#but idk what id do with that sooo hm

[vaugarde]

yknow i totally get how it can be upsetting to see pmd interpretations where humans existed but went extinct before the games, i was resistant to it too at one point, but i think its a little out of pocket to claim that that interpretation is disgusting and people who do it are edgelords doing it with “zero basis”. when like the game actually does toss a few hints that humans do exist in that world and it does make for good fanfic content. like just filter it out, again i get its an upsetting topic but the people who do it arent morally corrupt yknow?

#i remember seeing some anons go off abt how people who do it are gross and bad and like. thats a little much #that being said im considering tweaking my lore so that there are still a few human settlements around but theyre few and far in between #and pokemon have generally agreed to leave them alone #but idk what id do with that sooo hm #echoed voice

[bratphilia]

would it be a bother to ask for a fic w a tomboy reader and william afton? ive been on such a kick w william afton x reader fics here since i watched the movie and i love all of them but i am not feminine in the slightest so if you could write one id be so grateful!! and age gap and size difference too would also be sooo 👌👌👌. thank you so much!!!

note ✧.*‎ this was a lil hard for me to write considering im on the girly-er side so if anything looks weird in relation to the premise i apologize in advance!! also so sorry for getting this out a lil later than promised.

pairing ✧.*‎ steve raglan / william afton x reader

cw ✧.*‎ age difference (reader is 18-21, william is 45-50), degrading, spanking, approximately two slaps to the face, blow jobs, rubbing through jeans? idk what to call that, coming in pants (fem)

taglist ✧.*‎ @dilfity

synopsis ✧.*‎ while attending yet another meeting with your career counsellor, he has a few choice of words for you.

jeans (w. afton x reader)

you sit in mr. raglan's office, trying to sit straight up, legs crossed, not bouncing. he slightly shifts in his chair as he reads your file, moving his spinning chair from side to side, as he mentally scrutinizes your report. it's nerve-wracking. anyone in your shoes would feel this way, but the way he's intently reading over every little detail makes you squirm.

the worst part is, this isn't even the first time you've been in this exact position. it wouldn't be so bad if mr. raglan wasn't such a hard ass on you. always practically demanding answers of why you keep getting let go from the jobs he gives you, criticizing the tiniest details. nothing gets passed this guy, and yet here you are.

(there's something that almost riles you up about the way he talks to you, though. he has a habit of talking with those big hands of his in a way that makes your insides twist.)

"so you sit here in front of me..." he pipes up suddenly, looking at you then lifting a brow, "wearing jeans to a meeting, for christ sake, asking for yet another job, so what? you can get 'let go' again?"

"well, yes," you say, a little dumbstruck at his comment on your attire.

mr. raglan laughs shortly. "i got news for you, kid. people with your kinda track record don't exactly find jobs as easy as you think they do."

you hold back from rolling your eyes. your fists clench at your side angrily. you speak through gritted teeth, "look, i just need a job. i'll take anything, i'm desperate."

"hate to break it to you, but things just don't work like that—"

you've had it. "will you just stop being such an asshole and give me my damn options already?! i didn't come here to be lectured."

you're seething, breathless from your outburst. your heart is pounding but nothing can beat the jaw-slacked look on his face. there's a deafening silence that has you on the edge of your seat. then, shortly, "you come here for advice, and i'm giving it to you."

you want to say something again, you open your mouth to do so, but he raises a hand to silence you promptly. "you said you're desperate, hm? want my real, useful advice?"

you stare at him, not liking the direction of this conversation or his weirdly tone of dripping malice. "get the fuck on your knees then."

it's hot, you'll admit it. and he's the whole package too, total dad-i'd-like-to-fuck and all. this isn't your type of deal, but if he's gonna offer it to you, fuck it, you'll take it. you'll take everything this man gives you. "mr. raglan—" you say, purposefully furrowing your brows, trying to act scandalized for godsake—

"get your ass over here," he scoffs with a roll of his eyes.

you shut up, perking up at that, and make way to the open space between his legs. "look at you, you degenerate thing. on your knees for such a cause."

your head swims and the buzzing between your thighs becomes far too apparent to be ignored. but you're willing to wait for that relief. you part your lips expectantly, hoping he'd get the message to undo his pants and he just laughs at you. "filthy fucking thing wants my cock in her mouth so bad."

"uh-huh," you say, mouth still open.

he does away with all the restraints and guides his cock into your mouth. eagerly, you take him and lick up the underside of his dick, eliciting a groan from him. he makes a fist around your hair and guides your mouth up and down his cock, not caring about what you can and can't take and you fucking love it.

the noises of him hitting your gag reflex is music to the mouth of your ears. the way you push him out only for him to slide back in is truly a marvel. and the grunts, groaning, and degradations that come from him makes you want to take him even faster, more than what your body can handle, and he just laughs it off, commenting on much of an "eager, filthy thing" you are.

when you feel his helping hands thrust your mouth more erratically is when he decides to pull you off. he uses your hair to stand you up and practically shove you against the desk, back facing towards him. you yelp in pain, only adding to the ache in your stomach. he stands to his full height and you gulp. fuck, he's so much bigger than you, of course he can just throw you around like that. when you ask him if you should remove your clothes, he pauses for a moment, thinking. then, mischievously, "no, i want to make good use of those jeans."

curiously, you look back at him, but his fingers are pressing against your clothed pussy. he presses hard, letting the fabric grind on you. "oh, fuck," you moan.

"yeah? you like that?" he asks gruffly, rubbing your clit through your pants from side to side. usually this stimulation wouldn't be enough, but fuck you were so hot for him that you didn't care. "fuckin' dressed like a boy," he scoffs.

tears burn in your eyes, partly from his words, the other part from the stimulation. then he slaps you across the face. "i asked you a fucking question."

"yes!" you cry, moving a hand to rub at your stinging cheek. he grabs your hand and then slaps the other side of your face, just for fun. a few tears slip down your face at his physicality, but doesn't change that fact that you, "love it so much!"

"think you deserve to come?" he asks. "after that shit you pulled. you think you deserve it?"

you sniffle, knowing damn well what his answer's going to be. "well, i don't."

he removes his hands then promptly wipes them on his pants. you sob out, grasping for his hands but he pushes off of you. "you better come back with a better attitude if you expect anything more than what i gave you."

#asks #fnaf #fnaf x reader #five nights at freddy's #fnaf smut #william afton #steve raglan #william afton x reader #william afton smut

[nyan-koii]

It’s sebmarkson anon again ! (I should come up with an acronym for myself ha ha)

Currently written about a fifth of the third chapter, so I hope it’ll be out soon! Not gonna spoil too much (feel like I’ve already have :-3 but) it’s gonna be v soft and sweet, just praise and gentle overstimulation.. like they’re gonna torture him sweet and force out every bit of pleasure they can x333

Idk if I should do a bit of a bad cop good cop kind of situation. Like Mark is obvi the one to fuck seb, but I wonder if I should do it so he’s just a tiny bit more humiliating and or degrading towards seb? Idk or it’s just gonna be good feels I can’t decide TwT..

