The Agony of Desire
Part 13 // Masterlist
A/N: I've never been able to see Billy Russo and BB as the same person, I know I've mentioned it before... but my brain doesn't link them together even though I know logically that they share the same face. This is why I was able to continue to write for Billy Russo. But it was definitely hard at first. I'm not sure if I'll be able to write any new things about him- right now I'm just determined to finish the things I've started. I can't look at pictures of him, so you'll see me using less gifs of his face.
Warnings: Smut (18+), consensual dub-con (everything is consented to beforehand), oral (m and f receiving), dd/lg scene, daddy kink (Billy does get a bit creepy but it's all part of the scene), p in v sex, many mentions of sex throughout, office sex, car sex, mentions and talks of pregnancy, mafia themes, mentions of murder, canon typical themes.
P.S. I'm really sorry in advance 💖
Dedicated to, @bustlingcrowdsxorxsilentsleepers, @pillow-titties, @justchloe2184 and so many more that my tags would not work for but if you commented or reblogged part 12... I mean you 😘😘
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"Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation."
― Kahlil Gibran
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"Are you lost, little girl?"
From your spot on the bench of the museum, you look up.
He's dressed down, a casual grey shirt and some fitted jeans that are paired with boots shined so pristinely that you want to rub your dripping center all over them.
You give him a fake sniffle.
"My daddy left me here and told me he'd be right back but it's been hours."
You can see the delight in his eyes.
"Oh, you poor thing," he says, taking the open seat next to you, "Little girls shouldn't be left alone. Who knows what kind of trouble they can get into?"
You frown, pretend wiping at the corner of your eye.
"I'm no trouble Mister, I'm really good. Daddy always tells me I'm really good."
He clears his throat, looking around, you think you can make out how tight his pants gets.
"Okay, maybe we can go look for him. I have a phone in my car. Why don't you come with me?"
You swallow, pretending to be shy.
"I'm not supposed to go off with strangers." You murmur, looking away instead of at him.
"Oh, poor sweet girl. I'm not a stranger am I? I'm Billy. I can help you if you want."
You swallow, looking up at him, nodding your head eventually, and taking his hand when he stands.
The key was to dress innocent, without having it look childish in any way. You think you accomplished that with your cozy oversized sweater and sheer tights look paired with a little skirt. The paw of your sweater eats his hand as he guides you to his Jeep, sitting in the far end of an underground parking lot. The windows are tinted dark, perfect for a debauched man to have his way with you.
"Oh! Is this your Jeep? It's really nice, Mister."
He looks back to give you a wicked grin.
"Thank you, my phone's in the back. Why don't you hop on in?" He pulls open the door, and the Jeep is so high off the ground that he has to grip your hips firmly to give you a boost. If anything, it makes you so much more aroused that he picked this vehicle.
You scoot in, sliding to give him space to get in next to you. When you look around for the phone and can't see it, you turn to look at him curiously.
He smiles, leaning forward, and you gulp, leaning back. His body gets very close to yours, his breath hits your lips and he smiles at the uncomfortable look you give him. One hand is behind you rummaging around, and his other hand smoothes over your knee for a short moment.
"Here it is." He says, pulling a phone free and placing it unlocked in your palms.
You type in your own number, and give him a little smile as you press the phone to your ear.
You pretend to be too distracted to notice that his hand's still on your knee, but you can feel him, warm and gentle, where he's meant to be.
Your phone rings and rings, probably vibrating it's little life out on his countertop where you left it this morning.
"He's not answering." You say sadly, looking up at Billy.
He clicks his tongue, "Oh you poor thing. Lost, with no daddy to help you."
Your frown deepens, his hands slides a little higher up your thigh.
"What do I do?" You say to him, and he gives you a little smile, and a tilt of his head.
"Well, I can help you get home, little girl."
"Really?!" You say excitedly.
"Yeah, I can take you home to your daddy."
"Thank you!" You sing, throwing your arms around him, and you feel his palms on the backs of your thighs.
"Don't thank me just yet, princess. I need to get something in return."
You stiffen, pulling away to sit back, playing with the edge of your sweater.
"Well, what do you want?" You ask quietly, not looking up at him.
He smiles, leaning forward to brush a strand of hair away from your eyes.
"Why don't we start with a kiss?"
You gulp shaking your head.
"I'm only allowed to do that with my Daddy."
Billy leans forward, his hand snaking down to your shoulder.
"Well I don't see your daddy around. Do you?"
