#but who knows i might delete this in the morning

[burkleswinifred]

still haven't written anything for my klaine hsm au, but i'm going to take a moment to talk about my hypothetical idea for it because i have nothing better to do (and idk maybe talking about will help me get in the mood to actually write). under the cut incase your not interested in reading it.

So Kurt is Ryan in this au and Blaine is Zeke. Why Zeke instead of Chad? I don't really know, Blaine just gives off Zeke vibes to me. Also the idea of Blaine trying to impress Kurt by baking for him is adorable. The general plot that I've come up with is similar to the first hsm movie with the school not liking when people don't stick to the status quo. Samcedes will take the part of Troy and Gabriella, so when they try out for the musical, Blaine figures he can talk about his passion for baking. Like in the movie though, people don't like it. Cut to that scene of Zeke trying to talk to Sharpay and instead it's Blaine asking Kurt if he would come to one of his basketball games (don't know if I should stick with basketball or change it to another sport). Kurt is definitely interested in Blaine, but he's scared of what his diva sister Rachel will think as she's already mad that samcedes might steal their spotlight (but mostly her spotlight). And that's really all I got so far. Still going back and forth between this being a fun little one shot or a fic with a couple chapters with alternating pov's from Kurt and Blaine.

#ramblings #wow look at me actually sharing stuff #but who knows i might delete this in the morning #me failing the try not to delete your posts challenge everytime #also sorry to my non glee mutuals who probably don't care about this #i'm going through it right now

[bamsara]

idk where that post is that talks about the casualness of queer love just existing in public but the feeling of hearing a woman say 'my wife' or some guy saying 'my boyfriend' while telling a story and it being nonchalant and not needing elaboration is something i cannot decribe because that was not common ten years ago

anyway I'm watching the news and the guy news anchor is talking Live about how bad the flight cancelations due to weather are and telling a story about how him and His Husband were stuck at an airport for a while and I am filled with love

#sara shush #might delete later but yippee #if anyone wants to know who im talking about its one of the news anchors on NBC news #if you look at their Morning Top Headlines on youtube for December 28th today youll see what i mean #and it is nice #its just a nice feeling

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ON THE SUBJECT OF A MARCH 1ST UPDATE LIVESTREAM.

so due to newly-employed circumstances, i most likely won't be able to stream my exploration of the update until the Sunday after it drops - March 3rd, likely around 10 am pst.

im not gonna ask anyone to wait because that's unreasonable and absurd, However! I am curious:

#im asking instead of cancelling it outright #because i know how fun it can be to see someone explore/discover/watch something youve already enjoyed #plus. if i may so bold as to say! #who knows! maybe some of you actually Want to hear me speculate and go bonkers On Mic <3 #absolutely unprompted #marked for deletion #welcome home #Why Am I Waiting Until The Third? #it will most likely be my first day off! #i dont wanna explore the update when im exhausted after a 9 hour shift lmfao #and i don't want to explore it in the morning before work when im on a crunch #i want Time! i want Energy! im gonna need all the brainpower i can cobble together! #oh man the upcoming full day of Active Avoidance #i might actually turn off my phone lmfao #bc muscle memory is gonna take me to tumblr & That has burned me so many times... #im not gonna use tumblr im not gonna use discord #im gonna queue up youtube videos so that i dont risk seeing anything on the homepage #babey im Hunkering Down! #i will simply spend my free time after work with myself. crochet. doodle. sit and stare at a wall #sob viciously bc im missing out #its interesting. so much of my life has been Being Late To The Proverbial Party & Missing Out On Experiences. #and by interesting i mean it makes me violent. sigh. but we deal! what else is there to do!

[dngrcpckwithmurdericing]

Having a serious George Michael moment at two am.

