#but now i cant fall asleep

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#getting flashbacks to middle school right about now #because i just spent like three hours reading a whole book #putting off taking a shower and going to sleep #it was Simon vs the homosapiens agenda #i read it like three years ago #but i just rewatched the movie and so i had to reread the book #i bought it and Leah on the offbeat #and i needed to reread Simon before i read Leah #i have to wake up in less than five hours and i still need to take a shower #the problem is. im not tired #i took a nap earlier #the worst nap of my life #but now i cant fall asleep #im gonna get max four hours of sleep and then work a ten hour shift tomorrow #maybe ill just pull an all nighter and read Leah instead of sleeping #im sure that wont go wrong #i have an interview for starbucks on monday :) #im super excited because i want to quit this job #hopefully i wont have to work ten hour shifts there #okay. gonna take a shower #i kind of want to start Leah but i knew that if i start i wont be able to stop #idk. we'll see how i feel after showering

[mummer]

just saw asteroid city last night, pls explain the proposed significance of the kiss!!

answering this publicly hope thats ok! cant do a readmore im on mobile *****asteroid city spoilers below beware*****

i dont remember anyones names so this is gonna sound partly unhinged. okay so the edward norton playwright and jason schwartzman actor (not character, in the black and white parts) are lovers right. tbh i thought this was kind of a gag and forgot about it. but later we find out that the playwright died 6 months into the production. i didnt make the connection that THAT’s why the actor-jason has to suddenly leave the stage and freaks out backstage about how he’s not sure he’s Doing it right. hes not talking about acting!! because he himself is literally grieving his lover while he’s playing a character who’s grieving his wife written by his lover so obviously it’s too much!!! actor-jason is trying to find meaning in his death through his writing but there isnt any meaning in death [gerris drinkwater voice] which is what the play is trying to say anyway. he doesnt think he’s performing grief right even in his own life!!! (and tbh it’s the 50s so he wouldnt be able to perform grief publicly anyway!!!!) the play starts with a car accident… anyone would search for some hidden meaning there, some sign…. so when he talks to margot robbie outside it’s not really about finding the CHARACTER’s motivations it’s about the actor himself being able to process the playwright’s death! and adrien brody director was probably also dealing with that too (him and norton seemed to be good buddies) so the whole “sleeping backstage” thing gets a bit sadder maybe? maybe everyone else got this in the theatre and im just stupid lol but crazy making stuff to me!!! the whole story is about sublimated gay grief that cannot be expressed?!?!

the tweet that caught me onto this was here which posits that the playwright’s death was a suicide but i think that’s pretty stupid and unnecessary because the whole thing about the play asteroid city is that death is random and meaningless. im pretty sure that’s what the alien represents— a shocking and absurd event that isnt outright evil or menacing, not something anyone can predict or make sense of, it’s just a thing that happens to you out of nowhere, it doesnt mean anything. he’s a little black figure, he’s death! giving and taking! aagh

#you’re the wife who played my actor :( #posthumus #asteroid city #imagine youre in love with a playwright and he writes a play before he even meets you about how you cant get over his death which hasnt #happened yet. id go insane too #im going to see it again to see how this informs the whole thing because its driving me crazy #rewatching the performances knowing that they're performing people performing. augh. #remember when bryan cranston accidentally appears in frame. rending my garments #also ‘you cant wake up until you fall asleep’ confused me a bit but then i remembered that the margot robbie scene was supposed to be put o #as a dream sequence and it makes sense now. thanks #aliens are the new fairytale monster symbol of death. the ultimate Unknowable #EDIT okay i read the wikipedia summary got some facts wrong adrien brody is sleeping in the theatre during rehearsals so its not because of #the playwright’s death he’s just like that.

