#but idk i'm emotional today

[sleepinglionhearts]

hhhgh. Robin.

#doodles #one piece #nico robin #one piece art tag #congrats to the second fictional woman named robin that i have formed an emotional attachment to!! #also a good reason to keep practicing drawing hands #and a good reason to break out the fountain pen again #i think this little doodle looks reasonably good #hhhggh I'm exhausted #been serving on a jury since monday!! we finally served a verdict today!!! how exhausting!!!! #like ok it was kind of a cool experience I guess but then again i am interested in that kind of thing #but i had to wake up so much earlier than normal.. chairs were uncomfy... #lots of emotional and mental exhaustion #I'm glad to be done with it!!! #time to draw!!!! #anyway yeah so robin is up there in favorite character status I'm love her #expect more later idk

[beeholyshit]

My little bebes ❤️

#spesilverweek #IDK IF THIS COUNTS BUT I DON'T CARE #(☆) ｡⁠.ﾟ— Red #(☆) ｡⁠.ﾟ—⁠ Silver #THEY ARE SIBLINGS #I've been thinking about them lately.... wiwiwi #I did this super fast since I'm kinda busy today BUT I NEED TO MAKE MORE THINGS WITH THEM WAAAA #imagine little Red telling Silver about his journey... big brother but it's still a baby too 😭 #I'm so emotional about them rn #MY HONI TOLD ME 'IMAGINE RED TEACHING SILVER TO RIDE A BIKE' AND THAT IS JUST 😭😭😭😭😭 #ughuhguh my bebes... #I feel like Silver respects Red A LOT and it's still kinda shy talking with him the first days he started to live with Maroon.... #Red it's just excited to know he has a little brother now but he gives him his space but tries to be friendly and make him comfortable #I love my bebes that's it #I should make a tag for Silver too #mmmm #I'LL THINK ABOUT IT LATER #pokespe #pokemonspecial #🖍️ —⁠ Silly doodles

[daemonhxckergrrl]

i'm losing my fucking mind. modern computing is tragic. everything as a service that requires 10x the personal information it actually needs to function, served up by laggy scripts, users treated as entirely incapable, the gradual cutting out of support for anything not provided by the Amazons and Googles and Microsofts of this world, error messages not worth a damn, UI that cares more about being "sleek" and "modern" than providing a good UX, you pay for shit and they still serve you ads, fewer and fewer things work offline, even pseudo-anonymity is dead.

the worst part ? it's seen as normal. people my age and a little younger who forgot how computing was even 10 years ago. teens who never knew a world where you didn't put your face on everything and live track your precise location 24/7. and it's not their fault. they're victims too but it's normal for them.

it's not even paranoia at this point. it's fucking exhaustion. i don't want a thousand interconnected things overcomplicating everything. i want simple shit that works. and i don't care if i sound like a boomer. i'm right on this.

#daemon.md #i'm really fucking emotional today idk why #earlier it was joy at a photoshoot that went well #now it's frustration and wrath and exhaustion #i cry so easily now

[vro0m]

Thinking about Lewis, Seb and Alonso being certified ruthless cunts and sore losers and then still being ruthless cunts and sore losers but hiding it underneath a thick layer of Actually Having Fun And Enjoying Themselves.

Aging doesn't take the hunger away but allows you to look at it with some level of fondness rather than greedy fury or some shit like that. In yourself but also maybe in others.

#Look idk I'm emotional today look away #f1 #lewis hamilton #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #2023

[mattodore]

everyone say hi to elias 👋 they enjoy long walks on bloodstained beaches and failing perception checks

#river dipping #bg3 #i've been feeling pretty okay the past few days and it's probably because i'm spending so much time with this fucker #they’re a berserker barbarian drow with a charlatan background #they're a bit cruel and love using deception and intimidation in every available interaction they have #they're actually one of two characters i have but my other character is just for when i get tired of the tank combat #also i want lae'zel and shadowheart to kiss. they're sooo funny when they interact with each other. #...........anyway hello #i'm posting this as a little check in i guess #i might get to my activity feed later today but idk... #...i realize i'm coming online after days of nothing to post abt a completely different video game but kjhnkgh #this is all i have to share atm #actually that's not true i did edit a photo i took of mattodore a few days ago... #i'll post that later #…maybe. #rn i'm just gonna go back to playing bg3 <3 it's fun and distracting #ik i have some asks and mentions to get to but. i rlly am having trouble talking to ppl atm #and like my emotions are kinda distant from my body? so. i feel odd still. #avpd is so frustrating but whatever.