#we're having serious family problems #the kind you should call the cops about if you trust the cops #instead i called my dad #i have never asked him for anything #not in like thirty years #and i begged him to come as soon as he can in the morning #i can't be the only adult here anymore #and my abusive dad who has religious delusions is my only option #and for literally the first time in my entire fucking life he's coming to help me #i think i scared him with my crying #i don't think he's ever seen me cry in like the last thirty years or so #i am terrified though #so I'm listening to George Michael because he and Elton are the most comforting music i can think of right now #maybe I'll add some Madonna to this playlist #anyway everything is hard right now and i truly don't know what to do when the systems society has in place for this aren't an option #and my cats are like an hour away #i really might delete this later #I'm just so upset??? #i needed to write it out for a third time in a third place

[nerdsandbabyteeth]

Constantly trapped between I can’t wait to live away from my family and spend more time alone because I feel like my thoughts will have time to settle and I will lose my mind if I live alone because I am starting to lose a sense of self this week simply because two of my friends are away and I don’t speak to anyone much in school.

#noggin time #I also cannot stand the fact that people I know follow me online or people I respect even #because I have a constant nagging feeling I’m completely and utterly embarrassing I see people posting abt things in their life and like #venting or whatever and I could never do that I think bc so many people follow me that I see face to face #I mean I’m doing this right now but tumblr is it’s own beast I have like one person I know irl on here I think #also it’s not like I have no friends I still talk to teachers and other people but it’s my best friend who I meet every morning and my new #friend I made this year who is in all the same free periods as me and also likes talking about tv shows so it’s like two people I talktomost #if this were a therapy session which it now is I would trace back my feeling of pure unfiltered embarrassment at simply being online back to #when I used framecast when I was like 9 and I drew a character inspired by someone’s oc and they vague posted quite civil abt it like please #don’t copy my ocs guys and I cried about it for hours and hours and I’ve never been the same since not to sound dramatic but it’s true #I delete Instagram every 3 days because it starts to make me feel physically unwell and then I re-download it because I miss everyone #I didnr consider i might have some sort of mental issues other than autism until recently because I just convinced myself this isn’t a prope #r issue I should just get over it but at this point it’s violently affecting my moods when I’m not immediately talking to anyone

[adammilligan]

when michael was aiming for the completion of the apocalypse, he expected paradise. he expected his father to return, for peace to be brought to earth and all of existence besides, to finally and truly embody the weapon—the loyal son—he was created first and foremost to be.

that's not what happened, though. there was no eternal paradise. everything was a lie, a thought still most bitter and foul against his mind.

instead, adam looks at him with mirth in his eyes and a grin on his lips, the crinkles around his eyes deepening with the ferocity of it, and urges him, not for the first time, to try just one bite of the greasy mess of takeout he has the audacity to call food. he swears that michael will like it if he just tries it. michael has his doubts. he wrinkles his nose, retreats into the back of adam's mind with a dry retort.

adam's laughter rings through the air in tandem with the note of amusement pulsing through his soul, a gentle harmonization that captures michael's attention in a way that nothing ever has. for a split-second, for a single moment of eternity, he is transfixed. there is nothing he can do except listen, in a way that a weapon never could.

life crackles between them like lightning in a summer storm, flashing bright underneath the skin of adam's body, and michael is struck again by the realization—there is no plan. there is no destiny. there is no army to command, there is no father to serve.

and much the same, this is no paradise. there are far too many faults in the world for it to be so. but adam's soul flickers playful and warm, a fire without teeth, and michael thinks: how could paradise be anything but this?

#it's 1am. i am so tired. but! i present this to you anyway #might delete it in the morning. who knows #kate rambles #midam #my stuff

[sharkieboi]

I’ve messaged him and I’m giving him at least a day to reply and/or block me but like my skin is just crawling this is disgusting

#shhh sharkie #sorry to be vague im just not airing the full dirty laundry #but i need some like diary feeling timestamps for this later. #might delete these and just save them as drafts with the timestamps for me. #how fucking dare he. this is horrible and I feel so violated. #i knew he was a person with like zero actual real ability to feel empathy but this is a new low. #i’m just gonna make dinner and get drunk and try to forget about it enough to sleep till the morning. #I don’t even know who I can talk about this with (local and irl who know him)

[flergblerg]

