#college is stressful enough

[nero-neptune]

“Roy was the engineer, and anything related to engineering, in any specialism, would have to pass through his hands. This included assembling the plane’s radio, just like he’d fixed the small battery-operated Spika radio and made it work.

“Adolfo sat down beside him. He explained to Roy that it was not a matter of expertise in electronics but one of ignorance, and pointed out that Roy was the least ignorant of everybody in that department. Roy argued that he had never seen an airplane radio in his life, not even in a book. Adolfo put his hand over Roy’s. ‘I know that, Roy. We all know that. I only wanted to tell you that you were the best one at handling the wires and the terminals, that’s all. But right now that’s a lot, it makes a huge difference … you are the engineer.’

“Roy, almost breathless, added something that his older friend already knew: ‘I am barely in my first year in Engineering, I’m only twenty years old, and the only time I’ve ever been remotely close to anything like this was when I helped instal a damn audio system for my cousins.’

“‘And you fixed the Spika radio,’ Adolfo responded, as if it were a thermonuclear station and not a basic portable radio the size of a pack of cigarettes. Before Adolfo even said the next sentence he knew clearly that it was as painful for him to say as it was for his friend to hear it. ‘Roy, the group needs your abilities. All we’re asking is that you try.’ ”

– “Is Anybody Listening?” from Society of the Snow: The Definitive Account of the World’s Greatest Survival Story by Pablo Vierci

LA SOCIEDAD DE LA NIEVE | SOCIETY OF THE SNOW (2023) dir. J. A. Bayona

#society of the snow #la sociedad de la nieve #moviegifs #filmgifs #doyouevenfilm #fyeahmovies #userconstance #userrobin #usermarina #userbbelcher #chewieblog #dasakuryo #henricavyll #tuserjyn #dailyflicks #dailyworldcinema #perioddramaedit #userfilm #userstream #myedit #i know i know it's a lot of text i KNOW. it's just important to me #beyond being one more aspect of the story that's shown on screen but further expanded upon in the book- #it spoke to me A Lot bc it's yet another reminder of how 'in their 20s' everyone is here #roy harley's the engineer. and whenever that's mentioned the book goes: #'truly cannot emphasize enough how much he/i hated Every Single Second of being the damned engineer' #like just think about whatever your college/uni major was. and imagine-without warning-you're now the default expert in your field #barely a year's-worth of learning in your back pocket. but people are depending on you! you literally have no room to say 'no' #he did eventually become an industrial engineer. it all worked out. but the stress?? the anxiety??? (all the while missing his best friends #like what a way to learn on the job :/

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[vyeoh]

I sometimes think people who aren't from parts of specifically the US with a very large wealth gap don't quite understand in a concrete way how absolutely fucked college admissions are here.

Please know that my mom and I just bumped into a family friend. And this lady straight up starts talking about how a lot of people pay people to write college essays for them. As if that's a common thing everybody does. And then she started talking about how she didn't know any asian kids that got into Ivy Leagues. What the hell was that interaction who wrote her dialouge options

#vio.txt #politics #literally what the fuck #1) why is this your chosen conversation topic #2) girl what???? what rich person cult are you a part of???? #anyways her daughter goes to the same college as me except shes a business major so ig those essays werent much better #anyways i think we made each other very uncomfortable. like my sister in christ just say youre racist and move on the fuck #i cannot stress enough how bonkers this is to me as a 'bumped into an acquaintance on a dog walk' conversation topic #like?? you are admitting cheating your way into a school???

[marblerose-rue]

HII guess who's reading feline wizards (this is rhiow and she's my absolute fave)

#my art #feline wizards #rhiow #PLEEEAAAASE PLEASE READ THESE BOOKS fellow wc fans i am begging #im not very far into the first book but i cant stress enough how much im enjoying it #sootslash also has plans to draw these guys if im not wrong so if you guys arent already following her go check out her art!! #thru its recommendation i bought all of the books and im so glad i did #the worldbuilding is killer and theres not a character i dont like so far #i wanna draw rhiow saash and urruah together i just need to make time #ALSO SORRY FOR THE DROP IN ACTIVITY x_x done with college til fall!!! busy with work and wcrps teehee

[nerdy-girlramblings]

I hate when I start a new semester and I slowly start to feel my happiness and soul being sucked out of me after I just spent at least a month getting it back after the previous semester

#first week of the college semester thoughts #college #im only four days in and I am already stressed and short on sleep #im back to depending on coffee everyday to have enough energy to make it through the day #nerdygirlramblings

[moregraceful]

Whenever I feel my age in hockey fandom, I remind myself firmly: no matter what, Marc-Édouard Vlasic will always be older than you. Pictures - 1) Kitty Cat Max on patrol; 2) Magnus Chrona (6'5) standing next to a U6 goalie at the anthem; 3) full moon at night.

