#but i started rambling and said fuck it im posting this

[khada-sona]

uhm self indulgent sitting on lawrence’s face thingy. gn reader.

after a long day of work, standing on your feet all day, you come home and finally get a chance to sit down.

“puppy !” you call out, immediately hearing scrambling and pattering of your pet’s feet. he drags them, so they scuff against the tile, and it makes you a bit upset because then you have to really take care of those poor soles during bath time.

lawrence comes up to you immediately, not on all fours tonight. that’s okay, because he knew you weren’t mad by your tone of voice; he only crawls to you when you’re especially upset that day.

“i’m quite tired. . . and i need somewhere to sit. . . do you mind helping me ?”

he knew what this meant. he started helping you put your belongings away neatly, hanging up any coats or jackets or bags, and relieving you of your shoes. then he got to work of leading you to your bedroom. soon the two of you were standing in front of your neatly made bed as he started to undress your bottoms. he was always so delicate and careful, such a well-trained pet.

finally, you were bare from the waist down. he put your clothes away in the laundry bin before crawling into the bed, laying down on his back and brushing his hair from his face. just the thought of what was about to happen got him excited, and it was obvious by how he started to pitch a tent and how his legs tensed.

“good boy, so so cute,” you cooed as you crawled onto the bed, finally plopping down onto his face in no time. he didn’t hesitate to get to work, i mean, how could he? he loved it when you ground yourself onto his face, and he loved how messy it got and how beautiful you sounded. and he knows that since you’re in a good mood, you’ll take care of him too.

#i was originally gonna send amine an ask and ask their thoughts on faceriding lawrence #but i started rambling and said fuck it im posting this #lawrence #btd #nsft text

[rainbowpufflez]

Fine, I’ll admit that I like Lysandre 😔

#queue the ‘we all know Bo’ #I mean it was definitely obvious from the beginning #and I’ve somewhat said I do in a few posts #and considering the amount of times I’ve drawn him should’ve definitely given it away /lh #the funniest part about me liking him is that I actually straight up don’t #I just I think I hate him so vehemently and deeply that I’ve 180 back to liking him #LIKE WHY ARE U PREOCCUPYING MY BRAIN #LIKE GET OUT OR LIKE PAY ME U FUCKING ASSHOLE #literally I can’t stress enough how unlikable he is #and then I see him and I get locked in #I cringe literally everytime I talk to him #maybe it was cause his ass has been haunting me for the past few months #I GOT SOCIALLY CONDITIONED /hj #like he makes my blood boil sm #when I pointed out that he holds himself like he’s insecure on Pasio to my friend and they went #‘someone who doesn’t like a character wouldn’t have noticed that’ #or when they pulled the ‘true hate is indifference’ on me 😭 #I mean I have always said I have to hate a character before I start liking them #so yeah I’m still gonna be really fucking mean to Orange Peel but unfortunately it means I actually like him #the most insufferable man in all Kalos and I’m still like ‘guess I better draw him again/think about him 24/7’ #WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME #I HOPE U KNOW IM STILL KILLING HIM FOR ALL THE BS HE PULLS THO #rainbowpufflez rambles

[cum-roll]

hi ::) whats ur favorite word?

first ordeal, I'm studying linguistics. I know my words, you just hit an awesome nerve

the simplest answer is "Kurwa", because it's a beautiful word and such a useful one at that

however, i cannot use it. I have a speech defect that makes me sound funny when I curse out my friends. I have been told that I sound "cute" when I yell it but like I just called you a slut!!! bitch!!!

I know that it isn't a question about swear words but they are infinitely more interesting to talk about then normal words, so to answer your question - my favourite word is: "jeb"

What is "jeb" you ask - its an onomatopoeia. Simplest translation is "FUCKING SLAM" in all caps, just like that. Surprisingly useful!

Real life example from a conversation I had a week ago:

"I'll be sitting in my room all quiet then JEB kurwa my neighbor shut the door so hard the walls shook and he wasn't even done I'm trying to focus as he goes JEB JEB fucking insane"

Beautiful word!