[sallymew4]

some more pre-mob terumob :) this is kinda based on these tags on my last post about them from @mtndw-whteout below

mean little teru when mob states the obvious lol

#auhgh im so tired like literally falling asleep right now #teru tries so hard to fight tha Fever #bu t it is a losing battle always #for he is weak against mob's genuine bluntness #this wus fun 2 draw #i tried doing a distinctly different composition 4 (just about) each panel #i like drawing flujstered teru so silly #he cant handle tha mobbler he gose crasy #ahhhh goodnigth. wish me lujcl #im worried im misising or forgetting smth.... cuz im tired... uhj #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #mob psycho fanart #teruki hanazawa #hanazawa teruki #shigeo kageyama #kageyama shigeo #mob #pre-mob teru #terumob #meowmeow art

[itsdefinitely]

oc things and stuff

#wuold you still love me if i posted out of context oc art #the first one is actually from months ago i just never shared it #guys i want to talk about them so bad #these arent even the main characters theyre just the ones i like to draw #me when the villains have a found family dynamic!!!!!! #jorge gold #oliva gold #ether oliva #ether #etherverse's eudemonic event of effigies #<- dont worry about those tags smile #definitely art #id in alt text #character concepts and universe by my friend!! except for jorge. hes mine :] #if the ids are bad im sorry but im also actively falling asleep so i cant go back and fix them right now

[trashcreatyre]

Get these gay people OFF my screen >:/

#based on some doodles I don’t think I ever posted here cause I didn’t really like them #also ignore mephiles’ legs idk #I’ve decided to finally try anything with this designs legs cause i really didn’t like them in the first drawing of it #idk if this is what ill stick to but its something for now #idk if i really like it cause like it felt right but but idk if i like it #n e way #gay people #sonic fanart #mephiles the dark #infinite the jackal #infinite x mephiles #mephiles x infinite #mephinite #mephinfinite #doodle #the living dead au #is that the tag for that au? i cant remeber lol #autodesk sketchbook #i really dont like that i draw them the best when im like five minutes from falling asleep #like i did most of the sketch last night and then cleaned it up just now #my theory is that when im sleepy im too tired to feel cringe and will just draw anything (within reason) #trashcreatyre's art

[oatbugs]

my research partner and i are huddled in a blanket in paddington waiting for a too-late train i already miss you and you and you

#he keeps falling asleep almost on my shoulder and waking up and readjusting but i want to tell him its ok weve seen a lot #of each other ive seen your brainwaves you called me crying a few nights ago. research partner right now is a potentiality #friend is a certainty. i met a banker passionate about finance. he said his advice made the lives of others better and he likes the numbers #more than he likes anything else. on a high rise near canary wharf the view was wonderful and the people even moreso #he said i loved her but i spent 33 grand on her and i cant do this anymore. his voice cracked talking about her. he did love her. #and she talked softly she grabbed my hand she bought me a pack of Marlborough gold she told me to snap #the russian menthol cigarettes of the tortured polish man near us with my teeth i kept staring at her teeth #bright white and sharp. i couldnt find her heartbeat but i did find warmth and i did find her lips and i did feel #how she felt pressed against a wall. a pretty boy held my hand and i gave him my number. i couldnt stop smiling about her no matter #how many runways youve walked on how many collections youve designed how many students youve taught. senior lecturer teaches me how to do #very unethical things ethically over a double shot of vodka made by the half-persian with broken farsi. she talks softly #and she says her eyes are hazel but they appear a shade of red. pure gold on her hands and leather on her back and her fingers on my lips #(she talks softly sees through me she says something i cant hear but i wont forget the way she flies) she talked to my research partner #about the possibility of moving to sunny dubai with the rest of her family and my heart felt pierced. on her arm i traces a tattoo of a #knife passing through a rose. she told me she thought there was romance in severing so i kissed her some more. #he sat me down and asked me what i loved and i told him and he said no romance no person no tragedy will take that from you. #the room was filled with a collection of people in love with something that wasnt a person and i kept looking at her. #red eyes bitten jawline beautiful hands. it is 3 degrees Celsius my head is on his shoulder i miss my friends #we walked out the lecture hall with arms linked a photo of two years ago and we both said #jesus christ. i miss you all. and i miss logic metatheory lectures. im glad i get to stare at the depth of your eyes #i wish i had met you years ago. #crushposting

