#curious to know how ppl feel about it!!

[bonesbunns]

Miss this era 💚

#art tag #fanart #the witcher #geraskier #I haven’t watched season 3 at all #curious to know how ppl feel about it!!

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[rainbowresurrection]

I ended up reading The Price of the Phoenix and while it didn't make me want to bleach my eyes like Killing Time, I still didn't like it as much as I hoped I would. Don't get me wrong, the homoeroticism was intriguing to me, but the actual writing and storyline itself left me with a headache. I think I get my hopes up with these books, given all of the possibilities that the written word has for Trek, and it inevitably sets me up for disappointment lol

#if u liked it thats fine I just kind of hated it #star trek #The only ones Ive genuinely liked so far is STTMP and the one about Garak written by Andrew Robinson #i wish Roddenberry had written more. STTMP was no literary masterpiece but his writing style had a lot of potential and I feel that #he actually captured the characters authentically and you could relate to their feelings #Price of the Phoenix had all of this corny alpha male shit going on that almost made me feel #like the author just didn't know how to write men or something #Like they relied a lot on stereotypes of the time which sucked considering that Kirk and co. are supposed to be living in the future #the dialogue was clunky and even confusing at times #and the characters were just #idk. vapid to me #Like Kirk and Spock's love for each other is portrayed which is nice but basically everything else about them just didnt feel #accurately characterized or otherwise explored #it was basically just muliple chapters of several different versions of Kirk getting his ass kicked & this big weird villain dude taking up #space on the page with his plan to take over the universe or whatever #the reincarnation concept was intriguing but the themes just weren't clear enough for me #the end haha #sttos #k/s #review #price of the phoenix #well Im glad I read it anyway I was curious #i get kind of leary of certain K/S content TBF since a lot of it- esp around that time- comes off as voyeuristic towards M/M relationships #a lot of those ppl didnt exactly care about queer movements as much as they cared about seeing their two fictional favs fuck #yes there were queer writers but we didnt always exactly get center stage in these things #you can tell what is written with respect and whats just kinda. written. you feel me #i love K/S and its history but Im not gonna pretend all or even half of it was written with the intention of uplifting queer men #i ended up having more to say than I realized uhhhhhh to be continued at another date

[fiendishartist2]

guys what if i want to make my own apollo justice game.

#i need to write a prequel to aa4 pls pls pls pls pls #okay get this: so phoenix isnt disbarred yet and he doesnt have trucy. hes still taking and winning cases #one day he gets a call from edgeworth and hes all like ''wright i need your assistance'' and hes like what for and edgeworth goes #''ive been given the most ridiculous case and i think youre the only man in law who can take care of it'' #so phoenix bikes his ass to the detention center and boom. child behind bars #and phoenix is like ??? hey kid what are doing here. and this kid is the most surly mfer on the planet like you couldnt get- #-a word out of him if you tried. hes kinda giving phoenix the stink eye too but hes just the littlest guy on earth #and phoenix feels bad for him so he tries to get a rundown of the case (maybe edgeworth gave him an autopsy report or smth beforehand) #but get this. the kid still wont speak. he hasnt even moved a muscle. and after some prodding you find out this little dude- #-doesnt speak english (i dont love aa6 but i think apollos tragic backstory can be interesting so we're going w that but taking it seriousl #anyways so maya is like omg this kid is speaking khurainese but hers is kinda broken bc shes not from the mainland and only knows it- #-from like prayers #so you only get bits and pieces of the kids testimony. plus he still doesnt wanna talk bc ''dhurk told me not to talk to you'' #so you start following the new lead but you ask too many questions and apollos like oh shit i said too much and wont talk to you anymore #but now you have two leads: khur'ain and a man named ''dhurk'' plus the fact that this is kid might be new to america since- #-he cant speak english but is smack dab in the middle of california. its all v curious and phoenix wants to get to the bottom of it #for the rest of the case i feel like it would go in the direction of ''we dont know exactly whats up w this dhurk guy or where this kid- #-came from but we do get him acquitted and phoenix is able to save him from the dark path he was heading towards'' thus steering apollo- #-in the direction of law and giving him a wayyyy better reason than aa6 gave him <3 #i kind of like the interlinked nature of ace attorney's storytelling. like everything leads into smth else and everyone is impacted- #-by another person before they even become properly entangled w each other's lives #like how mia faced dahlia years before she met phoenix but dahlia was the one to connect them #or how trucy gave phoenix the diary paper but she's also the one who ropes apollo into the waa. even before they know they're siblings #or how lamoire left apollo and trucy as children and when they reunite as adults they cant recognise each other but they all find each- #-other anyways #i could go on but i think this could be cool yknow esp bc i think the most interesting thing about apollo's aa6 backstory is his life- #-post dhurk. like where did he stay? was he a foster kid? was he put into the system? how did that affect him? what kind of ppl took him in #i just wanna know how that whole thing would have effected him bc like when yiu think about it how did he even get to america?? his dad's #-considered a terrorist. idk man i think its interesting and apollo and dhurks interactions are one of the only good parts of aa6

