#cant believe im gonna be 21

[etherealspacejelly]

i have decided to celebrate my birthday on here on the 24th of may since that is the day after my last exam so i will be rotting and therefore on tumblr pretty much all day lmao

if you would like to wish me a happy birthday thats the day to do it. but dont feel obligated to lol

#life updates with jelly #cant believe im gonna be 21 #im so old now #not just an adult #like. an adulty adult #crazy #no wonder i have so many kids /j

[karinyosa]

it my bday today :]

#me.txt #OKAY WAIT IM WRONG ITS TOMORROW DKBSKDJSOXHEI I THOUGHT TODAY WAS THE FIRST #i cant believe im gonna be 21 its so fucked up #EAIT ITS ON THE FIRST THERE ARE 31 DAYS IN JANUARY LMFAO 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #oh my god. guys im sorry im lile genuinely terrible with dates and birthdays including my own

[oatbugs]

she's so arrogant and annoying and hot it pisses me off !!!

#like have some shame omg . have some respect #shes soooo certain i will date her she keeps saying shes not worried she doesnt care etc etc bc she knows i want to date her #not even that. she Declared we were dating. like when i was like do u even want this. not just going on dates but acc dating. and she was #like wdym? im already dating you . like ok??? i wasnt informed ig #anyway i said she was arrogant and she said she knows so. #also she did several things when she was drunk that i found cringe/i personally would b embarrassed if i was her but she just found it funn #like genuinely does she have no sense of shame #also her reasoning is that shes too hot to be rejected and since im talking to her instead of... not that makes her certain that #no matter what i say i wont reject her #WHICH MAKES ME WANT TO REJECT HER. DONT TELL ME WHAT I WANT OR WHAT TO DO. UGH. #I WANT TO FIGHT HER FR MEIN GOTT #also i want her to be more romantic i literally told her im not asking her out on the next date lmao #also if we do end up dating properly i have to swear and oath never to argue w her and just communicate slowly and clearly bc imagine #lawyer and philosophy student get into an argument and theyre both scorpios. insane combination imo #INSUFFERABLE. she was also 40 mins late and tbf she did warn me and keep me updated but i was still rly mad at her bc #i was waiting for so long . and i was like . listen im gonna leave. and she walked thru the door. but anyway she apologised but also she #said no ones ever threatened to leave her b4. what do you mean before?? anyway i told her to respect my time more and she was like i cant #believe im being told off by a 21 yr old like bitch ur literally 24 stop acting ancient fuck off #UGH SHES SO IRRITATING. WHY DOESNT SHE CALL ME MORE. #crushposting

[lavellanfriendliness]

sa tw in the tags. just need to get it out idk

#sa tw #look i know people hate blondie now but god she speaks to me sometimes #i listen to wouldve couldve shouldve and get venomously angry at Him. #and yeah maybe it happened to him too. but what about me? why do i need to have sympathy for someone who hurt me like that? #give me back my girlhood it was mine first! i was an adult too young. #i maintain the peace for survival but god. i cant believe i just. havent lashed out at all #im gonna explode one day #something something promising grown man that makes me sick #thats probably why ive always wanted to be friends with people older than me. #my estimated age by most strangers is about 3 years older #because guess what? ive got a young face and an old ass soul! im like 30 in here! ive been 21 for 18 years! #i shouldnt have had to grow up so quick. i shouldn't have had to keep it to myself for a decade. #my brain is 6 and 21 and 35 and 50

[kaoharu]

its gonna be a busy year i think

#✧ chatting ! #hmhmm looking at my calendar atm #i graduate may 21 wowza i cant believe thats even real #anyways im trying to thinksies . . . #im gonna have a senior interview in nov then dec is gonna sem exams . . . #then april-feb is gonna intensive ap exam prep + my future presentations #may is gonna be the worst w ap exams‚ senior honor night‚ then grad practice + the actual ceremony woah #lets see if i fall off of tumblr again this year cause the workloads even worse lol

[shrublee]

SPOILERS IF U HAVEN'T WATCHED THE LATEST TUBBO STREAM AS OF TODAY (Feb 21, 24) JUST SO U KNOW !!!!!! I will summarize these massive paragraphs in the points at the very end in a sort of timeline order that I can think of for this so gonna start off this rant talking about how the timeline makes absolutely no sense at all

So there was some sort of ancient thing from "long long ago" or something and they went to get the remains of it because for whatever reason that was gonna help to bring q!Tubbo back

also Creation was built by Tubbo to protect the eggs(? or atleast thats what its doing rn) (mainly Sunny I assume but could've originally started building it for Chayanne and Tallulah) after it was built it was given instructions I guess on what to do in case of certain situations such as him being gone in any way etc etc

but if Tubbo erased his memory (we'll come back to how that doesn't make sense as of now, later) of building Creation, then he must have already been given Sunny by the federation in order for him to have been able to put her as rank 1 on the list (because of course, he erased his memory of Creation, so he couldn't have gone back and changed it later)

