I need to speak about things and i'm not sure where to start or how to do it but I need to get the words out.
trigger warning. the following contains discussion of SA
i've been thinking so much about the allegations that have been made against male content creators in the past month and it makes me want to vomit. It makes me infuriated that someone would think that they had the right to do something so horrible. i'm going to tell you a story. it is not a happy one.
when people say "not all men" I think back to the night of November 9th 2020. my sibling came into my dads room where I was sitting. I think I was doing math homework.
"we need to leave" they told me. pack some clothes, get your shoes on, etc.
"Why? what's wrong?"
"ill tell you later"
I don't remember the exact thing they said to me in that room after that but it was something about how the man down stairs sitting in the living room watching TV on the couch had done something unforgivable.
ten minutes later I was walking down the street to my godmothers with my sibling and our friends, carrying a Tupperware container filled with hot Mac n cheese. it burned my arms.
on November 9th 2020, I learned that a man who I had been living with since I was five or six, had molested me. a man who I considered family because we were so close. a man who took me to seven eleven and bought me birthday gifts. a man who took my soul.
when people don't believe victims because they think people speak up because of clout I find it so ridiculous because why would you lie about that.
why would you lie about the nightmares. the guilt. the shame. why would you lie about the feeling that your body isn't yours. why would you lie about feeling so fucking dirty all the time and not being able to wash it away. why would you lie.
you wouldn't.
some people do lie and that is truly horrible but having people call bullshit on caitibugzz and shubble and every other person coming out with their stories is bullshit.
it is not for clout it is for awareness. it is so people feel less alone and gain the courage to speak up and share the stories that they have every right to share.
sexual assault Is not funny. it is not a joke. it should not be taken lightly.
if you've never experienced it then I am so happy for you but you will never understand how it feels and if you really think you're allowed to call bullshit on someone else's story then you're a piece of shit.
to anyone who has been taken advantage of I want to say I see you, I hear you, I believe you, and I am you. we did not deserve to have something so valuable taken from us. we did not deserve someone else's hands wrongly on our bodies. we did not deserve to be stripped of our souls.
a very insincere fuck you to gage and any other man that thought it was okay to hurt someone.
(sorry if there's any like punctuation mistakes or spelling or grammar but I couldn't care less to edit this )
while she's offline, I totally recommend watching caitibugzz's vlogs on youtube! They're so pretty and fun to watch and such an inspiration for my own editing when I make little vlogs for myself :)
you can also watch her past streams on bugzzvods! I love the karaoke ones and especially the older vods when she played different games !!
i post edits to my editing acc on tiktok and i have multiple social medias for different reasons but this acc is purely for me to spam and repost my hyperfixations that you lot have to suffer with so enjoy if u can >:)
i also wanna answer questions and chat abt feelings, interests and who knows what else! feel free to follow if u wanna follow a sick editor’s tumblr acc!! i might also check the #tulipvickie tag so use it if it’s a post related abt me :p
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enjoy ur stay!! byeeee :)
p.s i stole this layout from @caitibugzz, sorry caiti
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YAYY have fun watching him!!! A few hours ago u spent like 3 hours listening/watching caitibugzz play the stanley parable while I cleaned my room and had so much fun too jshdjd
and I'll send you the link to the edit if I post it ofc!!! :D I'm currently looking for an audio to use for it !!
TYY!! so far its going great hes making his own horrors ^_^ and omg hey stanley parable big fan and totally sane over that.. hope u had fun n cleaning wasnt too rough!! and YIPPIE!!! excited to see :3
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[last updated april 22, 2024]
HIIII i'm lenn/lennie , nico , or mars!! I go by any pronouns, am latina, 18, and use this blog to talk about stuff i like, share fun things and sometimes draw!
i also make videoedits! you can find me as mp4.lenn on instagram, tiktok, or here: @mp4-lenn, although i don't post my edits that often on tumblr
im genderqueer and arospec bisexual, okay with any gendered or neutral terms idc!!
asks are always open i'd love to chat!! (specially if we're mutuals!!!)
mutuals can ask me for my other sideblogs if they're curious lol
also you should probably know that english isn't my first language, so i might not always make sense while talking. sorry!
some fandoms that i like are: omori, streamers (ranboo, caitibugzz, tubbo, nihachu and aimsey), the owl house, spiderverse, generation loss, adventure time, riordanverse, infinity train, jujutsu kaisen, mob psycho 100, scott pilgrim, amphibia, sally face and stardew valley!
some other things that i like are: art, music, writing, photography and filmmaking, graphic design and web design, reading, cosplay, and acting!
last thing: i do NOT support d/ream or want anything to do with him thank you. do not follow me if you still support him. (same goes for w1lbur)