You know I'm not even done with it! Jeb can be just the core of many, many beautiful words. Basically it's a core word to be used to make a swear word out of a verb. A few examples:

jebać - to fuck

zajebać - to fucking steal/kill/punch

przyjebać - to fucking punch

ojebać - to fucking eat whole

and also other useful words like

zajebiście - fucking awesome

Fun fact! You can do the same things with cores "kurwa" and "pierdolić" snd others so have fun with that

Another fun fact, with slight changes this will ALSO work in other Slavic languages (which is literally my studies rn), like in Czech or Ukrainian I think, and all the others will have some version of that. Definitely "Kurva"

My most favourite non-swear word is probably szczęście because foreigners make funny wide eyes at that

#it means 'luck' #ok im sorry for the long post i had to get it out of me #my favourite english word which is probably what you were going for is probably like #i need to think about this #my LEAST favourite word is 'world' because im UNABLE to pronounce it it's a losing battle #obsessed with german long words #i once said Staatsgerichtshofbrandstiftung as a joke and it's stuck in my head #its like 'arson of the constitutional court' or something #it's not an official word mind you.. its two words stuck together ill let you figure out where one ends and other starts #ok but my fav english word uhhhh #im a big fan of how in modern times other languages adapt english words for technology like email or google and fucking #frankenstein them into their grammar making abominations like croatian 'mejlove' and others #so there's that #i like the internet words like uwu and stuff #did you know that when you search up uwu on wikipedia there are two pronunciations english and polish #cuz we say it like : #uvu #becaus of different phonetic transcript #it is 2:30 i am going to bed #glad to could have rambled at you #much love to you mutual #hope anyone finds this monologue mildly entertaining #pewce and love uwu #young master is saying things?? #many #many things #i love you shrimpathizer!!! friend spotted!!!!!!!!! #'drops s fucking novel on your knees'

[pup-pee]

bart; which way is north?

bart, points upwards; that way

#“north is up” EVERY1 WHOS EVER SAID THAT NEEDS 2 B MORE CLEAR BC HHUHHH #yeah i think bart would rather run around aimlessly than idk FIGURE OUT where he needs 2 go 1st #didnt they have 2 stop him from going out 2 search 4 max? #who needs direction in vr when the system just makes u go there anyways? #who needs direction irl when u memorize everything? #“bart we need u 2 go north” he just starts running straight ahead #rambles..... #i gen cannot figure out what the fuck is north #north star? how do u even know u keep seeing the same star? #“its the brightest” I HAVE #wait #I HAVE ASTIGMATISM #EVERY STAR LOOKS BRIGHT TF DO U WANT FROM ME #oh wait would bart just memorizze the northstar? would he b able 2 tell? #im running around in circles im gonna stop myself now #this is 1 of those “man i could draw this” but i cant so now its text #impulse #bart allen #dc #ooc post #ig sighssss dramtically #i have so many drafts & this is just 1 of them...

[snow-and-saltea]

yesterday i spent 45 minutes of my life watching a video essay criticising the use of cheap shock values and crossing of taboos for a video game and i went from "he has a point even if he's explaining it in a really inflammatory way" to "oh umm... i can see how he thinks that way even if i don't agree" to "oh this guy's just straight up using people on tumblr as material for an audience to get mad at like other outdated people on the internet. nvm he's just an asshole"