[miloicy]

springtime

#twisted wonderland #twst #my art #twst kalim #kalim al asim #twst jamil #jamil viper #cant fall back asleep so posting this at god-awful hours (for me) #(because time is relative and also timezones. just timezones.) #ANYWAYS #this is the keychain i ordered!!!! #god it has arrived in my country now #most likely will get it by this week #BITING ROCKS omg i cant wait to hold it against the sunset. its transparent acrylic and i ordered (and colored) it with that in mind

[sherlockig]

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#i wanna complain #i have been tired all day and went to bed at 20 #but instead of sleeping i have been crying on and off all evening for no other reason than hormons and self hatred spiral #and now i cant fall asleep no matter what i try #i am mad i just want to sleep #send help

[ramblingsofafanatic]

Kalluzeb Cottagetober 2023! Day 10 - Cloud Watching

#art #kalluzeb #cottagetober 2023 #hey uh guys you cant be watching the clouds if you fall asleep guys hello #ill be honest i love how fluffy and soft i managed to make kal's hair here - i wish to run my hands through it #im caught up!! (ignore that this is technically post at 1am on the 11th) #... ill go back to school assignments now i GUESS #alexsandr kallus #garazeb orrelios

[silverskye13]

The universe keeps thwarting me [nerfed by the common cold edition] but So Much (for) Stardust is a RnS Helsknight song.

#spazzcat barks #im delirious #but also i started drawing the two lines that make me EmotionalTM and had to stop because its 9pm and my brain is melting #anyway i keep imagining #'I used to be a real go getter' as Helsknight before he started looking like Wels #[taller muscular platinum white blonde hair annoying spotting of freckles constantly red eyes] #and then panning to 'I used to think it'd all get better' Helsknight with hair nearly auburn no freckles dull black-blue eyes #the only real thing setting him apart from his other half being the scars he chose to keep -- even those fading with time #so much for stardust... we thought we had it all....... #eughhh i need sleep #its just a good song okay #life is just a game maybe #im stuck in a lonely loop now baby #i need the sound of crowds now or i cant fall asleep at night #im losing my mind #i think ive been going through it.... ive been putting your name to it.... #[dilerious muttering continues]

[sunflawyer]

good mayomorning friends!!! 🧡🧡 have a wonderful day! 💖

here's abby in a sunflower field to brighten your day ☀️🌻

#im still sick but im getting better! #also ive been sleeping for the whole day n now i cant fall asleep lol #i miss you guys a lot how are you guys ilysm #oh!! i made some doodles of abby in a sunflower field I'll share them one by one each day!!🫶 #abby cliffwood #☀️mayo's doodle #🐤mayo's diary #mayo.txt

[skunkes]

i was already having insane sleep before The Medication so i cant tell if the insane sleep is a side effect or just a continuation of that. But i am having insaner sleep

#talkys #i cant even tell what happened with my sleep right now (i just woke up). i dreamt but it feels like i never fell asleep #but i remember falling asleep right away? and dreaming? #but it feels like it never even happened? #all my life as soon as i fall asleep i will not wake up until its time to do so. its the blessing to make up for the curse of needing over #an hour to fall asleep. but if meds are making me wake up during the night and it doesnt go back to normal then this one might not be for m #BUT ALSO ill keep seeing bc i havent been able to have a normal sleep since i got the meds. yesterday i was woken up #by an extremely loud thunderstorm at like 8 am and today i had to wake up early #so i havent had unbothered sleep....we will see #im also experiencing other stuff thats like i cant tell if its the meds or just a continuation of my regular issues LOL

