#cause it rl gets me upset

[diorsbrando]

folks are literally out here writing 7-8 sentences….a couple short paragraphs….and people just!!! eat it up!!! so many people in so little time! im just.

#ʬʬ.sosa speaks.com #discouraged #how are we amassing thousands and thousands of notes on sum so short in like 4 days #& it’s the bare minimum or something random or just like pure smut and that’s all it takes #what am i doing wrong #im not hating or whatever just venting #cause it rl gets me upset

[stoopid-turtle]

hello... 😅 uhm, first of all, i truly am sorry in advance for being awkward 😭 but for once i decided not to let my awkwardness keep me from sharing (what i think/hope are) positive thoughts with a stranger on the internet, so here i am.

i'm not around much and legit only made this acc bc like you i'm a late bloomer here and needed as many outlets for my yizhan/wangxian obsession as i could get my greedy hands on, in the big year of 2023... sigh. anyway, as an avid lover of meta/analysis posts since my early fandom days began around 15 (oof 🥲) years ago, finding your acc was such a lovely surprise. i agree with your views a LOT, and really appreciate how eloquent and well-written your posts are! even more so bc there's a lot i still don't know and most of the time the source material is very hard to reach and/or understand due to the language barrier, so having other turtles to rely on to access those, even if filtered by their own biases/opinions, is wonderful. besides, such input coming from a new fan is also comforting and imo refreshing, juxtaposed with that of older fans... it keeps the fandom alive and all that jazz. it's also very brave given how ruthless some folks can be on the internet, and on this corner in particular 😮‍💨 it just felt like reading my own thoughts written by someone else sometimes. i gasped and nodded at your posts soooo many times djskdjdj thank you for that!

(btw you followed me back the other day and i legit fangirled irl bc ??? whatttttt 😅 i still think it was an accident but okay omg djskdjdj AHEM. sorry)

then today i logged in and read your recent posts feeling squeamish about sharing more thoughts and as much as i 100% relate to you saying that kind of attention makes you anxious, i just... idk, i had to let you know i enjoy everything you post, even though adult life has kept me from being able to read it all so far. i understand you stepping back and i respect that decision, i'm not by any means asking you to go against what you know is best for you. at the same time, i can't help but hope you'll still show up every now and then bc your posts will be missed 🥲 i guess the whole motivation behind this is that it just made me sad to think your valuable insights will be something i'm yet again late to, if that makes sense?

djskdjdj again, i'm so sorry for being awkward and weird and dropping all of this on your inbox unprovoked. you don't have to reply (or read this AT ALL omg 😭😭), in fact i'm so embarrassed by this that you'd probably have to reach me through inquiry lmaooo 💀 anyway, have a great life, thank you so much for the great job, bjyxszd etc ❤️💚💛

Oh, don't be anxious! I'm really not a big deal.

Thank you for dropping into my inbox! I love hearing from other turtles, especially relative newbies, like myself! One of my fav parts of coming out of lurking mode is getting to talk to other people. I kinda follow back anybody who follows me, cause it seems polite? I don't know tumblr etiquette. I just follow the tags when I get the chance.

I appreciate the encouragement! I try to avoid dramatics, so I'm sorry for the upset last week. The situation is largely resolved, and I am feeling more okay. I kinda backed off because I wasn't sure of my footing here in fandom as compared to others, especially as I do think I have some takes that fall outside fandom consensus. Again, I don't mean to rock any boats and I'm not invested in convincing anybody that they should have the same opinions as I do. Hearing from turtles who do want me to continue posting gave me some more confidence there.

So, yeah, I expect I'll post some more as I have time. I'd like to post more on dd (cause he's my fav). I'd also like to try to figure out gg cause that dude is so confusing to me. I do have RL stuff going on, and I don't have the time to be super-active outside of occasional posts. But I'd like keep posting stuff. At least until I get all my Yizhan thoughts out.

#asks

[hxhhasmysoul]

"JJK really went from a loved manga to a mid-to-bad story with insufferable fans 🙏 may more of us hate it in the future. It snatches the spotlight from genuinely good shows and its another case of "general shonen fan will call any trash 'goat' if the fight is well animated".

I used to be a fan, until the start of the culling game. And after this controversial, inconsistent and inhumane adaptation of shibuya, im glad that I have no interest in both manga and show anymore.."

Thoughts on that statement? Do you think culling game really that hard to understand, cause I saw quite a lot start dislike JJK since that arc....?

If I had seen this in the wild I would've blocked the account that produced it. I block for very liberally and while I will block for obvious bigotry and shitty harassment behaviour, so like serious reasons,I will also block for general annoyance. Fandom is my hobby and I don't want it to be annoying and stress me out through unleashing my adhd and flood my brain with thoughts. And this qualifies as annoying.

But since you brought this to me I will actually explain why I find these kind of posts annoying and not worth engaging with.

While I would've blocked it before I got to the second paragraph on the "may more of us hate it in the future" alone, I will actually start analysing it from the second paragraph where op pretends to give an explanation for this turn in attitude towards JJK they experienced.

Reason 1:

"I used to be a fan, until the start of the culling game."

Op invokes the Culling Game arc as if it's an obvious reason to dislike JJK and hence your question at the end of the ask. And I will get to that but I need to set the stage first.

Reason 2:

"And after this controversial, inconsistent and inhumane adaptation of shibuya,(...)"

(Side note, I find it genuinely dodgy that Shibuya, an actual rl geographical location is not capitalised when the abbreviation of the manga's title is.)

What is controversial, inconsistent and inhumane about the adaptation of the Shibuya arc? The working conditions at Mappa are inhumane indeed, but it's an industry wide problem and with how JJK is a beloved title the animators actually could do a strike with a chance of the company making concessions. I don't think there would've been the same amount of fan support and pressure for animators of smaller titles. And the way the anime is produced isn't really the reason why JJK as a story should be hated because the story isn't responsible for industry exploitation that has been happening since long before JJK was even conceived by its author.

The word "controversial" honestly feels flippant when it's together with the far more appropriate "inhumane" and feels like it was added for the aesthetics of having 3 adjectives.

Now the word "inconsistent" actually makes me believe that the outrage in this sentence is not genuine and is typical posturing of "I'm critical of the media I consume so I'm a good person" crowd." This is the only adjective that actually describes the adaptation and not its creation process. And the inconsistency of the adaptation is in its animation quality. And that inconsistency stems from the inhumane working conditions. Pulling is out as a reason as to why op is "glad that I have no interest in both manga and show anymore." feels really callous and shows their hand, that they are upset that they can't consume the pretty moving pictures in peace anymore.