#yuu rambles #it was about the coffin of andey and leyley btw - i agreed w him on the first half of the video about how it felt rather noncommittal to it #concepts and themes but i recognise its not really *trying* to be serious which means its not a reasonable #framework to judge the intention and execution of its work - an apple pie does use butter in it but just bc it does #doesnt mean you get to compare it to steak; a dish that also uses butter. this is intuitively easy to understand for me #but nonetheless it was like 3 am i had stuff to do so i just put it on my background to listen #he makes a diss at “people on tumblr” early on that i just raised my eyebrow at but shrugged it off bc its such an old joke #its lost its zinger; and im p sure its just confirmation bias from going into the tags of the thing you dont like lol if you use tumblr #normally you wouldn't come across things you dont like bc you'd have blocked them. But Anyways #then at the end he got sooo self righteous about how people on tumblr are insane and weird and showed screencaps about how twisted everyone #who likes the game are. there were some screenshots of people's post that were like “incest is bad and shouldn't be explored in media. #paragraph break‚ me who is an incest survivor and finds it helpful for working through my trauma: lol” #those types of post. but then lmfao he started going out of pocket and just mentioned the lists of other people he doesnt like which are #a screenie of a video essay about how kink is important at pride #and then some other stuff i dont remember anymore w the tumblr screenies #it was very mockingly written and said and at the end of it i felt sad i couldnt #block people on youtube lmao. like its not i dont want this guy to comment on my videos. i dont want to see his channel involuntarily #recommended to me ever again. just resorted to the most base sort of trolling behaviour he accused and judge other game devs for in his #video essay. good fucking god. the psychological projection is unreal #i dont have any strong feelings towards the game at the end of it even though i thought i would be like Eugh at first #but my bleh for any cheap gimmicks is overshadowed by my disdain for this guy's reliance on self righteous rhetoric #i discovered another new channel i really like tho after that vid!! bc i had to watch smth else to cleanse my palate lmao #they're jacob geller and freddydude! ive only seen one vid from freddydude about his essay on #detention‚ the horror game set in taiwan during the era of white terror under new cn leadership after ww2 #im personally quite jumpy so his humour and the way he edits his videos to make it silly even though its Scary #made me like it a lot!! im going through jacob geller's other vids but ive watched three specific types of terror #and the one about pinocchio which made me go :00 wow his scripts are super good! #again everything at your own discretion esp w the whole james somerton shit‚ but i enjoyed what I've seen so far #i just wanted to end this in a somewhat positive note JSHDKSJDJD the ramblings Continue... #theres a pedantic error in one of ky tags but im gonna update it when im on comp bc mobile sucks smh my head

[thedevotionaltour]

thinking about daredevil yellow again im not. going to make it Guys.

#static.soundz #crying screaming and hitting the ground. so good. it made me cry really bad #bc whenever i think about jack n matt it always makes me think of me n my dad for various reasons #when matt said i couldnt feel his heartbeat inside me anymore. no words. #i rambled about it on my main but dd is very much intwined in an interesting and special way with my own heavy grief about my dad #and matt was a very important character to me during that time of my life for the exact same reason. #it's why i take a lot of very heavy issue when things try to make it so his dad died in his childhood as opposed to college #bc a) think it takes away a lot of the important nature of their relationship and b) my own personal projection #bc all grief at any stage is highly personal and unique and particular #but it really does feel like. matt is really just starting to become an adult (depending whether he dies when matt's in under or post grad) #(bc i can never remember which) but he's not quite a mega established one. there's still that lingering of childhood #so even though he's grown. it just hurts in a very particular way. they saw you grow up. but they didnt really see you become an adult. #they did not see the person you're going to be. that you are. that you're becoming. it feels like such a bizarre unfair moment in time. #bc why now? why not when i was younger? why not when i was truly an adult adult who is expecting to lose you now? #why at this moment and no other time? #but thinking about matt going i wish i told my dad how much i loved him. #more than anything when he goes 'i love you dad. did you hear? i love you.' #it made me cry like a fucking bitch. honest to god tearing up when i type about it. it wrenches my heart it twists it and it makes me wanna #drop to my knees and just weep and weep and weep. they are everything to me. #i have intertwined a lot of matt's grief with mine in a way that makes him so so so important to me. because as stupid as it fucking sounds #that comic and him as a character are everything to me. so genuinely. they were a lifeline my freshman year #when i was so depressed all i could do was read comics. or listen to music #i could do nothing else. i did. clearly. i did work and assignments. but dd was everything to me alongside dm #im sorry i am being an actual like nutbag in my tags im sorry i just have a lot of feelings. this story is everything to me ever ok? ok.

[todayisafridaynight]

love my right-hand rgg men deranged. a little blood splattered even.