Creation had been originally built "long long ago" (during the time of said ancient thing from earlier, some sort of order or something? we don't really know (double parentheses, crazy I know, but keep in mind that order could also potentially mean like "given an order" as in something it was told to do previously)) so was Creation originally built for something else? and then his purpose was changed to protect the eggs after that? Well then that implies Tubbo knew Creation existed during his time on Quesadilla island up until sometime after he got Sunny (I've seen some people talk about time travel theories about what I just said but im not gonna get into that cuz its a whole lot, im just saying what we know and adding a tiny bit of theories into it)

He joined an Operation at some point also? Im assuming during the long ago ancient era or whatever but like bro these are too many words to remember

So "the old order" and "the operation" are most likely 2 separate things as Creation doesn't typically use multiple names for one thing

So he made Creation before he joined the operation as a "last effort to hold on" and he did all that "very very long ago before the island looked like what it [does] today"

last effort to hold on makes me think like, as in someones dying? like Creation is his last chance if he comes close to death (which based on what we've seen makes complete sense)

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anyways enough of confusing timeline stuff for now, time to get into whats going on with Tubbo specifically

Personally I though he might've been a robot, and I still believe that to be true despite information we've been given I feel its sort of a really badly kept secret on Creations part, it keeps sort of slipping up in its wording, forgetting saying things like "he will be shut off for good" is not the typical word use for humans(?) (things that are alive ig)

Because bro like you cant just drop "he was never alive to begin with" (he said talking to Phil) and like...... do anything else with that???? If something was never alive, it was never alive, like I dunno what else Tubbo could be without never have been alive?? It could've been an exaggeration or meant to be more like "he was never alive since the day you met him" instead of never alive at all

besides that, getting back to the "he erased his memory about specifically Creation existing" point not making sense, that is also why I think hes a robot still, cause how else would bro be able to just grab a specific memory from his brain and delete it??????

PLUS THE NEEDED DATA TO BRING HIM BACK HOW, WHO, WHERE, WHAT, WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD YOU NEED DATA TO REVIVE SOMEONE WHO WASN'T A ROBOT??

even if hes not a robot bros got some like computer chip in his brain or something like........

also just gonna add in that on the original Creation stream (Niki's stream) he says something along the lines of protecting all the eggs except the one that isn't actually an egg or something Just wanna say that I think this is referring to Tubbo because yeah, he was always jokingly treated as an egg with cookies and everything and then towards the end he only had 2 lives just like them and Creation never protected him cause (A) he wasn't actually an egg and (B) Tubbo can't know he exists, so even if he wanted to protect him he couldn't either that or it was code flippa but whateverrrr :P

anyways thats the end of that for now until my brain goes crazy again

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Tubbo made Creation before he joined "The Operation" (don't know what Creation was originally built for)

he did all that "very very long ago before the island looked like what it [does] today"

At some point he was frozen in the ice prison after this (we don't know for sure if he still has his memories of before this at this point, but most likely does for this to make sense (unless time travel maybe but we don't talk about that))

After meeting everyone and getting close with the eggs (specifically Chayanne and Tallulah) he starts changing the purpose of Creation to protect the eggs

Not long after this hes given Sunny by the Fed

He then completes Creations new purpose by putting in the ranking system (he would've had to have met Sunny before this or it doesn't make sense)

Then he deletes his memories (somehow lmao) of Creation

Creation is most likely shut down and hidden away somewhere, set to only activate if needed (dunno what these reasons he would've given Creation would be but one of them was definitely if he went missing/died or something)

#qsmp #qsmp creation #qsmp tubbo #qsmp theory #im actually insane #I spent like an hour writing this #tubbo #i dont know what other tags to put help #pls reblog with more tags if u know any LMAOO #q tubbo #anyways tubbo lore goes absolutely crazy #I can never tell if things he does is on purpose for lore or not #cause its so subtle #I love it for realsies like #this guyyy how goofy silly of him ahahahahhahaha #totally not making me cry in a matter of minutes with that recorded message at the start of the stream jeeeez

[poomphuripan]

im wondering how you feel about these changes? because this is the first episode that ming is a little worse than ymx 😅😅 i never understood why cai wei/lxr didn’t just go to joe’s house so i get why they had ming , um,,,,,, move him…. but blunt force trauma and chains is smth else. he won’t hit joe in the face like ymx but he will hit him with a bat 😭😭 now im wondering about a certain ch73 action involving a phone …

ah and they’re saving ming finding out about joe for later which hurts. i really wanted to see him cry 😭😭😭😭

hi nonnie (o゜▽゜)o☆

oooooh this episode for me? (ToT)/~~~ idk personally for me, i always found the bitch slap very insulting to me as i was reading the novel (wanted to transmigrated into the novel and slap ymx right back). and supposedly the baseball bat is supposed to make me enraged as well because logistically it's way more painful for joe to get knocked out that way but i think the way the series is edited made it seem like the knockout wasn't that severe so i don't really feel angry like im supposed to/like i did reading the novel.