You think for a second before shaking your head again.
"Maybe I can be your daddy for a little bit. How does that sound princess?"
You bite the edge of your lip, nodding your head slowly.
"I'd like that, Mister."
He gives you a pleased smile and you can't help wiggling your legs excitedly, returning his smile.
"How about that kiss?" He asks.
You nod with determination, leaning forward, you have to brace your palms on his large thigh and tilt your head up for your lips to meet his. He doesn't make it easier, doesn't bend his head or even look down, forcing you to do all the work.
You press your mouth to his, and you sigh against his mouth. Your lips are slow and tentative, giving the impression that you're not too sure about this.
All too soon, you're pulling away, dropping your body back into a sitting position beside him.
"That's a kiss?" Billy asks, unimpressed.
You frown.
"Is that the kind of kiss that makes your daddy happy? That's pathetic."
Your lip wobbles.
"I'm sorry, that's just what daddy taught me."
He cups your cheeks and you sniffle.
"Oh, poor princess, its not your fault at all. You just haven't been taught well enough."
You don't meet his eyes, letting him take a moment to study your sad expression.
"I can teach you if you want." Billy offers.
You perk up.
"Really?"
"Yes, really. Close your eyes."
You do as he says.
"Now," his voice is deep and low, "just copy what I do, okay?"
"'Kay." You whisper.
His mouth descends on yours.
Devouring would be a kind word.
Billy starts slowly, with feverish kisses and heated moans but it doesn't last long at all, before he's licking at the seam of your lips.
"Open that pretty mouth for me princess." He says, or rather commands, and you obey.
His tongue is slippery and dextrous against yours. He finds a way to explore the cavern of your mouth thoroughly, sloppily, just like a true perversive man would.
He keeps it filthy, not stopping when you make a sound of protest as he leans over you, letting his body cover yours, forcing you to lean back against your will.
You hardly notice he's slipping his hands under your shirt and tugging at the cups of your bra until it's too late.
You let out a shuddering sound of surprise, turning your head away to break the kiss as you realise he's pushed your sweater up and he's feeling shamelessly at your nipples. You raise your hands to grip at his wrists, trying to tug him away gently.
He kisses at your neck, pressing more of his solid weight on top of you to stop your resistance.
He's gentle with your nipples, rubbing slow circles into them, until they're stiff and puffy and begging for attention.
Pleasure sweeps up your spine in a syrupy mess, you can't resist him when he's teasing you like this, you can feel your body going pliant below him like it's accustomed to.
Thankfully, he pulls back, his mouth leaves your neck, and he even takes the time to right your bra, though the material is now uncomfortable on your aching nipples.
"Sorry baby girl, got a little carried away." Billy murmurs as he tugs your sweater down.
You pout at him.
"Does that mean you'll take me home now?"
"No, bunny," He says with a laugh, "We're not done kissing yet."
He reaches to grip the back of your neck with warm, slender fingers. Your head swims with the desire to be pliant for him.
"Have you ever kissed a cock, baby?" He asks, his other hand reaching down to undo the buckle of his belt.
You almost moan.
What should you say, yes? No? What would make him lose his mind?
"N-no sir." You finally decide.
Billy pauses as he gets the button of his jeans open.
"No?" He asks.
You shake your head as best as you can with his hand in your hair.
"Well we'll just have to fix that, won't we?" He says, undoing his zipper, and pulling his cock free.
Your mouth waters imperceptibly, aching for a taste of him.
His grip on the back of your head tightens, and he guides your mouth to his cock, leaving no room for argument.
"Go on, princess, give it a little kiss."
You do as he says, leaning in to press a soft kiss to the head of his cock. You're rewarded with a low moan, your skin tingling with the excitement.
You pause, looking up at him expectantly for more instructions.
"Wrap your lips around the tip, go on, no teeth baby. If I feel any teeth you're gonna be in big trouble."
You lick your lips before dropping your head again.
The tip of his cock is smooth, and slightly salty with his precum, you suck gently, exploring him with the tip of your tongue.
You let out a little noise of protest when he pushes your head deeper.
He groans again, and you hum in delight, taking the initiative to sink your head lower.
"Oh, princess." Billy moans. You can't resist rubbing your thighs together to get some kind of friction on your aching clit. You almost consider rubbing your clothed pussy against the edge of his seat, before you decide not to. Not wanting to risk the possibility of losing an orgasm.
You suck his cock eagerly, accepting the way he guides your head, using you gently but with purposeful strokes.