HIII ANONNN ( oh id love that ! I can adress you properly in the futuree hehe^^)

GOOOD WORKK ANONNN OMG YOU'RE SO AMAZING??? HOW CAN YOU WRITE IT SO FAST WITHOUT GOING THRU WRITERS BLOCKK the determination you have omg 😭 im gonna cry i admire you. I love soft and sweet sebmarkson with a bit snarky mark humiliating seb and jenson who just watches them with love eyes. Gentle overstimulation 🥰 ahhh pure domestic feelings

I was talking with my friend yesterday and wr realized that theres not a lot sebmark fics with overstimulation and it was like a slap to reality. I never realized this before ! Overstimulation is like one of the best trope sooo??? Whys there so little about them in sebmark fics 😞 thank god anon is going to come and save us. Make that two, two times anon save us from drought i fear that ur about to write a history in ao3 (i'll be there)

Theyre gonna torture seb 🥰 YIPPEE im just imagining how jenson is holding seb down and mark is forcing seb into another orgasm, the poor boy couldnt stop shaking and his voice all high and whiny under their control. Ooouuuu *covers ears* THESE VOICESSS I CANTTTT HANDLE IT ALONE

Its up to you anon because im sure we will take it with big heart (greedily so). But imo, i cant handle mark being THAT soft to seb because it just feel so weirdd 🤣 well not in everything changes, thats a different story but yeah! A bit degrading can be a good use tooo ! Esp if marks commenting abt seb's porn acc. "What if we show this to the grid hm? Show this to your hero Michael?" oOOOOUUUOUAHSJSJSJSJS

So sorry for the late reply anon 😞🙏 ive been playing sekiro ever since i got back home. Cant wait to read the fic 😤!!! I'll make sure to comment paragraphs about how i feel

#anon tells #sebmarkson fics #YIPPPEE YIPPPEE ITS ALMOSY HEREE #thank you anon for keeping me update with your fic #i'll make sure to treasure and read it well #im gonna make it my personality for the week once the fics drop #seb getting that overstimulation oooooo #hed be so whiny and squirmy guys #this boy will turn into a jelloo believe me ! #body is all flushed red and sensitive too #twink

[dongfangxunfeng]

4, 7, 10, 15, 20, 30 !!

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

OOOH hm. u know what i find wei wuxian kinda Impossible to draw i think it's just sooo hard to capture his energy right 😭 idk it's really not abt his appearance but he has this lil bit of a vibe yknow??

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

CERAMICS imagine making like . something that you can put stuff in or put it on stuff. god bless i love lil objects

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw

a good ol' suit it is so sexy<3 honestly am not a fan of drawing skirts/dresses bc the drapery gets sooo hard and a bit repetitive 😬

15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)

i like to sit on the floor and kill my neck </3 literally just get down there and sit

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

controversial opinion but hands aren't toooooo bad 😳 you know what's rlly fucking hard the feet 😭

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

idk if id call it underrated but it's def this one i keep going like ah yes this was a good one :)

#THANK UUU this was fun :)) #asks

[butchniqabi]

You definitely know how to leave a reader thirsty for more lol I have some questions about The Sea, the seas, the open sea if you don’t mind? Also! Also! The covers for that story are absolutely fantastic! I had a hard time choosing which was my favorite. Both covers (if one were to read the synopsis) give a hint of what the device does to the two remaining crew members but the cover that says “the connection was unearthly.”…ominous, if I do say so myself and especially great foreshadowing that the characters seem to not make it on the other side as they once were. But I’m getting ahead of myself 😅😅😅 I’m acting like you’ve written and published your story already and I have read it in its entirety (not just the two snippets). The gethsemane covers are beautiful too and I wouldn’t be able to pick from those options either lol Anyway! Do you have face claims for Alishba and Luevenia? Also, they are both beautiful names 😊 Do they mean anything and what made you pick those names out? When your reader gets to the end of your story what do you hope you’ve made them feel? Or a point you where able to get across? Lastly, I saw that isolation is a theme so I curious if it’s an entity in this story or a very tangible feeling? Ofc, noooo pressure to answer any of these if that’ll spoil your story 😁 thank you for sharing your stories, however small and brief, with not only me but the world! - 🌊 anon

gotta break this up into chunks hehehe

1. its okay sometimes i talk about my work like ive finished it too qdgebendnd. the binary code cover originally looked like this:

and if the binary code converter i used is accurate (no guarantees) it should say "i love you i hate you i am you" over and over. and heh...the connection is unearthly and it is as beautiful as it is. kinda gross!

2. i generally dont have faceclaims anymore! idk what shifted but as i got more into writing the less hm...clear? the faces of my characters became? like i have vague ideas and i know what they Dont look like, but no concrete visual references. as for their names, they are very pretty hehe but i didnt choose them for any symbolic meaning, the names just suited the characters!

3. what do i want my reader to feel? hm. well for context this story was inspired a large part by this astronaut comic (tws for gore and body horror </3) and its not really the same, its not like their bodies are broken down or used for parts, stuff like that. but i want to leave people with a similar feeling when you read the last line of that comic. a strange pitiful longing with an undercurrent of unease (or even disgust?). if i say what i hoped readers took away from the story though id be spoiling it a teensy bit...but i ill just say sometimes you only realize your place in the world and with others after youve destroyed everything else.

4. isolation in this context is kind of like a character? perhaps? ive been treating the story as one with 4 protagonists: alishba and luevenia, obviously, but also the love-in-winter and "the space left behind" by their crewmates (aka isolation and loneliness). i suppose in a sense you could go so far as to say that isolation is the antagonist of the story, pushing them to desperation.

5. and finally, THANK YOU SOOO MUCH IM GLAD YOURE ENJOYING IT 😭 sending you a thousand kisses 😚

#asks #the sea the sea the open sea #hope i answered everything qtwhenkdkff #if not...well you know where to find me

[thegreatbeyondmp3]

😬

got a mild electrical burn today bc i was stupid enough to use pliers that aren't rubberized to replace outlets while the power was on. it wasn't that awful but it was bad enough to take like two layers of skin off in two small areas.

it felt so weird. ive gotten shocked a few times but every other time it's been like just enough to briefly feel the electricity in my hand, this time i felt it like throughout my entire body for a few seconds* , and at first it felt like i couldnt let go which was. terrifying. i did though, and i felt really off for maybe 30 seconds afterwards. i felt like. lighter? Like i wasn't fully grounded to all of my body. Which sounds really weird but idk how else to describe it.

(* time felt really slow so im not sure how long it actually was)

anyway after i got a hold of myself, my hand was still hurting, and i thought that id cut my hand on the metal but it didn't look like a cut? i mean honestly it looked more like part of the skin had dissolved, and i figured it had to be an electrical burn, so i looked up pictures (which i don't recommend btw) and that's definitely what it is. like i said, really not that bad but still bad enough to make me bleed so...

gonna ramble a little bit more and say that i was sooo upset after it happened just bc it was such a stupid fucking mistake, and ive been a little off since but i think it's just from stress, like i was probably in a mild state of shock afterwards, but i haven't had any issues breathing, no significant confusion, pain, etc. it's just upsetting bc i literally know better than this. like i don't do electrical that often, and i haven't done any in a while, but i have done it enough to know way better than this and it could've been so much worse. 😑

and actually thinking abt where the burns are, i didn't even burn myself with the pliers bc they were on the sheath of the wire, i got burned by the metal on the ends bc it gets hot when you pull the wire. so it was more bc the power was on than bc i was using the wrong tool. bc someone else had started doing outlets b4 me and they hadn't shut off the power. hm. idk if i feel better or worse abt this.

7/07 update: the bits where skin was removed are looking alright but ive got a small bit of pain just below it that kind of comes and goes. and maybe I'm overreacting but it feels like the tips of those two fingers are cooler than on the rest of my hand... i have not lost any feeling though. no signs of infection as far as i can tell.