I LOVE the changes so far. i cant even say im a hardcore 188 novel fans bc reading the 188 novels... really enrage me... i don't feel happy reading but they help me get over my reading slump very very easily because i'm just so invested and mad (the way i wanted to throw my kindle at the wall after finishing additional inheritance by sqc).

so technically i'm a person with a weak heart who don't love my toxic red flag mls BUT i do think the series has adapted to make ming very digestable and pathetic and still scummy but not to the point where i want to hate him, i just find him stupid and dumb but i still wanna root for HIS happiness once he gets... less dumb. ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

but considering how the series already removed the slaps that mingjoe were supposed to have when they had their second? third? fight about sol, i think/believe/theorize the series won't go through with that bit in chapter 73. im actually even doubting if the reveal is gonna even happen that way because i could see them diverging more and more as we go on (i guess we'll have to stay tune to find out). 😂

i don't think they're gonna waste any time with the crying and i'm sure we'll get it pretty soon around ep 7 onwards if not even sooner. looking forward greatly to a crying and begging ming delivering his most iconic about him being only 21 back then.

#my stand in the series #poom phuripan #up poompat #msi thoughts #my stand in #my stand in novel spoilers #claire replies

[munscns]

i keep seeing the "loki is 17 in earth years" thing circulating again and im gonna lose my mind (partially bc its being used in shipping discourse) and im genuinely curious if were supposed to think he would be that young / or early 20s physically in the first thor through avengers??? (and therefore also the show lol)

this was based on the "asgard to earth years math" based on odin possibly being 5000+ and loki being 1047 in thor 1 and 1048 in avengers and taking the human average lifespan and long story short the math turned out to be "17" which is stupid for multiple reasons...

main one being bc i feel like ..... thats kind of like when people say oh my dog is this old but 70 in human years! it doesnt really mean anything

but i only started thinking abt it again bc i saw that in a what if episode coulson referred to thor 1 thor as mid 20s ...?

and further hemsworth called thor 22 in a behind the scenes thing for (love and thunder i believe? or maybe ragnarok i dont remember) so now im curious is loki really supposed to be like somewhere between 17-21 physically and im losing my mind over people making it fucking weird

asgardians (ik hes not asgardian but im assuming jotuunheim has similar maturity rates or whatever) clearly age differently so equating their maturating to human years would be dumb anyway right like . clearly if loki and thor rolled up to earth they would both be adults ? and were also treated as such on asgard?

anyways im overthinking but its making me feel WEIRD (esp in regards to shipping bc i deadass saw a sylki shipper say u cant ship lokius bc of lokis supposed earth years age like.... baby thats a grown ass man....and wasnt sylvie also supposedly like 1000+ older than him as well...so....)

#like its ridiculous but im also weirded out #loki #loki season 2 #loki spoilers #thor #thor ragnarok #lokius

[malt-rants-and-stuff]

⚠️‼WARNING!! HIRAKAGI MANGA CHAPTER 21 SPOILERS‼⚠️

I ALREADY SAID IT BEFORE BUT THIS CHAPTER HAD ME ON THE FLOOR!! I HAVE LEGIT PERISHED WHILE READING SO MY GHOST IS HERE TO WRITE ABOUT HOW AMAZING THIS CHAPTER WAS!!!

‼ SPOILERS BELOW CUT ‼

OKAY STARTING OFF STRONG, THE VERY FIRST PANEL!

LOOK AT THESE CUTIESSSS!! I WILL NEVER BE OVER THE FACT THAT KAGI IS THE FIRST THING HIRANO SEES EVERY MORNING!!!!

SASAKIIIII OGAAAAAA MY BOYS ITS BEEN TOO LONGGGGGG

BRIBERY! :D

Hirano back at it again feeding into the pilot propaganda

also, kinda gay to think about another man like that unprompted while using the word "exploring" if you ask me.

"I can't believe he had the nerve" I can't believe you had the nerve to even think that.

also, love sasaki giving one of his classic "I know what you are hirano" looks

HANZAWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Have I ever said how much I love this dude? he is so silly and so important to me you don't understand. this panel is adorable!!!

HIRANOOO YOU ARE SO CLOSE TO GETTING IT, THE POINT IS RIGHT THERE!! IT IS NOT DIFFERENT WITH THE DAMN PEPPERS MY BOY!!!