It's the sweet nothings in your ear that get you even wetter. He constantly praises you, telling you how good you're doing, how pretty you look slurping on his heavy cock and it encourages you to take him deeper, a little too enthusiastically until you gag around him.
You pull away shyly, gasping for breath and looking at him, a little ashamed that you might have disappointed him.
You squeak when he pulls you into him, being forced to straddle one of his thighs for purchase as his mouth descends on yours. His hands wander over your body eagerly, pulling at your clothes but never actually taking any off.
"Why don't you tug those leggings off and show me that pretty cunt, baby?" Billy asks when he pulls away. A little shy sound leaves your throat, looking up at him, unsure.
He nods his head in assurance, and you sigh, sitting back on his seat and tugging your shoes off, reaching up under your skirt to pull your sheer black tights down the length of your legs. You try not to shiver with his eyes fixed firmly on your movements, only looking up at him when your tights lay in a crumpled heap on the floor of his Jeep.
He's tucked his cock back into his boxers, and you almost pout when you notice, but he doesn't let you think about it for too long.
"Good. Now, lean back, spread your legs for me." He instructs.
You do as he says, propping one foot onto his seat so that he can see the glow of your white panties in the darkness of the van.
His eyes darken, and you swallow when you realise that the damp spot where your arousal is soaking through the fabric can be seen.
He watches you for a long moment, devouring the way you look.
"Take those little panties off for me too." He orders, and you gulp, shifting a little to slide them off.
He extends a hand to pluck them from your fist, grabbing your ankles to tug you closer to him, you yelp, your sweater and skirt rolling up in the process.
"Ever had your pussy kissed before, princess?"
"No, daddy." You hum, watching him bite down on his bottom lip so hard you swear it'll bleed.
"Your daddy never buried his tongue between your legs?"
"He said gentlemen don't do that." You whisper.
Billy scoffs angrily.
"Well, it's a good thing I'm no gentleman then." He mutters, before dropping his head between your thighs.
You cry out in surprise when his tongue meets your aching bud. He moans, the vibrations adding more pleasure to your clit.
It's filthy- the sounds he makes as he runs his tongue through your folds.
The backseat isn't spacious like a bed is, and Billy's large body is bowed in half in his determination to eat you out.
"Ah! Daddy, Daddy, Daddy, please!" You cry.
His mouth doesn't stop, his tongue feels like a probing appendage, hell bent on exploring every inch of your dripping cunt.
Your clit is stiff and throbbing when he sucks it between his lips, your back arching, your body trembles. His tongue laps over your clit before he stops, pulling away, licking his lips eagerly.
You mewl in protest, reaching for him in agitation but he swiftly grabs both your wrists to pin them beside your head.
"Daddyyyyyy," you cry, "feels really good, why'd you stop?"
"Calm down, princess." He says sternly, but you continue to pout, wriggling below him.
"I though you told me you weren't any trouble baby? That you were good. This isn't being good for me. Are you a little liar?" Billy taunts.
You pause, dropping your head in shame.
"Sorry, daddy." You say, slumping in defeat.
"That's alright princess. I only stopped to get you out of this heavy sweater. Do you want that?" He asks, fingers gripping at the edge of the sweater in question.
"Yes, daddy." You whisper, sighing when he carefully peels your thick sweater off your body. He unzips your skirt next, pulling it free before reaching to undo your bra.
"Look at you," he murmurs when he finally has you bare below him, "All naked and needy in the back of some stranger's car. This what you wanted, princess? To give your desperate cunt to the first man that was nice to you?"
"N-no sir. I jus' wanna go home to my daddy." You mumble, looking up at him.
"Oh princess," Billy sighs, dropping his head to lick a wet stripe from your collarbone to your jaw, "Don't you know that I'm your daddy now?"
You squeak in pleasure when his teeth sink into the skin of your neck gently. You moan loudly in response.
"Fuck. Look at these perfect tits. I could soak them in my cum if I wanted. What do you think?"
He asks, cupping a breast in either hand, massaging them gently.
"I'll be all messy." You protest lightly, eager to do whatever he wanted.
Billy hums deep in thought.
"You're right, I can always take you back to my place and cum all over your tits there."
"What?" You ask in surprise, "But you promised to take me home!"
Billy finally gives you his full predatory smile. It makes you shiver with excitement.
"I see no reason why we can't make my home into your home too... doesn't that sound like fun?"
You don't respond immediately, looking at him with furrowed eyebrows.