[jrueships]

the mayor of turkey trying to get people to vote alpey for Allstar 😭😭

#alpey (who has realized his power) trying to get jabari into allstar too by making use of his turkey influence: @ turkey mayor #jabari my boyfran #now all of turkey is deadset on getting the prince and prince of turkey into the allstar game bcs jabari is alpey boyfran #jabari is unaware of the tweet bcs hes trying to grow a moustache #alpey awkwardly having to slide an arm over jabari while they sit two seats apart (jabari thinks a brainworm is trying to enter him again) #turkish interviewers after another jabari yelling at alpey crimescene: what were u two arguing about 😦!! u guys are our otp ☹️!!! #alpey: nono me & my girl dont argue #alpey: she bash my head in with a rock & i walk it off like a man #reporters shocked & genuinely curious: JABARI!JABARI!! IS IT TRUE YOU BASH IN ALPEYS HEAD WITH A ROCK!!!?!?! #jabari who doesnt know whats going on but craves violence: sometimes. #how will this affect the Gunsmith legacy?!?!?? #⁉️⁉️ #when jabari eventually finds out theyre supposedly dating by jalen joking abt gup designing their outfits for marriage #and tari wanting to be the best man while forcing tyty to be the flowergirl bcs ppl would believe it #alpey expects him to be upset abt the whole fake dating thing but instead jabaris embarrassed and pissed #that alpey thinks jabari needs his help when it comes to popularity bcs DAMMIT!! HES SUPPOSED TO BE HIGH PICK! N OT ALPEY!! wheres HIS fans #why isnt ATLANTA showing out !?!??? <- theyre crazy #and alpeys semi relieved bcs he just thought of the fake dating plan to help his teammate out #who he thought rlly deserved it due to his hard work and underappreciated lack of showmanship #but then he hears how much of a 'my best friend jabari <3 the loser <3' it sounds and feels bad #they dont make up #jabari bashes alpeys head in with a rock and alpey walks it off like a man

[saturniidd]

wah at this point I think I'll just post moth story's premise bc I pretty much abandoned that story

#mayhaps one day I'll uh. get back into writing it. for now I've moved on to new things #anyways for the 1 or 2 ppl curious uh #moth story was basically about a kid (Nyx) who got stuck in a world full of ghosts and ends up becoming a “mailperson” #delivering moth letters from their world to ghosts in this one #the story was centered around the different kinds of grief that one could experience that isn't just grief from the death of a loved- #one . #Nyx's whole deal was that they didn't quite know how to deal with the feelings of their siblings growing up and essentially felt like they #were being left behind bc they are still young and struggling to form connections w/ ppl their age. #this is incredibly oversimplified btw lol #also if anyone read that entire thing. ty lolol

[starlooove]