I LOVE HOW HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S GOING THROUGH EVERY STAGE OF GRIEF IN THAT SECOND PANEL LMAOOO

"I think......" I AM GOING TO KILL!!! WHY IS THIS HITTING ME JUST AS HARD AS THE "I guess he wasn't going to touch me" SCENE AAAAAAAAAAA

alsooo I count this entire page and the page before as more proof for my aspec hirano propaganda

KAGI MY SON YOU LOOK SO CUTEEE

WHEN I TELL YOU I DIE EVERY TIME HE DOES THIS

ACK THE BLUSH!!! NOT VERY HETERO-JUST-ROOMATES OF YOU HIRANO!!

also I love how he's slowly getting more and more flustered everytime kagi asks for 10 seconds

he looks so happy i am gonna CRY

........................... . z.d.s..s.

JAKKQOWISHSJHDBBDHDJWISKWOAOKAK

OH MY FUCKING,,,,,,,,,

I CANNOT DO THIS I CANNOT COPE I AM DEAD DYING ON THE FLOOR I HAVE DIED FROM GAYBRAIN I WILL NEVER RECOVER

also THIS WAS SO TSUNDERE OF YOU HIRANO IM SORRY BUT ITS TRUE

also also THE FIRST TIME HIRANO INITIATES THE 10 SECONDS THIS IS A MONUMENTAL OCCASION I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD FRAME THIS PANEL

EXPLODES!!!! KAGI'S FACE I CANT DO THISSSSS

SO BLUNT KAGI LMAO!

"........." QHAT DOES THAT MEAN HIRANO!!! EXPLAIN!!!!!!!

.

WHAT.

WHATTYYTTJEOAJSKEHEKWJS

KAGI HELLO?!?!??!?!???! I AM UNWELL?????? YOU CANT BE DOING THIS TO ME????????

FIRST MITSUKOU DATE NOW THIS I AM IN SHAMBLES

THE MANGA IS JUST AS SHOCKED AS I AM?!?!?!!!

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OVERALL: 10/10 CHAPTER I AM NEVER GOING TO RECOVER THANK YOU HARUSONO!!! I NEED FINANCIAL COMPENSATION FOR THE MENTAL DECOMPOSITION CAUSED BY THIS CHAPTER 🙏

#malt rants #hirano to kagiura #hirano and kagiura #hirano taiga #kagiura akira #kagihira #hirakagi #sasaki shuumei #ogasawara jirou #hanzawa masato #I AM DECEASED #htk manga #hirano to kagiura spoilers #hirano to kagiura manga #htk spoilers

[pretty-chaotic-world]

if my BPD can scream

1. I wish i could have a normal love... but no, my brain wants to worship every little detail of you until it drives me insane

2. sorry i pushed you away i felt abandoned and suicidal 

3. I’m sick of going to bed and knowing things won’t be better tomorrow 

4. I'll ask you thousands times if you really love, please don't get annoyed

5. I'll create "drama" and mishaps only to feel like I'm in home

6. i’m afraid that one day my anger will overshadow the little love i still have left for the world

7. I feel numb. No tears, no anger, nothing. Just going through the same day again and again. I would rather just sleep without waking up.

8. I'm so tired of everytime one small argument or inconvenience breaks out I want to end it and self destruct, it's so draining. 

9. I want to stop feeling anything and when i actually don't it breaks my heart but I can't cry it out.

10. "its all in your head" well duh where tf else is it gonna be??? in my fucking kidneys????

11. I am constantly between wanting people to care about me and wanting them not to so I can hurt myself without feeling guilty 

12. Psychiatrist told me there is no cure for bpd and I've to change myself. Well why cant they just let me die then?

13. Until you live with bpd you'll never know what it's like to be too much and not enough at the same time.

14. i know im constantly too much for everyone but sometimes i just want to be enough for someone

15. if he will leave me, my next diagnosis will be of "sociopath"

16. im so jealous of all the people who see him and touch him and talk to him every single day it should be me me me me 

17. oh I got my hair coloured. why? because I can't hurt myself anymore 

18. "you're so distant" because you can't handle my abandonment issues.

19. My younger self disappoint me a lot. like why were you begging people to stay in your life? ohh no worries I know the answer

20. I wanna throw a plate against the wall, stab a knife through my hand, destroy my laptop with a hammer, smash my door in with an axe and spray graffiti all over the walls of my room 

21. Why shouldn’t I be mad? Why can’t I just be angry and be allowed to feel it? Why can’t I burn everything down?

22. I have to watch my mouth every fucking second to make sure I don't destroy every relation I have coz apparently social life matters!!