"Oh, don't be like that, baby. I bet I can convince this pretty cunt to come home with me. Shall I try?"
He doesn't wait for your response, kissing either breast and then tracing his way down your body. With each kiss, his beard tingles as it rubs against your skin.
His tongue is a lot slower when it slides over your clit the second time.
"Ohhhh..." you gasp, eyes rolling back in your head as he takes his time exploring you.
His hands grip your thighs tightly, and then he starts pushing his tongue deeper into your entrance. You gasp, the thought of this gorgeous man with his face pressed flush to your cunt makes you cry out, and then his pace increases as he swipes his tongue haphazardly over your clit.
He's so good, and you know you can't fight it. The tip of his tongue making fast circles on your clit, licking from your entrance all the way up and back down until you're shaking once again below him.
"Want you to cum for me, princess, on my tongue." He says, and then he's working in overtime, doing any filthy move possible until you cry out loudly, coming all over his tongue just the way he asked.
You gasp, say his name, watch him sit up happily, before grabbing you eagerly.
"Look how happy I make your pussy, princess. Will you come home with me now?" He asks.
Well damn, you couldn't say no to him.
He slides you onto his cock just as you say yes.
You gasp in surprise, unaware that he'd even freed his cock a second time and suddenly he's guiding your hips against his.
"Look how pretty you are, baby. Naked and bouncy on my big cock. You gonna cum again? Gonna ride me in my car and cum all over me?"
He pants hotly, pulling your face into his to give you a sloppy kiss.
"Fuck. Fuck you feel so good. So fucking tight I'm gonna come so deep inside you."
He lets out a long groan.
"Wanna take you on every fucking surface- Did I mention that? In every way, until you're dumb from it."
You were definitely dumb right now. Your mind was a shallow puddle of your thoughts- all centered around him and you were so on edge you could practically taste it.
"Gonna cum with you princess, fill you right up, watch it spill out. You're so good for me. Such a pretty little place for my cum. Daddy's perfect little hole."
"Daddy!" You cry, unable to fight it any longer, your walls squeeze his cock tightly as you cum hard, shaking as your orgasm floods your head, washing whatever little thoughts you have away with a tidal wave of pleasure.
You gasp, and his hands clench on your hips, you feel him make a few harsh thrusts before he groans loudly, emptying himself right into you.
He makes a few more small thrusts, and you sigh blissfully as it prolongs your orgasm. Your cunt is swollen and sticky with the shared fluids of your cum, but he still doesn't pull out of you.
You slump against him tiredly, and you feel him stroke the back of your head.
"How was that?" He asks, laying slow kisses onto your shoulders.
When you don't respond immediately, he whispers your name, concern laced into his voice.
"'M okay, daddy, jus' tired now." You murmur, peeking an eye open to look up at his bearded jaw.
Billy recognises that you're deep in subspace, and he holds you tight to his body as you float around him.
"You did so good princess, so good for me. Gonna take you home and draw you a nice bath."
You hum in protest.
"Thought you were gonna take me home an' cum on my tits?" You ask lazily, a little frown on your face that he can't see.
He sighs, continuing to stroke the back of your head.
"We can do that after the bath, but bath first, yeah?"
"Okay."
He places a soft kiss to your forehead, understanding that he just needed to be patient with you while you were lost in your head.
"Daddy?"
"Hmm?"
"Love you."
He smiles.
"Love you too, baby."
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"I'm so happy for you." You say softly, head tossed back on Karen’s couch.
Her red hair catches on the streetlights. It reminds of the way you'd gripped it in your hands all those years ago. You both sit in the dark, the sun having just set and neither of you could find the motivation to get up to turn the lights on.
"To think, this all started the night you and I hooked up."
You giggle softly, and then grows louder as ideas spring in your head.
"Can you imagine if I-" You gasp for air, "-If I put that in the toast?"
She laughs with you. Her engagement ring glitters as she takes a swig of her beer.
"What about you? Think you'll ever do it?"
You let out an exhausted sigh.
"Oh absolutely not." You protest. It gets silent as you try to build up the courage to speak the words to her.
"I still get nightmares about it." You confess.
She turns her head to look at you, you don't meet her eyes.
"I still remember the hopelessness of walking down that aisle, Ward's eyes as he hits me, sometimes I jerk awake with the memory." You smile, peeking at her.
"It's not all bad, I wake up next to him after all, and he stays awake with me, holds me, until I fall asleep again."