Huh...

"It snatches the spotlight from genuinely good shows and its another case of "general shonen fan will call any trash 'goat' if the fight is well animated"."

This is a typical example of trying to put on the guise of intellectualism through being against the popular thing. There's also this classist distinction between high art and pop culture with the idea that only a certain level of education and intelligence allows for interacting with high art thus it's only for the intellectual elite.

So there's a certain group of people who equates obscurity with quality because if they can claim liking things that others don't know about they feel like they are smarter than the rest. This way they can make an appeal to intellectualism even if they are not interacting with what would traditionally by the upper classes and social climbers be considered high art.

Popularity means that the unwashed masses like it and and the intellectuals will look down on them and their tastes, even if the intellectuals are leftists. The mob is defined by its stupidity and by liking primitive and simplistic things for vulgar reasons.

In this framing, the moment JJK became popular it lost any claim to quality. JJK is liked by the "general shounen" fans who only like pretty moving pictures. The shounen fan mob doesn't care about the "genuinely good shows" and because the mob is huge and loud those better shows suffer in obscurity. Of course no show gets specified by op because they are addressing this to those who are in the know - like those who are at their level will immediately conjure the image of those "genuinely good shows" and nod along.

And now we will circle back to the Culling Games arc. This arc feels like a HxH arc, especially Hakari and I love it. But not only for that. The arc is much slower than the previous ones and I actually hoped it would be a signal that the story will slow down like this, take more of its time to follow one or two characters and delve deeper into them. I love how that arc fleshes out the power system so much more. I hoped we would get more on the new and old characters, and we get it on same Yuuji, Megumi, Maki, Noritoshi, Hakari, Kahimo, Charles, Higuruma though not enough on Kirara, Uro, Remi, Ishigori or the Kyoto school characters or later on Hana and Angel, the time wasted on Yuuta could've been used much better. But alas then Gege cut the breaks and put their foot down on the acceleration pedal and it makes me sad.

The thing is that the Culling Games are disliked because of how slow they are and how much reading there is in them. You will read the chapters online and the comment section will be full of:

"wtf, i'm not reading that lol."

"what did i just read, i don't understand a thing"

"ugh, does anyone know what's even going on in this manga?"

So saying that JJK fans are "insufferable" "general shonen fans" who only like flashy animation and the bring up the Culling Games as a reason why JJK is bad, is very funny to me.

People also stop liking JJK at the Culling Games because the Shibuya arc removes or sidelines several favs of the western tumblr and twitter fandom. Sexyman Nanami gets killed, cute Inumaki gets sidelined, sexyman Gojou gets sealed, sexyman Chousou stays in the tomb with a woman and it's becoming very hard to be delusional that Kenjaku isn't a real important character of their own but actually sexyman Getou who will return soon.

There are many new characters introduced who aren't sexymen, apart from Higuruma and Kashimo (canonically Kashimo doesn't have a defined gender but when has that ever stopped the fandom).

And the western fandom does not like Yuuji and even among those who claim to like him there's a not insignificant subset that likes their head canon of him as a manic pixie dream himbo that they like as a background to their favs and not as someone the story concentrates on.

Basically the Culling Games are not fast and flashy enough, and the arc is really hard on those fans who were skipping dialogue when it delved into lore and power system in the previous arcs. Already Shibuya gets difficult at times if you didn't pay attention to the world building in the earlier chapters but with the Perfect Preparation and the Culling Games and anything after I imagine it must be a chore to read when all the concepts seem new but the plot and character arcs heavily rely on the previously established world building.

The truth is that if you delve into the fandom tags it quickly becomes perfectly clear how poorly the fans are acquainted with the text. How to many fans the characters exist mostly as their head canon versions and not as they are in the text. You will see fans complaining that the manga changed into something else from something they liked. But when you learn what they think the manga used to be it becomes apparent that they were ignoring huge portions of the text for one reason or another and just focused on the parts that interested them. That they blow out of proportion the significance of their favs and get disappointed when the story doesn't centre them.

It's okay not to want to follow a story when the character you liked dies or gets sidelined but that doesn't mean that the story is bad for it, that it's definite proof of bad writing or whatever. And it's not the story's fault that someone only liked one or two characters and didn't care about the rest, it happens.

And this is the crux of the issue. People who write opinion like the one above speak as if they represent some large group. The language of the post you cited suggests that there's some general consensus about the quality of JJK, about the Culling Games being the reason to dislike it. That the choice is exclusively between these two options:

thinking that JJK is "mid-to-bad" for some reasons that should be obvious to the reader

or being a part of the unwashed anime fan masses who like it only because of the animation.

You're either among the intellectuals who are in the know and also morally correct in their hatred for the story or you're an insufferable cretin.

People like the author of that post can't just dislike something, can't fathom that something can be not for them. For them it's not okay for something to exist in a neutral way and not be for them. Them not liking a thing means that there's something "objectively" wrong with the thing and the people who like it. And they can't fathom that a serialised story not going in the direction they like doesn't mean that it's "objectively" badly written. It's natural to feel disappointment when the story one used to like turns into something they don't enjoy anymore. But posts like this hint on the fact that the author believes that stories exist just to satisfy them personally and when it fails to do that it needs to be publicly denounced and anyone who dares to like it needs to be shamed and informed of their intellectual failures.

#answering asks #thank you for the ask #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #this answer got long and kinda mean but this fandom tends to give me brain damage

[fiyasgideon]

you specifically timing your drama to when that artist opening up a patreon cause they lost their rl job says a lot more about you than them

I'm sorry anon, should I have waited until she announced that she had a job again before saying something? How much longer would that have taken, and for that matter, would she even have announced that she got a job again? And in that time, how many people do you think would reach out to her and offer to give her more money in exchange for some art, and then never receive that art?

In case it has escaped your notice, I gave her two more chances and over a whole week after I found out about her patreon opening before I made that post. At any point in that time she could have reached out to me and we could have worked to come to some solution without making it a public affair.

It's truly baffling to me that there are some of you who come at me, either defending her because she has been going through a rough time, or get upset at me for making that post because it might affect the money she gets from the fandom.

What about me? What about the literal tears I've cried over this matter, wondering what I did or said that was so horrible that she had to cut me off without even an explanation? And you can't say she didn't know about what I was going through emotionally while she was doing this, because, as my first post shows, there has been times where in my break downs I had sent her messages literally begging for any sort of explanation or reply because of how much it was upsetting me.