I feel like what’s not talked about enough is how secretive and sneaky kids who grew up with ADHD had to be in order to survive in a sense, and how the continual forced sneakiness and secretiveness to compensate for the mistakes made when trying to be “normal” really shows up in an ugly way as an adult to the point that casual lying can become second nature to them, not even in a consciously malicious way. It’s just become so engrained in their fear/stress response to try to deescalate situations to avoid blame or criticism

Also the constant identity crises they might have from continual masking

Or I may be completely wrong and ton of people are talking, writing and researching about this lol

#you don’t wanna know how early in the morning I wrote this post lol #thoughts #I might delete this #I am NOT a psychologist #just someone who grew up with #adhd

[pepprs]

my dad might have fucking covid. about to jump off a bridge

#purrs #he was unmasked in my future room with the contractors yesterday and one of them woke up sick this morning and stayed in bed all day and now #my dad is feeling sick and my mom isn’t even better yet and i just saw so many people (WHO ARE VULNERABLE / HAVE VULNERABLE FAMILY MEMBERS) #in the last couple of days and now i might have exposed them. i am about to LOSE my shit. i need all respiratory diseases to die immediately #i am TIRED of living in constant fear. and i am FURIOUS at my dad for not wearing a mask. #like do you people NOT FUCKING GET IT. You may be cavalier. you may say you don’t care if you get it you can fight it off. BUT YOU INTERACT #WITH OTHER PEOPLE. who may not WANT to get sick. Who may not be able to DURVIVE getting sick. WHAT IS SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND. if you see #someone wearing a mask they are doing that FOR A REASON!!!! TO PROTECT THEMSELVES!!!!! TO PROTECT THEIR LOVED ONES!!!!! so fucking WEAR ONE #OUT OF COURTESY! USE YOUR FUCKING BRAIN! i don’t care if they’re hard to breathe in. I don’t care if they’re uncomfortable. I don’t care if #it’s your own house and you’re not used to it. SUCK IT UP. you can be uncomfortable for five minutes. you KNOW how anxious we all are about #getting covid and you DIRECTLY endanger us and now i might have put other people in danger. and i didn’t even choose it I didn’t do anything #wrong. FUCK COVID. fuck this collective punishment nightmare. I am SO TIRED of living in constant fear because OTHER PEOPLE want to pretend #it’s over. it fucking ISNT. there are things I care about. there are people I care about. and if you were a decent fucking human being you #would understand that and MASK UP. not everyone gets to be so glib about it. it’s hard enough being seen as fucking insane and still taking #damage from having basicaly 0 social life because im too afraid to go anywhere or do anything it’s harder when people around me who i can’t #help but interact with exhibit that they do not actually care about how it is improtant to me that i do not get sick or get my loved ones #sick ESPECIALLY when it is my loved one himself who KNOWS how scared shitless we all are. it fucking hurts so bad. fuck covid. FUCK covid. #delete later #like. despair. i can wear my n95 mask all i want but i am still fucking HELPLESS when people around me don’t. despair. DESPAIR.

[thebackupsystem]

Sometimes it’s the little things that mean way more than they should.

#captain’s orders | Captain #like. it’s such a little thing. so absolutely tiny. but it means just? so much? #I hate hearing my name. my actual name. because of so much tied to it #only a handful of people can call me my name and have me be okay with it #recently I’ve? realized? that that list is larger than I thought basically? #and tonight I went in and changed my server nickname on a few servers to reflect that #do I expect an instant change to my actual name? no #but I trust them enough to have my nickname as my actual name and not just Captain #I’m... Really not sure how to feel about it but it’s... Idk I guess it’s nice? in a way? #to have a group of people that I trust enough to have my name seen and possibly be referred to by name #and know I won’t flinch because of who they are? #last time that was the case it was my wife #... I might. delete this in the morning. this could just be tired rambling.

