ‘archive’ Solidly Wholesome posts in one place #by the dates i saw/read through them + let them flow over me. because there’s already a timestamp ya know? #but the Vision was that i’d go through this blog + see that a year ago on a particular day was Important #which is still something i do when i have the the time BUT now i ALSO get sent wholesome posts!!! which WOAH #became a collective effort whether you’ve mentioned me in one post or climbing up to the triple digits now haha!!! i appreciate them all #TRULY :-) #and i’ll also admit that i don’t really remember if i kept the ask + submission channels open because i thought ‘hey maybe i’ll get one #or two someday from someone?’ or if i kinda forgot to close ‘em because i think i only block Anonymous automatically for all the blogs #i’ve got?? THAT will probs be a mystery for a long time to come if not forever BUT am glad it’s all worked out in ways i never saw coming!! #also APOLOGIES FOR NOT ONLY RAMBLING IN THE TAGS BUT THE ASK!! #Apple Pie is defs a priority for me rn and i’ve done some research + talked to my neighbors about TNR being the best bet in our area #last we spoke anyhow which was some time ago #also my parents apparently got into taking stray cats to a TNR program a few cities over so i’ll ask ‘em too probably??? #BUT FIRST THING’S FIRST: checking for a microchip #10/13/2023 #asks #wholesomepostarchive

[cynicalmusings]

‘the most crucial skill that a good drinksmith needs is listening… drinksmithing is all about having conversations with your guests’

tea house owner!reader energy for real

#my mind shot straight there when siobhan said this in the hsr event #hey guys #what if i just steal the concept of the event and write a continuation? #the reader does spy on people and accept bribes for jobs blah blah blah #but they also offer free therapy over tea! #(but only if they like the person if course) (everyone else is getting eavesdropped on) #…i started writing this as a joke but hey it could be fun #if i ever write a continuation of that fic i might do something like that #high cloud quintet members coming for therapy after baiheng dies #reader helping couples talk through problems in their relationship calmly #i’m a sucker for characters who are very elusive and sneaky and cold but when it comes to it have a heart of gold #‘yes i will expose your enemy’s business blah blah but hang on let me help this lost child find their parents first’ #‘oh you’re not being patient? you think your rivalry is more important than this child? actually you can keep the money and leave thank you #[turning to child] ‘now tell me where you last saw your parents’ #and with their connections from the various dealings they’ve had around the xianzhou they’d be really good at dealing with these situations #and with regards to the jing yuan aspect of things i firmly believe he needs somebody with kindness and warmth in them to fall for them #reader can’t all be bribery and dodgy deals #imagining him coming to the shop one day to get some information they’ve gathered or whatever #and they’re like ‘shush not now i’m hearing this girl vent about her shit partner’ #or doing something nice #and he falls even harder #sorry i have gone on an absolute tangent here #i don’t know what demon possessed me #maybe i will write a part two who knows #that reader would certainly be a fun one to flesh out #r’s random thoughts

[r0semultiverse]

I’m not sure why some people feel pressured to act any different when someone popular follows them? Literally couldn’t be me. Like for a moment I’m in awe of like oh this popular person followed me, neat! Goes away very quickly though. My brain just moves on like oh okay guess this is part of my online experience now, gives you a little wave, & goes back into my digital apartment to go about my day.

#anyone else find it silly to change your behavior just because someone popular or multiple popular people follow you? #just kinda feels like too much self micromanaging to me which I already do plenty outside of online spaces lmao #I’m here to escape that kind of thing you know? end of the day I post for me & me alone #if you like it then SUBSCRIBE (jkjk) no but if you like it then you like it; if you don’t then you don’t; i don’t care #to those who are aboard this train welcome aboard to those getting off have a safe trip- hey wait what are you doing with your hand #that wasn’t what I- ah never mind #mine #op

[the-bisexual-a-genda]

Feeling deeply tired of my family hours.