#having a vaguely discomfiting week #uhhh i don't know. too much and not enough to do. mostly not enough #i've been applying to some deeply hilarious silicon valley jobs #one i was editing my cover letter for and thought man. i could do this with the irc for way less money with way more stress #(international rescue committee i mean) #and then i went for it anyway. i would be good at it! i've just seen the exact same job description for charities working with refugees #the bay area is so interesting. i'm always like i love it! it's home! but how much of that is only having left it for college #but then i think about starting a new life somewhere else alone and i'm like god that sounds exhausting #lost control of my schedule again btw. forgot i had about 800 things on the calendar #i actually forgot i had therapy for four weeks straight in the last two months it's been such a mess #which i think is what happens when i have no external schedule #again i do not dream of capitalism. but i do dream of someone else giving me tasks with a set number of hours attached #if an anarachist commune told me my job was to snap the ends of string beans off for four hours i'd be like hell yeah. 4 hour task #why snapping the ends off of string beans SUCH a social activity btw #that was like THE kitchen task my mother would trust me and my sister to do on major holidays and so i have such weird fond memories of #sitting at the table snapping the ends off of string beans and talking with my sister while our family buzzed around us #i mean a lot of my core child and teenage memories are my sister and i hanging out while our parents marriage fell apart around lmfao #where was i going with this. oh right. need a job mostly bc i am going stir crazy but also bc i started private ice skating lesson which are #expensive. definitely going to help!! but expensive #but idk i am haunted and beset by living with my parents in my 30s so more reasons (practice) to get out of rhe houae #*out of the house while mostly unemployed...the better #the story of this post can be boiled down to a couple of things i think: 1. no hoes. 2. no job. 3. if i keep making these posts i have to #take more pictures of things #(<- very live in the moment kind of guy who forgets things later bc they didn't take pictures) #fresno oilers.txt

[everybody-hit-the-pyro-cue]

specialized education and gifted children programs are so fucked up I see the purpose but the execution and expectations are genuinely horrific I've yet to meet a single one of us that's doing okay besides from those who just reached their breaking point and chose to stop caring

#gifted kid burnout #It's so fucked up the emotional stress levels we're normalizing and the expectations to do the best and be the best when everyone #Has been told they're the best and special #Middle school high school college etc should be learning times yes and expose you to new things #The opportunities provided are wonderful and its really cool how many programs you can have access to #But the competition and stress shoved into a relatively short time period isn't productive for helping kids learn and try new things #Especially since they're expected to be a fully functioning adult afterwords with little to no prioritization of information #That could help with that transition #I'm very frustrated with the American education system I don't know enough about other countries education to comment on theirs #Cue rambles #ESPECIALLY NEURODIVERGENT PEOPLE OH MY GOD #I would like to say something about that but I want to do more research on that besides from me just speaking from experience and people #Around me

[the-inner-musings-of-a-worm]

aftg was as successful as it was because you could feel how little of a shit people outside the foxes/ravens orbit gave

#i cannot stress enough how little college sports impact my life #except for this goddamn fictional sport #aftg #all for the game

[goodplace-janet]

please answer this silly little poll of a me who was confused in a history lecture today

#which is not a conversation #but the point stands #i had to look it up. #talk tag #might delete later because this is silly #but you know #there are times when i feel like i don't belong in college #and it's when these. idk. high level academic theoretical words get used #in a way that assumes everyone already definitely understands them #and maybe this is just a normal undergrad experience #i'm not actually hugely stressed about it don't worry #i am curious about this particular one though #it was a bigger deal when i attended my first lecture by a phd candidate about their research #i've been to a few now and i'm getting desensitized to the feeling lol #anyway!! #that's enough tags

[graham--folger]

*through gritted teeth* what the fuck do people want from a resume

#this semester i've had three different people look at my resume and all three of them were like contradicting whatever the other person said #one said add references. the other said don't add references. the other said no add them back in #one said add color. one said only do black & white. one said no you should have color #also in terms of content they all differed as well like. guys i just want to get this fucking internship so i can get out of here #i appreciate the feedback but i think it's made me more stressed in the long run #alex’s inane ramblings #plus just now finding out im gonna need to do a fucking seminar probably in addition to my internship unless i want to do 4 credits of #internship. i fucking hate seminars. and it's taught by my advisor who i like. but he knows how fucking quiet i am and calls me out on it o #the daily. which gets on my fucking nerves let me tell you #im the most non-english-major english major to ever exist #don't make me talk. please dear god don't make me talk #plus in this seminar we would be writing a 20 page paper. on american romance lit. #sorry dr. phillis but that sounds godawful #and if i decide to do the seminar it conflicts with another class i need to take so id have to talk to my graphic design advisor about maki #a substitution #hell on earth. why the fuck is graduating so goddamn hard #i don't have enough credits to be staying an extra semester so i have to get this all wrapped up by december #alright im gonna shut up now. college is hard guys

[zapsoda]

my dads way of connecting with me is telling me about this confederate soldier he read about who lived and enlisted as a man but was revealed to be female after going to the hospital for a hip injury in their seventies or whatever

#i appreciate the effort #his point in bringing it up was that he didnt want me to go to college in mississippi or whatever aha #i cannot stress enough that hes not a racist weirdo hes just really interested in the civil war in like a neurodivergent way

[eliasdrid]

we've had a few governments during my lifetime and ive never been this scared if i have to be honest.