"You don't have to come to mine-"
You wave a hand to stop her.
"-No, it'll be fine as long as I'm not wearing white. Plus, you're not even having it in a church, so I'll be okay. I promise."
She smiles at you, and when it's not enough, she reaches forward to take you into a sideways hug.
"I'm glad I have you. I'm glad we met. I hope every universe has a you to go with me."
The thought squeezes your throat.
"And if you ever decide to leave Frank, we can still shave our heads and move to Bolivia."
She laughs. You're both interrupted by the buzzer in her apartment going off.
"Pizza's here. I'll be right back." She says, before slipping out the door with a jacket in hand.
You wait in the darkness, listening to the sounds of the city, sipping your beer.
When her apartment phone rings, you raise your head.
You know Karen had people calling her at all hours, waiting to give her information on whatever story she was following. Usually she preferred that the call goes to voicemail instead of having you answer and take the message, so you you sit back and let it ring.
When it stops ringing, and you hear her automated voice message play, a man's voice comes on next.
His tone is shaky, he's breathing between each word, it sounds like he's walking fast, or maybe just excited.
"Kar. I know you told me the Fisk thing was a dead end- but I was right. Someone's taken over the entire ring. I don't have much, only a name. Blackbird Enterprises. Call me when you get this."
The voicemail ends.
You blink, screwing your face into disgruntled confusion. In your state of inebriation, none of it makes sense. You take another sip of beer, leaning back and waiting for Karen to arrive with the delicious pizza.
You spend the night at her place, while Billy and Frank work late, you drink beers and have pizza and eventually fall asleep beside each other on her bed.
When you wake up in the morning. There's no memory of ever hearing any man's urgent voice on the phone.
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"Did you have a good time at your sleepover last night?" Billy asks.
"Mhmmm." You hum, a moan leaving your lips immediately after as his thumb swirls over your clit.
Your cheek is pressed flush to his desk, the oak turning warm from how long you've been in this position.
You feel his mouth seal over your cunt, you squeak as his tongue delves as deep into your core as possible.
When he pulls back, you wish you could see him. You imagine his mouth and chin is slick with your arousal, his tongue cleaning up whatever it can.
"That's nice, I'm glad you have someone to spend time with when I'm busy."
When you can only hum again, he pinches your clit in warning. You jerk in surprise.
"Words, baby."
"Karen is nice. She's amazing," you sigh, "but there's nothing quite like spending time with you."
You hear his sigh, his thumb makes meaningful swirls on your clit to show you his appreciation.
"That's... good to hear. Honestly... sometimes I get a little jealous."
You raise your head, trying to look back at him, but his palm grips the flesh of your asscheek in warning.
"You do?" You ask instead, returning to your position without protest.
"Without a doubt. Sometimes... I worry that she's stealing you away from me. That maybe she's taking my place when I'm not around."
"She wouldn't- I wouldn't-" You try to formulate a sentence.
"I know," he admits, leaning forward you kiss your slit, "Believe me, I trust you both. It's just my insecurities rearing its head. It has nothing to do with you at all."
You try to focus.
"You should tell someone."
"I'm telling you."
"I mean, someone who can help, someone who can show you that you have no reason to feel like that."
"Like a therapist?"
"Exactly like a therapist."
He hums, mouthing over your pussy, moaning as he tastes you.
"It's not a bad idea." He decides, finally doubling down on his efforts to make you cum.
You sigh in relief, groaning as he licks over your clit again and again and again until you're fighting back blissful screams of pleasure.
.
You tug your panties back up your legs, grinning at him as he rights his belt.
When he looks up at you. He gives you a bashful smile.
"What?" He asks softly.
You shake your head.
"Nothing. I just love you."
He chuckles.
"Careful. I'm not above bending you over this desk again."
"Wha-?! I was literally just telling you I love you." You complain.
He gives you a cheeky smile, stepping into your space. You gulp as he uses his hips to pin you against the table. You can feel the little bulge in his pants where he's already half hard.
"And do you have any idea what that does to me?" He asks, his finger twirling around a lock of your hair.
"Uhhhh" Is all you can say.
"That's right. It makes me want to get on my knees and thank you. Repeatedly. Until you can't walk."
"Ummmmmm" You try again.
He laughs, the sound makes your chest feel warm as he leans in to kiss you.
His phone rings.
"Fuck." He grumbles, slipping away from you to pick up the phone.
"This better be good." He answers and you watch him listen to what's being said on the other side.