Actually don’t go in those notes very rancid in there

#i can’t take white beef seriously I’m sorry #and me personally I’m not gonna have an opinion on smth i don’t know about #however I wanna know what some of y’all are tryna accomplish with the type of discourse you get up to #and this isn’t judging I’m genuinely so curious like how does excluding ace ppl or ppl not trans enough for u furthering ur community #and Imma keep saying it I’m genuinely asking this like I don’t understand why we care so much #like words and definitions are important and everything but I don’t see the issue in including ace/aro ppl in the community? #i genuinely don’t understand downsides #and the whole u need dysphoria to be trans thing like some ppl don’t have dysphoria and transition anyways so do they not count? #again. just to reiterate. since some of y’all don’t like to read #Im genuinely confused as to what ur accomplishing or tryna achieve #like idk these feel like post liberation convos to me #like maybe worry about that after we’re not worried about our queer siblings getting killed every single day #but thats just me #and maybe It’s being black on top of it bc the convos in majorly queer black communities are just different #like not to say there aren’t discussions like that but I haven’t really seen the vitriol from other black ppl on that front #but maybe that’s just how I curate my space #like i just feel that there’s more pressing shit to attend to #but also! again! everything I’m saying is 1000% genuine like I do wanna know #and this isn’t saying we can’t worry about multiple things at once and I looove gatekeeping I just don’t understand this specific gate #like why do u draw the line at ace ppl neopronouns and lack of dysphoria?

[asmallcafethatslove]

There is so much to unpack from this message I got from an online uni friend (whom I have never met and we just reconnected after ages of not talking)

#I just want to say that I did feel very shocked by the way she said it and this whole message in general #like how does not having Instagram or any form of social media equates to having depression #BUT from her point of view I can actually understand what she’s trying to say and that she is somewhat looking out for me #we did follow each other on ig but then I couldn’t deal with social media anymore so I basically deactivated it and obviously from her pov #I just disappeared out of nowhere #and for someone to do that - you have lots of things going on like literally what happened etc etc #plus we do talk from time to time before i deactivated so in all honesty the more I think and feel - I think she’s just curious to know #where I am in life atm because I literally lost all contact with everyone lmao #but at the same time I do feel it’s the usage of social media and how dependent ppl are on it nowadays that just #irks me I guess. like I’m still iffy about a lot of things u know? #anyways. many feelings and thoughts and everything thank u 4 reading this if u are I’m giving u a hug

[decembermoonskz]

this is just a thought, but sometimes i wonder if the like button just one day vanished from tumblr and reblogging was the only option, just how much interaction ppl’s content would actually get, you know? like how dependent are ppl on the like button actually? bc if it was gone and they were forced to reblog in order to keep it, would they, or would they still avoid those green arrows like the plague? 

#rant.txt #ig?? but i'm not angry or anything haha #these are just musings tbh #like idgaf about ratios or anything anymore bc it's genuinely bad for me but i really am curious #like nowadays you see those support ccs posts all the itme so it's just normal for those who ignore reblogging to ignore those now too #they def don't have the same impact as they once did when ppl became more vocal about it initially imo #it's really honestly more important for me to just have a group of ppl i wanna share stuff with bc i know they'd reblog if they liked it #i just don't think it's healthy for me to focus so much on random ppl who don't care and ignore our calls for feedback anyway #now this is how I MYSELF feel so i'm not speaking for anyone at all #nor is this targeting anyone specific other than blank/ageless blogs who don't reblog and or try to make ppl feel guilty for asking for some #green arrows #like ppl forget tumblr accs are literal BLOGS not profiles or pages. you are EXPECTED to reblog things lmfao #edit: some good extra thoughts in the replies