Do my feelings not matter because she is also going through a rough time? For that matter, should we excuse theft just because the person who stole from you is "having a hard time right now."

Tell me anon, how long should I have kept waiting before I am allowed to tell people of my experience? I've already waited 8 months since she started ignoring me. How much longer? When would have been a better time?

#fiyas speaks

[chibipsycho-v3]

Hello Hello! It's me again!

Heehoo request time/lh

I'm feelin' very hurt/comfort cause anxiety is being a bitch like always. Same peeps from before btw!

Basically, just some general anxiety comfort will do. Whether that's headcanons or a oneshot or both like last time is up to you. But I would like to add a personal tidbit if that's fine.

How they would comfort their partner who's ashamed of how they feel.

I'm sorry if that's a bit too personal or if it's just oversharing in general, I just could use some comfort about that, y'know? Totally up to you if you want to answer this request or not friend.

Have a good rest of your day/night!

*hands together* I am sorry that this took so long to get to you I won't bore you with my RL But I wanted to get these just right before I posted them. I did these in a headcanon style this time, it was the format that flowed- for some reason?

Anyway I hope you feel better, friend. I have some similar struggles from time to time and while I can't rightfully say I know your pain, I feel for you and with you. So we can all sit here and get some comfort from some nice 'bots~

P03 comforting a partner who is ashamed with how they feel

Something is bothering you, P03 can tell. He's not very perceptive with mood changes in others, but he's been around you long enough to recognize it.

At first, he doesn't say anything. He figures if you wanted to talk about it, you would. He does soften his words around you, though.

P03 finally can't take it and he pulls you aside to ask you what the problem is. If someone's bothering you or something, he'd have a few choice words with-!

In the quiet of the backroom, away from prying eyes, you tell him. But once you tell him what's bothering you, his face can't quite settle between sad and upset.

He doesn't say anything quite yet, but- if you were okay with it- he would pull you close and hold you against himself.

He tries to come up with words, but- Oh, he's terrible at this. But you're not feeling good and he's gonna try his damnedest to relieve that feeling.

So P03 tries to offer the words he needed in the past. That he can see you're not feeling good. That you shouldn't be too hard on yourself. That he's proud of your efforts. It may take him a minute (this poor 'bot is awful at discussing emotions, especially his own) but he may even tell you a little about his past to show you're not alone.

Once you've calmed down a bit, he turns his attention to the factory- and calls an early shutdown for the day. His workers are understandably confused, but he tells them not to question it.

He's not going to just comfort and run, he's gonna stick close to you for the rest of the day.

You want to talk more about your problems? He's listening. You want to discuss something else? He's got plenty of subjects and things to distract you with. You want to cuddle? He'll find a blanket for you both. If you want something to eat or drink, he refuses to let you do it yourself and brings it to you.

He wouldn't put this effort out for just anyone, and if pressed by someone he'd deny he did it, but P03 does care about you.

"I don't want you to feel ashamed. I am proud of who you are. Tell that to the thoughts that are trying to scramble you up."

The Archivist comforting a partner who is ashamed with how they feel

The Archivist can tell your mood is off the moment that your demeanor changes. She says nothing in front of others, but as soon as the two of you are alone, she'd ask if you were feeling alright. She wants to give you a chance to talk on your own if you wish to.

If you do tell her what's bothering you, she gives you a look not of pity, but of sympathy. She'd offer a hug if you'd like it, and she squeezes your shoulders gently.

All of her files are set to the side for you. She wants you to feel better, but she doesn't want to overstep a boundary.

But first, your comfort is her priority. That file the Archivist built on you tells her all she needs to help you out. She'll get your favorite drink in your favorite spot with possibly even a playlist of some soothing music to help you de-stress. Any other comforts you need are easy enough for her to get her claw on.

If you need a distraction from your problem, she has no end to interesting subjects the two of you could talk about or things she could show you to take your mind off of things.

She doesn't want to goad you into telling her anything, but she insists that you can tell her anything; she's a really good listener, after all. If you want to be left in solitude, she'll let you calm down by yourself if that's what you need.

But if you want to talk, she's there to listen. The Archivist loves to listen to you, though to hear the hurt and shame in your words, see it in your face… It tugs at something in her circuits.

She'd do anything to make you feel differently, but of course it's never as simple as that. So she tries to understand your position. She might ask gentle questions about why you might feel this way or what she could do to help- but if those questions upset you, she would immediately backtrack.

Your state of mind is her top concern and she tries her best to be attentive and understand.

"You're my sweet partner, and nothing could ever make me ashamed of you. I wish I could change things for you… But I can stand by you through your troubles. Always."

#chibi wrote a thing #inscryption #inscryption p03 #inscryption archivist #p03 x reader #archivist x reader #inscryption x reader #x reader #I chiseled at these all weekend- I wanted to get them right! #Also that wasn't oversharing- you're good #Like- I have a bad inferiority complex so this hit close to home #Not to compare my issues to others' of course #Anyway- feel better friend~

[letstrywritingmaybe]

Me in the middle of trying to get my rl stuff together, but also some writing and suddenly hit with the thought that labyrinth is such a CoAi song. Idk why this just got to me so bad cause I’m not even writing the midnights album right now. But I just got the song in my head and all of a sudden I’m like this is so them

Update: I’m trying to be productive. Please just let me be productive so I don’t have to be upset anymore. I’ve calmed down a lot, and I’m trying not to let it consume me. And it really didn’t help that my teams lost today. So please just let me be productive. Let me finish this next chapter of Devour or maybe even finish IWICL

Update 2: I already shortened the sports AU I wrote for this month but Omm it really needs to be a whole thing and I just read something that makes it even better. Was anyone gonna tell me Mahomes is the team’s backup punter? Cause listen this is excellent on so many levels! And especially for this verse!

#cynful babbles #I’m so incredibly busy this month and it’s exciting but also making me anxious #I don’t like to get my hopes too high for fear of the fall but I also know I shouldn’t be so negative *sigh #and there’s also fun stuff to look forward too and celebrating the successes of my friends! #I’m just overthinking too much again but I don’t have time for this! #anyways yeah the chorus was specifically what got me as it was playing in my head #the whole uh oh I’m falling in love. I thought the plane was going down how’d you turn it back around #I really need to write the album fic too but I’m trying to finish some WIPs first *sigh #the anxiety was a sign and I knew it but I hoped it would just go away #it’s a vicious cycle and I want out but it’s far too difficult to cut off all ties even though it would make everything better

[alexanderlightweight]

Hi ! I hope you're doing well !