#it’s ok #I’m so tired #why don’t you have to watch what you say #no we don’t have to be told to watch what we say #because we have a fucking filter #and we notice people are getting upset before they yell or cry #or at least I fucking do #there’s so much I don’t do and say to not upset you #and I can never tell you because guess what you’ll get upset #everything I do is for this fucking family the only reason don’t kill myself is for your feelings #and you think you’re catering to me #I can’t tell you how I really feel because every time I do you make me feel worse #I never minded no one noticing how hard I try #that was always the point quiet little things to help things go smoother #a mediator a listener #that’s me that’s Klaryssa she just does that she likes it #and I do #I love helps I really do #but I also do it because sometimes it feels like no one else will #mom cleans what no one notices #I say let’s look at this from eachothers point of view #I go hey is that really the best way to say that #I’ve been cleaning up emotional messes for yeaaasrs #and you you go why is it on me to consider your feelings #because that’s what people do #I’m asking you to change your phrasing because it hurts #and you don’t understand why you don’t understand why #you just want to know why #I’ve been trying to explain for years #why is it my fault you still don’t understand

[void-tiger]

Disability, cptsd, and adhd really has turned me into…egh. A planner. Not because I want to be. But because I either need to figure things out well ahead or I forget or avoid them, or because I can’t set them down mentally.

#tiger’s roar #…FUCK me for needing to lay down a few ground rules to stop obsessing Because Adhd Because Anxiety #because GUESS WHAT #my tendons aren’t stable. I KNOW one environment gets me disregulated so NO I DON’T want to only say ‘hi’ there #things WILL be busy. and it’s easier to go ‘hey does x day/time work’ WHEN RELEVANT #I DON’T trust serendipity. AT ALL. ZERO trust in chance. it gets me burned #and YEAH I DO have to plan That Much in Near Advance YES As Hypothericals #because I’m bloody disabled and I’ve been stressed about this for TWO YEARS ‘cause of a condition that just seems to be getting WORSE #and yeah it does affect. EVERYTHING. hobbies. classes. employment. self transportation. socializing. walking. HELL even singing #soooo Y E A H I D O need this laid out. as ‘just friends’ #before things get chaotic. and it IS on my mind ‘cause know what? #I’m terrified I won’t be able to work out student aid and lodging and class schedule at all!! #so. yeah. just mentioning ‘hey so if/when’ to a friend…should…have been fine. #but no. apparently I bumped a sore spot. while trying to AVOID it while For Once speaking up about a general need that. y’know. #would affect that. anyway. I won’t bother again. #maybe that’s finally the last nail for me to just. MOVE ON.

[daincrediblegg]

Tonight might end with me drawing crozier’s hog for my mental health. But I’ve made peace with that and myself and so should you

#demons posessing me after my bio exam and I have to finish my video project tomorrow but it’s fine its ok #losing my mind and breaking up and I absolutely need to work on this edit now bc turns out I can’t do the edit I’d originally wanted to do #and now I feel all fucked up but hey it’s fine it’s ok we move #gonna have to purchase premiere pro tho bc I don’t wanna fucking work in the lab lmao #so you know what I deserve my own little treat of penis thanks

[archersgaymerblog]

Morrowind moments I desperately want to hyperanalyze but feel like I don’t have the language to do so: When the Nerevarine asks Vivec if they remember being mortal, and they say “For me — there is no more feeling. Only knowing.” And then a literal written [Pause] before Vivec says they do want to win though, not for their people, but because “To lose would be very, very bitter.” And how those two paragraphs alone shaped Vivec’s character for me more than anything else they said or did during that confrontation, as I felt it was one of the few moments we saw Vivec being completely, brutally, honest.