"Hold on." He bites, and you marvel at the way he speaks to other people, compared to the way he speaks to you. He presses the phone to his chest.
"I'll just be a moment honey, don't move." He says to you, heading into the adjoining room to take his call.
You smile and nod, trying to ignore the way his newest pet name sinks right down to your core. Makes you wish he'd come back and lay you over his desk like he did earlier.
Speaking of his desk, you smile and look back at it. The entire system was in disarray.
You take your time, straightening papers, and placing his laptop back in its original place. You even open it up in an attempt to please him. When you reach for some of the stray pieces of paper on the floor, you notice a familiar name on one of the shredded papers in his bin.
Blackbird.
It's like a scratching in the back of your head, like someone knocking far off in the distance and you're in a hallway full of doors.
"-but I was right...Someone's taken over the entire ring.... Blackbird Enterprises.... when you get this..."
You frown, dropping the shredded line of paper back into the bin. You couldn't figure out what it meant.
Was Billy working for Blackbird? Had he helped someone take control of Wilson's assets?
You shake your head, not wanting to jump to conclusions, not after he told you he'd been trying to get out.
You raise your head when you hear his angry tone through the door.
"I told you not to transfer anything directly to me! God. You're a fucking idiot and now I can't use it because it'll be traced back."
His voice goes low, and though you can't hear his words clearly. You know he's issuing a threat.
.
It's his tone of voice that makes you begin to question everything. It's like you're trying to build a puzzle but you're missing crucial pieces.
You sit on it for days. It makes you nauseous.
You're kneeling behind him, carefully peeling back the bandage on his back.
"Does it hurt?" You ask, trying to be as gentle as possible.
The wound is small. Held together by careful stitches. Some of the finest work money can buy. There'll barely be a scar when it's fully healed.
"It pinches every now and then," Billy says, "but honestly the kevlar took a lot of the force."
You knew that. The bullet had stopped an inch deep in his back, nothing major had been damaged. A flesh wound by all means.
A bullet he'd taken for you.
You take your time cleaning it, making sure there's no significant heat or redness around the area- signs of infections- before carefully redressing.
"I think those stitches can come out real soon." You say, and you hear the smile in his voice.
"Yeah doc? I'm gonna make it? Thank god." He reaches back with his good arm to grip your thigh affectionately.
"I thought I was a goner."
You try to smile, but all you can hear is the shot going off, watching him hit the floor.
It's like he knows what you're thinking.
"It was all for show. You know that right?"
"Yeah." You say hoarsely. He'd said that before. It didn't mean that it didn't feel real.
It didn't mean that he hadn't taken a bullet for you.
"What if he'd aimed for your head?" You ask softly.
Billy turns, interrupting your careful placement of gauze.
His eyes are understanding, warm, he cups your cheeks and you can't meet his eyes.
"We can play the 'what if' game for eternity. It doesn't matter what could have happened. It matters what did." You let out a pained sigh at his words.
"I'd take a bullet in the head for you though. No question."
"Don't say that." You whine, fighting back tears.
"I mean it too. But that doesn't mean I won't do everything in my power to make sure that never happens."
You sniffle. Leaning forward to press your head into his bare chest.
You feel him kiss the top of your head.
"That's love, baby. I know what that feels like now. Because of you."
Your eyes squeeze shut, savouring the moment, his hand wrapped around you.
"I mean," you try to argue after a little while, "don't you love Frank too?"
"Yeah but in a different way you brat." He huffs, "You almost make me want to take it back."
"No!" You protest, "Don't take it back, I love you so much too."
He huffs, pulling you closer.
"Okay okay I won't take it back. I love you and this is the first time I've ever loved like this and my therapist thinks you should know that I don't actually know what I'm doing so that you can be more patient with me."
You let out a laugh.
"She didn't actually say that, did she?"
He grunts.
"She might as well have," he says, raising the pitch of his voice to do an impression of a woman, "Tell her how you feel, Billy, that you've never seen what a real relationship is supposed to look like and that means you're gonna make simple mistakes and that scares you."
You let out a little laugh.
"Is this your way of telling me how you feel?" You ask.
"Yes," he says in his normal voice, "because I still haven't learned how to talk about my feelings."
You nod, placing a kiss to his chest.
"Baby steps."
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"Please let me kill him." Billy begs, dropping into Frank's office couch.
"No, Billy." Frank says, in a tone that tells how exhausted he is with that topic.
"He fucked up my plans! He's an idiot. I'm begging you."