I was wondering if you still write prompts from last week ?

hey! it's a very hot day today but the only things i have to do are some paperwork, laundry, oh i need to make the chicken i thawed too... and ofc writing. oh i need to wash out Nightshade's pool, the last storm made it pretty gross with pollen again.

oh well, its a little busier than i thought but thats okay. I hope you're doing well too

Yes! I still write them

It might takes a little bit of time, but I’m trying to answer every prompt that comes to me! sometimes I answer that I won't answer a particular prompt but otherwise it means it's still going to be answered

i know it may not seem like it (i dont mean this in a bad way cause like, there is no way for people outside of my tumblr to know that's why i'm specifying) but i'm steadily working my way through the oldest of prompts and the newest of prompts by virtue of which ones light my brain up with 'oh i can write this right now!'

^_^

I've got 113 prompts in drafts and 40+ in my inbox so I'm hoping I can catch up in the next month or so on my days off. because i am a dragon and this is my hoard and i hate parting with any of the prompts lol

they all have to be filled! or answered

i hope this helps?

also in no way am i upset by how many prompts i have. a little sad it's taking me so long to get to some of them. but when im out working or busy in RL, i tend to scroll through my drafts and inbox and see if i can start mentally cataloging data for their future verses.

<3 lumine

(I posted this publically and i hope that's okay because i've had other questions like this and i'm trying to share as much info as possible)

#lumine answers asks #lumine talks to ppl #writing wednesday answers

[notasapleasure]

Okokok finally watched all of the latest SW series (no money to mouse house. I am not proud I watched it but my Rogue One and SW Legends feels won out, plus it's 'good SW' that all my RL friends watched and expect me to have an opinion on).

I'm not after drama, I've got mutuals who love this show and those who won't watch it, and those who tried it and didn't like it. But it was good enough to have been simmering in my brain, and bad enough to have been simmering for other reasons, so my thoughts are below the cut.

The bad first

Ep 01 going hard on the 'Cassian is a womaniser' lines but also being all tell and no show. Weird. Unpleasant. Unnecessary. Do they think they need to do this to get the dudebros interested?? Oh haha he tells all the ladies he's a poor orphan from Kenari so much for the cover story about Fest...

Ep 08 and Cassian just...pissing off to do drugs and laze about on some resort planet?? As a guy called...Keef?? Is this a joke?

Connected to prev: Diego is amazing. He's a fantastic actor and I'm so glad he was involved in producing. But Cassian is meant to be late teens/early twenties here right? Maybe the Keef stuff works better for a younger guy, but that's the plot point that for me just broke down my suspension of disbelief of Diego playing someone half his age. Especially coming off his leaving conversation with Maarva - it felt like a younger man's argument.

I think this comes from me not feeling they set him up properly in eps 01 and 02. He and Maarva already *seem* so connected with rebelliousness/fighting the Empire. Clem was killed by them, Cassian steals stuff from them (that it's really hard to steal) and the poisoning of Kenari is caused by them. But it feels like the show writers have to kind of....row back his obvious alignment with the rebellion a couple of episodes in? And I don't think they ever sell Cassian's apathy well enough. It's like the womanising: there's a lot of telling us stuff that seems at odds with what we're actually shown and it feels clumsy.

Connected to prev: Bix. I'm so sorry. I never warmed to you even a bit. You weren't given much personality beyond 'Cassian's ex'. Yet there is zero chemistry between Bix and Cass. There is more between Cassian and Brasso than Cassian and Bix (not just My Fannish Opinion™️, husband agrees). Bix didn't have to have romantic history with Cassian in order for any of this to work. Timm might have shopped him for any reason, why was jealousy the only thing the writers could come up with? Again, especially so early in the series when it felt like the characters' dynamics hadn't really been established. Were we meant to think there was still a spark between Cassian and Bix? I never once saw it. And if not, there was a kind of resentful exasperation between them that was never explained. But then, the decision to show Bix going to Timm's and being so upset by his death leans more in the direction of her really caring for Timm. It just all felt a bit muddled and I'm not saying it *couldn't* make sense, just that the emotional investment was hard to find in the first couple of episodes. And if Bix had just been another friend/contact of Cassian's (like Brasso and Nurch and Pegla (have I got their names right?)) what would have been the problem?

I'm not sure how I feel about the Kenari stuff. I'm not sure what it adds to Cassian's story - beyond a kind of...'indigenous savage' flavour and a missing sister - that he couldn't have had from being an orphan picked up from Fest or any other planet. At least in regards to how the show used it. The idea of Imperial genocide was better encapsulated by the aliens whose screams Bix was tortured with, and the environmental damage of Imperial expansion came up in the prison escape too. Maybe season 2 will get into it more, but I also have lingering questions about Cassian's relationship with Maarva and Clem - they saved him, yes, and loved him, but the show did flirt with the parallel of 'abduction' by Luthen and the lack of autonomy and choice for Cassian under both sets of circumstances. Also his name - did he choose to become Cassian, son of Clem Andor? Or was it a name he was called before they understood each other, when Kassa was misheard?

Some of the usual dissonance of minorities playing Imperial officers/suspicions raised by SW and Disney doing scattergun diverse casting - a lot of black characters getting killed where white characters live, and MAJOR side-eye for the son of the guy called Salman being the bomb-maker (at least thank fuck they didn't make it a suicide attack). Probably made me cringe extra bc I'm still reeling from Wednesday having a woman say to a black man 'men like you have no idea what it feels like to not be believed'...

The good

AH, MY EXPANDED UNIVERSE <333

The cultures and aliens (could have done with a few more of those tbh though) and costumes and the lived in feeling of the universe was so good. What happens to old droids? Who's reusing obsolete tech? What do the natural wonders of such a vast galaxy mean to the people who witness them?

So many characters I LOVED. Maarva, Mon, Vel, even Luthen, Nemik, Gorn, Kino, Brasso, and honestly Dedra is a fantastic villain too, lots of fun to watch.

Showing the diversity of the kind of people who rebel and the diversity of reasons why people get involved in the fight, and leaning into the struggle to actually bring them together into a coherent kind of rebellion. Saw was a frustrating delight - and all Luthen's scheming and cynicism and repeated reminders to various parties that it's too late to back out, his ruthlessness and his self-awareness were excellent and Stellan Skarsgaard did a fantastic job.

The running theme taking Leia's line in ANH: "The more you tighten your grip, the more star systems will slip through your fingers." The idea that it is Luthen's doing, to push the Empire into revealing itself as a fascist state by giving it the barest excuse to crack down hard on people.