[vazaez]

that’s not very cis of you

BYE🛌

It's complicated alright 😭💀

#a lil personal story about this now that the topic came up: #some time ago i started questioning my gender identity but i didnt like the spanish they/them pronouns on myself #they just didnt sit right lol #so i tried using gender neutral language (ig yall know spanish is one of the many languages that is VERY gendered #even fcking objects have their own 'gender' lmao) so yea if it pas possible i phrased what i said abt myself in a pronounless way #but when it was not possible to do that id use male pronouns to try how i felt with them. the thing is that every fucking time i did that #some dude in a gc i was in said 'dO u hAvE a D¡cK????' and it made me really uncomfy as if i needed it to be able to use those pronouns 🧍 #LITERALLY EVERY TIME so eventually i gave up because i thought what's the point of finding my identity if it wont be respected anyways? #so yea im resigned to be seen as the same I was born with the same i've always been and the same everyone knows me #dont get me wrong i dont always hate being a girl but sometimes it makes me curious how would it be if i wasnt #and i dont mind what pronouns ppl use with me most of the time as long as it's not with a bad intention #I've wondered if maybe i'm a she/they? idk i just gave up thinking about it #at least for now. i have my whole ass life to find out what or who i am so i don't feel there's a need to rush tbh #woah this rant got rlly long sorry lol idk if anyone will read this far 🏃 #btw it's not only about that guy but he made me constantly remember that most people at least here in latam are very closed minded #just like him so if i ended up finding an identity i was happy with it wouldnt be respected by most people irl anyways #i'm not in that gc anymore tho #i hope i was able to like explain well what i mean? i don't wanna seem like i gave up that easily just because some dude was being a jerk #it's just that i'm kind of an overthinker

[asteralien]

things I’m looking forward to with my new exercise regimen: strengthened airways/heart, powerful thighs

things i am not looking forward to with my new exercise regimen: stretched-out kneecaps that are primed and ready to subluxate at any given fuckin moment

#you know how dean has the most bow legged legs of any man ever? mine are the opposite #jackles: ( ) normal legs: | | me: )( #feeling my kneecaps loosen is the worst feeling of all time like………. genuine actual fear sometimes lmao #i was curious about hypermobility and how subluxation connects and apparently some people are just like #‘oh? something happened?’ when a joint subluxates #i cannot FATHOM. the worst pain of my entire life #why can’t i work out my lower body without moving my knees………. #mythtakes #anyway if you hate the sweat and heat and painful breathing of usual exercise #try ‘slow exercise’ esp for ppl with pcos (hi) #does it work?? idk! it’s my second day but I’m real good and sore so it must be doing something

[ieropski]

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#whole foods barista recognized gerard on my shirt #and talked abt how he was obsessed with three cheers in 5/6th grade #but when tbp came out he was like 'this is not it' #and asked if i went to the show and if i listened to foundations #and noted that foundations is hard for mcr #so now im like curious what the typical existing fan's feelings towards tbp were when it came out #(as a new fan) #and also how ppl reacted to foundations cuz it is a slight departure in sound right #i guess im even curious about the transition from bullets to revenge. i guess that was a much smaller fanbase tho #i think i know a lot of ppl didn't like dd? #if we're going by numbers #also the thought of ppl listening to mcr as grade schoolers makes me 🥺 a little #'who's that on your shirt' 'gerard way' 'that's what i thought ... interesting'

[10moonymhrivertam]

simultaneously like having a Danny!Q daydream verse and knowing the logistics would trip me up if I tried to put it to paper

#also it would get awkward because I’m not sure I could rewatch London spy #super enjoyed it but like. too sad to put myself through it when I know what’s coming? #also q and Danny having wildly different skill sets #altho conceivably Danny could acquire the skills in Alex’s honor #anyway in my daydream M hired him as a sort of ‘Jesus Christ will you stop getting up in our business’ ploy #probably with an ultimatum that it’s that or Disappear #and he goes fuck it and takes the job #my brain has him rooming with Francis as a mutual protection thing so he is EXTREMELY cagey about his job #however he buries all his records and deletes any files he can get away with relating to himself and Alex #he’s sure M’s got back-ups but it makes him feel better #then skyfall and he’s promoted and Mallory takes over and he’s so sure he’s about to get burned #surprise m did not keep back-ups partially for exactly this reason #eventually Mallory gets curious about the dead ends in the Danny-Alex files and sends a bored Bond out to track down current statuses #this is how bond finds out q’s been sleeping on his sofa with a gun since his promotion #q’s not immediately suspicious tho since he knows bond does this to other ppl too #and bond is wise enough/isn’t sure he has the right conclusion so he doesn’t tell q or Mallory he’s figured it out #idk where it goes from there really but yeah