"We talked about this." Frank continues to clean his guns calmly. "We don't kill people for fucking up. We're better than that."
Billy huffs, the man in question had made the mistake of transferring money directly from Blackbird to Anvil. The real estate Billy had bought for his main modus operandi had been connected straight to him.
He couldn't use it now, he'd have to find another place to distribute from.
"I bet Micro wants him dead too. Can't imagine he was excited to find out."
"Billy." Frank warns, and he pouts dramatically.
Frank laughs.
"You know why we're doing this. I don't need to remind you." Frank says.
The thought sobers him. He sighs, nodding his head. They were doing this to keep the people they loved safe. Because if you were the most powerful man in the city, no one would try to take what was yours.
"Alright, I'll start looking around for other options. But I want him silenced and fired."
Frank gives a tired shake of his head.
"Sure."
"Nice. Love you, Frankie."
"Get out of my office, Russo."
Billy laughs, doesn't move an inch from his spot on Frank's couch.
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You're glad to see your parents readjusting to life in the city. Though, they'd had to downsize their apartment a little since your father had decided to stop participating in the shady side of business.
It was good for them, you think, they'd be safer, especially since Kingpin was dead.
Which was one of the reasons you'd agreed to sit with them through brunch, a little curious to see if they'd heard of any new players on the streets, but you were still trying to figure out how to work it into the conversation.
Any searches for Blackbird Enterprises online came up as a dead end. There was only a single hollow website, claiming to be a consultancy company, naming a David Linus as CEO, not even a picture to go along with the title.
It had made you worried. What was Billy into now?
"Do you want eggs?" You mom asks, browsing over the menu, while your dad stepped away from the table.
"Oh god no." You murmur, the very thought making you nauseous, "I've been having trouble with eggs lately." You admit to her. The thought of Billy being back in danger doing numbers on your stomach.
You mom looks up from the menu suspiciously.
"When was your last period?" She asks.
You freeze.
"A month ago. Why? You think-" You couldn't even voice the words.
She looks back down at the menu casually.
"You should take a test."
You lean forward.
"Like a- a pregnancy test? Mom. I'm not pregnant."
She raises her eyebrows, tilts her head.
"Then a test couldn't hurt, now could it?"
"No-no- but it's unlikely. I've only been nauseous because I heard that someone new was taking over Kingpin's work. Do you know anything?"
She finally looks up again, snapping the menu shut.
"Your father was telling me he heard talks of a new player, yeah. How did you find out?"
You couldn't mention Billy, she'd be too quick to condemn him before you'd even have all the information.
"Just something I heard on Karen’s voicemail. A company."
"Blackbird."
You lean in closer.
"So it's true? There's someone taking over?" You think you were going to be sick.
Were you safe? Were your parents?
Was Billy?
"Don't get involved trying to figure out what's going on. Blackbird is more dangerous than Wilson Fisk ever was. They're everywhere, and I've heard that even The Hand avoids them."
"The Hand?" You ask, confused.
She waves your question away.
"Another syndicate. My point is, go to a pharmacy, buy a couple of tests, and go home. Stop thinking about Blackbird."
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But how could you stop after a warning so ominous?
You take her advice though, stopping in the most questionable drug store and buying a handful of pregnancy tests. You pick the quietest store in hopes that no one recognises you, and the purchase goes successfully.
Instead of going home, you go to Anvil. You take two steps into his office and you don't give him much time to react before you wedge your body into his arms.
You're wound tight with tension, but one deep breath in his arms and your body relaxes.
"Everything okay?" Billy asks, concerned.
You squeeze him tighter and he returns the tight hold with one of his own.
He's yours, and no one is going to take him away from you.
"I'm fine." You say with a sniffle, finally raising your head to look up at him.
"Just- filled with painful memories. Can I use your bathroom?"
He kisses the top of your head.
"Sure baby. I'm right here."
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Negative.
And the breath you were holding rushes out of you.
It almost seems funny now, considering that your hand was shaking so badly ten minutes ago when you were peeing on the stupid stick. The longest ten minutes of your life, all for a blue negative sign.
You huff, stuffing the test back into the box and discarding it. You don't bother to take a second test, satisfied that you're fine, and there's one crises averted.
You wash your hands, stepping out of the bathroom, and heading down the little hallway that joins to his office.
Billy's sitting at his desk, on his laptop typing when you re-enter his office.
"So, I'm not pregnant." You say on a heavy breath and you watch Billy pause mid key stroke. You let out an awkward laugh with the comical way he looks up at you.