Generally the depiction of the Empire and the kind of people it attracts, and the obvious ways in which it fosters an environment that is at odds with the order it claims to uphold - Soviet and bureaucratic and reliant on suspicion, mistrust, backstabbing and ambition. Even if Dedra's one of the smart ones, she's not immune to the style of play.

For the first time since Rogue One I had a sharp feeling of 'give me the EU books about this' when it turned out Mon and Vel are cousins. I want to know about their youth on Chandrila and how they came to the Rebellion.

Space lesbians! Connected to prev, what was it like for Vel growing up with Chandrilan customs as a wlw? (Incidentally, Cinta seems very badass but I hope S2 fleshes her out a bit - as she is, I realised her personality is actually more what I expected for Cassian...)

The sub plots worked really well - the raid on Aldhani and the prison break. Really effective case studies of how accurate Cassian's thesis is (that they don't care enough about the people they're oppressing to notice rebellion fomenting and think that fear is all it will take to crush it).

Speaking of, the finale on Ferrix was great. Ferrix as a whole was a brilliant setting - the culture surrounding forging and making, the funerary customs and the sense of community (and unionism, workers supporting one another) really sets it against the Empire and the forced labour we see, and the repeated, disdainful ways imperials talk about local cultures and customs. The finale was about Ferrix and Maarva - everyone was so focussed on Cassian that they forgot about the bigger picture and about everyone else on Ferrix, who might well have been annoyed at what Cassian brought down on them, but who, when it comes to it, were more angry at the Empire than him.

Cassian is an actual lunatic. Total madman. Quietly INSANE. I do love him sm, despite the jarring details mentioned above. The way he's still trying to get hold of the computer as the forge is literally falling down round his and Luthen's ears, the way he and Melshi end up surviving because they're both hot-headed, impulsive idiots. The relentlessness that we saw in Rogue One.

Ah, so many Jyn parallels! Maarva's holo image speaking about rebellion/Galen's holo telling Jyn he always loved her as he lays out the flaw in the Death Star. The haunted, broken look of a person who still can't stop themselves from getting involved in resistance once they see the opportunity for it and, once they do, revealing their talent for leadership and bringing out the best in others.

(smh still can't believe Cassian gets this gorgeous, complex TV series and Jyn got the world's worst YA novel)

tl;dr

Overall GOOD, not mind-blowingly amazing like some people have said. People who don't trust Disney to tell this kind of story are, I think, right to be distrustful - there's a lot of good in this but the blind spots are where you'd expect them and there are lazy shorthands at work.

Nevertheless, as Star Wars, it's a welcome journey into the wider universe and fleshes out the context for rebellion really well.

Cassian's character suffers a bit for the sake of the narrative they wanted to drive, but for the most part that's ok because the narrative and the themes are coherent and well done. Where it doesn't work so well I'll just ignore it :) and I'm sure fandom has ways of fixing the things I had reservations on (though finding the right corner of the SW fandom is the challenge. Where my Cassian/Brasso shippers at, eh?)

Maybe most importantly of all, it made me want to watch Rogue One and the OT again.

#and/or #and0r #are both tags i'm gonna use though i'll also have to go #andor for ts #basically i'm trying to not land this in the show tags because i don't want discourse #but it's inevitable it will show up in searches #hence reblogs off #polite comments welcome - especially from cassian/brasso shippers. you must exist people please? #delusions of grandeur #star wars for ts

[knights-unwelcommentary]

It still upsets me that yellowbloods are forced to lift ans zoom ships in space. Like.... How the hell does that work? What do they do when they burn out? How many goldbloods do they have on each ship? That whole system is so messed up for multiple reasons.

My theory is that the ships are alive.

The roots (veins?) that cover the helmsman are just estabilizing their powers, feeding the grid (and we know there’s a grid cause the empress went back to Alternia using the ship’s auxiliary power) and quickly running nutrition through their bodies (replacing their organic needs) so they can output extreme amounts of energy without self-destructing like Sollux did when he pushed the meteor. A well managed ship would only need to replace the helmsman at the end of their lifespan (which might be the norm cause psionics are rare, apparently)

And the helmet is a separate machine altogether that mind controls them to psychically push the ship the way the captain wants to go and allows them to see and avoid objects in its path

There might be another machine that warps space (there are actual scientists looking into that in rl) for faster than light travel but that's getting too far away from what the comic shows so I'll leave it alone

#{talk homestuck to me} #{trollplanet speculation} #-

[problemswithbooks]

Right like why are we acting like Endeavor is his own person and not someone whose writing has been bungled since the Deku Solo Arc? I think the only important students that came away unscathed were Bakugō and Iida. Aizawa is the only adult whose characterization has felt solid so far. I’m not going to talk about what happened to the villains.

I do understand that it's hard to look at characters solely from a writing perspective--I certainly talk about them as people just as much as I do as tools for the story. But I do see a lot more posts talking about bnha as if these characters are human beings rather then drawings written by a person way more often.

Like take the Hawks V Twice fight. I’ve seen posts about it and added my opinion from a writing aspect as to why that entire fight was so confusing for audiences and ended up splitting the fan base way more then it was. Yet no one engaged with me from that aspect, instead continuing to talk about how Hawks was wrong because of RL reasons--which wasn't the point I was trying to make. 

Enji gets similar treatment. People just look at him and talk about how, because he’s an abuser, of course he’s not making progress, which is totally disregarding whether or not that adds to the narrative of bnha or not. Yes, abusers are more likely to back track or even not change at all, and that could even work in a different story, but given all the time and effort Hori put into Enji’s arc, having it stagnate and repeat at tedium isn't helpful and is a waste of time.  

And I do find it weird that so many people were willing to complain about the Deku arc, yet have praised this current one, even though a lot of the problems caused by that arc have snowballed into this one--like the rushed pacing and the dependency on flashbacks to flesh out things that could have been shown earlier. Plus all the weird character shifts that happened during the Deku arc that the story now has to work around. 

As for Bakugou and Iida making it out relatively unscathed I agree--as for Aizawa not so much.

It’s not that his characterization is bad, but I don’t really like the direction Hori seems to be going with him. Him being angry at the villains makes sense, and is constant with his character. What I take issue with is the way it's implied that Aizawa is mad because he blames Shigaraki for Oboro’s fate and wants revenge. Aizawa has always been presented as a logical character, and although it’s fair he’d be upset about his dead friend, you’d think he’d understand that the Doctor was the one that zombied Oboro, not Shigaraki. 