#cw for injury ? idk basically i got electrocuted today this is abt that #or 'shocked' technically bc i didn't die #not insanely graphic but y'know #personal

[lovromajers]

orchid, mahonia and nutmeg pls beloved

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

Oh my god.... Id have to relisten my entire gallery for this..... Because for like every song i like theres always something i dont like/thats missing....usually a bass line! Update: i did im still floored.... Ill list SOME of my top... 100.....Ill go for loretta by ginger root (his whole discography.... Loneliness a close second...) anndd.... Crystal night by 1986 omega tribe..... Also maybe... Oh yeah definitely greaze by maschine girl.... And summer beach by yukiko okada simply because of the best intro of all time..... Theres so many im missing ill prob miss my hair out afterwards 😭 OMG lets also add count contessa by azealia banks and lone AND likeee.... Never give up on the good times OR who do you think you are by the spice girls..... And peur des filles by l'impératrice fits every mood i LOVE it sm

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?

Oh my god..... Idk if i gey inspired by anything really?? Usually i just think hm.... Now nice time to draw! And usually i look for what to draw and give up.... I just have a general feeling...... Maybe going on walks and just looking and enjoying art such as paintings music and poetry!

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

NO STYLE. My rooms just some oak furniture, a black wardrobe and everything else is white. I have some colour going on with one yellow cupboard and a pastel pink office chair! I mostly express myself with my bedcovers.... Usually very colourful! Hmmm.... Its just a lot of lively colours ig, along with my plants! Sooo..... Oak white black and yellow pastel pink and green are the colours!

This ask game!!

#Ask #Ask game #Lara <333 #LOVE YOUUUU!!! #TYSM FOR AKSINGNN!! /!!

[mechawolfie]

casimir? like the sufjan stevens song?

#fictif #monster manor #casimir #fanart #hes so ugly 🥺 #like a wet cat #anyway ive been feeling wretched lately but had a boost of Creative Energy so i did some doodles #hm. does this count as a doodle?? #ig its subjective #idk i like its messiness! #i like making a rough sketch n kinda like. sculpting it. idk what the word for that would be #but i never do it bc it used to be sooo tiring for me #but now i know how to do it w out killing my hand so id like to try it more often #oooh maybe the word would be sketch #doodle is more like a funny little drawing u do on ur homework or smth 🤔 #anyway ill probably post the other pics at some point i just #liked this one the most so it gets its own post 💕 #also im loving mm's mc theyre like jackson galaxy but for houses #my house from hell #its me or the [haunted] house #i cant wait to meet rainier i hope his story is nice too #i also hope we get monster girls? perhaps monster enbies??? please fictif please please please? #smudgy.png

[lorillee]

Hello lorillee

What are ur top 3 favorite one piece arcs, and ur least favorite arc

well honestly my number one spot may be . a little controversial but im gonna have to hand it to dressrosa. did it have an egregious amount of plot devices? yes. do i care? no. not at all. not even a little bit. the birdcage gets exponentially funnier the more the powerscalers get mad about it.

but no in all seriousness dressrosa is honestly my favorite arc atm. this should honestly not come as a surprise because i am a noted law stan but like. man oda rlly knocked it out of the park. the character work and themes .... just. *chef's kiss*. spectacular. im not smart enough to make a proper analysis of it but everybody should go watch murphy napier's dressrosa videos. unfortunately as it goes the more i like something the less able i am to put anything into words so my brain largely goes "!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

number two is... whole cake island! actually wci was my number one before i reached dressrosa on my watch of the anime (using one pace) but like. man . you know what? i love pudding. i love her story. i know everybody at the time wanted her to be a hash tag girled boss but i also really dont care. if she doesnt get a happy ending ill kill oda myself. like she is another character where girlbossifying her 1) makes her a much flatter and more boring character and 2) takes out one of the biggest lenses into the abuse happening in the charlotte family and just makes the whole thing all around a lot worse. also btw people who hate pudding will die by my hand.

ANWYAYS that aside. wci did like. sooo many things right. sanji got some massive character development and finally a break from the "haha pervert" gag oda had reduced like 70% of his scenes down to at that point and also his outfits during that arc... actually wait scratch that. EVERYBODY'S outfits during wci are top tier. thats a side tangent. anwyays. it also really beat into us just how absurdly powerful the yonko are. the musical scenes in the anime were top tier. carrot's existence. brook's existence. pedro was literally epic the whole time and like hes definitely dead and id be so mad if oda resurrected him but also like. you know. i mean.... i want to see him again ................ carrot's existence again. the katakuri vs luffy fight. incredible top teir arc

number 3... water 7/enies lobby. ok its water 7 and enies lobby what else are you gonna say. everything that possibly can be said about this arc already has been so i will just leave it at that

and for least favorite! uh...... hm. idk. im gonna go with whiskey peak just because of that absolutely absurd zoro vs luffy fight that came out of nowhere and never became relevant again which i am chalking up to early series weirdness.

#otakv-trxsh #ask #SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER i was trying and got interrupted like 3 different times :/ #either way. honestly if oda nails the wano ending that will also definitely be a contender for top 3 #we've hit the ground running and im very excited to see the rest of this wrap up

[vakta]

update <3 (mention of binging + a whole vent abt exercise addiction)

March 3. 2022.

today wasnt bad i think. the best day that i've had in a while, actually.

tuesday was terrible. i already woke up feeling like shit and i also gained some weight which i wasnt emotionally prepared for. and i just couldnt study, it was as if my brain had been too exhausted idk but i had a lot of stuff to get done and i was stressed, and i was also stressed bc i hadnt felt hungry all day but still pushed myself to eat bc recovery yk but this made me even more stressed, and then i kind of binged in the afternoon bc of this. funzieees, right?? i felt so terribly shitty, im so glad it is over.

calorie-wise it wouldnt even necessarily be called a binge (idk the minimum kcals of what can be called binging), but it was definitely more than what amount i can digest without problems, and i felt rly out of control too. this has happend several times so far btw this winter, and it is always peanut butter lmao.

so i felt terrible and then i restricted the next day (wednesday). i know i shouldnt have but i just wanted to feel hungry again, then i go back to recovery.

i did that, and today i ate quite well i think!! i also got a decent amount of schoolwork done so im rly glad :D

the only bad thing is the stupid exercise addiction, bc i just cant let it go. i exercised tonight, well not that much, it was power yoga. but like still. i think it isnt about the amount of exercise, but the obsession. bc i remember when i wasnt even allowed to do more than a 20 minute walk daily, i went outside in any kind of weather and walked as if my life had depended on it. i was obsessed, i still am. i have reduced the amount but i cant stop thinking about it. i didnt go walking today, but already planned a walk for tomorrow. i porbably shouldnt go bc i kinda only do it so that i wont feel guilt. but if i dont go then the next day the guilt would be even worse, and the next day even worse than that, etc etc, and i dont think there would be a day when id be like "hm actually im not guilty anymore" like???? why would i come to that conclusion? it would be nice tho.

sooo idk. this is exercise thing is bad. and it will become more and more ridiculous as i manage to reduce the amount of exercise but not the obsession. like, if i werent allowed to go anywhere or do yoga, i would be like "how many times did i go up and down the stairs today??? was it enough??? how many plates did i put on the highest shelf, not enough i need to lift more plates!!1!1!!!" etc. so that would be ridiculous and this is what im afraid of. but how to reduce the obsesson, if reducing the exercise doesnt help in itself?????? i have no fucking clue.

but anyways, today wasnt bad so that is nice! hopefully tomorrow wont be either :)