[tei-to-tei]

crying about everything, and absolutely nothing, all at the same time

#rottmnt #rise donatello #rise donnie #rise fanart #idk y'all #i missed a deadline today and got way too emotional about it #so i dragged myself out of a horrible art block and doodled this instead #sorry i haven't been that active #i'm overwhelmed #maybe donnie's just crying about a sad movie and not missing a stupid deadline mhm mhm #*sob* #teidoodle

[purgetrooperfox]

I'm all for bloodpact as a ship. I agree that they're an excellent fit and unbelievably complimentary and they could actually be so good for each other. their potential is boundless. do you see their in game interactions? do you hear the way they talk about each other? amazing

now hear me out

bloodpact where wyll is more than just astarion's emotional crutch and moral support 🥰

#dances into the night. disappearing into the darkness never to be seen again #unfortunately this circumstance is present for ever asty pairing. damaged bb boy x emotional crutch #not all of them i guess. bc shart and laezel would not emotionally crutch him but i see it everywhere for #wyll and gale and halsin and karlach and ofc tav #maybe i'm just on one today idk. i love asty as a character i really do. love to whump him. but please #exiting the tag now goodnight #bg3 #bloodpact #leo.txt

[natreads]

I'm in Greece! I'm visiting my grandparents and will spend the next two weeks working on my novel, reading books and doing some work while sitting in their garden or patio

#nat talks #books #bookstagram #did I bring too many books? naturally #am I a little depressed? of course #BUT I'm having a good day today and I think life is all about those little good moments #also realize how lucky I am to be here #they're getting older so idk if I would get another chance to come here #especially since my brother's getting married in the middle of summer next year and so maybe they won't go to greece at all #who knows what will happen after that #because they spend half the year in sweden and the other half in greece #I found really cheap tickets too #gonna try to just live with my emotions even if they're sometimes bad #idk maybe I'll write more about it later #me

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz #ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and #then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc. #Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific #cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or #etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as #you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on #accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have #as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence #of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate #versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a #neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest #ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling #and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for #documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like #sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I #can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If #I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my #ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ?? #Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be #accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor #focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it #were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan #that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is #some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my #kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means #i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m #in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in #one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability #& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER

[noivoom]

MY GOD THE LAES EPISODE CRYING CRYING CRYING SO MANY THINGS

Earth is just so shaken, she says she’s okay right now but it’s clear she doesn’t quite know what to do about all of this, and I don’t think suddenly having a new body to really hit it home that she got destroyed is helping very much. I hope for her sake the new clothing and size adjustment features bring her some joy- y’know, soften the blow a bit, give her something to like about her new body. I also hope she acknowledges that she needs support right now, rather than brushing off her own feelings and continuing to try to be the others’ support like always. (Looks to me like her new model is based more on Ninja’s art of her, which is neat. Very pretty. Gotta admit though, I’m kinda sad her proportions were changed. I really liked how (for lack of a better word, forgive me) thick she was- it just made her look so soft and comfy to hug. Reminded me of my mum’s proportions, which probably influenced my opinion in that regard lol. Alas. Don’t get me wrong, I still like her new look very much, she looks like a cheerleader and it’s great, but still. Large Earth will always live on in my heart.)

Moon seems like he’s this close to just snapping. He just wants to protect his family but things just keep happening to them and he’s not able to do anything about it. Bloodmoon is in BIG trouble, I’ll bet. (For context, I wrote this before watching the TSAMS episode. Guess I was right.)

Lunar, oh honey- they feel so guilty about this, about not being able to help her. Just everything about their reaction, from their shocked silence over the phone to latching on to Earth the second they saw her, not even caring about the new look, just latching on and practically sobbing “I’m sorry.”

Sun just lowkey broke my heart. His tiny, quiet comment about the possibility of this being a different Earth- I can see why he’d be so worried about that, it’s exactly what happened to Moon, and Lunar to an extent. Earth looking different from how she used to would be far from reassuring in that regard, possibly even being the thing that made him think of the possibility in the first place. He was so scared he had to make sure, had to ask her if she still likes Barbie, one of the most constant parts of Earth, because he can’t go through that again. God, ALL of his siblings have died at some point, he’s lost them all in one way or another and now his fear of history repeating itself once again is rearing its ugly head and he’s scared and my heart is BREAKING GODDAMMIT ;-;

WHY MUST THIS FAMILY GO THROUGH SUCH HELL

I vote they have an off-screen movie night or something- all of them, Earth, Moon, Lunar, Sun, Monty, Solar, all just being together for a while doing something simple and easy. Let them just exist in the comfort of each other’s presences, give them some time to process that they’re all here, all alive, all safe for the moment. Let them switch off for a bit and reset their emotions before facing anything else. God knows they ALL need it.