#my dumb textposts #LONG TAGS #coupled with the fact that right after you ask them how they feel about their people #and suddenly go on to say they love their people after literally JUST saying they no longer have the capacity to care for them #Vivec is a walking bundle of contradiction and is one of the most compelling and interesting characters in TES imo. voryn is also Up There #how the two of them counteract each other during the nerevarine’s story is also very compelling to me #Vivec describes dagoth ur as a deceiver and manipulator who will seek to deceive the nerevarine. however by all accounts- #-dagoth ur is TERRIFYINGLY honest towards the nerevarine. he gives what I believe is the most accurate rendition of the events that- #occurred on red mountain after the war. Vivec on the other hand carries themself as only incredibly honest and truthful - #- even going so far as to claim they eradicated the idea of the contradiction in their sermons. but Vivec just IS a contradiction.- #-their godhood (and the godhood of the other tribunal) is built on the foundation of a lie that they desperately tried to suppress as- #-they grew weaker in power. they claim to be honest but lie to your face. in their most honest rendition of the events of red mountain they- #-don’t even MENTION nerevar’s passing (the written account taken from their library). it’s just implied that Nerevar died and they don’t- #-touch on HOW it happened. and in my mind I read that as like. they know what happened. but this is an honest retelling. but they couldn’t- #-tell the truth but they wouldn’t outright lie either. so they just didn’t mention nerevar’s death at /all./ #idk where I’m going with the tags just. Vivec is so gd interesting. in all their complexities and super moral grayness. #and hey - I recognize others might not see the events the same. Morrowind is a game of unreliable narrators!! it’s about piecing- #-the story together in a way that gives you and your character the most closure. there’s no hard truth or right answer. #there isn’t a bug evil dragon labeled the Most Evilest Dragon for you to defeat. it’s a story where even after finishing it… there’s a- #-sense of like. did you really do what was best? is this land that is now your responsibility going to prosper from your actions? #and honest to god the fact that Skyrim comes in and says ‘It doesn’t.’ is fucking RIVETING. YOU WERE A DAEDRA PLOY THE WHOLE TIME!! #AZURA DIDNT CARE SHE JUST WANTED REVENGE. AND NOW YOU LIVE WITH THAT FOREVER BECAUSE OF THE CORPRUS THAT YOU WERE DESTINED BY HER TO GET. #FUCKING STELLAR WRITING I LOVE MORROWIND #I HAVE TO GET TO SLEEP I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW. ITS JUST ONE CLASS BUT ITS EARLY SO

[mrs-kelly]

It’s like 2am and I just woke up from a Charlie dream but once again things can never be easy for us in my dreams 🥺❤️

Charlie and I were together and visiting my family and he got up to go take a shower. And while he was gone, freaking JAMES showed up. And my mom’s like ‘He looks like the guy from lost’ and I’m like ‘ yeah. Looks like’ ASJJLL And James says, ‘Look, I’m not gonna beg ya. But for the time we had together… is there ever a chance you could love me again?’ And I thought for a second and told him yes. And he started to walk away, looking really self-satisfied, and I realized. No. I don’t want anyone but Charlie. I don’t. It doesn’t matter who they are. Or how good things were between us. I only want Charlie.

So I chased after him, asking him to wait, and I said, ‘My answer is actually no.’ And he looked really angry and asked me to repeat myself. So I said, ‘No, I won’t ever love you again. I’m only with Charlie now, for the rest of my life. He’s the love of my life, and I’m never gonna love anyone else.’

So he stormed off in the middle of me saying that Charlie is the only one I’m gonna be with forever. And I started discussing it with my family for awhile. And after it’d been a good while, I realized Charlie had been in the shower for a long time. So I asked my sibling to knock on the door and check on him. But he didn’t answer. So I panicked and ran up and knocked too. Still no answer.

And I started to call out for him, but nothing. So I opened the door and he was like. Passed out with his head in a puddle of water :( so James had tried to kill him!!!! Which is the second time I’ve dreamed he got jealous of an f/o and tried to kill them!! Oh my God!!

So I lugged Charlie out of the water and started to perform CPR on him. And. He woke up 🥺 thank God… I remember panicking and my hands shaking as I gave him chest compressions and seeing him open his eyes and cough and I was just feeling!! So relieved!! Seeing the life in his eyes… God I was so happy. And the first thing he did was joke that it was a good thing I knew CPR because we couldn’t afford to take an ambulance ADGHJKL this guy.