#vakta long posts #vakta recovering & trying my best

[tfw-no-tennis]

hxh RESUME

back at it again w/the hxh, heres my recap of the last few eps 

ok so i totally forgot to recap that one ep at the end of the hunter exam arc lets see what i remember from like 3 wks ago lollll

i thiiiiink i left off in the middle of ep 21 lol. i really dont remember much tbh so im gonna skim the ep to refresh

exposition time! its so wild that if you lose ur hunter card That It like u cant get another or retake the exam hgabjdfuhasjf Ls 

also the fact that you can sell it is rlly interesting 

leorio & kurapika backing up gon as he confronts illumi again :’) good lil family 

illumi u fool. gon is a shounen protag. he can do anything he sets his mind to

the fact that gon thanks illumi for telling him where killua is....hes literally THAT polite like...what a perfect boy 

hisoka just fuckgin stepping out of the shadows....ok bitch 

the fact that gon fucked up illumis arm that bad with one hand....boi is STRONK 

AUGH AUGH AUGHHHH HISOKA IS SO CREEPY AUGHHH I HATE THIS BIIIITCH 

ok but like is illumi implying that hisoka is a fr p*do bc uhhhhh thats so nasty oh lord. pls stay away from gon, and killua, and like everyone as a matter of fact 

EWWWWWWWWWW I HATE HISOKA HES SO NASTY. PLS STOP MAKING P*RNO FACES IN RELATION TO 12 YR OLD BOYS. 

no but rlly what IS hisoka gonna do now. im assuming he’ll show up p soon (tho probs not in the zoldyc arc like i thought bc its shorter than i thought) 

ok the fact that they have the internet is hilariously wild to me for some reason....it just seems like this would be one of those fantasy shounen worlds with very little tech (a la one piece) but lol nope we can just google shit hvbhjdhjdfks

gon: it was fun when you beat me up for 3 hours and broke my arm! seeya dude!

i love gon he is so chill and doesnt seem to hold grudges except when it really matters (like hisoka and illumi) 

hanzo has.....ninja business cards....thats amazing hvbhsdjkujfnd

dont worry pokkle, leorio was basically carried thru the hunter exam by various people and also won by default. he still deserves his license tho

an exotic game hunter sounds pretty cool! i wonder if we’ll see pokkle again. kinda doubt it? that sounds pretty firmly non-combat based, and therefore probably pretty far from any plot lol

so gons dad is a bigshot huh.....whatever hed be a bigger deal if he didnt abandon his son tbh 

gon swinging his feet on the bench....sooo cute 

so ging could restore a bunch of ruins but he couldnt raise his son...ok

im just gonna be bitter at this guy for abandoning the most perfect boy vhbhjfbsjhdhbfsk sorry dude but being a good hunter doesnt make up for being a shit father 

gon is so precious ;_; 

WHAT WAS SATOTZ GONNA SAY TO GON???

why does it look like theyre googling things on MS paint 

ah yes, padokea, on the continent of Africa But Sideways 

idk if i talked abt it before but the world map is WILD lmao i love how its all the continents/landmasses scrambled around.....im super curious abt that weird island in the top center of the map, thats the only thing that immediately sticks out as not having a real life equivalent 

the music in this show is so charming :’) i love the main theme sm 

gon is sooo precious i literally cant get over it. and his hurry to rescue killua is so sweet....and i love how naturally charming/charismatic gon is....pretty much everyone he meets likes him, especially leorio and kurapika, who basically adopted him after knowing him for like a day, and continue to be completely taken by him

ok wtf is satotz & co talking abt......do they know something abt ging that they arent allowed to tell gon???? shouldnt gon have access to the same info now that hes a hunter? i need ANSWERS

i bet this whole thing abt the hunter exam not rlly being over is a metaphor abt the hunter exam NEVER truly ending bc youre always being tested, or st

ok the ED continues to be So Much like especially the last shot where the 4 main characters look like theyre posing for a JC Penny catalog while the singer goes FULL metal-screamo

ok ruth and i just rewatched the next two eps woohoo

i love that there are tourist busses that take people to the front gates so they can like pose for pics and stuff vhbhjafdsfkj and its like ‘ah yes here are where the local assassins live!’ thats so funny yet it makes so much sense

i love that leorio passed tf out during the bus ride. big big mood 

gon is so cute...hes like ok yes i understand that we’re not supposed to go in but i think they can make an exception for me bc im very polite. 

those 2 dudes r so ugly and so dead god bless

that bigass buster sword....sir please 

ruth and i rlly thot that the old guard guy was gonna turn out to be grandpa zoldyk or st lol

the fact that the dog managed to eat All their flesh but left some clothes....skill 

also the dog is named mike but it sounds like the guy is calling him miku hvbjdfssk

this cant be the first time some morons have been killed here likeeee 

i cant believe nobody has visited the zoldyk estate in 20 years damn they all rlly b havin no friends. depressing 

the whole gates thing is wild. also that part where gon gets the math wrong on the weight.....BIG mood kiddo 

ok the part where gons on the phone w/the butler is soooo good oh man. i love how gon just calmly dials the phone again after hes hung up on the first time and then YELLS....and leorio and kurapikas faces r so good 

also the butler guy unfortunately has a point, it isnt foolproof that gon is here Legit....but he IS let him see his tiny bf :( 

as ruth pointed out, the butler guy is reminiscent of kuro from one piece. same vibes 

maybe if leorio was jacked like he is in the manga/1999 anime he couldve opened the gate that first time around....Ls 

god i love this shows approach to Everything so far,....as ruth put it, half the time its like ‘oh wow they should do [x]/i wish theyd do [x] but ofc they wont cause its a shounen’ but then they DO do [x] and its like damn thats dope 

anyways i love how gon is increasingly approaching situations with his Plucky Shounen Protag Attitude in full swing, and he pretty much gets shot down every time. BUT his general determination to see killua bc killuas his FRIEND and hes gonna RESCUE HIM is still a good and pure motivating force 

like here, when hes climbing over the wall and hes like whatever i dont wanna have to deal w/being tested thats bullshit, i wanna see killua, my intentions are pure, im gonna try my luck with the dog....i was like ok yeah he’ll get over and like tame or defeat the dog and the guard will be suitably impressed bc nobodys ever done That before, and then gon will continue on to get killua 

but NOPE instead the guard calls him down and explains that gon Will Die if he tries that, and then the guard will die too for letting that happen. and gon is like oh shit my actions have consequences for people other than me, wow. 

and THEN the guard takes them in to meet the dog. and hot DAMN that is a scary creature. not even really a dog tbh. they did an excellent job making the dog Legit Scary and not just like, big and flashy looking....those eyes are so soulless, and the proportions are freaky 

and the guard says exactly what i was thinking - that gon would use his Country Boy Woodland Creature Skills to workaround the dog....but then the subversion - this creature is NOTHING like the woodland critters gon is probably used to dealing with. theres no way gon stood a chance here. the guard just saved him from a really unfortunate death 

i love all the Super Heavy Stuff in the servant house that seems so inconvenient vbhjdkfasjfld. also forgot to mention earlier but the guard guy being Absolutely Ripped was wild and kinda funny 

training montage! gon continues to be so cute. and i love so much how leorio and kurapika are like no, you rest, we’ll take care of this. good parents!!!!

and then!!!! they sync up and use the power of gay love to almost open the gate. but then gon uses the power of Improbable Shounen Protag Healing Speed to toss that arm sling off and help out

i feel like leorio was side-eyeing gon like w8 a sec u broke that arm like a few days ago that aint right.....

oh man i almost forgot abt that scene with the zoldyks torturing killua :( :( this poor kid he doesnt deserve that 

also mom zoldyck seems truly awful but i must say her aesthetic does fuck. the victorian-lookin outfit paired with the futuristic cyclops visor thing....excellent. also im betting this face bandages are from killua cutting her face 

this family is so fucked up hvbsjdhjfbakdfn

killua telling his mom that gon is definitely gonna make it there :’) hes got such unshakable faith in his bf thats so good.....