#snap chats #this post is about yoshitaka mine and jo sawashiro do NOT reblg and put anyone else in the tag or im egging your house #one of you rebellious bitches are gonna do that cause i said it now... unless we keep playin uno and we go #'oh but now that you said that i wont touch this post' OK WELL GOOD IM RAMBLING IN HERE !!!!! GET OUT !!!!! #dont get out. stay if you want. its dark down here i have two (2) candles burning this time and i feel like im summoning the devil #yeah i am summoning the devil the motherfucker that lives in my mind #im never getting to the point of this post. btw. im stringing all of you along. im cold. literally and figuratively. #mine never even got to be blood splattered..... hate this franchise..... unless we talkin ishin but ishin was a blood bath it dont count #anyway sorry (<- not) someone reminded me of majima being fake crazy about kandas head in the box #call that a dick in a box GOTTEM. fuck kanda all my homies hate kanda #and yeah...... sat here and started thinking and giggling and kicking my feet 🥰 #sorry i mention the eye scene once a month but no other scene compares to it for me. it has everything i could ever want #🏳️‍🌈❓❓ behavior and raw gore and nothings more brutal then personally taking your thumb and sticking it in someones eye #always reminds me of that slipknot song.. Duality... and not the song called Eyeless.... hate this band.... #like please its my crack its my meth its my drug of choice #knife scene good too for similar reasons....... but i do like the eye scene just .2% more... sorry... i like how gorier it is... #knife scene still raw as hell tho like UGH sorry love them. i love jo and mine cause they Seem calm for like .2 seconds and then theyre ill #their demeanors are so funny to me tho like mine's like Thoroughly professional near all the time but jo is just Slightly more vulgar #like jo more typically says crass/aggressive things while mine Genuinely most of the time is just 🧍‍♂️ #very funny... love them all the same... <- said he was gonna draw but hasnt drawn shit #I SAW THE FIRST EPISODE OF KYOUEN (jdrama starring nakai) AND NOOO IT LOOKS SO SPICY I WANNA WATCH THE REST #but i made a promise..... so i'll save that binge session for the morn i suppose.... #anyway dont look at me im giggling and twirling my hair at the thought of my Real Crazy bitches #i love them <- cant say this enough my heart will literally explode if i try to #stream chat got me thinkin a jo.... oopsie..... i refuse to say anything heinous Respect Your Elders etc etc #ok bye. im normal <- is going to go watch the eye scene again

[healingheartdogs]

It's so funny looking on my patient portal for my doctors and seeing "patient looks well nourished" on all my visit summaries when it is documented by my blood work that I am, in fact, very much NOT well nourished and have been prescribed multiple high dose supplements now to make up for how malnourished I actually am.

#its pretty clear that what they actually want to say is that they think i could lose some weight #but trying not to use ED triggering or fatphobic language lol #im within the healthy weight range for my height too im just on the higher end of it #my weight is actually not a problem (to me mentally or physical health-wise) #the bigger issue is being deconditioned as FUCK from basically a year of being partially bedbound #thanks to covid kicking my (suspected) POTS into high gear #actually seeing my cardiologist today for a follow up on my exercise stress test and cardio ultrasound and week long heart monitor results #my chart right now says 'unspecified heart condition' but she said if all those tests came back showing nothing then it's most likely POTS #also have a rheumatologist appt next month to attempt to start figuring out what autoimmune condition I have #cuz clearly going based off my chronic pain and positive antinuclear antibody test there's SOMETHING #but all the lupus tests came back negative #which apparently doesn't mean much because they're very unreliable #rambling in the tags again #basically a whole 'nother separate post down here #whoops #ndr #not dog related #health stuff

[4arconinoma]

And on the topic I just have to rant about Bruno's characterization in this fandom. Listen uusually i dont give a fuck about mischaracterization for the simple fact that I am so used to it and it will happen inevitably. So i dont let it bother me But there are some examples in which its so egregious, that it feels like people watched a different show or something...