He's out of his chair in seconds, taking you into his arms swiftly.
"Oh baby, is that why you were so scared earlier?"
"Yeah." You say, a little sob following, and then the dam breaks.
You'd been trying to be brave about it, but you were relieved. Having a baby was a scary thought and such a big responsibility for you.
"I thought you were getting fitted for an implant?" He asks, his cheek resting on the top of your head.
"I- made an appointment, but I've been sick lately and mom just made me worry about it."
Billy makes a sound of apology, pulling you to lean against him as he props himself against his desk.
When you can catch a hold of the flood of emotions inside you, he tilts your head up, wiping at your cheeks.
"Would a baby be so bad?" He asks, and you sniffle, deep in thought.
"No," You admit to him, "but it's scary."
"I'm not scared." He says, and you look up at him with hopeful eyes, his fingers play with the hair framing your face.
"You're not?"
"I was... but... nothing's scary with you."
You give him a watery smile.
"Therapy's really doing you good, hmm?"
He grins. Pulling you closer and dipping his head for a quick kiss.
"Sorry, I just got overwhelmed. And then mom mentioned this new company called Blackbird-"
"Really?" He interrupts in a curious tone.
Your body goes stiff, and you meet his eyes.
"Yeah. They're apparently taking over Wilson's old dealings. Have you encountered them before?"
You knew the answer to the question, but you needed to hear him say it. You needed to see if he would lie to your face.
"Yeah, I- bought a dive bar from them recently. I was trying to venture out. I thought something was up, got my own suspicions about their legitimacy. I'm trying to distance myself from them now in case the feds think I'm involved."
Oh.
That was a reasonable answer.
And just like that, the last pit in your stomach unravels.
There really was nothing to worry about, was there?
You laugh, snuggling closer into him.
"I love you so fucking much." You say on a sigh, squeezing him tighter.
"I love you so fucking much too." Billy agrees, "But now I can't stop thinking about you swollen with my baby and now I wanna put one there."
You make a little giggle of amusement.
"Not that I'm saying yes... but I'm not opposed to some practice."
"Oh really?" He asks, smiling as he presses his lips you yours.
It doesn't last long, before there's someone knocking at his door, and his secretary is telling him that his three o'clock meeting is here.
You smile at his apologetic look.
"It's okay, Billy, I'll see you at home, yeah?"
"Nooooo," he complains, "wait outside for me? This shouldn't take too long."
You laugh, agreeing to his request.
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It's where Frank finds you five minutes later.
He gives you a big hug, and you laugh, happily returning his affection.
He starts off with checking in on you, and then the conversation spins in the direction of the wedding.
"We're thinking about moving it up. Too excited you know?"
You smile, nodding along, except you didn't know. You'd never be excited for a wedding ever again.
"Anytime you guys decide- and I'm there." You say, grinning up at him.
You chat for a little bit about useless wedding commentary, before the conversation spins again, to complaining about Billy.
"The man's a pain in my ass and I don't know how you manage. He sat on my couch the other day and wouldn't leave until I told him I loved him."
You laugh happily.
"That's progress." You argue, and Frank rolls his eyes and begrudgingly agrees.
"Blackbird's come far from when we first met, and that's all thanks to you."
Your smile drops.
"Blackbird?" You ask, your heart freezing to solid ice inside your chest.
"Yeah, it was his codename back in the military. He never mentioned?"
Act like nothing's wrong. Act like nothing's wrong.
You let out a little laugh. You wonder if Frank can see through the façade.
"No, he never said. What was your codename?"
You don't even hear his response.
"You okay?" Frank asks when he notices your spaced out expression.
You blink back into reality.
"Yeah. Yeah!" You raise a hand to scratch at your eyebrow. "Sorry, I just realised I was supposed to check in with a florist from across the city. Hope you don't mind if I cut this short."
"That's alright. I'll see you around?"
You smile.
"Yeah." You agree, heading towards the elevator, wishing him farewell.
You press the down button forcefully, begging the elevator to open up faster.
You can hear Billy's office door open, his voice getting louder as he speaks with someone.
The elevator door slides open.
It takes him walking around the corner curiously, and catching sight of you running away, for the pieces to fall perfectly into place.
Your face is stoic, borderlined angry, he looks confused for a moment, before his features settle into understanding.
As the elevator doors close, you finally come to the shocking reality.
That Billy Russo was the new Kingpin.
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