back w/the gang, and immediately they run into more trouble in the form of the young girl butler, whose name i dont know, but i love her....her design is SO good oh man. a non-caricature black person? who also isnt sexualized? in MY anime??????

 i love how gons approach to conflict is currently ‘let more powerful person beat me up for hours straight in hopes that they get tired or something idk bro’ like....i love him lol, is it in an effort to show how determined he is? he doesnt even try to dodge her blows or get around her....id be tryin to hop that fence lol 

oh shit the tiny zoldyk kid from earlier is spying on them....she was w/the mom so im sure thats not good

when he punches the rock part and it breaks....strong boiiii 

oh man that little flashback from when killua first came back and told her that he made a friend ;_; bruh 

i love butler girl :( she wants to let gon but knows it isnt allowed....and as soon as she starts to waver BAM here comes mom zoldyck JFC that was so sudden and jarring....im assuming butler girl isnt dead cause that would be lame and anticlimactic 

also IS THAT NEN??? NEN>>>??? NEN??? HM? NEN????????? 

im so annoying abt nen i need to make one of those ‘is this a pigeon?’ memes w/’is this nen?’ bc thats me anytime anything remotely weird happens lmao

i do think its rlly nen this time tho

anyways shit is wild, cant wait to meet the full zoldyck family 

PREDICTION CORNER: 

as i said above i doubt hisoka will show up now bc this arc is a lot shorter than i anticipated. also im doubting that illumis even gonna show up honestly 

i think we’re gonna have this OP for a while, as the part just at the end shows gon and hisoka fighting in what looks to be an arena, and ik the next arc is the heavens arena arc, which im assuming is the tournament arc....

also i have no idea what that weird building in the OP is but my guess is that its the building w/the heavens arena in it bc its tall and,,,,heaven 

i predict there wont be much fighting in this little arc bc how tf else is it so short. at this point i rlly think gon is just gonna grab killua and go lmao. im super curious abt how thats gonna go down, considering that killua is currently strung up just bc he wont apologize...so i cant imagine his family would just let him leave w/gon. i wonder if killua will fight them, or if gons determination will impress them and then theyll let killua go (doubt it)

thats basically it....we’ll see abt the next few eps holla

#lj watches hxh #hxh #woohoo continuation

[adultphobic]

1-50

WHEW ok its gonna be under cut

1: do you have a crush on anyone?

yeah… :(

2: what’s your favorite candy?

i like gummy bears and chocolate a lot!!

3: favorite love song?

lov song by cavetown!

4: what was your first kiss like?

ive never kissed anybody where i consented

5: what was your last kiss like?

same as above

6: sexual/romantic orientation?

IM GAY… i think… i like men

7: do you prefer poems or love letters?

ive never written or been the reciever of either so.. i am not sure… lover letters maybe?

8: favorite fanfic trope?

hmmm…. i like fake dating! i like a lot of tropes….

9: have you ever been in love?

yea… rarely if ever mutual tho

10: favorite milkshake flavor?

vanilla bcs im p… basic… maybe cookies and cream?

11: dinner dates or brunch dates?

dinner i guess

12: favorite flowers?

do dandelions count 

13: favorite perfume/cologne?

i do not know i dont wear either…

14: favorite candle scent?

i dont know a lot of candle scents oopsie

15: what’s your ideal first date?

hm…. video games bcs im basic and public places scare me

16: favorite love story?

not sure

17: what’s the most attractive thing a person could wear?

…. suit maybe? suits r cool.. Im… Bit gay for men in suits

18: chocolate, vanilla, or red velvet?

chocolate

19: snow, rain, or sun?

sun!

20 sweetest romantic memory?

god i wish i had one to share

21: favorite dating sim (and favorite character)?

ive never rlly gotten to play dating sims unless u count when i played cr*sh cr*sh with l*** or ddlc..

22: fictional crushes?

….. ben wyatt… and finn nd poe from star wars

23: dream wedding?

idk… i think abt getting married a lot but its different every time

24 snow, rain, or sun?

sun

25: what makes you blush?

just ppl beign nice… i rlly like being complimented even tho im not good at like… accepting compliments… A LOT OF THINGS BUT IM…. yeah…

26: do you believe in soulmates?

in a good place kinda way, yea!

27: denim jackets, leather jackets, or bomber jackets?

FUCK I LOVE JACKETS I CANT CHOOSE JUST ONE… 

28: what’s your sign?

taurus!

29: are you single?

SADLY…. im not the most lovable

30: do you prefer to charm, or be charmed?

I WANNA LIKE… CHARM AND FLIRT AND STUFF BUT IDK HOW…. so i guess its gotta be be charmed until i like… Understand… im rlly oblivious tho so like.. either way im screwed

31: guitar or piano?

uhhh hm… guitar i guess.. piano is good too tho…

32: favorite romcom (or any romantic movie)?

if i were caught watching a romantic movie i would get in a lot of trouble so i dont… watch any

33: do you fall in love easily?

sometimes yea… it sucks bcs i love so intensely too

34: valentine’s decorations: yay or nay?

YES YES YES YES

35: would you prefer to propose or be proposed to? what’s your dream proposal?

GOD id love to propose but i have such a fear of rejection.. id be willing too tho… and hm… i am not sure… just imaginning being proposed to makes me all furhgu5hguhjtjunjntj

36: cloud gazing or star gazing?

hm.. star gazing… both r great tho

37: do you like to dance?

YES IM RLLY BAD AT IT THO… I DONT>.. KNOW HOW TO

38: what’s your OTP?

already answered but its finnpoe

39: kittens or puppies?

i love both SOOO MUCH but id have to choose puppies bcs im allergic to cats 

40: coffee, hot chocolate, or tea?

hm... hot chocolate

41: favorite soda?

i dont drink soda... the bubbles hurt

42: do you prefer gazing wistfully out the window or lying dramatically over the sofa?

i guess the winddow but both sound like me asdfghjk

43: favorite ABBA song?

whats abba

44: fuck/marry/kill? (anons name 3 people of your choice)

you didnt give me ppl ben

45: favorite pajamas?

 i jiust sleep in my boxers and a shirt or two

46: favorite liquor?

not sure bcs im 15 and ive only done drugs not drink 

47: do you think about love a lot?

YEAH... A LOT.. WAY TOO MUCH

48: a walk in the park or a walk on the beach?

i guess a walk in the park 

49: hand kisses or nose kisses?