After rewatching Vento Aureo it just blows my mind how the fandom got to this, weird, "mommy bruno" thing this state for his character that is hardly even present in canon. Its strange because when I was younger and i first watched it I kind of subscribed to it too, i think just by seeing people act that way it cemented itself in my mind as fact But rewatching it now, its so obvious that its just MISSING his entire character, and so many little details and aspects of it that the show makes quite Clear!

Its not just the fact that he is so young. But that bothers me too I wish people acknowledged that hes barely an adult. People act like hes 30 or something HE'S TWENTY he's BARELY AN ADULT okay and I Know he acts older than he really is and maybe that's why people mix it up, maybe people haven't seen his age on the wiki, but don't they state it in the show ?!?! Either way, the thing is that's Literally a canon element of his character, he DOES act older than he is because he HAS to he HAD to grow up so much earlier than everyone else he has to act more responsible than even the 22 year old on the team because that guy just cant step up like he does And hes had no other reliable figure to guide him ever since he was young it was only Him and he had to become entirely independent at what fucking 12 years old.

Right and wouldn't it just be really cool if people actually took that into consideration? That he's so young he's tired that maybe he's JUST as scared as everyone else on the team and he feels lost and confused too but he just CAN'T let that show because he's the ONE person who is keeping the team glued together? And Giorno yes he stepped into his place — Which is its own sort of tragedy to me, that the 15 year old had to follow in Bruno's same steps of growing up too soon because no one else could manage things like he does and he has only himself to depend on now while running the Entire Italian Mafia — but either way it's just the way this attitude of his is brushed off as Mommy bruno mama bear hes such a mom 🥺🥺🥺 Is almost insulting? And i wont even get into the gender role aspect of that, some people have discussed that before too, that in contrast with Abbacchio who is the "father" (nevermind that he can barely even take care of Himself, and is cold to his entire team, not a great example of a father is it) is mischaracterized too for the sake of woobifying Bruno! Also hate this as a Bruabba enjoyer but thats another discussion entirely

And the last thing that puzzles me is just, that he doesn't even act close to being motherly in canon. Maybe save for the Trish thing, and the thing with Narancia's backstory, which is indeed him caring for younger people But due to what i stated previously, he HAS to and Id bet he feels compelled to. I wont deny that he is kind and he doesnt want kids to lead a life like his, because that's literally a part of his character that they show. But I think people are forgetting that he fucking beat up a 15 year old immediately after meeting him, then didn't even invite him to his gang: GIORNO did that HIMSELF, Literally went "you Will let me join your gang. I will join it' now." and bruno was like Okay. And the thing from my previous post, is that they literally canonically show that Bruno does act detached to his gang, not... not the other way around. See why this characterization misses so much. He doesn't have TIME to build any particular bonds with his gang Yes he is kind to them of course he is But like the scene of Abbacchio's death where he orders everyone to just go on because they don't have time for this even though he's just as distraught, or Trish feeling frustrated that he acts so cold, he puts some sort of wall between him and the gang even if it's subtle. Narancia even says he knows this about Bruno, that he knows him because of his past with him he noticed that Bruno PUSHES people away because he doesn't want them to go down the same path he did, not because he is their "mommy" it's because his life is fucking MISERABLE and he is a kind person so he doesn't want that for others, especially not younger people because HE was in that same spot too so YEAH okay he cares about kids WHO WOULDN'T What kind person would want to let a child down his lifestyle... This displays his kindness and virtue as a leader, not his. """"Motherly instincts"""".

Okay. I don't know, I just wish the fandom left room for this sort of nuance to his character. I have never seen anyone bring this up. It's always people just making up this completely different Bruno than the canon one, I understand why people confuse this. I used to as well, when I was young and many people in this fandom are, but fuck, it would just be nice if people took this aspect of him into account, because I think it's interesting! Its so much more interesting than going Aww Mommy Bruno he loves his kids (ugh) and completely ignoring the rest of his character! Just... a thought !!!!! Or several !