23. Isnt it fucked up how he got away with every horrible thing he made me experience and I’m the one who has to live with myself feeling absolutely fucking worthless 

24. I don't deserve food and love. im a horrible person.

25. this is how my eating cycle goes

feeling weak coz i haven't ate anything -> eat -> purge -> feeling guilty after purging -> eat more -> feeling guilty after eating so much -> cry coz you don't know what's happening

26. the diagnosis makes me believe I'm not insane just lil emo ig!! NOOOO YOU'RE INSANE

27. “don’t let it bother u” baby i’m gonna be bothered by this for the next 10 years 

28. if I tell you I love you its equivalent to I can kill someone for you

29. Actually upon further inspection that shit really hurt my feelings 

30. I don't dive into insecurity anymore, i drown in self-loathe

31. i shut up in between group convo coz I know I'll talk invaluable shit and nobody really cares what I say until it's psychology class

32. "if you are fully aware of yourself, why do you keep acting like that?" slapping self awareness on top of bpd only grants the ability to watch yourself self-destruct straight from the vip section thats all it does literally

33. “Where do you see yourself in the future” building a cult for mentally ill people 

34. ofc I've a praise kind i was ignored as a child

35. I'm much better than I was before. you know why coz I don't to air now and don't see monsters walking by side all the time

36. No I don't want to self harm anymore I need to kill that fucking monster

37. Don't mind me, I'm just casually sabotaging all my positive relationships with negative delusions because my life doesn't feel real unless something dramatic and destructive is constantly occurring 

38. i don’t care i don’t care i don’t care (im going to sob my fucking eyes out)

39. “Stop making your disorder your personality” I have a fucking personality disorder for god sake

40. turning my mental illnesses into kinks and calling it the BDSM-5 

41. "destroy something precious while you're in rage" ohh yeaa and then I'll do that again and again 

42. what I hate most about my BPD is the fact that I have started doubting every emotion that I’ve ever felt in my life, whether it’s love, my grief through multiple traumas, or my anger, & it’s so saddening. It has actually led me to start questioning my reality.

43. if I need medication to stay alive, am I really meant to be here?

44. it's either be alone without 75% of my symptoms, or be with someone and display the most horrendous unstable awful version of myself. why do i have to choose between love & happiness or peace & stability?

45. That fucking bpd rage where everyone's voices makes you want to scream and every noise around you makes you want to sh and you're so mad you can almost feel the cuts everywhere 

46. getting worked up to the point of becoming physically ill (throwing up/stomach issues etc) because you felt rejected/abandoned by your favourite person  

47. i wish my trauma made me kind as everyone says but i’m becoming what i fear the most- a monster.

48. imagine getting diagnosed with a personality disorder and the only visible representation of that disorder is an animated horse man, a sociopathic sitcom character from philadelphia, and darth vader

#bpd #bpd awareness #personality disorder #borderline personality disorder #mental illness #mental health #mental instability

[infiniteko]

https://x.com/postdisclosure?s=21

Do u think aliens exist? I saw this profile on twitter and i thought maybe aliens were spreading non dualism to make us go crazy or spiral out of control 😭😭😭

You promise your not some malevolent alien???

Im only 13 and shifting realities has ruined my life and taken away my innocence. I just keep going down rabbit hole after rabbit hole. Im insatiable right now. I just wanna know whats real. 😭😭

Literally from "no concepts," to loa, to shifting, astral projection, alien, conspiracy theories, demons, alchemy, angels, folk spiritual practices, witchcraft....ever since I was 11 and came across shiftok I dove deep into all these esoteric studies

And while "no concepts" feels the best, when you chnaged your pfp I got scared 😭😭😭 because it happened when I came across this community of people that think aliens are gonna come for disclosure and theyre not sure if theyre good or bad, but that humanity needs to know. It was such a stupid synchronicity...maybe i dreamed up this way...because im so scared of all this crazy esoteric knowledge i know now. All my friends think im crazy, but they also think its cool, but also dont have the mental fortitude to dive as deeply as i did 😭😭😭 im all alone

Theres these beings that esoteric people on 4chan talk about, theyre called mantids and they can control your brains😭😭😭 theyre partially aliens

Idk what to believe, but again, i even tried witchcraft and spell work, and astrology. EVERYTHING over these past two years to find out the truth of reality. I have over a terabyte of files worth of esoteric knowledge. And i still don't know!!! I wish i never came across tiktok and did this deep dive into the unknown. I wish I had just been a normal middle schooler

I wish i just found loa and non dualism first

Do you have any advice? I know, I think u might be an alien. But ur probs not lol.

My parents and grandparents cant even help...all they care about is work and keeping our lives organized. My mom and dad told me im just going down rabbit holes for no reason. My family laughs that im into all this esoteric stuff. I actually think they think its a cool quirk in the family. So shallow😭😭😭😭😭😭 im too young for this mental illness

But its too late, I know too much...