IF I CANT CHOOSE BOTH I GUESS HAND BCS THTS JUST>... RLLY ROMANTIC

50: what’s your dreamhouse?

at this point? anywhere but here

#himbophobes #asks #ben tag

[nenastrology]

Please talk about johnny joestar he is my favorite jojo character and your brain is huge

anon you are the only one i respect i swear to god im constantly thinking about him.. ok this is going under a cut out of respect for everyone who follows me who doesnt give a shit about jojo or part 7 and its gotten horrifically long im sorry

see this is where me actually liking part 1 and having rewatched the non hamon battle parts like 4 times finally pays off because i can mentally go into constant excruciating detail about like the ways part 1 is reimagined and like how they are both essentially the disfavored son in comparison to a brother but like jonathan is given a conflict that can directly contend with his family issues like he can punch dio and work that out hes given a perfectly laid out heroic quest to solve his turmoil and also confront if dio really is like better than him johnny is given no like easily narrative closure to those similar fears he could never like prove if he is better than his like very human extremely normal brother like he couldnt beat him in a race and like be like tee hee im the better horse racer or something and like side note jolynes definitely given the best version of the narrative conflict tying into familial and emotional issues that she like is both coming to terms with her relationship with her father while also like fighting a villain with ties to dio and like understanding what he went through and like she also like becoming her own self and reconciling with him all that shit ok back to johnny..

genuinely hes like the only jojo with a real arc… like id say jolyne and hermes are definitely like prototypes for characters experiencing um development and their past issues with their family and whatever like being part of how they grow and like become closer and trust each other but like johnny and gyro are the finally realized conclusion of araki being dragged into learning what character development is idk i really love johnnys entire journey that like he finally has somebody who gives a shit about him and he has like something he actually cares about that like ends up pulling him out of his aimlessness and he discovers how ruthless and driven he can be it drives me absolutely insane how nobody seems to um get his character that hes like some soft uwu boy when hes like absolutely one of the most ruthless and definitely the biggest asshole of all the jojos like god its sooo funny how like jonathan and dio its like dio has all the asshole energy and also they grew up together so theres reason for the animosity but johnny and diego have the same level of asshole energy and johnnys first reaction to seeing a dude who beat him at horse racing a few years ago like probably mortally wounded is just like hm he can die i really hate that guy but they barely know each other nobody gets it man…

but back to other things god im sorry i mean you know how disorganized i am you signed up for this sending me this ask jsd;dks; idk like god the fact that the fights actually became vehicles for character development forcing johnny and gyro to each face their own fears and like come to terms with what they truly value really gets me like johnny finally able to like go from idk needing to just be selfish out of survival instinct because everyone who had cared about him rejected him and like being forced to pick between the like thing he thought was giving his life meaning (the corpse parts) and gyro who was actually what was making the journey worthwhile and like he really for a moment thought he couldnt do it like didnt know if he had it in him at like his lowest point there and like he realizes hes far stronger than he thought he was and that he ultimately will do whatever he has to for the people he loves which like all really comes full circle with the lil flashback in part 8 showing johnnys death like that sugar mountain saying those who lose everything will ultimately gain everything well he does finally get the corpse back and in his possession and when he finally has it like its purely to use it to save his wife and son and like his sacrifice both tying back to jonathan and erina and like everything he learned in the course of sbr like ugh ;w; its sooo sad but ultimately like the perfect ending even if im gonna go like weep now..

im really saying things and going nowhere i havent even gotten back to his father oh my god i really love that like after hearing his father be proud of him like he literally just rides away and ultimately doesnt finish the race that like its this weird odd melancholy way of ending the whole thing like he idk stops when he needs to stop and has like found his own self worth apart from his fathers approval also hm its very weird i think later on how his disability is written that like literally some of the first things johnny says in the entire story is that him saying its the story of him learning to walk again is not in the literal sense but in the metaphorical sense but then by i guess convention that araki got too lazy to figure out how to make some of the later fights work and i guess because he hates metaphors that arent pounded into ur skull cuz i guess if u are making the stupid choice to read jojo u are stupid enough to need everything spelled out for u he decided he needed some other way to signify johnnys growth and its just very awkward and weird when like the whole story is him becoming more at peace with his past and everything that has happened to him its lazy and stupid and whatever ok i literally am like forcing myself to stop typing because im feeling the deep shame kick in because i dont think ive written this much about any character other than like yusuke or sasuke probably and i feel like the little spray bottle in the back of my mind that activates when i think too hard about jojo but like ok ive said my piece you may ask me more specific questions if u want me to elaborate.. whatever stan johnny joestar… this whole text wall was me coming to terms with him probably being my favorite jojo..

#jj lb

[lenin-it-to-win-it]

just gonna rant about my health issues to no one in particular for a bit under the cut sooo

im just so fucking tired of being sick all the time like. its been almost 2 years now of actively Going To Doctors And Having Tests Done And Trying To Get A Diagnosis and fucking!!! nothing works!!! and i only have until the end of this coming school year to get it figured out before my insurance runs out otherwise im just fucked!!! because im sure as hell not gonna be able to afford a fucking mri every six months making 10 bucks an hour at some retail shithole but so far ive seen SIX different fucking doctors (not counting 2 ER visits) because they all just keep shuffling me back and forth like “idk maybe have someone else deal with this? weird lol” or like “have you considered that maybe you might have anxiety :) you seem stressed :)” 

like yeah its a fucking stressful situation getting progressively fucking sicker for two goddamn years wasting thousands of dollars and reaching the end of a fucking ticking clock because almost every doctor ive seen is an incompetent jackass who does NOTHING but waste my time and money and then fucking condescend to me about anxiety like!!! yeah i probably DO have anxiety and depression and autism and what the fuck ever else but this isnt THAT 

and the literal ONE TIME i had ANY treatment that worked AT ALL helping with my eye spasms (literally One of Many Symptoms that i deal with on a fucking daily basis that still manages to completely fuck up my life) is something i cant take anymore because it damaged my fucking eyes!!! possibly permanently!!! i already HAD issues wtih light sensitivity that this medicine made WAYYY fucking worse and guess whats one of the WORST things at setting off my eye spasms??? anything to do with fucking light so YEAH thANKS for that @ the opthalmologist who had me take those damn eye drops for two months straight, which other neuro opthalmologist said was bullshit when i saw her again, not that im letting HER off the hook either since she REFERRED me to that incompetent bitch in the first place and then had NO solution other than “hm well you definitely shouldnt take that medicine again, but theres literally No Other Treatment, maybe blow another $400 in a few months to come see me again so i can continue to Not Help You In Any Way”

and its getting wORSE ALL THE TIME!!! and the best thing doctors can think of is “hm well maybe wait a bit to see if it gets worse? and maybe then we’ll know what it is?” well its getting worse!!!! but they still dont seem to know what it is!!! like at first it was just my vision going out of focus for a few seconds at a time, then it was a few minutes, then i was having visual distortion (or maybe hallucinations? who knows! certainly not any of the fucking doctors ive seen!), then awful fucking eye strain headaches, then spasms in my neck, then my jaw, then my arms, then my legs, now all fucking over, and now i get sick and dizzy just by moving my HEAD too far or too suddenly and like at work earlier today i was just stumbling around for two hours bc there was too much pressure in my head and everything felt tilted and i was just grabbing at every surface trying not to fall with my head like on my shoulder bc keeping my neck straight was too fucking hard and i swear to fuckign god a couple nights ago there was this weird buzzing on the side of my face??? and like it felt like my mouth was moving slower than it should??? but i dont even KNOW if thats a Real SymptomTM or if i was just freaked out and tired and imagining things or if i really am just getting to be a paranoid delusional nutcase about my health because every little thing terrifies me at this point, like ive been coughing for a couple weeks and instead of being like “oh its a bad cold” im like “maybe now my immune systems fucked up too maybe this is A New Symptom” i literally cant tell anymore i have no fucking idea 

and i dont WANT to think about all this All The Fucking Time but i do!!!!! i literally HAVE to bc it affects my life in every fucking possible way and i cant escape it like even rn the light from the fuckign computer is hurting my eyes and i cant even see what im typing half the time bc my eyes keep going out of focus and my teeth keep chattering and my head hurts or ill go to get a drink of water but then just Stand there for a few minutes bc i dont trust myself to hold a cup full of water and not spill it bc im having spasms or ill have to wear sunglasses at the dinner table bc my fucking idiot asshole dad got the BRIGHTEST possible lightbulbs for the dining room and i physically cant stand them 