#jjba #txt #long post #Im not trying to sound like a stuck up asshole here #I dont hate people who see him this way #like I said i get why its common in the fandom #I just wish that. People could see past that. Bevause I feel like the intricacy of his character is Right there #canon isnt hiding it. And i never see it explored. I wish people explored it more #Or i'll just keep doing it myself #Well anyways this is part of why I think Bruno is awesome. I never even realized i likedhim so much but its always subconsciously been ther #also analyzing characters and their minds is my legitimate favorite thing to do for every piece of media ever. so i want to do it more from #so i hope you dont mind this sort of ramble from me #<- I will keep doing it either way. So i hope you don't #im starting to feel embarrassed about this now though so who knows #b #um #hm do i put this in his character tag #ok no i dont wanna get fucking Morbed so i wont

[italiantea]

not gonna lie girls the dog club's internal communication is Abysmal

#ive been here almost four years and still know next to nothing about how the club operates internally #well im not an executive. which thank fucking god #there's like at least 50 something official members and god knows how many alumni and mysterious volunteers #you have to deal with the public. students. some weird guy who likes to scatter chicken remains around. other dog owners.school admin #half the time you go in and there's like 5 other people whos names you dont know (you just kinda mutually know the dogs but not each other) #and you have to vibe check your way into knowing how old they are how long theyve been here whats their name do they know what theyre doing #policies for letting dogs out? *mumbling* *side glances* *more mumbling* *shrug* #the club teacher is from what i gather (respectfully) some batty old woman whose inner machinations are unknown #every time she comes by everyone groans a collective groan of dismay and she tries to let all the dogs out (???) #anyway ive been mysteriously roped into monday morning medicine feeding.... for like a month and a half straight.... girl why #guy literally went hey you. you free in the morning. and neglected to mention till i said yes that he meant TILL JUNE 16TH #goodbi to my sleepytime mondays.... #they caught the dog yesterday and that was it no official announcement or shift schedule posted or anything #and i had to message the guy being like. so like. starting. this week?? or...? and he was like yah #guess ill have to just go there tomorrow and Figure It Out #like its not that bad. but jesus christ the communication skills. nightmarish #the ho rambles

[theygender]

Me: if you're from a typically hot climate and you're not used to dealing with the weather you're getting from this snow storm, one thing you can do is wear a warmer layer like leggings under your jeans—

1 million people: actually jeans are TERRIBLE at keeping you warm, why would you recommend for someone to wear ONLY jeans, you need ANOTHER LAYER UNDERNEATH THEM IDIOT

1 billion more people: ACTUALLY jeans can get WET. these texans you're talking to need to wear the waterproof snow pants that they definitely already own in their hot climate you moron

#rambling #i understand that people are trying to be helpful. but the reading comprehension on this site is fucking dreadful #and having hundreds of people in my notes acting like im stupid is gonna make me start biting #PEOPLE IN HOT CLIMATES DO NOT OWN WATERPROOF SNOW PANTS OR WOOL CLOTHING OH MY GOD #THEIR OPTIONS FOR PANTS ARE ALMOST DEFINITELY GOING TO BE LIMITED TO JEANS AND THIN SWEATPANTS #AND SWEATPANTS ARE NOT GOING TO KEEP OUT THE -30° WIND CHILL BC THEY DONT FUCKING BLOCK WIND #THATS WHY I SAID JEANS FOR THE OUTER LAYER. BC JEANS /BLOCK WIND/ #I KNOW THAT THEY WONT KEEP YOUR BODY HEAT IN WITHOUT WEARING ANOTHER LAYER UNDERNEATH #THATS WHY I SPECIFICALLY SAID TO WEAR ANOTHER LAYER UNDERNEATH #I KNOW THAT ITS DANGEROUS TO WEAR WET JEANS IN THE COLD. IT IS ALSO DANGEROUS TO WEAR WET SWEATPANTS IN THE COLD #IF SOMEONE DOESNT OWN WATERPROOF SNOW PANTS OR WOOL CLOTHING ALL OF THEIR OPTIONS ARE GOING TO BE DANGEROUS TO WEAR WET IN THE COLD #THE ONLY GOOD SOLUTION IS TO TRY NOT TO GET WET AND CHANGE OUT OF WET LAYERS QUICKLY IF YOU DO #AND IF THEIR OPTIONS WHEN THEY MANAGE TO STAY DRY ARE 'BLOCK THE WIND CHILL' OR 'DONT BLOCK THE WIND CHILL' #IM GOING TO RECOMMEND TO BLOCK THE FUCKING WIND CHILL #im glad this post is making the rounds to help people but it is BY FAR the most annoying responses i have gotten from any post that blew up #and any time i try to post an explanation it just gets buried under like a hundred more people #responding with more of those exact same comments with varying levels of condescension 😭