[kadythethief]

this might just become a six-pack if only i dropped the sweeties ;D

#WHICH YOU KNOW WILL NEVER HAPPEN #lmao #gym pics #feeling cute #might delete later #gym #gym time #gymtime #might delete lmao #might delete tomorrow #might delete in the morning #might delete lol #might delete idk #might delete this #might delete who knows #might delete might not #might delete i dunno #might delete soon #might die #work out #work out mus #work

[13thsinnr]

im going to bed rn but i need to talk abt this.. i just soft blocked a close oomf on twt after they got cancelled for some stuff that happened in the past and i hate cancel culture but im also so stuck bc we were so close and.. i feel like i fucking threw that all away when i sb’ed them and i just have SUCH mixed feelings about the whole thing

#sorry for dumping #they’re like one of the only people who listens to me on there though #who i enjoy #and i’m just really conflicted #god #i don’t know what to do #i don’t know if i made the right choice. #might delete in the morning

[lurker-extraordinaire-657645]

lowkey kind of hate this but. here you guys go i guess? this is kind of heavy though so. be safe yk (not that bad, of course) this is a sort of mini-fic thing for an au i've made. witness the thing i did

i wrote one part before the other. see if you can guess which one

…It was a nice night. Probably a few hours or so before dusk. It was silent.. well, except for the quiet tap, tap, tap of footsteps. Kanon quietly paced back and forth, feeling, well… strange. Perhaps.. something was going on..? No, it wasn’t possible. He’d have to go check, of course, so he did, quietly walking off.

Pausing in front of the door, he sighed. Nothing could have changed, right..? No, no, of course not. Opening the door and stepping inside, he walked over to the mirror, examining it.

..Oh.

Oh no.

..No. No, no, no, no, no. This wasn’t good. This was awful. How could he have let this happen– Instinctively, he stepped back, breathing becoming irregular and beginning to tremble. This was the one thing he hadn’t wanted to happen. This is what he’d tried to avoid at all costs.

Finally being able to manage a comprehensive idea, he lurched toward the door, briefly catching himself on the doorknob to lock it, then, leaning back against the door, slid down against it to sit on the ground. That.. that’d save him a few minutes, at least. He knew what’d happen if they found him like this. They’d… ..They’d leave him. Show him the consequences of what he’s done. Beat him into the dirt, where he belongs–

…He pulled his knees to his chest, making pathetic little sounds like a child. He’d been good. He had done everything he was supposed to. Why..? Why–?!

A quiet click sounded from outside of the small room, causing Kanon to flinch violently before freezing up, now completely silent. Oh no. They heard him. They knew. They had to–

..The sound of footsteps approached, and– ..proceeded to fade..? He was… safe, for now.

What.. what was he going to do..? He had to fix this, and.. soon. They couldn’t see him, not in this.. state.

He had to get out of here. He had to leave before they made him, or worse.

#lmao i really just did some bullshit here #got burnt out like halfway through this sorry it's kinda shitty lmao #might delete this later who knows what i'll think abt this in the morning

[mocacheezy]

Love isn't just hearing people close to you ask if you need help.

Love is when you say "yes, I do." and accept that they care.

#yeah I care about her #now excuse me while I cry over the fact people worry for my wellbeing and want to help me in any way they can #purely because they want to??? purely because they look at this crumpled piece of candy wrapper and go #hell two people at the clinic yesterday were so worried about me catching a cold. #a friend suggested home remedies that might help me. another friend asked if it's just inconvenient or really bad. #my mom is coming over tommorow to bring me stuff I need so I don't have to go out looking like I'm about to keel over. #there are... many. many other things #but right now I am just crying over it all #anyways might delete later might not who knows #hopefully I fall back asleep soon and feel better in the morning #moca talks

[radioactive-earthshine]

Writing tips for long fics that helped me that no one asked for.

1.) Don't actually delete content from your WIP unless it is minor editing - instead cut it and put it in a secondary document. If you're omitting paragraphs of content, dialog, a whole scene you might find a better place for it later and having it readily available can really save time. Sometimes your idea was fantastic, but it just wasn't in the right spot.

2.) Stuck with wording the action? Just write the dialog then revisit it later.

3.) Stuck on the whole scene? Skip it and write the next one.