Any other no concepts people, please say anything to this post

Ur guys words have been the thing that makes the most sense. But this awakening/noticing is intense and nobody around me is going through this 💔❤️‍🩹😭🫶🏻

jesus christ???????

1. Anon with all due respect, your first question.. if you know i'm an AV/" " account, where does the belief in aliens fit in?

2. In a slightly concerning tone, don't you see how out of touch all of this sounds?

3. At your young age of 13 you might want to stay away from social media for a bit because.. this does not sound healthy anymore😬 over a terabyte of files worth esoteric knowledge.. jesus christ

[souryogurt64]

I really feel you about the aging thing, I’m 25 and I was 22 when covid started and I locked down for like almost 2 full years bc I lived alone in a new city (moved in feb 2020 LMAOOO) and I was already a late bloomer bc of years of mental illness and gender issues and etc etc etc. so right before covid I was like ‘okay im finally gonna go out and be a real young adult and embrace being young’ and then….lmaoo. and now I’m a ‘real adult’ but I don’t feel a day older than 22 which isn’t THAT big a deal at 25 bc I’m only 3 years older but my worst fear is that I’ll end up mentally stuck and be 30+ still stuck mentally at 22 never moving past that……I went to a party recently w some friends who are 21-23 and I know that’s not a huge age gap but I just felt sooo much older than everyone there but I also felt lame as hell bc people 4 years younger than me had more experience partying than I did 😭 anyway idk where I’m going w this but solidarity 🫶 covid really fucked us up !!

This is an old ask that I didnt answer because i didnt know what to say <3333 but i got kicked out of the dorms during covid and like. after that I was basically confined to my dorm room for a year and graduated with no job experience or anything because they cancelled like the big junior year internship program and there werent the normal career fairs because covid. I also didnt really drink/party underage and i turned 21 in february 2020, i also had sex for the first time right before covid then so i like basically felt very young and immature and inexperienced and behind everyone and then just like. sat in a room for YEARS

and like i never saw any of my friends/professors again and graduating was really weird. I had to move back into my parents basement for awhile and worked in restaurants and mostly did sketchy "internships" on craigslist so i'd have something for a resume. I really felt alienated and like i was never going to mature past that

Then one day when I was about to turn 24 i randomly got a super adult job when most of my peers my age didnt and it came very out of nowhere, and it felt like i skipped directly from being perpetually 19 to just like being 30 and its very strange and i still feel kind of disturbed esp bc i cant believe its been 4 years since "2 extra weeks of spring break" lol

[gale-gentlepenguin]

Gale Reviews: ML Season 5 episode 21 Confrontation

Spoilers below

-Ohhh okay, starting out with the drama bomb

-So for those that forgot (Like me) Gabriel is sending adrien to London for Private school. And Adrien cant fill out the orientation form because of it

-Plagg... My boy. No cheese jokes.

-So all the students are stressed about the meeting

-Oh so Marinette also got the guilt that now that Lila is the class rep there will be some fishy business.

-Yea the jobs are what I would expect for Nino and Alya

-Ivan out here showing himself to be loyal af. All other men need to step up their game. Mylene showing ambition.

-Juleka wants to be a mortician. Sticking to your asthetic, but didnt she want to model? Or was it just to help her get out of her shell. Meh

-Sabrina wants to be a nurse,

-Yea, Marinette's worries are justified

-Chloé and Lila having Opposite goals, one doesnt care because she is rich, Lila basically wants to "Resolve everything" but thats a lie

-Adrienette cuteness!

-Adrien, you are going to have to tell her eventually

-You can screen shot this and write "Moments before a disaster" and it would be accurate

-And they are shredding them. Im not even surprised

-"In case of a problem, blame it on your predecessor." Its nice to know kids shows are accurately explaining politics to children for once.

-"Its gonna hurt people?" THATS 90% OF THE S*** CHLOÉ HAS YOU DO! NOW YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT?

-Also Sabrina being a whistle blower is TOO on the nose, even for this show.

-Principal damocles is going to find out about the resistance! Wait, is he cool with it? He actually covered for them. I guess being a hero has helped you be less of a jerk... BUT I still am not cool with the BS from episode 14. You are on VERY thin ICE Owl man

-The class wants to go to the same school together, thats sweet

-Oh, that call must have been Sabrina. But we will see

-Oh right, Adrien still hasnt filled out his form

-Welp now he did

-But now I believe this is where all the pennies drop

-Why is there a just a random ass toilet trailer? Is that really the only bathroom in the school?

-Adrien exhibiting true AND KEN behavior.

-Lila once again proving that all the adults in this show are idiots. Bustier does seem at least a little bit suspect tho

-It is interesting to see how the teachers are. Bustier is suspect of it since she knows her students, Damocles is being his best to be supportive and Mendelev doesnt give a f***

-Juleka already repeated a year, thus confirming Luka and her as twins via the retcon

-Cue the reactions

-Juleka is gonna get akumatized...