I wanted to take him to a hospital but James was still on the property and apparently he had friends with him. Charlie said it was a group of guys that ganged up on him. So we all started to find weapons we could use to protect ourselves and fight these people. And I was in the middle of fighting them when I woke up because the stress of saving Charlie’s life was getting to be too much to hold onto adfhjkl

And now I’m like. Lying awake at 2am happy to have had a Charlie dream but annoyed that James interrupted it. And like. So violently too. I’m legit mad at him now afgjkll like this is the second time he’s hurt someone because I picked them over him and it’s just really weird that he just. Showed up and made me choose. Idk it’s probably bc I already had another dream with James in it a couple days ago. But it was that I saw him on the TV so. Idk.

But yeah that dream was horrifying adfhjkl

#drowning tw #ask to tag #ren’s dream journal #renlie #I just don’t know why James in particular is so violent in my dreams afghkk #I mean I guess he. He is kinda violent in the show sfghkkl #so it’s not inaccurate #but I’m still like. hey. HEY. don’t you fuckin hurt Charlie what the hell #I’m like. furious with him now #I mean it felt cathartic to literally look another f/o in the eye and say ‘it’s only Charlie from now on’ #but James is the scariest one it could’ve been bc he already stabbed Fox in that other dream #and I remembered that while I was saying it #luckily I was able to save Charlie 🥺 #technically irl idk how to do CPR yet but as required in my class I’m going to take a class on basic life support #so I will know #and even more than ever I wanna know now ahfjfl not that I’ll ever need to use it on Charlie but that shit’s just good to know #sighs. proud of myself for chasing after James and telling him I changed my mind tho. that was a scary moment #rejecting somebody that I still care for. somebody I don’t wanna hurt. oof #but it’s true. I don’t wanna be with anyone but Charlie you know #and what felt rly good to say 🥺 that he’s it for me from now on 🥺❤️

[pinkfey]

messed up at work again bc no one left me instructions. feel like ending it all 😩

#helpppp why would she not leave instructions for something so important!! and i need to do it again three more times!! i’m stressed!! #for context the librarian i’m subbing for like. didn’t tell me i have to walk to two classes to read to special ed kids #it’s not even written on the schedule #so the teacher called me like hey where are you please bring a book #and when i showed up that’s when the paras said it’s a special ed class #so i was totally unprepared and i tried to make it interactive as i read to them but i had no idea what i was doing #because the book had more words than i’d ordinarily pick if i knew i was reading to children with learning disabilities #and i’d showed it to the teacher beforehand and asked if i should forego the words and just discuss the pictures interactively #and she said no?? so of course the kids weren’t really interested in it #i asked to sit down because it’d be better to connect with them if i were at their level but she said no the librarian usually stands #and i’m just so?? thrown for a loop?? bc if i’m not supposed to use the strategies i’d think to use then like what does she normally do?? #the teachers and paras were obviously unimpressed and i don’t know how to do better #i have a simpler book in mind next week m #but i need to read to a second special ed class tomorrow and i don’t know how i would prepare/how to be more interactive than i already am?? #so i’m terribly embarrassed and i want to do better for the kids i just have no idea how #i’m trying to look strategies up but everything is vague like ‘point out pictures!! be interactive!!’ that’s what i do!!!!! i need specifics #ughhhh #anyways.txt

[artofapeach]

“I didn’t get to any harem parts, so can’t comment on those. Hopefully there’s nothing underage, but there’s always that person skbdjwjske” here a line from full moon conjuring”On the ground was a thirteen year old female girl, with a slim, but very attractive” also most of the girls he sexualize are 16.

Wow! That’s not okay! :D

Although, to put things in perspective, do we know the writer’s age? If he’s a minor himself, then he could just be that edgy teen trying to do as many things viewed as wrong as possible. Kids are stupid. They’re bound to explore things they shouldn’t, but that doesn’t mean we should put them on a spike for it. The drama back then with Viv should be lesson enough for that.