4.) Write on literally any other color than a white background. It just works. (I use black)

5.) If you have a beta, while they are beta-ing have them read your fic out loud. Yes, I know a lot of betas/writers do not have the luxury of face-timing or have the opportunity to do this due to time constraints etc but reading your fic out loud can catch some very awkward phrasing that otherwise might be missed. If you don't have a beta, you read it out loud to yourself. Throw some passion into your dialog, you might find a better way to word it if it sounds stuffy or weird.

6.) The moment you have an idea, write it down. If you don't have paper or a pen, EMAIL it to yourself or put it in a draft etc etc. I have sent myself dozens of ideas while laying down before sleep that I 10/10 forgot the next morning but had emailed them to myself and got to implement them.

7.) Remember - hits/likes/kudos/comments are not reflective of the quality of your fic or your ability to write. Most people just don't comment - even if they say they do, they don't, even if they preach all day about commenting, they don't, even if they are a very popular blog that passionately reminds people to comment - they don't comment (I know this personally). Even if your fic brought tears to their eyes and it haunted them for weeks and they printed it out and sent it to their friends they just don't comment. You just have to accept it. That being said - comment on the fic you're reading now, just do it, if you're 'shy' and that's why you don't comment the more you comment the better you'll get at it. Just do it.

8.) Remove unrealistic daily word count goals from your routine. I've seen people stress 1500 - 2000 words a day and if they don't reach that they feel like a failure and they get discouraged. This is ridiculous. Write when you can, but remove absurd goals. My average is 500 words a day in combination with a 40 hour a week job and I have written over 200k words from 2022-2023.

9.) There are dozens of ways to do an outline from precise analytical deconstruction that goes scene by scene to the minimalist bullet point list - it doesn't matter which one you use just have some sort of direction. A partial outline is better than no outline.

10.) Write for yourself, not for others. Write the fic you know no one is going to read. Write the fic that sounds ridiculous. You will be so happy you put it out in the world and there will be people who will be glad it exists.

#writing tips #writing advice #writing tools #writing help #writing resources

[mystigaron]

IMPORTANT FINAL EDIT: THE PARTNERSHIP AND UPDATE PLANNED WITH IT HAVE BEEN INDEFINITELY SUSPENDED. i might delete this post within the next few days i'm still not 100% sure if i should or not especially since the information on it about ludeo is still relevant. however rain world has halted working with them and the update planned to implement the feature is not going ahead. thanks to everyone who spoke up and helped getting this out there and to the attention of the developers and akupara

i haven't seen this up until this morning and not all that many people within the rain world community seem to be talking about it but

it's come to my attention that rain world has recently partnered with a company known as ludeo for the game's newest update. this was tucked away in the replies of their rain world art month post

ludeo is an israeli company run by two brothers based in tel-aviv. this is incredibly disappointing and fucked up to be doing during the on-going genocide israel is committing in palestine and the surrounding regions and i quite frankly do not care if it turns out this was just down to "poor research" and was an "accident": you can quite literally look up the two founders' names on linkedin and find out where they are based in under a minute. there are no excuses for this

another point of note about ludeo that i find upsetting is that a lot if not all of the images used on the company's site to advertise this product are 99.9% guaranteed to be ai-generated

while this is absolutely not the main issue at hand here as promoting your partnership with this company at this time is already fucked up enough to begin with, going and hiding this post within the replies of another promoting your art month event to the artists within this community is so astoundingly ironic and ignorant

i am not trying to suggest that there are alterior motives behind putting this post in the replies of another about a community event rather than making an entirely new and separate one dedicated exclusively to information about this update, but i do find it strange. i woke up to finding out about this and was absolutely livid, and while what's done is already done, i am hoping whoever was responsible for this knows how fucked it is to be promoting this company at this time, or just in general. i am not trying to start a witch hunt or start shit for the sake of starting shit, but i think this needs to be addressed and spoken about, as money towards israel is money towards more bloodshed and violence in palestine. this shit makes my blood fucking boil

edit: i feel like i should also put this here if this wasn't already terrible enough

please continue sharing support for palestine. links below are sites and donation links that go directly towards supporting palestinian people in need

#rain world #free palestine #from the meat beast's maw