-Monarch must have a guy that writes all of these speeches for him to speak before he does this.

-Yea I know Rose was trying, but yea. If I was repeating a year. I would NOT be in a mode to try and be positive.

-And she gets Roarr

-WHY IS ALWAYS REFLEKTA THO?

-Bustier realize she let this happen

-Lucky charm is tape.

-"You cant touch the bakers, I love their croissants to much" and their daughter. You forgot that last part chat noir

-SO THATS WHAT HAPPENS IF TWO FALCON PUNCHES COLLIDE?

-Wait... thats it? That barely lasted 2 minutes. and the episode isnt over.

-Monarch thinks there will be more akuma soon. I see

-Chloé and Lila really pulling this crap

-Oh they remember how Sabrina can forge handwritings and thus Marinette isnt going to get in trouble. And Chloé throws her under the bus

-Lila and Chloé really didnt expect Sabrina to turn Whistle blower on them. Chloé I get, because Sabrina has been loyal dog for years and the writing for her has Chloé have the mental capacity of a parsnip since season 4.

-Okay Lila that was well played lie right there. That is A tier gaslighting.

-I will give this scene credit, Lila is absolutely HORRIFYING. I can see the next season's main villain already. Since I assume Gabriel is probably dying this season.

-Chloé out here being a dumbass

-Sabrina you sly dog, you got her Monologue-ing

-Sabrina I put you as the least favorite classmate after episode 14, but now I gotta retcon that. Sure it was messed up what you helped chloé with. But that absolute MASTERY of playing Lila. Just, Chef's kiss. Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful.

-Sabrina and Marinette's plan worked. Also, Mr.Damocles was okay with that?

-Ah so none this matters. Because Andre is also being whipped.

-Damocles looking like he cant take the bulls*** anymore and Monarch ready to capitalize on it

-The magic reacts to emotion, which means... IF the person is strong enough emotionally to resist it. Then the charm has a purpose

-Lila just straight up left.

-CHAT NOIR! But he is making it worse

-JULEKA! This moment probably will not have as much impact as it does in any other dub. French dub superiority

-OOOO it makes a shield that purifies the mega akuma. Neat

-Monarch crying like a bitch

-Damocles finally standing up to Andre. Good on him

-Damocles going out like a G.

-Chat noir telling ladybug what happened and her having to act like she didnt know

-Bustier calling Chloé in.

-"You cant expell me." "Nah bitch, thats a problem for you." is how I saw that exchange

-LILA WAS WEARING A WIG! I KNEW SHE WAS A FAKE B****

-HER NAME IS CERISE?

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WELL that was a lot.

So i think part of me really likes this episode, but also doesnt.

I like that Lila finally got exposed and Damocles got his redemption for his failures of the past. Going out like a G.

But all this stuff with Lila having ANOTHER life. Thats just nuts.

so overally 7/10

I will do a review of Collusion tomorrow

#Gale reviews #ml reviews #ml confrontation #ml season 5 #ml spoilers #ml confrontation spoilers

[whumpshaped]

are you religious? On account of all the recent bible posting. I'm not Christian myself but I have to hand it to them, the whole "eating Jesus's body and drinking his blood" is really cool

im actually not! well. idk. reading the bible and talking abt it rly makes me wanna be christian again.

tl;dr i am considering accepting jesus christ into my heart but i dont know if itll happen bc whenever i type or say anything slightly religious i cringe or make it into a joke. also sorry to any christian who finds my bible posting

i was raised catholic, went to church and bible study for 3 yrs, did my first communion, then dipped bc it was horrid. i was so so against being catholic u cannot imagine. i was against church, i was against begging some man in the sky for mercy, i was against their gay policy, i was against saying my pets had no soul- i was against absolutely everything except some bops in church

then i had my first big voluntary christian phase at 13-14 in which i drew more towards protestantism and attempted to read the bible cover to cover (i failed but theres a lot that i read.) i went to a lutheran hs for 2 yrs in seventh and eighth grade so that mightve influenced it tho i HATED monday morning worship at 7am and i cant believe its still happening even tho ppl routinely fainted and shit. bc u have to stand. the whole time

i also wanted to be a nun for a goooood while but turns out im just aroace and autistic (chastity and rigid rules sounds amazing to me huh)

so im 21 now and i started writing my angel demon story and i wanted to make heaven a cult like dystopia (and it turned into my own ranting at some points) and i wanted to give cassael actual bible-accurate problems. bible-accurate brainwashing lol it came to me because something i said abt them either on here or in rp made me remember that verse abt the yoke and stuff (my yoke is easy and my burden is light) and i was like wait i should read the bible and pick out the whumpiest worst most horrid most easy to misinterpret and turn horrible verses. so here i am.