or like im already dreading having to explain all this shit to my professors this semester about how like “oh so i probably wont be able to keep up with daily readings, especialyl not if theyre on physical paper and i cant scale up the text because my eyes just spontaneously stop working and i cant read..... and ill need a computer to take notes, i can Usually hold a pencil but one time i had a spasm in class and flung it across the room and it was super embarrassing and i ltierally skipped that class for weeks because of it so id really rather not deal with that again.... and even though im a fuckign AMAZING public speaker like, state champion debate level public speaking, ill still probably get super fucking nervous and suck at any kind of in class presentation bc ill just be thinking about my spasms the whole time and wont be able to focus....... and ill have to wear sunglasses all the time too so hopefully thats not an issue........ and also ill probably miss a lot of class bc whether or not i can handle walking half a mile Varies Wildly from day to day and also i have a lot of doctors appointments and sometimes im on medicine that completely ruins my sleep schedule so you know... looking forward to a great semester, hope i dont completely fail your class” 

and i have fuckign work tomorrow where ill have to deal with trying to pretend like even the most minor tasks arent painful and difficult and deal with awful btichy entitled customers complaining that im not SMILEY enough for you like the motherfucker who asked me how i was and i said fine and he was like “jUuUUuuuST fINE” like shut the everlasting FUCK UP with that ive met my obligation leave me ALONE my day isnt FINE im in awful pain and i HATE you and everyone like you or ill have to deal with my coworkers giving me weird looks while im having spasms or outright MOCKING me for them like the asshole that called me TWITCH (and a whore, but thats Another Fucking Story) or just not knowing how to deal and making bad taste jokes like when my teeth are chattering bc I Physically Cant Make It Stop like “haha are you chewing an invisible piece of gum lol” like no bitch im a neurological nightmare and my brain doesnt work and im Barely Holding Together would you PLEASE shut the fuck up 

and most of the time i just feel like everyone thinks im a fucking freak like even just sitting in the waiting room to see the neurologist or opthalmologist or whatever and everyone else there is Old and im the only person even remotely close to my age there and even the doctors dont seem to take me that seriously bc of it like “oh shes young, cant be that bad, all these old people out here are gonna die like tomorrow so why worry about this girl, its probably just anxiety from being on her period or having a test to study for lol” like straight up when the movement disorder neurologist was examining me she was like “im not used to seeing anyone this young or healthy’ and i know she meant it relatively speaking but like!!! clearly im NOT healthy or i wouldnt BE here like obviously something is wrong with me and its ruining my life and its serious and id like it fixed thanks!!!!! 

and i feel like No One Gets It like, obviously there are people wayyyy sicker than i am who suffer a lot more or people in similar situations but like. i dont Personally Know someone like that i can just talk to and like, of course i have friends who can Listen but.................................. theres a difference from being able to listen and being able to actually Understand and sometimes you just cant Get It unless youve gone through it like i really dont think ANYONE in my life has any idea how serious this is or how much it affects me and i know i cant expect everyone to just Always Think Of My IssuesTM but little things!!! like maybe NOT having the brighest possible lightbulbs in the dining room!!!! my brother NOT having his birthday party at dave and busters, which i had TONS of spasms at last time i went (and im even worse now!) AND the staff gave me shit about wearing sunglasses so now im nervous about That too or just! idk! people respecting and listening to me when i tell them that i Cant Do Something or that Doing That Thing Hurts and not just brushing me off or telling me im overreacting and then getting all shocked pikachu face when their dumbassery actually physically HURTS me and i get pissed with them for it!!!!

i dont think anyone gets how much it scares me all the time or how its Always on my mind and i literally cant think about anything else like. this could be the rest of my life. this could end my life. i dont know what i have. i might get diagnosed in the next month and have it completely cured, i might get a diagnosis and still be sick forever, i might not find out until its too late and i have LITERALLY NO FUCKING IDEA WHICH ONE!!!! ITS GREAT!!!!!!!! WELCOME TO MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!

#vent #rant #i sincerely doubt anyone will read to the end of this but whomst knows #besides it feels nice to just scream

[sunfish999]

if y’all ever wanted to know anything about me... i tried

hm I’m bored (i say this as i should be doing geometry homework

1. read: probably the paladin prophecy, or the finisher (just books i’ve read like 500 times, idk about understanding but--) watch: the vampire diaries? (idk i watched the entire series in 7th grade wygonnad) or aquamarine movie? listen to: XYLO, LUME, more specifically Need Nothing by Verite 

2. bro i have no idea who they are actually but I’ve seen like 2 fanfic writers who write exactly like me and seem to think exactly like me i love that. also a reg writer? uh probably mark frost? i aspire to write like f scott fitzgerald but it never gonna happen hun (cos i wanna major in physics not literature lmao)

3. holy fuck lets pick like 3 fandoms, aight? uh first lets go w my hero academia? tokoyami ofc? next... percy jackson bich-- nico LMAO no maybe bianca? hm HARRY POTTER -- ginny prolly although i dont want to date harry (oops) The maze runner? tommy actually ;; naruto? fucKINH ROCK LEE BABE uhhhsdfhh star wars is anakin and voltron is lance (or pidge actually) i should stop buuuut yeao ok

4. i think my name is fine but i aint gonna share it here (also kinda wish my nickname was charly though thats all im gonna say ALSO yes laurel is a faux name yes 

5. human being because i do nothing. lol but yes i think that who i am as a person should be based off my actions, for it is how i act that shows other people who i am, not ‘who i am inside’ dont make fucking excuses for your actions people 

6. yea i believe in 1 god and i was raised as a catholic christian but i am accepting of all religions and views

7. i mean kinda??? idk im very polish and so i eat lotta polish food (gr8 stuff right there) but im just american so yea 

8. muscial artists, well bitch i only started actively listening to lots of music (aka spotify) like last year but i listened to ari grande when i was young ofc but i dont rlly feel connected to her. maybe like, adele? probably her yea 

9. yes i am a visual artist (preferred medium is watercolor) i looooove singing although i suck so i just do it for fun, i played the french horn for 2 years (also suck so not really lol) um i also write for fun and im good at writing informative essays (my school is big in the english program lol) i was also in 3 plays but i dislike theatre so no. also i like clothes i am a fashion artist wow

10. tf? idk? i have like 3 mottos: “if you want something done right, do it yourself” “the answer to existence is not why we are here, but how we affected others during our time here” “jack at all trades, master at none, better than a master at one “ “you don’t have to speak to be present” “consider how hard it is to change yourself and realize what little chance you have in trying to change others” “do the scary thing first, and get scared afterwards” “the very fact that you're actively looking for ways to become kinder, and attempting to understand your flaws and change them for the better is fair proof that you as a person, are kind.” OK YEA MAYBE I HAVE A CREED SO WHAT 

11. ideal day lol art, reading, and binge watching tv in bed while eating. otherwise spending the day meditating in a forest in spring where its warm but not too warm and just not speaking the entire day 

12. both. i have 3 cats and 2 dogs. love all of them dearly though i’d consider myself a human puppy vs a human kitty (im not a furry calm tf down)

13. outdoors, if you mean nature. if you just mean social activity, then indoors 

14. as i said before, i like singing even though i suck, in grade school i learned the ukelele, piano, and french horn. i remember none of that now 

15. influential books my ass. LETS GO: 1. into the wild (krakauer) 2. Fahrenheit 451 (cant remember author name but its fucking iconic and a classic and it made me think) 3. just gonna go an put harry potter because that shit changed my life 4. the hobbit? idk, iconic 5. i wanna read more literature-y books soon but whatever, i feel like i should say the great gatsby but honestly with writing my essay and everything i just dont give a shit anymore

16. ok i feel like if my parents werent as strict when i was younger id have less depression and be less stressed but then i would also care less about my grades and being kind and i like that about myself sooooo 

17. lol this is EXACTLY me guys because its fucking anonymous as hell because i know none of you (except for like 2 mutuals but ive never met them irl but they’re cool) i dont trust my friends. or family, for that matter

18. my patronus is a wolf thanks for asking; and my power animal: symbolizes instinct, intelligence, and an appetite for freedom. embody personal power and balance between self-control and animal instincts. a guide to inspire you to live more freely

19. im a gryffindor, i took the pottermore test twice and got it both times, also, i took it doing the opposite and got slytherin, so i aint them (but i love slytherin sooo)

20. fuck are you serious? honestly hogwarts would be awesome as hell but probably middle earth because it still got the magic but it gorgeous as hell 

21. yea i’d probably say i love easily since i like barely talk to my crushes and yet i think i really really like them because GODDAMN 

22. school. daydreaming. eating. phone. drawing. 