He could still want revenge against Shigaraki for the countless other things he’s done, like leveling Japan, or continuously trying to murder his students. How about for taking his eye or putting him in a situation where he needed to cut off his own leg? Or even having the Nomu pretty much torture him the first time Shigaraki invaded UA? 

But it seems clear to me that Hori has forced his character to be more mad about Oboro because it’s the one thing Shigaraki didn’t play a part in. When Shigaraki inevitably gets redeemed, he can be swayed by the sudden (stupid) realization that Shigaraki didn't hurt Oboro. In fact it’ll probably be Oboro/Kurogiri that makes it clear he actually cares about Shigaraki and therefore Aizawa should to. The rest of the legitimate issues Aizawa could have had will be forgotten and he will get over his “misplaced” anger.   

So, even though his character hasn’t gotten that bad of characterization yet, i do fear, given all the things building up to, he will sort of be ruined in the end. Which I don't really look forward to because I really like Aizawa.

#ask #thanks for the ask! #bnha #mha #bnha critical #I hope I'm wrong about how Aizawa's arc ends #but the foreshadowing seems pretty clear to me #like he's in revenge mode and in stories that's almost always a universally bad thing #and so far it still seems to be connected to Oboro #Maybe Midnight too #which neither are Shigaraki's fault #at least directly #I mean if he hadn't planed on destroying everything then of course the raid wouldn't have happed #so she'd still be alive #but unlike Crust or Aizawa's many injuries over two encounters #it wasn't directly the result of Shigaraki or the Lov killing her #less murder and more manslaughter

[girlokwhatever]

can you do paige being jelly of you and kks rls (you and kk are just friends but paige claims “yall r too close”)

⁺. ༶ ⋆˙⊹❀♡.｡.:*✧ focus on me,,

paige bueckers x fem!reader

2 WEEKS AGO:

paige was just getting back from personal training, walking through the team’s dorm door and letting her shoes slide off her feet. she didn’t see anyone, but she heard the sound of kk’s screaming laughter. paige figured she needed to relax a bit, so she went to drop her bags off in her room and then go see what kk was up to.

as she walked closer to her teammates door, she heard the sweet sound of your voice. in any other situation it would’ve soothed paige, but here—coming from kk’s room, it didn’t.

your girlfriend pushed the door open gently, a light frown on her face upon observing you and kk. the two of you were laying on kk’s bed, phone screen in front of you both.

“hey guys.” your giggles ceased and your head turned, only to be greeted with paige’s unamused expression.

“oh! hi baby,”

“i thought you said you were working today?” you’re sitting straight now, looking up at paige from your position next to kk. your friend stays silent, pushing her hand over the phone’s microphone to muffle your conversation. she could sense the tension coming from paige and wasn’t really sure where this was going.

“they let me off early, really slow day.” you explain to your girlfriend, slightly shocked at the way she’s acting. you didn’t think on it too much though, assuming she was just fatigued.

“why didn’t you tell me?”

“you were busy paige.”

it aggravates paige that you didn’t tell her, instead opting to spend your rare free time with kk. and paige wouldn’t say it out loud, but she was also jealous that you and kk went live without her. everyone said that the three of you were a trio.

“you guys went live without me?”

“it’s not a big deal, babe. we do all the time.”

6 DAYS AGO:

the team was on a ‘recreational team bonding field trip’ and everyone insisted you join, especially kk. you and the freshman had grown quite fond of each other, feeding off the other’s energy and enthusiasm. you were definitely the lives of the party.

you had been spending a lot of time with kk actually, which was starting to get to paige. she’d suggest a fun activity for the two of you to do, and you were always saying “kk should come too!”

paige really enjoyed having you here today, loving and admiring the way you fit in so perfectly with all her friends. even on the way here you were cracking jokes and making everyone laugh. she was thankful to have you, grateful for how receptive everyone is to having you around.

everyone had been hiking up the mountain for about an hour and a half, finally making it to the top. you rejoiced, high-fiving everyone around you. you motivated everyone undoubtedly. it made paige want to kiss you and she was about to— until kk jogged up to the two of you and pulled you away.

it was time to take the zip line down to the bottom of the mountain, something everyone was excited about (really their only good reason to come). everyone needed to pick a partner and paige didn’t even think twice about knowing you were hers. you were her girlfriend for christsake, she didn’t need to call dibs on you.

apparently she did though, cause kk claimed you as her partner instead. what upset paige the most was that you didn’t even say no. never saying “i want to be paige’s partner.”

that’s how paige ended up with nika, the two of them going last.

“if looks could kill..”

“what?” nika’s words drew paige out of her daydream, grounding her back in this moment she wishes wasn’t even happening.

“i saw the look you gave kk. why didn’t you say something?”

it was a good question really. why didn’t she?

suddenly paige remembers your and kk’s shared screams of joy going down the zip line. she remembers the way kk interlocked your hands and threw them up in the air like she was on a rollercoaster. like kk was your girlfriend.

“doesn’t matter. my girlfriend seemed to enjoy herself with another girl.”

“oh paige, don’t be like that. that’s just how kk is.”

when nika and paige made it to the bottom of the zip line it felt like five years had passed. you and kk had been the first to go, and paige had to wait ten minutes for everyone else to be done. upon making it back to ground, paige noticed ashlynn taking a picture of you and kk.

kk’s arm was around your shoulders as she leaned into you, a big stupid grin on her face. you were smiling too, not minding kk’s close proximity.

after being unclipped from the line paige walked towards you, trying to let her frustrations drain away so she could just enjoy the day.

“baby,”

“hold on- what kk?”

2 DAYS AGO:

the team had been back from practice for a few hours now, everyone just relaxing and doing their own thing. paige really wanted to take this reprieve to spend alone time with you, becoming increasingly aware that you hardly ever got a moment to yourselves.

but of course, her plans changed when kk asked to play video games with you at your apartment. you said yes, now sitting on your couch with kk playing COD while paige sulked in another room. you hadn’t realized she was sulking, just thinking she was tired and went to take a nap.

about an hour into playing, your girlfriend came padding out of your bedroom and into the living area. you were too distracted and paige was too childish, quickly unplugging the power cord to the TV without either you or kk noticing.

“NOOOO!”

“WHAT HAPPENED??”

“bro your tv is broken,”

“you probably broke it-“

paige’s voice cut through the air like a knife, bringing both you and kk back into reality. you’re both staring at her wide-eyed with mouths agape.