#elias.txt #and stressed... and this is what. day 2? #i do have some sort of safety net but still #looking for jobs this year has been hard enough since im still in college #and i dont have that much experience so who the fuck would even want me. sigh

[girlscience]

speaking of being slow. i wish i was a faster writer. i can write and i can write well, but it takes me significantly longer than nearly everyone i know. i just cannot get words out as easily as other people seem to and it is so frustrating all the time. i am working on editing my resume right now for applications. this is the third day i have worked on it. all i have needed to do this entire time is change the format to fit grad school rather than a job and add my recent work history. this isn't even two pages long. i have been working on it for 3 and 1/2 hours tonight and it's still not done. ITS NOT EVEN 500 WORDS APPARENTLY. i want to cry

#it doesn't help that the vast majority of my friends are writers or english or lit or poli sci majors #my sister did pr and communications #everyone was always writing papers and presentations and speeches #i VIVIDLY remember my last semester at college sitting down with my sister to do work #cause we were home from covid. and in the several hours we were sitting there she got a seven page paper done #and i didn't even finish one page #i just cannot write the way other people around me seem to be able to #i dont know why it is so much harder for me than other people #i always felt bad when i did group projects because i would be working as hard as i could... and i just wouldn't finish the same amount #as the other people because i just couldn't make the right words that fast #and i am already stressing about it for grad school because everyone talks about how grad school is so paper and presentation focused #people say its easier because you dont have to do worksheets or tests and instead you just have to write #(and im doing a thesis masters so i will have to WRITE) #but... the worksheets and problems and tests are what i am good at #that is what comes naturally to me. noticeably so. #but writing??? i am going to struggle #and i already know it. as always..... why am i doing this again? #why do i think i am going to be good enough for this?? hahaha #god i just need to get this resume done so i can start the painful process of writing my personal statement

[ofcowardiceandkings]

SIGHS

maybe i should revisit some sketches just for the giggles and post them just so i HAVE posted something

#i have ... so much art i wanna post but it needs colour first #but im coming up to the end assessment period for the apprenticeship so im doing REAL ASS COLLEGE WORK #on top of my full time job #well my employer has been gracious enough to let us have fridays for college but ohhh my god i am stress #and yeah after a certain point i will have to work normally on a friday but hopefully ill be less stressed ;____; #ive cut off doing most art shit while i put together my portfolio because i need it done very soon #and im dying inside #something something draw blorbos #rory's ramblings

[no-mercy-bby]

I kind of just want to drop out of college and crochet and write books and

#get married (i don't have a boyfriend) #and have kids (i am not in a relationship or stable enough for a family) #i kinda wanna sell crochet stuff but it takes me like a month to make any and everything #plus i suck at reading and understanding patterns #and all ik is single crochet and double crochet and even then i think i do them wrong as well #Tunisian stitch is fun but i don't have a hook long enough and it hurts my hand #idk if it was just my sinuses and lack of sleep but ive felt so bad all day #and my back hurts cause i sit like a shrimp and don't know how to stand i guess #im so tired. genuinely. #and my mouth is fucked up again with sores because of stress and biting at my own lips #and its so lonely being in college #which is kinda funny cause i have more people i would actually consider as friends than ever #but i kinda just feel like im *there* #and i have a million projects to do but i played fortnite with my sis and her husband and my brother instead #and my dad taught my sis and i to play solitaire #and then i beat them both at black jack (it was actually a tie of how many matches i won but shhh) #and i know im blessed that im basically getting paid to go to college by my college but #it just doesn't feel right. like it feels isolating and lonely #and i have gone to some events btw they are not that great

[loverboybreakdowns]

i am literally failing one class. one. thats it. my grades are actually decent apart from that and the class i have a 72 in. and you know what im proud of myself. going to school is really really hard for me and i dont have the energy to do all my work. and i am doing my fucking best and im surviving and my grades are mostly ok. so she can go fuck herself

#class im failing is english #and i cant do anything about it #bc the reason im failing is i havent written and turned in my college essay #which by the way i think thats bullshit #as if college essays arent stressful enough already #and now youre making it a fucking assignment #but whatever #rambling