[britneyshakespeare]

if i were not aroace i would either marry a scientist or an artist

#or a linguist but y'all know i have my thing for linguists #i've gone off before #simon roper and all that #tales from diana #i use this term--almost exclusively in my head--a lot: 'aroace crush' #i know some ppl use the word squish for platonic crushes well that's not what that is #and to some extent im sure it's something non-aspecs relate to but whatever this isn't abt them it's about ME #and my non-serious-crush-having ways #you ever just get fascinated by hearing ppl talk? the way they light up? especially when they're knowledgeable and have a lot to share? #the way they can kind of like just. rearrange your way of thinking. #understanding is illuminating. you know. i love it when i have someone turn on a light for me #that's how i feel about scientists. and artists. and linguists. #i'm just a stupid poet #no i'm kidding. i'm actually very smart and knowledgeable and curious and read widely about various academic disciplines. #haha made u think #:P

[queerical]

i dont know why, but i don't like reading fiction stories about writers. there's just something,, immersion-breaking about it to me? like, reading a story about a writer just makes me hyper-aware that I Am Reading Something That Was Written

you know like how if there's some line like "things don't work out in real life like they do in books" and it just jolts you out of the story flow and reminds you that you are, in fact, reading a book. that's how it is for me if a character is a writer or the setting is smth like a writing group

not to say i never read stories involving writing, but if i'm looking into a book and it features writing as a major point, it's enough to dampen my interest by a lot if not put me off entirely

i have plenty of dealbreakers when it comes to selecting books, but i definitely find this to be oddest one, esp considering i'm a writer myself. shouldn't i enjoy reading books about writers? apparently not lmao

#who knows #it's just too meta for me i guess #personal #curious tho about how other ppl feel about this esp other writers #do you like stories that involve writing as a plot point or character trait or nah?

[poppyseed799]

My favorite pastime: roleplaying characters and just making them soso weird and then pulling up the DSM-5 to try to diagnose them

#every time it’s like ‘did I invent a fake mental disorder or are these symptoms applicable to something’ #unironically it’s been pretty helpful over the years in making me more aware of all the different kinds of mental illness and such out there #oftentimes I’ll see someone say they have a disorder and I’ll think ‘I remember researching that for my OC’ lol #HONESTLY roleplaying characters with certain issues has been SO helpful in keeping me open minded #and reassuring me that I’m not a horrible person once I started to have more issues like intrusive thoughts #when my intrusive thoughts started to get bad I remembered ‘my oc has those and nobody blames him for it’ then suddenly I was better LOL #it’s so stupid I feel like ppl will say ‘that is NOT how you should be learning about this stuff’ but like idk it’s kinda been working #it’s like how representation is important except I’m making the representation myself…? so… idk. but it inspires me to do research. #anyways I’m currently stumped on one of my characters and how to diagnose him. I’m beginning to think he perhaps experiences delusions. #but I’ll have to do more research. #I haven’t even begun my research so I’m sorry if I’m totally wrong. #also I’m aware many sources might be biased against certain illnesses and such. I already faced that problem searching NPD 😭 I always take #the things I see in top results with a grain of salt. I know people will say ‘talk to ppl who have these disorders!’ but like. how do I tell #them I want to try to diagnose a fictional character that I play. I mean I guess I’m curious anyways? good to know about all this stuff even #without it being applicable to anything personal. but like. can u rlly just say ‘explain ur mental disorder to me’ 😭