23. i feel like once i move out for college i’d like em a heck of a lot more, so probably like at least once a month? when i’m older? like at least once every 2 months? i love my extended fam though

24. oh fuck my friend from school and i fucking liked chinchillas when we were little, we always text each other the same thing at the same time, i always know what shes thinking and what the basis for her actions is. shes the bff that doesnt always act like it all the time 

25. fuck yes 

26. pansexual and PROUD but still in the closet except for the whole internet and 3 friends 

27. ok honestly i feel like i dress kinda like a basic girl just more minimalistic and modest but i kinda totally want the gays to recognize me and also i fucking want those patterned polos because hell to the yes. and also i want bangs but i do sports and i feel like id look ugly because everyone says they would (waiting til college, naturally) otherwise love my freckles and real dark eyes

28. honestly, probably like a 2-3. i don’t care SO much about what people think, but i’m fucking annoyed by really dumb things super easily. i’m just really good at hiding it so no one ever knows 

29. why music wtf OK: 1. need nothing - verite, 2. lover like me - off bloom 3. strapped - FOOL 

30. why the FUCK all my quotes are in my creed bitch lemme search :

“growing up is giving up” 

thanks for listening to my TED ED talk aaaaand i hope you know me a bit better and i hope i didn’t accidentally give away too much info and someone will come kill me ok BYE 

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this is soo selfish of me to ask but can I please ask what your thoughts are to how simon and bram find each other in the 'we fell like rain' au?? Like do you think it'd happen the same, because I guess they cant give away all that much away about one another without the other one guessing, bc they know a lot more about each other, being best friends? Like Simon could mention one thing about an oreo and I can imagine bram guessing it, haha. But Id really love to hear your thoughts on this! (1/2)

(2/2) bc that fic you wrote is sooo beautiful, I'm so curious as to how everything would play out in that world. I wonder if Simon might have been able to guess it in this verse?? Ahh, so many questions haha sorry! Love your writing

Hi friend! first of all thank you so much for your kind words and for thinking about we fell like rain!! It honestly means the world to me that you would want to know more about this verse like idk it’s just beyond amazing to me that anyone would want to?? second before i proceed i just wanted to say i believe very firmly in death to the author so if you have your own hcs and ideas about what happens next you are 1000000% free to have them and they are totally, completely valid - as I most likely won’t be continuing this verse, your guess is honestly as good as mine! having said that, here are some of the thoughts i have [with a cut bc yikes this got long]:

so first of all i think it’s worth mentioning that unlike Bram, i don’t think Simon would be quite as aware of his feelings for Bram; in simon vs, he’s very adamant about having a “policy of not falling for straight guys” in relation to Nick and so i feel like that would kind of carry over to Bram too if they happened to be close friends, especially considering Simon is much more oblivious and less self aware than Bram is; the feelings might be there, but would he recognize them as such? that’s harder to determine. i feel like he’s the kind of person who’d take his thoughts of how attractive Bram is and be like “but obviously everyone thinks that of him” kind of similarly to how Bram was with Simon in the fic lol

i can see it going a lot of ways, of course, but in my head the trajectory of the plot at least is pretty similar [at least in terms of their relationship developing through email, the blackmail plot, Simon being outed, etc.; one would have to imagine in addition to this their irl friendship would be developing, too - think of the pining!]. i’m not sure that i think Bram would figure out who Jacques was sooner than he did in canon [although you could maybe make the argument that he might have figured it out pretty soon in canon], mostly because he would probably try not to get his hopes up even more fiercely than in simon vs. i feel like his self-preservation instincts are pretty strong, so he’d be trying to protect himself from himself if that makes sense? in that sense, i feel like for him there would be an added dimension of, like, first of all trying really hard to get over irl simon [and maybe not being able to] and seeing similarities between jacques and irl simon as himself projecting his feelings onto jacques, subsequently resulting in lots of guilt and stuff. which could potentially cloud his perception a lot! but after a while i feel like even Bram wouldn’t be able to ignore it.

On Simon’s end, i’m not sure he’d be able to guess it either. It’s conceivable that he would! in my head though the fact that Bram actually mentioned the person he has feelings for in his original post would probably cause him to be even more careful about the information he divulges; it’s a big school but i’m sure Bram is well aware of the fact that most people would know who his “group” is. also there’s all the aforementioned not really in touch with his feelings and probably would make a conscious effort not to assume it was anyone he actually knew stuff

with all that in mind, in canon the emails were very much the one place these boys could be really open about themselves and talk about being gay, and that would still be a big thing in this verse, but i find the idea that the emails are the one place they can be open about being gay but not really much else about themselves to be compelling when juxtaposed with how Simon and Bram share lots of themselves with each other but they feel like they can’t be open about this one big thing. it would certainly be interesting to explore the feelings of that! 

and then you have to wonder how Bram would react to Simon being outed. if he hadn’t figured it out already he would DEFINITELY know then, but i don’t think he’d be ready to tell Simon that he’s Blue. there would probably be a lot of guilt there that he knows all this stuff about Simon that he feels like he shouldn’t know, because would Simon have told him if he’d known it was Bram [i mean, debatable that this doubt of Bram’s is all that founded, but you have to imagine the tumultuous heightened emotions of this situation]?? so maybe that would fracture their irl friendship too a little, if Bram was too overwhelmed with, like, the guilt of knowing all this stuff, plus the guilt of not being able to be there for Simon in the way he really wants to be [i.e - not posing as a straight ally], plus confusion over Simon potentially being into Cal. Blue pulling away in the emails - would Bram pull away in real life too? Hm. Maybe.

anyway, obviously i never got around to figuring out a proper outline so i really don’t know what else i would have changed if i had decided to continue with this verse [and honestly the fact that i figured the endgame at least would be the same made it easy to make the decision not to; i can’t write canon better than becky can!] but i like to think of the weight “it’s you” would have in this verse. like, maybe it wouldn’t have occurred to Simon before that very moment, at least not on a conscious level, but at the same time it wouldn’t surprise him at all. it would just make sense, on a level he wouldn’t even be able to articulate. and the relief that both of them would probably feel that they can finally be completely, 100% honest with each other? Fucking unreal, I would imagine.

in light of all that, i don’t think much would have to be changed from canon to make an interesting story. The interesting part [to me] would be how just this one change in the story could affect the complexity of their feelings. Same story, more or less, but a host of different emotions driving it!

Anyway. that’s pretty much all i’ve got on this subject. i hope this satisfies you, anon, though if you want to keep discussing this i’m honestly more than game. thank you so much for this opportunity to talk about this verse

#wow can you believe i wrote an entire essay about this lol #i'm a parody of myself #anonymous #answers