#tlaes #the lunar and earth show #tsams #tlaes earth #tsams sun #tsams moon #tlaes lunar #don't look at me I'm emotional #everyone's crying #and then there's Moon and Monty #about to commit several war crimes #I would also talk about the tsams episode but I was busy today and only just saw it #and it's late rip #maybe tomorrow idk

[suaimhneas-gairid]

#liam o'brien #critical role #campaign 1 #idk if this is spoilers or not but just in case #c1 spoilers #campaign 1 spoilers #c1e102 #T_T #i'm having too many emotions #but thankfully this is really cute so it's making me feel better T_T #honestly having this type of day today in all aspects #hide under book

[heymacy]

okay fINE i'll just say it!! i miss fandom!!

#i know i'm still like. AROUND. but it's different #ofc it's different #idk man #things don't click and clack in my brain the way they used to #which is probably a good thing all things considered bc we were in a bit of a pickle mentally there for a hot minute #but goodness gracious i miss the community of it all and the freakouts and the emotional meltdowns over Some Guy(s) #it was FUN #it IS fun #and there is nothing saying i can't reblog shamey stuff whenever the fancy happens to strike me #bc it is not that serious and it ultimately doesn't matter what i do bc life is just one small blip in the grand oblivion of it all #but i feel like making a french exit and then swooping back in is a bit of a weird move lmfao #anyway #this is all to say that i'm thinking about them today #i'm thinking about their love and their story and the way that they were literally the blueprint and completely unmatched on all levels #and it's driving me a little mad #maybe i'll make some gifs #we'll see where the day takes me #okay that's all goodbye

[moshieee]

I think I need a reverse of that meme of

"why is everyone so mean to me"

Because I feel like I'm questioning why y'all are so nice to me

I am shaking

#and this jsnt me trying to get y'all to go reasire me i just ebudisnvuisvvibi #idk ive never really gotten this before???? #and i cant believe rabid thinks i was inspiring because for me it was the exact opposite and then i met more people and buonsvisvbaiin #i dont know how to explain AAAAAAAA #rabid im so sorry but I'm glad you're not posting part 3 today because i dont think i could hand anymore emotions today

[rosenfey]

I mean I stand by what I said re bg3 and I understand and I'm not surprised and all. it's just. I guess I'm getting very emotional over it being over because. I haven't looked forward to a game as much ever before in my life. and I don't think I ever will. there's no game or piece of media in my life that affected me like bg3 did. it helped me become a better, healthier person. and it's super important to me and it's just. bittersweet. I understand the decision and I'm not mad or disappointed I'm just sad. because I feel empty. because I feel like I have nothing else to look forward to in life. and idk idk it's just. sad. I'm getting very emotional over it this evening but that's just me. when I feel something I feel it very strongly and this game is more than just a game to me. so it being over and all is. bittersweet. I know all good things must end but it doesn't mean there will be no sadness.

#ambie.txt #I think I just need some time. I've been out of it today #I'm just. so emotional. so attached and I don't want to let go. I know I don't have to. #but knowing it's like. done. the story ended. it makes me feel incredibly sad. #it just. makes me feel heartbroken. #I just. yeah. idk I'm someone who is very emotional and sometimes that's a blessing and a curse

[gatoraid]

The final chapter of my silly accountant AU is finally up!! The feelings are intensifying, Esen is esening and Ayushiridara is going through some very confusing times.

#the radiant emperor #fanfic stuff #baob3i #wang baoxiang/third prince #this last chapter got kind of emotional hope you're into that shit #also the esen storyline got really blown up but I think that's still fitting for a baoxiang centric fic lmao #I totally have plans for a small extra chapter but idk when I'll actually write it #I'm getting the keys to my new apartment today and will be moving there next friday so I won't be able to write for a while #just super happy I got this finished for now

[da-proti-toku-grem]

just realized that my poly!jo moodboard reached +100 notes in like 15 hours and I'm *head in hands crying*

#you guys are insane (ily <3) #also today i reached 400 followers wtf #like. people notice me? 👁👄👁 #(i don't really care about the followers count or anything like that; i'd keep posting even if i had juat 2 followers idc #- but i wanted to say that i'm so grateful for each and everyone of you who follows me and my silly little blog - #- idk why you do it but tysm ily <3) #mine #maca speaks #(it's past 1am and i'm an emotional mess rn and i run out of my sleeping meds and can't sleep so i'm going through it™ as you can see)