Also there’s the question on if the other party is also a teen? Like, the line provided? “On the ground was a thirteen year old female girl, with a slim, but very attractive” Uh awkward grammar and redundancy aside, if this is written from the perspective of another 14 year old, it doesn’t seem that bad?

I dunno, I see so many people bash on others for being “problematic” without considering the full context of everything. I’ve got an English degree, so I’ve read some fucked up shit that’s considered classics today, so the iffy fanfic community kinda doesn’t hit me as hard? Hell, sometimes it’s nicer because it’s clear that they’re exploring it as pure fiction and not considered one of their real life ideals kensjsjdj

I mean, like I said, I didn’t view all this guy’s stuff and I very much don’t *want* to. He could very well be an awful creep, but like, I kinda…don’t know why you wanted me to look at this? Especially since I’ve stated multiple times before that underage ships make me uncomfortable. It’s not like I can do anything about him ww

I will never, ever be for censorship. I think people should write whatever the fuck they want, because you never know what may help people cope with what’s going on with their life or process their own thoughts. But at the same time, I personally would prefer not to see it and even filter out certain tags were they come up often.

You wanna know the problematic shit I’m into? Murder! Body horror! Monster fucking! That Guillermo del Toro shit!

Not underage/pedophilia/incest/etc. None of those iffy ships. I don’t mind discussing the concept of them, but I would much rather not see any examples ^^;

#I dunno some people may hate me for sharing this #I know there are a lot of people who are like ‘pr*shippers should not exist!’ #and hey maybe this ask was deliberately to try to make me look bad I dunno #but again I have a lot of experience with stories #and I know better that just because you write it in fiction doesn’t mean you wanna do it in real life #I write a lot about murder; have no plans to murder anyone #so I dunno I just think people should just block what they don’t want to see and go about their day #maybe I’m wrong I dunno feel free to argue I’m super open minded #but I think people fail to view things in a perspective that’s different from their’s #I’m kinda rambling now ksndjsjjs #hey an ask #not art #uhhhh should I tag this with triggers? #tw proship #really wanted to avoid that word but I’d rather people be safe with their mental health #ask to tag #long post

[janiedean]

this

was not the news i needed the day after i was medically imposed to swear off caffeine because it could be giving me Issues ™️, but hey can’t wait to hear all about achilles’ bit of irritating temper tantrum /s

#ik ik i swore off discourse but god #the day i read this person said A COMPLICATED MAN #in the odyssey translation #is still nightmare fuel to me #anyway i didnt tag it nor will i do it so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #but god if she needed to UPDATE the terms to translate the odyssey #bc god forbid ppl don’t know for themselves that ancient greek society was -ist to the maximum #idek what the iliad would bring #and honestly i dont want to #anyway never mind me i had my first coffee less day since i pulled my wisdom tooth in 2015 i think #and im easily irritable #hey guess who still is feverish and need to check if not normal heartbeat is bc caffeine or not! #i suffer #anywau i’ll ne back in a srs capacity soon im just exhausted

[robertsbarbie]

songs to listen to when depressed but don’t want to tell anyone you’re depressed because then to have to confront you’re depressed so you just continue along vibing until you are no longer depressed

#here’s the thing #i’m fine i think but ever since i had that panic attack the saturday before halloween #i have been in such a depressive slump and i don’t know how to get out of it #and it sucks because i really don’t have an in person support system i can go to and be like #hey i’m feeling super down lately and idk what to do like it’s scaring me #which sucks and of course it’s also the end of the semester so i can’t stop functioning because i have school and shit #but literally today i was downgraded to no longer being the marketing lead and like #i know it wasn’t a personal thing and just done because i was getting more responsibility somewhere else #but like! my first thought was the teenage me in the back of my mind being like ‘i’m gonna kms’ and that’s scary!!!! #because i know it’s my brain joking with me and it’s a response not an actual action i plan to do AT ALL #but like i don’t know what the deal is and how i’m managing to revert back to who i was in high school :/ #so anyway alajalakkakkakd again i’m fine i just don’t know what my deal is #eris: text