“well, looks like you gotta go home kk, playing video games there.” paige is fake shrugging like she too is disappointed in the circumstances. you’re squinting and suspecting of her tone but it quickly vanishes.

“TRUE, we can go to the dorms and play!”

paige’s shoulders shrink, watching as you gather your shoes and keys. her plan backfired on her almost instantly.

“maybe we can just stay here babe? i can help you fix the tv,”

“i’ll fix it later p. you comin?”

CURRENT DAY:

paige was beyond excited. was.

she had gone out of her way to plan a nice dinner for you, trying to cook up something nice. she had even printed out a recipe and followed it step-by-step. she went to the store to get you flowers, bought a new dvd to add to your collection, and even wrote you a little love letter.

you told her you’d be getting off by 5:30. it was now 6:43. she was certain the food was cold and stale by now, not worth eating. she had to blow out the candles she lit at the table because the wax started dripping onto the wooden surface. paige was almost finished with her homemade cocktails she learned how to make just for tonight when you walked through the door. finally.

“hey baby!” you hadn’t looked up yet, kicking off your shoes and shrugging your jacket down your shoulders.

“where’ve you been?”

you finally looked up, letting your surroundings sink in along with the instant guilt. you had no idea she was planning anything.

“i was doing this thing with kk-“

at the mention of her friend’s name again paige aggressively pushed her drink away and stormed off. you stood there dumbfounded for a second before quickly following behind her, having to jog to keep up with her pace.

“paige? what’s wrong?”

“what’s wrong?! i think if you mention kk one more time im going to lose my mind. all you do is hang out with her. like i’m not even here. y’know, i planned this whole night because i wanted to spend quality time with you. but instead of wanting to come home to me, you go to kk?!”

“paige i didn’t know you-“

“and y’know what?! i’m tired of you prioritizing her. i’m your girlfriend. not kk. me! you’re too close with her..” she’s silent for a moment and you let her words linger in the air. “jus want you to focus on me.”

her head is hung low and saying it out loud almost makes her feel selfish. but you understand her, you consider her words and realize she’s right.

you have been spending a lot of time with kk. and in turn, you sacrificed precious time with paige to do so. it crushes you now that you know, and you suddenly wish you could go back and time. a few stray tears roll down your girlfriend’s face, landing on her favorite button up. she picked it for this special occasion. just for you.

you peak your head out to the kitchen, soaking in the decorations and the ghost of paige’s effort to make this night amazing for you. a frown settles deep on your features when you realize you’re ruining this night for her.

“paige, i love you so much. unbelievably so. i’m so sorry, please let me make it up to you while we enjoy the meal you made.” you’re almost pleading with her, wiping her few tears away and cradling her fragility. she nods, a weak smile adorning her face as she looks at you.

the dinner had been amazing and paige swears you told her that about a million different times. she liked it though. your reassurance and affirmations let her know that you cared about her more than anything else.

“i love you paigey.”

“not kk?”

“not kk.”

“good, i love you too”

“wait- you were just jealous-“

“shut up.”

┊┊❁ཻུ۪۪♡ ͎. ｡˚ °. ˚◞♡ ⃗ *ೃ༄

YALLLLLLL

idk 😋

#paige buckets #paige bueckers #uconn wbb #paige bueckers smut #paige bueckers x reader #uconn huskies #uconn women’s basketball

[sheinthatfandom]

Apparently Ricky didn't know it was going to be Bryan. Which might explain why he looked a little genuinely upset, not knowing who he was getting.

Shoot or work? Like storyline doesn’t know or he in rl had no fucking clue who he was getting

I mean I felt like he was very emotional and feeling a lot it felt that way to me anyway cause I’m sure he was promised a lot for coming over to collision and stuff but idk

#Loren gets mail #anonymous

[dagasinfilo]

man i wish doctors took rls fucking seriously. mine was already pretty bad but i’ve been getting it almost every night for the past year. i fucked up an ankle bc of how hard it makes me strain my legs. got up from bed bc cant sleep and i’m having to stop typing every few words bc it’s fucking up my right hand and arm. i’m SO glad it’s super rare that i’ll get it on my back cause that one’s particularly upsetting

[thefact0rygirl]

Hi Vee! Can I ask for a soft hurt/comfort with Boba? 🥺 It doesn't have to be long or complicated I just really need a hug and to dissociate from rl a bit.

I'm so sorry to hear that Alex! I'm sending you a big hug, and I hope this brings you some comfort 💚

boba fett x gn!reader (no warnings)

“Boba.”

It’s your voice that gets him. Hollow and splintered, you say it far too quietly for the size of the throne room, almost as if you almost don’t want to hear. He looks up from holopad, eyes landing on your shrunken frame. 

You’re at the foot of the dais, shifting your weight from one foot to the other. It’s barely noticeable, a subtle move only he would notice. Boba frowns at your neutral expression. It isn’t giving anything away, but your voice…The timidness in the sound. Something is wrong.

“Yes, cyare?”

“Hold me. Please.”

Your request is so out of the blue it leaves Boba stunned. You’re not one to disturb him during the day, always being respectful for his new position. But something is wrong, and it’s fairly serious for you to stand before him and request such unexpected intimacy. 

He blinks a few more times, but nods. Setting his holopad to the side, he opens his arms for you to situate yourself in his lap. Even as you curl into his frame and bury your face in his shoulders do you remain emotionless. He wraps his arms around you, biting his tongue to keep himself from asking. An explanation might be what Boba wants, but it isn’t what you need. 

You both sit quietly for a while and not once do you lift your head from its place. Even when Fennec comes in, calling for Boba but quickly quieting when she sees you wrapped up on his throne. He shoots Fennec a look, one of Not right now, before Fennec nods and exits. 

He keeps rubbing your back, even when he braves to as, “Is…is everything okay?”

“…Not really.”

He says nothing more, nodding gently against your head. He’s scared his own voice will start to shake. He isn’t quite sure how to take that or what to do; he rarely sees you so vulnerable and he isn’t sure how to handle it. He wants to fix whatever is causing you distress, but he isn’t sure how. He still tries, voice shaking as he timidly asks you, “Do you want to talk about it?”

“No.”

He feels your head shake against him and one of your hands going up to grip at the collar of his tunic. It’s a desperate action, as if your physical connection is the only thing tethering you to this world. 

“Okay,” Boba sighs, opting to ignore the itching in his brain to start a game of twenty one questions. Instead, he settles in and holds you tightly, as tight as he can. He leans his cheek down to rest on your head and breathes in deep. Your scent always calms him and there isn’t a point in having both of you upset. 