but then i got rly rly into it. its remarkably easy to enjoy the story when im not reading the 1908 károli translation and spending all my spoons untangling the wording. and the thing is, i was always spiritual yknow. thats why i bounced so much between faiths and beliefs. ive followed the law of assumption stuff for a year or so now, i had genuine results from it- honestly everything i believed in has yielded good results for me always. whether it be christianity or paganism or loa. when i read the bible i DO feel loved even thru the incredible amount of horrid shit god does lol i felt loved at 13 and i feel loved now. so idk. im withholding judgement until i finish reading it but honestly nobody be surprised if i go back to my christian bs before the semester starts

oh thats another thing. im miserable lmao so not very hard for god to swoop in and be like hey do u wanna talk abt ur lord and saviour. me.

but im not rly gonna change in any way even if i do decide that tho, i think. my policy is already "be kind do good leave others alone". i dont think im gonna get preachy on here or anything. i mean has anyone seen much vegan posting from me? so i think im good

so . yea. sorry it turned into such a long post

#asks #not so holy bible posting

[bulletsgirl]

i cant believe im gonna be 21 on monday. guys will be like i will die before 18 and then they dont

[arduadastra]

An unhinged recap of TLOU EP3

Honestly read at your own peril, I cried a lot in this one

*spoilers ahead*

So right off the bat I played TLOU with my partner very soon after it came out, and then again.....and again......(and again) a few more times so I thought I was ready for this. I was ready for grissly asshole bill needing to go find Frank because he's only gone and got himself in some shit and yeah joel and ellie come along I know where a battery is but oh no Frank got bit?! and have a cry but did we get that? No. Do i wish we did? Absolutely not.

But i am kinda bummed we didnt get pedro pascal caught upside down shooting at zombies because of Frank's trap....thats one of my all time favourite scenes

ANYWAY

The whole set up to Bill and who he is, is done so well and with comedy too. It's meant to be ridiculous in a way that someone like bill, a prepper and lets be real we all know one, who 9/10 is called crazy is now the smart one and we see him living his best solo life in his mini town

5. Years pass im thinking huh, that isnt too long, we arent up to present day yet and then i see my boy frank in a hole and im thinking OH YEAHHHH we get some BACKSTORY

6. "there is no girl" "i know" - why did this make me laugh yet cry in the same breath? its so bloody unfair people can grow up without knowing what it is to love and be loved simply because some assholes out there made it 'not the norm' and considering how bill grew up, im sure that didnt help either.

7. "have you done this before?" "no"

8. Young joel in that sunshine? eating with that fork on a fancy plate with pedro's non grey hair and looking clean as frick? this was for the pedro simps and i APPROVE

8.5 MY BOYS JUST WANNA GROW STRAWBERRIES OK

9. the raiders hit, im thinking SHIT here we go, this is when theyre gonna kill frank and joel and ellie will show up and bill will be an asshole and joel will think nothing of it and ill be screaming at my tv and all will be right in the wor- wait what BILL GOT HIT?!

10. oh he's fine

11. Frank isn't though

12. This is where im prepping myself right? I KNEW since i started this episode that he would die, he died in the game and he's gotta die here but im not liking this.

13. Bill stop naming Frank's pills fun names im literally crying

14. Frank: "This is my last day" Me:

15. I dont need to write the speech he made because honestly if i did i'll just cry again and im writing this on my laptop and i really cant afford a new one but you all know that made you cry too

16. THEY. GOT. MARRIED. ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME?! ARE YOU?! BECAUSE THIS SUCCEEDED MAN YOU DID IT - WELL DONE

17. Now here i am, tears streaming down my face when you lose something you cannot replace Frank has drunk the wine, im a puddle and then Bill.....this mother fricker....downs his glass and im thinking wait a miniute here....this isnt what happened in the game

18. "objectively.....that is very romantic"

19. ........ *frank castle voice* wait wait wait wait wait WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT

20. my ass is in denial right, im like nah ok bill is gonna wake up and that'll be horrifying and heartbreaking because now hes forced to live on without the love of his life and joel and ellie arrive and his door is locked and i knew this aint the way it's gonna be

21. the letter. I need say nothing more.

22. So after ALL THAT, all the sobbing and crying and pact and 'we left a window open' they're just gonna throw at me some joel and ellie bonding in the car? theyre gonna give me the game quotes of 'what you say goes' ????????????????

TLDR: EP3 was beautiful and heartwarming and then soul sucking all at once. While i didnt get my refirdgerator scene i got something so much more and I loved them for that. Now im just hoping ellie found those magasines because best BELIEVE thats another of my all time favourite scenes from the game

#tlou #bill and frank #bill and frank the last of us #the last of us ep 3 #the last of us hbo #the last of us series #joel miller #pedro pascal