[gemharvest]

Haven't rlly understood the whole genre of "he would steal your wallet" jokes about Reigen. Isn't it a big part of his morals that he's not comfortable taking money he feels he didn't properly earn, even if to "properly earn" it he has to lie (ie solving stiff shoulders in a client who is misidentifying it as a curse he pretends to be doing some big thing when he's really just like, giving a massage)? Like his work is a scam as in he's not actually a psychic, and half of the work he does under this façade isn't actually exorcism work, but not as in he wants to steal all your money and then some.

#ramblings #off topic i had to pause when i started this post bc psycho cuaght a fucking butterfly and i had to grab it from her mouth b4 she ate it #anyways back on topic. this isnt to say he doesn't want money. he does want to make money but as i said hes not a guy who would stealfor it #reminder that he undersells his exorcism rates compared to an actual psychic (forgor his name and dont wanna google i am so sorry) #if im wrong in my analysis lmk (obv dont be an ass abt it) but like. idk for now i feel like i didnt watch the same show as some of yall. ? #also im like tired asf rn entirely possible i am just forgetting smthn. dont think i am tho

[skitskatdacat63]

I have a race notebook and also the standings written on a board in my room(im a nerd) and im very hesitant to write down any results ngl, cause im super unsure if we're gonna get a fernando saudi situation w carlos or not??

#i just feel so bad for him #i apologize for laughing a bit at his radio i was a bit hysterical at that moment in time forgive me #now in hindsight i think if i rewatched it i might cry #but ig ill be stalking the f1 app a bit #who knows! anything could happen!! this season but this race especially has exemplified that! #heres the thing which i said in the tags of my highlights post #like yeah i did get upset during that race a few times and am still befuddled but like i still enjoyed the fuckery!! it was wild #ah i wish i could consicely write out my thoughts but im still just losing it ngl #i cant believe its been 4 hours since the race started....... #i need to calm down and sleep so i dont explode #aahhhhhh i wanna go write out all the results but im scared smth will change #then again i feel like those results nearly were so different at the beginning of the 3rd restart #im still really not mentally over the 2nd restart i think i need to watch it again bcs i was simply: losing. my. shit. #but all my gifing and posting tonight was so fun!! i wouldnt miss it for the world so thanks for being w me :) #i wanna go read fic or smth bcs man im wired for it being 5 fucking am.... #catie.rambling.txt #ramble ramble ramble bcs i think its gonna take a lot for me to calm down LOL

[trans-estinien]

Sometimes I feel like doing this with my brain

#its 12 am and i should probably sleep instead of rambling but #man. its rough having your fav blorbo be a fucking terrible person #cause on one hand you have the villain woobifiers and people who just completely ignore major aspects of a character for a fucking ship #and on the other hand you have people who hate you for enjoying a character. and thinking said character is interesting #and yeah yeah i know not everyone will like me and i should just ignore it and keep on doing what i enjoy but. ugh. #and im also constantly worried that ill fuck up and become a villain woobifier myself #and im also constantly worried that when im writing my cannon blorbos ill fuck up and write something super ooc and people will get mad. #i think fandom was a mistake #but i also wouldn'tve met the besties without fandom so? you know. everything's got two sides #this is such a stupid thing to get all upset over but. #unfortunately i am a horrible man enjoyer this has been consistent my entire life. #and people usually dislike people who like your typical tumblr sexyman type character. which is fair most fans are insufferable #veils if you read this far this isnt abt you it's abt someone else. dont want to like start shit so i wont say names #but i saw. a vauge post from someone i thought was cool and i just. i knew it was directed towards the tags i left on their post #and i felt bad so now im having big anxiety over it. its really stupid i know #i am just going to retreat to my corner and hope to creation that im left alone. im just playing dress up with the blorbos #and like. they're entirely allowed to have their opinion im just. brain is convinced everyone hates me now for no fucking reason. #i gotta. work on this but idk how. therapy fucking failed cause i forgot about it 💀 #but. i should sleep. its past 9pm so my brain is not to be trusted. #ok fuck it ill just say it i feel guilty that Emet-Selch is not only my favorite character but also my comfort character. #im not going to stop liking him because that wouldn't be fun. plus others opinions dont really matter i can like whatever characters i want