It takes a couple more minutes of stillness before you finally move. Pressing a thankful kiss to his neck, you pull away just enough to look into his eyes. Your voice is still small, but the edges seem to have softened.

“Can we move to your room?”

Boba smiles, an expression far softer than he ever thought he could make. “Let’s go.”

#boba fett x reader #boba fett x gn!reader #boba fett x you #boba fett drabble #vee answers #dreamland creations

[letstrywritingmaybe]

I’m so fucking tired, the switch to being a morning person is wild. I’ve never been that girlie and I never thought I could be but I’m loving my new job so far. Literally couldn’t be happier, I’m sure as it goes I’ll find things I may not enjoy but so far it’s been amazing. But again this was my first week and I don’t know shit yet. Enough about that, writing wise I’m so sorry I’m super behind. I’m still determined to keep weekly updates for the sibling verse, (delaying posting cause I’m supporting Palestine.) But I want to do multiple updates and at the very least give Vordark my beloved the weekly updates. But I’m too tired to try and write right now, so it’ll have to wait till tomorrow or maybe even Sunday. I’ve been working like nonstop the past three weeks and I don’t even have my Pens to keep me energized. Don’t even get me started on irl relationships with people, I’m still upset. But yeah I’m hoping to be on it soon

Update: dreaming up yet another shinshi verse I can’t write cause I have too many WIPs and I just can’t. But I’m hoping to start the next chapter of the sibling verse before I have to actually get up and ready!

Update 2: I started the next chapter of the sibling verse but had to do some errands and now I’m tired again. I’m gonna nap then watch the mean girls movie then hopefully finish the chapter. We shall see (I did finish the chapter!). Alright, I should have the full day today besides football and airport run way late. So I’m hoping to pick back up on the valentines event, then midnight rain, then the pov series that’s taken me too damn long already to start *sigh but also I would like to read one of my book books too. I’m feeling so behind in everything, and while it’s cause I’ve been so busy. I just wish I could be more on top of things, but I’m only human and it’s been very exhausting existing lately. Most of it is still very filling and I really do truly love my new job but there’s so much I have to learn!

Update 3: irl continues to be a lot. I did not get to go about my day off the way I wanted. It ended up being way stressful, but on the bright side I booked another trip cause of course I did. Okay now I’m gonna try and write. The curse of my main character energy continues, please just let me live my filler episode dreams!!! 😭😭😭

I’m halfway through with the valentine event I think, and idk why I’m exhausted. But I guess I’ve had a long week and today was a lot also. I’m gonna take a nap before I have to go to the airport and pick someone up. Idk if I’ll get more writing done after, and any tomorrow but I will try. At the very least, I’m going to update either the sibling verse or midnights. I believe I’m caught up on comments now, I love when I get to read fics! But now it’s time for bed cause unfortunately I need to be a morning person. One more day off but it’s going to be very busy with rl stuff again *sigh hoping I get some writing done but I’m not holding my breath. Now excuse me while I continue to dream about this fic I have no intention of writing, it’s another memory loss one cause of course it is

Update 4: I’m about to go to sleep cause I need to be a morning person (yes I’m going to keep talking about this until it actually happens) but I think I’m done with the valentines event! Super short chapters so it wasn’t that hard to do, but I’m just glad I got it done! Now I can go back to working on my projects I wanna do once I get used to my schedule. Also I ended up updating the sibling verse instead of midnights cause of my time stamp thing, but I will try again tomorrow

#cynful babbles #I just feel like rl has been a lot and lots of ups and downs #almost too much for me to handle but luckily more good things than bad but it’s making me feel on edge

[alexanderlightweight]

So I put in a prompt and I don't know if you've answered it about more disabled Alec? I don't know if Tumblr ate it or if you've put that you don't want to do anymore of that prompt? If you have no more intrest in that I understand and I didn't know how to ask without sounding pushy.

oh hey nonny! you're okay!

okay so i'm going to answer this honestly but this is me just being blunt. there is nothing wrong with the question and i'm not upset, i'm just kind of blunt because of anxiety and i hate misunderstandings so i tend to lay out all the facts and overexplain.

so i answer prompts based on my mood because i don't want to burn out, if that makes sense? so sometimes i have to temporarily avoid prompts that 1) require a lot of research (because i take my research seriously, even if i don't need to. autism special interest thing), 2) or i'm not up for dealing with how much meta belongs in a certain verse, 3) or are emotional in a certain way that i might not be up to dealing with? cause writing is super charged for me. it's basically my therapy so that means sometimes i'm mentally fucked up a bit and dealing with some things.

the agony of living, alec has chronic!pain and right now @saeths in a major flare up (Say's back is feeling out of sorts and she's had three medical procedures on it in six months) and i couldn't find my brace so my bad knee got overused. right now, writing about pain wouldn't be super cathartic because i'm still in pain and people i love are still in pain and the pain isn't going anywhere. all i'd be doing was focusing on it.

my brain is not happy right now and it wants to get into the nitty and gritty of chronic!pain:

i want to write about alec refusing to eat because the pain is too intense for him to feel hunger and all he can feel is nausea

i want to write about alec forcing himself not to shout at Mirai because she's forcing him to drink electrolyte water and all he wants to do is drop to the floor and scream but he can't let himself.

about an alec who can't make it to his room every morning so he has a special bed in his office.

and while those aren't bad things to write about, for me they wouldn't be helpful to focus on rn. because then i'll just make myself sad and wilty.

i actually really enjoy writing in this verse and i'm happy to explore it more. i just also have to be careful i don't overlap too much and burn out because i accidentally overfocus on things that are actually diminishing my quality of life in rl.

the weeks i write the agony of living are honestly, the weeks i feel the best and i'm taking Nightshade on walks and hikes and keeping on top of the housework and yardwork and cooking and work are when i want to write it.

when i can think about everything that can go into the story without reliving and focusing on how awful everything is in the moment. so this is probably tldr and tmi.

so TDLR:

i only write the agony of living when things are doing good physically in RL because otherwise it's too depressing.

i hope that helps make sense? you were very polite and not at all pushy and there was nothing wrong with this ask. it just happens to have an intense answer but i'm happy i was able to clarify and i have your prompt saved in my drafts so tumblr can't eat that! i'm trying to do that with all the prompts i get and it takes a while, but i love all the prompts and i hate when tumblr eats them

<3 lumine

#lumine talks to ppl #lumine answers asks #writing wednesday answers