[arytha]

the worst thing abt being (more) sick is that i dont have the brain power to read 😭 forever stuck on chapter 35

#i wanna know what jiang ting is doing but i cant get my eyes to focus on the words for long enough ghfhdjsj #stuck watching youtube videos until i fall asleep now forever #mara reads

[napping-sapphic]

so so sleepy but cat is ON my legs so i can’t move into comfortable sleeping position so can’t fall asleep but can’t stay awake but SOO ready for sleepy tired sleep but CANT because CAT

#i am #struggling #she is so sleepy and comfy that she face planted again😪 #i went to bed late and she was SO mad and rushed me to my room #and as soon as i layed down girl was ON me but now i cant sleep because NOT comfortable #but i am so tired😴😴 #barely staying awake but definitely NOT falling asleep smh #also i think i missed a few notifications so i’ll try to get to those tomorrow! #i’d do it now but i am TOO TIRED😴😴😴 #im great at phone and notifications and messages #insert second part to that joke here pls im too tired to remember what i was gonna say #😴 #just know i HAD something else to say about it and it was probably SO funny #so funniest joke ever in the world😤😤 #😴😴 #to summarize: now = SLEEPY #later = lookin at my inbox #now = slowly extricate myself from beneath this cat #later = idk what else be busy tomorrow apparently yuck🤢🤢 #*​smooches you goodnight smooches you goodnight SMOOCHES YOU GOODNIGHT* #go to SLEEP #RIGHT NOW #EVERYONE #DONT CARE WHAT TIME IT IS FOR YOU ITS SLEEP TIME NOW😤😤😤 #😴😴😴😴😴😴😴😴

[topsyturvy-turtely]

i just got up AN HOUR EARLY 😩😭

#turned my alarm clock an hour early #like... an HOUR #and now i am awake and have to get up in half an hour #and i JUST realized #how incredibly stupid #because falling back asleep would be disastrous #but not going back to sleep i'm gonna be tired af #ugh #omg #i cant even #turtely

[bunnihearted]

🏥🦷

#damn my teeth on my left side reallyyyyy fkn hurt #last night it started hurting so bad i couldnt fall asleep #i took some regular over the counter pain pills nd they brought down the pain a bit #so it at least didnt hurt as bad as it did first #but now after sleeping a few hours it still hurts :// #idk what to do... bc i've googled but it is like impossible for me to know what this is. could be anything rlly #nd w physical health stuff im not as terrified bc i can just go to the ER. when i was there it only cost $15 lol #but dental care is so fkn expensive i dont even have that in my account #anyway. i could get an 'urgent appointment' which i get financial aid for... probably. thats the thing. it's not 100% certain #idk what i should do bc like i could wait it out nd see if it'll pass nd then wait on my appt the 6th may #or maybe i should call my dentists nd ask them what they think nd if they can give me an urgent appt.. #i hate calling tho. i know that sounds ridiculous esp when im dealing w pain but my avpd makes it so so hard for me. i'd almost rather not #if i was smart nd normal thats what i would do. just call them nd see what they decide for me. maybe i'll wait nd see nd call tmrw.... #nd idk abt the pain. like it rlly hurts but it isnt extreme i think.. but when i press one tooth it hurts a lot nd makes me worried it's #dying 💀 nd like u can actually die from teeth pain nd complications... nd infections nd stuff. it's scary af 😭 #idk if my tooth is dying nd i need to contact a dentist rn or if its smth that can wait for a bit #i mean if i had a job nd a salary i'd book an appt for tmrw nd get it checked but i have to discuss w myself bc i cant afford lol #ugh this is the reason im terrified of dental problems. the pain is awful nd theres nothing u can do if you're poor #my head keeps spinning idk what i should do abt this 😭 i csnt make up my mind. just want it to go away on its own but i know it wont #nd it hurts so that i can barely sleep or eat or concentrate. so i rlly dont know..... #oh if only things were easy