[kittykatinabag]

I am allowed to be upset without having to qualify it.

I am allowed to be upset without having to qualify it.

I am allowed to be upset without having to qualify it.

I am allowed to be upset without having to qualify it.

I am allowed to be upset without having to qualify it.

I am allowed to be upset without having to qualify it.

I am allowed to be upset without having to qualify it.

#late night ramblings #im way too chronically online #the traumas are leaking again #im still just a little stuck on that fucking low self confidence bullshit that my last therapist said i have #ever since i got my ssri refilled here my heads been absolutely wonky and im convinced its manufactured differently #but all my research so far doesnt support that hypothesis #my second hypothesis is maybe i need to up my vitamin d since its not as sunny here #once i finish off my remaining vitamin d pills ill see if thats actually the case so look forward to that in a future post #i started back up on the vitamin b and the joints have mostly gone back to normal and energy levels once i get out of my room are ok too #but yeah. the depression has been kicking for four months now #it sucks

[soulesplinters]

No more slacking! I'm on the job! Yes, I know that everyone has to play their part -Come on! Rev the engines of this beast!

[ID: Disheveled doodle of Cel from TFJ's bad end in chromatic aberration, meant to give off an abstract horror effect. Their entire appearance is nearly glitched out and overshadowed. The main trait emphasized being their wide eyed cyan stare in front of their completely wrapped face, and a long purple tear streak dripping down. Bits of binary code are crowding Cel's eye. /End ID]

(cw for scophopho.bia, tee.th, and ne.edles in the song linked!)

#eyestrain // #chromatic aberration // #dark tfj #tfj bad end #tfj ascel art #(adding to cw- the nee/dles part starts around 3:20 and ends at 3:40) #(also anywho on topic of song i personally feel its a big bad end cel song that sums up their views etc after all that happened dhsjkd >:]) #that said WOOOO first post in the dark tag YIPPEE !!! #gonna try to slowly post the ideas i have for soule and co in the form of either edgy lyric associated art or notes or writing #(for this specific art i also used a bit of pho/to mosh for effects and then fucked around more in art program shdjkd) #anywho ramble time for edgy art above... #i like to imagine theres a conflict of cel vs amulet in the main plot- ie soul vs code and a parallel to soules own conflict to themself #so in bad end code wins :] #and since im edgy the amulet/code isnt exactly a separate entity- but rather non sentient code that initially viewed cels possession as a #foreign entity to assimilate 'properly' into the amulets coding #and thus works at removing their memories and personality etc- #(which proves to be difficult at first due to soules soul being pretty old/magic potent- even if only a fragment) #because of events in the bad end- cel starts to push themself into the 'amulet persona' deeper as a coping mechanism #which opened up the code to take over and blind them etc etc #bad end cel is overall 'cel' blinded by the code- their original ambitions and self buried under all of it #ie now instead of 'cel being trapped inside amulet' its now 'amulet trapped inside cel' #anywho funni abstract psy.chological h/orror go brrrrr :] #also theres code in cels eye in the art cause smth smth 'eyes are windows to the soul' and well <3 #oh also to clarify cel/soul didnt disappear theyre very much still there- theyre just the shell now because i am so nice and kind teehee #^^^ hence why cel still has a 'unique design' and not just a complete blank facet #theyre angel themed now cause the code convinced them theyre 'saving' the game :] #and also twisted parallel to seel being the games original guardian- ie guardian angel